Journey 41 - Kundalini

3/31 – Journey to witness my Kundalini unfolding and to learn how to use this new energy to better myself. My Owl Guide came in over me right inside the bedroom, wings flapping, and grabbed me with his talons. We began to fly immediately, with my face pressed into his breast, so I could only see the Tunnel we were flying up into passing obliquely. His wings made no noise as we went. The Tunnel was made of purple and green spots of light, though. We went passed several places to which I had journeyed previously, and as each went by, I wondered if we were going to stop there. But no, we went to a place above all the places I had previously been. We landed and sat on the bright-green, glowing top branch of a Tree sitting in the middle of a very deep blue field of undulating energy, with the appearance of veils. Owl, to my right, was very blue himself. I looked up and saw Eagle flying in from above, and he hovered overhead. Off in the distance I saw Black Panther stalking along, stopping a distance in front of me. All my primary Totems were arriving! I looked below and saw the Snake of my prior Journey climbing up the trunk of our Tree, mouth wide open and golden eyes ablaze. Snake looked as if he were coming to eat, and he was. Just below me, suspended in mid “air”, were red blocks containing the various thought-habits and beliefs that have been with me for years. I saw the block representing my belief as a teenager that girls could never find me attractive. I saw the belief that sports figures in high school thought me a fool. Other beliefs were there, and one by one Snake was chowing them down. With each eaten block, his Eyes lit up as two powerful rainbow beams that shot the reclaimed energy up into my brain. I looked above me and saw a canopy of rainbow colored energy suspended over me. I saw Eagle’s shape outlined within. I saw my Aura rising up toward this ceiling, and as each block got consumed, the color from the transformed energy would zoom up to brighten the corresponding color in my Aura. Each lost belief made my Aura stronger through the shot of rainbow energy from Snake’s eyes. A set of musical notes kept playing..a mantra for me, which I memorized. I then looked up to see that my Shaman’s symbol (an “S” with a parenthesis in the upper right quadrant, and a dot within each loop of the “S”) was actually part of a figure 8 enclosed within a Circle, two of the most potent images in all of Native thought! In other words, my Shaman life was still unfinished, but was within reach. I soon rose above even my own Aura and the cap above it, and was looking down on them. My essence had escaped my spirituality! I was suspended above, floating as awareness. All around me was sheer blackness, but a feeling of total allness and union within the nothingness. I moved further and further out until my Aura was a mere speck in this darkness, and still I felt the total unity with my surroundings. I realized I exist beyond my current self, even the spiritual being! I felt calm, peace, warmth, forever, no stress, nothing important.. It made my current existence seem so trivial, but in a nice way. I soon came back to my Aura, and from there went back down to the Tree. I was amazed at how calm and “one” I felt. Owl hugged me from my right, and Eagle landed to hug me from my left. I was safely ensconced within each set of breast feathers, and felt like a young chick within the total protection of the blanket. It was warm and soothing there. Then, Owl flew me back to the room, and I drummed back, thanking my Guides. Lying there, re-grounding to this existence, I felt that total peace of the Void remain with me, and was hardly breathing..as if breath didn’t matter anymore. I looked at my Journey candle and saw my totality within its dancing, small flame. I am that flame.. I intend to revisit this part of my existence again.