Journey 207 - Power Animal

2/3/06: “A Journey taken to determine a Woman's Power Animal, taken at her Request. As the Journey began, my Lower World Guide and I met in a heavily clover-covered and flat Area. Off to our right, a short Distance away, was a glowing and glistening, tall Birch Tree, all by itself. Crosses and I sensed that the Opening to the Lower World was near the Tree, so we went over. As we arrived, we saw a Chipmunk emerge from a Tunnel at the Base of the Tree. He stopped as if to stand guard as we descended through this Opening. We entered this Tunnel at it was huge, with tall Lilacs lining the Sides and overhanging our Path well above our heads as we went down. Eventually both the Lilacs and Tunnel shrank, until there were Lilacs no more. Then, the Tunnel narrowed and its Walls showed red, purple and maroon as we moved along. We finally reached the Lower World. It was as it almost always is, with a large Bay off to our right. Circling above this Bay, cutting out a perfect Circle, were numerous all-white Gulls. We knew we had to check out what they were circling over. We hopped aboard an all-white Swan and drifted across the Bay to find out. There, directly beneath the center of the Seagull Circle, was a Hippopotamus, mostly submerged in the Water. Could it be THIS was the Woman’s Power Animal? If so, it would be a first for Hippopotamus. Indeed it was, we discovered. Hippo was dark brown above the Water. But then numerous Gulls cam down and lifted the Hippo out of the Water, and it was all white where submerged. They let him back down into the Water and then numerous Gulls landed on him. Swan then took us back to the Shore. As we headed back up the Tunnel, and reached the lilacs, we saw Owl, Cardinal and Chickadee welcoming us back. We got to the Surface and as we did, a tremendous Condor came and grabbed the top off the Birch. He picked it up in its entirety and flew it way up into the Sky, and pasted it into a Cloud, where it stood. I then thanked Crosses and came back.”

NOTES: First off, there was much more imagery in this Journey than normal. This tells me the Woman has lots of Spirit Power. There are quite a few totems here, each of which has spirit Power to offer, in addition to the Power Animal. Here are brief summations, derived mainly from Ted Andrews’ seminal books:

Chipmunk: Speaks to keeping creations out of sight until they are truly ready to be revealed. Keeping your self “below the surface” until the right time to emerge is important. Usually the first 6 weeks after initiation is the vulnerability time. Most important, Chipmunk tells you to trust what you hear in the other person’s voice, not the actual words. Note the Chipmunk in the journey was a protector of the info in the tunnel we entered..

Birch: The “Lady of the Woods”, helping us connect to all goddesses of the woodlands. Birch reminds us that new dimensions are opening for us, and balance is necessary in entering them. Birch awakens the energy of new beginnings and a cleansing of the past, of old, no-longer-useful ideas. Keep energies and efforts purposeful. Shamans use staffs of birch to awaken an energy that enables them to pass from one plane of life to another. The fact the tree as pasted onto a cloud indicates the great heights to which this skill can be used..and Clouds in themselves represent the in-between state of gas and liquid..

Lilacs: Obviously a favorite of the woman’s. Keynotes: balance of the spirit and intellect; contact with spirit is imminent. Lilac helps align and balance the Chakras (see Chickadee below)! It draws protective spirits into one’s life. It is a great healing spirit, whose blossoms are filled with fairy and elf activity. The fairies are musical in their communications, and so can help harmonize your life and activate greater clairvoyance and the ability to explore past lives. Lilac means it is time to open up and develop trust in your spirit guides.

Seagulls: Represent the interface of sea and land..the fairy realm, the moving between dimensions, equally comfortable in both. This implies the Woman has lots of energy to move between dimensions..a skill she has already highlighted in telling me of her ability to see spirits. Gulls also represent freedom. The fact they were circling perfectly pays tribute to the circular nature of Spiritual thinking..for example, the linking of all time and space into one single point where the Shaman visits to get information.

Swan: Represents the true beauty and power of the self. This makes it extremely important that swan transported us out to her Power Animal. Swan awakens the emotion response, and also allows one to react more sensitively to others emotions. Its long neck serves as a bridge between had (upper worlds) and body (lower worlds). This implies access not only to your own true self and beauty, but to other realms and powers as well. Swans prefer it cold and so live in the north. Qualities of the north include courage, alertness, patience, endurance. Greek legend holds the Swan sings its most beautiful song just before death (hence, the swan song in our cultural references). The swan song is synonymous with poetic fancy..so swan can teach the mysteries of song and poetry, touching the child and beauty within.

Owl: Represents the mystery of magic, omens, silent wisdom and vision in the night. Its yellow eyes represent the sun alive in the dark of night. Owl allows one to see and hear what others try to hide. They fly silently encouraging one to keep silent and go about ones business. Owl people are uniquely able to see into the eyes and souls of others. They should listen to the “wild imaginings” that result.

Cardinal: Represents renewed vitality through recognizing self-importance. Their distinctive whistling reflects we should be listening to the inner voice (the feminine) more closely. The female cardinal is rare in that she is bright-colored and also sings like her mate..really emphasizing the power of the feminine. The fact Cardinals in the Catholic Church are named after this bird calls for the Woman to revisit her spirit life as well.

Chickadee: Represents cheerful and truthful expression. Is black cap signifies use of the higher mind and higher perceptions. Black is also associated with mystery, the feminine and the great womb of life. Cherokees consider the Chickadee the Bird of Truth. There are seven types of Chickadees, corresponding to the 7 energy centers in the human body called Chakras. When these are balanced, there is greater realization of the truth in the world. Truth shared correctly can add joy and cheer to life, as well as healing.

Condor: represents the ancient mysteries of life and death (that is, the actual truth about them versus modern ideas); communion with the spirits; and soaring above limitations. Its taking the tree into the sky was a perfect example of a being (the tree) rising well above its limitations..with condor’s help!! The Woman can use her Totems likewise to soar.

Hippopotamus: Her Power Animal: Its keynotes: creative power to shape shift one’s life, and sacred baptism. The River Horse, it spends much of its time in water, the ancient realm of birth, power, imagination, healing and artistic sensibility. It is the place of sacred baptism. Water awakens higher sensibilities, enables lucid dreaming and greater conscious spirit contact. Creative and artistic energies grow stronger. Hippo can submerge itself in water so only its eyes and nostrils are above the surface..Hippo people can thereby immerse themselves in the feminine and emotional powers of their lives and thereby maintain invisibility. Hippo people tend to have a life path chosen for them, and they have to follow it. Hippos main enemy, Crocodile, is no match for the adult, which can bite it in two. This shows strong protective abilities for all of Hippo person’s creations.

2/8/06 Her reply: "I was in total awe reading my PA Journey. Now I thought I was a squirrel or chipmunk. I have 3 squirrels in my yard that I feed all year long and at the school where I work (a private Catholic all boys boarding school) I have my 2 little chipmunks that I feed 9 months as I am off the other 3. I love Lilacs and birch trees. You are so gifted. I enjoyed reading every word. AND you took and do take so much time presenting what you see on each journey you take. I can't thank you enough. I must have read it 10 times all ready. You are quite a guy. I never imagined MY PA would be a HIPPO. I hope you have a wonderful night. Talk to you soon. "

Journey 205/206 - Meeting the 13 Tenger of Shamanic Activities/Spirit of New Drum

1/30/06: A Journey undertaken to visit with the Group of Tenger in the Mongolian Tradition who “control Shamanic Activities.” They are the Asarangi Arban Gurban, of the East. This was actually my first Journey of the New Year which began on Jan 29. My Goal this year is to finally begin a series of Meetings with these great Shaman Spirits of the Mongolian Way. I made up a Spreadsheet in early January of all the Spirits, for easy Reference to their area of Specialty. My Goal with this Journey was to get Blessing for all my Activities coming up this Year.

As I entered the Spirit World for the first Time on over 2 weeks, I saw a vast Plains sparsely populated with leafy Trees. It was early Dawn. Ahead of me was a large Mountain, dark with the increasing Twilight behind it. I was kneeling on the Shaman Mirror with all my Helpers behind me, there in Support of this first real Supplication. Embedded in the otherwise dark Mountainside ahead of me were 13 bright Lights, brilliantly white like tiny Suns. As I was kneeling and bowing down, my Mirror, hung around my Neck, touched the Mirror beneath me..and they are both the same Mirror! Anything is possible in the Time/Space Linking of Spirit World. The large Mirror we were on slid right up to the Base of the Mountain. When we arrived, the 13 “Suns” rearranged themselves into a narrow Oval, with 6 lights on each Side and one at the Top. I walked up into the Midst of these Lights. They now had become elongated Columns of Light, about the height of a Human. They then projected a Bed of colored Light between them, with many Rays of both Pastels and primary Colors. I sensed I was to lie down in this Bed, and so I immersed myself on my Back in the Light, which held me up although having no apparent Substance. At this Point, the 13 peered over at me, and I could see many smiling Faces peering down at me. I then saw a brief visual History of portions of my Shamanic Walk to this Point..my Shamanic Past (perhaps they were reviewing this as well). One by one they then began to smear Fat from my totem Animals (Bear, Hawk, Mourning Dove, Cardinal, etc) onto my Body. But instead of the Fats sticking to my Skin, they penetrated to my Spirit Body and blended with it. I was being given the very Essences of my Totems, no doubt to increase my Power. They then asked if I would like to see my near Future. I said yes, of course. Then, ahead of me, I saw myself walking along, with my Aura bright and full. But it was under Attack from Dark Beings all around me, with Spears sticking into my aura in places, while from on high came powerful Bolts of Light designed to keep me strong. It was a very dynamic scene, with much give and take between the light and dark forces coming to a Head at and within my Spirit Body. (This confirmed what I had been shown on our way to Portland last Sunday: A large Hawk flew right across the front of the car about 15 feet up, chased by 3 Crows who were right behind it and trying to nip its wings, coming in from the right, the side of danger. This told me then that I will face many challenges this year (Crows are messenger Birds, so I will have lots of taskings but, like the Hawk, will fly along handling it well on my mission.) But then, I saw 13 little Stars form over my Aura. They circled slowly, but then quickly accelerated into a whirling Hoop of white Light. This Hoop expanded and descended down through my entire Aura,. When they were done, I was totally free of dark Forces. I was told I can call on the 13 at any time to engage this Cleansing. Back now on the Bed of Light, the 13 burned the Fats into my Aura. I could feel the heat on my actual Skin as I lay in my Middle World Bed. They then spoke with me. “You are ready..you have great Shamanic Power, use it with great Humility.” This ended my Time with the 13. I returned to the Mirror, where the White Moon Festival Feast that follows the New Year was in full Swing. As I ate at a huge Table with my Helpers and celebrated, I took occasional Racks of Beef or Legs of Lamb and through them way up into the Mountainside. Each time, a Voice would boom down the Slopes, “Thank you, Four Hawks.” I then spoke with my Helpers. They said the 13 were pleased I went to visit them for the first time. They are honored and grateful to have someone working so hard as a Shaman. I was told they were smiling over me earlier because there are so many false Shamans out there whose activities they have to try to negate. This keeps them quite busy, I was told. I then thanked my Helpers and returned.

