1/21/05: My second Journey of the day was for my son’s good friend. The room was still under Sacred Space, so I went right to it. I found myself almost immediately on the shore of a Lake, down a bit from some Cabins. My Lower World Guide Snake (Crosses in Front) appeared almost immediately, and we were off into the woods in a playful romp sort of way. We came to a large Tree, with the inhabiting Spirit, quite an older fellow, sitting next to it, his back against the trunk. He handed me a Staff made of wood from the same Tree. At the base of the root system was a small, blue Opening, our Tunnel to the Lower World. Crosses and I went down the Tunnel, which started out as red with bulbous projections, but soon smoothed out and went through several other primary colors, ending in purple as we emerged. We landed in the area I usually go to find Power Animals, by a River with the Forest on my left and an open bay on my right. But shortly after we got there, things went pitch black. My Staff emitted lots of Light, though, and we headed toward the Forest to my right. We could see glowing eyes all over the place. As we went into the Forest, I found Caves up in the Trees! Soon a Bear Cub came up to us. At first I thought it might be the PA, but it soon snarled at me. I allowed it to bite into my Staff, and Bear cub quickly turned into White Fox (Foxes can camouflage themselves by changing fur color, so this tells me this particular Fox likes to be in snow-bound areas). The Fox was very friendly, allowing me to pat its head, and it licked my hand. I had a feeling this was the friend’s PA, but White Fox then took off into the distance. I soon saw it walk along a ridge well off to my front-left, then disappear. Within seconds, though, Fox came barreling between my legs, being chased by two large and voracious Wolves. I used my Staff to freeze them in place. White Fox then circled a nearby Tree and turned into a Spirit Man. He spoke to me. He said that the friend should live in a snowy area..a ski lodge, being an owner, a ski instructor, or a ranger. He also should buy himself a Fox Paw, or at least a silver Fox Charm to wear on a neck lace. This will greatly enhance his Power Animal presence. He told me the symbolism of the Bear turning into Fox meant that it was time for the friend to come out of hibernation and become the real him. He also said that the Wolf chase meant that Wolf Clan People (usually Pisces) would present the greatest challenges to him in his life, but he will beat them with Fox Cleverness, Camouflage..and a little help from his Spirit Protectors. He then told me to teach him of Fox Medicine. He then returned to White Fox form and took off into the Sky. As he ran, he left millions of sparkler-like sparks falling through the air. I thought to myself, man, this PA has a LOT of energy. This is very good for my son's friend. Crosses and I then returned up the Tunnel. We gave the Staff back to the Tree Spirit, who told me I could use it any time I wanted. I thanked him and Crosses, and left the Lake area and returned to the room. My feeling is that the friend should become that “snow animal”..or perhaps live by a lake.. It seems either would be appropriate, with the snow area the one preferred by his PA.
1/28: My son confirmed a day or so after this Journey that his friend was indeed in the process of "trying to come out of hibernation", and wanted very much to discuss this furhter with me. Tonight, we talked, and he let on that his favorite animal when young was...the Artic Fox. Amazing stuff, and the Helpers always tell the truth. He asked me to Journey for an Uncle of his that has just been diagnosed with Lung Cancer. Once the two-week quiet time ends on Feb 7, I will certainly do that for him..
Saturday, January 22, 2005
Friday, January 21, 2005
Journey 148 - The Non-healing Sore
1/21/05: Spirit Sister wrote last night to inform me of a friend’s condition, and to ask me to Journey on his behalf. Her are her words: “I do, however, have permission for you to take a look at my friend, the husband in the couple I stay with down here. He's the quadriplegic that has been in bed for ages from a persistent bed sore (a type of ulcer). It will be 3 years next week that he's had it. It has gotten quite a bit better over the last year, but it just won't completely heal over. Of course his overall state is very hard. What he has is either MS or something that acts like it. His wife thinks he was poisoned by a chemical back when he was working. “
So today I took a Journey to determine what might be done for this man. I Rattled, Smudged and lit the Sacred Candle, as always. I held to my chest a printout of a picture Sister had taken of an Eagle that lives nearby down there where she is staying. If knew that would increase the amount of Energy from the man for me to read. Even as I was finishing up my Rattling, I could sense and see the Vortex spinning around me, so I knew I was already to go even before starting the Drum CD. As I was lying down to begin the Drumming, I found myself sitting at an old table in an ancient catacomb. Two Spirit Helpers were there with me..Eagle Claw and Blue Shaman. On the table before me I saw some playing cards appear. There was a King on top, a second row of three cards (1, 3, and 7) and a Joker below. In Mongolian Shamamic card reading, the distance between the King (male presence) and the Joker (the granter of all things) shows that a total physical cure for Peter is almost certainly not in the cards, so to speak. The meaning of the 1, 3 and 7 cards is not known to me..perhaps the man or the Future will reveal it. The three of us then walked over to a section of the catacomb and saw two Medieval Soldiers lying there, still in their war dress. They rose and came to sit at the table with us, still in full regalia and looking as they did centuries ago. They did not speak. I was allowed to merge with one of them and was shown the following about them by actually witnessing part of their life from their own memories..in essnce, being one of them: they were very bloodthirsty, and enjoyed killing very much. Even woman and children were fine sport for them. They eventually died of exposure to a brutal winter, but left this world without any remorse whatsoever. I learned their names, Peter and Anthony. One was a direct ancestor of today’s man.. The warriors then returned to their resting places. I went up to them with my Shaman’s Mirror (Toli), home of the Blue Shaman, and removed the centuries-old Dark Energies from their bodies. I could see the black mist drifting into the Mirror. Once that process was complete, I pressed the Mirror down onto the Ground, and Mother Earth absorbed the Energy and transmuted it. The bodies of the warriors then quickly collapsed into the dust they should have been. They had finally been cleansed.
