Grouse Wings Fans

October, 2005: I had a most remarkable beginning to last week. On the 3rd , this past Monday, I saw a total of four Hawks, plus a Butterfly that was literally floating along..no wing beats..for at least 50 feet Since my Shaman Name is Four Hawks, I found that quite an honor in its own right. But it turns out that was just an announcer message.

The next day, as I was driving my route, I saw a large mass on the side of the road, right next to where I was driving. It looked like a large, dead Bird, so I stopped and backed up to it. Sure enough, it was a dead Ruffed Grouse! I couldn’t believe my eyes. I wondered if I was supposed to take it or not, and decided not to, instead just taking some gorgeous Tail Feathers to use in Ceremonies. I prayed over the Bird as I did so, to help release its Spirit. The rest of the day, though, I kept thinking I should have taken the whole bird. I have never picked up a dead animal or bird before, but it had been 5 years and perhaps it was finally time. I kept thinking I had missed a chance to receive a great gift from the Spirits..after all, the Bird was literally right in my Path. When would this ever happen again?! So, after work, I went back to see if it was still there, and it was. So I put it in a plastic bag and came home. For the first time in my life, I cut off both Wings and have stored them in salt for the next 6 weeks to dry and decontaminate them. After that, they will be superb and powerful Smudge and Aura Cleaning Tools. I was so awestruck by this tremendous gift! I then placed the rest of the Bird out by my Altar and Smudged it with Sage, leaving it for the Animals to take.

The next day, I again saw 4 Hawks and the soaring Butterfly. This time, two of the Hawks were a Mother (or Father) and child. And that next morning, the Body of the Bird had been taken. But during prayers that morning, I felt the Spirit of that Grouse move into me as a new Helper and Guide!

This was a first for me. To receive a full Grouse Body, freshly killed (it was very loose still when I picked it up), in order to have my first set of Raptor Wings as Shaman Tools, placed right in my Path..what a wonderful and humbling event.

December, 2005 While putting up my Christmas lights in the front yard, I happened to look up and saw a huge Hawk fly right by me into a Tree next to my House. It sat there a few Seconds, then took off for the back. On a Hunch, I went out back slowly, and sure enough, there she was..sitting in a Tree. She sat there with me for at least 5 Minutes, not more than 20 feet away. She hopped from Branch to Branch, and looked around, at me at Times. This is the longest and closest Visit I have had with Hawk. My Epiphany Visit (10/19/01) lasted only about 10 Seconds. When she finally took off to the West (Spirit Direction for me), I realized she was calling on me to release the Wings from the Salt Cleansing Period. I did. Grouse is a wonderful Totem and Wing Fan for a Shaman to have. Grouse is both the Drummer and the Dancer..what could be better? A few nights later, Grouse came to me as a female Spirit in a Dream and merged with me. I’m very honored. In a subsequent Journey, I found out her name: Sendinal. Almost like Sending All, or Sentinel. She will be a tremendous Companion for me now, and her Wing Fans are simply gorgeous..and powerful!

Journey 202 - A Woman Seeking Shamanism

11/18/05: A Journey undertaken with a woman’s permission to check her Spirit Health. She and I have been trading Notes and Wisdom on Shamanism via e-mail for about two weeks now, and she feels called to the Tradition. So with great Humility and Honor, I undertook this Journey. I lit the Sacred Candle, Smudged the Room, myself and my Tools with Sage and Sweet Grass, then opened Sacred Space with my Amazonian Shaman Rattle. I then set up my Kate Whitaker Drum CD for a 10-minute Journey. I breathed myself to Calmness and concentrated on my Task: to ask about this Woman's Spirit Health!

“As I slipped into the Spirit World, I found myself standing at the Entrance to a long Trellis chock full of ripe, Concord Grapes. I moved in and enjoyed the Aroma and Colors. I soon reached an opening on my Right, a Section that ran off into a new Wing. But within this wing were many glowing, golden Orbs, suspended in the Trellis among the Grapes. At the Entrance to this wing I found both my Lower World Guide, Crosses in Front (Snake) and my Upper World Guide, Eagle Claw (Owl). They accompanied me as I walked into this Area. I found my Shaman Mirror lying on the Ground, a Circle of blue Light and low-lying Haze. I then saw the woman standing in the Center of the Mirror. She looked to be about 5’8” or 9”, with medium-length, brown, layered hair. I can’t be sure if this is how she looks now or looked at one time in her Life, as in a Journey all time and Space can and do overlap. I moved in closer and checked her Aura. It looked very healthy and colorful, with all three Soul Pieces in place, bright, and moving correctly within the Chakra System. However, as I moved closer in around the front, I found an area of spiritual Pollution. It was in and near her Heart Chakra. Many blackened Birds were flying in and out of this Chakra. I caught a few in my Hand and cleaned then off. The first was a Chickadee, the second a Bluebird, and the third a Blue Jay. I was curious as to what was causing this blackening Pollution, so I drifted into it and read its Energy. As I did so, I found myself in a House that had been similarly blackened, almost as if covered in Soot. I saw the occasional Hell-like angry Face popping up out of the Floor. This suggested to me that the woman may have had an overweening Fear of Hell and Damnation forced into her as a Child, or perhaps she viewed her early Life as a Hell of sorts. I then left the Pollution Zone, Trish and went out to the Wing Entrance. There I found the Spirit of Hummingbird. This Spirit told me that once we clean or she cleans up the Heart Chakra she will be very easily centered Spiritually, and Hummingbird will be a very close and effective Power Animal for her. I then turned and left the Trellis area and came to a large field bounded by a thick stock of Trees in the Distance. There were tall Grasses between me and the Trees. As I looked left, I saw an old-fashioned Clothesline near a House, with Clothes swinging in the Winds. I saw a large, old Barn with a bent TV Antenna attached to a Chimney. The entrance to the Barn was large and there was a dirt Entrance. I saw a rusted old Station Wagon. There were a couple of Cows in the Barn, and there were some Chickens and a Rooster pecking around. At this point, the Call Back sounded and I returned to the Room.“

NOTES: I think this last bit may be a look into the woman’s Past, whether or not it is in this Life or a recent prior one.

I think the Woman will be able to easily remove the Pollution I saw through recognition of its presence and perhaps a few Smudgings with Sage. She has a very strong connection to Bird Totems, as they continue to bring their Medicines to her Heart Chakra even though they are picking up some of the Pollution. In face, part of their Presence may be designed to cleanse the Chakra.

Now for a look at the specific Characteristics of the key Totems:

Concord Grapes: While I have nothing “official” on Grapes, I know these Grapes in particular are very high in anti-oxidants. So one can translate this physical benefit to the Spirit World as well, and see them as a way to cleanse the pollution from your Heart Chakra. I would add Concord Grape Juice and Jelly to your Diet and think of these Products as cleansing your Heart Chakra whenever you eat them. You’ll know when your Chakra is clean by the enormous amount of warmth and love you feel.

This comes from Ted Andrews’ Animal Speak. Your Power Animal is a Spirit Being who brings you characteristics of that Bird that might fill in weak areas or strengthen already good areas in you make-up. “Hummingbird as Power Animal. KEYNOTES: “Tireless Joy and the Nectar of Life” CYCLE OF POWER: Daytime. More: Humming creates an internal massage, restoring health and balance. Hummingbird reminds us to find joy in what we do and to sing it out. There are over 300 species of hummingbirds worldwide. In the Hebrew alphabet the letter “shin” is given the value of 300. This has associations with fire and relationships, the past and the future. This is even reflected in the wing movement of the hummingbirds, which can use a figure-8 pattern to hover. The figure-8 is a symbol of infinity and links the past and future and the laws of cause and effect. Hummingbirds’ long bills and tongues enable them to extract nectar from flowers, pollinating them in the process. Again this reflects the mysteries of cause and effect and teach you to extract your own Nectar from Life. Hummingbirds have knowledge of the Healing properties of flowers, teaching you how to draw life essence and medicines from Flowers as well. They also teach how to use flowers to heal and win hearts with love. Because it flies everywhere, it teaches us to truly enjoy what we are doing and become as light as a feather in the process. Hummingbirds can reach high speeds and stop instantly, are brave enough to chase off Eagles, and can even fly backwards. This allows you to take nectar from your own past, and find sweetness and joy in any situation.

Pueblo Indians were fascinated with Hummingbird’s rainbow colors, and used its Medicine in Rain and Endurance Rituals. Hummingbirds are big eaters and consume mainly the sugars of flowers. This means you should watch your own sugar levels in diet, but also ensure you are getting enough sweetness out of life itself. Hummingbirds like to play in water. They are fiercely independent and except when mating like to be alone, reveling in their freedom. Mother Hummingbirds are hard workers. They receive no help from their Male Mate. She will usually lay two eggs. Two is the number of the inner self, the feminine to which we must give birth and expression to find out own joy.

Hummingbirds are master architects. You may wish to redecorate your own home. It may be telling you to do something to create more joy in your home. Hummingbirds hibernate at night and ruffle themselves up to preserve heat. Likewise, you must get enough rest and not burn out. Finally, Hummingbirds migrate 2500 miles, This amazing fat for a creature that has to eat constantly teaches you that you can accomplish the impossible as well, an create miracles in your own life.”

Your Totem Birds’ Characteristics:

Chickadee: Cheerful and Truthful Expression. Those with this Totem will learn to express the Truth on a manner that heals, balances and open perceptions. Truth is shared ion a manner that adds cheer and joy to your own life and those of others.

Blue Bird: Modesty, Unassuming Confidence and Happiness. Take time to enjoy yourself. Their homes usually face the south, the direction for awakening the inner child. Look for opportunities to touch the joyful and intrinsically native aspects of yourself that you may have lost touch with.

Blue Jay: The Proper Use of Power: Use your power properly and do not allow yourself to have power used against you improperly. Blue Jays are members of the Crow family, and have no fear..this can help you connect with the deepest mysteries of both Earth and the Heavens. They are very majestic and royal. They are also excellent mimics. Jay indicates you are moving into a time where you can begin to develop your innate royalty, or simply be a pretender to the throne. It all depends on you.


