Journey 30 - Witchcraft in Attic

1/30: This afternoon’s Journey was taken to see what might be causing the deep disturbance with a friend’s sister, who is still living in their mother’s very old house, and is very unhappy and self-pitying. As I recall, her mother passed from this house, and was welcomed both by deceased relatives and by a Red Tailed Hawk in the yard that same day..no doubt her Spirit Guide. So this house is no stranger to Spirit matters. Because of my experience with many Turquoise and Coral Cloud Person colors this afternoon as well as the circling Hawk near me, I decided to begin this journey riding Hawk’s magnificent soaring flight into the Turquoise and Aqua Tunnel that presented itself shortly after we took off. The Tunnel was a loop that ran from here in a short Arc over to Gonic..and when we emerged, it was dark in the yard of the House where my friend’s mom lived and her sister still does. As I stood about 70 feet away, I could see that there was a red glow in the attic, and an orange glow in all the windows of the second floor. The first floor seemed to have blue light within. These were Spirit Energy levels, indicating that the upper floors were saturated with lower levels, survival and emotional regimes, while the first floor was in the higher levels (but not highest) of Spirit Health. Eagle Claw and my Emotions Chakra Guide Snaps Shut (alligator) were with me, and decided to be my Guides for this investigation/visit. We went straight through the walls to the second floor. Candles on the walls indicated that we were in the time before electrification..all was dimly lit. Perhaps early 1800s. We went into a room off the stairwell, a smaller bedroom, and I could see a simple bed against the wall adjacent to a window. The walls were covered in wallpaper that was gray in background but had large flower heads as the primary design, with hints of dark red and blue. We walked along the hallway past several wall-mounted candles, toward another room, where I sensed there might be a younger female. Suddenly, though, we were drawn to the attic. It was night, and the young girl was kneeling-sitting on the floor before a single Candle. She was delving into witchcraft! I could see a Red Witch Being hovering over her. I watched as the Girl performed a sacrifice on a Rabbit, pouring some of its ebbing life’s blood into a small ancient tin or brass bowl that was filled with raw sugar. The Red Witch Energy merged with the Girl. As she poured, the body of a Blue Baby appeared before her on the floor off to her left. It was crying and looking at her although it was the color of Death. The Girl was extremely scared at actually getting results and quickly terminated the experience. The Candle blew out by itself. She ran out of the house with the dead Rabbit and threw it into the adjacent field. I got the impression she later took one of its feet for good luck, of all hopeful things. The Witch Spirit, imperfectly formed, nonetheless has stayed in the house like a thin fog ever since. Eagle Claw and I then decided to go down to the Lower World under the house. We zoomed through a hole in the ground. It seemed we were looking for hints of some sort of Power Animal. Eagle Claw was really looking for a Rabbit Spirit. But the Tunnel was deserted, a result of this event of long ago. We then went up into the basement, and I saw a screw sealing down a plank under which the Rabbit’s Foot was being hidden for good. I then saw the solution for removing the Witch Spirit Energy. One of the daughters must take a small candle to the attic, and lay a bracelet made of Quartz Crystals around the Candle and leave it there until the candle goes out. At this point, all the Depressing Energy will have been absorbed by the Quartz. The bracelet must then be thrown into flowing clear water for good to leech out the Energy for harmless reabsorbing by Mother Earth. After this imagery, I saw several Spirits descending down to the front lawn on the house, no doubt to reestablish a friendly force there. I then took the part of the Hawk, who flew to the top of the roof and stood on the peak, inspecting the ridge line. This Hawk visit will be the sign that all is well in the house, but I did not see anyone around in the yard as a witness, so chances are this will happen unseen. I then spent the rest of the Drum tine with various images, none of which were germane to the point of the Journey. As such, I can’t quite recall them. I thanked my Guides and came back to the room and grounded myself, aware that my breathing was very slow and shallow, typical of deep Journeys.

