Journey 41 - Kundalini

3/31 – Journey to witness my Kundalini unfolding and to learn how to use this new energy to better myself. My Owl Guide came in over me right inside the bedroom, wings flapping, and grabbed me with his talons. We began to fly immediately, with my face pressed into his breast, so I could only see the Tunnel we were flying up into passing obliquely. His wings made no noise as we went. The Tunnel was made of purple and green spots of light, though. We went passed several places to which I had journeyed previously, and as each went by, I wondered if we were going to stop there. But no, we went to a place above all the places I had previously been. We landed and sat on the bright-green, glowing top branch of a Tree sitting in the middle of a very deep blue field of undulating energy, with the appearance of veils. Owl, to my right, was very blue himself. I looked up and saw Eagle flying in from above, and he hovered overhead. Off in the distance I saw Black Panther stalking along, stopping a distance in front of me. All my primary Totems were arriving! I looked below and saw the Snake of my prior Journey climbing up the trunk of our Tree, mouth wide open and golden eyes ablaze. Snake looked as if he were coming to eat, and he was. Just below me, suspended in mid “air”, were red blocks containing the various thought-habits and beliefs that have been with me for years. I saw the block representing my belief as a teenager that girls could never find me attractive. I saw the belief that sports figures in high school thought me a fool. Other beliefs were there, and one by one Snake was chowing them down. With each eaten block, his Eyes lit up as two powerful rainbow beams that shot the reclaimed energy up into my brain. I looked above me and saw a canopy of rainbow colored energy suspended over me. I saw Eagle’s shape outlined within. I saw my Aura rising up toward this ceiling, and as each block got consumed, the color from the transformed energy would zoom up to brighten the corresponding color in my Aura. Each lost belief made my Aura stronger through the shot of rainbow energy from Snake’s eyes. A set of musical notes kept playing..a mantra for me, which I memorized. I then looked up to see that my Shaman’s symbol (an “S” with a parenthesis in the upper right quadrant, and a dot within each loop of the “S”) was actually part of a figure 8 enclosed within a Circle, two of the most potent images in all of Native thought! In other words, my Shaman life was still unfinished, but was within reach. I soon rose above even my own Aura and the cap above it, and was looking down on them. My essence had escaped my spirituality! I was suspended above, floating as awareness. All around me was sheer blackness, but a feeling of total allness and union within the nothingness. I moved further and further out until my Aura was a mere speck in this darkness, and still I felt the total unity with my surroundings. I realized I exist beyond my current self, even the spiritual being! I felt calm, peace, warmth, forever, no stress, nothing important.. It made my current existence seem so trivial, but in a nice way. I soon came back to my Aura, and from there went back down to the Tree. I was amazed at how calm and “one” I felt. Owl hugged me from my right, and Eagle landed to hug me from my left. I was safely ensconced within each set of breast feathers, and felt like a young chick within the total protection of the blanket. It was warm and soothing there. Then, Owl flew me back to the room, and I drummed back, thanking my Guides. Lying there, re-grounding to this existence, I felt that total peace of the Void remain with me, and was hardly breathing..as if breath didn’t matter anymore. I looked at my Journey candle and saw my totality within its dancing, small flame. I am that flame.. I intend to revisit this part of my existence again.

