Journey 14 - Overcoming Fear of Death

I took this Journey in response to the Medicine Dream of the other night, in which I felt myself and my daughter and and grandaughter under attack from the dark force (white, oval head with red eyes in this case), back in my house in MA where all these Battles have played out. Recall that toward the end of that Dream I had gone downstairs, only to find several people in obvious total distress, slamming up against the windows with ebola-like symptoms and seeking help in a final desperation. I was yelling “No, No” and trying to get back up the stairs to my daughter. It was at this point that the Dream ended. My yells awoke my wife! I obviously still have some issues with fear.
So I took advantage of the earlier offer for me to Journey and see what is what with my Shadow Self, and what this Dream meant. I self-drummed, as I find this a more effective way to travel. I smudged the area with both Sage and Sweet Grass. I used the Shamanic Breathing technique for about two minutes to increase my Spirit Essence and to relax. I then headed out, with Two Feathers and Gray Wolf, my guardians, by my side. I found ourselves walking toward the golden sunset of the other night, attracted by the Spirit Power thereof. At first, the golden light was a brilliant road with the shining sun on the horizon, but then it expanded to became a plain. I saw some traditional western buildings to my right at one point, also gold, with the sun becoming a Tipi in the distance, gold as well. At times the colors shifted on the Plain, with Rose and Green showing up at times. Suddenly, the scene shifted, and I was standing next to a very tall Standing Person (Tree), that was a luminescent green with very thick leaf coverage..essentially no gaps and branches visible. There were Shamans sitting around the base of the Tree, and I knew these were the Shamans minding the Tree of Life. I joined them, and they handed me my own Pipe, that was also glowing in its own colors. As we Smoked, one of the Shamans told me I was well on my way in learning to deal with my Shadow Self, and that it actually wanted to cooperate with me in helping my achieve total Shaman’s Death. He also told me that my Dream was sent to show me what my basic reaction is still when presented with fear and the threat of death: self-preservation and preservation of my own immediate family. He told me I should have thought of the people outside the windows instead, and tried to help and heal them with my power of Prayer. In order to be in total unison with my Shadow Self, he went on, I must be ready to help those in the most need at all times, regardless on the consequences to myself or my family. Then, small golden balls of Spirit Essence (mana) appeared on the Tree. I was told to eat these often, for I would be helping feed my Shadow Self as well as myself. I then could see my Spirit Body a short distance in front of me, with my Shadow Self trapped within. As I watched him eat one of these golden fruits, he became smaller and more content. Then, the Sacred Tree began to radiate in different colors as we sat in silence. The lesson was over. Or so I thought. Suddenly, I saw a Skull before me, and knew instantly it was mine. I started to feed smaller orbs of the Golden Spirit Fruit through the eye sockets, based on instinctual instruction from my Helpers. This seemed amusing to me, as if it were a way of overcoming fear of my own Death. This action also was a way of increasing my own Spirit Power, I was told. I then walked into the Tree itself. It was not solid but enveloping, and I became one with its energy field. I felt at one with all things, and experienced the healing Power of all prior Shamans. My body was tingling from head to toe with delight and peace. I then decided to call myself back, and drummed back into the room, my body still tingling from the wonder of touching the Tree of Life. Many thanks to the Shamans and my Guardians who helped me in this Journey.