I then decided to follow through on a plan I had had earlier in the day. I wanted to go after the Disease in the Castle holding my frioend’s mother in her coffin within. I decided to use a proxy..the Woman in the Grass Skirt. I smudged her heavily and placed the Candle before her like last night, recreating the shadowy wings on either side. I then began to rattle before her, and said the prayer chant she gave me, asking her to remove her mom from her coffin. As she went in to work, I sensed dread, and worried if I had placed her in too much danger. The whole time she was away I felt the Disease’s single-minded blackness nearby. The Candle flickered violently, at times almost going out and then coming back in the nick. As I watched this for about a minute, I decided she had had enough. I did not get the sense that she was successful, but felt the Disease had been weakened. I smudged her back heavily, and rattled circles around her in the 7 Directions to strengthen her Aura. I then drummed to help her ground herself back into the bedroom and on my wall. I got the sense she was back safe. I blew out the Candle and thanked her.

Journey 29 - Pain in Right Side

1/29: A Journey to see if I can help co-worker with the mysterious pain in her middle front right area that local doctors have yet to analyze properly. We had spoken yesterday and she gave me permission to visit her Energy Body from afar to investigate. She was actually looking forward to my report and, as it turns out, was hoping I had it with me this morning. I got out of work early today and while my wife rested upstairs, I went down to Journey. I smudged the room and did my Breathing, then lit the Sacred fire (candle) and turned off the lights. I kept repeating my goal, to find out what was bothering my friend, and if I would be able to fix it. I found myself very shortly following a Bald Eagle in flight, hearing its wing beats and seeing its bright white tail flaring ahead of me. I soon was up beside it, and we were moving quickly up a brilliantly golden tunnel in the sky. This went on for a while, until we reached a flat surface where all was a brilliant gold, including trees, sun, bushes.. I stood there, and saw a short distance away a tremendously tall Tipi, perhaps the size of a small Egyptian Pyramid. It was outlined in blue lines converging at the top, and had no other physical form. I soon found myself floating up to the very pinnacle, and was sitting up there looking down and around as if I were a bird (simile added now). I soon saw a table floating toward me from out of the sky, and as it got closer I could see Grand-people sitting around it. I moved off the Tipi peak and went to sit with them. I wrote down my request, the purpose of my visit, and they took it under advisement for a short time. They granted my request, and I found myself with my co-worker, investigating her Energy Field. I kept waiting for an image to form on my Visual Cortex, hoping that it had strengthened to the point where I could use it easily. That wait was actually distracting, so I relaxed and soon saw myself with AM lying before me asleep and ready to be checked. I investigated organs, energy flow lines, etc. I saw through to her skeleton. The only physical evidence I saw appeared as a small sac with a bright point of light on the bottom outer bulge. I cannot be sure what that was, but I know already she has a gall bladder problem, so it may well be that. Still thinking that one over. But then, as I studied her Aura, I noticed a Wedge of Dark Energy lodged in the area where her pain is. As I interrogated the Wedge, I found it was sent there by a close relative (a sister, probably) out of jealousy and/or rage, more than likely at her relationship with her Father. I began to extract the energy using my Crystal Wand, making sure I did not inherit it myself. I saw it dissolving and smoking up into the Wand, and I sent it flying up into the Sky for consumption. At this point, I fell asleep and slept for just over an hour. When I woke up, the drumming was long since over, and I lay there in the Sacred Candlelight grounding myself back to reality. Since I had possible fallen asleep before finishing the Healing, I later performed an awake Ceremony with the Woman in the Grass Skirt. I wanted to use purely Female Energy to complete the healing. I smudged the Woman heavily, then took my Sacred Candle, lit it, and placed it just in front of her (far enough out, of course, so as not to light her dress J). I took my Turtle Rattle off the wall and began shaking it. I repeated her chant over and over, sending healing thoughts to my friend. The Obsidian bracelet hung above her, and the last word in the chant refers to the island Obsidian comes from. Completely by accident, the shadows being cast by the dancing flame of the Candle caused a display behind the Woman that looked like large flapping wings, perfectly centered on either side of her! I knew then she was “in flight” working on my friend, and I sensed her fluttering around AM’s Energy Wound like a small Bird. As I rattled and chanted, I noticed that Woman’s face looked exactly as it would if SHE were Journeying! Then I got the sense that her Spirit actually was. I joined with it and we both went together out of the room and over to my friend to visit the damaged area. I sensed myself one with Woman, and told her we will return when she is done. “Just give me a sign.” Soon, a loud knock somewhere behind me jolted me back into the room, and I concluded Woman was finished with the Healing and back in her wall hanging. Recalling the other part of the Ceremony given me in a prior Journey, I smudged Woman’s grass dress in the area of my friend’s pain with Ashes from recently burnt Sage. I then stretched my fingers out in front of me and near the Candle, and could feel my friend’s Aura there. I reshaped it to perfection very slowly down to the ground as my fingers tingled. I once again declared her Aura sealed and the Wedge removed. I then peered over the top of the Candle, felt the healing heat of Mother Earth and Father Sky on my face, taking it into myself to restore my balance, and then blew out the Flame. I am confident the Spirits have removed the Wedge and greatly accelerated my friend’s Healing.