Eagle Claw then turned into Owl and lifted me out of this scene and into a blossom-filled Apple Tree. He handed me an Apple and had me dissect it. It was hollow in the center, where the seeds were. I was told that this meant the man had an emptiness inside him, the seeds representing an unfulfilled talent. Owl then took me and we headed across the Middle World through a purple spiral horizontal Tunnel. We ended up in the correct state. I saw the man lying there. I saw the Sore (or metaphorical rendition thereof) towards the back of his upper right leg. I moved to investigate his Sore, and saw a long, ancient, and crusty Spiritual Medieval Spear sticking out of his leg. This was something that had come down through the ages, as an attachment. Perhaps (my surmising here) it was the cause of his paralysis. I dissolved this Spear using my Toli by pushing slowly into along its length. I then released this Energy to her Earth. Sitting in a chair next to the bed was a part of the man’s soul. Looking like a fully-functioning man, he was obviously quite bored and disengaged..like he’d been there for years. When I removed the Spear, he slowly climbed back into Peter’s body and reassumed his place in the man’s Spiritual house. A woman Spirit then appeared. This was his Guardian. She spoke to me, and told me what I had done was essentially all I could do for this man. She told me then that when he was a young boy, the man really loved Horses. She said he should paint or write about them now (is this unreleased seed mentioned above?). I realized after the Journey that with his lack of ability to move, this would be quite difficult for him. However, modern technology now has voice and eye-motion recognition software that he could use to begin such a career. I then asked her about finding his Power Animal, and she looked at me and smiled the smile of one who is patient with careless thought. I then realized, of course! Horse IS his PA! Duuu-uhhh. Anyway, I was then allowed to ride his Horse, and we toured his body together. We strengthened and cleansed his Spirit Body. His Aura was totally restored. I then was taken to a future scene. The man was lying in a hospital-like setting, hooked to an IV. I was shown that he will depart this Life from here. But I saw his released Spirit, all young and vibrant, jumping for joy. He was so thrilled to have lived life in his crippled body, he said, for he had experienced love and caring from his wife and others beyond anything he would have had if living physically whole. He had succeeded in his Spiritual Mission for this life, and was full of the enthusiasm one sees from someone who has just emerged from a first dive into a cool pool on a sweltering day. He said the experience was “great!” The imagery then ceased, and I thanked my Helpers and advanced the CD to the Call Back.
1/28 follow-on: Here is the answer I got back concerning the Man from Spirit Sister:
"He has been talking about his horses. He was on a horse pretty much as soon as he could sit up...being raised on a cattle farm near the everglades. Some traumatic times there, too, since he had a cruel father who gave away his horse."
To which I replied: "I was very happy to hear that the Horse was indeed a pivotal player in his youth. This would explain the Soul Piece sitting next to him in the Room where I saw him and his Guardian. That must have left him when his father gave away his Horse. This would of course have contributed to his physical ailments. That soul Piece has been re-united with him, though, so he should be feeling both the intensities of the anger he felt when young, but also have the ability to now release it..to forgive."
So today I took a Journey to determine what might be done for this man. I Rattled, Smudged and lit the Sacred Candle, as always. I held to my chest a printout of a picture Sister had taken of an Eagle that lives nearby down there where she is staying. If knew that would increase the amount of Energy from the man for me to read. Even as I was finishing up my Rattling, I could sense and see the Vortex spinning around me, so I knew I was already to go even before starting the Drum CD. As I was lying down to begin the Drumming, I found myself sitting at an old table in an ancient catacomb. Two Spirit Helpers were there with me..Eagle Claw and Blue Shaman. On the table before me I saw some playing cards appear. There was a King on top, a second row of three cards (1, 3, and 7) and a Joker below. In Mongolian Shamamic card reading, the distance between the King (male presence) and the Joker (the granter of all things) shows that a total physical cure for Peter is almost certainly not in the cards, so to speak. The meaning of the 1, 3 and 7 cards is not known to me..perhaps the man or the Future will reveal it. The three of us then walked over to a section of the catacomb and saw two Medieval Soldiers lying there, still in their war dress. They rose and came to sit at the table with us, still in full regalia and looking as they did centuries ago. They did not speak. I was allowed to merge with one of them and was shown the following about them by actually witnessing part of their life from their own memories..in essnce, being one of them: they were very bloodthirsty, and enjoyed killing very much. Even woman and children were fine sport for them. They eventually died of exposure to a brutal winter, but left this world without any remorse whatsoever. I learned their names, Peter and Anthony. One was a direct ancestor of today’s man.. The warriors then returned to their resting places. I went up to them with my Shaman’s Mirror (Toli), home of the Blue Shaman, and removed the centuries-old Dark Energies from their bodies. I could see the black mist drifting into the Mirror. Once that process was complete, I pressed the Mirror down onto the Ground, and Mother Earth absorbed the Energy and transmuted it. The bodies of the warriors then quickly collapsed into the dust they should have been. They had finally been cleansed.
