Journey 113 - A Moon Visit and 2nd Epiphany

10/28/04: A Journey taken at night at the height of the full lunar eclipse this evening. I had already cleansed and placed my Crystal Wand outside to absorb the Energies of this Eclipse for my use over the next four years..the length of time before the next such great visibility eclipse locally. The Cloud People pretty much thinned out as expected, and so lots of white and deep red/orange light got to my Wand as it sat there overnight. Having the rare Energy of the Eclipse within the Wand will make it more powerful in Healing and Cleansing activities. Later, while heading off to sleep, I decided to take a non-Drumming Journey to visit the surface of the eclipsed Moon. I took my Upper World Guide Owl with me. We rapidly headed off to the Moon’s surface, and upon arrival found four Beings sitting around a small Fire. I had the sense of their being a negative presence..their faces were completely black and featureless, and they were huddled together in a motionlessness that suggested a foreboding to me. I spoke with Owl about my concerns, and he assured me to just continue with the Journey. I looked across the red Lunar Plain and saw a Village of Tipis there, floating over which were many blue-white streamers of Spirit Energy. Again I felt a sense of foreboding, but we walked into this Village nonetheless. I sometime later decided these Beings looked a lot like thin, low-level Cloud People one sees as fog lifts and lightens into those thin streamers zipping along just off the ground. We headed for the main Tipi, within which I found Grandmother Moon herself. She was huddled over a small replica of the eclipsed Moon, red and vibrant, looking into it as if it were a Crystal Ball. We spoke briefly about the purpose of my visit, to enhance my Feminine Side and strengthen my ability to use the gentle Spirit Light Grandmother provides. She told me the forebodings I felt were of my own doing..that I still had fears and faults in my Spirit Body that were manifesting themselves here. She said there was nothing negative about what I was witnessing on my Journey. She then handed me the little Moon before her and told me to absorb it into myself, which I proceeded to do, so that the Lunar Energy of the Grandmother would become part of me, altering my Shamanic Walk for the better. I myself then turned into one of the floating wisps of Cloud, and Grandmother and I were moving out through the Tipis. We came to a large Circle of Spirit Beings handing around a Sacred Pipe. They were sitting around a Fire that was completely black, and as they handed me the Pipe I relit it with a piece of this Black Energy. Once again I felt a slight sense of foreboding as I did this. At this point, Owl swooped in and lifted me far above the Moon into Space, so I could look down on the Sun, Earth and red/orange Moon lined up to produce the eclipse. We then returned to the bedroom, Journey over. A friend later suggested (I’m writing this up almost 4 days later) that the black Fire at the Pipe Ceremony at the end suggested balancing of light and dark to her..with darkness taking the place of light..and I think that was a very valuable insight. For, when I went outside Friday morning for morning Prayers, Grandfather Sun was on one side of the Sky and Grandmother Moon, back to full whiteness, on the other. With me standing in the middle between the two complementary Beings, I could see the balance of Male and Female asserting itself visually, so my friend’s comment later that morning tied in well.

When I got home from work that afternoon, a very special sign was awaiting me out back, and my going out there at the right time was yet another example of how the Spirits work. The timing was impeccable. A large Red-Tailed Hawk, my Pipe Bird and Shaman namesake, swooped down from the Tree directly in front of me as I walked across the landing, and headed out to the area of my Prayer Spot..and landed RIGHT IN MY EPIPHANY TREE! I knew the second she left the Tree and soared slowly across the yard that she was a Hawk! This was the first time I had seen a Hawk in the Epiphany Tree since my life-changing event itself on 10/19/01, written up in the early part of this Jounrnal..and this current visit was just 3 years and 9 days later. Not only did Hawk land in the Sacred Tree, but sat there for several minutes. She spent the first portion of the time facing away from me, then turned around and spent the second half facing me. Both times she wiggled her Tail from side to side quickly. She then took off and flew back deeper into the woods. The fact she faced both ways for the same amount of time speaks once again of balance..the main message of the prior night’s Journey to the Moon. The return of the Hawk to the Launching Point of my Shamanic Training has unspeakable significance for me. It tells me that I am indeed moving into a new phase of my Skills and Abilities, and that the prior night’s Journey was indeed part of that change for the better. It was a visit by the Great Spirit, consecrating my recent actions, solidifying my gains, and once more launching me into the Shaman’s World..deeper than ever. I am in awe with gratitude.