1/30/06: A Journey undertaken to learn the Spirit of my new Drum, bought on EBay with my daughter’s Christmas Gift Certificate. I actually used the new Drum for my Journey, so this was the first time for that.

I first smudged the Drum with all three of my Plants: Sage, Sweet Grass and Juniper. I then used both the Sacred Feather and my Grouse Wing Fans to spread the Smoke across, around and beneath the Mirror. I then lay down with the Drum lying on my Stomach and began Drumming, tapping with my Finger. At first, I saw the Fruit Tree from which the Wood came to make the Rim. I saw that the Wood came from the main Trunk, toward the outside, just below where the main Branches began. I then saw the Goat that donated the Skin beneath the Tree, grazing on the finest Alfalfa. I then saw my Drum lying on its Back in the Spirit World. All around the Edge I saw numerous tiny Thunderbeings firing Lightning at the Perimeter from a few Inches above. Strike after Strike hits all around the Drum with no Damage, as if adding Power. I then saw a blue-white “Sky” Dome, like a contact lens, form over the Drum Surface. As I rose up and over the Drum, I saw the numerous brilliant Stars were embedded in the tip of this Dome. It was strikingly beautiful! I then peered down through the Dome and saw a whole World encased within it. I saw a portion of Ocean and also some Land. It was as if this World, with all its Possibilities and Life Energy, was sitting on the Surface of the Drum. I then moved back down to the Side of the Drum and saw a Being walk up from the other side of the Dome and toward me. The Being was brilliant Yellow, and was composed of Flames. He introduced himself as the Spirit of the Drum. His name is Syrggha. He explained to me how I should paint the Drum. He told me to paint him on the Head, as well as the Lightning Bolts, the Ocean, the Land and Stars I saw. Not only should I also paint my Shaman Symbol on it, but he told me to sear in my personal Shaman Energy by tracing my Symbol with my Index Finger at this time, which I did. I watched as Energy poured from my Fingertip and branded the Drumhead with the Energy of my Shaman Symbol. I then stopped Drumming, and lowered my Hands slowly to the opposing Edges of the Rim. This sealed in all the Energy I had witnessed. The Drum was now active and assigned to me..

Journeys 203/204 Removing a Hex/Power Animal Retrieval for Son's Friend

1/30/06: A Ritual undertaken to see if there is a hex thrown onto a Cousin by the Cousin’s Brother-in-law’s Wife. I checked first using the Pendulum and got a “yes.” I then asked if I would be allowed to remove it. “Yes,” again. But I sensed this was not a Journey task, but rather a Healing Ritual involving Stones and Crystals.

So, I set up the following initial Lay-out: First came a totally clear and large Crystal, to represent the Cousin’s cleaned Energy State. About 4 inches to the right came the Large Moqui Stone, representing the Cousin herself. Touching her on the right was a cloudy, large Crystal, representing the Hex Energy attached to her. Finally, another 4 inches rightward, was a small Moqui to represent the Wife..smaller to indicate lesser Power in relation to the Cousin. Above the Cousin’s Moqui was my Hollow Bone, set there to aid the Flow of the Hex Energy back where it came from. Within Seconds of placing this Bone on the Display, it rolled down to touch the Cousin Moqui. This was a good Omen for channeling the Curse back to where it came from, so I left it there. I then cleansed the Cousin Moqui with Arshaan, the sacred Shamanic Aura-cleansing Fluid. I then smudged the entire Scene with Sage and spread the Smoke with a sacred Feather. I then placed both one Hand over each Moquis, praying and establishing spirit Control over them. I then took the clear Crystal in my left Hand and the cloudy in my right. I closed my Eyes and slowly moved both to the right at the same Speed, until both touched the Moquis, the clear touching the Cousin, the cloudy touching the Wife. This had the effect of transferring the Hex from the Cousin back to the Wife, its Source. I then took the cloudy Crystal and pressed it firmly to Mother Earth, releasing some of that hex Energy to her for transmutation. I did likewise lifting the Crystal to Father Sky for the rest of the Energy. I asked it be put to good Use now. I then took the clear Crystal and held it over the Sacred Flame for cleansing, and then circled the Cousin Moqui with the Crystal nine times while uttering “Hurai” each time. I then uttered the Magic Phrase that seals the Healing in..”Hoyor Sagai Negende”. This cleansed the Cousin totally and sealed her from future Attack. I then took the Crystals and large Stone and placed them on my Mirror to neutralize them for a future Task. I then took the Wife Moqui, and likewise held it over the Flame. I removed all Traces of the Curse as well as the Wife’s ability to throw such Curses in the Future. I sealed that Action, and placed the small Moqui on the Mirror for cleaning as well. This ended the Ritual.

1/30/06: A Journey undertaken to ascertain my son’s friend Power Animal. This was a bit more complex a Journey than is usual, but all will be explained at the end to the best of my ability. Also, perhaps he will relate to some of the imagery in a more meaningful way. As always, the Journey is rich with metaphor, needing translation to his specific needs.

As I went into the Spirit World, I saw him walking about at the Edge of a Forest, smiling, as if waiting for me. He then pointed at a specific Tree. He went up to it and placed his right hand well up the Tree above his Head, which he bent forward. He just stood there, Eyes closed. I then heard my Lower World Guide, Crosses in Front, the Snake, rustling toward me from the left. She told me to shrink down to her Size, which I did. We then both scurried through the Undergrowth over to the Tree. While he stood there, concentrating (?), we snuck around to the Back. There, at the base of the Tree, was the Opening to the Lower World. Since this was my first journey in several weeks, I was in a playful Mod and turned to Crosses and said, “after you!”, smiling. She smiled back at said, “no, after YOU!”. We both then went in together as we always do. As we were heading down the Tunnel, we were met by numerous colored Orbs, reminding me of colored ping-pong Balls. At first they were so thick it seemed unlikely we could even go through them, but eventually the Tunnel opened up, with the Balls now stuck to the Walls and Ceiling, and we proceeded all the way down. Once in the Lower World, we found ourselves slogging through a very wet and thick Mud. It was quite dark, and the Crescent Moon, reflecting what we actually have here in the Middle World today, hung in the Sky. I called out to the Lord of the Lower World, stating my request for a Power Animal for the Friend. Suddenly we were lifted up and carried quite a distance to an Island sitting in the bright afternoon Sun next to a River. The top of the Island was a semi-active Volcano. We were set down right near the Top. There, standing at looking at us, was a Black Ram with large Horns. I wondered if this was his PA until a large Bolt of Energy came from above and struck the Ram down. The Scene shifted and we were standing in front of a cement/stone Building. That same black Ram was standing there, but when I moved toward a Man nearby to inquire about it, it suddenly disappeared. When I asked where it had suddenly gone, the Man said, “Oh, that Ram died over 6 years ago.” We were then back on the small Mountain. The Volcano was spewing a bit near its Rim and so we moved down the Side, passing a Mountain Goat, dead on its side. We went all the way down to the river. There, I saw a very large and graceful Salmon, with streaks of rainbow Colors on its Side, leaping incredible distances into the Air to snare Butterflies for its Meal. The Salmon then shape-shifted into a Person and announced itself as his Power Animal. He said he will go back with us to him. The Volcano then erupted fully. We all plunged into the Water. His PA returned to his Salmon form. Huge Chunks of sizzling Magma were plopping into the Water near the Salmon, but he remained unhurt. He seemed to be enjoying the Heat generated in the surrounding Water. He was not hurt. I then took Time to review all the Imagery I had seen so as to better remember it upon my Return. We then all decided it was time to leave and we headed back up the Tunnel.

I then performed a Pendulum Request to see if the Friend has some sort of Encumbrance attached to him that is holding him back in Life. To my delight, there is no such negative Power holding him down. I then performed a Shagai Ritual to see the general Health of his Fortunes and Fates. The reading was also quite positive: “Not too many difficulties, but some.” This tells me he is really positioned quite nicely concerning Decisions and Options coming up in the near Future. There is little standing in his way but perhaps himself.

So now, onto Images contained within the Journey itself:

His behavior around the Tree seems to indicate he is searching for Balance. Standing People (Trees) reach to the Sky and reach deep into the Earth at the same time. He is seeking grounding while at the same time reaching for the Stars. This is a wise posture, as Trees are very sturdy and long-lasting once they have taken root.

The colored ping-pong Balls in the Tunnel may represent many Issues pinging on him at once..or perhaps too many choices..

The Volcano represents the violent release of Energy from within, where it was hidden. It can also represent the release of Feminine Energy, since the Magma comes from Mother Earth. So this may mean he is either letting too much emotion build up, after which it explodes out..or it may mean he NEEDS to release this pent-up emotion. It may also indicate that someone around him, and not him himself, is the one needing to “explode”.

The Dead Ram and Goat, showing up twice, appear to be former Power Animals that are no longer available to him. This is a first in Journeys I’ve taken. It may mean that his near-death experience when younger really altered him completely, requiring a new Power Animal to take over.

This new PA is Salmon. The Keynotes of this Power Animal are “pilgrimage and coming home” and “success through persistence.” Salmon return to their home waters 6 years after leaving. They are destined, “pre-programmed” if you will, to return there or die trying, indicating a destiny encoded in the very being of a person with Salmon as Power Animal. He must seek out his “calling”. The 6-year period seems quite significant given the man in the Journey told me the Ram had died over 6 years ago. This may means that he is nearing the end of his first pilgrimage and is ready to spawn new life for himself. Salmon leap over great obstacles to get home and mate, and then they die. Likewise, people with Salmon Medicine will stop at nothing to fulfill their calling, once they recognize what it is. Salmon have special sensory systems on their sides that allow them to detect the presence of other animals around them through pressure changes in the water. This allows the person with Salmon as PA to likewise better feel the people around him and detect subtle changes in them. The fact there were rainbow streaks on the side of his Salmon seems to highlight this ability skill, call attention to it, and therefore brings it forward in importance.