Journey 40 - California Entanglement

3/27: I took a Journey today to visit with my dear friend and co-worker’s brother and sister-in-law out in Sylmar, CA. Apparently, there are relationship problems and he additionally has an injury that is keeping him at home for a while. I told my friend I would try to visit via Journey and see if I could do something to enlighten the situation. I went into the Red Maple via imagination and awaited my Owl escort, who came almost instantly. There was a golden Hole up in the Clouds, and we went for it. As we passed through the Tunnel, we both turned a bright, shimmering gold ourselves. We exited the Tunnel into a Sky of white, puffy clouds. We flew over the Grand Canyon and on into California in a matter of seconds. We landed in a tree next to the house, which appeared to me to be single story with a red, shingled/clay tablet roof. I did not see the whole structure, though, so I cannot be sure of its actual footprint and size. I saw the brother slumped on a couch watching TV. The wife was doing something, but I can no longer translate my post-Journey scribble. It reads like “eslinder” but I’m not sure what it was/is supposed to say. I spotted a huge Black Snake encompassing the entire house, coiled around it and within it. I also noticed both people’s Auras. Brother’s was almost all gray with just hints of color here and there. Wife’s was very dark gray to black and totally without color. Both are therefore almost totally shut down spiritually. I handed Brother a copy of my healing Rainbow Energy Feather, but he did not react as I put it in his hand. It had no effect. This was another of those unusual Journeys during which I spent most of it asleep. I WAS very tired, and so that is not surprising. Several very powerful images did present themselves, though, during the 20 minutes. I saw a young schoolgirl who was very smart and with great potential, a sense that came to me from things going on around her that did not come back with me, but the impressions did. I also saw someone (was it me?) reaching up into a pregnant girl’s womb to help extract a baby. I was also aware that during a large part of this trip I had grabbed the bedding next to me with my right hand and was holding onto it in a very tight bunch..almost like I was keeping myself grounded to Mother Earth. It felt just like a mound of dirt. Perhaps I was seeking Fire Medicine for strength. I recall returning to the house long enough to see a Salamander seemingly on its back next to Brother, which I took to be his equally unresponsive Power Animal. The next thing I knew the Journey was over, the drumming had ceased. I quickly self-drummed back to the room through a nearly instantaneously trip back from CA to bedroom. But I felt very uneasy that I had not traveled back correctly. Therefore, after about 5 minutes I took my Drum and drummed back correctly. During this time, Owl came to me and said it was not my fault that I had not been able to help, and that I could try again later. I derived comfort from that. But when I lay down again I and closed my eyes, I saw Owl’s face, then two dark eyes peering at me, looking a lot like the Snake’s. I then felt a huge tingling feeling run up my entire body, and I could sense the Snake coiling up around the center of my energy spine. As this was occurring, I felt so very alive and aware, and many memories of past events ran past me in great clarity and emotion. I had had the strong feeling ever since I came back that I had brought the Snake back with me. I have since thought that perhaps the Snake Medicine alone came. In any case, several books reference the uncoiling on the Kundalini Energy in the Base Chakra as a major step forward in Shamanism. I truly believe this is what happened to me as I lay there and felt the energy snaking up my spine. I felt SO enlivened and well from that. It would seem on further reflection that the Snake was there to enliven Brother and his wife, but when I came along it decided to give me that gift instead. So now I am really in the mode of shedding all the old skin, the former me, and in a new and profound way. Apparently, the Spirits decided that I need some work before I begin working on very difficult situations such as that on CA. So this Journey ended up with me unleashing my own Kundalini Energy..a great gift indeed.