Eagle Claw then turned into Owl and lifted me out of this scene and into a blossom-filled Apple Tree. He handed me an Apple and had me dissect it. It was hollow in the center, where the seeds were. I was told that this meant the man had an emptiness inside him, the seeds representing an unfulfilled talent. Owl then took me and we headed across the Middle World through a purple spiral horizontal Tunnel. We ended up in the correct state. I saw the man lying there. I saw the Sore (or metaphorical rendition thereof) towards the back of his upper right leg. I moved to investigate his Sore, and saw a long, ancient, and crusty Spiritual Medieval Spear sticking out of his leg. This was something that had come down through the ages, as an attachment. Perhaps (my surmising here) it was the cause of his paralysis. I dissolved this Spear using my Toli by pushing slowly into along its length. I then released this Energy to her Earth. Sitting in a chair next to the bed was a part of the man’s soul. Looking like a fully-functioning man, he was obviously quite bored and disengaged..like he’d been there for years. When I removed the Spear, he slowly climbed back into Peter’s body and reassumed his place in the man’s Spiritual house. A woman Spirit then appeared. This was his Guardian. She spoke to me, and told me what I had done was essentially all I could do for this man. She told me then that when he was a young boy, the man really loved Horses. She said he should paint or write about them now (is this unreleased seed mentioned above?). I realized after the Journey that with his lack of ability to move, this would be quite difficult for him. However, modern technology now has voice and eye-motion recognition software that he could use to begin such a career. I then asked her about finding his Power Animal, and she looked at me and smiled the smile of one who is patient with careless thought. I then realized, of course! Horse IS his PA! Duuu-uhhh. Anyway, I was then allowed to ride his Horse, and we toured his body together. We strengthened and cleansed his Spirit Body. His Aura was totally restored. I then was taken to a future scene. The man was lying in a hospital-like setting, hooked to an IV. I was shown that he will depart this Life from here. But I saw his released Spirit, all young and vibrant, jumping for joy. He was so thrilled to have lived life in his crippled body, he said, for he had experienced love and caring from his wife and others beyond anything he would have had if living physically whole. He had succeeded in his Spiritual Mission for this life, and was full of the enthusiasm one sees from someone who has just emerged from a first dive into a cool pool on a sweltering day. He said the experience was “great!” The imagery then ceased, and I thanked my Helpers and advanced the CD to the Call Back.
1/28 follow-on: Here is the answer I got back concerning the Man from Spirit Sister:
"He has been talking about his horses. He was on a horse pretty much as soon as he could sit up...being raised on a cattle farm near the everglades. Some traumatic times there, too, since he had a cruel father who gave away his horse."
To which I replied: "I was very happy to hear that the Horse was indeed a pivotal player in his youth. This would explain the Soul Piece sitting next to him in the Room where I saw him and his Guardian. That must have left him when his father gave away his Horse. This would of course have contributed to his physical ailments. That soul Piece has been re-united with him, though, so he should be feeling both the intensities of the anger he felt when young, but also have the ability to now release it..to forgive."
Friday, January 14, 2005
Journey 147 - The Egg of Life
1/14/05: During my travels on my job today, a very large Hawk came out of nowhere and flew along side my car about 50 feet to my right. We were going the same speed, and I instantly felt an instant oneness with him. This was a Spirit in the Shape of a Hawk. I knew he was calling me to perform a Shamanic duty, in this case a Journey. He landed in a nearby Tree, sitting there long enough for me to view him with my new Birding Glass, and then took off. I decided this Journey should simply be a meeting between me and my Guides. I would let them set the agenda..I just wanted to get into their presence once again. It had been a while since my last work for the Girl whose Soul had been scared out of her by the attack on her Visitor..I needed re-connection. So I set up my Sacred Space, Smudged and lit the Sacred Candle and was off.
When the journey first began, it was night. I saw Owl (Guide Eagle Claw) come toward me from the distance, leaving a trail of golden dust as he came. The dust seemed to be suspended in Time, with no changes..like it was painted onto the Sky. This told me that we were already in the timelessness of the Upper World, even though time was passing for me and Owl. He came right up to me, and for a second or two we were back in the Tree of Life, on the very thin branch above the great fall I had witnessed in a very recent journey. But then we were back in Space. No doubt my Guide wanted me to realize we were once again dealing with the Sacred Tree, just in a different form. After peering into my eyes for a few seconds, Owl lifted himself straight upward. He began drawing a golden spiral (that of course seemed to narrow as he went higher, due to the effects of perspective). Then, the Eagles that soar around me in my gol, the center point of my and all existence, began to soar up as well. Each drew a different color in Mana, and rapidly filled the appearing Sky Tunnel with phenomenal color and brightness. Once this Tunnel was complete, Owl brought me up and up.
