Journey 87 First Visit with Astral Figure

8/31/04: A Journey to see who was trying to contact me during a recent Dream I had in response to inviting three Spirits of departed family or friends to contact me if they so desired. In that Dream, a large, yellow, short-haired Dog came up to me and allowed me to pat his head while staring at me. Later, there was a floating Skull and Doll’s Head staring at me from a River next to a House I was in. I Rattled, Smudged and lit the Sacred Candle. As I was sitting and breathing down to Shamanic level, I was concentrating on my goals, and saw Owl appear to me, dressed in a black cape with tufts of red on each shoulder, reminiscent of a Red-winged Blackbird. He drew me up into a Tree that was replete with Fall-colored leaves. As we sat there, I saw a very large Whirlpool in the Sky off to my left-center, composed of swirling blue Clouds. In the center was a small ball of intense Light. We headed for that ball, and as we entered I realized we were in the Tunnel that the Near-Death experience shows to so many: the Tunnel of light. I saw dark human figures walking slowly around as we went through this Tunnel, but none stopped to talk to us and their features were not apparent at all. I felt a strange privilege to be in this Sacred Tunnel, and yet not being among the dying myself. The passage of the figures was strangely non-emotional, on everyone’s part..it just WAS. We then emerged from this Tunnel onto a Park Bench in a city setting, with the road curving off to my left. Owl and I saw and waited. My whole approach was not to try to guess who it was that was contacting me..I wanted that person to reveal it himself. Owl moved up into a Tree to my right. Then, I saw a dark figure walking down the street toward me. His face was so misshapen and bloodied that I could not recognize who it was. Immediately, the yellow Dog of my Dream came lumbering up to me and sat by my feet. I looked down, and as the Dog stared at me, it became vicious. The figure stopped in front of me and its yellow eyes were ablaze with anger. The whole scene then went dark except for those eyes, and Owl immediately stepped in to re-inforce my Aura. I could see myself now sitting within the protective shell of its rainbow boundary, looking beyond into the darkness at this face. Soon, though, the anger turned to sorrow, and some tears escaped one of the eyes. The surrounding lightened up a bit, becoming like a very early dawn, with just enough light to see shapes again. I thought the shape was that of the boy who had commited suicide, but it was too dark to be positive. At this point I decided to disengage from seeking the name anymore, and waited for this person to reveal himself to me, if that was his desire. As I did so, I slipped into the deeper Theta State, and only have a few images to relate. The first two came very early..I saw a female’s right side profile, and she was whispering the number “22.” At some point I got the feeling that the figure I had seen had a real problem with his feminine side..as if he had rejected that part of himself so violently that he had to end his life. Then I saw a tongue being yanked out of a mouth by someone trying to grab it from its roots..but the person did not succeed. The final remembrances come later, toward the end, when I came back to the Alpha State long enough to realize I was in the presence of this person, right there in the room. This was his second visit, as he had been there the night of my Dream as well. I did nothing, and he did nothing..I was just aware of his being there. The final occurrence was when I came to realize that I felt like I was floating in mid air, totally unattached to anything, as if I were a balloon or a molecule of water. I remember thinking how strange that felt, and that I needed to reground myself. I also remember calling to mind the images of the Skull and Doll, to see if that would trigger any further insights, but they did not, as far as I can recall. As the Journey ended with the Call Back, I came back to the room and thanked Owl..feeling as if I had not accomplished what I had set out to do. That I might have failed..but I reminded myself that was the Spirits release to us is all we need to know..and my feelings were the result of my own faulty expectations. Also, often what has to happen and to be known occurs when in the Theta State, which up until and including now I have had trouble bringing info back from..and for all I know I was with this person and provided the help needed. I somehow feel that the presence I felt, followed later by my floating in air, may signify that this person took some Sacred Energy through me, in particular, grounding Energy..and got what he had come for. As to who it was: I sense it was the suicide, but feel it may also have been my nephew..but it was my wife's Dad.

Of significance is the Robe Owl took on at the beginning..that of the Red-winged Blackbird. Here is some of what Ted Andrews says about that Winged One: This bird is connected to the Dark Mother and the primal feminine energies (recall the female whispering “22” and my feeling there was an issue with femininity). Redwingeds have three colors, actually. Black (Dark Mother), red (Mars), and Yellow (sign of Cancer). Redwinged is a summer bird, and returns to the womb of life in winter (a reference to suicide?) in order to re-emerge the following summer. Blackbirds nest very close to water..again, a sign of the Feminine. Finally, they nest on cattails, which primarily help convert water areas to landed areas, a more grounded state. Eaten, it is like a flour..and NAs used the juices for tooth-aches.