Journey 39 - Prep for Counseling Apointment

3/18: A Journey simply to meet with my Power Animal (Eagle) and strengthen myself for the best possible results at tonight’s meeting. After smudging and lighting the Sacred Candle, I took off using the short version of the Meadows CD and began to focus on my intention, repeating it over and over until I was set to travel. I met Snake in the back yard and we zoomed around a bit looking for the Earth-opening of choice for this Trip. We traveled over the snow and finally went to where the Spirit Prayer Lodge is..and there stood the Tipi, all rainbow colored and so inviting. We went inside and into the Circle of Prayer People to a hole in the exact center of the Earth floor, and down we went. The walls of the Dirt Tunnel were covered in bright red Strawberries, and snake told me to enjoy a few on the way down, so I did. As we broke through the bottom of the Tunnel, we were hovering in the sky over the edge of a tremendously high Cliff, and situated about ¼ of the way down was a large outgrowth of Tree Branches with a large, embedded nest. Snake lowered me down the Cliff side into the Nest. It was sunset as I went down, and the sun went behind the opposing horizon. It darkened quickly, but while still twilight a very large Eagle came swooping into the nest. He was outlined in a soft, specked field of golden light. He placed me under his wings as if I were an Eaglet. He then spoke gently to me. He told me that I have been trying to deny my female side by repressing my emotional outbursts as bad. He said I was transferring my dislike of my own “feminine” emotional tirades onto my wife’s. (This is not a sexist remark..women traditionally are considered the more emotional half of the species.) Therefore, I was transferring the dislike as well. He told me I had to love and embrace my outbursts so I could likewise love and embrace my wife as well. He told me to honor who she is, her Path, completely, not to try to change it or get away from it or dislike it. He also told me to remain true to my budding Shamanism as well! He told me that is why the Hawk flew right over the house this morning..it was to honor my steadfast devotion to Shamanic prayer, teachings and forward movement, especially over the pat 24 hours or so. Still, I must not dishonor others’ Paths in any way. Also, my wife does not have to honor your Path..that is a western concept of marriage. Only I must honor my Path of Truth and Growth of my Spirit Self. This also means honoring who my wife is completely without changing her..that is the Shaman’s Way. He then took my Eagle and Owl Charms and brought them to the top of my Crown Chakra. He had them melt slowly into my Top Chakra so they could flow as liquid gold through each Chakra, down in succession. As I lay in bed I could feel the gold spin through each of the 7 centers, and then the two charms emerged at the bottom as themselves again. Eagle told me that the Spirit Essence of the Eagle and Owl Charms were now totally wrapped up in my Spirit Body, so that now both the Physical and Spiritual Bodies were wearing them. I then saw Two Feathers and Gray Wolf approach, and they lay down with me beneath Eagle’s Wing, and we all fell asleep. I now I dreamed, but they were typical dreams. When I awoke, I saw a young Eagle’s head outlined in gold perfectly in my visual cortex. Was it me? My PA? I thanked Eagle, TF and GW, and Snake and I returned. I thanked Snake, returned to the room, grounded, and awoke. I then pulled a Medicine Card to see what new instruction the Spirits might have for me. I went through the deck 4 times, as the first three picks were turned down by my Power Animal, Eagle (with whom I had just been speaking, of course. J) The fourth pick was OK’d, and when I turned the card over I was totally amazed. It was Hummingbird..MY WIFE’S new Totem! Talk about honoring her Path! Even better is Ted Andrew’s words concerning Hummingbird..to allow one’s feminine side to emerge (!) (“the Feminine to which we must give birth and expression to find our own joy”), and to “find the miracle of joy” in “accomplishing what seems inpossible.” I was very grateful for this very obvious and direct communication. I then rubbed my forehead with my Crystal Wand to increase my Shamanic vision, a new technique I’ve learned. End of Journey session.

Journey 38 - Guidance for Tomorrow's Meeting

3/17: A Journey for guidance on how best to advance love and togetherness at our counseling meeting tomorrow evening. After smudging and lighting a Sacred Candle, I used the Meadows CD as my Drumming. Very quickly, I saw a large Standing Person (Tree) bathed in a very deep Red Light. As I approached this Tree, I was in awe of the deepness of the coloring. As I climbed up the Tree, I noticed it was not the Tree itself that was red, but a thin veil of Light surrounding it that produced this vibrant hue. I climbed to the Tree top and waited, and very soon a Peace Eagle (!) came zooming down to get me. This is the first time a PE has been my Guide. We took off, me on its back, and zoomed toward a very red Circle on the horizon. I knew red was the color of the East, the Direction of Insight and Wisdom, so this would be a fruitful Journey. We reached the Circle and then soared up a Tunnel of red Light for a while, but soon the Tunnel Walls began displaying beautiful and exotic fruits that whizzed by us. Eagle snatched off a few to eat. Colors were very bright. We then exited the Tunnel into the Upperworld, where I was now standing on a plain covered in short, vibrantly-colored Plants. As I turned to view the Scene, I saw the Hotel in which our counseling appointment will be. Eagle Claw met me as Owl, and we went in together. We floated up through the floors, and found ourselves in the meeting room. Several times I asked to see the face of the person we’ll be meeting with, but the Spirits did not think I needed that info. Instead, they presented me with a scene of my younger children playing on the floor together. My son was about 5, my daughter 7. They were playing with a large ball, and I got the strong sense of family unity from this scene..a reminder of how it was when we were truly unified as a family. This meant Family was Job 1 still for me..the most important message of this Journey is that I must act as if we were still in that formative stage. The scene then shifted to a round table, around which sat modern day daughter and son. My son spoke the most, and said I had confused them with my Sacred Path approach..that whatever happens, happens, and it is my job as Father to merely note it but not intervene any more than necessary. They said this appeared to them as a distancing, a weaker love. I also was shown that by trying to smooth out feelings and explain why Mom was acting as she did to her son, instead of supporting her, I was causing the appearance of disunity between us, encouraging the kids to do their own thing and ignore us. The old divide and conquer. My wife has told me my actions say the same thing to her. I was also told by * my Spirit Guide to explain more to my kids about the things I’ve learned about the Spirit Life, so they could see I’m actually acting with more love, not less. He told me my wife and I must speak in one voice at all times. He also asked me to be more tolerant of my wife’s different ways. Her deep fears, angers, need to be in total control, and to always be right were all part of her life, important parts, and I should honor them. But He also said that she must honor my life values. Only by talking these wide difference in style out, and coming to some sort of middle ground, can we be successful at raising the kids past their teens. The meeting at the table then ended. I then brought my son to the Sacred Tree of Life, to give him strength to handle his upcoming challenges in school. I smoked with the Guardians and passed the Pipe to my son. I asked about his F in English and was told to ask his teacher what he must do to get a D or C, and make sure he does it. Concerning his lying, this was a very serious offense, and he should be made aware that if it continues, he will be shunned from family wealth and guidance, for being untrustworthy makes it hard for him to continue being part of the Sacred Circle. I thanked Eagle Claw and the Guardians for their advice. Peace Eagle and I then flew back, and I was allowed to absorb all the red energy from the tree from which we’d departed. Apparently I’ll need it. I then drummed back to the room and grounded.

