Journey 196 - The Skull Dream

4/20/05: A journey to investigate a Dream Tuecke's (see recent Journeys) new Body had a short time ago. In her words:

“I was also wondering if you could look into this dream I had this morning. I was supposedly far away from home. Not sure where. There were others in my dream I do not know who they were. They killed someone and I buried the skull. These people wanted to make sure that the remains could not be found. Sorry, this is so vivid. But, why would I be burying someone's skull? That is all I remember from this part of the dream. Then the dream jumped to my friends house that I have been friends with since High School. I felt like something was wrong there. I also sensed that her husband might be pissed off about something that has to do with me. But, don't know what.

The weird thing is, my husband told me yesterday that he saw a crow in the middle of our back yard looking for food. Can you find out what all this means?”

I agreed to check it out, and after opening Sacred Space and Smudging, I headed out into the Journey. I found myself sitting rather far up in a Tree with no Leaves. Below me was a narrow dead-end Road with a deserted 2-story House (with large Attic making a 3rd level) to my left of center. It was totally dark, like the Night around me, save for a single Street Light to my right, several hundred feet down the road away from the end. Owl then arrived. He was glowing red on his left side, green on his right..his head was black. He landed beside me. We decided to go into this House and see what was up. I became Hawk, and my colors became the mirror opposite of Owl’s. We merged as one on the way down, and became invisible. We flew into the 2nd story Window nearest us. We were inside a very dark and old Bedroom. No sign of Life. But we could see a trail of Footprints going down the Steps..the Prints were a deep red, as if of the memory of Blood. We went down into the Cellar. There we found a very elderly Man, large framed but very tired and sweaty, slowly digging up an old Skeleton. The death of this buried person must have occurred in the Bedroom. No cause was apparent. The scene then shifted out to the Field beyond a stock of Trees just beyond the edge of the dead end Road. There I saw the Girl burying the Skull of her Dream. I got the impression the People standing around this scene were members of the old Man’s Family. They were claiming they were covering up a Crime of his, he was too old and mentally insufficient to have to pay now. He had apparently been off his rocker for a good part of his Life, and was even more so now. By now there was a party in the upstairs of this House, and we were suddenly inside too. I saw the Man in the Dream disapproving of Helen’s actions. He seemed to be referring to her burying the Skull, but that was an impression, not made clear. At this point I reviewed the Journey to this point. I failed to see the meaning in it. Who was the Person who was killed? Why was the Girl involved at all..she was not a family member. What was in it for her..was she under a threat? I didn’t see anything threatening. There seemed no lesson here..just more detail. I asked Owl. We went back into the Tree, and suddenly I saw a strong Breeze blow in with the Light of Day. The Light and Wind swept away the people standing near the burial site. I was then told..this whole thing is a metaphor for the Girl burying herself! The family members were actually Spirit Helpers of hers. She was burying her Fear of Death. I saw the scene of the House and field suddenly become part of a toy Train Table (ala the movie Beetle Juice). I was then taken back in time to when the Girl was very young. There was a Train incident that put the recognition of Death into her for the first time. I saw several options: she was almost hit; someone close to her was almost hit; or someone may have been killed. It wasn’t clear. Then I was told that the disproving Husband signaled that by overcoming Death on her walk into becoming a Shaman practitioner or beyond, some of her friends will not be happy with the changes in her. This was all I could get from this Journey..the Call Back Drumming brought me home.

Some notes for interpretative value: Red is the color of the Base, or Survival, Chakra. Green is the color of the Heart Chakra. Black represents the night, or the opposing Forces. Taken in sum, one sees a battle going on within the Girl concerning survival of her Heart’s longings, and this battle is now in full swing “in the dead of night.” There may, of course, also be some Christmas connection. The fact the Journey began with a deserted house at the end of a dead-end road in the middle of the night implies the depths of abandonment and loneliness that may be buried in her depths. Her burying her own Skull is an attempt to break the hold these forces have on her, and the warm light that resulted from her actions adds credence. The appearance of the movie Beetle Juice was odd, but did lead to the important train incident. Perhaps the year of its release has something to do with (1988).