Finally, after typing this, I went outside for a review of the Land, and a Blackbird flew out from the Red Maple and away to the North. As I came into the porch, I looked at the Sun, lowering in the west, and a very large and bright Cloud Person was just below it, in the perfect shape of the left side of a large Dog lying on its legs with its head up, staring straight ahead..in a resting and relaxed pose. Before it were several smaller bright Cloud People, blobs really, one of which looked like a Hummingbird, the Bird of the North into which the Blackbird had flown. So perhaps my intervention allowed my Spirit Helpers to accomplish some good after all. I know it did.

A few hours on and I have a few more thoughts. This Journey has had a profound effect on me so far. I feel very spent, and can’t help thinking about it all over and over. A few more realizations have come. All the Spirits in the Tunnel were walking in the opposite direction to Owl’s and my progress..so we were headed into the Astral Plane, not the Beyond. The Skull and Doll may well represent the suicide and his unborn..there may be an issue there. Finally, I hope this person did not take a part of MY Spirit Robe..and instead took what was available through me. And I also came to think perhaps this person was a different suicide, an older man.. No way of knowing, yet. But it was a very expending Journey, and certainly a deeper and less obvious one. I have a sense of unease that I must have picked up from this person..I always have been an empathy of sorts.

Journey 86 PA for Friend's Friend's Mom

8/24/04: A Journey for my dear friend’s friend’s mom, who is seriously ill. The purpose: to see what can be done to help her and find her a Power Animal to help her walk her Path in Truth and Beauty as she nears the end of the Walk. After Smudging, Rattling and lighting the Sacred Candle, I began the Drum CD. I found my Lower World Guide, Snake (Crosses in Front), winding her way up through my body even as I still lay on the bed. Whereas we usually jump immediately to the Opening, today was different: we slithered across the basement floor as one, passed through the new Screen Door, and went through the pile of construction waste under the deck. We then moved at an accelerated pace into the Woods and came to the Tree with the Opening in its base..a Tunnel we have used at least twice before. As we went into the Opening, the Tunnel to the Lower World was ringed with tiny pink-petal Flowers, with blue centers. They surrounded us in great profusion as we passed down. We came to a halt at two objects, both shiny new: a metal bracelet, and an old-fashioned key (looks like an F standing on its loop). We then continued on through the Flowers. As the Light faded, they took on a glow of their own. We soon arrived at the exit, and were launched into a wooded area, at night, with the strong smell of Lilac, and some water dripping off one of the Trees to my right. There were many Fireflies around, and I soon was one of them. I spotted my Mate among the many, for her emissions were brighter than the others. We danced in Flight for a few moments, then landed together on a Branch. She took her tail and wrote the name of the mother on the Branch, in golden Energy emitted from her Tail. As the name glistened there, I moved over and planted my tail on the name. Suddenly, I saw a Zebra with a horn on its head, standing sideways to me. This image faded quickly, and then a very friendly Squirrel moved up to me along the branch..the mother’s Power Animal. The Squirrel had two gifts for me: an Acorn, for me to eat as sustenance, for I had now become a Squirrel as well, and a large Chestnut. As I looked beyond the Squirrel, I now saw a huge Tree reaching way up to the top of the Sky. I don’t recall eating the Acorn, but watched as golden lightning surges ran up and down the side of the Tree Trunk. I began climbing the Tree with the Chestnut in my mouth, and soon reached a higher Branch with a Woman sitting on it, seeming at once both young and old. She was wearing a light blue hospital gown with a hood over her head. As I handed her the Chestnut, she smiled a thanks at me. While the hood made it hard to see her face, I could again tell that she was at once both young and quite old, as mentioned above. She ate the Chestnut. She then melted into pure gold Energy, which zipped along the Branch and up the Tree Trunk. As it reached the top, huge gold Lightning Bolts came flashing out along the Sky Roof. Five of these Bolts struck the ground of the Forest floor. Where they had hit, 5 small fires began. Soon, little groups of Squirrels were forming around the fires. I concentrated on one of them, second from the left. There, I saw Squirrels dancing around on their hind legs, holding paws, then very soon regrouped to running around the Fire on all fours, with each Tail in trailing Mouth. As they ran in this quick Circle, both they and the Fires faded. I was now a Firefly again, floating in the Forest, with no more singular Tails to invite me, as before. I soon saw some Light Blue Tipis form at the edge of the Forest, and the Drums were coming from there. Clouds soon formed over them, and as they drifted across the area where I was floating, they dropped a mist of Lavender Oil. I then dropped deeper into the Theta State, and recall two images: one in which I was in a discussion concerning the proper way to comb my hair to cover bald areas; a second in which I’m walking along a tall Stone Wall that has small Energy Beings made of different shades of Light hanging from various points. All I recall is being warned that to try to put these “Lights” out would cause them to explode..and on the word “explode”, the Call Back Drum sounded, causing one of the Lights to explode, and I then returned the way I came, through the Tunnel of Flowers.

