Journey 44 - Cleansing Personal Imprints

4/16/04: A Journey to cleanse my Luminous Body of Crystallized Energies and Imprints. A Shaman must fully heal himself/herself before truly being effective at healing others. I undertook this Journey right after a Smoke, and was already prepared and in the Spirit Way. I re-smudged the room and lay down, and used the long version of Meadow’s CD Drumming. As the prep drumming rang out in my ears, I asked Crosses In Front, my Snake Lower World Guide, to meet me at the Hole that has been dug next to the Bird feeder out back in recent weeks by a Four-legged. As I breathed more deeply and slowly, concentrating on the purpose of my Journey, I waited at the Hole while shrinking to the size of a tiny Frog. Then, Crosses came out of the adjacent woods to be with me. We went into the Tunnel together. Crosses suggested Black Panther come with us, who appeared immediately, and so we all proceeded downward, Crosses at my right, Panther at my left. Very soon, the foulest odor began filling the Tunnel. It has no effect on my Guides, but I was getting very nauseated. I knew it was coming from my own Spiritual imperfections. I finally had to stop, and I wretched for minutes. Piles of seething white maggots emerged from my innards, accompanied soon by green masses, brown fluids, and finally black shiny bits that seemed to have a life of their own, and to represent the crystallized Energy within my Luminous Body. My whole mid-section was wracked with such debilitating pain that I could barely move. Once the pain subsided, I had to pull myself along on my stomach to move toward fresh Water I heard flowing a bit further down. As I came near the bank of this small Rivulet, I sensed a powerful, Black wall of Energy in my way. I was much too weak to deal with this, and so I began chanting my Rainbow Healing song, Westu Waja Wasaji, and saw the Rainbow rays pouring down into my Aura. I saw my hands turn from flesh to pure Energy, a light white-blue in color. I then proceeded to shoot beams of color, one at a time, from my fingertips into this mass, until it was no longer in my way. I then crawled to the Rivulet. I saw the female Face of the Water Spirit there. She told me of the Power of Feminine Medicine as I peered into her waters from the bank’s edge. She reminded me how Two-legged Females are unique in the ability to give birth to new Life, our children. In so doing, they are the ones who manifest into physical being the Original Thought in the mind of the Great Mystery that the new baby represents. They therefore the closest to the Great Mystery’s movement..Its direct messengers of Life, if you will. Therefore, they are to be honored like no others. She also reminded me that the Female Two-leggeds are like Mother Earth, who likewise spends her Time bringing Great Mystery’s thoughts into being here. Creation of Life is the direct link to Great Spirit. By honoring this Female Power, I could then fall into her Waters and bathe and refresh myself. And so I did so honor this Medicine and enter the Stream. I found myself floating in her essence in total Peace, breathing the Water as if it were Air. Once cleansed, I came back out onto the bank. I caused a small Fire to begin from leafy materials there, using the energies from my fingertips to light the leaves. I sat there with Snake and Panther curled at my side. As they guarded me, I fell into restful sleep, with dreams unrecalled, until the signal drumming at the end of the period called me back. I thanked my Guides and Water Spirit for the lesson and help. I grounded myself to Mother Earth, and returned.