Friday, August 22, 2003

Journey 8 - Underground Bear

8/22: Self-drummed (versus CD) Journey introduces me to Underground Bear, the
Power Animal, who brings me a cure for the burning in my right-stomach area!
The Journey went like this: I went back to the yard where I had met the
Power Animal, and looked to the edge of the property to the left of where my
van was. There were some trees and low shrub there, and it wasn’t hard for
me to find a small opening in the ground to go down through. As I entered
the tunnel, Two Feathers and Crosses in Front were there. The tunnel was
similar to all my tunnels, with little gold lights therein. As we emerged
into the other side, for the first time it was dark! There were tiny
droplets of glowing purple mist hanging in the air, which I assumed from
their color were drops of Spirit Power, or what is called Mana. I saw the
droplets beginning to collect on our clothing and skin like little drops of
rain. I was then led to a fire made completely of a deep purple flame. I
picked up one of the purple sticks with the purple flame and honored the 7
Directions with it, assuming the flame was also made of Spirit Mana. Then,
Two Feathers and Crosses told me to go down through the center of the Fire,
which I did. Once underground, I could see clearly. Roots and little bulbs
of plants were all sticking down from the "ceiling", as if the dirt was
transparent. They were all glowing also, with different colors, such as
bright greens and reds. Suddenly my Power Animal arrived. He put me on his
back and gave me a short ride through the roots. We then stopped and
embraced with a long and warm hug. He told me his name was Underground
Bear. He is the one who helps Bear find the roots he needs for healing! So
he IS a companion to the Bear, as seen in my Dream. But now this capability
to find healing roots and plants was being given to me! Underground then
led me to a set of yellow potatoes glowing in the dark. I went very near to
the potatoes, and one sliced itself into thin slices, telling me I should be
eating a thin slice or two of raw potato every day for the burning near my
stomach. We then took another ride, and I saw the roots now also had
glowing purple drops on them. It occurred to me that Chipmunks and worms
must also be able to see through the dirt like this, something man has never
assumed or known. I hugged Underground again and he licked my neck. I
thanked him for his tour and help. He took me back to the fire through the
glowing roots. I came back up through the Fire to Two Feathers and Crosses,
who were now totally "soaked" in the purple light. I looked, and so was I!
The Fire and Droplets were tools to build Auras/Spirit Bodies!! I thanked
my Helpers and we all headed back to the surface like we came. As I came
back into my room, I noticed that I was hardly breathing. I clocked my
breath rate at maybe 4 breaths a minute. My heart rate was down in the low
60s. I had read that shamanic trips result in a much lowered metabolism
while one is "gone", and so it is. I went out later and a red Dragonfly
came near me all the way down the stairs, sort of buzzing me. Later still,
I pulled the Dragonfly Card!

Monday, August 18, 2003

Journey 7 - Westu Waja Wasaji

On my latest Shamanic Journey late last week, I asked if I should continue
with Weatherlook. A Peace Eagle guided me to a very wealthy mansion on a
beach..but it was totally empty of family and feeling. I was alone. The
Eagle then summoned me to the window and drove me into the sand, from where
I went out to a Tipi of purple Light. Inside this Tipi sat the local
Universe..stars and the like. To my right, on a large stone ledge sticking
out into Space, sat my Shaman trainer, Eagle Claw, to whom I went. He
showed me how to gather rainbow beams from every single star about us and
focus them into my body. With this incredible light energy pouring into me
from all directions, he yelled. "Heal someone!" My mind raced and I finally
picked a very ill person I know to send this healing light to. He then gave
me a phrase made up of words from different languages, which is my Power
Phrase. Anytime I utter it, this rainbow healing power is available to me,
and Eagle Claw will be there. I have researched the phrase since on the
Net, and a loose translation is, "he, brave and strong, who speaks from the
head, is a being from a different dimension." I have had no exposure to
these words whatsoever (one is Malaysian, one from Australia). But I WILL
use this phrase to heal. Upon returning to the mansion at the end of my
journey, it turned to dust. I am obviously meant to be a healer, not a
wealth-accumulator.