Squirrels represent preparedness, and “teach us balance within the Circle of Gathering and Giving, Work and Play.” I found out later that the mother had 5 children, the numbers of fires that formed on the ground..one of the children has serious issues to confront as demonstrated by one of the fires being highlighted in my Journey.

Journeys 84/85 Twin Sister ID/Poison Ivy

8/13/04: A Journey to determine the identity of the Native Spirit the twin sister saw before her death (reference an earlier Journey). I opened Sacred Space with the Rattle, Smudged, then lit the Sacred Candle and took off with the 15-minute Drum loop. I was suddenly a Chipmunk, indicating great ability to delve into the “unknown.” I was scratching around in the Grass out back when I sensed Owl swooping down from behind me. Owl picked me up in his talons and we were off into a bright yellow Sky, toward a white swirl of Energy. We went through this Tunnel and emerged into a region of Space where all was red, indicating both intense Life Force and the reference to Native Americanism. We landed in the bright green Tree top we have visited in prior Journeys. I spoke with Owl and gave my reason for the Journey. I was suddenly at a River’s side, watching a Man cradling a beautiful Maiden in his arms. She was on the verge of passing, in and out of consciousness, and then died. The Man walked over into a Buffalo herd on the other side of the Tree line bordering the River. He went up to a White Buffalo (very Sacred to the Plains NAs..) and kneeled before her, the one who brought the Sacred Pipe. He then disappeared. I then returned to the River bank, and saw that much time had now passed. all that remained of the Maiden was a very old bracelet, greatly weathered in the Dirt. I then walked along the River’s edge, as I have done before in prior Journeys, to the Tipi down the River a bit, and entered to Smoke a Pipe Owl, who was now Eagle Claw. It was during this Smoke that I got the rest of the Scene explained to me. The Man was a Tribal Shaman, the Maiden his Daughter. He could not save her. The Maiden became the departed sister in this life. The Native Spirit was the Shaman Father watching over her as she performed this Earthly Walk. His appearance toward the end was to prepare her for Passage. I then was told that White Buffalo will give them both a new Earthly Walk, but they will not be linked as Father and Daughter. As we left this Scene, I looked back and saw that the whole thing had taken place on the Tongue of a Lizard. The latter represents the ability to go into the Dreamtime to seek answers, as I had been doing. Apparently this Journey has strengthened those capabilities for me, as it was an errand of further Healing for the living sister. Lizard is now one of my Totems. I sense he is attaching himself to the sister to help her see and interpret her Dreams more clearly. We then returned to the Green Tree Top, through the Tunnel and into the Yard as the Call Back sounded. I thanked my Guides and returned.


A Poison Ivy control Journey, to deal with my first case in years. I had already opened Sacred Space in an earlier Journey, and so headed right in. I found myself in a Tipi, performing a Snake Dance with one of my Rattles. This was the first time I can recall performing such a Dance in a Journey to call up my Power Animal. My Snake Guide arrived, and she and I went down through one of the more traditional Lower World entry points, a hole in the floor in the center of the Tipi. As we were heading toward the opening, I saw the outline of a human shape hovering over and below the entry, such that the area of the heart was centered right over the hole..the area we passed through. We descended through what seemed to be organic tubing, possibly intestinal..but very clean. We landed in a salty Ocean, submerged, indicating landing in an area of great emotion and/or femininity. This told me my Poison Ivy was a feminine presence, and that sea water was a good curative? In the distance, floating freely, was a woman’s form. It briefly assumed a dress of leaves, then reverted back to more traditional dress. This Spirit of the Water then asked if I wanted to visit with the Spirit of Poison Ivy, to which I answered “yes.” She warned me not to get to close to her. I then found myself next to a Tube Trailer Home beneath a stock of trees, siding up to sit at a picnic bench away from the entry. I could see the woman’s face in the door. Her eyes flashed through numerous colors, before settling down to a beige color with tiny rainbow flecks. Her face then transformed itself into that of a Dog and/or Wolf. As I contemplated this, I slipped off into the Theta State, and the only image I can bring back from there is the term, “Marshmallow Root”. I obviously need to get this. At another point of lucidness I felt a strong Bar being applied to my left back shoulder as I lay there, with a feeling of connectivity of its Energy to my infected fingers on my right hand. Then, the Drumming called me back. I must ponder more on the meaning of the color of the Eyes, the transformation to Dog/Wolf, and the Energy bar. They are obviously important to understanding my PI and its healing.