* Indicates where the phone rang and my wife told me our son had been in his first auto accident. It was not his fault, but his first car was totalled.

Journey 37 - Badly Ill Aunt

3/12: Inspired by Mike H’s book and the treatment on Shamanic Healing from a distance, I undertook a Journey today to try to heal an elderly woman, aunt of a person I speak with daily at one of my deliveries. She is badly ill in a nursing home and the last remaining relative of this person, and so I felt compelled to use my Shaman’s Powers to help. I smudged the room as usual and breathed to relax. Snake was soon with me in the back yard, and we bypassed the usual Chipmunk hole near the feeding area and went slithering off together into the woods. We arrived at a tree stump with a thick branch sticking out at the bottom, into which an Animal had bored a large enough hole for us to go down through. Down we went. We passed the immediate layer underground where Roots can be seen as if suspended in Air. We soon went deeper, and ended up in a Clearing near a Forest. There was a bay of Water off to our right. Above us, the Stars shone brightly in the bright blue afternoon Sky, so I knew we were in the Lower World. We sat on a Stump and talked. Snake actually talked to me for the first time and said we should wait, for the Power Animal we were looking for was quite a distance away yet, and we would do well to be patient. This was the first conversation I have had with Snake, and shows we are getting much closer as a team. At my feet was a perfectly round Stone Person, and I picked this up and held it in my hands as I kept repeating the purpose of my Journey (holding a Stone Person during Prayers is part of my morning Ritual). Snake then suggested I stand up and use the Rattle that was suddenly beside me to beseech each of the Directions. Beginning in the East, I did so. As I finished up in the West, a very large Turtle was suddenly before me. It had a thin layer of rainbow-speckled light surrounding its head and shell, so I knew it was a Power Animal. I asked if it was the woman’s PA, and it nodded yes. I knew Turtle was representative of Mother Earth, and was a great example of Feminine Medicine. I asked her to return to the aunt and bring healing to her by re-energizing her aura. At that point, Turtle and snake BOTH took off and FLEW through the air left of and over the bay and disappeared. As I sat there, the Woman in a Grass Dress (hangs on my wall as a Shaman’s doll) walked up in the flesh and sat down beside me. She still wore her mask and grass skirt, but had nicely brown arms and legs. She told me to use my Sheshi chant she had given me many Journeys ago to invoke the Rainbow Rays of Healing, which I did over and over. Suddenly, we were in the aunt’s room at the nursing home. I watched as Turtle climbed into the Aunt’s Chakra and subsequently as her Aura turned into a brilliant rainbow hue, totally re-energized. I spoke to the Aunt and told her to accept the Power Animal and to heal herself with it. I told her the niece wanted her to live longer, and she should heal and remain with her as long as her Sacred Path allowed. Get better and live, I said. Then, I was back in the clearing. Woman in a Grass Dress was with me. I thanked her and told her there were other females to heal...and she put her finger on my lips and said, “Shhh..I know. You’ll be back. Let’s heal one person at a time.” Snake the returned to me as I sat on the Stump, and we rapidly came back up the Tunnel, through the Woods and into my room. I grounded myself to Mother Earth and drummed back to this time and place.