Journey 28 - First Journey into Cancer's Castle for Friend's Mom

1/24: This afternoon’s Journey was to see if I could negotiate a surrender, so to speak, with a dear friend's mom’s disease. I prepared the room with Sage and Sweet Grass, and also shook my Rattle to the three levels of each of the 7 Directions to set up an even more Sacred Space. I lit my Candle to ensure the presence of the Good Light while I was gone. I used Shamanic Breathing to increase my Mana supply and to relax. I used the long version of the Meadows CD for the actual Journey. While I was relaxing, I sent the protective shield of my Luminous Body over to cover her mom as well, so nothing I did would inadvertently hurt her. But I also restricted this covering to protection only, so that none of each other’s energies would use it as a bridge to reach the other. I met Hawk, and we took off together. We flew higher, and eventually saw a Cloud Person with a purple entry hole. We headed into this Tunnel. The sides were made of hard rainbow chunks with rather sharp edges, and as we soared through this Tunnel I felt myself melding my Spirit more with the Hawk’s so that we would be almost one Being. We emerged onto a flat plain where the ground was made of broken chunks of small-stone-sized, cloudy Quartz Crystal pieces stuck together for as far as the eye could see. A short distance away, I saw a large building made of the same materials that was about 4 stories high with turrets..a mini castle. The windows and door were as foreboding a black color as I had ever seen. I sat on a bench and Eagle Claw came up to sit next to me. He grabbed my hand and held it, as if giving me courage to go to the door. When I got there, just as I put my foot over the threshold, I felt as if I was slipping down into a chasm..a feeling of falling, being pulled in. I quickly realized I needed Guides with me, so I called on Gray Wolf and Two Feathers to stay on either side of me. They arrived, took up their positions, and we went in. Movement through the black slog was quite slow and tedious, a testimony to how black and thick this energy was. It was completely dark for a few minutes. Then, off to the right, we saw a very dark blue outline of a table. We walked over to it and sat down, hoping to meet with the Spirit of the Disease. It did show up, but immediately set about to trying to invade my Aura. I felt a strong tingling in my body as my Aura resisted, and I had a feeling of energy depletion and sinking. The three of us strengthened our Spirit Bodies to resist, using my Eagle Claw chant to call in the extra Rainbow Light. I actually had to determinedly call my Rainbow Aura to mind to give it enough power to make it visible enough to overcome the darkness feeling and surroundings. As it was, my Aura was very close to me and very distinct, as if being compressed from without. Then, on one wall, I saw a blue outline of a coffin with her mom already in it. Did this mean we were going to fail? I was then taken up to the top floor, to one of the turret windows. There, a human-sized White Being with no features appeared. It pointed out the window, and I went to look. The stars were all transmitting rainbow shafts of light down to the area, and the outside of the building and the ground were dancing in the colors. I sensed the White Being wanted me to ask it for help, but very slowly. So I said, “I am Four Hawks and I would like to ask this Disease’s Spirit if it will let go of my friend’s mom” in a very slow way. As I finished, the White Being stood aside to consider. I suddenly saw a point of darkness ahead of me, and a spear came rushing toward me and penetrated my Aura. It was the Disease attacking me again. Once more, I felt the sinking feeling as I tingled. I tried to remove the Spear but could not as my energy drained, so I asked Two Feathers and Gray Wolf to pull it out for me. They did, and they patched up the hole in my Aura. This is why one should always have Spirit Helpers along. I sensed from this response that there was no way the Disease will voluntarily give up. I then saw a series of images. I saw Robins flying over mom and also our friends' house, an instruction to send Robin Medicine their way. I placed my Woman in a Dress over mom’s face and sang the Woman’s chant, to try to ease mom’s travel. I saw a gray haired man waiting patiently on the other side of a glass door..mom’s Spirit Escort? I saw the shape of a Horse’s head, calling