Journey 112 - A Sore Throat in Need

10/26/04: A Journey to help my daughter’s terrible sore throat heal more quickly. After lighting the Sacred Candle and Rattling, I began with the Drum CD. But, it kept shutting off within a minute of starting, even with a new battery set, so I decided I was being asked to drum by hand. This was confirmed when I tested the player after the Journey and it ran fine. So off I went to meet with Crosses in Front, my Snake Guide to the Lower World. I saw before me a green landscape with a bluish glow on the edges of everything. Crosses came up to me with pink and lilac edging around her eyes. We saw a circular opening sparking on the ground before us, and went down the Tunnel. The walls were saturated with dappled specks of rainbow colors. We came out into a snow-covered River Bank. I saw the blue Spirit representation of my daughter’s Power Animal, Polar Bear, all there but semi-transparent..looking a bit like a natural gas flame. I was told by Bear to get a Fish to feed him, to give him more strength to help her. I went to the River’s edge, and saw beneath the surface many Fish, glowing in the primary colors. I saw the Water Spirit standing on the opposite bank and asked her permission to go into the Water to get one. Permission granted, in I went. As I swam among the Fish, I BECAME one! The others gathered around me and fed healing Energy to me. It became obvious..I was to become the food for Polar Bear! So I swam over to where he could reach me and he scooped me up. Once swallowed, I became one with Him. We went and stood over my daughter’s bed as she lay sick and sleeping, and Polar Bear and I opened Sacred Space over her with his white, furry arms. I then left Bear for a short while, and watched as he shrank down to figuring size and began lumbering toward her throat. As he walked into it from the outside, rainbow dazzles began flashing. Within a few seconds, I saw a small sphere of Stars amidst a black background begin to spin slowly at her throat. It was like a mini-universe. I then rejoined the Spirit of Bear and we returned to the River. From there, I went back in the Water, left my Fish existence, and was back on the snowy bank with Crosses. I thanked Water Spirit, Polar Bear and the Fish for their help. Crosses and I then went back up the Tunnel and emerged onto normal-looking land. Journey was over. I then sounded 4 loud beats on the Drum four times to add even more power to the healing Sphere next to my daughter’s throat. I then realized that we were inside the Sphere while by the River, so all the Energy work was still contained within it after we left it with my daughter.

Journey 111 - A Visit to a Brother

10/24/04: A Journey taken at the request of our dear friend to see if her long-since-passed Brother will be there for her Mom when she arrives in the Spirit Nation. I have journeyed before to ask people who have passed to visit with me to bring messages to loved ones. One was a friend of my daughter’s, who messaged me in a startling Dream of a floating Skull on a River. I also visited with another dear friend’s father recently. Both visits are recorded in an earlier entry of this Journal. I knew it was OK to take this journey, for I had received permission to contact the brother in the same manner as had happened with the father..by Crows calling in the Night to signify the presence of Owl, my spirit Guide. The night before, I had asked the Brother to send me a sign if he wished to meet with me. And just as with the Father before, I woke up overnight to hear Crows calling in the darkness. In fact, with the Brother, I woke up twice, to hear the Crow call twice, then once. The calls were farther away this time, so I knew the Brother was coming in from further out in the Spirit Nation. Yesterday morning, I received further confirmation of the impending contact when three Ducks flew over my head in a tight circle as I was performing my morning Prayers. Three Ducks for the three calls, replicating the Circle of Life. And yesterday I saw a huge Hawk sitting on a wire overlooking a highway..the first time I’ve seen that in over a year. It was brown with white blotches..much like the color of my Power Animal. So I knew there was very potent Spirit Energy flowing around and through me, and it was OK to make this contact Journey today.