Tuesday, August 12, 2003

Journey 6a - Real Body State

8/12/03: Around 6:15 or so I had a break, so I decided to take a quick Journey before my wife and I went shopping. I Smudged, and Rattled to the 7 Directions, this time attaching my Spirit Feather. I then drummed using my own Drum, since I knew this had to be quick. As I began drumming, it came to me to enter the Spirit Prayer Lodge I've sensed out back. I asked my Snake Guide to meet me by the edge of the lawn..and she did. The Prayer Lodge now stood before us as a Tipi of Light. As we moved toward it together, we were suddenly moving along at ground level. I assumed I had taken on a Snake shape. We went into the Lodge by crawling thyrough a crack at the base of the "light" fabric covering the Tipi. First sight inside was the Plain of Tipis I saw in my last Journey, but soon the Lodge became a normal Tipi. Crosses, my Snake Guide, was at my right, and my Guardian, Two Feathers, appeared on my left. The Tipi then went completely black. Suddenly before me was a multi-faceted Crystal Sphere, looking a bit like a disco dance mobile. But it was a real Crystal, and as I drew near I saw that each facet had a scene from Earth on it. The Sphere quickly turned to present an orange Tunnel on its side. I entered through this Tunnel into a small, red-ornage area where the Prayer Dwellers were sitting. They passed me a Pipe..mine! I took a Smoke and then left my body. Looking at it (I was in front and to the right of it), I saw it was totally unanimated. It was hunched over and looking very battered and pasty, with the skin having the appearance of peeling wallpaper. I knew this was the real state of my body. I went back into it, and asked for of felt more tinkering going on to strengthen me. I then asked for the Pipe back and Smoked one more puff for Health, went out the Tunnel and back into the Tipi. The Sphere then transformed into a more traditional Crystal, with a long point. This means I have to purchase such a Crystal to help heal myself, one just like it if possible. I then began the trip back, thanking Two Feathers and Crosses. As I came back to my bedroom, I again felt altered. I drummed rapidly to bring myself back completely. A rapid Journey like this is quite comon among advanced practioners, and I am humbled I could do it. Quite the message, too. My body needs help..

Friday, August 08, 2003

Journey 6 - First View of Two Feathers/Past Life - Altered!