When we got to the top, we burst out into a world made solely of a blue-whitish, milky flooring, made of Spirit Energy. If there was a Sky, it was a light blue, hardly noticeable. Spikes of golden energy grew out of this flooring, and each of my Guides appeared and took up residence, one per Spike. Eagle Claw, Crosses in Front, Blue Shaman, Two Feathers and Gray Wolf were there, first in their Animal shapes, then as the human likenesses, all except for Gray Wolf who has always maintained his Wolf image in my Journeys. They then drew very close to me, and we merged into one Spirit. I looked below and saw a rainbow swirl develop in the floor, and we soon dropped into and through this swirl. We were back in Space, and I saw many Stars in front of me. I noticed a steady stream of Soul Pieces filing out from each star and heading in specific directions into the great distance. These were the Ami (“em”) Soul Pieces heading to individual bodies on various planets in the Universe. This told me that there were indeed other Planets with intelligent life, and also made me realize that the legends of ancient Earth cultures that tell of visitors from the Stars populating the Earth were essentially True, but perhaps in a metaphoric way..and of course, perhaps not. J Also, the Tree of Life in the Mongolian Shamanic Understanding holds the Ami souls prior to their release, so in this instance the Tree of Life could be said to be a metaphor for the Stars. Then, forming below me, was a huge, near-egg shaped orb of golden Energy. “We” sank into this orb. A voice that I knew was the Great Spirit began to speak to me. He told me this was the Egg of Life, that all Life everywhere emanated from this Egg. He then allowed me to merge with the essence of all-existence Energy. In other words, my consciousness merged with the underlying Spirit essence that is in all things. By so doing, I was able to immediately enter into various existences. I became a water droplet in the Ocean, a moving Cloud, a Squirrel, a Hawk, a Pea. I entered the Robe of one of the workers at one of the offices I service and was able to determine she has no major illnesses, and was able to view myself as she sees me. I became a chair in that office. I realized that at this level, everything has an awareness of itself, and experiences a wonderful connectivity with everything else. I then came to understand that Spirit Helpers such as Eagle Claw, have no tension or anxieties whatsoever. At this level of existence, all is total calmness and acceptance. Great Spirit then told me that on Earth, only the humans have separated themselves from this feeling. He told me it was my (Shaman’s) job to bring them back. He told me that I was to continue with my Shamanic work. He then said that the arrival of my Shaman’s Mirror would signal the beginning of my “real work”.
I realized that my consciousness comes directly from and is always tied into that of the Great Spirit, and so does everything else’s. So when you play with your Puppy, that playfulness emanates from the Great Spirit! The oneness I felt now was amazing..no fear, no tension, total awareness of all things. He then allowed me to witness Dark Energy, and I realized it has the same awareness and self-value as Brightness. In other words, Light and Dark, in fact all the balancing opposites, also experience existence in the exact same way. These opposites were created by Great Spirit to create the dynamic balance necessary for existence and growth, for advancement spiritually. This also allows for easy manipulation of all substances. The whole concept of good and bad completely disappeared..there are only opposing ends of the spectrum in Spirit Life, but all serve the same purpose. It was a wonderful revelation, and I now see no “evil” in anything anymore..just purpose. After this wonderful experience of oneness, I started feeling like I was evaporating physically. Like my body as dissolving into pure Energy..I felt weightless. It was very cool.
So I came to view that all things that happen in my life, all people I meet, etc., that seem to be against me or “bad”, are really part of the same Great spirit that has built this entire Spirit Universe on Love. That is to say, even the most horrendous aspects of Life here on Earth are part of the Great Plan to advance us Spiritually. This makes most sense when one realizes there just isn’t any end to your existence..whatever happens in this Life, you’ll get another shot, and another, until you reach a level of spirituality that allows you to remain as a Helper or Guide. Another aspect of this, say, would involve my new Helper, the Blue Shaman..even though he has an individual existence, he is still tied to all other things.
Two other events occurred during this journey. I asked for help fighting a recurrent cold deepening quickly, and again found Mana being dripped into my Body to fight the illness. I could feel that Sacred Energy spreading throughout my entire body. In the next two days, my cold has all but vanished. I also found extra Mana being poured into my Third Eye Chaka to help strengthen my ability to see spirit Energies with my visual cortex. I also asked when my new Mongolian Shaman’s Toli (mirror) will be arriving, and was told perhaps next Thursday..or the day before I actually get to use it!! I figured I was nearing the end of my Journey, so I began the process of going back to the Spirit Floor room with the perches, and then down through the Sacred sky Tunnel and back into this World. I thanked all my Guides and the Great spirit for this greatest of all visits (such peace and awareness..such understanding..such release). As is so often the case, the Call Back Drum sounded within seconds of this action.
When the journey first began, it was night. I saw Owl (Guide Eagle Claw) come toward me from the distance, leaving a trail of golden dust as he came. The dust seemed to be suspended in Time, with no changes..like it was painted onto the Sky. This told me that we were already in the timelessness of the Upper World, even though time was passing for me and Owl. He came right up to me, and for a second or two we were back in the Tree of Life, on the very thin branch above the great fall I had witnessed in a very recent journey. But then we were back in Space. No doubt my Guide wanted me to realize we were once again dealing with the Sacred Tree, just in a different form. After peering into my eyes for a few seconds, Owl lifted himself straight upward. He began drawing a golden spiral (that of course seemed to narrow as he went higher, due to the effects of perspective). Then, the Eagles that soar around me in my gol, the center point of my and all existence, began to soar up as well. Each drew a different color in Mana, and rapidly filled the appearing Sky Tunnel with phenomenal color and brightness. Once this Tunnel was complete, Owl brought me up and up.