Her responses:

11/19: Thank you for the journey! I have to say "AMAZING "! I couldn't think of a connection to Concord Grapes! After reading your journey, I can recall my first home from birth to age 4 or 5 yrs , indeed had a long trellis structure, like a long tunnel surrounded with and enveloped by grape vines! It was like a tunnel of grapes ! I forgot how much I used to like going in there! I am not sure what kind of grapes they were, but I remember eating them. They had allot of big seeds in them! LOL I still drive by the old homestead on occasion as I have relatives within a block of the old house! I will have to see if that trellis is still there! Very Cool! I am now about 5' 6" tall and have light brown hair. I was a blonde, until about 26 ish. Definitely very abusive situation throughout my childhood. The later description is of my current location. I bought my second childhood home from my Mother! There are 2 large barns right by my home. I used to explore them all the time! I have a large field surrounding my home on 2 sides(at least 10 acres) Trimmed by a wooded line of trees! Back yard used to have the clothes line you spoke of! The farm had chickens and a rooster which I loved to feed! I will write more later..I have a surprise party to attend tonight and have to go get ready. Please know how grateful I am, for all your help and guidance thus far! Gratefully yours.

11/21: I must say, I am still feeling conflicted about the whole Hell and damnation issues. I know logically it's silly, but I am afraid, that I will get God angry, for trying a "different" way. Afraid of doing something wrong to incur God's wrath! I know this is from childhood feelings.

11/22: I meant to tell you, that barn from the journey did have a few cows as well as old rusted vehicles in and across the street from it. Also what do you think the golden orbs hanging in the grapevines symbolize? MY ANSWER: I have seen those before, often. They are Mana, that is, pure Spirit Energy. This means you have lots of energy available to help in strengthening your Aura. You can imagine yourself picking these orbs and eating them like oranges to increase your strength. They are there for the pickin’! As I think I mentioned, when the Heart Chakra is polluted, it can mean love is weakened in either relationships externa..or internal. That is, you have to love yourself as a manifestation of the Great Spirit, as well as others. J Thanks for filling in the other items, too. It really was a powerful reach-out to you..I’m very glad for you. It bodes well for your future growth as a Shaman Path Seeker.

Journey 201 - A Friend's Back Problem

9/19/05: A Journey taken at a friend’s request to investigate a Pain in her Back for which she is seeking medical Help. As I entered the Sacred Spirit Realm, I found my Upper World Guide Eagle Claw there, with his Human Face but the body of Owl. He was soaring around very quickly, causing a vortex of Feathers and Rainbow-colored Mana. I looked way up to the top of this Vortex and could see my friend there. Owl scooped me up and lifted me, in my mini-form as Four Hawks, to and through the top of the Vortex. There I was meeting with my friend. I first presented myself to her as four separate Hawks all flying around in an ever-tightening Formation, then merging into an Amalgam. We walked toward a Forest. From the Forest came both Water and Forest Spirit Beings, in the form of a light Mist. They swirled around and through my friend. Their presence allowed me to see a thin red Shaft of Light sticking out of her Back. I went in through this Shaft to investigate the cause of her Pain. I saw one of her Discs was slightly out of place and slightly abraded..as if something had been rubbing against its surface. I then created a Y-shaped Stick. I swirled my Hand around this Stick to charge it with Healing Energy. I began trying to push the Disc back into place, but it kept resisting. I was getting nervous about doing more Harm than Good to my Friend. At this Point, I felt myself becoming the Hollow Bone. Through me then passed one of her own Shaman Helper Spirits. He put the Disc back into place. He then handed me the Y-shaped Stick on the way back out. He congratulated me for trying to heal her and for being wise enough to allow him to finish the Job. He then said she should drink healing Teas, rest for a Week or so, and apply alternating hot and cold compresses to that area of her Back (just below the mid point, right side of the Spine). She should avoid heavy lifting for a while. I thanked the Shaman Helper, my Helpers and then returned. I then slid through the Walls of my Room and retuned to my Body.

Here is the reply I got a few nights later:

"Thank you so much for writing the journey up.
It means a lot to me.
I kept my back warm, but not cold ( don't like cold)
I do like the forest very much, but the sea is special for me, it gives me such good energy !
It's too bad it's a long way drive from were we live to reach the sea.
And yes, I was drinking more Native herbal tea at the moment !
My back hurts a little, but much less than in the beginning, and the pain on my leg and foot has gone !!
I am verry happy, and I want to thank you and all yours and mine Spirit helpers and Animals for their help."

A new Epiphany (8th Chakra Viewing)

9/10/05: I visited with a person who has taken a turn for the worse in her dance with cancer and is within a month or so of passing unless a Ritual I did for her takes hold. A Journey I have taken since that Ritual has shown that her Ancestors decided to overrule my Work, certainly their right, and that is why she began to sink within a few days of my Journey for her.

When I first got to the person’s apartment this evening, I went up to her as she lay in her hospital bed, moaning from a constant pain in her side, and kissed her gently on the forehead. As I did so, I softly blew a stream of Soothing Mana into her Crown Chakra, a tried and true technique Shamans use. Then, as we were standing by her side, I opened up Sacred Space over her as well.

As time passed and we all talked, she got obviously better, even starting to joke. At one point, she even told me as I was moving a small table for her that she had started feeling better since we had been there. I told her simply that that was the reason we had come, but inside I was hoping my Mana-insertion, Sacred Space opening and the flow-through Healing of my Shamanic presence was at work.

At one point, she asked her sister, who was there with us, if there was someone standing behind her. Her sister of course said no. I looked with my Chakra-vision and saw the shape of a person, head and shoulders, right behind the ill one. I got my partner's attention and whispered, “actually, it’s YES.” Janet smiled knowingly.

But the real amazement was yet to come. Shortly after this visit, I performed a mini-Journey into my Spiritual Hollow Bone Tool. I saw the Woman's Mother and Father standing at her side as she lay there, and beside them was a small Girl, perhaps 2 or 3. I sensed but did not see Grandparents further out but also watching over her. I then tried to use my Third Eye Chakra Vision to detect more of what was going on around the Woman, but nothing came through. It was when I opened my Eyes that I was to be shortly astonished.

Within seconds, as I stared with my Aura-detection technique at the area immediately over her head, I saw a blue-white half-saucer of Light form there. It was so bright. I had never seen anything like it. This layer of Light was moving, too, sort of swirling in place. I was seeing her Eighth Chakra, the one above the Crown Chakra, wherein resides your Eternal Presence as a Spirit Being. I had read about this in certain books, but this was my very first viewing. I was amazed! But the best was yet to come. Suddenly, overlapping the plasma, I saw a vertical triangle (an “A” shape) form composed of three small orbs of white Light, like tiny Suns. They hung there for a seconds. Suddenly, they had inverted and there was a “V”, with a fourth orb off to the left. Then, another inversion returned the “A”. At the time, I was totally non-plussed as to what these were. But later as I though more about it, I realized I was seeing the actually Soul Energy of the Parents and the Little Girl! I have seen my own little Soul Orbs rushing by in my peripheral vision for the past 4 years, and this is what led me to realize what these other orbs were. They had graced me with my first viewing of out-of-body Soul Beings..perhaps in payment for all the Work I have been doing on the Woman's behalf. What a humbling and tremendous Gift. I am still so amazed!

A final note: The Woman has been seeing a sick little Girl ling on the couch next to her hospital bed recently. I was told in my Journey concerning her downturn that the little Girl is the same one I saw in my mini-Journey..except she is not sick. The Woman is projecting her own illness onto this little Girl..

What an amazing and humbling adventure being a Shaman truly is..

My Son's Friend's Power Animal

8/23/05: A Journey to ascertain a friend of my Son's Power Animal. As I headed into the Spirit World, I found myself very quickly wading out from a Beach into shallow Caribbean Waters. There was an Island a short Distance from the Shore and my Lower World Guide, Crosses in Front, and I headed over to it. When we got there we found it covered in Blue Herons, all resting. As we moved up from the Waterline, we approached a golden Boulder, near which sat a Chipmunk. The Chipmunk came over to us and handed me a few Sunflower Seeds from its Mouth Pouch. We then saw the Tunnel to the Lower world in the Sand at the Base of the Boulder. We entered, and went through moist Sand. Soon we were in the Lower World, well to the right off where we usually arrive. As we settled in, a Dragonfly with yellow and gold Colors, who also had a lighting Tail like a Firefly, came and hovered a short Time in front of us. It flew off. We then moved over a short bit and came to rest upon a purple Stone whose Fragrance was of Lilacs. We then waited. Shortly, a large Elephant came over from the left, with a Tiger walking beside. They appeared to be friendly with one another. Just as suddenly, a baby Kangaroo bounced in from the right and landed right in front of us. He seemed quite content to wait there, and I began to get the impression this was Adam’s PA. The Elephant then picked up the Roo with its Trunk and held it over its Mouth as if it was going to eat the baby. A big Smile crossed both the Elephant’s and Tiger’s Faces. The Elephant then put the Kangaroo back down. The Elephant and Tiger then left. We then watched as the baby Kangaroo began bounding all over the Place. It jumped to a great Height and came back down to us with an Apple. The Dragon/Firefly then returned and landed a brief Moment on the Kangaroo’s Head. The Roo then began bouncing across the Lake before us, never once sinking into the Water. We then collected the Roo and came back up the Tunnel, crossed the Lagoon back onto the original Beach. From there, I thanked my Guide and returned to the Room.

Kangaroo is the Power Animal for the Friend. See the attached write-up for the Spirit Energies supplied by the Helper who comes as Kangaroo. The basic Medicine of Kangaroo is: Time to move forward and not back. Kangaroo Medicine asks the following questions: Are we not moving forward? Do we need to go ahead, even if it seems premature? Are we refusing to disconnect from the things of childhood? Are we heeding previous experiences? Are we trying to go in reverse when forward is the only way to go? Are we nursing what we have given birth to? Do we need to balance our creative activities? Are we staying grounded? Are we giving up too easily?

Explanation: Power Animals are really Spirit Beings who come to enhance existent or totally supply the qualities of the Animal form they pick to the human they are assigned to.

Other Notes: There were many Totem Plants/Animals in this Journey as well. Here are some key indicators they supply:

Heron speaks to aggressive self-reliance and self-determination. The fact there were so many Herons on the Island means Adam has these qualities in spades. However, they were all at rest, so Adam needs to crank these up to a higher energy level.

The gold Boulder speaks of Wealth/Security as a main goal for Adam. However, these wishes need to remain grounded in reality.

Sunflower Seeds must be important to Adam’s Diet. He should look into eating them on a regular basis. Also, Sunflower Medicine speaks to times of happiness and well-being, as well as strong healing energy.

Chipmunk Medicine speaks to valuing the treasures of the Earth, storing carefully those things you value, and of balancing work and play.

Firefly speaks to Spiritual awakening and Hope. Spiritual gifts are awakening, flickering within. Positive hope is a critical component to fulfillment and accomplishment. Firefly also warns to be sure that those around us are not mimicking what is true rather than what we hope to hear. Are we focusing on the wrong path or working with the wrong people? We may be letting others’ negative opinions crush our creativity. Dragonfly speaks of the power of light. Life is never quite as it appears, but is always filled with more light and color. Dragonfly helps you see through your illusions and allow your own light to shine forth. It brings the brightness of transformation and the wonder of colorful new vision.

