Journey 6 - First View of Two Feathers/Past Life - Altered!

8/8/03: I took my first bona-fide journey using my Shamanic Drumming CD. I had been asked to journey to the Lower World by Chipmunks and a Woodchuck, and I picked the tiny hole in the tree I saw the day before as my entry. I rattled to the 7 directions and smudged before turning on the CD, and during the opening song I went down into the hole and walked among the roués of the tree, all bespeckled in tiny gold lights. I kept me reason for the visit firmly in mid..which was, you folks asked me to visit, so please show me what it is you want me to see. I expected to see Crosses, my Snake guide. But as I entered a large wooded area, there was no Crosses. Instead, after a few minutes, I found my longtime Spirit Guardian Two Feathers. She did not look anything like the picture on my wall that represents her (no surprise there, eh?), but she was very friendly, had a round, brown face with smaller eyes and black hair, and a tight smile. She looked at me with that smile one gets when you say, so you have finally come! She took me hand and we hugged. Suddenly, we were flying hand in hand, she on my right, through the trees before us and into this valley/plain/dry river bed. On this valley were situated many Tipis, all the same size, all beautifully made and perfect, all with little designs or lights at the top. I figured this was “the” or “a” Spirit Camp, probably the one I came from. So to this point I had met Two Feathers and seen my former Camp prior to coming to this life..no WONDER they wanted me to visit to see what they had to show me! We passed an all black Tipi very closely, and suddenly were seated inside one. I can’t be sure if we went into the black one or not. While Two Feathers and I sat in this Tipi, a fire erupted in its center. These erupting Fires have been a constant theme in recent dreams and visions, and are no doubt related to my need for more energy. We sat and both chewed on this herb that Two Feathers had. We then placed the chewed herb in the top of a small Buffalo Skull in front of me. This Skull suddenly began to glow with a blue light. I placed my hands on it, and it suddenly lifted me up into the air. Within seconds, I was at the apex of a Tipi of light, the Skull and I at the top. As I looked down into the light, it became a move screen or sorts. On it, I saw scenes of Native life, including a Hunter on a Horse. I also saw myself clearly as a young boy, placing with my toy helicopter launcher outside my house ineastern MA as I actually did as a child. This time, however, I could see a huge dark Mass hovering over me..the Dark Force that trailed me in my youth, pulling me downstairs as related in an earlier journal. I beat this Force in my Shamanic Dream within the past year. I also saw my Shadow Self..quite an honor, but did not see any more than the shape. After I land back in the Tipi, Two Feathers feeds me the Herb out of the Skull..and suddenly I see myself as a young Eaglet in a nest on the side of a tree being fed by a Mother Eagle. At one point she brought her yellow eye within an inch of my eye and stared at me. So I was being fed by both Two Feathers and the Eagle simultaneously. I then shifted again and briefly saw my Snake Guide, Crosses in Front, standing before me..”Ah, there you are, I thought”..but she rapidly turned into a Horse, and I saw several Horse Faces melding before me, all very clear with very distinct eyes. I have a note that reads something like “albes” or “allnes” but I can’t interpret my own writing! :) At this point, I fell into a deeper level of semi-unconsciousness. I recall there were images running through this time, but I really don’t remember any of them. But what was quite startling to me is that I snapped back into consciousness exactly 1-2 seconds before the Journey Drumming ended! Somehow, I knew it was coming. Perhaps I had gone ahead in time and then come back to that moment. As the return drumming played, I stumbled back through my woods and tunnel and out of the tree, but I was so altered that I don’t know if I did it very well. I did thank my guides. I lay there and realized that I had been changed in an indescribable way. I had a huge amount of energy in my navel area, where the connective chakra is. I was sizzling with feeling there. And I remember feeling as if I had been taken apart and put back together again. I felt as if I had been genetically altered. I was no longer the same person. Whatever had happened while I was down deep, it had changed me in a significant way, and forever. It was a good change, that’s all I knew. I later described it to my friend A as feeling like I had come back to life from being dead..but again, in a very satisfying and fulfilling way. I felt very much more aware of everything. As I rose and sat on the side of the bed, I realized there were a huge bunch of crows sitting outside, singing. A few minutes later, as I walked upstairs to say hello to my wife, a bunch of Pipe Protection Birds flew from across the street an over the house/my head!