Journeys 157 and 158 - The Purple Dragon/A Small Visit with the Twin Sister Spirit

2/25/05: I had originally intended for this Journey to be my attempt to contact the Twin sister's deceased sister again, as the former has seen a car that reminds her of her sister over and over again..in fact, even in the past few days, she has seen that car several times. I feel strongly as does she that her sister is trying to contact her from the Spirit World, and so I decided to see what message she might have.

But this was not to be in THIS Journey. First, a small backgrounder. After the Soul Restoration Ceremony on the 23rd, I found the 24th to be one of the more aggravating mornings of recent memory. It seemed everything I did went sour, and I could almost feel some force working against me. Even as we were heading out to ski that day, I saw a huge Hawk fly just in front of the car from right to left, another sign that things were awry, that some danger was present. So I guess it was no surprise that after preparing myself for this Journey to visit with the deceased sister, things went off course VERY quickly.

I was whisked off to some dark woods almost immediately. No chance to meet with my Guides, or find a Tunnel. I saw before me a very large, light yellow Tipi, shimmering as it stood there. Suddenly a purple Dragon-like Being came flying from behind this Tipi and began to attack me. Having no Guides or Protectors, I realized I needed to fend off this attack myself..when suddenly I remembered I was physically wearing my Shaman’s Mirror! I called on both the Mirror and its Spirit, Utawa, the Blue Shaman. He came immediately and scooped me up, transporting me to the shore of a tropical island..about as far away as one could get, I suppose, from this wooded domain. There was my Guide, Owl. We saw and awaited a Tunnel’s appearance, and it was not long in coming. On the horizon we saw a black circle forming. As we headed for it, Eagle (my Power Animal) and Crosses in Front, my Lower World Guide Snake, joined us. They often come along on my Journeys to give me added protection and strength. We exited the Tunnel into dark, deserted, old woods. Nearby stood a decaying house, devoid of any signs of human life. We came up to am open grave..the tombstone revealed it belonged to one Henry Wade who had died in 1782. I instinctively pulled a Sword with a gleaming blade of light from my Shaman’s Mirror. Soon thereafter the purple Dragon Being came and sat in the open grave. This Dragon was obviously the shape Henry Wade’s angry Spirit had assumed. But why? I sensed that Henry had been cursed by a Native American Shaman for things Henry had done to the Shaman’s villagers in the past. The Dragon was therefore stalking the Earth and attacking other Shamans in revenge. I took my Mirror and released the curse from Henry, and there lay his bones in his grave. Eagle Claw, my Guide who takes Owl form, then turned to me and said I should probably have first asked the Shaman who had placed the curse on Henry for permission to release him. Ooops. Within seconds, we were back in my bedroom, and there I found that Shaman’s Spirit waiting for me. Just prior to this, I had seen a fleeting image of a man being pulled out of a window violently by a rope tied around his neck. This suggested that hanging had been involved in whatever Henry had done to the Natives. The Native Shaman now spoke, and told me Henry had been very bad to his tribal members, and I had now just set “him” loose, versus properly fixing his Spirit and releasing it from its negative aspects. Why had I done this? I told the Shaman that Henry was now going around attacking other Shamans, myself included just today. The Shaman, who revealed himself now as “West Wind”, took out a small Tipi-shaped Crystal. It was the same shape and color as the one I had seen at the start of this journey, but much smaller now. I could see the purple Dragon still flying around it. I had indeed released Henry from the Curse but not taken care of his Anger. We both then released Henry and watched as his Spirit moved up into the Sky as a Rainbow. West wind then gifted me: he placed a thin, off-white light shield and melded it into my Aura, to remain there permanently. It was as if he had given some of his essence to me. I now have the added strength of Shaman West Wind’s Spirit in mine. I shall honor him and call on him as circumstances demand in future Shamanic work. Then the Call Back sounded and the Journey ended.

I have since done a bit of research on the name Henry Wade and his date of death. There are a lot of Henry Wades and the Search Engine is not too good at isolating the exact person just yet. If I have time someday I’ll do more research..what matters is that Henry is restored.


The second Journey of the day was now on, and was the one intended before the above events transpired. I was already in Sacred Space and so opened the Drum CD and began focusing on my intention. I found myself sitting with Owl in the middle of a very large Tree. Below us the Tree was completely barren, and from our level upwards the Tree was rich with green boughs of fir. Below us was an unrecognizable Planet, whitish with a rough surface but no distinguishable features. It almost looked like tapioca. Owl and I then went upwards, through the green branches. We actually past through versus by them, and the branches produced a cool and refreshing feeling as they swept through me. We went by the Tree Top and into Space. Off to my right I saw a room. Upon further inspection, as I got closer, it had the look of a sunroom, bright yellow, with the Sun pouring in from the left. There was a fireplace at the far end. A woman was leaning slightly forward on a beige couch on the left side, sun to her back, her hands clutched together. There was a coffee table before her. This was the Twin Sister in the Spirit World. She told me the car sightings were indeed a message to her sister here on Earth that she missed her a lot, and was therefore always with her. I should interject at this point that I was very tired when beginning this Journey, and so from here on in found myself fading in and out quite a bit. I saw several images after this: the sister offered me a porcelain mound that soon turned into a small Crystal bowl filled with small chocolate covered somethings, perhaps raisins. I also saw her in a Trading post-like store, outdoors wear, holding up a pullover hat with long drawstrings down either side, colored with very small white and red checks. At another point where I faded in, I saw the Sister turn into her Spirit Self. At a later moment, she told me to tell her sister here to “keep a leg up.” The Call Back sounded, and I returned to take a nap. During this in-and-out nap, though, a final image appeared. I saw a young girl sitting on a stool with her back to the wall, holding onto what I believe was a small doll or toy. There was a doorway immediately to her left, and a stove to the left of the doorway where I was standing. I got the sense this was from a time quite a few years ago.

Journey 156 - Soul Restoration for the Twin Sister

2/23/05: This Journey was taken in order to restore the Twin sister's Soul Piece. The Sister and her daughter (who came for support) showed up at exactly 10 AM, as previously arranged. They had small gifts for me and and my wife..such lovely people. This was to be my first Journey and Soul Restoration done “live”, that is, with the person present. I also was to speak aloud as the Journey progressed, and this was also a first. I felt that if the sister could actually hear what I was experiencing as I brought back her Soul Piece, as it actually was happening, it would mean so much more to her. The question was: could I do it?! Time would tell..

For the Retrieval and Restoration, I had set up an Altar in my Family room by covering the coffee table with my thick cotton shirt with a huge Eagle on it. I use this shirt for my object consecrations. Upon the shirt I placed my Sacred Pipe..so much Spirit Energy there, and a must to be witness and Helper! I placed my Smudge Bowl, and Eagle Feather with which to fan both the Sage and Sweet Grass. In the center was the Sacred Candle, brand new so Janie could take it with her. At the Cardinal points I placed four tiny Stone People who had volunteered earlier in the day, there to form the boundaries of the Altar Circle. They also left with her after the Restoration. Finally, I had my Rattle there. It had requested new Feathers be placed on it for this Ceremony..the other two that had been there for months had suddenly just fallen off. All was therefore in the ready prior to their arrival.

Before the Ceremony, we spoke for almost an hour about Shamanism and the principals of Soul, Soul Loss, the three Spirit Worlds, Helpers, etc. We spoke a bit of western religions and their lack of emphasis both on the importance of Female Power in the Sacred Balance, and how to actually access the Spirit Worlds in order to achieve Spiritual independence. I also went into great detail about exactly what I would be doing during the Ceremony, and why. Finally, we were ready.

We sat comfortably, and I had chosen a couch on which to eventually lie and Journey with my Drum CD while the others sat comfortably and watched, my wife from her chair and the sister and daughter on the other couch. I explained the concept of Smudging, using the Sage to repel negative Energies and Sweet Grass to call in positive Spirits. I told of the concept of the Fire: representing us living at our center, being our own personal flame, made of both matter and energy, in touch with all space and time and the Great Spirit. I used the Eagle Feather to spread the Smoke around, using a figure-8 pattern to represent Infinity, the Circle of Existence. I then took up the Rattle and opened up Sacred Space by Rattling to the 7 directions. I prayed aloud while Rattling to each Spirit element, and tied in the sister’s needs with my traditional prayers. I explained how by Rattling at the roughly the same speed as the drumming, I prepare myself in advance for leaving my body. When I then laid down to Journey, I explained how I was focusing on my single request..to find and bring back the Soul Piece..by repeating it over and over until I saw the beginning visions of the Journey begin.

They weren’t long in coming. I was suddenly in a dense and rich Forest, Trees thick with brilliantly green canopies. I saw my Upper World Guide Owl fly toward me from one of the Trees. He lifted me up to the top of the Canopy of Trees. I spoke this aloud as it was happening, as I did with all the key events I’m reporting here. The speaking did not interfere with the Journey at all, and this gives me great hope that I can do this with others as well. As Owl and I sat on top of a Tree, awaiting the Tunnel to the Upper World in the Sky to form, I noticed the Clouds were Orange. Suddenly, a light green Sphere appeared in the Sky. We flew toward this, the Tunnel Opening. Suddenly my Power Animal, Eagle, flew in from the right to join us. I think he just wanted to come along for the “Joy ride.” We soon exited the Tunnel and were out in Deep Space. The background thereof was a twilight blue versus its traditional black. It was a stunning sight to see the stars hanging in this blue Space. Very soon, off to the right, I spotted a small Rock Ledge hanging in Space. It was very similar to the Ledge upon which I had my first meeting in Space with Eagle Claw (Owl). I saw the little girl standing there. I didn’t even have to go back to the Cave of Lost Souls, where I had had a brief visit with her in a prior Journey. Next to her was a small Pool of Water with a Mirror-like stillness. We looked in together, and the reflection of the little was the big twin sister, announcing the coming reunion! Then, grabbing hands, she and I jumped into the Pond, with Owl and Eagle coming along as well. The Pond quickly became an Ocean, filling the scene from horizon to horizon. The Sky was a light blue with ill-defined white Clouds..quite tranquil. The Ocean then became my Shaman’s Mirror surface. The little one then came up to me and hugged my leg, looked up and said, “thank you!” She then told me that she loved me for helping her. These actions brought me to tears. She then told me that as she re-entered her older self, she was going to be saying “I love you” over and over, and asked that the sister do the same. She then asked that the sister forgive her for leaving her as she did..which again brought me to tears. She then melded into the Mirror, ready for the Transfer. Owl and Eagle and I then zoomed back up to the green Tunnel and returned to the Forest. Owl came up to me and point blank range and stared at me, as if pouring Energy into me. Eagle gathered me into the cozy space beneath his left Wing. The Journey was now over. I kept trying to advance the CD to the Call Back drumming but could not, so I brought myself back manually by tapping on the player once the Drumming was off. I was soon back in the Family Room, my face still wet with tears.