When we got to the top, we burst out into a world made solely of a blue-whitish, milky flooring, made of Spirit Energy. If there was a Sky, it was a light blue, hardly noticeable. Spikes of golden energy grew out of this flooring, and each of my Guides appeared and took up residence, one per Spike. Eagle Claw, Crosses in Front, Blue Shaman, Two Feathers and Gray Wolf were there, first in their Animal shapes, then as the human likenesses, all except for Gray Wolf who has always maintained his Wolf image in my Journeys. They then drew very close to me, and we merged into one Spirit. I looked below and saw a rainbow swirl develop in the floor, and we soon dropped into and through this swirl. We were back in Space, and I saw many Stars in front of me. I noticed a steady stream of Soul Pieces filing out from each star and heading in specific directions into the great distance. These were the Ami (“em”) Soul Pieces heading to individual bodies on various planets in the Universe. This told me that there were indeed other Planets with intelligent life, and also made me realize that the legends of ancient Earth cultures that tell of visitors from the Stars populating the Earth were essentially True, but perhaps in a metaphoric way..and of course, perhaps not. J Also, the Tree of Life in the Mongolian Shamanic Understanding holds the Ami souls prior to their release, so in this instance the Tree of Life could be said to be a metaphor for the Stars. Then, forming below me, was a huge, near-egg shaped orb of golden Energy. “We” sank into this orb. A voice that I knew was the Great Spirit began to speak to me. He told me this was the Egg of Life, that all Life everywhere emanated from this Egg. He then allowed me to merge with the essence of all-existence Energy. In other words, my consciousness merged with the underlying Spirit essence that is in all things. By so doing, I was able to immediately enter into various existences. I became a water droplet in the Ocean, a moving Cloud, a Squirrel, a Hawk, a Pea. I entered the Robe of one of the workers at one of the offices I service and was able to determine she has no major illnesses, and was able to view myself as she sees me. I became a chair in that office. I realized that at this level, everything has an awareness of itself, and experiences a wonderful connectivity with everything else. I then came to understand that Spirit Helpers such as Eagle Claw, have no tension or anxieties whatsoever. At this level of existence, all is total calmness and acceptance. Great Spirit then told me that on Earth, only the humans have separated themselves from this feeling. He told me it was my (Shaman’s) job to bring them back. He told me that I was to continue with my Shamanic work. He then said that the arrival of my Shaman’s Mirror would signal the beginning of my “real work”.
I realized that my consciousness comes directly from and is always tied into that of the Great Spirit, and so does everything else’s. So when you play with your Puppy, that playfulness emanates from the Great Spirit! The oneness I felt now was amazing..no fear, no tension, total awareness of all things. He then allowed me to witness Dark Energy, and I realized it has the same awareness and self-value as Brightness. In other words, Light and Dark, in fact all the balancing opposites, also experience existence in the exact same way. These opposites were created by Great Spirit to create the dynamic balance necessary for existence and growth, for advancement spiritually. This also allows for easy manipulation of all substances. The whole concept of good and bad completely disappeared..there are only opposing ends of the spectrum in Spirit Life, but all serve the same purpose. It was a wonderful revelation, and I now see no “evil” in anything anymore..just purpose. After this wonderful experience of oneness, I started feeling like I was evaporating physically. Like my body as dissolving into pure Energy..I felt weightless. It was very cool.
So I came to view that all things that happen in my life, all people I meet, etc., that seem to be against me or “bad”, are really part of the same Great spirit that has built this entire Spirit Universe on Love. That is to say, even the most horrendous aspects of Life here on Earth are part of the Great Plan to advance us Spiritually. This makes most sense when one realizes there just isn’t any end to your existence..whatever happens in this Life, you’ll get another shot, and another, until you reach a level of spirituality that allows you to remain as a Helper or Guide. Another aspect of this, say, would involve my new Helper, the Blue Shaman..even though he has an individual existence, he is still tied to all other things.
Two other events occurred during this journey. I asked for help fighting a recurrent cold deepening quickly, and again found Mana being dripped into my Body to fight the illness. I could feel that Sacred Energy spreading throughout my entire body. In the next two days, my cold has all but vanished. I also found extra Mana being poured into my Third Eye Chaka to help strengthen my ability to see spirit Energies with my visual cortex. I also asked when my new Mongolian Shaman’s Toli (mirror) will be arriving, and was told perhaps next Thursday..or the day before I actually get to use it!! I figured I was nearing the end of my Journey, so I began the process of going back to the Spirit Floor room with the perches, and then down through the Sacred sky Tunnel and back into this World. I thanked all my Guides and the Great spirit for this greatest of all visits (such peace and awareness..such understanding..such release). As is so often the case, the Call Back Drum sounded within seconds of this action.
Sunday, January 09, 2005
Journey 146 - The Unwelcome Visitor
1/6/05: I got the following message this afternoon from Spirit Sister: “Tuesday we got a call during our meeting, from her dad, saying she had a seizure and was in the ER. Well, I just talked to him, and it is much more than that. She has multiple personality disorder and another personality has taken over…talking of killing people…it took four men to restrain her and she is now in a Psychiatric Hospital. I will be going to see her (I think) on Monday when I go see my mother.
Anyway, you know what I think about multiple personality disorder. I think those are actually other personalities in there that need to come out and be taken to their proper place in the Light. Can you at least find out what’s in there and maybe get rid of them?”