So I opened up Sacred Space with my Rattle both here at home and over our friend’s Mom’s house, since I’m going there today to fulfill the tasking of yesterday’s Journey to help release her toxic Energies. In a departure from form, I placed the Sacred Candle close to a symbol of Feminine Spirituality that was a gift from a friend who had been to visit with an authentic Shaman in another land, to enhance the power of this particular seeking on behalf of my sisters. I then launched into what was to be a 15 minute Journey to seek out the Brother. As I breathed Shamanically and settled into my Intent, I saw the State of Pennsylvania, and so knew that I was on the right Path..the family came from there. Soon, I saw myself with my two prime Spirit Guides, Owl and Snake, there at my request to assist me. We were standing on an open field in PA. It was fall, so all was yellow and withered. There were Trees encasing this field well off in the distance: the scene was reminiscent of a farming area. Off in the distance stood a male figure, whom I hoped was the Brother. I looked down at myself, and saw myself transforming from human form into a small, white Bunny. This was a first, but I never question where Journey’s go. I assumed by having a Bunny form I would be more pleasing to the Brother. Then, the three of us headed for this male figure, me hopping, Snake slithering, Owl hop-flying. The man was dressed in dark blue jeans and was wearing a heavy jacket, pocket length, light tan in color with a white (or white tinged with yellow) wooly-looking inner lining..L.L. Beanish-looking. He also wore a hat with a brim. As we arrived, sure enough, he picked me up into his arms and gently patted me. I looked at his face. He had a Spirit Being Face, with the dark oval eyes, which I’ve seen so often. But over-layered was a thin rendering of a human face, staring at me. No smile, but no frown either. A bit like old portraits where folks stare rather blankly. He had sandy-blonde hair. I asked him if he was the brother, and he said he was. We then walked the field together. He took me over to a patch of a Garden that was all dry and withered. He told me this was the Garden of His Life, and that it had died prematurely. I asked him if he was sad about this, and he told me he was only sad because the Garden did not feed all the people it was meant to. But he also was at peace with this, since, as he told me, this is the way of Nature..some Gardens just don’t take very well. I then told him that his Mother was dying. He told me he knew that, and saw that I had been to the Golden Room of his Mom’s Helpers in yesterday’s Journey. He said she was a wonderful person, a good Spirit who had lived a very good life. He then told me that when his Mom arrived in that Room, he would therefore be there as well. I then told him that his Sister missed him very much and was crying over him the other night. I saw him reach out toward her and place an amulet of black onyx into her heart. He told me that he had placed a piece of his Spirit Energy within her, and that she can now speak with him at any time..but she will have to learn how to speak in Spirit Language. He looked at me and said that I could teach her how to do so. Then, suddenly, without warning, the CD shut off, as if someone had pressed the off button. I was taken quite aback, but realized very quickly that I had asked all the questions I was to be allowed, and received all the answers I was to have. The Spirit Camp had drained the batteries of the player right as he was telling me to teach his sister to speak in Spirit. I thanked him, my Guides and returned to ground. My wife and I were in tears as I recounted this beautiful, gentle visit to her verbally..especially when the Brother said he would be there to welcome his Mom..a deep wish of our friend’s.

Follow-up: our Friend confirmed, in some amazement, the veracity of the location, attitudes and look of her brother. It WAS him I visited with..