Journey 36 - Shamanic Training: Body Death

3/2: I took a Journey this morning, but for the first time with the intent of allowing my Teachers to choose which of two Paths would be best for me to go on. I had an equal pull in two directions, so I asked them to lead me to the one most suitable for me at this point in my Training. Should I explore my Black Panther Medicine further, or face my own Death in full to strengthen my Shamanism. I began drumming after smudging the room. I quickly found myself in a glass-enclosed Tower. A Bald Eagle came soaring right up to the Glass in front of me with talons and beak open, as if trying to get through to me. Was it anger, or desperation? Was it to startle me into action? Am I still too closed off from Eagle Medicine..is my nest still too low? An interesting beginning. Suddenly, my first Journey Guide, Snake (Crosses in Front), was at my feet, urging me to follow him down the grate in the floor, which I did. We went down into a dark Tunnel to the Lower World. He stood by me as all my clothes fell off. The surroundings were muddy, rocky and bathed in a very dark Blue light. I found myself now walking into an ice-cold stream, which hurt my feet lot. Still I pushed forward, having decided by now that this Journey was to be about my Death. We moved up into a Jungle area, where a Figure dressed in all black greeted me. As I walked up an incline, numerous bugs like Green Heads were attacking my all over, taking huge chunks of flesh from me. It was very distracting and painful, as they were biting my face and head as well, but I moved on nonetheless. The attacks stopped as I reached a Stone Slab at a crest of a Hill overlooking a River far below to my left. I lay down as Snake stood and the Black Figure sat at a distance by me. I waited for Night. When it arrived, I could see many lit Tipis and hand-held torches around me, well down the Hill and surrounding me. A Black Panther then came out of the night and up to me, beckoning me to follow. I did, and she led me to a lit-in-yellow, straw-filled bed beneath a large number of leaf-less bush branches that all had a soft white Aura along their lengths. As we lay down together, I became a Black Panther cub, with my mother beside me, offering protection. At this point, Jen knocked on my door, and for the first time I had to totally suspend a Journey. I put Medicine on her tattoo, and when she left I went back to my Journey. Part of being a Shaman is the ability to be able to jump between Worlds, so I knew this interruption was to be no problem. I merely retraced my steps back to where I had left off, and was fully involved once again. Then, some humanoid figures came to the straw bed where we were lying, and attacked and killed the large Panther at my side with long spears. But they kidnapped me, wrapping me in a blanket and carrying me through the Jungle. I took a canoe trip as well, as I could hear and feel the water. When the trip was over, I was released from my blanket and placed in an arena with a high cliff overlooking it. There were several Tigers stalking at the other end..obviously meant for me. I was a human, and naked, once again. My Spirit Guides were all along the ridge of the Cliff, watching me. In a new twist, though, my immediate family was along the fence, pleading with me not to go through with this. My wife was crying to me to the extreme, and my son was yelling at me not to do this. My daughter was sobbing, and my grandaughter was also calling to me. I found myself filling with tears and felt an intense longing to go back to them. I was soon taken into a Cave to sit alone, but their voices came through holes in the wall, pleading with me. My grandaughter snuck in and was walking toward me, calling my name..but a figure came and snatched her away. I was going berserk with confusion. I was crying, full of doubt about what to do. I had never felt panic like this in a Journey. My breathing was fast. I believe a Power Animal came in to walk by me for a few seconds, but I can’t recall which..probably Squirrel or Woodchuck..a smaller being, for sure. I felt such an intense longing to just be with my family, but felt by making that choice I would be giving up all the progress I had made so far. I would have to go back to being the old me, the person I was before I began the Native Walk. I spoke to myself, and told myself I was only destroying the weak and older parts of that “old” me, that by going through this date with the Tigers that I would emerge an even better person for my wife and children. I wanted so badly for them to understand that I had to do this so I could be a more effective love and healer for them..but all I heard were their cries and beggings. I filled my heart with Love and Intent, and determined I would return to them from this Event..but had to go through it. Love would carry me through. I went out to face the Tigers, and offered them no resistance. One tore into my right chest, the other engulfed my head. It was a very short time before I found myself hovering over my torn and bloody body. One of the Tigers looked up at me and grinned wildly, and told me, “you can never go back.” I did not feel that way, and insisted to myself that I would. The only reason I went through this was so I COULD go back and be a better Shaman. Two of my Spirit Guides appeared, and also told me I had made my choice and could not go back. I insisted I be allowed to return. They then took my Spirit to a Cave, where I was fed a red vegetable-like glop with purple and green specks. Who knows what it was. But after eating, I found myself along in a cocoon made of rainbow light. Before me, on my Visual Cortex, was the clear image of a Lion. He began to extract thin black spears from my Spirit Robe, one by one. The cocoon then closed in on me, and I felt myself rushing back to my room. I drummed myself back and took in Mother Earth’s Energy. I was shaken and nervous from this Journey, but felt I had accomplished a cleansing and a new commitment to the Path. Believe me, listening to my wife begging me filled me with remorse and doubt and longing..but I knew it was for her benefit that I had to go through the Tiger Mauling. Typing this several hours later, I feel a new calm and belonging, a new Oneness with Life. I have some things left to interpret, such as Eagle flying at me to begin with, the death of the Mother Panther, the meaning of the glop I was fed, which Power Animal came to strengthen me..but it was obvious the Shamanic Death Journey was the more important of the two options I placed before my Guides.