8/8/03: I took my first bona-fide journey using my Shamanic Drumming CD. I had been asked to journey to the Lower World by Chipmunks and a Woodchuck, and I picked the tiny hole in the tree I saw the day before as my entry. I rattled to the 7 directions and smudged before turning on the CD, and during the opening song I went down into the hole and walked among the roués of the tree, all bespeckled in tiny gold lights. I kept me reason for the visit firmly in mid..which was, you folks asked me to visit, so please show me what it is you want me to see. I expected to see Crosses, my Snake guide. But as I entered a large wooded area, there was no Crosses. Instead, after a few minutes, I found my longtime Spirit Guardian Two Feathers. She did not look anything like the picture on my wall that represents her (no surprise there, eh?), but she was very friendly, had a round, brown face with smaller eyes and black hair, and a tight smile. She looked at me with that smile one gets when you say, so you have finally come! She took me hand and we hugged. Suddenly, we were flying hand in hand, she on my right, through the trees before us and into this valley/plain/dry river bed. On this valley were situated many Tipis, all the same size, all beautifully made and perfect, all with little designs or lights at the top. I figured this was “the” or “a” Spirit Camp, probably the one I came from. So to this point I had met Two Feathers and seen my former Camp prior to coming to this life..no WONDER they wanted me to visit to see what they had to show me! We passed an all black Tipi very closely, and suddenly were seated inside one. I can’t be sure if we went into the black one or not. While Two Feathers and I sat in this Tipi, a fire erupted in its center. These erupting Fires have been a constant theme in recent dreams and visions, and are no doubt related to my need for more energy. We sat and both chewed on this herb that Two Feathers had. We then placed the chewed herb in the top of a small Buffalo Skull in front of me. This Skull suddenly began to glow with a blue light. I placed my hands on it, and it suddenly lifted me up into the air. Within seconds, I was at the apex of a Tipi of light, the Skull and I at the top. As I looked down into the light, it became a move screen or sorts. On it, I saw scenes of Native life, including a Hunter on a Horse. I also saw myself clearly as a young boy, placing with my toy helicopter launcher outside my house ineastern MA as I actually did as a child. This time, however, I could see a huge dark Mass hovering over me..the Dark Force that trailed me in my youth, pulling me downstairs as related in an earlier journal. I beat this Force in my Shamanic Dream within the past year. I also saw my Shadow Self..quite an honor, but did not see any more than the shape. After I land back in the Tipi, Two Feathers feeds me the Herb out of the Skull..and suddenly I see myself as a young Eaglet in a nest on the side of a tree being fed by a Mother Eagle. At one point she brought her yellow eye within an inch of my eye and stared at me. So I was being fed by both Two Feathers and the Eagle simultaneously. I then shifted again and briefly saw my Snake Guide, Crosses in Front, standing before me..”Ah, there you are, I thought”..but she rapidly turned into a Horse, and I saw several Horse Faces melding before me, all very clear with very distinct eyes. I have a note that reads something like “albes” or “allnes” but I can’t interpret my own writing! :) At this point, I fell into a deeper level of semi-unconsciousness. I recall there were images running through this time, but I really don’t remember any of them. But what was quite startling to me is that I snapped back into consciousness exactly 1-2 seconds before the Journey Drumming ended! Somehow, I knew it was coming. Perhaps I had gone ahead in time and then come back to that moment. As the return drumming played, I stumbled back through my woods and tunnel and out of the tree, but I was so altered that I don’t know if I did it very well. I did thank my guides. I lay there and realized that I had been changed in an indescribable way. I had a huge amount of energy in my navel area, where the connective chakra is. I was sizzling with feeling there. And I remember feeling as if I had been taken apart and put back together again. I felt as if I had been genetically altered. I was no longer the same person. Whatever had happened while I was down deep, it had changed me in a significant way, and forever. It was a good change, that’s all I knew. I later described it to my friend A as feeling like I had come back to life from being dead..but again, in a very satisfying and fulfilling way. I felt very much more aware of everything. As I rose and sat on the side of the bed, I realized there were a huge bunch of crows sitting outside, singing. A few minutes later, as I walked upstairs to say hello to my wife, a bunch of Pipe Protection Birds flew from across the street an over the house/my head!

Friday, August 01, 2003

Journey 5 - First Upper World Experience

I decided before sleeping to try to journey to the Upper World, so I smudged and breathed, then took my drum. I asked the Falcon from Niagara Falls to take me. At first we met in this tree out back, and then I rode up on his back. We headed for the Cathedral Ledge in North Conway to look for the opening upward. We went into the woods up there and then he launched me up this tunnel of gossamer light threads. As I went up, I kept grounding, either back to Earth or two the Under World. So I came back out and we tried again. This time we decided to try rising up the rainbow over the Horseshoe Falls. This worked, for I emerged from the rainbow path into many different realities. Again I saw my Spirit Guide Eagle Claw, but assumed he was there by mistake..as I write this, I realize he may have been there to help me. But my goal was merely to visit this world, so he was not there for long. I saw many different sights, many of which I have forgotten, but I did see a bright green ball made of luminescent points of green light that I went into to behold a beautiful forest, embedded within which was a blue tipi of air/light that I visited. Once inside I felt I had been there before. The insides were made of stars, and at one point I was walking across a Star Universe. Eventually, all turned into this white cloud, and in the center was a bird shaped head with those ebony eyes, within which several human face shapes formed and left. I assumed this was my guide in the Upper World. I did not make contact, but felt at home. As I say, there were other sights I saw, but have left behind. Several times the images were so striking it caused me to stop drumming, so I started right up again. At one point I actually saw things being formed out of mist. Several church-like buildings formed well below me as I floated in clouds, which parted just enough for me to see the little white squares come into existence. I also watched a Collie-like dog come into being, at least the upper half, at it was an iridescent gold and white as it formed. So I knew I was in the place where things are created from, the Upper World. These sights were as I recall the only ones that let me know this for sure. I journeyed back through the rainbow to Niagara, to Cathedral, to the bedroom, thanking the Falcon for his help. As I write this I am still VERY tired..too tired to really enjoy what I have seen. The journey surprised me in that it took a half hour..it didn’t seem that long.