Journey 110 - Release of Spirit Training

10/23/04: This afternoon, after lighting the Sacred Candle, Smudging and Rattling, I put on the 10-minute Drum CD loop to find out how I might best serve to help cleanse the Spirit Body of a dear friend’s Mom who is getting closer to death. She has been the subject of prior Journeys, and her illness is quite single-mindedly a destroyer. I am going to see her tomorrow, and want to do and say the rights things without freaking her out (she knows next to nothing of my Shamanic Work and less of the methodology itself). As I was focusing on my intent and breathing Shamanically, I saw a large “Ocean” of green Grasses and blue Water undulating before me. Owl then flew into me over this “Ocean” (half liquid, half solid), all gold..a brilliant, glistening gold! He lifted me upwards toward the Stars. We passed through an Astral Plane with human forms walking slowly along. Above us was a spinning Hoop of brilliant gold, and we entered it to move up the Tunnel to the Upper World, for guidance. The Tunnel was amazingly resplendent with shiny gold energy flakes that we passed through quickly. We emerged into an all gold, square room, equally shiny and breath-taking, and as Owl few onto a Table there, his Body merged with the background to the point that only his Eyes were showing. I then saw sets of Eyes around the Table..Helpers! They knew of my intent, and escorted me to a door to my right. As I walked out, I saw a narrow walkway of gold leading to a Table. On this Table was a small portion of the Life Energy of my friend’s mom. Some of her Life Force has already left this World. There was enough Energy there for me to see that her lower Chakras were quite out of balance and dirty, and her Sixth Chakra almost totally closed, cutting off the ability to see Spiritually. I was told to use my Crystal Wand to un-spin the Chakras, and threw the surface layer of “dirt” Energy off into local space, where it turned to a light golden dust and then faded away. I was to do this work today instead of doing it in her presence tomorrow, due to the lack of familiarity she has with these ancient and powerful methods of Healing. I then saw her Power Animal Tiger lying beside the Table. He got up and held her hands, reminding me that was important to do tomorrow. The black mist of her disease was hanging about 6 feet above her Body..already quite weak in spite of its apparent victory over her, and getting weaker. After all, when her Robe ceases to be, so will the disease. I also was told by Tiger to sweep my hand over her thin Energy field to bring the Chakras back into colorful Balance, which I did. We then allowed all the “bad” Energy within her body to flow out through the freed Chakras and into a “collection pool” at her feet, awaiting dispersal tomorrow. My job tomorrow is to release this Pool by opening Sacred Space over her and holding her hand at the Release Points while praying silently with her. I am then to remind her of the presence of the Spirit Camp and tell her a bit more of my Experiences in the Other World as a Shaman, without using the word itself. To remind her of the Spirit Camp awaiting her, of her many lives leading to a higher Spiritual Beingness, of her lasting awareness, and that she will see loved one she knows. To tell her that all the events of her Life were Sacred, and she has done very well in her Spirit Lesson. Finally I saw a gold garland stretched across the foot of her bed. I shall bring her one. This is to remind her of the Mana, or Spirit Energy, that will sustain her over the next few weeks or months..and beyond. The Call-back Drum sounded just as I was seeing this Garland, so I thanked the Helpers and Owl and came back through the Tunnel and into my Room. It came to me also that her Mom will end up on the Table in Space as she passes, and then walk the same golden walkway I had traversed back into the Golden Room of her Helpers, where she will be welcomed in great Love, Comfort and Peace.

Journey 109 - Shape Shift 1

10/22/04: A Journey (several, actually) to begin my training in Shape-Shifting, the ability to change oneself into another Creature spiritually..and eventaully physically. The first Journey I took turned out to be one of my biggest flops, if not the biggest. I went straight into it assuming I knew what I was doing and just immediately shape-shifted myself into a Hawk. I then forced myself to fly over 10 miles to land and watch my wife at her work, but virtually all the images were emanating out of a forced consciousness..one can always tell when one is producing the imagery out of the conscious mind versus accepting it from the Spirit World. Therefore, they were broken, confused and contradictory. I knew almost from the start that this was not imagery from the Spirit Camp, but merely me trying to make the pieces fit to make it like a Journey. When I returned, I immediately decided I had violated the rules, so to speak, by arrogantly not asking my Helpers how to do it correctly.