Bottom line: when Salmon appears, we need to look at the pilgrimage we have either been on or have been considering taking. We will be transformed. Life will never be the same again. There will be a feeling of predestination in regards to a spiritual journey. Here are questions Salmon asks: Are we persisting so rewards will come? Are we giving up before the transformations? Do we need to take a pilgrimage-time away to mature? Is it time to return home, get back to our roots? Do we trust what we feel? Are we ignoring our spiritual journey?

The Butterflies represent transformation as well as joy. The fact the Salmon was leaping well into the Air to get these shows an intense desire by him for one or both of these qualities. Since Salmon speaks to transformation already, this is reinforced by the presence of Butterflies.

Finally, the fact the Salmon enjoyed the heat released by the Magma exploding out of the Volcano indicates that he will also handle well the release of the pent-up emotions, whatever the source..

Grouse Wings Fans

October, 2005: I had a most remarkable beginning to last week. On the 3rd , this past Monday, I saw a total of four Hawks, plus a Butterfly that was literally floating along..no wing beats..for at least 50 feet Since my Shaman Name is Four Hawks, I found that quite an honor in its own right. But it turns out that was just an announcer message.

The next day, as I was driving my route, I saw a large mass on the side of the road, right next to where I was driving. It looked like a large, dead Bird, so I stopped and backed up to it. Sure enough, it was a dead Ruffed Grouse! I couldn’t believe my eyes. I wondered if I was supposed to take it or not, and decided not to, instead just taking some gorgeous Tail Feathers to use in Ceremonies. I prayed over the Bird as I did so, to help release its Spirit. The rest of the day, though, I kept thinking I should have taken the whole bird. I have never picked up a dead animal or bird before, but it had been 5 years and perhaps it was finally time. I kept thinking I had missed a chance to receive a great gift from the Spirits..after all, the Bird was literally right in my Path. When would this ever happen again?! So, after work, I went back to see if it was still there, and it was. So I put it in a plastic bag and came home. For the first time in my life, I cut off both Wings and have stored them in salt for the next 6 weeks to dry and decontaminate them. After that, they will be superb and powerful Smudge and Aura Cleaning Tools. I was so awestruck by this tremendous gift! I then placed the rest of the Bird out by my Altar and Smudged it with Sage, leaving it for the Animals to take.

The next day, I again saw 4 Hawks and the soaring Butterfly. This time, two of the Hawks were a Mother (or Father) and child. And that next morning, the Body of the Bird had been taken. But during prayers that morning, I felt the Spirit of that Grouse move into me as a new Helper and Guide!

This was a first for me. To receive a full Grouse Body, freshly killed (it was very loose still when I picked it up), in order to have my first set of Raptor Wings as Shaman Tools, placed right in my Path..what a wonderful and humbling event.

December, 2005 While putting up my Christmas lights in the front yard, I happened to look up and saw a huge Hawk fly right by me into a Tree next to my House. It sat there a few Seconds, then took off for the back. On a Hunch, I went out back slowly, and sure enough, there she was..sitting in a Tree. She sat there with me for at least 5 Minutes, not more than 20 feet away. She hopped from Branch to Branch, and looked around, at me at Times. This is the longest and closest Visit I have had with Hawk. My Epiphany Visit (10/19/01) lasted only about 10 Seconds. When she finally took off to the West (Spirit Direction for me), I realized she was calling on me to release the Wings from the Salt Cleansing Period. I did. Grouse is a wonderful Totem and Wing Fan for a Shaman to have. Grouse is both the Drummer and the Dancer..what could be better? A few nights later, Grouse came to me as a female Spirit in a Dream and merged with me. I’m very honored. In a subsequent Journey, I found out her name: Sendinal. Almost like Sending All, or Sentinel. She will be a tremendous Companion for me now, and her Wing Fans are simply gorgeous..and powerful!

Journey 202 - A Woman Seeking Shamanism

11/18/05: A Journey undertaken with a woman’s permission to check her Spirit Health. She and I have been trading Notes and Wisdom on Shamanism via e-mail for about two weeks now, and she feels called to the Tradition. So with great Humility and Honor, I undertook this Journey. I lit the Sacred Candle, Smudged the Room, myself and my Tools with Sage and Sweet Grass, then opened Sacred Space with my Amazonian Shaman Rattle. I then set up my Kate Whitaker Drum CD for a 10-minute Journey. I breathed myself to Calmness and concentrated on my Task: to ask about this Woman's Spirit Health!

“As I slipped into the Spirit World, I found myself standing at the Entrance to a long Trellis chock full of ripe, Concord Grapes. I moved in and enjoyed the Aroma and Colors. I soon reached an opening on my Right, a Section that ran off into a new Wing. But within this wing were many glowing, golden Orbs, suspended in the Trellis among the Grapes. At the Entrance to this wing I found both my Lower World Guide, Crosses in Front (Snake) and my Upper World Guide, Eagle Claw (Owl). They accompanied me as I walked into this Area. I found my Shaman Mirror lying on the Ground, a Circle of blue Light and low-lying Haze. I then saw the woman standing in the Center of the Mirror. She looked to be about 5’8” or 9”, with medium-length, brown, layered hair. I can’t be sure if this is how she looks now or looked at one time in her Life, as in a Journey all time and Space can and do overlap. I moved in closer and checked her Aura. It looked very healthy and colorful, with all three Soul Pieces in place, bright, and moving correctly within the Chakra System. However, as I moved closer in around the front, I found an area of spiritual Pollution. It was in and near her Heart Chakra. Many blackened Birds were flying in and out of this Chakra. I caught a few in my Hand and cleaned then off. The first was a Chickadee, the second a Bluebird, and the third a Blue Jay. I was curious as to what was causing this blackening Pollution, so I drifted into it and read its Energy. As I did so, I found myself in a House that had been similarly blackened, almost as if covered in Soot. I saw the occasional Hell-like angry Face popping up out of the Floor. This suggested to me that the woman may have had an overweening Fear of Hell and Damnation forced into her as a Child, or perhaps she viewed her early Life as a Hell of sorts. I then left the Pollution Zone, Trish and went out to the Wing Entrance. There I found the Spirit of Hummingbird. This Spirit told me that once we clean or she cleans up the Heart Chakra she will be very easily centered Spiritually, and Hummingbird will be a very close and effective Power Animal for her. I then turned and left the Trellis area and came to a large field bounded by a thick stock of Trees in the Distance. There were tall Grasses between me and the Trees. As I looked left, I saw an old-fashioned Clothesline near a House, with Clothes swinging in the Winds. I saw a large, old Barn with a bent TV Antenna attached to a Chimney. The entrance to the Barn was large and there was a dirt Entrance. I saw a rusted old Station Wagon. There were a couple of Cows in the Barn, and there were some Chickens and a Rooster pecking around. At this point, the Call Back sounded and I returned to the Room.“

NOTES: I think this last bit may be a look into the woman’s Past, whether or not it is in this Life or a recent prior one.

I think the Woman will be able to easily remove the Pollution I saw through recognition of its presence and perhaps a few Smudgings with Sage. She has a very strong connection to Bird Totems, as they continue to bring their Medicines to her Heart Chakra even though they are picking up some of the Pollution. In face, part of their Presence may be designed to cleanse the Chakra.

Now for a look at the specific Characteristics of the key Totems:

Concord Grapes: While I have nothing “official” on Grapes, I know these Grapes in particular are very high in anti-oxidants. So one can translate this physical benefit to the Spirit World as well, and see them as a way to cleanse the pollution from your Heart Chakra. I would add Concord Grape Juice and Jelly to your Diet and think of these Products as cleansing your Heart Chakra whenever you eat them. You’ll know when your Chakra is clean by the enormous amount of warmth and love you feel.

This comes from Ted Andrews’ Animal Speak. Your Power Animal is a Spirit Being who brings you characteristics of that Bird that might fill in weak areas or strengthen already good areas in you make-up. “Hummingbird as Power Animal. KEYNOTES: “Tireless Joy and the Nectar of Life” CYCLE OF POWER: Daytime. More: Humming creates an internal massage, restoring health and balance. Hummingbird reminds us to find joy in what we do and to sing it out. There are over 300 species of hummingbirds worldwide. In the Hebrew alphabet the letter “shin” is given the value of 300. This has associations with fire and relationships, the past and the future. This is even reflected in the wing movement of the hummingbirds, which can use a figure-8 pattern to hover. The figure-8 is a symbol of infinity and links the past and future and the laws of cause and effect. Hummingbirds’ long bills and tongues enable them to extract nectar from flowers, pollinating them in the process. Again this reflects the mysteries of cause and effect and teach you to extract your own Nectar from Life. Hummingbirds have knowledge of the Healing properties of flowers, teaching you how to draw life essence and medicines from Flowers as well. They also teach how to use flowers to heal and win hearts with love. Because it flies everywhere, it teaches us to truly enjoy what we are doing and become as light as a feather in the process. Hummingbirds can reach high speeds and stop instantly, are brave enough to chase off Eagles, and can even fly backwards. This allows you to take nectar from your own past, and find sweetness and joy in any situation.

Pueblo Indians were fascinated with Hummingbird’s rainbow colors, and used its Medicine in Rain and Endurance Rituals. Hummingbirds are big eaters and consume mainly the sugars of flowers. This means you should watch your own sugar levels in diet, but also ensure you are getting enough sweetness out of life itself. Hummingbirds like to play in water. They are fiercely independent and except when mating like to be alone, reveling in their freedom. Mother Hummingbirds are hard workers. They receive no help from their Male Mate. She will usually lay two eggs. Two is the number of the inner self, the feminine to which we must give birth and expression to find out own joy.

Hummingbirds are master architects. You may wish to redecorate your own home. It may be telling you to do something to create more joy in your home. Hummingbirds hibernate at night and ruffle themselves up to preserve heat. Likewise, you must get enough rest and not burn out. Finally, Hummingbirds migrate 2500 miles, This amazing fat for a creature that has to eat constantly teaches you that you can accomplish the impossible as well, an create miracles in your own life.”

Your Totem Birds’ Characteristics:

Chickadee: Cheerful and Truthful Expression. Those with this Totem will learn to express the Truth on a manner that heals, balances and open perceptions. Truth is shared ion a manner that adds cheer and joy to your own life and those of others.

Blue Bird: Modesty, Unassuming Confidence and Happiness. Take time to enjoy yourself. Their homes usually face the south, the direction for awakening the inner child. Look for opportunities to touch the joyful and intrinsically native aspects of yourself that you may have lost touch with.