Journey 35 - Spirit Nest Raising

3/1: Took a Journey this AM to discover how to raise my Spirit Nest higher, as instructed yesterday. I smudged the room with both Sage and Sweet Grass before self-drumming, and then performed the Shamanic breath to relax myself while keeping my mind totally focused on the purpose of the Journey. I soon found myself standing amidst a huge field of wild flowers, with vibrant colors. This did not last long, though, for soon all turned to complete darkness. I was suspended above a landscape with virtually no lights, just dark shapes. Owl joined me, completely camouflaged in black..only a tiny glint in his eyes could be seen. He covered me in blackness as well in order to keep me invisible. We soared along above this bleakness, and it occurred to me that what lay below was not Earth, but some other remote place. Then, a few energy balls of brilliant color began to zoom by us, leaving tails of light. It occurred to me than that we were in the sub-atomic level, and those were atomic particles zipping by us! There was a bright band of light on the horizon at which we very soon arrived. We were then inside this energy field, which was a pink/orange color, and has the consistency of liquid taffy. I found myself slowing down to a “sloggy” crawl as I became covered in the stuff. I looked ahead and saw a tree, of normal color and depth, the only object in this goop so attired. As I struggled over to it and looked up, I could see the top was WAY up there, barely visible, sort of like a red wood seen from its roots but even more extended. I latched onto the bark of the tree and realized I was to make my nest higher by climbing up the side. But, I found then I was laden down with issues from my current life. I tried to remove three of them that have followed me for years. The first became a monster/insect that instead of falling attached itself to the bark beside me. I waited, and then it moved down to my right leg and clamped hard into it. I took the second issue, threw it off, and it became another creature that moved to my left and swallowed up my left hand up to the mid forearm. I threw a third issue down and it became a series of weights tied to my legs. I was stuck right in place, and realized that no amount of physical effort would help me..things were in fact getting more difficult. I then recalled reading just last night that Shamans can generate huge amounts of heat from their bodies, and I instead focused on doing the same. My limbs turned red hot, and the three encumbrances finally dropped off. Here I was, free to climb, but was missing my right foot and left hand, and the rest of my flesh was charred beyond use. I looked up and saw a small opening in the tree, and thought my way up to it, since I couldn’t move physically. Sitting on a branch next to the opening was Owl, and he told me to fall inside the opening. I did, and washed immediately awash with the Tree’s cooling and living Sap. I felt myself rising up the tree and eventually burst out the top. From there, I could see blue Sky and Sun, with other empty Tree Tops around me. The nearby ones had the names of my wife and children/grandchild. I was alone at this peak. I then found myself asking Great Spirit to come and meld with me. I then became one with all the things of this existence in quick sequence, including animals, rocks, etc. I then found all of creation moving down within my rainbow Aura surrounding my body. I saw the planets and stars all comfortably within my Energy Field. I felt a great and peaceful love for them, and all the living things within them. Then, Owl swooped by and took me back, down into the dark zone and into a Pipe which led to a sewer opening on my street. From there, I came back to my room. I thanked Great Spirit and Owl, and found myself breathing very slowly as I re-grounded into this existence. What an astonishing trip..I think I know how to raise my nest now, using Trees as my Guide to getting to the top, shedding myself of issues in the process. As always, completely Oneness with and Love for all of Creation is a must.