So later in the day I took a second Journey, this time going with the intention of being trained HOW to Shape-shift, not necessarily to do it. Quite humbling, but we must remember to walk before running, and to seek the advice of the experts. So this next Journey began in Outer Space. All around were Stars, of course. Directly ahead of me was a very black Tree shape, trunk and large branches only, standing out even darker against the blackness of Space. Owl was waiting for me there. I went up to sit with him. He pulled in very close to me and had me look into his eyes, at which point the background of Space went into a very fast whirl, causing a beige background with multicolored streaks, like a rainbow mist, behind Owl. As I looked into his Eyes, I could see a second Universe, in which the each Star’s light was elongating horizontally and vertically into thin shafts. At this point I sort of rebelled and asked Owl what this could possibly have to do with anything. Suddenly, we were back in the original scene, with black and stars, and Owl in the Tree, as if he were angry with me and ending the lesson. Suddenly, Owl threw me backwards away from him, and I found myself falling through the atmosphere toward the Earth. I realized I had been given this challenge. Either Shape-shift into a Winged One..or hit the ground! So I concentrated with all my might, saying to myself repeatedly, “I am a Hawk, I am a Hawk..”, and just before hitting the ground turned into one! I quickly flew back up through the Sky and into Space to be with Owl again. He then taught me the secret of Shape-Shifting. Each Creation begins as a Thought in the Mind of the Great Mystery before manifesting physically, reminding me of what I had learned in my readings. So one must tap into the Spirit Blueprint of the Hawk, for example, and assume it for one’s own in order to become that Hawk! Owl then had me move up into my own Crown Chakra to look for old patterns there, of things I had been at one time or another. Sure enough, I saw a Hawk Pattern glistening there. I melded with it, and found myself hovering above a Tree in a forest. It was a bright day, the leaves were green..and suddenly I saw a Mouse moving in a clearing below. I found myself soar down to grab the Mouse in my Talons. Even as Mouse was dying, I could see the same elongated light streaks in its eyes..we are all part of this great pattern of creation, and Mouse’s death was merely the retiring of one of his Chakra patterns..and he would soon move right on to the next one in his Spiritual evolution. His gift of food to me was also a gift of new life to him..death didn’t really enter into it. We were communicating through our eyes. I then returned to my Crown Chakra and moved down the line of Patterns..and sure enough, there was the “me” I am in this Earth Walk. I re-activated both my human form and the Hawk pattern, and internalized both into my Being. So now I am both Human Being, and on a slightly different level, Hawk as well. What struck me most concerning my time as a Hawk is how simple existence is..uncluttered awareness of what is going on NOW..no worries, no plans, no regrets. Just living in total balance as planned by the Great Spirit. It was a wonderful feeling, and one we should all try to get back to in our Earth Walks..exactly what a Shamanic Journey is for. Having Hawk as part of my physical being now will make me more able to “fly”..and eventually to Shape-Shift in the service of my brothers and sisters.

Journey 108 - Future Training

10/21/04: A Journey to discover the next phase of my Shamanic Walk. The 19th of this month was the three-year anniversary of my Hawk Epiphany (found in this blog under 10/19/01), during which I found myself chosen to begin the Shaman’s walk in earnest. I’ve come a long way in the intervening years, but just like a 3-year old child, I can walk and talk Shamanism, but still have a whole lot of experience and training to go before becoming a full “adult”. I’m very pleased with my progress to date, particularly in the realm of these Journeys to the Spirit Camp, but am now curious to find out what lies ahead..where I should be concentrating my efforts in the near term. So off I went on my Journey, after Rattling, lighting the Sacred Candle and Smudging. I used the 15-minute Drum segment, although very tired, hoping I wouldn’t drift off to sleep outright. However, fall asleep I did, but not before getting the info I was seeking. As I walked into the Spirit World, I saw Owl fluttering about in front of me. Behind him were the black and orange colors of Halloween! I found that kind of unusual, as Halloween in this country is a scare-and-greed-fest for kids, by and large, versus the ancient view of the day in which the Fabric between this “reality” and the Spirit World thins a good deal. Many Shamans used to use this “holiday” to seek deeper and fuller enlightenment from the Spirits. So, I took the colors as a bit of humor as well as a signal of the deeper meaning. But the modern Halloween imagery did not stop here, as you shall see. But first, Owl took me quickly laterally in the wooded open-circle area I have visited before. As he flew around in tight circles, he was shedding small Feathers, like a columnar veil. Behind him, the seasons rapidly went through a full cycle, ending up in next winter (2005-6). At that point, Owl pointed to a newly filled gravesite there in the falling snow, and I got the distinct impression it was my mother therein. A bit horrified, I quickly tried to jerk my awareness away from this scene..this is info I would prefer not to know However, the shock value and recognition had already sunk in. So I have just a little over a year left with my mom? Very quickly, the Journey now proceeded before I could get too involved with this possibility. Owl pointed me up to a swirling section of the black sky to my right, and we went up through this Tunnel to the Upper World. Its walls were flaky and had several colors (I recall dark green and blue), but there were large patches where there was nothing, also. And lo and behold out of the Upper World came a witch in full regalia..black dress and pointy hat, green face with long nose..the works. She asked me if I thought she was beautiful, and I said I assume you are a Spirit Helper and thereby beautiful within, but then I found myself thinking this hag-like perspective was beautiful in its own right. My definition of beauty was shifting on the spot! Then she began talking to me, and gave me two takings for the next year..assignments if you will. First, she told me to get deeper into shape-shifting, the ability to change from a human to a Hawk, etc, in order to go places and witness things a human can’t. Also, one can appear to others as a Spirit Helper in this new form. She also wanted me to learn to shape-shift other objects as well..turning a glass into a pen, etc. So I shall devote a good deal of my next Journeys to this aspect of Shamanism. The other tasking she gave me was to help me become a better healer: she told me to learn to feel other people’s pain, but not in the comical, western “I feel your pain” surface brush-off way. To REALLY import someone else’s pain from their body into mine, in order to better know where the source of trouble was and how to fix it. I then fell asleep. When I woke briefly, I was sent down a River, walking on the surface, absorbing millions of particles of Mana, i.e., Spirit Essence. This was no doubt to strengthen me. Next thing I knew, I was waking up well past the end of the Drum Loop. I did not return through the Tunnel from the Upper World, and so felt quite disconnected for an hour or so, until I went back into my room and manually returned through the Tunnel and back to grounding.