The sister asked how it felt upon returning, and although it is very hard to describe the feeling of having been away and suddenly being back where you were before, I did my best. I said I felt a tranquility and peace that is unlike anything you can experience in normal living. You are both one with and yet totally apart from everything at the same time as you return. You feel as if your body has stopped working, and is now just starting back up again.

I then took the Mirror and held it over the Sacred Flame to warm the little Soul Piece up a bit, and to infuse the Mirror with the Energy of the Twin Sister’s Eternity, as represented by the Candle. I then handed the Mirror to the sister and had her hold it over her Heart and then her Head, to let her little Soul Piece come in through the Chakras in both places. She did this in silence, holding the Mirror close. I had my eyes shut and hands pressed together. During the Transfer, I saw the little girl jumping on her lawn, turn to me and then wave goodbye. I then saw the Blue Shaman, Spirit of my Mirror, hovering over the sister and moving his hands down both sides of her body to help seal in the Restoration. The sister then reported that she felt an immense calm, a relaxation, and that her hands had become very heated holding the Mirror. This was of course due to the transfer of her Soul Piece’s Spirit Energy back to her. We talked more after that, and I explained how different people react differently to such a Reunion with a Soul Piece. Some get flooded with emotions/issues long since missing or dormant. Others fell little to nothing initially, and then just a minor change. Her reaction of peacefulness boded very well for this Restoration.

I decided to do a follow-on Journey for her concerning the possibility her twin Sister was trying to reach her from the Spirit Camp. She also asked me to check her Aura, and I found a small dark area on the left side of her head. She confirmed then that there was indeed still a problem there needing resolution, the same problem that had led me to my first Journey for her. I plan to check this out as well.

Some post-notes: The Orange Clouds: orange is the color of joy and wisdom and creativity, according to Ted Andrew’s The Healers Manual. “It stimulates feeling of socialness. It is tied to our emotional health and to the muscular/nervous systems. Individuals experiencing emotional paralysis are helped by this color.” The Blue of Deep Space seems to me to represent the Spirit of my Mirror, the Blue Shaman, Utawa. This is made more certain by the fact that the little Soul Piece was standing next to a mirror-like Pond..a sure sign she was ready and eager for the Restoration to place via my Mirror. The Pond temporarily becoming an Ocean signified the rich fullness of female Energy involved here. The little girl's exuberance and excitement over the impending reunion was nothing short of astonishing and emotionally overwhelming. Very gratifying. The fact the the sister felt so much peace and relaxation after the Reunion showed that indeed her childlike qualities had returned to her with her Soul Piece. In fact, she reported to me that next day that she was still in a very relaxed and unhurried mode. Finally, I wish all Shamans could deal with such opening-minded and sweet persons. The sister and her daughter were so patient, willing and helpful, and it made the Ceremony flow so much better. :)

Finally, my wife had suggested before they left that they take my VCR tape by Albert Villoldo, who has had extensive dealings with Andes Shamans, is a Shaman himself, and who does a super job explaining the Spirit Energy Body and how imprints and entities cause illness. She wrote to me the next day to say how much she really enjoyed it..she’s gonna watch it again! She finally knows the Truth.

Journeys 154 and 155 - Helping my Daughter Cope/Friend's House Revisited

2/22/05: A Journey to help my daughter find relaxation with her extremely hectic life, taken at her request. I prepared in the usual way and began. I was soon in a rather flat land, covered with deep Snow, with short Pine Trees dotting the area. I heard beautiful female singing in the air. Owl arrived and hovered before me, and suggested I turn around, since the singing was now coming from directly behind me. There, in resplendent light-beauty, stood the Spirit of Song herself, looking about 30 feet tall in our measurements. As she sang, her Aura changed colors with the notes, so that each sound had its own Aural existence. It was breathtakingly beautiful to watch and hear. She began to speak to me, with advice for my Daughter. She said that all songs are played and/or sung one note at a time. Life must be lived the same way. One does not attempt to play an entire symphony at once, but rather goes through each note, giving each its due value and energy. Thus it must be with our life tasks. I was then lifted up into the Sky, and I saw ethereal Wind Spirits floating by. Each was singing a unique song. The Spirit of Song told me then that each human has a Wind Spirit assigned specifically to him or her, and each Spirit is meant to deliver that unique song to each person. The trouble is, she said, most Humans do not listen for their Wind, or more accurately, Soul Song. Once a Human knows his or her Soul song, though, they experience a calm and centering unmatched in any prior experience here on Earth. They can always return to this calmness simply by singing their Soul Song. The Spirit of Song told me my daughter must listen for her Soul Song..in the Wind, or in a Dream, asked for before falling asleep. She’ll know when it enters, for the feeling of Peace will be profound. Spirit then told me I could place my daughter’s Wind Spirit in her silver Bear Charm I bought her, and the Spirit would live there with her Power Animal until Jen heard her song, which would be hovering right over her head the entire time. She just needs to hear it. I then began wondering if I had heard my Soul song yet. In a duhhhh! Moment, Spirit of Song then reminded me of my Hollow Bone notes. THAT, she said, is your Soul Song, for you can use it to Journey instantly from wherever you are. I then heard my Song Notes being sung by what seemed like multitudes. The Trees and Landscape then exploded into millions of colored specks of Spirit Energy. My Power Animal Eagle flew by me, also singing my Soul Song..then Owl brought me back to the room. I thanked Owl and the spirit of Song. After this Journey, I consecrated my daughter’s Bear Charm, added the Wind sprit carrying her Soul song, and gave it to her, with a verbal description of the lessons given in this Journey.

This second Journey was to check out the Spiritual make-up of my dear friend’s Mother’s house in a nearby town. This was a follow-up Journey to one taken a month or so ago in which I had seen that house being slowly covered in a black, dripping molasses of negative Energy. After that Journey, I had suggested to my friend that she place an Oboo (a Stone Person mound with Twigs standing up, with colored streamers on it..a gift of the Mongolian Shaman tradition) in the house to attract good Spirits from the local area to help ward off this rain of darkness that was occurring.

She had placed the Oboo in the Attic a week or two ago, and so I told her I would revisit the House and see if the Oboo had helped. As I arrived at the House with Owl, I saw massive changes indeed. The entire structure was now composed of a thin, wispy light..as if it had no solid form. It had the appearance of being made entirely of heat Energy. Up in the Attic, where the Oboo had been placed, there was a tremendous conflagration of Golden Mana, looking like a small fireworks display. I saw some of the local Nature Spirits up there, dancing around the “Fire”, and they invited me to join in. I went up and as I danced around, the Oboo became a purple color, the color of highest Spirituality. As I peered into the Vortex, I could see images of the house and people who had lived there from past times. My continual dancing made the Vortex begin growing upwards, and it soon shot up into the Sky. I went up and into Space to observe its new top. There, I saw millions of colored specks flowing form nearby Stars flowing smoothly into the Vortex and sinking down through it toward Earth. I went back down, and observed the Star Specks beginning to fill the lowest parts of the House up with golden Energy. The House is being reclaimed! The Dancers then told me to look for a particular Stick in my yard to add to the Oboo..recent snows have delayed that. They also told me to take one of my last remaining small Quartz Crystals and wash it with Arshaan (Shaman Blessing Liquid) and have that placed on the Oboo as well. I then looked up and saw Rock Pigeons circling the House, as always reflecting the various Rainbow Colors. I was to give my friend a Pigeon Feather for her Oboo also. Finally, one of the Pigeons came up to me and began placing bird seed from its mouth into my hand. I was to place a small amount of Bird seed in a pouch and have that placed at the Oboo.

Here the Journey ended..but I still had a bit of time left, and so I moved into my own Vortex. I watched as the following images flittered across my Visual Cortex: Owl sitting at a Fire (reminding me of the Oboo work just done), Fox’s face transforming into a Deer Face (representing camouflaging and family, tempered with gentleness), and then a Bear walking along with a Star balanced on the tip of its nose. The Bear stopped and looked at me..I could see both eyes shine for a second or two. Bear represents healing, and the fact her was carrying a Star along showed that indeed the Energy from the Stars was healing the house. That was that. I thanked all the Spirits and returned.

Journey 153- For my Son's Friend's Uncle

2/13/05: This Journey was taken on behalf on an Uncle of my son’s friend who has recently been diagnosed with lung cancer. I promised I would check out the Spiritual underpinnings of this disease and see what might be done. What follows is one of the richer and more challenging results. I prepared in the usual way, Smudging, Rattling and lighting the Sacred Candle..and then I was off. I set the CD for a 15 minute time.