Journey 83 - More Work on Daughter's PA

8/12/04: A Journey to further investigate my daughter's Power Animal, Polar Bear, to see if there was any Guidance he wished to give her. The room was already open in Sacred Space from a prior Journey, and so I Smudged with Sweet Grass for an extra layer of protection and was off on a 10-minute Drum CD Journey. At first, the Tree I meet Owl in was very changeable, going quickly through a multitude of Colors before settling on a beige tone with streaks of pastel colors running through it. Owl then flew in from a Pink Sky, himself Yellow with deep Blue Eyes. We looked up into the Sky to see a red Tunnel Opening, swirling. We headed into the Entrance and went past many necklaces of Red Beads, making up the Tunnel Walls. We emerged into a sunny area of Trees and Fields, all covered in glistening Ice. It was not cold, but very refreshing. A Man walked toward us from the South, himself White and glazed in ice, eyes included. He sat down beside me and touched my hands. He then “melted” to a more normal appearance, still dressed in a Polar Bear fur outfit. I told him who I was and asked if he had any info for my daughter. We were suddenly overlooking a small city over which a Thunderstorm was moving. I could see down into an apartment, where my daughter was lying on a bed reading a textbook while her daughter was at the dining room table hunched over homework. She appeared 6 or 7..hard to tell. As I moved closer into this scene, I was suddenly back in the dining room overseas, and it was my own young daughter at the table, doing HER homework! I got the sense from being here that we jerked my daughter back to the States too soon..that it had had a negative effect on her. I then saw only her face before me, going through many changes into old age, finally lying on the slope of the ice world, herself looking a lot like her Guardian did when he first appeared to me at the start of this leg of the Journey. She then rose and walked off with him, two Ice People hand in hand. I then realized she had left this Spirit to come here to this life! They were together as Spirit Partners prior to that. Then, more images ensued, no doubt things for my daughter to ponder, gifts from her Guardian/Power Animal. I saw Pine Trees stirring in a warm Breeze, with a wonderful Scent of Pine in the air. Very peaceful. I then saw a small Lake with my daughter’s House nestled in the Woods about halfway up. I saw her lying on a Hillside nearby, with a man with curly, medium brown hair and glasses..a life partner, but not necessarily husband. I then saw a large Moon hanging over a city horizon, and was informed that Moon is very important to my daughter, and she should therefore seek out its soft Light and calming Feminine Spirit. I then remembered the Moon was coming up full on her birth evening. I then saw the name Neptune go by, and after a second of thinking of the Planet, realized it was also the name of the God of the Ocean in ancient Rome. Here again was the connection to the Sea, which comes with her Power Animal and its need to find the right balance between Ice and Ocean to survive. I then saw my daughter in her communion veil, and got the sense she had found this ceremony pretty much empty of Spiritual significance..and a launching point for her lack of spirituality in subsequent years. However, her PA told me this would be slowly changing now that He was back in her life in a physical form (the Figurine)..she would be slowly but surely opening back up to the possibilities beyond this existence. I then saw him lying in light-blue Spirit form beside my daughter when she was alone at night, and he told me he hoped she would listen when he tried to dissuade her from being with the wrong guys. I then saw a Polar Bear walking on hardened Snow, with Raven on his right Shoulder and a Bunny at his left foot. I then saw the two others squawking at Bear, and holding him off at a distance.. in combination a sign of my grandaughter’s connection to yet independence from her mom playing out simultaneously. Back now on the bench with my daughter’s Spirit Guardian, he gave me a small icy Lamp, about 2” high with an A-shaped Crystal shade. The Lamp did not melt in my hand..it was very solid. He told me to give it to her in Spirit, and tell her this Lamp will shine very brightly in her Dark times as if containing thousands of tiny suns within, and light her Path. At this very instant, the Drum ceased, and I had to quickly scurry back through the Tunnel with Owl and return to the room, performing my own Call Back Drumming. I thanked the Guides as I typed this up.