Lilac speaks to the balance of Spirit and Intellect. It announces that contact with Spirit is imminent. The fact we smelled Lilac just before Roo showed up strengthen the fact Roo is the Power Animal for Adam. Adam should attach himself fondly to Lilacs in order to keep that feeling of spirit arrival fresh and alive.

The sort of contrary elements presented by Elephant and Tiger add up as follows. Adam must have a bit of a contrary relationship with royalty, ancestry and/or societal norms (part of Elephant Medicine). These forces tend to try to tie him up. Tiger speaks to Passion, Power, Devotion and Sensuality. The fact this Medicine also showed up in the contrary means Adam may be suppressing these wonderful qualities in his own Life. He should turn them loose and let them run across the steppes of his life.

Finally, Yellow speaks to Mental Activity, Intellectual Power and Awakening, qualities already brought out in parts of he above discussions. Gold peaks to strengthening and amplifying..again brought out earlier.

9/3: Adam drew me a fantastic pencil sketch of the Lower World Animal Visits, as a thank you. Here is a young Man who used his Talents to honor my Work for him. I am completely honored in return, although the Honor belongs to my Helpers. The Sketch will hang in my Shaman's Altar room from here on out.

Saving a Mother from a Fated Death

8/2/05: This is an amazing Moment. I got home very early from Work, as I had decided not to put up any “tomorrow” Mail and instead leave immediately. Within 2 minutes of my getting Home, a girl Friend of my Son's drove up. I told her my son wasn’t home, but she said she had come to talk to me, not him. I invited her in, and she told me of a remarkable Dream she had had a few Nights ago. This was a very clear and lucid Dream, and she recalled it in very great detail. She even said she woke up a few times and had gone right back into it. This reminded me very much of my own Shamanic Dream, and I knew it was indeed a very important and powerful Message. In her Dream, She had received a Call from a Woman whose name began with a “J” (I immediately thought of her Aunt, the deceased twin Sister), saying the Girl’s Mother had died in a Car Crash. The rest of this very long Dream involved the Girl racing to a Hospital and asking many People, on many Floors, where her Mother was. Some said she was “upstairs somewhere”, but no-one could or would tell her exactly where. She even checked out a Body Bag. The end of the Dream showed her in the Car hugging her Mom from behind her Seat, and then watching as her Mom and her Car went unsteadily down the road. The whole Time I was listening to the Girl, I was thinking to myself, “Man, this is real. Her Mom really is going to die.” I was very concerned, and was determined to act immediately, even though I had had no Plans to do anything Shamanically after a very rough Morning. I told the Girl to come back in about a half Hour, and since my Son had just come home, she went off with him. I went downstairs and prepared as always. I then took out my Pendulum and as always held it well above the Sacred Flame, the Singularity where all Matter and Energy meet, and all in knowable. I asked, is the Mom really going to die? Answer: Yes. I shook my Head in great Concern. I then asked, can I intervene to prevent it. It seemed like a long Time, but within 10 seconds the answer came: Yes. “All RIGHT!” I said to myself, and was very soon thereafter off into the Journey to erase this Future.

As the Journey began, My Upper World Guide, Owl, was sitting in a Tree. It was quite Dark, and it was raining..but raining Blood. Owl was dripping wet with it, and soon so was I. As we looked above us, we saw a Tunnel of Lightning forming..the Tunnel to the Upper World. We both zoomed up the Tunnel together, and as we did so, I caught a fleeting Image of the Mom lying dead on the Ground, having been ejected from her Vehicle. We then reached the Upper World. I was in a small Room, a bit like a small offshoot Area in a Museum. On the Floor was a Fork of Light, with several Prongs. The right-most one had a big Red Dot cutting it short. I knew this was a Representation of the possible Futures for the Mom, and that the one with the Red Dot was the one where she would be killed. The straight line of the Fork was her Life until now. I went to the Prong with the Red Dot and checked it out. The date was Oct 19, 2006. It was a wet Evening, with lots of wet Leaves on the road. The Mom had lost control on them and was ejected, having not been wearing her Seatbelt. I then worked to try to change this, and within Seconds a Group of Little People came from the Woods and swept the Leaves away and dried the Roadway. They then consecrated the Area with Serjiim, a combination of Salt, Sand and Rice used by Shamans to protect People. The Area was sparkling with Rainbow Specks when all was done. The Accident had been erased from Future Time. The Scene then shifted. I was in a Kitchen, I think at the Mom’s House but maybe not. We were trying to move a large and very-well finished Table. The Table had feet sticking out looking somewhat like a Fox’s(?). I then saw a Scene in perhaps an upper Room where a Man was holding a Gun very near the Mom’s Back. The Gun was firing, and grazing her Skin so slightly that it merely made a slight, temporary Indent. Owl and I then returned through the Tunnel after verifying the Prong with the Red Dot was gone. As we went down the Tunnel, the Lightning was gone..there was only Smoke now. We landed in a beautiful, sunlit Meadow, lush with Flowers. All signs of Blood were gone, save for a distant black Cloud on the Horizon, moving away, from which the Blood was falling. I thanked Owl and was back.

I then took out my Pendulum and asked if the Death had indeed been erased from Time. I got a yes. Yeehah!

I then made up a mix of Serjiim for the Girl to give to her Mother. The Mom should sprinkle some around her Car, and keep the rest safely hidden away until Oct 2006 passes. I also asked the Girl if there were Guns in her House. She said yes, so I told her that her Mom should not be anywhere near when the Guns are being cleaned. Her Dad should also check each one to make sure there in not an unexploded Shell still in the chamber.

As I was finishing up, I began thinking. Why did the deceased Sister alert my Son's Friend so far in advance? It made no sense to use her now, unless..unless.. And I thought back to a journey I did for the Girl’s Grandmother last week, in a which a Woman with Stringy dark Hair was lying in a Coffin with a Death Date of September of this Year. Omigod, I thought. Was that the Girl? Is this why the deceased Aunt alerted me through her so soon, so I would be focusing on Death and the Girl at the same Time? So I took my Pendulum and again asked. At first I asked if anyone is the Girl’s immediate Family was the one in the Coffin. I got a No. I then asked the key Question..is it the Girl? I got a Yes. Filled with Dread, I then asked if I could intervene in this Matter. Talk about Eternities. But after 10 seconds or so, I got my Answer. YES! What a Relief! If it had been No, I would have been unable to do anything or tell anyone. I would have had to live with the impending Disaster. Shamans are not allowed to violate another’s Sacred Path. Perhaps the Girl might have asked me about it in the next Month so I COULD act..but who knows. But as it was, I was now in position to work with the Spirits to save a second Life in less than an Hour! The results are in the next Journey write-up, not posted here..but I was able to erase a scene to occur in September of this year where the Girl was killed in a Lightning Strike.

This is the message I got afterwards from the Mom:

“Hi, Wow!!! My Daughter told me everything you had told her!
She told me of her dream yesterday, and it was so odd that she remembered everything, she had no laps in memory. I remember feeling so sad for some reason, when she was telling me all this, I was trying not to let her see how upsetting it was for me, but ya, know deep down, I knew this was to actually happen to me!
Then when she told me about her, in the shower during a lighting storm, how frightening, I’ve always told them to never take a shower or bath during a thunder storm!!
When you had told me the info about a person in a coffin with the dark hair, I first thought of my Daughter!! That was another feeling I had deep down inside, and I had that same terribly sad feeling it was her.
I’m so happy that she happened to come by, and she told you of all this, she didn’t tell me she was going to speak to you. Thank you for the baggy with the rice, etc. I will do as you said; I can’t say Thank You enough for your insight and all the help and guidance. I will email you again on this. God Bless You!"

A day or two later came this reply as well: "How disturbing all of this has been and how joyous the ending! My Daughter and I are forever grateful for your gift!
I have to tell you, I was so terribly sad to hear of all this, and so glad that my Daughter had brought her (dream) Journey, to your attention, with all this info we were so happy to hear how you and your helpers have saved us from these tragic events. I sprinkled the Serjiim on the 4 corners of my car, and have saved the rest as requested, no one was home when I did it and I didn’t see any neighbors out at that time.
How interesting about the gun in the house. My husband does have one, a muzzle loader gun that he wants to fire. He said you can’t just pull the trigger to fire it, apparently a muzzle loader rifle works a bit differently, I can’t say, I don’t know guns, we have many in the house, but ALL are empty and put away and with ammo in a different location, all except the Muzzle loader rifle. I will put that gun in a hiding place until he sets out to empty it, and to do that he has to fire it, so he’s been meaning to take it up to his brothers house and fire the remaining gun powder out! I’m gonna put the pressure on about that!
We were just talking about this last week!!
I will be on top of that issue for obvious safety reasons, many thanks for your impute.
After reading of your Journeys for my Daughter and I, I do feel a LOT better knowing you have done all you could. I don’t even know if there’s any way to Thank You for all you’ve done, We are forever Grateful to you and your helpers!!!
Gratefully Yours"