As I entered the Spirit World, I found myself clinging to a mostly submerged log lying across a quickly flowing River. I was up to my chin in the water. Owl flew in and landed on the log. I looked beneath the surface and saw a Sea Bass a few feet ahead, paused in the flow and staring at me, indicating he wished to tell or show me something. When I poked my head back up into the air, the River had risen, and my supporting log was totally submerged. Owl then lifted me out of the Water and we rose quickly several hundred feet up into the air. From there, we could see the River extending into the distance, with Sea Bass swimming up along it, and we followed. Owl and I then noticed a tiny, circular inlet to the right that was filled with a red liquid, which we assumed correctly was blood. We swooped down to check it out, and as we approached I saw a large, black, Gorilla-like Spirit Being dancing on the shores of this little pool of blood. Owl and I swooped into a Tree and landed very close by. From there we could see the pool of blood seething, as if boiling, and being stirred up by this Being, who seemed to be enjoying his actions very much. I then looked off to my right slightly, and in a clearing next to this pond saw a man kneeling over a second man, who was on his back. The former was beating on the latter with a stick or a bat. I then saw a body float up to the surface in the pool. The Being then literally pulled a black blanket over the entire area, turning it to night. The only light was from the glowing pool of blood. I assumed at this time that, with events left unchecked, this might signal an early death for the Uncle. So, I asked Owl if we could get a Power Animal or in some other way intervene on his behalf. At this point, my Lower World Guide Snake came along from behind me to my right, and took me quickly over to a small opening in the ground. We went down a Tunnel of Water and ended up in the Ocean. As I floated there with Crosses in Front (Snake), several Sharks approached me and circled. None seemed to be engaging enough to be a Power Animal. Crosses and I then were led by a Dolphin and zoomed along until we came to a Council of Dolphins, all “seated” in a circle. We took a place at this Council, and asked if there were a Power Animal available for the Uncle. After some hemming and hawing, a baby Dolphin burst up from below and grabbed me. He took me over to the Pool of Blood and then beneath it. There, I could see a portion of the inside of a house, well-stocked with shelves and collectibles, items of sentimental value. Into this room from the floor was seeping a green/blue gas, rising in tiny, individual streams. This told me there was a physical underpinning to the Cancer..some sort of chemical leakage or perhaps radon gas. Baby Dolphin then returned me to the Council, where again I asked about a Power Animal. At this point a Rainbow Trout zoomed in and jumped into my pocket. This was the PA! Crosses and I then quickly returned to the surface, where I rejoined Owl. Emboldened with the PA, I announced my presence by standing up with my Shaman’s Mirror and pointed it at the Being. He sensed my presence and seemed to know a Shaman had come against him, for although he came right up and stared at us, he seemed powerless to go any further. I then absorbed his Energy and the Black Sky Energy into my Mirror, restoring the daylight. I was then instructed to take the Mirror outside after the Journey and place it on the ground to a count of 7, so that other Earth could absorb and transmute the darkness. I don’t recall if the pool turned a normal color after the absorbing..I wasn’t shown this. At this point, we flew back to the log. I was soon standing on the surface of my Mirror, a place that seems to be a meeting place with my Guides. Eagle Claw (Owl) and Utawa, the Spirit of the Mirror, were both there. They were fashioning something with their hands, and presented it to me. It looked a lot like the symbol one sees on the cloth covering of an altar in a Catholic church. I believe it is the symbol of the Pope or perhaps Peter, a “P” with a smaller “X” overlaid. This symbol then turned into a pile of small sticks in the shape of a Tipi, and the Rainbow Trout jumped out of my pocket and dove into this pile, circling down and growing smaller as he went, then disappearing. I was led to understand that this pile of sticks was the Uncle’s bones, and that the Power Animal was now at work therein to help fight this disease. The Journey was near an end now. My Guides told me that was all they had. I was now back in my room back acutely aware that some sort of Energy was moving along my skin, mainly in the legs. I sensed a Dark Being hovering over me, with the Dark Energy sinking into me temporarily. I asked my Helpers to come and remove it, and Snake and my Guardian Two Feathers both came and lifted this Energy off me as if it were a piece of stiff paper, or a sheet of thin glass. They folded this “paper” up and put it inside my Mirror, to be disposed off along with the rest of the Energy I had collected. I can’t be sure if this was a remnant of the “gorilla” dark Energy I had collected earlier, or another weak force coming against me as a general matter. In either case, this attack was a first for a Journey’s end, and I am grateful my Helpers cleared it from me. The Mirror, lying on my chest, served as a block to the Energy, which flattened out along the lane of the Mirror like a dark fluid along a glass bottom, and penetrated no further. A classic example of the Mirror repelling negative Energies.

Here are the messages I can glean from this:

Water: the rising Water in the River, and the use of Fish for transport, all indicate an immense presence of either emotional or feminine turmoil. In particular, the rising of the river shows the problem is getting worse with time. The Uncle needs to rein in his emotions and/or fix problems with the feminine side of himself or others.

Sea Bass: An ocean fish. This, and the fact we found the PA (a freshwater, River fish) out in the Ocean indicates a problem with distinguishing the Big Picture in Life (Ocean) from the Little Details, the “small stuff” (River). The Uncle needs to see the big picture..

Violence: Can’t be sure if the Uncle is the victim or the perpetrator of violence, or perhaps he or those close to him resort in verbal violence. In either case, this must stop. A gentle, calm and reasoning approach to problems is required.

Dolphins: The Council of Dolphins: Dolphins represent the power of Sound and Breath. They use sound in the water to manifest their desires, and the Uncle could learn a lesson about using sounds properly in his emotions to affect desired results in his life. Also, breathing is very important..slow, deep breathing is much healthy than short, nervous breaths. Dolphin means it’s time to breathe new life into yourself..get out and play in the waters of life.

Rainbow Trout: The Uncle must begin to reflect back some of the light and positive Energies others are pouring into him, and in a beautiful way. By reflecting back what others are giving with much more beauty than is received, one heals oneself. In essence, one’s Aura (and especially the Uncle’s) must be bursting with colors at all times..

Bones: White Blood cells come from the bones, and so having the Power Animal go into them is a very good sign that if the Uncle makes some of the changes recommended here by the Helpers, his immune system will take care of his problem.

Chemicals: Obviously there is some chemical cause as well..as mentioned above, radon gas, a cleaner, a solvent..something is reacting very dangerously with the Uncle’s tissues. This must be found and eliminated.

Catholic reference: This means the Uncle must re-energize his Spiritual self, not necessarily go back to any organized religion. I don’t know if he is a Catholic, but the symbology speaks to his finding his core beliefs in Spirit matters and going back into proper relationship with these beliefs.

Gorilla shape of Dark Being: Apes represent self-control, self-discipline, and confidence to express oneself through gentleness and kindness. The fact this Totem was the primary Dark Energy implies these qualities are compromised in the Uncle..he needs to bring them back, and regain the respect of those around him who miss them.

The removal of the Dark Being and Sky into my Mirror and subsequent release into Mother Earth (which I did right after the Journey) means the opportunistic Spirit that had latched onto and was stimulating the Disease has been removed. This alone will allow healing to move in (even if a minor surgery is required to remove the physical remnants)..but this will last only as long as the Emotional and Spiritual Healing outlined above also occurs, and the physical cause (toxic gas of some sort) is gone.

10/13/05: My son reports via his Friend that the Uncle's Cancer has gone into remission!! Wat a great joy to hear!!

Lost & Found and other Mini-Journeys

1/29/05: I had misplaced a book several months ago and have been looking for it the past few days in every nook and cranny, as I wish to lend it out to a friend who is very interested in Shamanism. Having had no luck whatsoever, including looking through our main bookshelves numerous times, I finally performed a mini-Hollow Bone Journey this morning before I got up. I whistled myself in as always after mentally opening up Sacred space in my room. I was ushered into a large library, and there was an older woman wearing a librarian smock who was climbing ladders to the very tall shelf-walls of books. I got the impression she was THE head Librarian of the Universe. I asked where my book was, and she showed me two key images, the first of which I rejected at the time as not very likely, the second of which I took as vital. The first image showed the book’s surroundings. It was indirectly lit, as if in my dining room, but other books were surrounding it, or at least in front. The reason I rejected this first image is because it seemed to be the bookshelves in my house I had searched many times, and I had already looked carefully behind all the books (except for on one shelf).. So how could it be there?! The second image showed that the book was lying in such a way that I would not be able to read its title. That is, the pages side of the book was showing versus the spine. This info convinced me to look on our bookshelves one more time, but this time do a really thorough search. I finally looked in the shortest shelf, where mini-books are kept, which I had only searched in passing. I had assumed the book couldn’t be there as it was much taller than this little space could handle. But in my new mode, knowing the book was on its spine or front/back, I looked behind the small books carefully this time, and on the very right, behind them, was a book lying on its back. I could not see the title, just the whiteness of the pages. But I knew I had found it, as it was the image in my Journey! And there it was. And of course now I realize the first image I got, of the book surrounded by others in the light of our dining room, was equally valid. Never reject anything you get on a Journey. :) Finding lost objects like this is a Shamanic capability that can come in very handy..

1/30/05: Today I took a small journeyto try and find my son's missing snowboarding boots. We have searched everywhere in our house and shed to no avail. On my Journey, I found te boots sitting against a large, blank wall, one standing, one on its side. I remember looking at the environs and thinking, "this place does not look familiar to me." Since then my son has recalled leaving the boots at his girlfriend's house last spiring, and she thinks her brother took them to college. No wonder I couldn't recognize the setting!!

2/5/05: This morning, at my morning Prayer Site, I took a small journey to look for the sumer shower curtain hangars..my wife just couldn't seem to find them where she thought they would be. On my Journey, in which I used the Spiritual Hollow Bone, I was taken to a large room, the "location of all lost things room". There, I was met by Utawa, who told me to use my Mirror to find the hangars. I gazed into the surface, and saw a large box sitting up in the attic where we keep the Christmas curtains, etc. I dismissed this imagery as not being right, for certainly my wife would know if she had placed them there..she was in that box a week ago or so. So I tried to retool, but Blue Shaman told me to empty my mind and relax! At that point, I heard a noise to my left. A squirrel was scooting up my Epiphany Tree, quite close to me. So I asked Squirrel for help. I melded with the Squirrel Spirit, and we went quickly through my house. Squirrel looked briefly in the bags hanging on a pegboard on the closet side, but then scooted up the attic stairs. Back to the attic, and to that box. At this point, I ended the Journey, not quite sure if I had been sensitive enough to receive the Truth.

Turns out, they were in the box in the attic. You'd think by now I'd realize that the well-executed Journeys always produce the Truth. :)

2/10/05: One of the People I'm helping asked me to locate a pair of ear warmers for her husband and son that have gone missing. I decided to use the Hollow Bone. I blew Smudge through it, then placed it on my chest next to my Shaman's Mirror. I whsitled as taught in a Journey and was soon inside the Bone. My two new Helpers, Ducks Ongwon and Aduwa, appeared and flew rigght over me, producing the tunneling sound of their wing rushes I had heard before when outside praying. The tunnel of noise then puled me up and I was flying just beneath them, as if held up by this Tunnel of disturbed Air. They landed on a small Lake and told me to look down. I saw a storage area. There was asmall wooden box next to a door to the left and a work bench to the right. I got the impression the warmers were either in or behind the box. I also was shown the back of the passenger seat of a mini van but got the impression that the warmers were NOT there. I then was taken back through the Tunnel of Wing whirring into an area filled with molecules of brass. I then resurfaced on my Mirror, walked past my Bone, and rejoined my Body.