Journey 107 - PA for Spirit Sister

10/8/04: A Journey to assign a special Power Animal to my Spirit Sister, who has a lot to deal with lately and I’m assuming can use the extra help. After the usual preparations, I lay down and turned on the Drum CD. I saw my Lower World Guide Crosses in Front appear, all bedecked in Rainbow Specks (mini-Jewels) and looking quite impressive! I suddenly found her lifting me into Space, and as we rose above the Earth I was stunned by the absolute clarity of the beauty around me. Earth was clothed in brilliant colors, and the Stars were vibrant with Light. Moon was similarly gorgeous, and as we floated out past the Planets, I couldn’t help wondering how this all related to a Lower World Journey to find a Power Animal, usually taken down through the Earth..not up in Space! Still, I knew to let the Journey unfold as it happens, and out further we went. Once past Pluto, we went straight up, way above the Solar System. Looking down on it, I could see the Planets circling the Sun in breath-taking brightness and color, in sped-up fashion. It was so peacefully and invitingly pretty. Crosses then told me that my Sister must view her life in the same terms as this Medicine Wheel. Objects change their orientation, and things move within the Sacred Hoop to produce different effects..but they all are contained within the Circle of Life in a Sacred Balance..and she must seek out that Natural Peace than comes from recognizing the circularity and balance of the Motions in her Wheel. It was then that we plummeted instantaneously back to Earth and sought the entry to the Lower World. We found it at the base of a Tree with all-blue Leaves. As we went down the Tunnel, we past Chipmunks and Woodchucks in their nests..and soon emerged into a land covered in small green leafy growth. The sky above was a very deep Blue, barely lit.like the beginnings of twilight. I saw with Crosses at a small Fire. Very soon, I saw an all-white Eagle flying toward me. It landed next to me. Are you my Sister’s special Power Animal, I asked? Yes. I thought to myself, how remarkable she would get an all-white Eagle, she who had dreamed of holding the White Buffalo as a young girl. She truly is specially anointed in the Spirit Camp. I was then instructed to anoint this Eagle with the Four Elements. So I dipped my hand in the nearby River of Life and stroke the forehead of White Eagle with Water. I then passed Sage Smoke across Eagle to sanctify her with the Breath of Air. I passed a lit stick in front of her Eyes until they burned with the Light of the Sacred Fire. I then saw her talons dig deep into the rich, moist and fertile Earth, with some of that dirt sticking into the cracks of her feet. She was anointed with the Four elements of Water, Air, Fire and Earth. In a flash, we were back in Space, and I saw White Eagle soaring through the Solar System at an incredible speed. A white diamond glistening in the distance, moving like a Planet with Free Will. As she passed very closely by me, she dropped me a White Feather..a great and humbling Honor. I then saw White Eagle soar up the Tunnel from the Lower World and cross over to Sister's town..and settle within her Aura. I saw her at peace with a wonderful smile. I know the Journey’s purpose had been accomplished. I then went from my Journey location in my room over to the Feather Sister had given me and added the White Feather to it..from where it will now always send out this special Eagle Energy. I then saw my own Power Animal Bald Eagle sitting within my own Aural Field, whiter than it had been. Where it had been all brown, there were now many traces and outlines of white coloring, as if Eagle had been dusted in a fine white powder. This told me I had been given added Eagle Spirit Energy as well for helping my Spirit Sister in this way. I was not worthy of the all-white Eagle, but I was certainly a bit closer. In an added gift, I then saw my sister-in-law, at a younger age. She was looking down at her son, who had died in his late teens, looking about 7 here. She and he were both smiling to be together again. I then saw my brother-in-law. He was also smiling, and then I saw the three of them standing together as if for a family portrait. They were saying “thank you” to me for bringing them back together. I told them to thank those around us, and in a circle I saw the Spirit Helpers standing a short distance away from us. THEY had made this happen, I said. Just as I finished, the Drum Call Back sounded, and I returned to hank my Helpers. After note: the color Blue stood out in this Journey, and stands for Peace, Faith, Aspiration and Creative Expression.