The Crow pecking in the middle of the yard, to me, implies that the burying of the Skull was the central theme of this Dream..the lesson intended. To be an effective Shaman, one must deal with one’s own Death until it no longer means anything. I have scene myself killed and dismembered any number of times, only to find I was still alive outside my Body. So I have reached that point of no fear. This was even the central tenet of the Shaman Jesus’ message: he came to overcome death. I feel this attempt to begin the processing of overcoming that Fear was the main point of this Dream.

Here was her reply: "
A lot of things that you mentioned are many things that have happened or somewhat are happening right now. The part about the dead-end road with a field, my friend from High School grew up on a dead-end road with a big field next to her house and we hung out there a lot. Her husband who she is married to now also hung out there at that time, but he was only a friend at the time. Her husband apparently did not and I still think he does not like the way I do things and has said that I have an attitude. But, I have never had an attitude towards him so I don't understand why it would affect him. Like you said, you failed to see the meaning in it. So, I agree. He in the past has tried to get involved in my friendship with his wife. But, I would be here for many years trying to expain my long history with this friend. I also don't think the friendship will ever be the way I want it to be. I will expain it to you one day when we eventually meet. Also, my friend has had a lot of parties in that house including Christmas night get togethers every year until I got married. When that stoped don't think my friend liked it, but hey we all have to grow up sometime. She also has parties now. But, does not live in that house anymore. I am not sure who this dead man is either. But, my friend's father did die when she was young. So not sure if there is any connection.
The Beetle Juice movie mentioned, I had a dream about this movie in the past but have never seen the movie. Will have to rent sometime. But, I went online to read a little bit about the movie. This movie sounds like it relates to my friendship with this friend. I met my friend in 1988, we were in the tenth grade at the time.

Not sure about the part below. I don't remember any of this happening. "There was a train incident that put the recognition of Death into her for the first time. I saw several options: she was almost hit; someone close to her was almost hit; or someone may have been killed. It wasn't clear."
Yes, I think I have some fears, but trying to change a lot of things in my life to overcome those fears. A lot of things have happened in my life in the past two years, which I have learned from. I also think, I have become a much stronger person. But, still sensitive. Hee, hee, hee.