Journey 200 - Visit with a Deceased Mom

5/8/05: A Journey to visit with a Mother, who died within the past two years, on Mother’s Day, on her Daughter's request. As is always the case with visiting the Deceased, I asked permission first. I opened Sacred Space, with my Rattle, lit the Sacred Candle and Smudged prior to this request. As usual, I then held the Crystal Pendulum well above the Candle and asked if it was allowed for me to visit with the Mom. I got a yes. What this means is that my visit with one of the 3 Soul Parts will not interfere with that part’s Spiritual Destiny. I was denied a visit with someone’s deceased Brother recently for that same reason. Therefore I was quite pleased for the Daughter's sake to get that yes. So I placed the Drum Loop on and was off. I had no idea which World we would be going into, so I waited. I very soon found myself on top of a medium-sized Hill, sunny and covered with Flowers and Plants. The Sky was deep blue and had white puffy Clouds floating by. The Breeze was warm and intoxicating. It was the most splendid of Spring scenes, like the perfect spring Day. And then a Queen Bee came by and flew around me a few times. She then stopped right in front of me, as if waiting for me to follow. As I stood and walked toward her, she led me on. Off in the distance I saw a Woman sitting alone. I looked to my right and my Lower World Guide, Crosses in Front, was slithering along through the Grass with me. High above me, my Upper World Guide, Owl, was flying along. But within a few seconds, I came abruptly to a very high Cliff edge. We just kept right on walking through the Air, with no tendency to fall whatsoever. I looked down and well below was a River. It was colored in many bright Hues, and even the Sunlight reflected back in colors. I realized we were over the River that separates this Life from the Life our Earth Souls take on after Death. So we were staying in the Middle World. This meant we would be visiting with Mom’s Suld, or Earth, Soul. We got to the other side and I approached the Woman, young and lovely, sitting on a Log. She had a small collection of Pussy Willows in front of her, and as I looked around I noticed we were in a grove of them. I went up to her and looked at the ground as I spoke, in humble Averting of the Eyes. She told me not to avert, but rather look up at the Sky, and in particular, the Sun. I did so, and noticed the Moon as a black Orb just off-center of the Sun. I could see both at the same time. Today was the New Moon, and so I was witnessing a sight we don’t see on this side of the River..the New Moon as a shiny, black Circle superimposed on the Sun. As I stared at the Sacred Combo, a golden heart formed in a rope of Mana, looking like a Christmas garland, around the two orbs. I then looked back at Mom. She handed me a pair of wooden Knitting Needles, the color of Oak, with two black Caps on each of the non-point ends. These were obviously a Gift to her Daughter. She then began to speak. She told me she was very happy as a soon-to-be Nature Spirit. She told me that when she finishes up being her Earth Soul, her Spirit Energy will go happily and gratefully into the Blue Heron Clan. I then asked her if she knew of the events surrounding her Children. She said yes, and kept referring to them as the Troubles. She said she visits occasionally, and has seen what is going on. She said she was sad that most of the Children were so focused on material gain. She wished they could see the Truth that lies behind the Façade of what they call Reality. She told me she was proudest of this Daughter, for she is closest to knowing the Truth about what is really Important. She told me she is the most Spiritually connected of all her children. She said she has been feisty and admirable all her Life, and she has enjoyed watching her progress in that combination of strength and gentleness that so well defines the well-adjusted Human Woman. She then told me something remarkable. She said that the day she passed, she merged quickly and for a short time with her Daughter. She left within her the Key to the Spirit World. She said it is still there, and when she finds it and opens that Door, the same Beauty and warm Breezes that I experienced at the start of this Journey will pour through that opened Door and sweep all her worries and cares away..and she will have lasting Peace. I then saw her handling an Amulet or Locket that was shaped as a Heart, but for some reason came on very strongly to me as being associated with or even made/filled with Apple. She then told me that she will visit her Daughter on occasion as a Blue Heron. At one point she will leave a Feather for her. It will be mainly grayish with blue fringe. It will be unmistakable, and the Daughter will immediately recognize it as the gift from her Mom. She then leaned forward and showed me her Necklace. It was a very thin chain, of Silver, and had a small, square Onyx as its charm. She then asked if she could merge with me for a few seconds. I said it was fine. I found myself back in my bedroom, feeling the Mom breathing in and out deeply. She said she found it so wonderful to feel that Air rushing in and out of lungs again. She told me her Daughter must do likewise, and gain that tremendous feeling of the Honor involved in being in her Body still. She then left my Body and we were both back at her site. I felt it was time to take my leave and go back across the River. Just as I was turning to leave, the Call Back sounded..so I had to beat feet back. I went from the Hill back to my Yard, and then came back into the Bedroom. I lay on the floor to ground myself fully. I thanked the Helpers and the Mom for the wonderful experience.

Notes: The Bee is a reminder to extract the Honey of Life and to make our Lives fertile while the Sun shines. It reminds us that no matter how great the Dream there is the promise of fulfillment if we pursue it. The Elixir of Life is as sweet as Honey, and we can drink of it if we just pursue our Dreams.

5/9/05: While out and about today, a Queen Bee came and stopped right in front of me, exactly as in this Journey. Here was the Spiritual manifested into the physical. I knew the Mom had sent this Bee, or was this Bee. And, I smiled broadly as I said hello.

I never knew there was a River of Spirit Energy separating the Souls here from the Earth Souls “there.” It is obviously easily crossed, but the Great Spirit has seen fit to separate the two existences..more to keep the Living here than to prevent the Passed Ones from coming here, though.

Blue Heron symbolizes the Great Spirit, among other things. It also symbolizes Aggressive Self-Determination and Self-Reliance.

Journey 199 - Two Power Animals Retrieved

4/29/05: The first of two Journeys, the first for a Man. After my usual preparations,. I found myself standing in a grassy area at Night. The surface of the Earth seemed to be undulating around and ahead of me, as if Ribbons in the Wind. My Lower World Guide, Crosses in Front, arrived in the form of Snake, but wearing Mexican regalia. She then turned into her human Spirit form and continued dancing, as if to a Mexican beat. We began walking across/through the undulating Ground, and soon came to an opening. It had the look of an old mine entrance. Colored paper lights were strung across the top. We went in, realizing this was the Tunnel to the Lower World entrance. As we went further in, the Tunnel went from being a dirt mine shaft to a corrugated metal tunnel. We emerged and found ourselves in my usual Power-Animal-search area of the Lower World. But it was completely black, save for a large and well-lit semi-Rainbow off to our left and up the side of a mountain. It seemed to be sticking out of the side. There was a shower occurring to produce the Rainbow, but there were no Clouds. Moreover, there were no artificial Lights, either. The whole scene seemed to be lit from within, as if from its own Power. Suddenly, from beneath the brilliant Rainbow arc and through the curtain of light Rain came a Condor. It flew right over us and dropped some white excrement on us. We found this to be an honor of some sort. But it also convinced us to move up into the Rain and wash ourselves off. We did so. On the other side of the Rain curtain we saw a beautiful young Woman, sitting on a Rock protrusion. As we got near, she turned into a large Fish and jumped off into a Pond far below. She had been either a Bass or a Rainbow Trout. We then waited, for we had yet to see any Animal that was acting as a Power Animal for the Man. We saw a Goat above us, a Mountain Lion in the distance, but neither had any interest is us. Eagle and Owl, my two other main Guides, then flew in to where we were standing, to help increase our Windhorse. Then, in the Sky ahead of us, a scene appeared. A bunch of wild Horses were running along a hillside. One pulled out of the flow and came over to us. It was a Red Horse, with bright green eyes, and when it reared up, it revealed a yellow belly. It came right up to me and licked the palm of my hand. I knew we had found the Power Animal. The scene then shifted. I saw a young Girl sitting in a highchair in a kitchen. The young Girl turned into a young Boy. It was the Man when young. He got down and went to a lower cupboard and pulled out a bunch of pots and pans. He liked the shine and the weight. I then saw that he loved to watch shows and read books involving horses..Black Beauty, Lassie? I then saw several scenes involving a grown-up and fun-loving Man in which real horsepower is involved..racing cars, powerboats, etc. In another scene shift, I then saw a small white Dog running around a yard with its own leash in its mouth. We were trying to catch it but it kept dodging us. This was the end of the imagery flow. We then started tracing our way back from the Lower World. When we got back to the beginning, Crosses resumed her Mexican dancing and presumably went back to the party she had come from. The Call Back then sounded and I thanked my Guides and returned to the room.

Horse represents travel, power and freedom. It symbolizes movement, travel, sexual desires. It encourages you to ride into new directions to discover freedom and power. It asks: are you too constricted, or are those around you? The red color indicates stimulation, an awakening of the life force. Red is warming and activating. It stimulates deep passions..too much red can mean high blood pressure. See the attached readout for the full story on Horse Medicine.

Yellow implies intellectual activity, awakening and ability. It serves as a strong antidepressant. It awakens confidence, optimism and enthusiasm for life..but too much creates anxiety.

Green reflects calming, balancing, growth. It increases compassion. It soothes the nervous system. Green awakens friendliness, hope, faith and peace. I stimulates growth. It cancels out red’s effects. Never use green around cancerous growths, though.

The girl/boy transformation seems to imply that the Man is well-balanced in his male-female Energy regime. He would be equally comfortable with both sexes, and understands both perspectives.

Dog stands for loyalty and protection. The fact the Dog in the Journey is running around with its own leash in its mouth implies the Man may have let control of these two elements out of his control a bit. Loyalty given blindly, and protection from another, can be less than adequate, and a disloyalty to ones own Power.

Journey 2 was for a Woman. This one took of into a completely different direction, as is to be expected. I was very small, and standing in some snow. Snow was falling all around me, and as I looked up I could see each flake was individually colored. Snake then moved in from the distance ahead of me, and was very large, telling me I was very small. We looked off into a distant stock of Trees and saw a frosted yellow Sun hanging low just beyond the Trees. We headed for it, assuming it was the Tunnel entrance. I, being so small, hitched a rode on Crosses’s back. As we passed the Tree stand and approached the Sun, the Earth fell quickly away. I had the sense of flying and falling at the same time. We went into the Sun and passed through a frosted glass Tunnel, lit white-yellow light. When we emerged, we were back in the Lower World. But we were standing adjacent to a Tropical Beach! Up in a nearby Tree sat a Parrot or Cockatoo. While it was full of color, I remember Red, Orange and Blue standing out. It flew down and landed on my right arm, grasping me firmly but not painfully with its large talons. This was the Woman’s Power Animal, and an unusual choice. Suddenly we were atop an Aztec Stone Monument on the form of a large Bird. The two wings stretched out to either side of us. We went up and up, and soon came into a Cloud deck. When there, the scene shifted. I saw the Woman lying on her bed, the daylight streaming in through a single window. She read for a while, but then lay on her stomach, as if bored. She then hopped off the bed and began to head out the door, but stopped in the bathroom first. She turned on the water and a black ribbon of water came out. She then headed out. The scene shifted and I saw her working somewhere in complete contentment for a while. Nothing stood out about this scene, and my remembrance is quite murky. Apparently she fit right in where she was. This was the near end of the Journey..except as we were coming back, we stopped to see the Woman standing under an Apple Tree at night, eating a donut and sipping from a cup of coffee.

Parrots/Macaws characteristics include:

Use of language
Mockery/mimicking
Pair bonding
Brings rain*
Guidance and wisdom to think before speaking

*Rain is a Feminine element, the gift of the emotions.

The Frosted-Glass Tunnel, combined with the snow scene at the beginning, implies something is frozen out or not totally clear in her Life. The multicolored snowflakes, though, seemed to suggest the appearance not soon afterwards of the very colorful Macaw at the exit from the Tunnel. Color is obviously big in her life.

Parrot/Macaw is the Bird of the Sun. Its Feathers can be used as Healing Sticks to invoke the Sun’s Power. The Parrot is a wonderful Teacher of the Power of Colors, and people with Parrot Medicine should study how to use Colors for Healing and Health. Parrots’ mimicking of humans represents a link between Man and Bird..it encourages diplomacy. See the attached Parrot readout for full explanations.