Shortly thereafter, I wrote back to her: “I did a small, non-drumming Journey to see if anything came immediately up..and I found the daughter's main soul sitting in a parlor of an old, very well appointed house, with a large bay window. She was sitting on the bench next to a piano. I could tell by looking around that this was a house from long ago..I asked her what the date was and we looked and found a calendar..1827. She doesn't really know why she is there, but is quite happy to be, as it is safe and peaceful. I told her I would be back to meet with her again, but did not give any details as to what was happening to her body.” I then promised to do a full Journey as soon as I could, which happened to be tonight. Here is the record thereof:
After Smudging the Room and lighting the Sacred Candle, I Rattled in Sacred Space and anointed myself with the Shaman’s Water. During the Rattling, I asked all the Grandfathers and Father Sky, Mother Earth and Great Spirit to guide me to the Truth concerning the daughter’s condition. I asked that if it be my Path to serve as a conduit for her Healing, to let it be totally effective and quick. I then went over and set up my Drum loop for a long ride..I didn’t want to cut short anything that might have to be done tonight. As I sat on the bed and breathed Shamanically, focusing on my intention, I saw a dark attic looming before me. There was a window at either end of the small, A-framed space, and it was night, so just a little light was getting in. As I moved into the Room, my Guide Eagle Claw arrived as Owl. He had light blue eyes, which made me wonder if my new Shaman Spirit Utawa was there as well. As Owl shone his blue Light around the room, we found a small girl lying on her right side in a near-fetal position. It was the daughter! I got the sense that she had had a seizure, but can’t be sure since I arrived after the fact. I then looked over to the far window and saw a Dark Being wander in. It had the gait of a fairly old person, and it went over and lay down beside her, as if just seeking comfort and warmth. But soon I saw the Being merge into her. After this, I found myself and Owl inside a large swirling Tunnel made of light green and lilac streaks, with the green by far the dominant color. I sensed we were falling, falling..and soon the bottom of the Tunnel cleared like breaking through Clouds. I saw below us a small, New England Village or Town. We landed, and I now saw the daughter standing outside a small grocery store. I seem to recall a small horse hitch outside the store itself. My main focus was on how she was feeling. With this stranger now part of her being, she was feeling out of sorts. She knew some sort of struggle was occurring within her but had no idea what it was (it was the battle of her Soul and the Beings for dominance, but she couldn’t know that). All she knew was the joy in Life was hard to come by, and even play felt strange. The scene then shifted again, and I saw her sitting on a piano bench, taking a lesson..and hating it. With the conflict within, even the sound, the very timbre of the keys, was aggravating to her. I then saw her as an Adult, and could see her Suns Soul struggling to hide from the Suld Soul of the Visitor. Her Soul would dart to be just in the opposite place of his, and the effort of constantly hiding was weakening her Soul further. I was then shifted over to her Concord hospital room, where I saw her lying on a bed. Her Aura was as burnt black as any I have ever seen. It was almost totally depleted. There was a very thin blue light/halo surrounding her head, and her eyes were likewise lit with a pale light. That was it for an Aura. I was astonished. I moved in closer to her body and saw three outside Entities trying to invade her. The Visitor within was resisting. It was he that was yelling “kill, kill” to the invaders, not her. Her Soul had fled her body with this new attack, and was resting safely in 1827 as related at the top of this piece. I convened a Council with my Guides Eagle Claw, Crosses, and my Guardian Two Feathers. We Smoked and thought about our next action. Eagle Claw decided I should use the Spiritual version of the Shaman’s Mirror that Uwata had given me a day or so ago to absorb the invaders. I went to the daughter and performed the absorption. I then placed the Mirror on the Ground to allow Mother Earth to remove the Entities and convert them for use as positive Spirit Energy elsewhere. I then managed to dislodge the Visitor from her body a bit, but will need a separate Journey to deal with him fully. I placed a thin veil of Aural protection over her. I will also have to Journey to retrieve her Soul Piece from 1827. I then slipped into a deeper State of Relaxation, as often happens when I’m overtired and/or sick (both in this case), and can recall very little of what went on..I just know that it had little to do with the situation. It was more the Helpers working on me. As I was returning, though, I saw the old man who had invaded the daughter. He seemed to be dressed in a gray suit, was large framed, and had a bald and bulbous head. His eyes were small, and his grin more a grimace framed by thin lips. The Journey then ended with the Call Back Drumming.
1/21: Spirit Sister let me know that the girl was released to go home the following Sunday. I cannot go further and totally retrieve her Soul Piece without her permission..so she will have to sit by that Piano for a while, until she can go back on her own. Hopefuly someday I will get the girl's permission to intervene further. Spirit Sister is unable to get that for me.
Anyway, you know what I think about multiple personality disorder. I think those are actually other personalities in there that need to come out and be taken to their proper place in the Light. Can you at least find out what’s in there and maybe get rid of them?”
Shortly thereafter, I wrote back to her: “I did a small, non-drumming Journey to see if anything came immediately up..and I found the daughter's main soul sitting in a parlor of an old, very well appointed house, with a large bay window. She was sitting on the bench next to a piano. I could tell by looking around that this was a house from long ago..I asked her what the date was and we looked and found a calendar..1827. She doesn't really know why she is there, but is quite happy to be, as it is safe and peaceful. I told her I would be back to meet with her again, but did not give any details as to what was happening to her body.” I then promised to do a full Journey as soon as I could, which happened to be tonight. Here is the record thereof:
After Smudging the Room and lighting the Sacred Candle, I Rattled in Sacred Space and anointed myself with the Shaman’s Water. During the Rattling, I asked all the Grandfathers and Father Sky, Mother Earth and Great Spirit to guide me to the Truth concerning the daughter’s condition. I asked that if it be my Path to serve as a conduit for her Healing, to let it be totally effective and quick. I then went over and set up my Drum loop for a long ride..I didn’t want to cut short anything that might have to be done tonight. As I sat on the bed and breathed Shamanically, focusing on my intention, I saw a dark attic looming before me. There was a window at either end of the small, A-framed space, and it was night, so just a little light was getting in. As I moved into the Room, my Guide Eagle Claw arrived as Owl. He had light blue eyes, which made me wonder if my new Shaman Spirit Utawa was there as well. As Owl shone his blue Light around the room, we found a small girl lying on her right side in a near-fetal position. It was the daughter! I got the sense that she had had a seizure, but can’t be sure since I arrived after the fact. I then looked over to the far window and saw a Dark Being wander in. It had the gait of a fairly old person, and it went over and lay down beside her, as if just seeking comfort and warmth. But soon I saw the Being merge into her. After this, I found myself and Owl inside a large swirling Tunnel made of light green and lilac streaks, with the green by far the dominant color. I sensed we were falling, falling..and soon the bottom of the Tunnel cleared like breaking through Clouds. I saw below us a small, New England Village or Town. We landed, and I now saw the daughter standing outside a small grocery store. I seem to recall a small horse hitch outside the store itself. My main focus was on how she was feeling. With this stranger now part of her being, she was feeling out of sorts. She knew some sort of struggle was occurring within her but had no idea what it was (it was the battle of her Soul and the Beings for dominance, but she couldn’t know that). All she knew was the joy in Life was hard to come by, and even play felt strange. The scene then shifted again, and I saw her sitting on a piano bench, taking a lesson..and hating it. With the conflict within, even the sound, the very timbre of the keys, was aggravating to her. I then saw her as an Adult, and could see her Suns Soul struggling to hide from the Suld Soul of the Visitor. Her Soul would dart to be just in the opposite place of his, and the effort of constantly hiding was weakening her Soul further. I was then shifted over to her Concord hospital room, where I saw her lying on a bed. Her Aura was as burnt black as any I have ever seen. It was almost totally depleted. There was a very thin blue light/halo surrounding her head, and her eyes were likewise lit with a pale light. That was it for an Aura. I was astonished. I moved in closer to her body and saw three outside Entities trying to invade her. The Visitor within was resisting. It was he that was yelling “kill, kill” to the invaders, not her. Her Soul had fled her body with this new attack, and was resting safely in 1827 as related at the top of this piece. I convened a Council with my Guides Eagle Claw, Crosses, and my Guardian Two Feathers. We Smoked and thought about our next action. Eagle Claw decided I should use the Spiritual version of the Shaman’s Mirror that Uwata had given me a day or so ago to absorb the invaders. I went to the daughter and performed the absorption. I then placed the Mirror on the Ground to allow Mother Earth to remove the Entities and convert them for use as positive Spirit Energy elsewhere. I then managed to dislodge the Visitor from her body a bit, but will need a separate Journey to deal with him fully. I placed a thin veil of Aural protection over her. I will also have to Journey to retrieve her Soul Piece from 1827. I then slipped into a deeper State of Relaxation, as often happens when I’m overtired and/or sick (both in this case), and can recall very little of what went on..I just know that it had little to do with the situation. It was more the Helpers working on me. As I was returning, though, I saw the old man who had invaded the daughter. He seemed to be dressed in a gray suit, was large framed, and had a bald and bulbous head. His eyes were small, and his grin more a grimace framed by thin lips. The Journey then ended with the Call Back Drumming.
1/21: Spirit Sister let me know that the girl was released to go home the following Sunday. I cannot go further and totally retrieve her Soul Piece without her permission..so she will have to sit by that Piano for a while, until she can go back on her own. Hopefuly someday I will get the girl's permission to intervene further. Spirit Sister is unable to get that for me.
Wednesday, January 05, 2005
Journeys 144/145 - Ice Council/Shaman's Mirror Visit
1/5/05: This first Journey was to revisit the Council I met on top of Ice Mountain a few Journeys back. I felt they were a key part of my Shamanic Past, as I had once been a Shaman in an Ice Age of some sort. I prepared in the usual way, and soon found Owl ready to fly with me. We were suddenly sitting on a quite thin branch way up in a very majestic Tree. It was a very long fall from where we were, and the branches were easily 20 feet apart vertically. One had a very keen sense that the slightest slip would result in a fall to death..and yet I hadn’t the slightest fear. I felt I might be sitting in the Tree of Life itself. Suddenly Owl began to pick at my Aura. I had had a very rough prior of impatience and anger in trying to deal with a broken attic access stairway, and Owl was busy picking away all the dark Energies I had picked up during my fit. It was as if he found me unfit to meet with the Council in the State I was in. He was cleaning me up! Suddenly, the Tree began to spin. It spun very fast, and we rose up through the top of the vortex, right into Space. After a short hovering, we flew down toward a green land mass. Sticking up in one portion thereof was the Ice Mountain! We landed there, and I took my position with the Council. We began to Smoke a Prayer, and suddenly a Shaman Spirit appeared standing atop a small rock ridge nearby. He was all blue! I was told this is the Shaman Spirit of the Mongolian Shaman’s Mirror I had just purchased. I then fell into a deeper concentration, but as I came back into awareness, I saw the Blue Shaman send a small blue Orb down to rest on my chest. It was a Spirit Replica of the Mirror! The Journey ended here, and I felt quite empowered knowing I know had this very useful tool on my person permanently.