Journey 82 - More on Friend's Dark Mass/Runnymede

8/12/04: A journey to delve further into the Dark Mass attached to my friend, and discover the connection thereof to a town called Runnymede from the Civil War era. After the usual preparations, I was off. I immediately found myself in a low-grass field, in the process of being covered over by a deep, black mist. My Lower World Guide, Crosses in Front (Snake) arrived, and she was also as black as I have seen her. She told me, “come, we have solemn work to do.” This was certainly the direst beginning to any of my Journeys! We found the small Tunnel entrance ringed in fire, and as we descended, I found numerous light-blue-energy Civil War era soldier-Spirits sitting at random on both sides of the Tunnel as we went. They did not seem to know anything had changed, and acted and sat as if still ready for the next battle. As we emerged from the Tunnel Exit, we were in a large field that also contained many small encampments, with fires burning and combatants sitting. We came toward a solitary figure sitting on a Stone Person, hunched over. He was totally black..only his eyes reflected any light. I approached him, and Snake wrapped herself around my right leg for my protection. I told him who I was and why I had come..I asked if he were the entity currently attached to my friend. Nodding in the affirmative, he reached out and grabbed both my hands, and suddenly I was in a well-kept, rural house, in the late morning. A small family was there, engaged in their ordinary tasks, when two cannonballs, one after another, came crashing through the top part of the house. Large support beams immediately fell onto the wife and child, killing them. A man (whom I’m sure is the Dark Being I’m speaking with) ran out of the house and toward a soldier riding away on horseback. The man was of course losing ground, and as he ran was struck from behind and killed. As he awoke, now a Spirit, he looked back at could see the Spirits of his Wife and Child wandering away from the house, calling for him. “Horatio..Father!” But he could not seem to get to them. I was then informed that the person who had shot the cannon was a distant relation to my friend's husband’s family of that era. We were then back on the field, and the Man was silent. I asked him why he had attached himself to my friend, not her husband. He told me he had found her through the husband, for she reminded him of his lost Wife..smart, energetic, funny, pretty. He was clinging opportunistically in sorrow, and meant no harm. I then told him that it was within my ability and purview to release both him and all those with him from this Spiritual stasis. I then called in Eagle, my Power Animal, who swooped in and was trailing thick layers of rainbow colored Energy from his wings. He swooped over the entire field, through the Tunnel, and over the man, dusting all with the Essence. The man’s last action was to look at me with a tear falling and say thank you. And then, the area was cleansed of all these Spirits. The ground issued forth small plants with tiny white petals, and these extended back into the Tunnel. I also sent Eagle to soar through my friend’s house, over her and her husband, releasing them from any final attachments involving this connection to Runnymede. I then asked if we could assign my friend a Power Animal, a Spirit Being that would protect her and give her the Energies needed to heal and to live well. Immediately volunteering was the Ground Hog (usually one has to go through several Animals before the right one appears). I saw him very happily working beside my friend as she worked the land in a garden, proving he was indeed her PA. Snake, Eagle and I then sat and watched as the Moon set over the distant horizon. While still primarily yellow, her Face was marked with millions of tiny rainbow facets, giving her a glow of great beauty. Suddenly, flying across her face came a winged Horse, traditionally view as a Spirit Messenger, who flew toward us and stopped before me. In his mouth was a large, pink Flower, which I took. He said it was a gift of gratitude from the man..these flowers had been growing in front of the house that was hit by cannon fire. The Horse flew away. The three of us then watched the Moon set a bit more, then came back up the Tunnel. While rifles and remnants of small fires were still there, the Spirits were gone. The field was now clear of mist, the Tunnel Entrance, while still black, saw fire out. Since the Drum was still sounding, I enjoyed the company of my Helpers in quiet, asking them to heal and cleanse me..something I like to do often when there is still time in a Journey. I also went back to the scene where the man had just died, and sensed his last name was Agman. There is of course no Google reference to an obscure gent from 150 years ago.. I then, with no further actions to perform, cut the Journey a bit short and returned to the Room to ground.