The huge Stone Bird Column of Aztec origin indicates that a trip to the Andes might help make a connection that brings Life Full-Circle to the Woman. Somehow the actual visit will tie in with her youth..and voila!

The black water in her bathroom indicates the water she drank as a child was full of bad elements. She should consider a detoxification regime at regular intervals.

The Apple Tree scene implies Apple may be a useful addition to the diet..versus too much sugar and caffeine!! It also recommends against heavy snacking at night.

Red is discussed above. Blue means relaxation, antiseptic, cooling. It awakens intuition and eases loneliness. It awakens artistic expression and creativity, and is very effective when mixed with the warm colors, as on the Macaw. Orange represents joy, wisdom and creativity It stimulates feelings of socialness. It is tied to our emotional health and the muscular system.

Random notes from the Friend who brought the Man and Woman to me. She reports both PAs are “perfect” for the Man and Woman. They both love Mexico! The Woman is an artist and deals with colors all the time. The Man loves the concept of horses, and in fact owned a Red horse when he was younger! The Woman loves coffee and sweets, and if I recall right, had an Apple Tree farm, or lived on one. Bottom line: the Friend thought both Journeys were right on the mark.

Journey 198 - Soul Retrieval

This relates to Journey 184

4/24/05: A Soul Retrieval Journey taken for a woman, as instructed during the prior Journey (#166) I did for her, during which her Soul Piece asked to be retrieved during the next Full Moon. The latter occurred this morning at 6:06 AM, and I performed the Journey between 6:35 and 6:45 AM. Since my faimly were in my room, I transferred my operations to the Family Room. I lit the Sacred Candle, lit a bit of Sage to cleanse the area, and began the Drumming Loop. I did not Rattle Sacred Space into place beforehand as I did not want to wake anyone up. However, as soon as the Journey was to begin, I had already resolved to do it then.

As I went into the Journey using my CD Drum Loop, I was soon at a small Fire in daylight. The open-field area was sprinkled with Grasses and small Bushes. Some Tree stands were off in the distance. Eagle Claw, my upper World Guide, was with me. Above, the Full Moon sat incredibly large. I’d guess it was at least 10 times bigger than normal..it looked very close, taking up a good part of quadrant of that part of the Sky, from near-horizon to about 60% of the way up to vertical. I took my Rattle and brought Sacred Space into place by honoring the Four Directions, Father Sky and Mother Earth, with special thanks to Grandmother Moon for her obvious willingness to help. Eagle Claw and I then joined Hands and danced around the Fire, one on either side and facing each other, arms outstretched across the heat. I chanted as we danced, something like, “Thank you, Grandmother Moon, for coming to us. Thank you for helping retrieve the Woman's Soul Piece.” The scene suddenly shifted. We were back at the place in the first Journey where the Woman was sitting outside a cabin at night, with the Moon shining down on her through tall Trees. Eagle Claw and I went and stood behind her, one on either side. I looked down for a second..the Full Moon, crystal clear and in full 3-dimension, was now resting right at the surface of my Mirror! How marvelous to see it there, shrunk to just fit within my Mirror! Within a few seconds, the Woman's Soul Piece came toward us from along this side of the River Bank (she had been across the River during the prior Journey). She came right up to me and then went past. She was standing in the Moonlight to our left, and began to speak. “There is much to atone for,” she said. She repeated this several times. Then she said that when she returned to her home (the Woman's Body), the Woman would feel a fullness, a peace, a centeredness, a calm and a joy she had not known since the day her Soul Part fled her body. This would give her a profound new Strength for dealing with her Life. She could now drop the weight of all that needed atoning for..it was no longer hers to carry around. The Soul Part then came up to me and hugged me in thanks. I then asked for specific instructions on transferring her back to the Woman. She told me to anoint the Stick I had chosen to house her with my Arshaan liquid. I was to draw onto the Stick the symbol of the wave the Woman had seen in her own Dreams. I was then to place the Stick on the Mirror surface along with my Meteorite Piece (the Bringer of Spirit) and the large Moqui Ball (Bringer of Life). I later got the sense to also place a picture of the Moon on top of the Mirror first, to physically symbolize the Moon sitting within the Mirror. I was then to chant “Hurai!” nine times while running my finger clockwise around this assemblage. I was then to leave it there for a while. When I returned, I was to Smudge the pieces, re-anoint the Stick with Arshaan, and then finish with another round of 9 “Hurais!” The Soul Part would then be within the Stick. The scene then shifted. I was standing on the Mirror surface. I watched as the Woman, younger, sank slowly into its Surface. As she did so, facing me, she had an Apple in her hand. The scene shifted again. I saw her throw an Apple into a wooded area, and then against the window of a tall Barn. I was then back on the Mirror to watch the rest of her Soul Piece sink into it. The scene then shifted again. I was sitting on the Moon with the Soul Peice. She was very happy to be there. The view of the Earth and Stars was phenomenal. She turned to me and told me to remind the Woman to be like the Full Moon..provider of gentle Comfort and soft Light, yet very strong and firmly placed within her own Sky. The Moon is the great provider of tidal forces. The Journey ended as the Call Back Drumming persisted. I then held the Mirror over the Flame to provide the warmth of the gol (the center of all existence) for the Soul Piece as she sat on the Moon waiting. The Woman, when she gets the Stick, will place it first over her Heart, pointing straight out, and feel her Soul Piece flow back into her. She will then place the Stick on top of her head, pointing up, and likewise feel the Restoration. Her Soul Piece will then be back.

Notes: As I was drawing the symbol on the Stick a bit later, much to my delight, I found the same symbol was already on the Stick in perfect replication! It points in the exact opposite direction on the same side, indicating extraordinary balance coming to the Woman from this Restoration. This meant my choice of Sticks had been guided by the Helpers.

After a few hours, I placed my Hand over the Mirror with the Stick and other objects. I was able to view the Soul Piece sitting on a large log next to a running Stream. Sunlight was pouting down on her as she sat in the clearing of a wooded area. She was dangling her feet in the Stream, and looked VERY content. The transfer from the Moon to the Stick has been completed. I shall finish the blessing later today, though.

I followed instructions this evening and completed the Transfer by re-anointing the Restoration Stick. I shall present it to the Woman ASAP, along with a picture of the Stick resting on the Moon-covered Shaman’s Mirror with the Moqui Marbles (150 million years old and tools of SW American Native American Shamans for thousands of years) and the Meteorite piece found in eastern Siberia.

4/25: I told the Woman of her Soul Piece sitting on the log and dangling her feet in the water, and she told me that was her all-time favorite thing in the world to do. Another great correlation by the Helpers.

Journey 197 - A Man and his Sons

4/22/05: A Journey to investigate the relationship a Man with share with his two sons in the future. After the usual preparations, I was off. Immediately I saw a Christmas Tree standing in a living room, in a corner next to a window. I was in the Tree, and my Upper World Guide Owl was sitting beside me..we were both quite small. I looked down to see two young Boys staring up at the Tree and really enjoying it. These Boys than ran up some stairs on the opposite side of the room. I then saw the Man come down and place gifts around the Tree base. Two gifts that stood out..a tricycle and a building block set. The scene then shifted to the next day, where the boys were opening their gifts. But the Man, while enjoying them, was feeling a bit lonely and lacking, as he really wished he could be sharing this tremendous scene with a partner with whom he was Soul-mated. Then, the Star atop the Tree burst into a small point of brilliant white Light. It was a Tunnel through which Owl and I could travel into the Future. We zipped into the Tunnel, and as we emerged at the other I saw a familiar sight from prior Time-related Journeys. The Wheel of Time for this particular Universe we are now in was spinning above us, a huge green wheel made of innumerable stands of green night representing all the occurrences in Time. A white dot represented the Now, while a thin strip of red further back was the scene we had just come from. The Future was further ahead on the wheel, in blue, and we headed into that Channel. I saw the Sports Bar at Newmarket! The Man was playing pool inside. He was alone. He decided he was done and stepped outside. But instead of seeing the parking lot, he had moved into a large and lush Valley, with crisp air and numerous rolling hills adorned with many different Plants and small Trees. Down the Hill from where he stood was a huge Deer with a large set of Antlers. The Deer was staring at the Man as it ate. Then, 10s of butterflies floated quickly in and all landed on the Antlers, covering them completely. The Day then switched instantly to Night. All was black except for the Deer, who stood there eating outlined in a soft blue glow. The Man spoke to his Sons, more fully grown now, who had appeared at his side. He asked them if they could see that, and what did they think it meant. They told him that it was a sign that he was to transform himself into a more joyful place (the Butterflies) and adopt a more gentle but alert stance in Life (the Deer). Deer are the great providers, said the sons..they provide food and clothing and bone..but are widely revered for their quickness and calm Spirits. The scene then lit up again. It was still Night, but off on top of a distant Hill I saw the Man with a Woman by his side and two smaller children. I was unable to determine if these two children were the Man’s current boys or two additional children. They were staring at a Christmas Tree! Then, the Sky suddenly turned a blood red. The redness came down and soaked into the Ground. All became yellow and dry, lifeless. I then saw a large white Dog with black spots running quickly around the nearest hillside, barking and darting. I then saw the Man’s face drift in from my right. He appeared to be either asleep or perhaps even dead. Suddenly the talons of a tremendously large Eagle plopped down onto the hillside. The entire scene began to shrink as I was pulled up and away from it. It soon fit onto a branch of a Tree upon which this Eagle had landed. I watched as he sat there. The scene then shut down, and on my Visual Cortex I saw a Woman’s face, round with dark eyes against her white skin. This woman then shifted into a much older woman wearing a head covering. Two other fleeting scenes presented themselves..I saw the Man shopping with his fully grown boys..and I saw one of them pitching a low and inside strike at a local ball field. The Call Back then sounded and I returned as I had come in, thanking my Guide for his Help.

Notes: Remember that sometimes imagery is presented as metaphors as opposed to actual places or events.

The Christmas morning and Deer Scenes speak for themselves. The red blood from the Sky tells me that the Man may contract a blood disease at some time that if left unchecked may cause him to lose his life prematurely. This is something he should watch out for. However, I saw him with his boys grown, so I believe he still has plenty of time.

The black and white dog at the end of the blood scene could have many interpretations, including color, actions and dog virtues. Dog of course represents unconditional love and loyalty, as well as the ability to fearlessly attack perceived enemies. This dog was obviously coming against the presence of Death. This scene may have significance for the Man later in life.

