Journey 25 - Wife's PA is Hummingbird

I was going to go back in time on this Journey to visit with the REAL Jesus and see what he was really all about, but as I walked toward the ground opening to begin, both Two Feathers and Crosses in Front met me immediately and shook their heads “no.” It was not my time to make this trip and I was fairly vigorously requested to abandon the intent, so I did. I instead, then, walked with Two Feathers into the woods behind our house and basically told her we would just spend time together and see what might come. As we walked, the woods turned translucent, very shimmer-like and surreal, very alive with beautiful green energy and light. We came to a small fire made of mana, golden with Spirit Medicine, and sat beside it. Suddenly, the Little Girl from the morning Journey joined us. I was surprised to see her. She handed me a small Stone Person embedded with all sorts of tiny Crystals that shone like a Rainbow in sum. I held this Stone tightly, and realized it was the essence of my wife’s female child-ness. As I held it, I went back into her youth on her birth street, and sensed a feeling of abandonment and lack of respect from others..a lack of self-esteem. It was remarkable to me how much like myself she felt as a youngster. I had much the same feelings. I sensed her missing her parent’s presence..they were too busy for her, so she had to put up with the shenanigans of her brothers, unprotected. Much like me. When she moved away, she totally lost her little girl as she was forced into working the her parents'business every day and dealing with her mother’s business-like attitude toward her. I asked the Little Girl at the Fire how we could get her back into my wife, which seemed necessary for her to heal. She sent me into a Tunnel, where I encountered several animals, no one whom seemed friendly toward the task. I saw a Tiger, Bear and Armadillo..all of whom had indifferent poses. I also saw a black shape of a being that I diminished using my Power Chant and Starlight Rainbow Ceremony..so that should help her right off the bat. Then a small Hummingbird came up to me, and I knew this was my wife’s helper. I must get her a Hummingbird broach or singing CD. She needs Hummingbird Medicine. Also, in my mind’s eye, the image of a Shark appeared, long enough for me to realize she should be taking Shark Cartilage. We then went into a room which was representative of her TMJ joint. The Little Girl was in there, and went to a doll on a shelf that had a very human face that transformed itself into my daughter’s face! That is very significant, for not only is the little girl now back into that part of my wife’s spirit..but obviously my daughter has a role to play in this as well. I flooded the area with rainbow light to begin the healing process. I then hugged (in the way Spirits hug..a merge on energy more than anything) and thanked Two Feathers, and drummed back. As I did so, I filled myself with the Sacred Fire Medicine of Mother Earth’s core to heal and strengthen myself. When I came all the way back, I was totally rested and could feel my heartbeat through my fingertips on my drum..strong and regular. I was grounded and rested this time, and came up to type this immediately so I would not fall behind in my Journal.

Journey 24 - TMJ Cure/Soul Piece

12/11: Journey 1: I lit Sage, Sweet Grass and my Candle, then breathed the Shaman’s preparatory breath for four minutes. My goal was to find out how I might help my wife cure her TMJ. I decided that since Hawk had flown right over me this morning, I would rise Hawk to the place where the knowledge I would need would reside. So I lay in bed, with Two Feathers and Gray Wolf beside me, and found myself watching as Hawk circled over our house and then landed on the roof above me. I found myself floating straight up through the cloth ceiling, past the floor joists, through my son’s room, and through the attic, onto the roof. Hawk had me climb on his back and up we went. Soon the sky turned dark and we were flying toward Grandmother Moon as she appeared a few nights ago, with the Cloud Person perfect smile on her face and the Mist of Light Dress shining down below her. I went soaring right into her face, and was then seated at a table with the Moon Spirit herself. She was dressed in a soft blue Robe of Light, exactly the same color as moonlight on a snow field. Her eyes were not human eyes, but were orbs with small specks of light in them. She sat with me a few seconds, and then guided me to inspect my wife's jaw. I could see the bones disconnected, and there seemed to be little black insects crawling over them. I knew these to be the negative energy in her system causing the disruption. We then left this scene, and the Journey became a bit more fragmented. I saw my wife showering and letting the water pour on her face’s right side, as if washing away the impurity, so I must tell her to do that exercise every morning. The water could also symbolize washing with healthy emotions..mana also. Then, the most telling of the images came along. My wife was lying on her back, apparently asleep. She was not in our room, but in the corner of some sort of cabin with an elevated bed, almost like a bunk bed..quite high off the ground and yet not on a second tier. Hard to explain. On the floor beside the bed was standing a small girl, who was talking to her silently. I did not hear her speak, but did see her mouth moving and was sure she was talking to my wife, who was unaware. I KNEW, though, that this little girl was key to the problem, as I have never scene something like this in Journey before. I believe she was the Little Girl Spirit that my wife lost at a young age. I got the impression that she had been forced out of her at a young age and has been trying to speak to her ever since. It was an honor to see this..very powerful and poignant as well. This must be the core of the problem. At this point, I came back. I did not really ground myself well before taking a nap, so I was quite unearthly when I got up to go have lunch with my mother. But I grounded as I drove along.