I was told when letting my friend's hear of the above results that the husband's ancestors had taken spoils of war during the Civil War. This was no doubt the cause for the invasion of the Wife.

Journey 81 - Granddaughter's PA

8/11/04: I realized I had never found out who my grandaughter’s Power Animal is, and so I set out to discover this. After Smudging, Rattling and lighting the Sacred Candle, I set the Drum CD for a 15-minute Journey and began concentrating on my Purpose. Even before I could start the drumming, though, her Power Animal came soaring into my consciousness with such a certainty that I had no doubts about it. The Rattling must have opened up my Shamanic Channels early, and her PA came barreling right in. And an awesome PA he is (yes, he is male): Raven. So here I was, sitting on the side of the bed with the Journey Purpose already accomplished. So, I changed the reason for my travels, and decided to see if I could meet with Raven and learn some things about my grandaughter. As I began the Drum CD, I found myself whisked off to a Old-Western-style town, complete with Horse troughs, wooden landings in front of buildings, the works. It was hot and dusty. My Lower World Guide Crosses in Front (Snake) met me, wearing a pink bow and tiny pink doll’s hat, telling me that she was empowered with Avery’s youthful Spirit to lead me into the Lower World. As we moved off the road past a Tumbleweed and into some low Grasses by a Tree, we spotted the Tunnel entrance at the base of the Tree. As we entered, I saw a powerful Tornado passing by on my right, heading toward my rear. Instantly I thought of the scene from my last Journey for my grandaughter, where a father was walking back from the grave of his young daughter. Was that the tornado that took my grandaughter in her prior Visit? Could well be.. We went down the Tunnel, which was strewn with tiny and larger roots for a while, then became littered with Minerals and Stones of various types, including Gold and Marble. As we got closer to the Exit, I could smell Hyacinth. We came out of the Tunnel into a large field thereof, and we sat and waited. Raven came in overhead as large as any Bird I have ever seen in a Journey..an indication of his vast Spirit Powers. He covered nearly the entire Sky at first. He then shrank down to normal size and landed beside me. He became a human, with white skin and black clothes, and Raven Feathers in his black hair. He reached out and took my hands in his, and spoke briefly. He told me my grandaughter would grow up just fine, and that she had indeed come out of the Spirit Camp as Spirit Rain, my name for her after seeing this falling Mana during her birth on a mostly sunny day. The surroundings then transformed completely. We were floating in a Space filled with beautiful stars and gases of many colors, which then filled in with a soft tan mist, with pastel stars shining within. I felt a very rare Peace while in this Area. Raven then showed me parts of her future. Fully an adult now, she was walking down a wooden walkway from a cottage onto a beach, to sit there facing the ocean. I was then shown a list of occupations she would consider, and the two that seemed strongest were Anthropologist and Archaeologist, with the emphasis on the former. I also picked up a very strong environmental concern..she will be a great caretaker of Mother Earth and fight very hard for her. I then saw her sitting on the same beach at night, with shafts of rainbow light bursting down into her, and also bursting out of her, heading along the ground to distant targets. She will apparently be a Healer using Shamanic Energy as I have become. I also saw her sitting around a fire on this Beach with my Spirit coming up to the Fire to sit and speak with her. I don’t know if this means I will have passed on by then (she was 30 at best), which gives me if true under 30 years left of life here. The fact we will converse in a very common Native/Shaman Spiritual Way again hints at a burgeoning Shamanism in her. I then saw a Bunny hop up and sit beside her, indicating a secondary Power Animal. This was confirmed in a later brief image when I saw a Bunny coming toward me from a grassy field spotted with Trees. The images became brief and intermittent from here on out, as I slipped into the Theta State and did not bring back much of that Tour with me consciously. I do remember coming out of one of the sequences ending in which I’m saying “I’ll pass on that!” I also remember seeing a brass plaque on a wall of a Marble. Her face and name were on it, and a saying: “She Saw Wrong and Made it Right”, or something very close to that. I got the sense this was related to the environment as well. I emerged from the Theta State for good just before the Call Back Drum sounded..I saw my grandaughter once more on the Beach, only this time Raven was circling directly above her, dropping golden Mana around her. The Mana formed a Circle in the Sand, and I went over to look at it. There was an inverted “V” enclosed in the Circle..that is, an “A” without the center line. This is no doubt her Shaman Symbol. The fact she was at the water’s edge the entire time shows she has vast feminine Powers, and is a Water Person..a Spirit of the West. She will think and emote very deeply as a result, as the ocean in deep. The Ocean’s emotional purity will be her renewing presence here. I came back, thanked my Guides and my grandaughter's PAs, and came up to type this while it was still fresh.