to mind my own humble beginnings as a Shaman way back when..and the last thing I saw was a small Spider, the creating one, center of the Web. For most of my time in this building, I could not help thinking about how aggressive and depleting this Disease felt to me. As I came back, I grounded my Aura firmly to Mother Earth and soaked up her Fire Medicine. I felt a wild electricity running through my Body, evidence of Cleansing. I called on the Green Elixir to pour over me and remove any hint of the Disease I might have picked up. I thanked all my Guides and Guardians for their help and protection. When I came back to my feet, I literally doused myself with Sage Smoke for cleansing and negative energy removal, cleaned my Chakras, and reshaped my Aura with my Eagle Feather. Even an hour after the event, the disturbing nature of this Disease is still in my mind. I am glad I made this extraordinary Journey, as I felt it was my duty, but this is really the first one I have come back from feeling very humbled and somewhat disturbed. This is the true Path of a Shaman Healer, for there are times when one cannot heal and places oneself in danger of being hurt oneself. I’m very glad I had learned through study how to react and protect myself. I realized also that I never tried to heal her..that was not the purpose of this journey. I was hoping for a voluntary departure. I shall try to heal her using my more traditional Methods, taught to me in prior Journeys. I’m not sure I’m ready to head back into this Disease and take it on in Battle just yet. I’ll await Guidance from Dreams and Cards for that.

Journey 27 - Generationally Inherited Dark Force

1/23/04: Tonight’s Journey was in response to the earlier inspiration I had on the road today that a dark Force or Being had been attached to my family for generations, and it was now time to find out what it was and dispel it. While all of us have been successful, we’ve all had a degree of failure in our lives that speaks of something attacking us at key moments, preventing us from reaching our goals and full potential. The fact a rare and very bright red Ancestor Bird flew right in front of me as I was considering this reinforced my perception. I knew that if there were such a Force/Being, it would be a tough fight that I might lose as I could sense it was very powerful, but I prayed the rest of the afternoon and prepared myself in case I found the time tonight. And I did. I smudged the room with both Sage and Sweet Grass, and called in the Spirits to assist me. I left a note saying that if I did not return, for my wife to get a Shaman from the local Native store to get me back. But I was not about to shun this great challenge, as I felt it was up to me alone to deal with this. For added safety, I took a small round Stone Person that had been sitting in front of my Pipe, and held it in my left hand for grounding during my away time. I used the longer version of the Meadows drumming CD by earphones, lit a candle and turned out the lights and began. I was wired at first, so to calm down during the prep drumming I used the Shamanic Breath and concentrated on my mission: to discover if there was generational Dark Force, and if so to dispel it. As I lay there, I called up the Spirit Guides and Totems I had decided earlier in the day to take with me: Gray Wolf, Alligator (Snaps Shut) and Snake (Crosses in Front), as well as Hawk. We met in the back yard but had a false start or two..there didn’t seem to be the right opening. The normal openings seemed irrelevant. Suddenly I spotted a very old hole to my right, and suggested we try it. It was obviously very aged, and had a crusty, worn and tattered look to it. We ventured down this Tunnel together, and it was immediately quite dark. On all other Journeys there were lights and roots and the like, and the Tunnels were quite pleasant. This one was just plain dark. As we went down further there was just no light whatsoever. Suddenly, coming out of the darkness a bit to my left was a Deer with very shiny golden eyes. It came up to my left ear and whispered that I needed to strengthen my Aura more. So, I took myself out of the Tunnel and off to the Tree of Life I had visited in an earlier Journey, and partook of the Mana globes, also stuffing a few into my Skull eye sockets to ward off any fears of Death. I then returned to the Tunnel and we went further in. As we did so, we seemed to cross some sort of invisible barrier