2/13/05: An extraordinary Calling this morning as I began to shower. I was pulled through a wavy canopy of Leaves and Branches into a Rain Forest. I spotted a large Tree with a bright red human Heart embedded in its trunk, directly in front of me. It was smaller, like a child's. I was told to merge with this Heart, and as I did so I became one with the Tree. I felt so deeply rooted and relaxed, so at one with my surroundings. I knew any Living Thing was welcome, and that weather conditons were completely exterior to my existence. I got a tremendous feeling of being grounded and centered..the feeling of a Shaman. The Standing person then released me and told me to remember our visit..to leave behind the relics of my past as I was so recently instructed, and assume fuly now the mantle of the Shaman..be ready at all times to work and pray for any cause. This was all the more amazing since last night I had stumbed across a Travel Channel special on a Shaman at work in his Village, complete with Animal Blessing and House Blessing Ceremonies. I felt so at one with this person as he danced..I knew the feeling of the trance he was in. I also knew this was a calling by my Helpers to finally get serious about my being a Shaman. One must either be one or not. I can't live half my life as a westerner and half as a Shaman. The "relics" must go. As if to re-emphasize this point, after my Morning Prayers today, during which I asked to be brought fully into the camp for once and for all, I found two Mourning Dove (my Pipe protection birds) Feathers in the snow where the Birds feed. My Guardian's name is Two Feathers, and she was obviously thanking and congratulating me on my decision. These were my first Feathers in literally months. This is how it works, folks. You commit to the Spirits and they commit to you..tey bring you to places for training, and they actually bring you physical gifts of thanks and remembrance. I have placed these Feathers on my Shaman's Mirror so it can absorb the "wind horse" (Spirit Essence) of the Feathers and the moment.

Journey 152 - A New Year's Meeting

2/10/05: The purpose of this Journey, the first since Bituun ended and the New Year’s/White Moon Festival began, was simply to visit with my Guides, refreshed from their trip back to the Sky Father on the evening/night of the 7th. My specific goal was to find out what advice they had for me as we began another year together. I opened Sacred Space with Rattling and Smudging, then lit the Sacred Candle. I wore the Mirror for the first time in a Journey not related to the Mirror itself. As the Drumming began, I saw Owl approaching lit in a sparkling golden hue. As he swept the area with his wings, pale blue striping was left in his wake, and he quickly colored over the scene into the color of the Gol..the center point where all Space, Time and Spirit meets. Owl then came and stood beside me on my right side, and became my old friend Eagle Claw. Then, Eagle burst through the blue “fabric” and circled in. He was also lit from within, and was quite radiant, even in his darker colors. Crosses in Front, my Snake Guide, emerged from below, her skin covered in tiny colorful specks of Light. Pink Swan then flew in from left of center. Utawa, the Blue Shaman and Shaman of my Mirror, came up out of the Mirror surface, which we were now standing on. My Guides then allowed me to sink down through the Mirror surface, whereupon I found myself standing beneath an extensive trellis filed with Concord Grape Vines, as wide and long as one could see. The aroma was heavenly, superb! I approached several bunches of Grapes and could hear them speaking. In a uniform whisper, they were saying, “we live according to the Plan for our Lives and therefore are in total Joy.” I knew this was an important message for me and my Shamanism. I then was whisked upwards and found myself moving through some Cloud People, through which many different colored Suns were soaring. Then, a very localized set of Water Waves appeared, upon which I was floating. And then it was back to the Mirror, where one by one each of my Guides merged their Spirits into my Body, each enjoying that aspect of my Robe that they missed most. As each passed into me, I was that Spirit and myself at the same time. I merged with Owl, Eagle, Snake and Utawa. I could feel them sensing existence in Human form again, and really enjoying it. Once I was just myself again, ahead of me, two Ducks appeared. Recall that during my Prayer Smoke during the arrival of the Spirits, Two Ducks over-flew my Prayer site. I have seen many Duck flybys in the past few weeks, and a few months ago experienced a dramatic “tunneling” of their Wing sounds as they flew overhead during my Morning Prayers. All this had convinced me that Duck Medicine was mine for this year, and so it was really no surprise when the two Ducks appeared to me. Their names are Ongwon and Aduwa. They will specifically help me “dive” below the surface to find the “food” I seek, be it knowledge, help, whatever. I then saw on my Visual Cortex a Duck with a very long neck, telling me I will have to dig quite deep sometimes to get the food. I was then sent back to the Grape Grove by my Guides for a vital message for the New Year: It was spoken to me by a Spirit unknown. I heard, “you must abandon the Relics and save what is Necessary.” This was essentially the end of the Journey, and it wasn’t long before the Call Back Drumming jolted me back to the Room. The message is clear: there are still some “old me” issues that are holding me back. This was re-emphasized last evening when I performed a coin-based divination. He message for my Shamanic Work this next year was one of “you must work harder.” I am grateful to be cared for so much..

Journey 151 - The Return of the Spirits

2/8/05: This evening, at 5:28 PM, the Moon turned New. This signaled the beginning of the White Moon Festival, Mongolian New Year and the first day of spring. Most important to many Shamans, though, is that this is the ending of Bituun (the night just before the New Moon when all the Helper and Guide Spirits return to Father Sky to relax and re-energize for the year’s work ahead). I had honored the two-week period between the last Full Mom and today’s New by resisting any Shamanic work, except for emergencies, of which I had none, and a single Journey to meet my Mirror. Today marks the day (in fact, the second the Moon turns new) when all the Helpers and Guides return from Father Sky to begin a new year of Spiritual work through their Shaman intermediaries such as myself. Last night, during Bituun, I humbly offered the column of Spirit Energy above my 5-Stone Altar to the Helpers as a transport medium up to the Sky Father. I told them I would be honored if they chose to use my Sacred Altar as a launching place. Afterwards, as I held my hands out over the Altar, I could feel so much Energy vibrating through my fingers that they almost felt hot. J

There is a small ritual Mongolian Shamans perform to welcome back the Spirits at the precise minute of the New Moon, but before I get into describing my version, I’ll preface by saying that about an hour prior to the “moment of return”, I performed my first Sacred Pipe Smoke in quite a while. I wore my Mirror for the first time during a Smoke. There is really no higher way to pray and honor the Spirits than to Smoke the Sacred Pipe. My readers know that in many of my Journeys the Elders are sitting in a Circle with a Pipe going round. The main focus of this afternoon’s Smoke was preparation. I knew from recent Journeys that the arrival of my Mirror and the beginning of the White Moon would signal a much more involved and serious year of work for me. I wanted to Smoke to cleanse myself, to be ready for my Guides’ and Helpers’ returns. Part of the tasking of the 2-week period leading up to this New Moon is to cleanse oneself of any grudges, angers, resentments, bitterness, etc., toward anyone else. While this is the main goal for all humans, it is especially important that Shamans remove any negative Energies that might be lingering from the past year. So during my Smoke I paid attention most to blowing prayers onto my Mirror and cleansing my Aura, and praying for myself to be worthy of another year of Shamanism. I left a layer of Smoke at ground level for the Helpers to land in as well. The Smoke went beautifully, thick and white, and dispersed gracefully around me the entire time. I laid the Ashes onto the 5-Stone Alter at the conclusion. At the start of my Smoke, a single Duck flew by above me, and at the conclusion thereof, a pair of Ducks flew by at the same height and heading in the same direction (ESE). I have seen so many ducks in recent days that I took this to signify that this coming year will feature Duck as one of my prime totems. Ducks float on Water (emotion, femininity) but dive beneath the surface to find their nuggets of food. This tells me that I will be particularly good this year at intuiting the Truth among surging emotions. During this Smoke, as I alluded to above, I wore my Mirror for the first time. This not only allowed the Mirror to absorb the Energies of this Smoke, but also those of all my other prior Smokes in this Sacred Place. It also welcomed the Mirror to my brand of Shamanism, for every Shaman’s Walk is unique. At one point toward the end of my Smoke, I was able to see the blobs of dark Energy falling from my Aura and landing in the snow at my feet. The blobs merged with the snow and produced rainbow colors in the process.

I then set up for my mini-ritual, following the guidance of Sarangerel. I made an oboo of a mini-mountain of snow, and atop this placed 14 toothpicks. These signify the 7 sisters and honor the Sacred Ancestor Shaman Spirits who live in the Pleiades, and the other 7 the Star People of the Big Dipper. I placed a small sprig of Sage next to them, to be lit just before 5:28. I then lit my Journey Candle and placed it within the boundaries of my 5-Stone Altar. As I stood and watched as the minutes counted down, I saw the Spirits waiting to return, and again prayed that I would be worthy to be the “hollow bone” for their work this year. As 5:27 struck, I lit the Sage and got ready top recite an ancient Mongolian chant at 5:28. Once the time hit, I said the chant while beating on my shed to simulate the Shaman’s Drum. At this time, all the Spirits were flooding back to Earth to begin the new year. I then began to drum on the shed once again, and began a Journey, now perfectly acceptable. I saw my own Aura, exceptionally bright. My Mirror was on my chest and was burned into my Aura, becoming a brilliant sun-white orb simmering on my chest..a blinding white light in our terms. The Mirror is now a permanent part of my Aura, and will protect me whether or not the physical version is on me. I then looked up to see my primary Guides and Helpers: Eagle Claw, Crosses in Front, Pink Swan, Blue Shaman, Two Feathers and Gray Wolf..all around me. It was so good to see them back! They lifted me off the ground and propelled me at tremendous speed through the air. Within a second or so I was plunging into Lake Baikal in Mongolia, ancestral home of many powerful Shaman Spirits. I was just as quickly flung up into space to pass right through the Sun, in all its brightness. We then flew quickly back and passed through the Moon. By passing through both Sun and Moon, Sacred Balance of Male and Female was assured. Then I was scooted up the Pleiades, where a Council of Elders sat with a Pipe. One reached out to me and traced my Shaman’s symbol into my Spirit Mirror, truly making it mine, and empowering it to work with me with the greatest efficiency. I was then escorted quickly back to a spot above the Earth. I looked down to the surface and saw thousands upon thousands of returned Spirits there, of many colors, but each resplendent and glowing. Yes, truly, the Helpers are back, and in amazing numbers. From here I was escorted back to my yard and I re-emerged into this reality. I left the Oboo in place with the Candle burning, so the retuning Spirits could warm themselves. I left the Candle out there for over an hour..