Scratching the surface: Raven as Totem implies Magic, Shape-shifting and Creation. Human and animal Spirits intermingle and become as one, allowing one to understand the language of animals. Ravens are great at vocalization and can be taught to speak! They are playful and excellent tool users. They are not intimidated, and are very fast and wary. With this Raven power, one can stir the magic of life and creation without fear. They are quite amorous. Raven power can allow one to go into the Spirit Void and bring back to the physical world the things one needs..a strong hint of Shamanism. Most powerful time for people with Raven for a PA is winter and the winter solstice. Raven’s black color implies much of the strength Avery needs will come from the “other side”, just as in the case of the Journey above concerning the depths of the ocean. Raven is closely related to Crow, whose Medicine also applies here. Crows bring magic also, and are symbols of creation and Spiritual strength. Creation from Spirit Camp to Physical World will play a large role in her life. Rabbit as Totem implies Fertility. They also have a wonderful defense..they freeze as if dead, then speed off at a high rate instantly. The freezing implies the need to not allow others to see your intentions early. They also double-back quickly, implying the ability to take advantage of brief opportunities passed the first time. They eat mainly vegetables, implying my grandaughter will pick up on my daughter's preferences in that regard. One should read the full treatments in Animal Speak for a total picture of these Power Animals.

Journey 80 - Wife's Tummy and Throat Problems

8/9/04: A Journey to help my wife with her tummy and throat problems. These popped up the morning after we took my mom to her favorite restaurantfor her birthday last Thursday night, and had made it almost impossible for her to eat over the weekend, including a big family party we had Sunday. I figured food poisoning, but didn’t get the chance to Journey until Monday. I prepared as always, and went in for a 10-minute Drum loop. I found myself sitting on my Azurite Stone on a bookshelf in some house, next to a sunny Window. I was so tiny that the Stone (all of an inch long) appeared as a huge rocky Hill, and I could see my reflection in its shiny facets..in this life all of ¼ mm or less in width. Owl then came to the window, paused briefly on the sill, then shrank down himself to my size. He himself manufactured our Journey Tunnel this time, by creating a spray of his own Feathers that grew higher and higher, out the window and up to the sky. We flew up through this circling-feather cylinder and emerged onto a platform of a glass-like Flooring, with real Clouds, but thin and blue, serving as the Walls. Suddenly before me was a very large Scallop, with red lines (Red Tide bacteria?) coursing through various parts of its surface. So it WAS the scallops! Two herb names then floated by me: Mullein and Peppermint. (These were to help my wife heal, no doubt. We have Peppermint Tea, so I gave her some to take to work the next day.) I checked to see if her Power Animal Raccoon could help, but even though present in a far corner of this “room”, he was occupied with other of her issues. So Hummingbird, her other PA, arrived..and did the most remarkable thing. She came right up to me eyes and stuck her long beak into each pupil, filling them with Mana, or Spirit Essence. I then found myself inside my wife’s upper tract and tummy. I ran my hands in circles across her Throat and Stomach lining for several minutes, pouring yellow healing Light through my hands into her tissues. I was also physically moving my hands through the air above my bed at the same time..recall we are still partially in the conscious world during Journeys. Owl and I then traveled back through the Feather Tunnel, and I ended up at my wife’s work, and saw her working at her desk. I delivered some of that healing Energy to her directly. At this point, the work was done, for my mind began racing toward the installation of Ma’s new computer. At this point, the Call Back Drumming sounded, and I thanked my Helpers and was back. Cool to report: my wife came home from work the same evening and told me she started feeling much better in the early afternoon, around the time of this Journey..she found the juxtaposition remarkable, needless to say.. :)