or membrane, and we were suddenly back in my room. As I lay in the bed, I sensed the presence of the Dark Force right in the room with me, filling almost the entire space before me. I found myself taking its perspective and looking back at me and my Guides. I could see us sitting together on my bed, protected by a Rainbow Aura that covered us all as one essence. I saw us shrinking down to a very small size as the Force tried to get rid of us in one easy swoop by reducing us to nothing. I quickly hopped back to my position inside the Aura and asked the Force who or what it was. Suddenly, I saw in my mind’s eye a scene in what must have been Sicily or a similar Mediterranean place. I saw an older gentleman kneeling on the ground, putting the finishing touches on the makeshift grave of a baby girl. I sensed this was an act of cover-up, that perhaps the baby had been eliminated to save money or because it was an unwanted girl versus a needed boy..hard to say. I saw the Dark Being move in from behind and actually attach itself to this man as he did his work. I readied myself for Battle, convinced I had found the source of our “curse.” I fashioned a glowing Spear that contained the Fire Medicine of the Core of Mother Earth. I fashioned arrows glowing with the Power of Grandfather Sun. With those Two Fire Powers, my Fire Medicine was balanced and complete. Suddenly, hundreds (if not more) Dark Being Birds started soaring down at me from above. The sky and ground literally turned black with the huge number of attackers. I pumped my Aura up, and as I did so could actually feel my Earth Body tingling with Energy as I lay in the bed, and held my Stone Person tighter. I sent my Allies Wolf, Snake and Alligator into the fray to begin destroying the Dark Birds. I also used my Spear to do likewise. Hawk was circling well above us, and turning into each the Four Directions colors as it passed through each quadranr, indicating the Powers of those Grandfathers were working from above as we fought below. At one point the Dark Bird coverage got so thick I felt myself completely enveloped and being lifted off the ground. I then saw my Teacher, Eagle Claw, above me, and he was huge. He stomped down onto the scene. He reminded me by his presence to begin my healing chant he had given me a few months ago, and so I repeated Westu Waja Wasaji over and over, calling in Rainbow Light to eat up the Darkness. The Darkness was rapidly dispelled at this point, and the sky brightened back up and the ground returned to its normal green and brown self. I saw Alligator and Wolf lying dead(?) beside me from the Battle, and I moved my hand over them to restore them to life. I then invoked the Prayer given me by and to use with my “Woman in a Dress” from the Amazon (given me by Charlotte). By chanting Sheshi Wasaji Omapu over and over, I freed the Spirit of the Baby Girl that had been buried. Interesting enough, after the Journey I happened to look up at the Woman hanging on my wall, and one of the Feathers that had been pointing upward all along was now on its side, indicating the Spirit of the Woman had actually left the Wall hanging to join me in the Journey. I then turned my attention to the Grandfather, who was still kneeling there. He had a large Snake with evil-looking eyes protruding from his midsection where his penis should have been. The snake was at least 1 ½ feet long. This told me for sure that the curse had been transmitted through the act of procreation over the generations, guaranteeing its effectiveness..clever. I sent Alligator and Snake to destroy this Being. At this point, the Grandfather and the Ground were both clean, and the former disappeared. He might have finally gone to the Light, so to speak. I then scratched my Shaman Symbol into the ground where the Baby had been buried to secure the site for only good acts, protected by good Shaman Medicine. I then began to pray for removal of the curse from all the generations, from then to now through history. I had no idea how far back this event was. I found myself viewing the wheel of time, and I saw a bright red streak flow through a small section of the Energy Disc of Life as if it was erasing part of the data. I assumed it was that part of history that contained this event and the curse through time afterward. I then saw a green streak flow in right over the same place on the Disc. I was then aware of this huge Bowl hanging over my head, pouring an emerald