Blue Jay: The Proper Use of Power: Use your power properly and do not allow yourself to have power used against you improperly. Blue Jays are members of the Crow family, and have no fear..this can help you connect with the deepest mysteries of both Earth and the Heavens. They are very majestic and royal. They are also excellent mimics. Jay indicates you are moving into a time where you can begin to develop your innate royalty, or simply be a pretender to the throne. It all depends on you.


Her responses:

11/19: Thank you for the journey! I have to say "AMAZING "! I couldn't think of a connection to Concord Grapes! After reading your journey, I can recall my first home from birth to age 4 or 5 yrs , indeed had a long trellis structure, like a long tunnel surrounded with and enveloped by grape vines! It was like a tunnel of grapes ! I forgot how much I used to like going in there! I am not sure what kind of grapes they were, but I remember eating them. They had allot of big seeds in them! LOL I still drive by the old homestead on occasion as I have relatives within a block of the old house! I will have to see if that trellis is still there! Very Cool! I am now about 5' 6" tall and have light brown hair. I was a blonde, until about 26 ish. Definitely very abusive situation throughout my childhood. The later description is of my current location. I bought my second childhood home from my Mother! There are 2 large barns right by my home. I used to explore them all the time! I have a large field surrounding my home on 2 sides(at least 10 acres) Trimmed by a wooded line of trees! Back yard used to have the clothes line you spoke of! The farm had chickens and a rooster which I loved to feed! I will write more later..I have a surprise party to attend tonight and have to go get ready. Please know how grateful I am, for all your help and guidance thus far! Gratefully yours.

11/21: I must say, I am still feeling conflicted about the whole Hell and damnation issues. I know logically it's silly, but I am afraid, that I will get God angry, for trying a "different" way. Afraid of doing something wrong to incur God's wrath! I know this is from childhood feelings.

11/22: I meant to tell you, that barn from the journey did have a few cows as well as old rusted vehicles in and across the street from it. Also what do you think the golden orbs hanging in the grapevines symbolize? MY ANSWER: I have seen those before, often. They are Mana, that is, pure Spirit Energy. This means you have lots of energy available to help in strengthening your Aura. You can imagine yourself picking these orbs and eating them like oranges to increase your strength. They are there for the pickin’! As I think I mentioned, when the Heart Chakra is polluted, it can mean love is weakened in either relationships externa..or internal. That is, you have to love yourself as a manifestation of the Great Spirit, as well as others. J Thanks for filling in the other items, too. It really was a powerful reach-out to you..I’m very glad for you. It bodes well for your future growth as a Shaman Path Seeker.

Journey 201 - A Friend's Back Problem

9/19/05: A Journey taken at a friend’s request to investigate a Pain in her Back for which she is seeking medical Help. As I entered the Sacred Spirit Realm, I found my Upper World Guide Eagle Claw there, with his Human Face but the body of Owl. He was soaring around very quickly, causing a vortex of Feathers and Rainbow-colored Mana. I looked way up to the top of this Vortex and could see my friend there. Owl scooped me up and lifted me, in my mini-form as Four Hawks, to and through the top of the Vortex. There I was meeting with my friend. I first presented myself to her as four separate Hawks all flying around in an ever-tightening Formation, then merging into an Amalgam. We walked toward a Forest. From the Forest came both Water and Forest Spirit Beings, in the form of a light Mist. They swirled around and through my friend. Their presence allowed me to see a thin red Shaft of Light sticking out of her Back. I went in through this Shaft to investigate the cause of her Pain. I saw one of her Discs was slightly out of place and slightly abraded..as if something had been rubbing against its surface. I then created a Y-shaped Stick. I swirled my Hand around this Stick to charge it with Healing Energy. I began trying to push the Disc back into place, but it kept resisting. I was getting nervous about doing more Harm than Good to my Friend. At this Point, I felt myself becoming the Hollow Bone. Through me then passed one of her own Shaman Helper Spirits. He put the Disc back into place. He then handed me the Y-shaped Stick on the way back out. He congratulated me for trying to heal her and for being wise enough to allow him to finish the Job. He then said she should drink healing Teas, rest for a Week or so, and apply alternating hot and cold compresses to that area of her Back (just below the mid point, right side of the Spine). She should avoid heavy lifting for a while. I thanked the Shaman Helper, my Helpers and then returned. I then slid through the Walls of my Room and retuned to my Body.

Here is the reply I got a few nights later:

"Thank you so much for writing the journey up.
It means a lot to me.
I kept my back warm, but not cold ( don't like cold)
I do like the forest very much, but the sea is special for me, it gives me such good energy !
It's too bad it's a long way drive from were we live to reach the sea.
And yes, I was drinking more Native herbal tea at the moment !
My back hurts a little, but much less than in the beginning, and the pain on my leg and foot has gone !!
I am verry happy, and I want to thank you and all yours and mine Spirit helpers and Animals for their help."

A new Epiphany (8th Chakra Viewing)

9/10/05: I visited with a person who has taken a turn for the worse in her dance with cancer and is within a month or so of passing unless a Ritual I did for her takes hold. A Journey I have taken since that Ritual has shown that her Ancestors decided to overrule my Work, certainly their right, and that is why she began to sink within a few days of my Journey for her.

When I first got to the person’s apartment this evening, I went up to her as she lay in her hospital bed, moaning from a constant pain in her side, and kissed her gently on the forehead. As I did so, I softly blew a stream of Soothing Mana into her Crown Chakra, a tried and true technique Shamans use. Then, as we were standing by her side, I opened up Sacred Space over her as well.

As time passed and we all talked, she got obviously better, even starting to joke. At one point, she even told me as I was moving a small table for her that she had started feeling better since we had been there. I told her simply that that was the reason we had come, but inside I was hoping my Mana-insertion, Sacred Space opening and the flow-through Healing of my Shamanic presence was at work.

At one point, she asked her sister, who was there with us, if there was someone standing behind her. Her sister of course said no. I looked with my Chakra-vision and saw the shape of a person, head and shoulders, right behind the ill one. I got my partner's attention and whispered, “actually, it’s YES.” Janet smiled knowingly.

But the real amazement was yet to come. Shortly after this visit, I performed a mini-Journey into my Spiritual Hollow Bone Tool. I saw the Woman's Mother and Father standing at her side as she lay there, and beside them was a small Girl, perhaps 2 or 3. I sensed but did not see Grandparents further out but also watching over her. I then tried to use my Third Eye Chakra Vision to detect more of what was going on around the Woman, but nothing came through. It was when I opened my Eyes that I was to be shortly astonished.

Within seconds, as I stared with my Aura-detection technique at the area immediately over her head, I saw a blue-white half-saucer of Light form there. It was so bright. I had never seen anything like it. This layer of Light was moving, too, sort of swirling in place. I was seeing her Eighth Chakra, the one above the Crown Chakra, wherein resides your Eternal Presence as a Spirit Being. I had read about this in certain books, but this was my very first viewing. I was amazed! But the best was yet to come. Suddenly, overlapping the plasma, I saw a vertical triangle (an “A” shape) form composed of three small orbs of white Light, like tiny Suns. They hung there for a seconds. Suddenly, they had inverted and there was a “V”, with a fourth orb off to the left. Then, another inversion returned the “A”. At the time, I was totally non-plussed as to what these were. But later as I though more about it, I realized I was seeing the actually Soul Energy of the Parents and the Little Girl! I have seen my own little Soul Orbs rushing by in my peripheral vision for the past 4 years, and this is what led me to realize what these other orbs were. They had graced me with my first viewing of out-of-body Soul Beings..perhaps in payment for all the Work I have been doing on the Woman's behalf. What a humbling and tremendous Gift. I am still so amazed!

A final note: The Woman has been seeing a sick little Girl ling on the couch next to her hospital bed recently. I was told in my Journey concerning her downturn that the little Girl is the same one I saw in my mini-Journey..except she is not sick. The Woman is projecting her own illness onto this little Girl..

What an amazing and humbling adventure being a Shaman truly is..

My Son's Friend's Power Animal

8/23/05: A Journey to ascertain a friend of my Son's Power Animal. As I headed into the Spirit World, I found myself very quickly wading out from a Beach into shallow Caribbean Waters. There was an Island a short Distance from the Shore and my Lower World Guide, Crosses in Front, and I headed over to it. When we got there we found it covered in Blue Herons, all resting. As we moved up from the Waterline, we approached a golden Boulder, near which sat a Chipmunk. The Chipmunk came over to us and handed me a few Sunflower Seeds from its Mouth Pouch. We then saw the Tunnel to the Lower world in the Sand at the Base of the Boulder. We entered, and went through moist Sand. Soon we were in the Lower World, well to the right off where we usually arrive. As we settled in, a Dragonfly with yellow and gold Colors, who also had a lighting Tail like a Firefly, came and hovered a short Time in front of us. It flew off. We then moved over a short bit and came to rest upon a purple Stone whose Fragrance was of Lilacs. We then waited. Shortly, a large Elephant came over from the left, with a Tiger walking beside. They appeared to be friendly with one another. Just as suddenly, a baby Kangaroo bounced in from the right and landed right in front of us. He seemed quite content to wait there, and I began to get the impression this was Adam’s PA. The Elephant then picked up the Roo with its Trunk and held it over its Mouth as if it was going to eat the baby. A big Smile crossed both the Elephant’s and Tiger’s Faces. The Elephant then put the Kangaroo back down. The Elephant and Tiger then left. We then watched as the baby Kangaroo began bounding all over the Place. It jumped to a great Height and came back down to us with an Apple. The Dragon/Firefly then returned and landed a brief Moment on the Kangaroo’s Head. The Roo then began bouncing across the Lake before us, never once sinking into the Water. We then collected the Roo and came back up the Tunnel, crossed the Lagoon back onto the original Beach. From there, I thanked my Guide and returned to the Room.

Kangaroo is the Power Animal for the Friend. See the attached write-up for the Spirit Energies supplied by the Helper who comes as Kangaroo. The basic Medicine of Kangaroo is: Time to move forward and not back. Kangaroo Medicine asks the following questions: Are we not moving forward? Do we need to go ahead, even if it seems premature? Are we refusing to disconnect from the things of childhood? Are we heeding previous experiences? Are we trying to go in reverse when forward is the only way to go? Are we nursing what we have given birth to? Do we need to balance our creative activities? Are we staying grounded? Are we giving up too easily?

Explanation: Power Animals are really Spirit Beings who come to enhance existent or totally supply the qualities of the Animal form they pick to the human they are assigned to.