Here is the reply I received to this Journey from my Spirit Sister: "Most remarkable. For the past two days, especially I have been struggling more than usual and in the midst of all of that felt that somehow you were at work on my behalf. This journey is confirmation of that. Also, a few days ago, as I was struggling with my life's direction, I laid out a Tarot spread. That is something I always do carefully with prayer that only the Holy Spirit give me guidance and only that which I am supposed to know. The first card of the Celtic Cross spread that I use is the card that represents self. Lo and behold, it was The Wheel...a card with exactly the meaning of the wheel in your journey. Staying centered is the only way not to get caught up in the turmoil of the ups and downs. Stand on the rim and you're in for a wild ride. Stay at the hub and all turns in peace."

Journey 106 - Dream Extension

10/8/04: A Journey to follow up on a recent Dream in which I was in my Mom’s house and discovered a new bedroom downstairs with a “dirty gold” skinned girl sitting up in her bed and spelling out a name that seemed to say “Julia”. I prepared my room in the usual way and lay down with an extended Drum CD loop to begin revisiting this Dream, with the purpose of extending it. I was expecting Owl to appear, but instead got a rare visit from my Sacred Pipe Bird, Red-Tailed Hawk! This was to be a special Journey indeed. I spoke my Purpose: to meet with the Dream Keepers, the Dream Spirits. We sat together on a bough of a Tree that was very rich in Apple Blossoms. They were very fresh-looking, and had small Worms moving about in some of them, indicative of mixing fresh air into the surroundings as they do in Mother Earth. The Fragrance was stunning. Apple stands for Joyful Giving, Hidden Knowledge, Happiness and Healing at Hand, according to Ted Andrews’ “Nature-speak.” As we sat and awaited the Sky Tunnel to appear, I saw slices of color rotating across the Sky. Then above us formed the Tunnel. It was made up of millions of swirling green Leaves, speaking of a great intensity of Life and therefore Spirit Energies, and recalling the Apple Tree we were in. As we took off, Hawk had me ride on his shoulders. Hang on, he smiled. Up we went. As we rose above my town, I saw all the buildings disappear and the Land revert back to how it appeared in pre-invasion days, before the arrival of the White Ones..all Trees and Rivers. Once through the leafy part of the Tunnel, we passed through a lighted blue Energy-fabric Tunnel, and toward a hoop of Golden Sparks that had the appearance of a Fireworks Sparkler. We blew through this Hoop and went out in the Void itself. All was black and substance-less except for the sparkling Hoop off in the distance..our way back. Then, there appeared four Beings with human shapes, dressed in glowing light green, body-length Robes. These were the Dream Spirits. They surrounded me at the Four Directions, and I then found myself sinking beneath them and back into my Dream. I entered the new bedroom to find the dirty-gold girl there, sitting up with the covers clenched to her chest as before, looking furtive and sick, as it was when my Dream ended. I asked who she was. She told me her name was “That Which is No More”. She was leafing through a picture book showing nothing but scenes of Forest. I sensed she was from the Time before the “westerners” moved into the area and built houses and roads, contaminating the Sacred Sprit of the place. She then told me that someday the land will look like this again, with all traces of modern America removed. I thought of the 2032 dateline I’d seen in an earlier Journey for the Final War. She then told me she was one of the Golden People, the Little People, who had been greatly weakened in the recent centuries. Her weakened state was why my Mom’s house tended to have things go slightly wrong within it, to be accident-prone. I then decided to re-empower this Girl using Villoldo’s technique. I had her lie back down and I went to sit at the top of her head. I opened Sacred Space over her and could actually see the blue veil of Spirit Power form over her and me. I cradled her head in my hands and began pumping Healing Energies into her..I could feel the Power flowing through my Hands and into her. I chanted my Female Power Chant given me in an earlier Journey. I saw her body restored to its brilliant Gold, and she then stood up at the foot of the bed. She was a beautiful woman indeed. I then saw her transmutate into a Being with a totally round head and the black, oval Spirit Eyes I’ve seen often in Journeys, and a thin supporting body with no arms beneath. She asked me if I found this appearance offensive. I told her no, that she was equally beautiful either way. She then returned to the human appearance. She led me through my Mom’s house, and I saw the kitchen lit brightly, with a delicious breakfast cooking, the sun coming in from the opposite direction as does in this Reality, signaling a 180-degree flip, a reversal of realities. A restoration. I sensed a happier time, with my Aunt and Grandmother still with us. We were then suddenly in a four-decker apartment building. I sensed it was the Spiritual representation of my Grandmother’s flat back when. I saw the porch railing give in the middle. I was then standing there, looking straight down, and feeling considerable fear of falling to the street below. Hawk flew in to calm me. Then, the Golden Little Woman appeared and flung Mana about the place. The flat porch and we were suddenly at ground level. I sensed this large fall I saw had been a Spirit Damage that had been attached to my Grandmother, and that she was now much more at rest since the gap had now been closed. We were now back in the “extra” bedroom. I asked the Little Person what name she had been trying to spell out when my Dream ended. It came to me slowly..Julianne! She then explained to me that the four Bird Calls I heard at night the last time we visited my Mom was her, Julianne, calling me to come help her. Since I had not Journeyed to see what the Calls meant, she subsequently reached out to me in this Dream. She then also explained that she was the Guardian that my mother had long sensed was protecting her. And now she was fully strengthened, making me feel much better that my mom was in strengthened Spirit Hands. The final scene took me to the base of the back Tree in my yard..where I had sensed a few nights ago that the Little People were living. This told me that I had indeed been right about this..and Julianne led me to this particular Tree just to let me know this was indeed a residence of the Golden Little Ones. Good to know! The Call Back then sounded and I returned with thanks for my Guides and Julianne.