The arrival of the Eagle to contract the scene into a Tree Branch gives me pause. Eagle is the high Spirit Bird, so obviously the entire lesson set of that scene has a high Spiritual Source. The branch may represent the branch of this Life of the Man’s..he has a much higher Spiritual oversight than he may know or believe.

The woman towards the end may be a life partner, or may be a Spirit Helper. More than likely she is or will be both..

Journey 196 - The Skull Dream

4/20/05: A journey to investigate a Dream Tuecke's (see recent Journeys) new Body had a short time ago. In her words:

“I was also wondering if you could look into this dream I had this morning. I was supposedly far away from home. Not sure where. There were others in my dream I do not know who they were. They killed someone and I buried the skull. These people wanted to make sure that the remains could not be found. Sorry, this is so vivid. But, why would I be burying someone's skull? That is all I remember from this part of the dream. Then the dream jumped to my friends house that I have been friends with since High School. I felt like something was wrong there. I also sensed that her husband might be pissed off about something that has to do with me. But, don't know what.

The weird thing is, my husband told me yesterday that he saw a crow in the middle of our back yard looking for food. Can you find out what all this means?”

I agreed to check it out, and after opening Sacred Space and Smudging, I headed out into the Journey. I found myself sitting rather far up in a Tree with no Leaves. Below me was a narrow dead-end Road with a deserted 2-story House (with large Attic making a 3rd level) to my left of center. It was totally dark, like the Night around me, save for a single Street Light to my right, several hundred feet down the road away from the end. Owl then arrived. He was glowing red on his left side, green on his right..his head was black. He landed beside me. We decided to go into this House and see what was up. I became Hawk, and my colors became the mirror opposite of Owl’s. We merged as one on the way down, and became invisible. We flew into the 2nd story Window nearest us. We were inside a very dark and old Bedroom. No sign of Life. But we could see a trail of Footprints going down the Steps..the Prints were a deep red, as if of the memory of Blood. We went down into the Cellar. There we found a very elderly Man, large framed but very tired and sweaty, slowly digging up an old Skeleton. The death of this buried person must have occurred in the Bedroom. No cause was apparent. The scene then shifted out to the Field beyond a stock of Trees just beyond the edge of the dead end Road. There I saw the Girl burying the Skull of her Dream. I got the impression the People standing around this scene were members of the old Man’s Family. They were claiming they were covering up a Crime of his, he was too old and mentally insufficient to have to pay now. He had apparently been off his rocker for a good part of his Life, and was even more so now. By now there was a party in the upstairs of this House, and we were suddenly inside too. I saw the Man in the Dream disapproving of Helen’s actions. He seemed to be referring to her burying the Skull, but that was an impression, not made clear. At this point I reviewed the Journey to this point. I failed to see the meaning in it. Who was the Person who was killed? Why was the Girl involved at all..she was not a family member. What was in it for her..was she under a threat? I didn’t see anything threatening. There seemed no lesson here..just more detail. I asked Owl. We went back into the Tree, and suddenly I saw a strong Breeze blow in with the Light of Day. The Light and Wind swept away the people standing near the burial site. I was then told..this whole thing is a metaphor for the Girl burying herself! The family members were actually Spirit Helpers of hers. She was burying her Fear of Death. I saw the scene of the House and field suddenly become part of a toy Train Table (ala the movie Beetle Juice). I was then taken back in time to when the Girl was very young. There was a Train incident that put the recognition of Death into her for the first time. I saw several options: she was almost hit; someone close to her was almost hit; or someone may have been killed. It wasn’t clear. Then I was told that the disproving Husband signaled that by overcoming Death on her walk into becoming a Shaman practitioner or beyond, some of her friends will not be happy with the changes in her. This was all I could get from this Journey..the Call Back Drumming brought me home.

Some notes for interpretative value: Red is the color of the Base, or Survival, Chakra. Green is the color of the Heart Chakra. Black represents the night, or the opposing Forces. Taken in sum, one sees a battle going on within the Girl concerning survival of her Heart’s longings, and this battle is now in full swing “in the dead of night.” There may, of course, also be some Christmas connection. The fact the Journey began with a deserted house at the end of a dead-end road in the middle of the night implies the depths of abandonment and loneliness that may be buried in her depths. Her burying her own Skull is an attempt to break the hold these forces have on her, and the warm light that resulted from her actions adds credence. The appearance of the movie Beetle Juice was odd, but did lead to the important train incident. Perhaps the year of its release has something to do with (1988).

The Crow pecking in the middle of the yard, to me, implies that the burying of the Skull was the central theme of this Dream..the lesson intended. To be an effective Shaman, one must deal with one’s own Death until it no longer means anything. I have scene myself killed and dismembered any number of times, only to find I was still alive outside my Body. So I have reached that point of no fear. This was even the central tenet of the Shaman Jesus’ message: he came to overcome death. I feel this attempt to begin the processing of overcoming that Fear was the main point of this Dream.

Here was her reply: "
A lot of things that you mentioned are many things that have happened or somewhat are happening right now. The part about the dead-end road with a field, my friend from High School grew up on a dead-end road with a big field next to her house and we hung out there a lot. Her husband who she is married to now also hung out there at that time, but he was only a friend at the time. Her husband apparently did not and I still think he does not like the way I do things and has said that I have an attitude. But, I have never had an attitude towards him so I don't understand why it would affect him. Like you said, you failed to see the meaning in it. So, I agree. He in the past has tried to get involved in my friendship with his wife. But, I would be here for many years trying to expain my long history with this friend. I also don't think the friendship will ever be the way I want it to be. I will expain it to you one day when we eventually meet. Also, my friend has had a lot of parties in that house including Christmas night get togethers every year until I got married. When that stoped don't think my friend liked it, but hey we all have to grow up sometime. She also has parties now. But, does not live in that house anymore. I am not sure who this dead man is either. But, my friend's father did die when she was young. So not sure if there is any connection.
The Beetle Juice movie mentioned, I had a dream about this movie in the past but have never seen the movie. Will have to rent sometime. But, I went online to read a little bit about the movie. This movie sounds like it relates to my friendship with this friend. I met my friend in 1988, we were in the tenth grade at the time.

Not sure about the part below. I don't remember any of this happening. "There was a train incident that put the recognition of Death into her for the first time. I saw several options: she was almost hit; someone close to her was almost hit; or someone may have been killed. It wasn't clear."
Yes, I think I have some fears, but trying to change a lot of things in my life to overcome those fears. A lot of things have happened in my life in the past two years, which I have learned from. I also think, I have become a much stronger person. But, still sensitive. Hee, hee, hee.

Journey 195 - Friend's Kidnap Dream

4/18/05: A Journey taken to check on a disturbing dream a friend told me about today. Another friend invites her into his car, is all friendly..and then without warning locks the doors and tells the Woman he is going to kill her. She ends the Dream gouging his Eyes out. This was obviously full enough of Darkness to warrant my checking it out. As I went into the Journey, Owl and I were sitting in some Trees in a residential area..I got the sense it was the town where my friend lives. I saw a tall, black figure without any real form walking slowly along the sidewalk below. It would stop once in a while and stretch, and as it did so orange and red sparks would burst out of him. Owl looked at me and told me this was a Burhan, the most powerful of the negative Nature Spirits. I knew this type of Spirit would be hard to counteract. It has been attached to the Man, but was now moving near the Woman. Owl then told me to go into my Mirror and seek help from the Mirror Shaman, Utawa. I was suddenly floating along above a River, and there were Torches on the right side along the bank and among the Trees. I suddenly found my right Arm disintegrating into Atoms. The effect was spreading toward the rest of my Body, and I felt as if I could easily be consumed..and die. I began to seek assistance, and in a flash Utawa, looming hundreds of feet tall, came from around the rise ahead of me and took my left Arm, jerking me away from whatever it was that was attacking me. Utawa told me I had been attacked at random by a disintegrating spirit..just one of those random things that can kill you if it walks into you as this one did. Utawa then told me to use the Mirror to catch the Burhan by making him fall into it. I came back out of the mirror and Owl and I flew it down to the sidewalk a few steps ahead of the Burhan. It stopped just before it reached the Mirror and began to yowl. It had sensed the trap! So Owl and I pulled the Mirror up over his head and pulled it down the other side, like a huge tarp. We had the Burhan trapped. I was then suddenly in a boat on an ocean, the Mirror Surface transformed. The Burhan was floating ahead of me, its head bobbing in and out of the water. I asked it if it wished to transform itself into a positive spirit..I would then help save it. It said NO. Suddenly, a school of Dolphins came at it from the many compass points and grabbed the Burhan, swimming away with it underwater. Utawa then took me up to a high Cliff over the Ocean. I looked down and saw a fluorescent green Ribbon beneath the Surface, wiggling slowly along. The Ribbon, on close inspection, was made of millions of very tiny green Fish. This means the Burhan had been transformed to Goodness, and each of the Fish would spread this positive Energy to the Beings who consumed them. I then asked Utawa why the Burhan had been attached to the Man. Utawa said it was attracted to certain negative attitudes and feelings in him. It attached to the Woman since it always came to work with the Man, and he has had differing attitudes toward the Woman over the past months. Now there is no more danger to the Woman..the Burhan is gone. I was then back with Owl in the Trees of her Town. I looked up in the Sky and saw a huge Whirlpool of Light, very similar to the one that ended my Shamans Dream of several Years back. I then saw an Eagle floating in the center of the disc. The Whirlpool then sank down and went straight into my Mirror. It was a gift from Utawa..he told me I have earned this extra Light and Eagle..