Other Notes: There were many Totem Plants/Animals in this Journey as well. Here are some key indicators they supply:

Heron speaks to aggressive self-reliance and self-determination. The fact there were so many Herons on the Island means Adam has these qualities in spades. However, they were all at rest, so Adam needs to crank these up to a higher energy level.

The gold Boulder speaks of Wealth/Security as a main goal for Adam. However, these wishes need to remain grounded in reality.

Sunflower Seeds must be important to Adam’s Diet. He should look into eating them on a regular basis. Also, Sunflower Medicine speaks to times of happiness and well-being, as well as strong healing energy.

Chipmunk Medicine speaks to valuing the treasures of the Earth, storing carefully those things you value, and of balancing work and play.

Firefly speaks to Spiritual awakening and Hope. Spiritual gifts are awakening, flickering within. Positive hope is a critical component to fulfillment and accomplishment. Firefly also warns to be sure that those around us are not mimicking what is true rather than what we hope to hear. Are we focusing on the wrong path or working with the wrong people? We may be letting others’ negative opinions crush our creativity. Dragonfly speaks of the power of light. Life is never quite as it appears, but is always filled with more light and color. Dragonfly helps you see through your illusions and allow your own light to shine forth. It brings the brightness of transformation and the wonder of colorful new vision.

Lilac speaks to the balance of Spirit and Intellect. It announces that contact with Spirit is imminent. The fact we smelled Lilac just before Roo showed up strengthen the fact Roo is the Power Animal for Adam. Adam should attach himself fondly to Lilacs in order to keep that feeling of spirit arrival fresh and alive.

The sort of contrary elements presented by Elephant and Tiger add up as follows. Adam must have a bit of a contrary relationship with royalty, ancestry and/or societal norms (part of Elephant Medicine). These forces tend to try to tie him up. Tiger speaks to Passion, Power, Devotion and Sensuality. The fact this Medicine also showed up in the contrary means Adam may be suppressing these wonderful qualities in his own Life. He should turn them loose and let them run across the steppes of his life.

Finally, Yellow speaks to Mental Activity, Intellectual Power and Awakening, qualities already brought out in parts of he above discussions. Gold peaks to strengthening and amplifying..again brought out earlier.

9/3: Adam drew me a fantastic pencil sketch of the Lower World Animal Visits, as a thank you. Here is a young Man who used his Talents to honor my Work for him. I am completely honored in return, although the Honor belongs to my Helpers. The Sketch will hang in my Shaman's Altar room from here on out.

Saving a Mother from a Fated Death

8/2/05: This is an amazing Moment. I got home very early from Work, as I had decided not to put up any “tomorrow” Mail and instead leave immediately. Within 2 minutes of my getting Home, a girl Friend of my Son's drove up. I told her my son wasn’t home, but she said she had come to talk to me, not him. I invited her in, and she told me of a remarkable Dream she had had a few Nights ago. This was a very clear and lucid Dream, and she recalled it in very great detail. She even said she woke up a few times and had gone right back into it. This reminded me very much of my own Shamanic Dream, and I knew it was indeed a very important and powerful Message. In her Dream, She had received a Call from a Woman whose name began with a “J” (I immediately thought of her Aunt, the deceased twin Sister), saying the Girl’s Mother had died in a Car Crash. The rest of this very long Dream involved the Girl racing to a Hospital and asking many People, on many Floors, where her Mother was. Some said she was “upstairs somewhere”, but no-one could or would tell her exactly where. She even checked out a Body Bag. The end of the Dream showed her in the Car hugging her Mom from behind her Seat, and then watching as her Mom and her Car went unsteadily down the road. The whole Time I was listening to the Girl, I was thinking to myself, “Man, this is real. Her Mom really is going to die.” I was very concerned, and was determined to act immediately, even though I had had no Plans to do anything Shamanically after a very rough Morning. I told the Girl to come back in about a half Hour, and since my Son had just come home, she went off with him. I went downstairs and prepared as always. I then took out my Pendulum and as always held it well above the Sacred Flame, the Singularity where all Matter and Energy meet, and all in knowable. I asked, is the Mom really going to die? Answer: Yes. I shook my Head in great Concern. I then asked, can I intervene to prevent it. It seemed like a long Time, but within 10 seconds the answer came: Yes. “All RIGHT!” I said to myself, and was very soon thereafter off into the Journey to erase this Future.

As the Journey began, My Upper World Guide, Owl, was sitting in a Tree. It was quite Dark, and it was raining..but raining Blood. Owl was dripping wet with it, and soon so was I. As we looked above us, we saw a Tunnel of Lightning forming..the Tunnel to the Upper World. We both zoomed up the Tunnel together, and as we did so, I caught a fleeting Image of the Mom lying dead on the Ground, having been ejected from her Vehicle. We then reached the Upper World. I was in a small Room, a bit like a small offshoot Area in a Museum. On the Floor was a Fork of Light, with several Prongs. The right-most one had a big Red Dot cutting it short. I knew this was a Representation of the possible Futures for the Mom, and that the one with the Red Dot was the one where she would be killed. The straight line of the Fork was her Life until now. I went to the Prong with the Red Dot and checked it out. The date was Oct 19, 2006. It was a wet Evening, with lots of wet Leaves on the road. The Mom had lost control on them and was ejected, having not been wearing her Seatbelt. I then worked to try to change this, and within Seconds a Group of Little People came from the Woods and swept the Leaves away and dried the Roadway. They then consecrated the Area with Serjiim, a combination of Salt, Sand and Rice used by Shamans to protect People. The Area was sparkling with Rainbow Specks when all was done. The Accident had been erased from Future Time. The Scene then shifted. I was in a Kitchen, I think at the Mom’s House but maybe not. We were trying to move a large and very-well finished Table. The Table had feet sticking out looking somewhat like a Fox’s(?). I then saw a Scene in perhaps an upper Room where a Man was holding a Gun very near the Mom’s Back. The Gun was firing, and grazing her Skin so slightly that it merely made a slight, temporary Indent. Owl and I then returned through the Tunnel after verifying the Prong with the Red Dot was gone. As we went down the Tunnel, the Lightning was gone..there was only Smoke now. We landed in a beautiful, sunlit Meadow, lush with Flowers. All signs of Blood were gone, save for a distant black Cloud on the Horizon, moving away, from which the Blood was falling. I thanked Owl and was back.

I then took out my Pendulum and asked if the Death had indeed been erased from Time. I got a yes. Yeehah!

I then made up a mix of Serjiim for the Girl to give to her Mother. The Mom should sprinkle some around her Car, and keep the rest safely hidden away until Oct 2006 passes. I also asked the Girl if there were Guns in her House. She said yes, so I told her that her Mom should not be anywhere near when the Guns are being cleaned. Her Dad should also check each one to make sure there in not an unexploded Shell still in the chamber.

As I was finishing up, I began thinking. Why did the deceased Sister alert my Son's Friend so far in advance? It made no sense to use her now, unless..unless.. And I thought back to a journey I did for the Girl’s Grandmother last week, in a which a Woman with Stringy dark Hair was lying in a Coffin with a Death Date of September of this Year. Omigod, I thought. Was that the Girl? Is this why the deceased Aunt alerted me through her so soon, so I would be focusing on Death and the Girl at the same Time? So I took my Pendulum and again asked. At first I asked if anyone is the Girl’s immediate Family was the one in the Coffin. I got a No. I then asked the key Question..is it the Girl? I got a Yes. Filled with Dread, I then asked if I could intervene in this Matter. Talk about Eternities. But after 10 seconds or so, I got my Answer. YES! What a Relief! If it had been No, I would have been unable to do anything or tell anyone. I would have had to live with the impending Disaster. Shamans are not allowed to violate another’s Sacred Path. Perhaps the Girl might have asked me about it in the next Month so I COULD act..but who knows. But as it was, I was now in position to work with the Spirits to save a second Life in less than an Hour! The results are in the next Journey write-up, not posted here..but I was able to erase a scene to occur in September of this year where the Girl was killed in a Lightning Strike.

This is the message I got afterwards from the Mom:

“Hi, Wow!!! My Daughter told me everything you had told her!
She told me of her dream yesterday, and it was so odd that she remembered everything, she had no laps in memory. I remember feeling so sad for some reason, when she was telling me all this, I was trying not to let her see how upsetting it was for me, but ya, know deep down, I knew this was to actually happen to me!
Then when she told me about her, in the shower during a lighting storm, how frightening, I’ve always told them to never take a shower or bath during a thunder storm!!
When you had told me the info about a person in a coffin with the dark hair, I first thought of my Daughter!! That was another feeling I had deep down inside, and I had that same terribly sad feeling it was her.
I’m so happy that she happened to come by, and she told you of all this, she didn’t tell me she was going to speak to you. Thank you for the baggy with the rice, etc. I will do as you said; I can’t say Thank You enough for your insight and all the help and guidance. I will email you again on this. God Bless You!"

A day or two later came this reply as well: "How disturbing all of this has been and how joyous the ending! My Daughter and I are forever grateful for your gift!
I have to tell you, I was so terribly sad to hear of all this, and so glad that my Daughter had brought her (dream) Journey, to your attention, with all this info we were so happy to hear how you and your helpers have saved us from these tragic events. I sprinkled the Serjiim on the 4 corners of my car, and have saved the rest as requested, no one was home when I did it and I didn’t see any neighbors out at that time.
How interesting about the gun in the house. My husband does have one, a muzzle loader gun that he wants to fire. He said you can’t just pull the trigger to fire it, apparently a muzzle loader rifle works a bit differently, I can’t say, I don’t know guns, we have many in the house, but ALL are empty and put away and with ammo in a different location, all except the Muzzle loader rifle. I will put that gun in a hiding place until he sets out to empty it, and to do that he has to fire it, so he’s been meaning to take it up to his brothers house and fire the remaining gun powder out! I’m gonna put the pressure on about that!
We were just talking about this last week!!
I will be on top of that issue for obvious safety reasons, many thanks for your impute.
After reading of your Journeys for my Daughter and I, I do feel a LOT better knowing you have done all you could. I don’t even know if there’s any way to Thank You for all you’ve done, We are forever Grateful to you and your helpers!!!
Gratefully Yours"

