Journey 25 - Wife's PA is Hummingbird

I was going to go back in time on this Journey to visit with the REAL Jesus and see what he was really all about, but as I walked toward the ground opening to begin, both Two Feathers and Crosses in Front met me immediately and shook their heads “no.” It was not my time to make this trip and I was fairly vigorously requested to abandon the intent, so I did. I instead, then, walked with Two Feathers into the woods behind our house and basically told her we would just spend time together and see what might come. As we walked, the woods turned translucent, very shimmer-like and surreal, very alive with beautiful green energy and light. We came to a small fire made of mana, golden with Spirit Medicine, and sat beside it. Suddenly, the Little Girl from the morning Journey joined us. I was surprised to see her. She handed me a small Stone Person embedded with all sorts of tiny Crystals that shone like a Rainbow in sum. I held this Stone tightly, and realized it was the essence of my wife’s female child-ness. As I held it, I went back into her youth on her birth street, and sensed a feeling of abandonment and lack of respect from others..a lack of self-esteem. It was remarkable to me how much like myself she felt as a youngster. I had much the same feelings. I sensed her missing her parent’s presence..they were too busy for her, so she had to put up with the shenanigans of her brothers, unprotected. Much like me. When she moved away, she totally lost her little girl as she was forced into working the her parents'business every day and dealing with her mother’s business-like attitude toward her. I asked the Little Girl at the Fire how we could get her back into my wife, which seemed necessary for her to heal. She sent me into a Tunnel, where I encountered several animals, no one whom seemed friendly toward the task. I saw a Tiger, Bear and Armadillo..all of whom had indifferent poses. I also saw a black shape of a being that I diminished using my Power Chant and Starlight Rainbow Ceremony..so that should help her right off the bat. Then a small Hummingbird came up to me, and I knew this was my wife’s helper. I must get her a Hummingbird broach or singing CD. She needs Hummingbird Medicine. Also, in my mind’s eye, the image of a Shark appeared, long enough for me to realize she should be taking Shark Cartilage. We then went into a room which was representative of her TMJ joint. The Little Girl was in there, and went to a doll on a shelf that had a very human face that transformed itself into my daughter’s face! That is very significant, for not only is the little girl now back into that part of my wife’s spirit..but obviously my daughter has a role to play in this as well. I flooded the area with rainbow light to begin the healing process. I then hugged (in the way Spirits hug..a merge on energy more than anything) and thanked Two Feathers, and drummed back. As I did so, I filled myself with the Sacred Fire Medicine of Mother Earth’s core to heal and strengthen myself. When I came all the way back, I was totally rested and could feel my heartbeat through my fingertips on my drum..strong and regular. I was grounded and rested this time, and came up to type this immediately so I would not fall behind in my Journal.