Journey 27 - Generationally Inherited Dark Force

1/23/04: Tonight’s Journey was in response to the earlier inspiration I had on the road today that a dark Force or Being had been attached to my family for generations, and it was now time to find out what it was and dispel it. While all of us have been successful, we’ve all had a degree of failure in our lives that speaks of something attacking us at key moments, preventing us from reaching our goals and full potential. The fact a rare and very bright red Ancestor Bird flew right in front of me as I was considering this reinforced my perception. I knew that if there were such a Force/Being, it would be a tough fight that I might lose as I could sense it was very powerful, but I prayed the rest of the afternoon and prepared myself in case I found the time tonight. And I did. I smudged the room with both Sage and Sweet Grass, and called in the Spirits to assist me. I left a note saying that if I did not return, for my wife to get a Shaman from the local Native store to get me back. But I was not about to shun this great challenge, as I felt it was up to me alone to deal with this. For added safety, I took a small round Stone Person that had been sitting in front of my Pipe, and held it in my left hand for grounding during my away time. I used the longer version of the Meadows drumming CD by earphones, lit a candle and turned out the lights and began. I was wired at first, so to calm down during the prep drumming I used the Shamanic Breath and concentrated on my mission: to discover if there was generational Dark Force, and if so to dispel it. As I lay there, I called up the Spirit Guides and Totems I had decided earlier in the day to take with me: Gray Wolf, Alligator (Snaps Shut) and Snake (Crosses in Front), as well as Hawk. We met in the back yard but had a false start or two..there didn’t seem to be the right opening. The normal openings seemed irrelevant. Suddenly I spotted a very old hole to my right, and suggested we try it. It was obviously very aged, and had a crusty, worn and tattered look to it. We ventured down this Tunnel together, and it was immediately quite dark. On all other Journeys there were lights and roots and the like, and the Tunnels were quite pleasant. This one was just plain dark. As we went down further there was just no light whatsoever. Suddenly, coming out of the darkness a bit to my left was a Deer with very shiny golden eyes. It came up to my left ear and whispered that I needed to strengthen my Aura more. So, I took myself out of the Tunnel and off to the Tree of Life I had visited in an earlier Journey, and partook of the Mana globes, also stuffing a few into my Skull eye sockets to ward off any fears of Death. I then returned to the Tunnel and we went further in. As we did so, we seemed to cross some sort of invisible barrier or membrane, and we were suddenly back in my room. As I lay in the bed, I sensed the presence of the Dark Force right in the room with me, filling almost the entire space before me. I found myself taking its perspective and looking back at me and my Guides. I could see us sitting together on my bed, protected by a Rainbow Aura that covered us all as one essence. I saw us shrinking down to a very small size as the Force tried to get rid of us in one easy swoop by reducing us to nothing. I quickly hopped back to my position inside the Aura and asked the Force who or what it was. Suddenly, I saw in my mind’s eye a scene in what must have been Sicily or a similar Mediterranean place. I saw an older gentleman kneeling on the ground, putting the finishing touches on the makeshift grave of a baby girl. I sensed this was an act of cover-up, that perhaps the baby had been eliminated to save money or because it was an unwanted girl versus a needed boy..hard to say. I saw the Dark Being move in from behind and actually attach itself to this man as he did his work. I readied myself for Battle, convinced I had found the source of our “curse.” I fashioned a glowing Spear that contained the Fire Medicine of the Core of Mother Earth. I fashioned arrows glowing with the Power of Grandfather Sun. With those Two Fire Powers, my Fire Medicine was balanced and complete. Suddenly, hundreds (if not more) Dark Being Birds started soaring down at me from above. The sky and ground literally turned black with the huge number of attackers. I pumped my Aura up, and as I did so could actually feel my Earth Body tingling with Energy as I lay in the bed, and held my Stone Person tighter. I sent my Allies Wolf, Snake and Alligator into the fray to begin destroying the Dark Birds. I also used my Spear to do likewise. Hawk was circling well above us, and turning into each the Four Directions colors as it passed through each quadranr, indicating the Powers of those Grandfathers were working from above as we fought below. At one point the Dark Bird coverage got so thick I felt myself completely enveloped and being lifted off the ground. I then saw my Teacher, Eagle Claw, above me, and he was huge. He stomped down onto the scene. He reminded me by his presence to begin my healing chant he had given me a few months ago, and so I repeated Westu Waja Wasaji over and over, calling in Rainbow Light to eat up the Darkness. The Darkness was rapidly dispelled at this point, and the sky brightened back up and the ground returned to its normal green and brown self. I saw Alligator and Wolf lying dead(?) beside me from the Battle, and I moved my hand over them to restore them to life. I then invoked the Prayer given me by and to use with my “Woman in a Dress” from the Amazon (given me by Charlotte). By chanting Sheshi Wasaji Omapu over and over, I freed the Spirit of the Baby Girl that had been buried. Interesting enough, after the Journey I happened to look up at the Woman hanging on my wall, and one of the Feathers that had been pointing upward all along was now on its side, indicating the Spirit of the Woman had actually left the Wall hanging to join me in the Journey. I then turned my attention to the Grandfather, who was still kneeling there. He had a large Snake with evil-looking eyes protruding from his midsection where his penis should have been. The snake was at least 1 ½ feet long. This told me for sure that the curse had been transmitted through the act of procreation over the generations, guaranteeing its effectiveness..clever. I sent Alligator and Snake to destroy this Being. At this point, the Grandfather and the Ground were both clean, and the former disappeared. He might have finally gone to the Light, so to speak. I then scratched my Shaman Symbol into the ground where the Baby had been buried to secure the site for only good acts, protected by good Shaman Medicine. I then began to pray for removal of the curse from all the generations, from then to now through history. I had no idea how far back this event was. I found myself viewing the wheel of time, and I saw a bright red streak flow through a small section of the Energy Disc of Life as if it was erasing part of the data. I assumed it was that part of history that contained this event and the curse through time afterward. I then saw a green streak flow in right over the same place on the Disc. I was then aware of this huge Bowl hanging over my head, pouring an emerald green substance down all over me. This was washing away my curse energies. I then prayed that this healing Elixir would flow over all the people in my family effected by this Dark Energy curse. I never got to meet a physical Being in this endeavor, and have concluded therefore that it was an Energy presence versus an Entity. The wonderful feeling I had as I was washed clean of this “curse-to-make-us-fail” is still with me as I write this summary a day later. In a rather mature action, I took on the Force that had been attached to us since before most of us were born, and only a Shaman could have righted this problem. I was thrilled I survived. As I got to my first stop today, no Crows were in the Tree next to the building, but I did hear two caws. That made me walk out to find out where the Crow actually was. As I did so, a HUGE Gull flew up off the ground and right before me, looped around the top of the building, and then flew right back down again. At first I thought it was a Heron due to its size and slow wing thrusts. But as Sea Gull symbolized freedom, it was a great thrill to see my being freed of this curse made manifest by the freedom Spirit Bird whose presence had been announced to me by my announcer Spirit Bird. Later on the route, a small Hawk flew up from the marsh to my right and right over my car as I drove. I trust my brothers and sisters felt this healing moment, but had no idea what was happening.