My 2nd Journey was to visit the Mirror (made of brass and about 11.5 CM in diameter) itself, to find out what it might be about. Who is the Blue Shaman, what has the Mirror been used for, etc. As I fell into the Shamanic trance, I found myself in Mongolia. As I sat in an open field, my Guides Owl, Eagle and Hawk were all fluttering before me, almost as if one bird with 6 wings. They then came and sat with me on a stone wall. I saw with my legs hanging down..we weren’t really that high. Suddenly I saw a Smelter bowling the metal that was used to make my Mirror. The Cauldron was hung from a pole with an “S” shaped hook, reminiscent of my Shamanic symbol. We watched as the Smelter danced around the Cauldron, murmuring prayers and “hurais.” Suddenly I saw the Blue Shaman Spirit approaching, and enter the metal. Surrounding his presence in the middle of the molten metal was a replica of the entire Universe..a small orb containing every Star, Galaxy, etc. It was the most beautiful orb I have ever seen, and it was in 3-D, so it was quite readable. The Spirit then spoke and gave me his name: Tenger (for lack of a better word, Grandfather) Utawa (oo-tah-wuh, accent on the first syllable). He said he was the Sprit of the Blue light found inside the vortex of the center of each person’s spiritual existence, known in Mongolia as the Gol. He was the blue light of the Sky..and that led me to remember that when in my 20s I used to stare at the blue skies of the fading day for hours on end. Perhaps that was an early calling. He told me we would merge later, but that I was still to use Eagle Claw and Crosses as my main Journey Guides. He told me I have very important Shamanic Work yet to accomplish, and that the World needs me to be there as Shaman. I then got to witness some of the history of the Mirror itself. I saw it on the chest of a Shaman at night amidst fires and shacks, and the Shaman was under serious attack from the Dark Beings..he was using the Mirror as a shield with all his Spirit might. I also saw a different Shaman using the Mirror in a Ritual attended by many, holding the Mirror high by its Silk Loop. I also saw it sitting in a box in NY City in the early-mid 20th century, but eventually being sent back to Mongolia. We then were back at the Smelting. Utawa told me he was “cold” and asked me to blow into the Fire to enhance it. We did so, and the Fire sprung up instantly and burned much higher. Even though the Smelter could not see us, he knew we were there, and found the sudden explosion of Fire a sure sign of a Spiritual Blessing on the Mirror. He was ecstatic. I again went deeper from here and brought nothing back, but as the Journey ended, I found myself back inside the Blue Vortex Gol, but this time with a companion. A Yellow/Green ball covered in tiny hairs, and I was told this was the Seed of Life. A very starting and cool ending, to know this Seed is with me at my Center.
My 2nd Journey was to visit the Mirror (made of brass and about 11.5 CM in diameter) itself, to find out what it might be about. Who is the Blue Shaman, what has the Mirror been used for, etc. As I fell into the Shamanic trance, I found myself in Mongolia. As I sat in an open field, my Guides Owl, Eagle and Hawk were all fluttering before me, almost as if one bird with 6 wings. They then came and sat with me on a stone wall. I saw with my legs hanging down..we weren’t really that high. Suddenly I saw a Smelter bowling the metal that was used to make my Mirror. The Cauldron was hung from a pole with an “S” shaped hook, reminiscent of my Shamanic symbol. We watched as the Smelter danced around the Cauldron, murmuring prayers and “hurais.” Suddenly I saw the Blue Shaman Spirit approaching, and enter the metal. Surrounding his presence in the middle of the molten metal was a replica of the entire Universe..a small orb containing every Star, Galaxy, etc. It was the most beautiful orb I have ever seen, and it was in 3-D, so it was quite readable. The Spirit then spoke and gave me his name: Tenger (for lack of a better word, Grandfather) Utawa (oo-tah-wuh, accent on the first syllable). He said he was the Sprit of the Blue light found inside the vortex of the center of each person’s spiritual existence, known in Mongolia as the Gol. He was the blue light of the Sky..and that led me to remember that when in my 20s I used to stare at the blue skies of the fading day for hours on end. Perhaps that was an early calling. He told me we would merge later, but that I was still to use Eagle Claw and Crosses as my main Journey Guides. He told me I have very important Shamanic Work yet to accomplish, and that the World needs me to be there as Shaman. I then got to witness some of the history of the Mirror itself. I saw it on the chest of a Shaman at night amidst fires and shacks, and the Shaman was under serious attack from the Dark Beings..he was using the Mirror as a shield with all his Spirit might. I also saw a different Shaman using the Mirror in a Ritual attended by many, holding the Mirror high by its Silk Loop. I also saw it sitting in a box in NY City in the early-mid 20th century, but eventually being sent back to Mongolia. We then were back at the Smelting. Utawa told me he was “cold” and asked me to blow into the Fire to enhance it. We did so, and the Fire sprung up instantly and burned much higher. Even though the Smelter could not see us, he knew we were there, and found the sudden explosion of Fire a sure sign of a Spiritual Blessing on the Mirror. He was ecstatic. I again went deeper from here and brought nothing back, but as the Journey ended, I found myself back inside the Blue Vortex Gol, but this time with a companion. A Yellow/Green ball covered in tiny hairs, and I was told this was the Seed of Life. A very starting and cool ending, to know this Seed is with me at my Center.
Saturday, January 01, 2005
Journey 143 - The Pathway Locked in
12/30/04 and 1/1/05: I took two mini-Journeys for two consecutive mornings, each lasting only a minute or so. In the first, I found myself standing on a long path strewn thick with red rose petals and green leaves. As I walked on them, they supported my full weight without being crushed in the slightest. On either side of the Pathway were two walls made on this vertical strips of golden Energy. Once again, even though these walls looked to be made as frail as possible, they supported my full weight if leaned against. A new Spirit I met during the Tsunami Journey of a few days ago, Pink Swan, moved up to me through the wall to my right. He told me to look up, and I saw a huge swarm of Eagles circling around above me. He then asked if I was ready to leave me old, non-Shaman self behind for good. If so, all I had to do was to sweep my arms backward as if trying to shut a door with the generated breeze. I did so three times, and heard a door slam shut behind me. I felt a great sense of relief that I had now fully committed myself to the Shaman’s Path that lay before me. There was still a long way to go, and I saw nothing in the distance to end the Path..but at least now I was on the way permanently. The following morning, today, I revisited this Pathway, and in very short order the circling Eagles came down and merged into the Spirit Vortex at the center of my being. So now, all these Eagles are part of my Spirit Core..and my strengths as a Hollow Bone (Channel) for the Spirit Helpers is surely enhanced greatly.
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