Journey 9 - Killer AND Victim

9/2/03: A very powerful Medicine Dream overnight. I was in a strange house, at night, with both doors locked tight. I was conscious of a very murderous force lurking about the neighborhood, and was very nervous about being along in this house. I was convinced the murdered/psychopath was somewhere very nearby..and I made sure the doors were locked. Suddenly, to my horror, the murderer was sitting in a chair in the next room, looking at me with a wide smile. I turned, and saw a technician who had not been there before working at some radio equipment. He turned his head, and the murdered went to work. Here’s the really remarkable part. I think I became the murderer, and I sliced through the fellow’s right side while he had turned his back to me. I then immediately BECAME the victim, feeling the intense awfulness of those few seconds of consciousness when you see your body split and you feel horrid pain. I then sensed myself dying, as the victim this time, and freeing myself from my Robe. As I looked around afterward, I saw three tiny black Spirit entities hovering around. They were quite small. I realized that the “demons” that cause people to commit horrid acts are quite small and not all that powerful. But if they are many, they can overwhelm the person. This is why we must pray and strengthen our Spirit Bodies everyday. I thought about this dream all day, and there are obvious interpretations. I’m still afraid of a violent death? Am I not now, now that I have seen the dark entities swirling near me as I left my Robe? Evil apparently comes in small packets versus the large purple Spirit figures I saw the last time I journeyed. This was a very unsettling dream, and it affected my entire day. I believe the Spirits are asking me to deal with the whole issue of Death and Violence next..both of which I have to conquer to advance as a Shaman. It was fascinating to see myself as my own killer, and then the Victim as well.