Journey 194 - Pre-cancerous Cells

4/18/05: A Journey taken to eliminate the cancerous cells discovered in a young Lady's latest pap smear. I prepared in the usual way and settled into the Journey. Even while I was still rattling, the image of the Girl's Face, reflected in a small pool of Water in some Desert area, came strongly into my mind, so I knew this was the jump-off point. (I have been to this pool before in the past few months..I can’t quite remember why. I’ll have to look back.) So once the Drumming started, I moved into place next to this glass-surface pool. Sure enough, her face, hair and hat, just as they are today, were the image in the pool of water. Two Ducks then flew in from the right. When they hit the water and landed, the image of the Girl's Face lifted out of the Water and floated in the Air above the rippling pool. The circular image of her then floated over and went into my Mirror! As I looked down, I could see her head in there now. Then, I noticed that my Upper world Guide, Owl, had landed next to me on a fairly thick Cactus. We were in a Desert, or perhaps dry plain, environment. Owl was digging into the Cactus with his Talons, implying to me that perhaps there was something in Cactus Medicine that the Girl might take. He then began pecking at the image of the Girl on the Mirror. Each impact left a tiny hole in her image that began releasing cigarette smoke. This told me smoking was one of the aggravating factors. It then got rapidly dark, and as the Sun raced to the Horizon, it turned blood red..then hung there long enough to become a Tunnel. Owl turned into Eagle Claw (his human form) and we both ran at incredible speed toward the Tunnel entrance. We zipped past a Lion and Bear, each of whom thought to pursue us but were unable due to our tremendous speed. We literally leapt into the Tunnel, and zoomed through it in an incredible rush. It was warm and very gusty. At the exit, we found ourselves quite small, standing in some grass next to the leg of a picnic table looming over us as if it were 60 feet tall. It was a sunny day, and there was a stock of bushes and/or trees just left of the table. Further to the left I then noticed a decent-sized Lake, and we were literally right at surface level with the Lake Water as we stood there. Two Ducks (same two?) waded in and beckoned us to follow them. We did so. They took us over to the opposite bank. There, lying on the bank, was a collection of Stones set up to look like a human body. The Girl’s Hat was atop this model. It was a replica of her Body! I went up onto the bank and looked more closely. The area of her lower abdomen was black, with the presence of thousands of tiny ants, all scurrying around among and on top of one another. We walked over to the right and beyond this Stone design and started a small Tipi fire with Twigs and sticks. The Fire was purple in color..a good sign, showing very high Spiritual presence. I invited the Girl and Eagle Claw to come sit with me by the fire and we did so..the Girl took a puff off the Pipe for the first time..this would also be the first time she used tobacco in a Sacred Manner. I then beckoned for the Spirit of her Cancer, manifested by the Ants, to come join us. After a few seconds, a very small, blue blob emerged from the Ants and came to the Fire. I asked it who it was. The answer took me aback considerably. The blob turned into a small baby, and the baby was the one that the Girl did NOT carry to term. It was the Suld Soul..never having made it into a body, it nonetheless had come in from the Lower World and was sticking to the mother is was intended for. It was as if it were literally trying to get back into the womb it had been assigned! I asked the little Baby, why Ants? It was because there are always quite a few Ants in the Girl’s room..and it was therefore easiest to invade them. I told the little Soul it was hurting the Girl, and must go home. It then took off into the Woods near us. Instead of trying to chase it, for it was darting around at breakneck speed among Tree Trunk and leafy Bush, I flung my Mirror up into the air over the Woods. It expanded to a huge size and then stuck to the Sky with a clang. It then began emitting blue streaks of Light, one of which caught the Little Soul. I took it and headed out onto the World River in a boat, and made sure the Little Soul went over the Falls and back to the Lower World for re-assignment. I went back to the Stones, and Eagle Claw and I made an Ongon from the Stones that had represented the Girl’s Body. We then placed a Candle, a long-burning one, in the center of the Ongon and lit it. This will help generate all the Healing Energy the Girl needs to be free of these cancerous cells. We placed her hat atop the entire pile. The Ducks then brought us back to the other side..we were back at the picnic table. But this time, the Girl’s bag and a pack of cigarettes was there..I took the smokes and melted them into my Mirror. We then came all the way back to the beginning, at the Desert Pond. I then saw the Girl sitting on her bed in her room, and I was telling her to say the following Chant daily: “My aura cleanses itself daily. The negative Energy sinks into Mother Earth and turns to Joy.” The next scene was interesting, to say the least. A policeman had come to my door to tell me the Girl had been killed in an accident. I could see her hat on the body on the stretcher, but I went out to check and it was not her. The policeman’s face then turned into a scary monster type, bizarre in its perverted joy at having tried to scare me. It was a Chutger. Eagle Claw told me this scene meant that the Girl just naturally attracts such Beings, and must be on guard from now on. The next scene was even more elaborate. She and I were standing on the center point of a floor beneath the dome of a huge cathedral, the ceiling of which towered above us. Was it St. Peter’s in Rome? Or a church in Germany. Anyway, I saw her shoot way up into the air..she came down and landed on me face first! I then shot way up and came down next to her. We then hugged. I then bent down and cleansed and sealed her Aura where the cancer had been. The Call Back then sounded. The Girl will be clear of this disease.

The Cathedral scene represents Sacred Space. This means the Girl must have Sacred space around her, something I can provide daily when I get up.

She obviously has to give up her smoking.

Aloe Vera is a member of the Cactus family, and has proven anti-cancer qualities. The Girl should get and rink some aloe Vera JUICE..(not gel). :)

Follow-on. When I told her of my work on her behalf, which she had authorized a few days ago (“go for it!”), she asked me what time I had done this. I told her, 4:15-ish. She said that at right about the same time she got “wicked” cramping in that area and had to take a heavy dose of Ibuprofen. That pain was the result of the Sprit Intrusion being removed.

Journey 193 - A Quite Ill Mom

4/17/05: A Journey to investigate a Mom’s cancer, and see if anything can be done Spiritually to stop or slow it. I prepared carefully and fully, in case I came up against some tough going. As I went into the Journey, I found myself floating a short distance above an entirely purple world. Trees, Hills, Ground..all a deep purple. I then saw Owl fluttering around one of the smaller Trees, and I went down to join him. Owl stood out as a bright yellow, an unusual color for him. As I caught up to him, the scene shifted and we were walking down a long set of purple stairs. When we got to the bottom, I saw the Mom lying on her back on a large slab of concrete. She seemed unaware that we were there..she was just looking up at the ceiling. Owl turned into my Upper World Guide, Eagle Claw, and he took out his analysis Crystal Wand. He illuminated her body with it while I stepped back away from her feet and up a bit. I then saw the damage. Almost the entire right half of her Aura is gone! Eaten away. I’d not seen this before. Eagle Claw obviously wanted me to see this. The slab with the Mom and we both then started moving, and slipped quickly into an entirely orange, amorphous zone. Then, I started to pick out some orange, human-shaped blobs moving around in the color. They were Spirit Shapes. The orange then faded into more traditional reality. We were at the Mom’s old house. I saw her sitting in her living room, alone. She was deeply depressed. I then saw several large and many small Chutger (dark Nature Spirits) attacking her over and over, resulting in the loss of her Aura half. One of the majors had come from the nearby river. Another had come from a large Pine Tree a good distance but not that far away. Many smaller Spirits were attacking her in passing, just happened to stumble in while passing by. We then were back in the purple room, the Mom back on her slab. Eagle Claw took out a Moqui Marble and placed it on the table next to her right side. It soon was covered in Insects of a type I am not familiar with. I then saw these Insects pouring out of her opened Aura and into this Ball. Eagle Claw was collecting them, thereby detoxifying the Mom. When this process was complete, the rest of her Aura collapsed! I knew this was not at all good. The slab suddenly became a Boat we were all riding down the River to the Lower World. I realized the Mom’s Suns Soul was heading back home to that World. This would create a rapid demise for her, so I intervened. Just as the Boat reached the Falls and was about to go over, I pulled it into the air past the edge using the Eagle and Owl Feathers I had placed in my hands at the start of the Journey. Eagle Claw helped me carry the Boat with the Mom within over to a small inlet near the Falls. She was temporarily safe in these calm waters, but Eagle Claw told me the Mom must now remain as calm and relaxed as she possible can. It won’t take much of a wind (that is, fear or depression or anger) to blow the Boat back into the River and over the Falls. I then saw the Mom’s Power Animal Penguin arrive with some other Helpers. Eagle Claw then produced the Ball full of the Spirit Insects. He handed it to me. It became white hot in my left hand. It then shape-shifted into a large stick that I flung into the ground. The stick then shape-shifted into one large version of these insects and it came after me with incredible anger. I used my Shamanic Mirror to stop and absorb the attacker. I then placed my Mirror face down on the Ground and several huge bolts of white-blue electricity went zapping through the ground in different directions. I then found myself rising well above the inlet, and from there drew a protective covering of Light around the entire scene, to keep the Mom and her Helpers safe from further intrusion. As I drifted up further, the little ball of Light I had created turned into a tiny moisture droplet and began floating free. I was then on the surface of an ocean beneath a dark Sky. A black and large ship came floating by me, and I could tell it was the ship of Death. I watched as the moisture droplet containing the Mom and her Helpers zipped into one of the doorways of the main cabin. As the ship moved away, the name on the back was “Portsmouth.” I then knew that there was no stopping the course of the disease. I inquired concerning a year of passing, and at first 2005 displayed. But I felt that was too soon, and then the year value jumped to 2007. I saw a date: April 13, 2007. I was not sure of the accuracy of this date. Did I force it by rejecting the 2005? After worrying about this and waiting for new dates, I kept seeing the April 13 date..so I accepted it and moved on. I then saw the Mom sitting in her current living room. I was told she should listen to a lot of ocean sounds CDs for calmness. She should eat a lot of Kale, Broccoli and drink Green Tea. The scene then faded. But in my Visual cortex, I saw the image of a Skull, and a woman with her heads buried in her hands. I then saw an actual headstone with the April 13 date on it. The Call Back then sounded.

Note: The color orange in the transfer scene implies among other things Optimism and Energy Reserves, stimulating feelings of social-ness. It is tied to our emotional health and muscular system, and helps with the stomach, intestines, food assimilation and depression. But a little goes a long way..too much can effect the nerves.

In order to test the validity of the April 13 dates, after the journey I consulted my Crystal pendulum. I held it well above but directly over the Sacred Flame, and asked if the April 13, 2007 date was actually the date I was meant to be given by the Helpers. The pendulum swung “yes.”, verifying what I saw again and again as accurate and not just my own impressions interfering. This is the last date that the Mom will be able to stay..and will probably go sooner if she stresses her self out of the inlet.

We removed the spirit of the Mom's disease, in the form of insects, and so they can do no further damage. However, looking at the 6 major characteristics of insects reveals why the disease was so hard to eliminate: they spread quickly; they are extremely adaptable to conditions; they have armor; their small size makes their demands more accessible; reproduction allows species to survive; and finally they undergo multiple changes to carry on living.

4/18: Obviously the Spirits are very happy with this and other recent Journey work. Today a small Hawk circled almost directly over my head. An alert for what came about 15 minutes later. I saw a very large bird with dark,long square wings just soaring along. It seemed to have a touch of bright white on the tail and head. I knew it was a juvenile Bald Eagle! This is only my 3rd unsought after sighting of my life. There is no higher Spirit Bird for me..it is my Power Animal. It represents the highest achievement. I am very humbled..