Journey 200 - Visit with a Deceased Mom

5/8/05: A Journey to visit with a Mother, who died within the past two years, on Mother’s Day, on her Daughter's request. As is always the case with visiting the Deceased, I asked permission first. I opened Sacred Space, with my Rattle, lit the Sacred Candle and Smudged prior to this request. As usual, I then held the Crystal Pendulum well above the Candle and asked if it was allowed for me to visit with the Mom. I got a yes. What this means is that my visit with one of the 3 Soul Parts will not interfere with that part’s Spiritual Destiny. I was denied a visit with someone’s deceased Brother recently for that same reason. Therefore I was quite pleased for the Daughter's sake to get that yes. So I placed the Drum Loop on and was off. I had no idea which World we would be going into, so I waited. I very soon found myself on top of a medium-sized Hill, sunny and covered with Flowers and Plants. The Sky was deep blue and had white puffy Clouds floating by. The Breeze was warm and intoxicating. It was the most splendid of Spring scenes, like the perfect spring Day. And then a Queen Bee came by and flew around me a few times. She then stopped right in front of me, as if waiting for me to follow. As I stood and walked toward her, she led me on. Off in the distance I saw a Woman sitting alone. I looked to my right and my Lower World Guide, Crosses in Front, was slithering along through the Grass with me. High above me, my Upper World Guide, Owl, was flying along. But within a few seconds, I came abruptly to a very high Cliff edge. We just kept right on walking through the Air, with no tendency to fall whatsoever. I looked down and well below was a River. It was colored in many bright Hues, and even the Sunlight reflected back in colors. I realized we were over the River that separates this Life from the Life our Earth Souls take on after Death. So we were staying in the Middle World. This meant we would be visiting with Mom’s Suld, or Earth, Soul. We got to the other side and I approached the Woman, young and lovely, sitting on a Log. She had a small collection of Pussy Willows in front of her, and as I looked around I noticed we were in a grove of them. I went up to her and looked at the ground as I spoke, in humble Averting of the Eyes. She told me not to avert, but rather look up at the Sky, and in particular, the Sun. I did so, and noticed the Moon as a black Orb just off-center of the Sun. I could see both at the same time. Today was the New Moon, and so I was witnessing a sight we don’t see on this side of the River..the New Moon as a shiny, black Circle superimposed on the Sun. As I stared at the Sacred Combo, a golden heart formed in a rope of Mana, looking like a Christmas garland, around the two orbs. I then looked back at Mom. She handed me a pair of wooden Knitting Needles, the color of Oak, with two black Caps on each of the non-point ends. These were obviously a Gift to her Daughter. She then began to speak. She told me she was very happy as a soon-to-be Nature Spirit. She told me that when she finishes up being her Earth Soul, her Spirit Energy will go happily and gratefully into the Blue Heron Clan. I then asked her if she knew of the events surrounding her Children. She said yes, and kept referring to them as the Troubles. She said she visits occasionally, and has seen what is going on. She said she was sad that most of the Children were so focused on material gain. She wished they could see the Truth that lies behind the Façade of what they call Reality. She told me she was proudest of this Daughter, for she is closest to knowing the Truth about what is really Important. She told me she is the most Spiritually connected of all her children. She said she has been feisty and admirable all her Life, and she has enjoyed watching her progress in that combination of strength and gentleness that so well defines the well-adjusted Human Woman. She then told me something remarkable. She said that the day she passed, she merged quickly and for a short time with her Daughter. She left within her the Key to the Spirit World. She said it is still there, and when she finds it and opens that Door, the same Beauty and warm Breezes that I experienced at the start of this Journey will pour through that opened Door and sweep all her worries and cares away..and she will have lasting Peace. I then saw her handling an Amulet or Locket that was shaped as a Heart, but for some reason came on very strongly to me as being associated with or even made/filled with Apple. She then told me that she will visit her Daughter on occasion as a Blue Heron. At one point she will leave a Feather for her. It will be mainly grayish with blue fringe. It will be unmistakable, and the Daughter will immediately recognize it as the gift from her Mom. She then leaned forward and showed me her Necklace. It was a very thin chain, of Silver, and had a small, square Onyx as its charm. She then asked if she could merge with me for a few seconds. I said it was fine. I found myself back in my bedroom, feeling the Mom breathing in and out deeply. She said she found it so wonderful to feel that Air rushing in and out of lungs again. She told me her Daughter must do likewise, and gain that tremendous feeling of the Honor involved in being in her Body still. She then left my Body and we were both back at her site. I felt it was time to take my leave and go back across the River. Just as I was turning to leave, the Call Back sounded..so I had to beat feet back. I went from the Hill back to my Yard, and then came back into the Bedroom. I lay on the floor to ground myself fully. I thanked the Helpers and the Mom for the wonderful experience.

Notes: The Bee is a reminder to extract the Honey of Life and to make our Lives fertile while the Sun shines. It reminds us that no matter how great the Dream there is the promise of fulfillment if we pursue it. The Elixir of Life is as sweet as Honey, and we can drink of it if we just pursue our Dreams.

5/9/05: While out and about today, a Queen Bee came and stopped right in front of me, exactly as in this Journey. Here was the Spiritual manifested into the physical. I knew the Mom had sent this Bee, or was this Bee. And, I smiled broadly as I said hello.

I never knew there was a River of Spirit Energy separating the Souls here from the Earth Souls “there.” It is obviously easily crossed, but the Great Spirit has seen fit to separate the two existences..more to keep the Living here than to prevent the Passed Ones from coming here, though.

Blue Heron symbolizes the Great Spirit, among other things. It also symbolizes Aggressive Self-Determination and Self-Reliance.

Journey 199 - Two Power Animals Retrieved

4/29/05: The first of two Journeys, the first for a Man. After my usual preparations,. I found myself standing in a grassy area at Night. The surface of the Earth seemed to be undulating around and ahead of me, as if Ribbons in the Wind. My Lower World Guide, Crosses in Front, arrived in the form of Snake, but wearing Mexican regalia. She then turned into her human Spirit form and continued dancing, as if to a Mexican beat. We began walking across/through the undulating Ground, and soon came to an opening. It had the look of an old mine entrance. Colored paper lights were strung across the top. We went in, realizing this was the Tunnel to the Lower World entrance. As we went further in, the Tunnel went from being a dirt mine shaft to a corrugated metal tunnel. We emerged and found ourselves in my usual Power-Animal-search area of the Lower World. But it was completely black, save for a large and well-lit semi-Rainbow off to our left and up the side of a mountain. It seemed to be sticking out of the side. There was a shower occurring to produce the Rainbow, but there were no Clouds. Moreover, there were no artificial Lights, either. The whole scene seemed to be lit from within, as if from its own Power. Suddenly, from beneath the brilliant Rainbow arc and through the curtain of light Rain came a Condor. It flew right over us and dropped some white excrement on us. We found this to be an honor of some sort. But it also convinced us to move up into the Rain and wash ourselves off. We did so. On the other side of the Rain curtain we saw a beautiful young Woman, sitting on a Rock protrusion. As we got near, she turned into a large Fish and jumped off into a Pond far below. She had been either a Bass or a Rainbow Trout. We then waited, for we had yet to see any Animal that was acting as a Power Animal for the Man. We saw a Goat above us, a Mountain Lion in the distance, but neither had any interest is us. Eagle and Owl, my two other main Guides, then flew in to where we were standing, to help increase our Windhorse. Then, in the Sky ahead of us, a scene appeared. A bunch of wild Horses were running along a hillside. One pulled out of the flow and came over to us. It was a Red Horse, with bright green eyes, and when it reared up, it revealed a yellow belly. It came right up to me and licked the palm of my hand. I knew we had found the Power Animal. The scene then shifted. I saw a young Girl sitting in a highchair in a kitchen. The young Girl turned into a young Boy. It was the Man when young. He got down and went to a lower cupboard and pulled out a bunch of pots and pans. He liked the shine and the weight. I then saw that he loved to watch shows and read books involving horses..Black Beauty, Lassie? I then saw several scenes involving a grown-up and fun-loving Man in which real horsepower is involved..racing cars, powerboats, etc. In another scene shift, I then saw a small white Dog running around a yard with its own leash in its mouth. We were trying to catch it but it kept dodging us. This was the end of the imagery flow. We then started tracing our way back from the Lower World. When we got back to the beginning, Crosses resumed her Mexican dancing and presumably went back to the party she had come from. The Call Back then sounded and I thanked my Guides and returned to the room.

Horse represents travel, power and freedom. It symbolizes movement, travel, sexual desires. It encourages you to ride into new directions to discover freedom and power. It asks: are you too constricted, or are those around you? The red color indicates stimulation, an awakening of the life force. Red is warming and activating. It stimulates deep passions..too much red can mean high blood pressure. See the attached readout for the full story on Horse Medicine.

Yellow implies intellectual activity, awakening and ability. It serves as a strong antidepressant. It awakens confidence, optimism and enthusiasm for life..but too much creates anxiety.

Green reflects calming, balancing, growth. It increases compassion. It soothes the nervous system. Green awakens friendliness, hope, faith and peace. I stimulates growth. It cancels out red’s effects. Never use green around cancerous growths, though.

The girl/boy transformation seems to imply that the Man is well-balanced in his male-female Energy regime. He would be equally comfortable with both sexes, and understands both perspectives.

Dog stands for loyalty and protection. The fact the Dog in the Journey is running around with its own leash in its mouth implies the Man may have let control of these two elements out of his control a bit. Loyalty given blindly, and protection from another, can be less than adequate, and a disloyalty to ones own Power.

Journey 2 was for a Woman. This one took of into a completely different direction, as is to be expected. I was very small, and standing in some snow. Snow was falling all around me, and as I looked up I could see each flake was individually colored. Snake then moved in from the distance ahead of me, and was very large, telling me I was very small. We looked off into a distant stock of Trees and saw a frosted yellow Sun hanging low just beyond the Trees. We headed for it, assuming it was the Tunnel entrance. I, being so small, hitched a rode on Crosses’s back. As we passed the Tree stand and approached the Sun, the Earth fell quickly away. I had the sense of flying and falling at the same time. We went into the Sun and passed through a frosted glass Tunnel, lit white-yellow light. When we emerged, we were back in the Lower World. But we were standing adjacent to a Tropical Beach! Up in a nearby Tree sat a Parrot or Cockatoo. While it was full of color, I remember Red, Orange and Blue standing out. It flew down and landed on my right arm, grasping me firmly but not painfully with its large talons. This was the Woman’s Power Animal, and an unusual choice. Suddenly we were atop an Aztec Stone Monument on the form of a large Bird. The two wings stretched out to either side of us. We went up and up, and soon came into a Cloud deck. When there, the scene shifted. I saw the Woman lying on her bed, the daylight streaming in through a single window. She read for a while, but then lay on her stomach, as if bored. She then hopped off the bed and began to head out the door, but stopped in the bathroom first. She turned on the water and a black ribbon of water came out. She then headed out. The scene shifted and I saw her working somewhere in complete contentment for a while. Nothing stood out about this scene, and my remembrance is quite murky. Apparently she fit right in where she was. This was the near end of the Journey..except as we were coming back, we stopped to see the Woman standing under an Apple Tree at night, eating a donut and sipping from a cup of coffee.