Journey 150 - Exploring the Mirror (Toli)

2/3/05: Today I took a rare Journey during the low period between the Full Moon of Jan 25 and the New moon of Feb 8, the beginning of the White Moon Festival. I decided to self-drum for this Journey, as that is the traditional method among the Mongolian Shamans. Plus, I have self-drummed for many Journeys myself, and it is just as effective as the CD version. Having smudged and Rattled in Sacred space, I lit the Sacred Candle and began to drum. I saw my Owl Guide fly in, and suddenly he was sitting in an immense and glistening golden room. He himself turned gold for a few seconds, and then he turned back to a normally-colored Owl. He then began flying around me and produced numerous Feathers that surrounded me. These became a Tunnel through which I descended. I then looked down at my Shaman’s Mirror, whose surface began to look tidally covered with various colors of the Rainbow..that is to say, surges of color were washing across its surface. I then sank into the Mirror, in the process sinking quite quickly through a world I did not recognize. I then took a trip through the Atoms of the Mirror, all brassy and individually gorgeous. I was meeting the Metal People who had come together to produce this sacred object! I then returned to the surface, which seemed to be quite flat and had a blue/white sky above. The surface, while having solidity and form, is not really describable. I guess the closest image I can come up with is a flat plain of very light brown dirt. I sat there, and then the Spirit of the Mirror, the Blue Shaman (Tenger Utawa) appeared. I had met him two prior times, most recently when visiting the site of the Mirror’s creation. He gave me a big hug. He then told me to use my Mirror for Healings and Soul Restorations. He also told me to use it during special Prayers. He then began to train me to see the Spirit World better with my visual cortex. He told me the most important part of this skill is to silence the chatter of the conscious mind. He then extended his hands and placed them on my head, then my shoulders, then my heart. He then told me to just listen to the drumming and wait until I saw a blue flash on my cortex vision..and quiet that mind! I waited and waited, scanning the insides of my eyelids..and then I saw a single, small, nearly instantaneous blue flash..over as soon as it was there. This told me that the Blue Shaman’s energy was now permanently implanted into my Cortex as a “visual” aid. I then drummed and waited a bit longer. Suddenly, I saw a man’s head slowly turning from his right to left. His face was very clear. I then saw a Shaman emerge from some woods, crossing to my left. Then I saw a man walking along, followed by a big, hulking black shape, also crossing to my left. I realized these were all cortex images..this is how they appear! It was great to finally see what it is I’m supposed to see. The outlines are all quite dark..I again am at a loss for words to describe the lighting of these images. They might be described as being quite thin yet quite solid. Quite dark yet quite light.. Perhaps a Moonlit reflection of something in a Lake at deep twilight is a fitting rendition of what I saw. I now know what to look for when assessing the presence of Spirit entities in any given place. I then re-emerged from the Mirror, but as I was leaving, the Blue Shaman spoke once more to me and told me that the Mirror as currently cleansed is in perfect shape. No need for any further cleaning. I drummed myself back.. Outside of a few lost-item mini-Journeys, this was the only Journey I took during the two week low period prior to Bituun (this year, Feb 7, the night before the New Moon when all the Helper Spirits return to the Sky Father for a recharge and rest).

Journey 149 - PA for My Son's Good Friend

1/21/05: My second Journey of the day was for my son’s good friend. The room was still under Sacred Space, so I went right to it. I found myself almost immediately on the shore of a Lake, down a bit from some Cabins. My Lower World Guide Snake (Crosses in Front) appeared almost immediately, and we were off into the woods in a playful romp sort of way. We came to a large Tree, with the inhabiting Spirit, quite an older fellow, sitting next to it, his back against the trunk. He handed me a Staff made of wood from the same Tree. At the base of the root system was a small, blue Opening, our Tunnel to the Lower World. Crosses and I went down the Tunnel, which started out as red with bulbous projections, but soon smoothed out and went through several other primary colors, ending in purple as we emerged. We landed in the area I usually go to find Power Animals, by a River with the Forest on my left and an open bay on my right. But shortly after we got there, things went pitch black. My Staff emitted lots of Light, though, and we headed toward the Forest to my right. We could see glowing eyes all over the place. As we went into the Forest, I found Caves up in the Trees! Soon a Bear Cub came up to us. At first I thought it might be the PA, but it soon snarled at me. I allowed it to bite into my Staff, and Bear cub quickly turned into White Fox (Foxes can camouflage themselves by changing fur color, so this tells me this particular Fox likes to be in snow-bound areas). The Fox was very friendly, allowing me to pat its head, and it licked my hand. I had a feeling this was the friend’s PA, but White Fox then took off into the distance. I soon saw it walk along a ridge well off to my front-left, then disappear. Within seconds, though, Fox came barreling between my legs, being chased by two large and voracious Wolves. I used my Staff to freeze them in place. White Fox then circled a nearby Tree and turned into a Spirit Man. He spoke to me. He said that the friend should live in a snowy area..a ski lodge, being an owner, a ski instructor, or a ranger. He also should buy himself a Fox Paw, or at least a silver Fox Charm to wear on a neck lace. This will greatly enhance his Power Animal presence. He told me the symbolism of the Bear turning into Fox meant that it was time for the friend to come out of hibernation and become the real him. He also said that the Wolf chase meant that Wolf Clan People (usually Pisces) would present the greatest challenges to him in his life, but he will beat them with Fox Cleverness, Camouflage..and a little help from his Spirit Protectors. He then told me to teach him of Fox Medicine. He then returned to White Fox form and took off into the Sky. As he ran, he left millions of sparkler-like sparks falling through the air. I thought to myself, man, this PA has a LOT of energy. This is very good for my son's friend. Crosses and I then returned up the Tunnel. We gave the Staff back to the Tree Spirit, who told me I could use it any time I wanted. I thanked him and Crosses, and left the Lake area and returned to the room. My feeling is that the friend should become that “snow animal”..or perhaps live by a lake.. It seems either would be appropriate, with the snow area the one preferred by his PA.

1/28: My son confirmed a day or so after this Journey that his friend was indeed in the process of "trying to come out of hibernation", and wanted very much to discuss this furhter with me. Tonight, we talked, and he let on that his favorite animal when young was...the Artic Fox. Amazing stuff, and the Helpers always tell the truth. He asked me to Journey for an Uncle of his that has just been diagnosed with Lung Cancer. Once the two-week quiet time ends on Feb 7, I will certainly do that for him..

Journey 148 - The Non-healing Sore

1/21/05: Spirit Sister wrote last night to inform me of a friend’s condition, and to ask me to Journey on his behalf. Her are her words: “I do, however, have permission for you to take a look at my friend, the husband in the couple I stay with down here. He's the quadriplegic that has been in bed for ages from a persistent bed sore (a type of ulcer). It will be 3 years next week that he's had it. It has gotten quite a bit better over the last year, but it just won't completely heal over. Of course his overall state is very hard. What he has is either MS or something that acts like it. His wife thinks he was poisoned by a chemical back when he was working. “

So today I took a Journey to determine what might be done for this man. I Rattled, Smudged and lit the Sacred Candle, as always. I held to my chest a printout of a picture Sister had taken of an Eagle that lives nearby down there where she is staying. If knew that would increase the amount of Energy from the man for me to read. Even as I was finishing up my Rattling, I could sense and see the Vortex spinning around me, so I knew I was already to go even before starting the Drum CD. As I was lying down to begin the Drumming, I found myself sitting at an old table in an ancient catacomb. Two Spirit Helpers were there with me..Eagle Claw and Blue Shaman. On the table before me I saw some playing cards appear. There was a King on top, a second row of three cards (1, 3, and 7) and a Joker below. In Mongolian Shamamic card reading, the distance between the King (male presence) and the Joker (the granter of all things) shows that a total physical cure for Peter is almost certainly not in the cards, so to speak. The meaning of the 1, 3 and 7 cards is not known to me..perhaps the man or the Future will reveal it. The three of us then walked over to a section of the catacomb and saw two Medieval Soldiers lying there, still in their war dress. They rose and came to sit at the table with us, still in full regalia and looking as they did centuries ago. They did not speak. I was allowed to merge with one of them and was shown the following about them by actually witnessing part of their life from their own memories..in essnce, being one of them: they were very bloodthirsty, and enjoyed killing very much. Even woman and children were fine sport for them. They eventually died of exposure to a brutal winter, but left this world without any remorse whatsoever. I learned their names, Peter and Anthony. One was a direct ancestor of today’s man.. The warriors then returned to their resting places. I went up to them with my Shaman’s Mirror (Toli), home of the Blue Shaman, and removed the centuries-old Dark Energies from their bodies. I could see the black mist drifting into the Mirror. Once that process was complete, I pressed the Mirror down onto the Ground, and Mother Earth absorbed the Energy and transmuted it. The bodies of the warriors then quickly collapsed into the dust they should have been. They had finally been cleansed.

Eagle Claw then turned into Owl and lifted me out of this scene and into a blossom-filled Apple Tree. He handed me an Apple and had me dissect it. It was hollow in the center, where the seeds were. I was told that this meant the man had an emptiness inside him, the seeds representing an unfulfilled talent. Owl then took me and we headed across the Middle World through a purple spiral horizontal Tunnel. We ended up in the correct state. I saw the man lying there. I saw the Sore (or metaphorical rendition thereof) towards the back of his upper right leg. I moved to investigate his Sore, and saw a long, ancient, and crusty Spiritual Medieval Spear sticking out of his leg. This was something that had come down through the ages, as an attachment. Perhaps (my surmising here) it was the cause of his paralysis. I dissolved this Spear using my Toli by pushing slowly into along its length. I then released this Energy to her Earth. Sitting in a chair next to the bed was a part of the man’s soul. Looking like a fully-functioning man, he was obviously quite bored and disengaged..like he’d been there for years. When I removed the Spear, he slowly climbed back into Peter’s body and reassumed his place in the man’s Spiritual house. A woman Spirit then appeared. This was his Guardian. She spoke to me, and told me what I had done was essentially all I could do for this man. She told me then that when he was a young boy, the man really loved Horses. She said he should paint or write about them now (is this unreleased seed mentioned above?). I realized after the Journey that with his lack of ability to move, this would be quite difficult for him. However, modern technology now has voice and eye-motion recognition software that he could use to begin such a career. I then asked her about finding his Power Animal, and she looked at me and smiled the smile of one who is patient with careless thought. I then realized, of course! Horse IS his PA! Duuu-uhhh. Anyway, I was then allowed to ride his Horse, and we toured his body together. We strengthened and cleansed his Spirit Body. His Aura was totally restored. I then was taken to a future scene. The man was lying in a hospital-like setting, hooked to an IV. I was shown that he will depart this Life from here. But I saw his released Spirit, all young and vibrant, jumping for joy. He was so thrilled to have lived life in his crippled body, he said, for he had experienced love and caring from his wife and others beyond anything he would have had if living physically whole. He had succeeded in his Spiritual Mission for this life, and was full of the enthusiasm one sees from someone who has just emerged from a first dive into a cool pool on a sweltering day. He said the experience was “great!” The imagery then ceased, and I thanked my Helpers and advanced the CD to the Call Back.