Journeys 190/191/192 Brother Dream/Deceased Father/Deceased Brother

4/15/05: A Journey to investigate a Dream a friend had in which she, her sister and her deceased brother were together in a room. The Girls are yelling, “We have to stop this” while her Brother slips off to the side and out. Since Sacred Space was already in place, I went right into the Drum Loop after Smudging and Lighting the Sacred Candle. I immediately saw about 10 Owls spiraling down in a narrowing cone toward the edges of my Shaman’s Mirror, lying on the ground with the edges glowing blue. I then remembered, I had forgotten to put on my Mirror for protection while out of my Body! So I got up and grabbed it, and placed it on my chest for protection. As I lay back down, Owl met me in the branch of a Tree and said, “that’s better!” We looked up in the Sky, and saw a green Ribbon of light..it was the “River of Dreams.” We zoomed up and into it. As we went through the Ribbon, we were passing pieces of other Dreams..fleeting images. But soon up ahead I saw my friend standing there, and knew we had reached our destination. As we reached my friend, we were suddenly in a small bedroom with her and the other two in the house. The bed was behind the Girls, a dresser in front of them A closet was to their left. I saw as the Brother slipped out of the room through or near that closet. I went with him to see what he was doing. He had shape-shifted into a Red-Tailed Hawk. He flew up and out of the house, and lit on a Tree Branch. I was following right along with him. Suddenly a very bright light appeared on the horizon. It looked like the Sun, but had black light and white intermingling on its disk..unlike anything I had seen. It was as if it was boiling with a mix of the two opposite “colors.” I saw a fleeting appearance of other figures near this “opening.” The disc was somehow beckoning to the Brother, but he was resistant..he grabbed his branch tighter and tucked his head down into his chest Then, a man figure appeared nearby, and lifted the brother up onto his shoulder and walked toward and then into the Orb. I followed. Once through, the Hawk (the brother) was back in the back yard of the House..but this was the Upper World representation. He met up with a female Hawk and the soared around together, quite happy. He then landed in the field and began keeping watch over the house, as if waiting for someone. Soon he looked down and his talons and saw a small, fabric, stuffed Doll lying there. She had coarse yellow threads for hair and wore a blue body covering. The Doll was perhaps 4 to 5 inches long. He picked up this Doll in his beak and flew it over to the house chimney, and dropped it in. The scene then shifted back into the bedroom. The Two Girls were staring at this same Orb of Black/White light, and saw the brother, as himself, walking into it. That’s what they were trying to stop. But once he was gone, the Sister turned to my friend and said, “He’s so happy!” Both Girls stood there beaming! I then sensed the Doll going by them within the chimney. It went right through the ground and into the Lower World, where it transformed into two small Hawks. These flew back up to become Guardian spirits for both Girls as they were growing up. The scene then shifted. I rose above the house and saw a very threatening gray sky approaching. But then, sliding along the bottom of these tumultuous dark grey blobs of cloud, came a round blue disk. It stopped over the house and produced a blue cylinder of light that completely surrounded it. It protected the house from the passing rains and winds. The house was lit as if in sunshine even though the area outside the cylinder was a raging storm. The scene then shifted for the last time. I saw my friend’s more-grown lower leg..and on it was a sock that had the image of the doll embroidered into the top. The Call Back then sounded. Journey over, I thanked Owl and returned to my Robe.

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4/15/05: A Journey to check on a Dad, who passed away in 1998. Sacred Space was already in place, so after Smudging, I was off. I came to a Lake area, and it was a Sun-filled Day. Owl, my Upper World Guide, and I were floating along in the very front of a small pointy-nose Boat (like a large row boat) that seemed to be under its own propulsion. Off to the left we saw an inlet where it was very dark, and the boat headed straight into it. Once within, we were suddenly immersed in Darkness. Owl had shape-shifted into his human form, Eagle Claw. On each side of the river we saw Shadows running amidst small fires. At first the Fires were from Torches lining the Bank, then they graduated into small camp Fires further up. On occasion we saw some eyes glowing from the Beings sitting around or running between these Fires, themselves barely visible in the darkness. I looked down at our Boat. It was glowing an translucent blue, as were we! In the rippling Water ahead of us, I saw a very bright Star reflecting. But, as we looked up, there was no corresponding Star in the Sky. I took my Shaman’s Mirror and pointed it straight ahead, so that a narrow beam of this blue Light was piercing the Darkness. Suddenly an image of the father appeared, but as a younger Man. It began leading us, and shrank as it moved ahead faster than we were traveling. Suddenly our Boat ran aground. Up the side of the River bank we could see a small Cemetery with its Headstones glowing with the same blue Light. We got off the Boat and as we walked up the Bank we noticed it was very thick and gooey. We made it into the Cemetery, and found the Stones were made only of Light..no solidity whatsoever. We came to one and I saw the name of the father flash in front of me. THe daughter had said that was her Dad’s name, and so I assumed it was he. We turned to behold a very large inverted Cone made of white Light with Rainbow hues moving toward us. Within the veil was an image, quite transparent but sill coherent, of her dad as a younger man. He knew who we were and why we were there. He told me to say “Hi to my daughter. I love her. Remind her that Mountains are very different from the Heights..but both must be climbed.” He then leaned forward, a bit out of his Aura, and said, “Say hi to my son, also.” This took me aback for I had forgotten at this point that she had a brother who had passed. I began wondering who this son was. But soon I was taken off this subject when the Father held out a small, square Picture. It was he and his daughter, who was quite young, sitting on a picnic table near a Lake. I sensed this was one of his favorite times with her. The scene transformed into reality, and I sat with them at this picnic table. The Father and I both looked up at the Sky and saw a small Tunnel forming there..we knew it was the Tunnel of Death slowly but surely lowering down toward him. He was not afraid, but preparing, even at this age..resolving to enjoy the time he had left. The scene then shifted again. I saw him at a coffee table, still as this younger Man, perhaps in his early 40s, drinking a Schaeffer beer and holding a cigarette. He was speaking, saying, “Man, I’ve head a good life! I’ve been so lucky!” We were then back in the Cemetery. The Aura was still there, and the Dad leaned forward. He held out his left Hand and showed me a box ring of Gold, with a dark or black Stone embedded. It was as if he were giving it to me..for the daughter? The Call Back then sounded, and Eagle Claw and I quickly hopped back into our boat and moved down the river, onto the Lakes and back to the local area, so I could merge back into my Body.

Notes: The Dark River seemed to be a River where Souls first enter on their way to the Other Worlds, and many of the Souls there seemed to be quite recent. They seemed as if they were just waiting.. The fact that the Dad came to this dark place brightly lit with his Aura meant he wanted to meet us away from where he lives as a Spirit..and chose this area as the place least likely to bring us interference.

He already knew I was going to Journey also for his Son. Once I was back from the Journey I realized what he had meant.

The Star’s reflection in the Water with no corresponding Star above is very curious. Mongolian Shamans, however, as well as other Shamanic disciplines, recognize that the Earth Soul sits on top of the head in the Crown Chakra. It is a very bright Star-like entity. No doubt we were seeing the Dad's Earth Soul approaching, for shortly after that we saw him floating in front of us, leading us to the Cemetery. The fact the Stones were made of Light and had no solidity implies that the daughter should realize that there is no such thing as true Death. Headstones just make us miserable by making us believe that…

The transparency of his Body within the Aura told me his Suld soul was already well on its way to transforming into a Nature Spirit, the usual progression for Earth Souls well after their Death. This may also be why he wanted to meet “in private.”

The basic message was that he truly enjoyed his Life here, his daughter, and was very comfortable now moving into Nature. Keep in mind the two other Human Souls go to the Upper and Lower Worlds, and maintain their identity. Earth Souls, though, after time, change into Nature spirits where they help people, and especially, Shamans.

The picture I saw of the Dad showed no rings on his fingers..so I’m not sure why he held out that Ring that I saw..

5/5/05 Follow-up. Turns out this ring is real. The daughter has begun wearing it! It is indeed a box ring of Gold, with a dark blue square Stone. It did indeed belong to her Dad. This was an obvious validation move by the Father, to ensure the daughter knew that I had indeed been in contact with him. This sort of match still gives me excitement chills! :)

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4/15/05: A Journey to check on this woman's brother, who passed in 2002. I took this Journey right after the visit with her Dad. Only now I found Owl and I zooming along at cloud top level over a bunch of puffy white Clouds. The sky was a bright blue above. Sticking up out of the Clouds a good distance ahead was a single, cone-shaped mountain with a very sharp peak..almost like a pyramid. The mountain was lit brightly in yellow, oranges and gold, and was made entirely of Stone. But before we got to it, we sank beneath the Clouds. We came down to the ground next to a large cabin. It was misty and dim, not dark. Colors were muted, but still quite nice. We looked over at the covered porch of the cabin and saw a solitary figure sitting there, leaning back as if in a rocking chair. There was a large, lazy medium-brown dog lying asleep on the edge of the porch next to the yard. I went up to him and ascertained it was indeed her brother. Owl and I told him who we were, but he immediately began complaining. “It’s not fair. I wanted more time. I had plans, I wanted to run a business..” This was obviously an Earth (Suld) Soul that had not yet come to terms with his passing. I interjected and told him that I had just come from his Father, who said to say hi. I told him how he had adjusted to his passing, and was happily merging back into Nature to serve all of Life as a Helper Spirit. I then asked him if he ever had visitors. He told me that some Spirits would walk slowly by the Cabin without a word or glance. Others would stop and say hi for a few minutes. One had come, a female and actually sat at his feet and became a companion for a while. I then told him his Sister had given me the picture of him and Daddy that I now showed him. I suggested that perhaps his Sister could use his help, if he decided to leave his regrets behind. I told him Owl and I could rejuvenate him Spiritually. He agreed, and we took him up to the peak of the Mountain. There, on the other side, was the Sun on the horizon, a brilliant Gold. I told him to stand there and drink in that golden light until his windhorse (Spirit Energy) was completely restored. As Owl and I left him and flew away, we heard him shout out that he indeed promises to guard and support his Sister from here on out. We flew back beneath the Clouds to where we had found him, and the cabin was gone..just black ground where it had been. The final image I saw was of a woman standing in a mechanical arm factory saying, it works perfectly, as she flexed one of the arms.

Notes: This means that the Sister will soon be getting assistance directly from her Brother as she walks the remainder of her Earth Walk.

The fact the Cabin was beneath the Clouds and in a mist reflects the intense emotionalism felt by the brother at his passing.

The Brown Dog: In ancient Greece, Dog was the companion to and the guardian of the Dead. They also reflect faithfulness, which the Brother showed once we let him know his Sister was still out here on her Walk. The color brown is effective in stabilizing overexcited states. It calms, and also grounds emotions and extreme mental conditions. The Dog was no doubt there to keep the Brother from flipping out completely as he contemplated his early demise.