Journey 57 - Lottery Win?

6/1/04: A Journey to discover whether or not it is time for me to win the Lottery! A first for these Journeys, dealing with accumulating wealth. But that IS allowed, as long as the motives are of love. For example, Shamans of old would ask the Spirits where the Buffalo herds were, to feed the People..and back then, Buffalo WAS their wealth. So, I Rattled, Smudged and lit the Sacred Candle. As I sat on the bed thinking of my Purpose, even before the Journey really began, I saw an image of Owl arriving in which he was covered in dollar signs! I thought to myself, “very funny!” as if my purpose was being slightly mocked. But then I instantly became apologetic as I realized I may have assumed incorrectly about motive, and therefore insulted Owl by saying that. So, I allowed him to fly in so decorated, and we met on a branch on the Red Maple as I lay down and sank deeper into the Journey Drumming (self-drumming). We began to talk. Owl, still wearing dollar signs, looked at me and smiled, saying, “You know, we Spirits have a sense of humor! I’m wearing these symbols because of your wish to win the lottery. But what will you do with this money if you win it?” I told him I would pay off family mortgages, set my wife up for life, pay for the kids’ colleges, and then go to train as a Shaman with Villoldo in NY, perhaps traveling to the Andes with him. He then asked, “Do you think you are ready for this kind of wealth? Look deep into yourself and you’ll see you are still too selfish. Look at the pain you have caused recently with your complaints about time! You need further work in ridding yourself of these self-centered impulses. Would you like to Journey to do that instead of trying to win the lottery?” I answered yes, for I realized this was much more important to my Shamanic Path and therefore the security of my loved ones. Owl suddenly lost his $ symbols, and off we went into the Sky, through a Tunnel of tiny, white crystals of light swirling around us as we flew. We came out of the Tunnel to a large Tree, with a body hanging from a large branch by its hands, looking a bit like Jesus on the Cross. As we drew near, I could see it was me hanging there! “I” was sweating and scared stiff, and “I” turned to the Journeying me and pleaded for help. As Owl and I sat on this branch and looked down below, I could see what awaited my human body. Far below were fires and smoke, and vicious animals ready to eat! Owl (Eagle Claw, my Guide, of course), told me that I was now my 8th Chakra, the part of my individuality that is eternal, and keeps coming back to new lives to learn more as a Spirit. Moreover, he said I was perfectly free to release my body into the pit, and thereby free myself of my selfish urges, if I thought that best. By seeing my body this way, he went on, I could see how temporary are the events and things of my existence on Earth. “You know the expression, ‘time is money’. Remember also from your early instincts and your later training: time is an illusion. Therefore, by that logic, money is also an illusion. So it is more important to better your Spirit Self with Gifts of Love, Guidance and Healing for others.” So now I had to decided whether to let my body go. I decided instead to call in the Spirit Rain to wash my body clean of selfishness. The Rain felt so good as it fell on us and past onto my body. It became young looking again as the rain rinsed it, and the pit below transformed into a glade with grasses and trees, rising up to meet the feet of my body. I then rejoined my body, and as Owl flew along above me and then off, I found myself walking toward my house in my back yard. I thanked Owl for his wonderful intervention. I then stared at the house for a few seconds, watching it turn into a grove of woods (as it was before), and then into a smoldering pile of smoking, burned wood..its eventual fate. I tried to see if we still were the owners when this fire occurred, but it was hard to tell. It started down by the water heater, perhaps in the wall, so I will have to watch that area. I did not feel any sense of loss, and was only concerned that someone might have been in it and died. Again, I could not tell from this fleeting glance. I then came back to the room and grounded.