Journey 17 - Both Women were Shamans

10/6 I performed my first Rattle-induced Journey this afternoon. As I lay shaking the Rattle directly over my brow, I kept repeating my Native names, asserting that is who I am. Over and over I repeated the names: ”I am Four Hawks..I am Rains Again..” Suddenly, a large white ball of energy appeared before me. The surface was irregular, almost teeming with small filaments, and it was BRIGHT white, almost like the sun. I saw small colored dots and shapes on the otherwise white surface, and it came to me that these were pathways into different universes/lives, and one would choose the color by the lesson needed in that life. As I looked to my left, I saw both my wife and pastor standing next to each other, both looking at me with smiles. I realized that both had been Shamans in prior lives! They have been sent to me to help rein my free-spirit in. I have TWO key helpers here in this life! Based on what I have gathered so far, I somehow had failed my lesson as Rains Again 900 years ago, and have returned now as Four Hawks to try again. These two superb women are here to help guide me. I looked back at the ball, and the Color I chose to come into this life was Purple, the highest of the Spirit colors! I found this Journey, short as it was, incredibly powerful and indelible. All of existence exists as a small white circular mass of pure energy, and one chooses which color-path to enter on one’s way to a new lesson in life. I got the sense that this was a very small ball..and while I did not sense this during my Journey, I am sure there are many more like it.