green substance down all over me. This was washing away my curse energies. I then prayed that this healing Elixir would flow over all the people in my family effected by this Dark Energy curse. I never got to meet a physical Being in this endeavor, and have concluded therefore that it was an Energy presence versus an Entity. The wonderful feeling I had as I was washed clean of this “curse-to-make-us-fail” is still with me as I write this summary a day later. In a rather mature action, I took on the Force that had been attached to us since before most of us were born, and only a Shaman could have righted this problem. I was thrilled I survived. As I got to my first stop today, no Crows were in the Tree next to the building, but I did hear two caws. That made me walk out to find out where the Crow actually was. As I did so, a HUGE Gull flew up off the ground and right before me, looped around the top of the building, and then flew right back down again. At first I thought it was a Heron due to its size and slow wing thrusts. But as Sea Gull symbolized freedom, it was a great thrill to see my being freed of this curse made manifest by the freedom Spirit Bird whose presence had been announced to me by my announcer Spirit Bird. Later on the route, a small Hawk flew up from the marsh to my right and right over my car as I drove. I trust my brothers and sisters felt this healing moment, but had no idea what was happening.

Journey 26 - Visual Cortex Activation

1/16/04: A Journey to activate my Visual Cortex to read Spirit Energies. I used my new Meadows Drumming CD, the first section. I breathed Shamanically after smudging the Room with both Sage and Sweet Grass. I hung my small Crystal Star so perfect and brilliant rainbows would be on the walls with me as I Journeyed. I went out to a Hole in the Snow to meet with Two Feathers, and then we went down into the corresponding Hole in the Earth. Shortly after descending, Two Feathers passed me off to Crosses in Front, my Snake Guide. She took me down into a Wooded area, where many Woodpeckers came in to work. At first there was only a couple but soon there were many. As they all began pecking at once, there was a Symphony of Pecking occurring! At the same time, the heating system in the house began making lots of clicking noises as if in sympathy! Kinda humorous, that “coincidence.” Soon before I saw a large pile of sawdust composed of rainbow-ed specks of Spirit Energy piling up before me. I stood before it for a while, contemplating how I might use this energy to enhance my Cortex. At that point, literally hundred of Owls flew in from afar and gather over me. The Woodpeckers, having completed their job, left. The Owls hovered over the woods and all beat their Wings together. The sound of so many Wings beating at once was delightful. The air stirred up the dust until it surrounded me. I saw the Shadow of my Spirit Being moving out into it. I then went into a stasis while the energies worked on me..a laid back, totally non-involved state. I was soon aware of large globs of green light circling around in front of my eyes. At times they went clockwise and met in the middle to combine. Other times they were circling separately, and other times counter-clockwise. I was amazed at this light show. Coming out of it, I saw VERY clearly a human eye that was soon part of a very clear Lion’s face. Soon after that I saw very clearly an Owl’s face. These images were coming directly out of my Visual Cortex, showing my how powerfully it was being stimulated. Then, another stasis, after which I saw brilliant purple blobs interchanging with the green ones. Purple is the color of high Spirit Energy, Green the color of Healing. I then drifted off again until the Drumming changed rhythms and brought me back to the Wooded Area. I then began my Journey back up the Tunnel and into the Yard and my Room. While still in the Woods, I thanked all my Guides for their help! When I got upstairs to work with the computer, I felt and still feel an incredible warmth on the back of my head and neck. A tremendous amount of stimulation has occurred there..it still feels as if someone’s gentle but firm hand is lying across it. There has been a great deal of work done there, and my Spirit Vision will be greatly heightened. I am very thankful. I then lay in bed and absorbed Mother Earth’s healing Energies to repair any flaws in my Spirit Robe and to aid in the healing of my possible Hernia.