1/28 follow-on: Here is the answer I got back concerning the Man from Spirit Sister:

"He has been talking about his horses. He was on a horse pretty much as soon as he could sit up...being raised on a cattle farm near the everglades. Some traumatic times there, too, since he had a cruel father who gave away his horse."

To which I replied: "I was very happy to hear that the Horse was indeed a pivotal player in his youth. This would explain the Soul Piece sitting next to him in the Room where I saw him and his Guardian. That must have left him when his father gave away his Horse. This would of course have contributed to his physical ailments. That soul Piece has been re-united with him, though, so he should be feeling both the intensities of the anger he felt when young, but also have the ability to now release it..to forgive."

Journey 147 - The Egg of Life

1/14/05: During my travels on my job today, a very large Hawk came out of nowhere and flew along side my car about 50 feet to my right. We were going the same speed, and I instantly felt an instant oneness with him. This was a Spirit in the Shape of a Hawk. I knew he was calling me to perform a Shamanic duty, in this case a Journey. He landed in a nearby Tree, sitting there long enough for me to view him with my new Birding Glass, and then took off. I decided this Journey should simply be a meeting between me and my Guides. I would let them set the agenda..I just wanted to get into their presence once again. It had been a while since my last work for the Girl whose Soul had been scared out of her by the attack on her Visitor..I needed re-connection. So I set up my Sacred Space, Smudged and lit the Sacred Candle and was off.

When the journey first began, it was night. I saw Owl (Guide Eagle Claw) come toward me from the distance, leaving a trail of golden dust as he came. The dust seemed to be suspended in Time, with no changes..like it was painted onto the Sky. This told me that we were already in the timelessness of the Upper World, even though time was passing for me and Owl. He came right up to me, and for a second or two we were back in the Tree of Life, on the very thin branch above the great fall I had witnessed in a very recent journey. But then we were back in Space. No doubt my Guide wanted me to realize we were once again dealing with the Sacred Tree, just in a different form. After peering into my eyes for a few seconds, Owl lifted himself straight upward. He began drawing a golden spiral (that of course seemed to narrow as he went higher, due to the effects of perspective). Then, the Eagles that soar around me in my gol, the center point of my and all existence, began to soar up as well. Each drew a different color in Mana, and rapidly filled the appearing Sky Tunnel with phenomenal color and brightness. Once this Tunnel was complete, Owl brought me up and up.

When we got to the top, we burst out into a world made solely of a blue-whitish, milky flooring, made of Spirit Energy. If there was a Sky, it was a light blue, hardly noticeable. Spikes of golden energy grew out of this flooring, and each of my Guides appeared and took up residence, one per Spike. Eagle Claw, Crosses in Front, Blue Shaman, Two Feathers and Gray Wolf were there, first in their Animal shapes, then as the human likenesses, all except for Gray Wolf who has always maintained his Wolf image in my Journeys. They then drew very close to me, and we merged into one Spirit. I looked below and saw a rainbow swirl develop in the floor, and we soon dropped into and through this swirl. We were back in Space, and I saw many Stars in front of me. I noticed a steady stream of Soul Pieces filing out from each star and heading in specific directions into the great distance. These were the Ami (“em”) Soul Pieces heading to individual bodies on various planets in the Universe. This told me that there were indeed other Planets with intelligent life, and also made me realize that the legends of ancient Earth cultures that tell of visitors from the Stars populating the Earth were essentially True, but perhaps in a metaphoric way..and of course, perhaps not. J Also, the Tree of Life in the Mongolian Shamanic Understanding holds the Ami souls prior to their release, so in this instance the Tree of Life could be said to be a metaphor for the Stars. Then, forming below me, was a huge, near-egg shaped orb of golden Energy. “We” sank into this orb. A voice that I knew was the Great Spirit began to speak to me. He told me this was the Egg of Life, that all Life everywhere emanated from this Egg. He then allowed me to merge with the essence of all-existence Energy. In other words, my consciousness merged with the underlying Spirit essence that is in all things. By so doing, I was able to immediately enter into various existences. I became a water droplet in the Ocean, a moving Cloud, a Squirrel, a Hawk, a Pea. I entered the Robe of one of the workers at one of the offices I service and was able to determine she has no major illnesses, and was able to view myself as she sees me. I became a chair in that office. I realized that at this level, everything has an awareness of itself, and experiences a wonderful connectivity with everything else. I then came to understand that Spirit Helpers such as Eagle Claw, have no tension or anxieties whatsoever. At this level of existence, all is total calmness and acceptance. Great Spirit then told me that on Earth, only the humans have separated themselves from this feeling. He told me it was my (Shaman’s) job to bring them back. He told me that I was to continue with my Shamanic work. He then said that the arrival of my Shaman’s Mirror would signal the beginning of my “real work”.

I realized that my consciousness comes directly from and is always tied into that of the Great Spirit, and so does everything else’s. So when you play with your Puppy, that playfulness emanates from the Great Spirit! The oneness I felt now was amazing..no fear, no tension, total awareness of all things. He then allowed me to witness Dark Energy, and I realized it has the same awareness and self-value as Brightness. In other words, Light and Dark, in fact all the balancing opposites, also experience existence in the exact same way. These opposites were created by Great Spirit to create the dynamic balance necessary for existence and growth, for advancement spiritually. This also allows for easy manipulation of all substances. The whole concept of good and bad completely disappeared..there are only opposing ends of the spectrum in Spirit Life, but all serve the same purpose. It was a wonderful revelation, and I now see no “evil” in anything anymore..just purpose. After this wonderful experience of oneness, I started feeling like I was evaporating physically. Like my body as dissolving into pure Energy..I felt weightless. It was very cool.

So I came to view that all things that happen in my life, all people I meet, etc., that seem to be against me or “bad”, are really part of the same Great spirit that has built this entire Spirit Universe on Love. That is to say, even the most horrendous aspects of Life here on Earth are part of the Great Plan to advance us Spiritually. This makes most sense when one realizes there just isn’t any end to your existence..whatever happens in this Life, you’ll get another shot, and another, until you reach a level of spirituality that allows you to remain as a Helper or Guide. Another aspect of this, say, would involve my new Helper, the Blue Shaman..even though he has an individual existence, he is still tied to all other things.

Two other events occurred during this journey. I asked for help fighting a recurrent cold deepening quickly, and again found Mana being dripped into my Body to fight the illness. I could feel that Sacred Energy spreading throughout my entire body. In the next two days, my cold has all but vanished. I also found extra Mana being poured into my Third Eye Chaka to help strengthen my ability to see spirit Energies with my visual cortex. I also asked when my new Mongolian Shaman’s Toli (mirror) will be arriving, and was told perhaps next Thursday..or the day before I actually get to use it!! I figured I was nearing the end of my Journey, so I began the process of going back to the Spirit Floor room with the perches, and then down through the Sacred sky Tunnel and back into this World. I thanked all my Guides and the Great spirit for this greatest of all visits (such peace and awareness..such understanding..such release). As is so often the case, the Call Back Drum sounded within seconds of this action.

Journey 146 - The Unwelcome Visitor

1/6/05: I got the following message this afternoon from Spirit Sister: “Tuesday we got a call during our meeting, from her dad, saying she had a seizure and was in the ER. Well, I just talked to him, and it is much more than that. She has multiple personality disorder and another personality has taken over…talking of killing people…it took four men to restrain her and she is now in a Psychiatric Hospital. I will be going to see her (I think) on Monday when I go see my mother.

Anyway, you know what I think about multiple personality disorder. I think those are actually other personalities in there that need to come out and be taken to their proper place in the Light. Can you at least find out what’s in there and maybe get rid of them?”

Shortly thereafter, I wrote back to her: “I did a small, non-drumming Journey to see if anything came immediately up..and I found the daughter's main soul sitting in a parlor of an old, very well appointed house, with a large bay window. She was sitting on the bench next to a piano. I could tell by looking around that this was a house from long ago..I asked her what the date was and we looked and found a calendar..1827. She doesn't really know why she is there, but is quite happy to be, as it is safe and peaceful. I told her I would be back to meet with her again, but did not give any details as to what was happening to her body.” I then promised to do a full Journey as soon as I could, which happened to be tonight. Here is the record thereof:

After Smudging the Room and lighting the Sacred Candle, I Rattled in Sacred Space and anointed myself with the Shaman’s Water. During the Rattling, I asked all the Grandfathers and Father Sky, Mother Earth and Great Spirit to guide me to the Truth concerning the daughter’s condition. I asked that if it be my Path to serve as a conduit for her Healing, to let it be totally effective and quick. I then went over and set up my Drum loop for a long ride..I didn’t want to cut short anything that might have to be done tonight. As I sat on the bed and breathed Shamanically, focusing on my intention, I saw a dark attic looming before me. There was a window at either end of the small, A-framed space, and it was night, so just a little light was getting in. As I moved into the Room, my Guide Eagle Claw arrived as Owl. He had light blue eyes, which made me wonder if my new Shaman Spirit Utawa was there as well. As Owl shone his blue Light around the room, we found a small girl lying on her right side in a near-fetal position. It was the daughter! I got the sense that she had had a seizure, but can’t be sure since I arrived after the fact. I then looked over to the far window and saw a Dark Being wander in. It had the gait of a fairly old person, and it went over and lay down beside her, as if just seeking comfort and warmth. But soon I saw the Being merge into her. After this, I found myself and Owl inside a large swirling Tunnel made of light green and lilac streaks, with the green by far the dominant color. I sensed we were falling, falling..and soon the bottom of the Tunnel cleared like breaking through Clouds. I saw below us a small, New England Village or Town. We landed, and I now saw the daughter standing outside a small grocery store. I seem to recall a small horse hitch outside the store itself. My main focus was on how she was feeling. With this stranger now part of her being, she was feeling out of sorts. She knew some sort of struggle was occurring within her but had no idea what it was (it was the battle of her Soul and the Beings for dominance, but she couldn’t know that). All she knew was the joy in Life was hard to come by, and even play felt strange. The scene then shifted again, and I saw her sitting on a piano bench, taking a lesson..and hating it. With the conflict within, even the sound, the very timbre of the keys, was aggravating to her. I then saw her as an Adult, and could see her Suns Soul struggling to hide from the Suld Soul of the Visitor. Her Soul would dart to be just in the opposite place of his, and the effort of constantly hiding was weakening her Soul further. I was then shifted over to her Concord hospital room, where I saw her lying on a bed. Her Aura was as burnt black as any I have ever seen. It was almost totally depleted. There was a very thin blue light/halo surrounding her head, and her eyes were likewise lit with a pale light. That was it for an Aura. I was astonished. I moved in closer to her body and saw three outside Entities trying to invade her. The Visitor within was resisting. It was he that was yelling “kill, kill” to the invaders, not her. Her Soul had fled her body with this new attack, and was resting safely in 1827 as related at the top of this piece. I convened a Council with my Guides Eagle Claw, Crosses, and my Guardian Two Feathers. We Smoked and thought about our next action. Eagle Claw decided I should use the Spiritual version of the Shaman’s Mirror that Uwata had given me a day or so ago to absorb the invaders. I went to the daughter and performed the absorption. I then placed the Mirror on the Ground to allow Mother Earth to remove the Entities and convert them for use as positive Spirit Energy elsewhere. I then managed to dislodge the Visitor from her body a bit, but will need a separate Journey to deal with him fully. I placed a thin veil of Aural protection over her. I will also have to Journey to retrieve her Soul Piece from 1827. I then slipped into a deeper State of Relaxation, as often happens when I’m overtired and/or sick (both in this case), and can recall very little of what went on..I just know that it had little to do with the situation. It was more the Helpers working on me. As I was returning, though, I saw the old man who had invaded the daughter. He seemed to be dressed in a gray suit, was large framed, and had a bald and bulbous head. His eyes were small, and his grin more a grimace framed by thin lips. The Journey then ended with the Call Back Drumming.