Parrots/Macaws characteristics include:

Use of language
Mockery/mimicking
Pair bonding
Brings rain*
Guidance and wisdom to think before speaking

*Rain is a Feminine element, the gift of the emotions.

The Frosted-Glass Tunnel, combined with the snow scene at the beginning, implies something is frozen out or not totally clear in her Life. The multicolored snowflakes, though, seemed to suggest the appearance not soon afterwards of the very colorful Macaw at the exit from the Tunnel. Color is obviously big in her life.

Parrot/Macaw is the Bird of the Sun. Its Feathers can be used as Healing Sticks to invoke the Sun’s Power. The Parrot is a wonderful Teacher of the Power of Colors, and people with Parrot Medicine should study how to use Colors for Healing and Health. Parrots’ mimicking of humans represents a link between Man and Bird..it encourages diplomacy. See the attached Parrot readout for full explanations.

The huge Stone Bird Column of Aztec origin indicates that a trip to the Andes might help make a connection that brings Life Full-Circle to the Woman. Somehow the actual visit will tie in with her youth..and voila!

The black water in her bathroom indicates the water she drank as a child was full of bad elements. She should consider a detoxification regime at regular intervals.

The Apple Tree scene implies Apple may be a useful addition to the diet..versus too much sugar and caffeine!! It also recommends against heavy snacking at night.

Red is discussed above. Blue means relaxation, antiseptic, cooling. It awakens intuition and eases loneliness. It awakens artistic expression and creativity, and is very effective when mixed with the warm colors, as on the Macaw. Orange represents joy, wisdom and creativity It stimulates feelings of socialness. It is tied to our emotional health and the muscular system.

Random notes from the Friend who brought the Man and Woman to me. She reports both PAs are “perfect” for the Man and Woman. They both love Mexico! The Woman is an artist and deals with colors all the time. The Man loves the concept of horses, and in fact owned a Red horse when he was younger! The Woman loves coffee and sweets, and if I recall right, had an Apple Tree farm, or lived on one. Bottom line: the Friend thought both Journeys were right on the mark.

Journey 198 - Soul Retrieval

This relates to Journey 184

4/24/05: A Soul Retrieval Journey taken for a woman, as instructed during the prior Journey (#166) I did for her, during which her Soul Piece asked to be retrieved during the next Full Moon. The latter occurred this morning at 6:06 AM, and I performed the Journey between 6:35 and 6:45 AM. Since my faimly were in my room, I transferred my operations to the Family Room. I lit the Sacred Candle, lit a bit of Sage to cleanse the area, and began the Drumming Loop. I did not Rattle Sacred Space into place beforehand as I did not want to wake anyone up. However, as soon as the Journey was to begin, I had already resolved to do it then.

As I went into the Journey using my CD Drum Loop, I was soon at a small Fire in daylight. The open-field area was sprinkled with Grasses and small Bushes. Some Tree stands were off in the distance. Eagle Claw, my upper World Guide, was with me. Above, the Full Moon sat incredibly large. I’d guess it was at least 10 times bigger than normal..it looked very close, taking up a good part of quadrant of that part of the Sky, from near-horizon to about 60% of the way up to vertical. I took my Rattle and brought Sacred Space into place by honoring the Four Directions, Father Sky and Mother Earth, with special thanks to Grandmother Moon for her obvious willingness to help. Eagle Claw and I then joined Hands and danced around the Fire, one on either side and facing each other, arms outstretched across the heat. I chanted as we danced, something like, “Thank you, Grandmother Moon, for coming to us. Thank you for helping retrieve the Woman's Soul Piece.” The scene suddenly shifted. We were back at the place in the first Journey where the Woman was sitting outside a cabin at night, with the Moon shining down on her through tall Trees. Eagle Claw and I went and stood behind her, one on either side. I looked down for a second..the Full Moon, crystal clear and in full 3-dimension, was now resting right at the surface of my Mirror! How marvelous to see it there, shrunk to just fit within my Mirror! Within a few seconds, the Woman's Soul Piece came toward us from along this side of the River Bank (she had been across the River during the prior Journey). She came right up to me and then went past. She was standing in the Moonlight to our left, and began to speak. “There is much to atone for,” she said. She repeated this several times. Then she said that when she returned to her home (the Woman's Body), the Woman would feel a fullness, a peace, a centeredness, a calm and a joy she had not known since the day her Soul Part fled her body. This would give her a profound new Strength for dealing with her Life. She could now drop the weight of all that needed atoning for..it was no longer hers to carry around. The Soul Part then came up to me and hugged me in thanks. I then asked for specific instructions on transferring her back to the Woman. She told me to anoint the Stick I had chosen to house her with my Arshaan liquid. I was to draw onto the Stick the symbol of the wave the Woman had seen in her own Dreams. I was then to place the Stick on the Mirror surface along with my Meteorite Piece (the Bringer of Spirit) and the large Moqui Ball (Bringer of Life). I later got the sense to also place a picture of the Moon on top of the Mirror first, to physically symbolize the Moon sitting within the Mirror. I was then to chant “Hurai!” nine times while running my finger clockwise around this assemblage. I was then to leave it there for a while. When I returned, I was to Smudge the pieces, re-anoint the Stick with Arshaan, and then finish with another round of 9 “Hurais!” The Soul Part would then be within the Stick. The scene then shifted. I was standing on the Mirror surface. I watched as the Woman, younger, sank slowly into its Surface. As she did so, facing me, she had an Apple in her hand. The scene shifted again. I saw her throw an Apple into a wooded area, and then against the window of a tall Barn. I was then back on the Mirror to watch the rest of her Soul Piece sink into it. The scene then shifted again. I was sitting on the Moon with the Soul Peice. She was very happy to be there. The view of the Earth and Stars was phenomenal. She turned to me and told me to remind the Woman to be like the Full Moon..provider of gentle Comfort and soft Light, yet very strong and firmly placed within her own Sky. The Moon is the great provider of tidal forces. The Journey ended as the Call Back Drumming persisted. I then held the Mirror over the Flame to provide the warmth of the gol (the center of all existence) for the Soul Piece as she sat on the Moon waiting. The Woman, when she gets the Stick, will place it first over her Heart, pointing straight out, and feel her Soul Piece flow back into her. She will then place the Stick on top of her head, pointing up, and likewise feel the Restoration. Her Soul Piece will then be back.

Notes: As I was drawing the symbol on the Stick a bit later, much to my delight, I found the same symbol was already on the Stick in perfect replication! It points in the exact opposite direction on the same side, indicating extraordinary balance coming to the Woman from this Restoration. This meant my choice of Sticks had been guided by the Helpers.

After a few hours, I placed my Hand over the Mirror with the Stick and other objects. I was able to view the Soul Piece sitting on a large log next to a running Stream. Sunlight was pouting down on her as she sat in the clearing of a wooded area. She was dangling her feet in the Stream, and looked VERY content. The transfer from the Moon to the Stick has been completed. I shall finish the blessing later today, though.

I followed instructions this evening and completed the Transfer by re-anointing the Restoration Stick. I shall present it to the Woman ASAP, along with a picture of the Stick resting on the Moon-covered Shaman’s Mirror with the Moqui Marbles (150 million years old and tools of SW American Native American Shamans for thousands of years) and the Meteorite piece found in eastern Siberia.

4/25: I told the Woman of her Soul Piece sitting on the log and dangling her feet in the water, and she told me that was her all-time favorite thing in the world to do. Another great correlation by the Helpers.

Journey 197 - A Man and his Sons

4/22/05: A Journey to investigate the relationship a Man with share with his two sons in the future. After the usual preparations, I was off. Immediately I saw a Christmas Tree standing in a living room, in a corner next to a window. I was in the Tree, and my Upper World Guide Owl was sitting beside me..we were both quite small. I looked down to see two young Boys staring up at the Tree and really enjoying it. These Boys than ran up some stairs on the opposite side of the room. I then saw the Man come down and place gifts around the Tree base. Two gifts that stood out..a tricycle and a building block set. The scene then shifted to the next day, where the boys were opening their gifts. But the Man, while enjoying them, was feeling a bit lonely and lacking, as he really wished he could be sharing this tremendous scene with a partner with whom he was Soul-mated. Then, the Star atop the Tree burst into a small point of brilliant white Light. It was a Tunnel through which Owl and I could travel into the Future. We zipped into the Tunnel, and as we emerged at the other I saw a familiar sight from prior Time-related Journeys. The Wheel of Time for this particular Universe we are now in was spinning above us, a huge green wheel made of innumerable stands of green night representing all the occurrences in Time. A white dot represented the Now, while a thin strip of red further back was the scene we had just come from. The Future was further ahead on the wheel, in blue, and we headed into that Channel. I saw the Sports Bar at Newmarket! The Man was playing pool inside. He was alone. He decided he was done and stepped outside. But instead of seeing the parking lot, he had moved into a large and lush Valley, with crisp air and numerous rolling hills adorned with many different Plants and small Trees. Down the Hill from where he stood was a huge Deer with a large set of Antlers. The Deer was staring at the Man as it ate. Then, 10s of butterflies floated quickly in and all landed on the Antlers, covering them completely. The Day then switched instantly to Night. All was black except for the Deer, who stood there eating outlined in a soft blue glow. The Man spoke to his Sons, more fully grown now, who had appeared at his side. He asked them if they could see that, and what did they think it meant. They told him that it was a sign that he was to transform himself into a more joyful place (the Butterflies) and adopt a more gentle but alert stance in Life (the Deer). Deer are the great providers, said the sons..they provide food and clothing and bone..but are widely revered for their quickness and calm Spirits. The scene then lit up again. It was still Night, but off on top of a distant Hill I saw the Man with a Woman by his side and two smaller children. I was unable to determine if these two children were the Man’s current boys or two additional children. They were staring at a Christmas Tree! Then, the Sky suddenly turned a blood red. The redness came down and soaked into the Ground. All became yellow and dry, lifeless. I then saw a large white Dog with black spots running quickly around the nearest hillside, barking and darting. I then saw the Man’s face drift in from my right. He appeared to be either asleep or perhaps even dead. Suddenly the talons of a tremendously large Eagle plopped down onto the hillside. The entire scene began to shrink as I was pulled up and away from it. It soon fit onto a branch of a Tree upon which this Eagle had landed. I watched as he sat there. The scene then shut down, and on my Visual Cortex I saw a Woman’s face, round with dark eyes against her white skin. This woman then shifted into a much older woman wearing a head covering. Two other fleeting scenes presented themselves..I saw the Man shopping with his fully grown boys..and I saw one of them pitching a low and inside strike at a local ball field. The Call Back then sounded and I returned as I had come in, thanking my Guide for his Help.