Journey 79 - First for Twin Sister

8/6/04: A journey undertaken at my dear friend’s request to help sort out a situation involving a woman she knows. This woman’s twin sister died of a tumor, and lately the surviving sister has seen her twin in dreams, and has herself begun a battle with cancer. The sister asked my friend if she knew any psychics and she said no, but knew a Shaman. She then asker her to ask me to try and contact her departed sister and ask what she should do to help survive. After the usual preps, I was off. Using a 15-minute Drum CD, I quickly found myself on a branch with my newest Power Guide, Snowy Owl. We were next to a large converted barn, at night, with lovely yellow light in the windows. Beneath was a soft carpet of fresh snow, and the stars were vibrantly bright above. A gorgeous, picture-book scene. I asked Snowy Owl if we could go to the Upper World to help the sister, and he said to wait for the Tunnel. We looked above at the stars, and soon I saw a light blue eye forming in the Sky. The pupil was jet black, and from this opening emerged a Tunnel of thin green filaments that reached down to us. So up we went. It was a lengthy ride, giving me time to reflect back on the scene we had just left. As we exited the Tunnel, we were in a landscape with fallen red tree trunks lying on a marshy ground, with a few red Trees still standing. It seemed late afternoon. Owl and I sat there. Soon, a little girl of 5 or so came up to me. She was not smiling, but staring at me, wearing a light-colored spring dress, sporting blonde hair beneath a small cotton hat. I asked her name and if she were the departed sister. She said she was, but said I did not need to know her Earth name..that was a selfish device on my part to try and verify the Journey’s Truth, and would not be allowed. I did see a few of her Spirit Names flash by: Carla and Marie. I settled on the former. Suddenly from behind came numerous tall, dark Forms, heading quickly for me. I sensed myself in real danger, as if a trap had been set for me, and Owl quickly lifted me out of the scene. We were back in Space, and soon came to a large, carved wooden door. We went through and were now in a farm scene. We went to sit on a bench in the shade near the entrance to this land. Owl transformed into a Native Man, totally white, from skin and hair to dress. He began to speak to me in soft tones. Yes indeed, that was the twin sister I met. She had allowed me to be attacked so I could sense the strength of the forces stalking the living sister..they were in fact not after me, but came to demonstrate their determination and ability to cause fear. I then asked what we could so for the sister. The names of two herbs floated by: Peppermint (aids digestion, but can interfere with iron absorption, so watch this and compensate if necessary) and Horsetail (diuretic, reduces inflammation and muscle spasms. Aid calcium uptake. Aids healing of bones and tissues. Strengthens hearts and lungs. Can interfere with B1 uptake, so watch this and compensate if necesaary). I then saw eggs go by, sensing the sister should either eat eggs regularly and/or have a healthy breakfast. I then saw her sitting in a wooded area near her house, wearing headphones and listening to soft, beautiful music. This told me she needs to be outside a lot, and to calm herself with soft music. I then asked Owl, who told me his name was Angshwa, if we could assign a Power Animal to the sister to help her. And so the parade began, with a Fox, Elephant, and Hummingbird among others going by, but none stopping to show they were the choice. Then, out in the field of this farm, I saw a Lamb. And then there was “Carla”, stroking the Lamb’s back. She walked in with the Lamb to us, and gave it to me as the Power Animal. At this point I was taken to a deserted two story wooded house in a wooded area. Carla went into this deserted building and turned into a small blob of pure energy. She circled quickly through each room of the house, as I saw her zoom by each window. Suddenly she flew up the chimney and burst into millions of tiny piece of rainbow colored mana (Spirit essence), floating down and being absorbed by the Lamb, now standing faithfully next to her sister. I was told that this mana would from here on out always be there as a gift to her sister to help her fight the disease stalking her..and that she should therefore always think of herself surrounded by this rainbow swirl of healing Spirit Energy, the gift of her sister. She also told me the metaphor of this event..from the place of loneliness and desertion comes the sacred gift of life. The sister should always remember to derive the mana from such sad times and places to strengthen herself. I was then back at the farm, and Angshwa took me across the field to a small river. We went in. The water penetrated every cell of my body and felt so good. Angshwa then took cupped handfuls of water and began pouring them over me. With each handful I felt better and better, and found myself melting down into the water. Eventually I became the water! I found myself floating, and the Water Spirit was pulling impurities out of me as I lay in total serenity. Then, just as suddenly, Angshwa pulled me back to form, as it were, and he became Snowy Owl again. We were then heading back down the Tunnel to the barn scene. From there, I walked back into my back yard, and just as I got there, the Call Back sounded..perfectly timed.

Lamb as Power Animal: Associated with childlike peace and innocence. Eats plant matter, implying a need to increase vegetables, fruits, etc. in the diet. Wool keeps us warm even when wet, and since water is associated with the emotions, this means one must not allow ones emotions to put a chill on one’s outlook.