1/21: Spirit Sister let me know that the girl was released to go home the following Sunday. I cannot go further and totally retrieve her Soul Piece without her permission..so she will have to sit by that Piano for a while, until she can go back on her own. Hopefuly someday I will get the girl's permission to intervene further. Spirit Sister is unable to get that for me.

Journeys 144/145 - Ice Council/Shaman's Mirror Visit

1/5/05: This first Journey was to revisit the Council I met on top of Ice Mountain a few Journeys back. I felt they were a key part of my Shamanic Past, as I had once been a Shaman in an Ice Age of some sort. I prepared in the usual way, and soon found Owl ready to fly with me. We were suddenly sitting on a quite thin branch way up in a very majestic Tree. It was a very long fall from where we were, and the branches were easily 20 feet apart vertically. One had a very keen sense that the slightest slip would result in a fall to death..and yet I hadn’t the slightest fear. I felt I might be sitting in the Tree of Life itself. Suddenly Owl began to pick at my Aura. I had had a very rough prior of impatience and anger in trying to deal with a broken attic access stairway, and Owl was busy picking away all the dark Energies I had picked up during my fit. It was as if he found me unfit to meet with the Council in the State I was in. He was cleaning me up! Suddenly, the Tree began to spin. It spun very fast, and we rose up through the top of the vortex, right into Space. After a short hovering, we flew down toward a green land mass. Sticking up in one portion thereof was the Ice Mountain! We landed there, and I took my position with the Council. We began to Smoke a Prayer, and suddenly a Shaman Spirit appeared standing atop a small rock ridge nearby. He was all blue! I was told this is the Shaman Spirit of the Mongolian Shaman’s Mirror I had just purchased. I then fell into a deeper concentration, but as I came back into awareness, I saw the Blue Shaman send a small blue Orb down to rest on my chest. It was a Spirit Replica of the Mirror! The Journey ended here, and I felt quite empowered knowing I know had this very useful tool on my person permanently.

My 2nd Journey was to visit the Mirror (made of brass and about 11.5 CM in diameter) itself, to find out what it might be about. Who is the Blue Shaman, what has the Mirror been used for, etc. As I fell into the Shamanic trance, I found myself in Mongolia. As I sat in an open field, my Guides Owl, Eagle and Hawk were all fluttering before me, almost as if one bird with 6 wings. They then came and sat with me on a stone wall. I saw with my legs hanging down..we weren’t really that high. Suddenly I saw a Smelter bowling the metal that was used to make my Mirror. The Cauldron was hung from a pole with an “S” shaped hook, reminiscent of my Shamanic symbol. We watched as the Smelter danced around the Cauldron, murmuring prayers and “hurais.” Suddenly I saw the Blue Shaman Spirit approaching, and enter the metal. Surrounding his presence in the middle of the molten metal was a replica of the entire Universe..a small orb containing every Star, Galaxy, etc. It was the most beautiful orb I have ever seen, and it was in 3-D, so it was quite readable. The Spirit then spoke and gave me his name: Tenger (for lack of a better word, Grandfather) Utawa (oo-tah-wuh, accent on the first syllable). He said he was the Sprit of the Blue light found inside the vortex of the center of each person’s spiritual existence, known in Mongolia as the Gol. He was the blue light of the Sky..and that led me to remember that when in my 20s I used to stare at the blue skies of the fading day for hours on end. Perhaps that was an early calling. He told me we would merge later, but that I was still to use Eagle Claw and Crosses as my main Journey Guides. He told me I have very important Shamanic Work yet to accomplish, and that the World needs me to be there as Shaman. I then got to witness some of the history of the Mirror itself. I saw it on the chest of a Shaman at night amidst fires and shacks, and the Shaman was under serious attack from the Dark Beings..he was using the Mirror as a shield with all his Spirit might. I also saw a different Shaman using the Mirror in a Ritual attended by many, holding the Mirror high by its Silk Loop. I also saw it sitting in a box in NY City in the early-mid 20th century, but eventually being sent back to Mongolia. We then were back at the Smelting. Utawa told me he was “cold” and asked me to blow into the Fire to enhance it. We did so, and the Fire sprung up instantly and burned much higher. Even though the Smelter could not see us, he knew we were there, and found the sudden explosion of Fire a sure sign of a Spiritual Blessing on the Mirror. He was ecstatic. I again went deeper from here and brought nothing back, but as the Journey ended, I found myself back inside the Blue Vortex Gol, but this time with a companion. A Yellow/Green ball covered in tiny hairs, and I was told this was the Seed of Life. A very starting and cool ending, to know this Seed is with me at my Center.

Journey 143 - The Pathway Locked in

12/30/04 and 1/1/05: I took two mini-Journeys for two consecutive mornings, each lasting only a minute or so. In the first, I found myself standing on a long path strewn thick with red rose petals and green leaves. As I walked on them, they supported my full weight without being crushed in the slightest. On either side of the Pathway were two walls made on this vertical strips of golden Energy. Once again, even though these walls looked to be made as frail as possible, they supported my full weight if leaned against. A new Spirit I met during the Tsunami Journey of a few days ago, Pink Swan, moved up to me through the wall to my right. He told me to look up, and I saw a huge swarm of Eagles circling around above me. He then asked if I was ready to leave me old, non-Shaman self behind for good. If so, all I had to do was to sweep my arms backward as if trying to shut a door with the generated breeze. I did so three times, and heard a door slam shut behind me. I felt a great sense of relief that I had now fully committed myself to the Shaman’s Path that lay before me. There was still a long way to go, and I saw nothing in the distance to end the Path..but at least now I was on the way permanently. The following morning, today, I revisited this Pathway, and in very short order the circling Eagles came down and merged into the Spirit Vortex at the center of my being. So now, all these Eagles are part of my Spirit Core..and my strengths as a Hollow Bone (Channel) for the Spirit Helpers is surely enhanced greatly.

Journey 142 - Dark Force Revisited

12/30/04: I decided to take on the Dark Force once more, as it was having an effect on my Life even now, even though I’m immune to its designs on my own Spirit Being. After the normal preps, I found myself standing across from a dense Forest. It was totally black beyond the front Trees, as if the Dark Force itself was lurking within the Forest like a low-hanging mist. My Upper World Guide Owl arrived, resplendent and bright with color. He took me in his Talons and up we went through a red, flesh-like Tunnel. A Team of my Helpers appeared by my side as I went up. Suddenly, my body underwent a major assault. I was burned to a crisp by a raging Fire, then hit with a huge force of Water meant to be destructive versus soothing, and then finally hit with huge wooden beams. I landed on a grassy surface. Although I was blind and barely able to move, I could still sense my surroundings Spiritually. A nearby Stone Person invited me to merge with it, so I left my body and went into the Stone. This Stone Person gently told me to use a combination of my two Power Stones, the Azurite and the Agate, placed together, kept nearby at night (underneath the mattress is ideal, and so they are there) for one month. Then, the Stones should spend one night outside under the next Full Moon for gentles cleansing. I was then told to call a new Spirit every morning to come and offer protection to my wife. The Spirit’s name is Jenalda Obwahn. I then saw a man walking by a wall from right to left, and he turned to me and told me to give my wife love and prayer, over and over. He also told me that Shamans cannot force someone to use Arshaan (Mongolian Shaman Water) against their will..they must agree to it, so I am not to anoint anyone without their prior knowledge. I was then told to blow my Shamanic Power Breath into the Dark Mist Forest 4 times every day (I drew a picture of this Forest to serve as a physical stand in right after the Journey). I then was sent back down through the Flesh Tunnel and my body was restored to its normal condition. I then moved over to a flowery field that I had visited before in a prior Journey. Owl then left me, turning into a White Spirit Body as he left. My Guardians Two Feathers and Gray Wolf remained with me. Here the Journey ended. I am proceeding as instructed, and will publish any follow-on info..