Notes: Remember that sometimes imagery is presented as metaphors as opposed to actual places or events.

The Christmas morning and Deer Scenes speak for themselves. The red blood from the Sky tells me that the Man may contract a blood disease at some time that if left unchecked may cause him to lose his life prematurely. This is something he should watch out for. However, I saw him with his boys grown, so I believe he still has plenty of time.

The black and white dog at the end of the blood scene could have many interpretations, including color, actions and dog virtues. Dog of course represents unconditional love and loyalty, as well as the ability to fearlessly attack perceived enemies. This dog was obviously coming against the presence of Death. This scene may have significance for the Man later in life.

The arrival of the Eagle to contract the scene into a Tree Branch gives me pause. Eagle is the high Spirit Bird, so obviously the entire lesson set of that scene has a high Spiritual Source. The branch may represent the branch of this Life of the Man’s..he has a much higher Spiritual oversight than he may know or believe.

The woman towards the end may be a life partner, or may be a Spirit Helper. More than likely she is or will be both..

Journey 196 - The Skull Dream

4/20/05: A journey to investigate a Dream Tuecke's (see recent Journeys) new Body had a short time ago. In her words:

“I was also wondering if you could look into this dream I had this morning. I was supposedly far away from home. Not sure where. There were others in my dream I do not know who they were. They killed someone and I buried the skull. These people wanted to make sure that the remains could not be found. Sorry, this is so vivid. But, why would I be burying someone's skull? That is all I remember from this part of the dream. Then the dream jumped to my friends house that I have been friends with since High School. I felt like something was wrong there. I also sensed that her husband might be pissed off about something that has to do with me. But, don't know what.

The weird thing is, my husband told me yesterday that he saw a crow in the middle of our back yard looking for food. Can you find out what all this means?”

I agreed to check it out, and after opening Sacred Space and Smudging, I headed out into the Journey. I found myself sitting rather far up in a Tree with no Leaves. Below me was a narrow dead-end Road with a deserted 2-story House (with large Attic making a 3rd level) to my left of center. It was totally dark, like the Night around me, save for a single Street Light to my right, several hundred feet down the road away from the end. Owl then arrived. He was glowing red on his left side, green on his right..his head was black. He landed beside me. We decided to go into this House and see what was up. I became Hawk, and my colors became the mirror opposite of Owl’s. We merged as one on the way down, and became invisible. We flew into the 2nd story Window nearest us. We were inside a very dark and old Bedroom. No sign of Life. But we could see a trail of Footprints going down the Steps..the Prints were a deep red, as if of the memory of Blood. We went down into the Cellar. There we found a very elderly Man, large framed but very tired and sweaty, slowly digging up an old Skeleton. The death of this buried person must have occurred in the Bedroom. No cause was apparent. The scene then shifted out to the Field beyond a stock of Trees just beyond the edge of the dead end Road. There I saw the Girl burying the Skull of her Dream. I got the impression the People standing around this scene were members of the old Man’s Family. They were claiming they were covering up a Crime of his, he was too old and mentally insufficient to have to pay now. He had apparently been off his rocker for a good part of his Life, and was even more so now. By now there was a party in the upstairs of this House, and we were suddenly inside too. I saw the Man in the Dream disapproving of Helen’s actions. He seemed to be referring to her burying the Skull, but that was an impression, not made clear. At this point I reviewed the Journey to this point. I failed to see the meaning in it. Who was the Person who was killed? Why was the Girl involved at all..she was not a family member. What was in it for her..was she under a threat? I didn’t see anything threatening. There seemed no lesson here..just more detail. I asked Owl. We went back into the Tree, and suddenly I saw a strong Breeze blow in with the Light of Day. The Light and Wind swept away the people standing near the burial site. I was then told..this whole thing is a metaphor for the Girl burying herself! The family members were actually Spirit Helpers of hers. She was burying her Fear of Death. I saw the scene of the House and field suddenly become part of a toy Train Table (ala the movie Beetle Juice). I was then taken back in time to when the Girl was very young. There was a Train incident that put the recognition of Death into her for the first time. I saw several options: she was almost hit; someone close to her was almost hit; or someone may have been killed. It wasn’t clear. Then I was told that the disproving Husband signaled that by overcoming Death on her walk into becoming a Shaman practitioner or beyond, some of her friends will not be happy with the changes in her. This was all I could get from this Journey..the Call Back Drumming brought me home.

Some notes for interpretative value: Red is the color of the Base, or Survival, Chakra. Green is the color of the Heart Chakra. Black represents the night, or the opposing Forces. Taken in sum, one sees a battle going on within the Girl concerning survival of her Heart’s longings, and this battle is now in full swing “in the dead of night.” There may, of course, also be some Christmas connection. The fact the Journey began with a deserted house at the end of a dead-end road in the middle of the night implies the depths of abandonment and loneliness that may be buried in her depths. Her burying her own Skull is an attempt to break the hold these forces have on her, and the warm light that resulted from her actions adds credence. The appearance of the movie Beetle Juice was odd, but did lead to the important train incident. Perhaps the year of its release has something to do with (1988).

The Crow pecking in the middle of the yard, to me, implies that the burying of the Skull was the central theme of this Dream..the lesson intended. To be an effective Shaman, one must deal with one’s own Death until it no longer means anything. I have scene myself killed and dismembered any number of times, only to find I was still alive outside my Body. So I have reached that point of no fear. This was even the central tenet of the Shaman Jesus’ message: he came to overcome death. I feel this attempt to begin the processing of overcoming that Fear was the main point of this Dream.

Here was her reply: "
A lot of things that you mentioned are many things that have happened or somewhat are happening right now. The part about the dead-end road with a field, my friend from High School grew up on a dead-end road with a big field next to her house and we hung out there a lot. Her husband who she is married to now also hung out there at that time, but he was only a friend at the time. Her husband apparently did not and I still think he does not like the way I do things and has said that I have an attitude. But, I have never had an attitude towards him so I don't understand why it would affect him. Like you said, you failed to see the meaning in it. So, I agree. He in the past has tried to get involved in my friendship with his wife. But, I would be here for many years trying to expain my long history with this friend. I also don't think the friendship will ever be the way I want it to be. I will expain it to you one day when we eventually meet. Also, my friend has had a lot of parties in that house including Christmas night get togethers every year until I got married. When that stoped don't think my friend liked it, but hey we all have to grow up sometime. She also has parties now. But, does not live in that house anymore. I am not sure who this dead man is either. But, my friend's father did die when she was young. So not sure if there is any connection.
The Beetle Juice movie mentioned, I had a dream about this movie in the past but have never seen the movie. Will have to rent sometime. But, I went online to read a little bit about the movie. This movie sounds like it relates to my friendship with this friend. I met my friend in 1988, we were in the tenth grade at the time.

Not sure about the part below. I don't remember any of this happening. "There was a train incident that put the recognition of Death into her for the first time. I saw several options: she was almost hit; someone close to her was almost hit; or someone may have been killed. It wasn't clear."
Yes, I think I have some fears, but trying to change a lot of things in my life to overcome those fears. A lot of things have happened in my life in the past two years, which I have learned from. I also think, I have become a much stronger person. But, still sensitive. Hee, hee, hee.

Journey 195 - Friend's Kidnap Dream

4/18/05: A Journey taken to check on a disturbing dream a friend told me about today. Another friend invites her into his car, is all friendly..and then without warning locks the doors and tells the Woman he is going to kill her. She ends the Dream gouging his Eyes out. This was obviously full enough of Darkness to warrant my checking it out. As I went into the Journey, Owl and I were sitting in some Trees in a residential area..I got the sense it was the town where my friend lives. I saw a tall, black figure without any real form walking slowly along the sidewalk below. It would stop once in a while and stretch, and as it did so orange and red sparks would burst out of him. Owl looked at me and told me this was a Burhan, the most powerful of the negative Nature Spirits. I knew this type of Spirit would be hard to counteract. It has been attached to the Man, but was now moving near the Woman. Owl then told me to go into my Mirror and seek help from the Mirror Shaman, Utawa. I was suddenly floating along above a River, and there were Torches on the right side along the bank and among the Trees. I suddenly found my right Arm disintegrating into Atoms. The effect was spreading toward the rest of my Body, and I felt as if I could easily be consumed..and die. I began to seek assistance, and in a flash Utawa, looming hundreds of feet tall, came from around the rise ahead of me and took my left Arm, jerking me away from whatever it was that was attacking me. Utawa told me I had been attacked at random by a disintegrating spirit..just one of those random things that can kill you if it walks into you as this one did. Utawa then told me to use the Mirror to catch the Burhan by making him fall into it. I came back out of the mirror and Owl and I flew it down to the sidewalk a few steps ahead of the Burhan. It stopped just before it reached the Mirror and began to yowl. It had sensed the trap! So Owl and I pulled the Mirror up over his head and pulled it down the other side, like a huge tarp. We had the Burhan trapped. I was then suddenly in a boat on an ocean, the Mirror Surface transformed. The Burhan was floating ahead of me, its head bobbing in and out of the water. I asked it if it wished to transform itself into a positive spirit..I would then help save it. It said NO. Suddenly, a school of Dolphins came at it from the many compass points and grabbed the Burhan, swimming away with it underwater. Utawa then took me up to a high Cliff over the Ocean. I looked down and saw a fluorescent green Ribbon beneath the Surface, wiggling slowly along. The Ribbon, on close inspection, was made of millions of very tiny green Fish. This means the Burhan had been transformed to Goodness, and each of the Fish would spread this positive Energy to the Beings who consumed them. I then asked Utawa why the Burhan had been attached to the Man. Utawa said it was attracted to certain negative attitudes and feelings in him. It attached to the Woman since it always came to work with the Man, and he has had differing attitudes toward the Woman over the past months. Now there is no more danger to the Woman..the Burhan is gone. I was then back with Owl in the Trees of her Town. I looked up in the Sky and saw a huge Whirlpool of Light, very similar to the one that ended my Shamans Dream of several Years back. I then saw an Eagle floating in the center of the disc. The Whirlpool then sank down and went straight into my Mirror. It was a gift from Utawa..he told me I have earned this extra Light and Eagle..