Journey 105 - Beavers, oh my

10/7/04: A journey to visit with a dear friend’s Beavers, who are currently tearing up her new stream and dam set-up that she and her man have been working on for the past few years. She is loathe to have the Beavers removed, but is very worried about the damage the diverted water flow they are generating will cause. So I told her I would visit with the Beavers in a Journey, and here are the results. After Smudging and Rattling and lighting the Sacred Candle, I began the Drum CD and asked that whichever of my Guides was right for this trip to the Middle World, show up. Shortly I found Snake (Crosses in Front) and myself moving down her driveway toward the area in question. It was Night. We were both carrying small Torches, an indication of the Power of Fire Medicine in this area. I had read this Medicine in a Journey of a few weeks ago. We went to where the Beavers were at work, and I told them who I was and why I was there. I looked about and saw the Auras of all the Living Things there (Trees, Stones, Water, Beavers, etc.) so there was plenty of “vision” here in the darkness. I saw the Mana moving through the Air like a mist as well. I knew, therefore, that although still in the Middle World of our current Reality, I was at the very edge of that Dimension as well. One of the Beavers led us upstream a bit until we came to an area in the Woods where a Beaver Lodge made completely of pure Aural Energy was standing in the middle of a land path. This Lodge was made from the convergence of all the Auras of all the recent actions of the Beavers, and I got the impression that as they toiled and altered the Landscape, the position of this Lodge changed as well. We went inside and I got to speak only very briefly with the Beaver Spirit within. This was a very rapid Journey, and the only two messages I brought back from the Lodge were that the Beavers are acting completely within their instincts, and therefore would not be moved voluntarily. I also brought back a more fascinating tidbit. They really like the Fire Medicine of my friends, and are drawn to it. It’s almost as if they are trying to counterbalance the fire they perceive in them with the Water gifts they the Beavers bring. So this basically leaves my friend where she was before..two choices of questionable joy: either let them continue and effect her and neighboring properties, or have them removed, violating the Natural Balance. I suppose the third choice would be to continue to try to counterbalance the counterbalancing..live with it and fix the minor problems until final resolution occurs.