Journey 141 - Dear Friend's House Redo

12/29/04: I took an extended Journey this afternoon to investigate the Spiritual conditions at my dear friend and co-worker’s deceased Mom’s house. My friend had told me a day or two ago that her Cousin had been painting in her Mom’s old bedroom and smelled her mom’s perfume for a few seconds. We both wondered if that had been an actual visit by her Mom, and if it was some sort of message or warning. I agreed to go back to the house via journey and check it out. I prepared as always, and off I went. This was a Middle World Journey, and Owl went with me as protection and Guide, but there were of course no Tunnels to go through. When I arrived at the house, I was not prepared for what I found. Recall in my last visit I had seen ancestral Spirits returning to the house, with Hawk visiting above. All seemed quite positive and indicative of improvement. When I got there this time, however, I found many black “snowflakes” falling around, on and through the house. When these flakes landed, they immediately crystallized into a shiny, hard blotch, and as I tried to remove one, I found it was very stubborn and resilient. It was as if it had melded with the surface. Not all flakes were sticking..some were being absorbed by Mother Earth, as she tried in vain to counteract this attack. I asked Eagle Claw what these flakes were. He told me they were the negative emotions filling the lives of the people associated with the house: anger, distrust, revenge, jealousy, doubt, fear, “woundedness”.. I saw in the future that the entire area would be totally encased in this black crust, with the stuff hanging down from the eaves like icicles. I then asked what I or anyone could do to stop this attack. Eagle Claw showed me that I should invoke a new technique, learned from the Mongolian Shamans: build a small “oboo” of a branch, with black and red ribbons attacked at the top. Also, begin piling Stone People around the base of the branch, to build a small mountain around it. The purpose of this oboo is to attract and house a Shaman or Nature Spirit who is willing to take on this Dark Energy and neutralize it. I asked Eagle Claw how we would know when this Spirit had taken up residence. I then saw myself taking a set of four red flowers up some wooden steps. These flowers had just been dipped in something, but I don’t recall what. They looked like Tulips made of Rose petals. I sensed that I would dream this event when the Spirit had arrived. I then moved around to the front of the house, and a short distance away saw two Dark Beings seemingly approaching, but they were moving so slowly they may have been standing still. I then asked about the perfume in the room. I was told that my friend’s mother's Spirit had indeed visited the cousin and tried to warn her of the accumulating negativity on her person. I then was taken to the rooftop, and looked down the chimney. I saw blue Sparks popping out of the inner liner from top to bottom. When I went back down to the ground, I could see the Sparks jumping out of the chimney top. In the remaining time, I tried to get a further fix on the meaning of the Flowers, but was not given any more. This was essentially the end of the Journey. A rare one, with no obvious fix..but some things must take their natural path..

I have told my friend since that when they place the Stones around the branch, they should circle it three times clockwise each time. I also told her I will make up a special Shaman’s anointing fluid for her cousin to use.

Journeys 139/140 - Two for Wife's Cousin's Wife

12/28/04: This Journey was for the wife of my wife’s cousin, who is suffering substantial chronic pain due to a botched abdominal surgery a few years ago. Basically, every time she eats, the movement of the intestines causes pain. I asked her if she wanted me to investigate what Help there might be from the Spirit World, and she said she would take whatever help she could get. The Drum CD failed, so I decided to take this Journey without drumming at all. As I headed out into the Spirit World, I found a small, 10-foot high tornado made of dead leaves swirling in front of me. I stepped into the tornado, and was in an orange ball of Spirit Energy. Soon, before me, Owl, Snake and Eagle appeared, and we all merged into one powerful Spirit Being. We then sank quickly down through the Orange light and landed in a rain forest environment. Taking Snake form, we slithered up a nearby Tree and went out onto a branch. At this point, we shape-shifted again into a Bird. In the distance, a Thunderbeing (thunder storm) was rumbling. We watched the forest floor and saw a Monkey and an Aardvark go by. We also saw a Tiger. None of these Animals stayed though, and showed little interest at all in us. Then, a white Butterfly with black and gold-yellow edged wings landed on the branch to our right, and immediately turned into a little ball of Spirit Energy. This happened two more times, for a total of three. Each time, the Spirit Energy ball grew a bit larger. Just then, coming in from behind and to our right, an immense black Bird came soaring in. This Winged One was reminiscent of the Bird that flew over me when my Shamanic Dream began several years ago. This Bird landed in front of us and was angry, for apparently we were interfering with whatever effect he was trying to have on the woman. The Shaman Spirit in the Tree, which appeared to us suddenly, handed us a power wand. I used this Wand to direct Spirit Energy at the Bird, which kept shrinking until it had melted into the Ground. Then, the fourth Butterfly arrived. I knew this was the Power Animal for the cousin's wife. I coaxed it into my Eagle Mirror Charm, and up we all went into the Tunnel of Leaves. I then flew to her home town to blow the PA into her directly. When we were done, Eagle Claw suggested strongly to me to send her a small Butterfly broach to wear. The colors of the Butterfly are significant. Black means “protective, grounding, calming, activating feminine energies.” Gold/yellow means “beneficial to the digestive tract (my emphasis added), generating enthusiasm. Gold itself means “strengthening to the heart, better balance.” Obviously, she should surround herself with these colors.

On 12/29, I took a follow-on Journey to see if there was a physical fix. I found myself on a Beach late in the day, late in the season (perhaps early fall). It was breezy, for the waves near the shore had tiny white caps. I had taken no Tunnels to either the Upper or Lower Worlds, so I knew I was still in the Middle World. A Gold and White Spirit Body approached me and sat down near me. A Gull landed nearby to my right. I saw my Eagle soaring above me. I sensed I was to merge with the Gold and White Spirit, and Eagle swooped down to offer me protection while I was gone. I merged, and sensed I had become the Ocean itself. I could feel its great depth all the Life it housed, the disruptions on the surface caused by humans. Once the merge was over, I realized the main message appeared to be that nothing physical can be done at this time for her..it is her Path to walk as she is. However, the rich imagery of this Journey offers some soothing methodologies. She should visit the Ocean often, feed Gulls when she can. Salt-based baths will be helpful as well, as will tapes featuring the gently roar of the Ocean. At another point in the Journey I saw a large Waterfall..I was just beyond the edge to its left. But instead of being involved with the heavy flow of falling water as in past Journeys, I sensed that the hovering mists were more important. This told me it is important for her to let the heavy emotions just pass her by, and derive freedom from them as the Mists have, and as Gulls do as well when they soar over the Ocean surface.

Journeys 137/138 - Tsunami Help/My Health

12/27/04: Two Journeys today. The first was to try to assist the victims of the massive Earthquake and Tsunami over in SW Asia. At the time of the Journey over 20,000 were confirmed dead, and in my readings by Sarangerel it was stressed that Shamans have a duty to the world as well as their private clients. The more Shamans work individually on world problems through their rituals and Journeys, the more likely it is the World will improve and regain its human-degraded Health. So I Rattled, Smudged, lit the Sacred Candle and off I went. One of the new techniques that I have been asked to master via being given these books to read is that of actually allowing the Spirit Helpers to merge with myself and allow them to live in a human body once again. This merging allows for much greater abilities by the Shaman, and a deeper knowledge of the way things work. So as I went into my Journey, I saw Eagle Claw, my Upper World Guide, standing in front of me, dressed quite formally in a full Deerskin outfit typical of Native Americans. He came to me, got quite close, and I assumed he might try to merge with me. But he said, “no, it is not yet time for us to merge.” Instead, he shape-shifted back to Barred Owl and took me in his Talons. Above us in the Sky was a Tunnel made of blue Spirals. We zoomed up into this Tunnel and shortly found ourselves skimming the crest of the killer tidal wave. We had moved back in time to the event itself. Within seconds, we were sitting on the shore of one of the nations effected. I saw many, many Souls moving along, either into Nature, or up/down to the respective worlds. In the Mongolian Shamanic tradition, (much of which I have adopted now for myself, as it rings truest with my experiences to date) the Human Soul has three parts. One is from and returns to the Upper World, one from/to the Lower World, and the third piece drifts into Nature when death comes. The latter can become powerful forces for good that a Shaman can ask for assistance from. Anyway, as we witnessed this migration of Souls, I noticed some were red, some green, some blue. Eagle Claw instructed me to collect what I could with my Eagle Mirror (another Mongolian technique). I recall grabbing about 5 or 6, and found out a day or so after this Journey that 8 Americans had been killed. I can’t help but wonder if those Souls didn’t come to me, given I was an American Shaman. Having collected these Souls, I then saw my Lower World Guide Snake appear, and we quickly zoomed down an all-mud Tunnel. I saw the same River Bank I saw on an earlier Journey when I released a Spirit downstream. I sent these Souls on their way, releasing them from my Mirror. We then returned through the Tunnel. I found myself given a new Shamanic Phrase to utter to bring comfort to the mourning survivors: “Adjah Jewhal!” I stretched my arm out in their direction and kept uttering this Phrase. Soon, a Shaman Spirit emerged from a wooded area. He was dressed in white, but his/her name was Pink Swan. I stood before this Spirit, but then sank into a deeper state where the imagery was lost. But as I was coming out of this State, I was uttering yet a new Phrase: “Wyanowa Hurai!”. The latter world is used in the Mongolian Shamanic tradition to seal and empower an action. As I repeated this Phrase over and over, Eagle Claw came and merged with me! I felt weightless and totally energized as I lay on my bed. I realized I was Eagle Claw, and as I shape-shifted into Owl form, I began flying around. It was superb. My eyesight was VERY crisp. “We” then quickly flew up the side of a very tall and steep mountain of Ice. At the top was a small crater within which sat a Circle of Elders. I shared a quick Smoke from their Pipe with them, and then “we” flew back down. The Drum Call Back sounded, and as I rubbed my eyes, the whitest and brightest ball I have ever seen formed on my Visual Cortex. Pure Energy. Remnant from the Journey? From the Merging? Whatever, it was quite powerful and inspiring.

A final note. It was interesting I was taken to a mountain of Ice. In a prior Journey, I found I had been a Shaman during the Ice Age, and still am being supported by my wife of the time. Perhaps these were the Elders I knew back then, sort of welcoming me back into this higher Shamanic plane.

Journey 2 was a quick 10-minute look at my own Health. I began the Journey shortly after the one above, since Sacred space was still present and the Candle still lit. I saw all my primary Journey and Guardian Spirits circling around my bed in a clockwise direction. I sensed something above me, and saw a large branch over my head with a Bald Eagle perched on it. The Eagle was bending over me and dripping golden tear drops into each of my Chakras, except for the Throat Chakra. I also noticed that the tear drop that was placed in my Base Chakra was red versus gold. I then found myself leaving my body and shrinking. I met an Eagle on my throat. I sensed I was to build there an Oboo, a Shamanic shrine built by Mongolian Shamans to house visiting Helper Spirits. I looked up and saw another Eagle circling clockwise overhead, coming closer and closer to the “ground.” He landed, and became a human shape, who told me his name was Eagle Spirit. This is my Power Animal’s name..obviously a very pure PA. Eagle Spirit told me I need to take better care of my Spirit Robe (body), that I’m not getting enough rest. He then told me he was going to reside in the Oboo I had just built, in order to prevent me from catching any colds or flus. As he took up residence, I felt warm, golden Mana coursing throughout my entire body. Two Feathers, my Guardian, then came to me and merged with me. I sensed what it was like to be female, and it was a great Spirit union to boot. The Journey then ended.