Journey 195 - Friend's Kidnap Dream

4/18/05: A Journey taken to check on a disturbing dream a friend told me about today. Another friend invites her into his car, is all friendly..and then without warning locks the doors and tells the Woman he is going to kill her. She ends the Dream gouging his Eyes out. This was obviously full enough of Darkness to warrant my checking it out. As I went into the Journey, Owl and I were sitting in some Trees in a residential area..I got the sense it was the town where my friend lives. I saw a tall, black figure without any real form walking slowly along the sidewalk below. It would stop once in a while and stretch, and as it did so orange and red sparks would burst out of him. Owl looked at me and told me this was a Burhan, the most powerful of the negative Nature Spirits. I knew this type of Spirit would be hard to counteract. It has been attached to the Man, but was now moving near the Woman. Owl then told me to go into my Mirror and seek help from the Mirror Shaman, Utawa. I was suddenly floating along above a River, and there were Torches on the right side along the bank and among the Trees. I suddenly found my right Arm disintegrating into Atoms. The effect was spreading toward the rest of my Body, and I felt as if I could easily be consumed..and die. I began to seek assistance, and in a flash Utawa, looming hundreds of feet tall, came from around the rise ahead of me and took my left Arm, jerking me away from whatever it was that was attacking me. Utawa told me I had been attacked at random by a disintegrating spirit..just one of those random things that can kill you if it walks into you as this one did. Utawa then told me to use the Mirror to catch the Burhan by making him fall into it. I came back out of the mirror and Owl and I flew it down to the sidewalk a few steps ahead of the Burhan. It stopped just before it reached the Mirror and began to yowl. It had sensed the trap! So Owl and I pulled the Mirror up over his head and pulled it down the other side, like a huge tarp. We had the Burhan trapped. I was then suddenly in a boat on an ocean, the Mirror Surface transformed. The Burhan was floating ahead of me, its head bobbing in and out of the water. I asked it if it wished to transform itself into a positive spirit..I would then help save it. It said NO. Suddenly, a school of Dolphins came at it from the many compass points and grabbed the Burhan, swimming away with it underwater. Utawa then took me up to a high Cliff over the Ocean. I looked down and saw a fluorescent green Ribbon beneath the Surface, wiggling slowly along. The Ribbon, on close inspection, was made of millions of very tiny green Fish. This means the Burhan had been transformed to Goodness, and each of the Fish would spread this positive Energy to the Beings who consumed them. I then asked Utawa why the Burhan had been attached to the Man. Utawa said it was attracted to certain negative attitudes and feelings in him. It attached to the Woman since it always came to work with the Man, and he has had differing attitudes toward the Woman over the past months. Now there is no more danger to the Woman..the Burhan is gone. I was then back with Owl in the Trees of her Town. I looked up in the Sky and saw a huge Whirlpool of Light, very similar to the one that ended my Shamans Dream of several Years back. I then saw an Eagle floating in the center of the disc. The Whirlpool then sank down and went straight into my Mirror. It was a gift from Utawa..he told me I have earned this extra Light and Eagle..

Journey 194 - Pre-cancerous Cells

4/18/05: A Journey taken to eliminate the cancerous cells discovered in a young Lady's latest pap smear. I prepared in the usual way and settled into the Journey. Even while I was still rattling, the image of the Girl's Face, reflected in a small pool of Water in some Desert area, came strongly into my mind, so I knew this was the jump-off point. (I have been to this pool before in the past few months..I can’t quite remember why. I’ll have to look back.) So once the Drumming started, I moved into place next to this glass-surface pool. Sure enough, her face, hair and hat, just as they are today, were the image in the pool of water. Two Ducks then flew in from the right. When they hit the water and landed, the image of the Girl's Face lifted out of the Water and floated in the Air above the rippling pool. The circular image of her then floated over and went into my Mirror! As I looked down, I could see her head in there now. Then, I noticed that my Upper world Guide, Owl, had landed next to me on a fairly thick Cactus. We were in a Desert, or perhaps dry plain, environment. Owl was digging into the Cactus with his Talons, implying to me that perhaps there was something in Cactus Medicine that the Girl might take. He then began pecking at the image of the Girl on the Mirror. Each impact left a tiny hole in her image that began releasing cigarette smoke. This told me smoking was one of the aggravating factors. It then got rapidly dark, and as the Sun raced to the Horizon, it turned blood red..then hung there long enough to become a Tunnel. Owl turned into Eagle Claw (his human form) and we both ran at incredible speed toward the Tunnel entrance. We zipped past a Lion and Bear, each of whom thought to pursue us but were unable due to our tremendous speed. We literally leapt into the Tunnel, and zoomed through it in an incredible rush. It was warm and very gusty. At the exit, we found ourselves quite small, standing in some grass next to the leg of a picnic table looming over us as if it were 60 feet tall. It was a sunny day, and there was a stock of bushes and/or trees just left of the table. Further to the left I then noticed a decent-sized Lake, and we were literally right at surface level with the Lake Water as we stood there. Two Ducks (same two?) waded in and beckoned us to follow them. We did so. They took us over to the opposite bank. There, lying on the bank, was a collection of Stones set up to look like a human body. The Girl’s Hat was atop this model. It was a replica of her Body! I went up onto the bank and looked more closely. The area of her lower abdomen was black, with the presence of thousands of tiny ants, all scurrying around among and on top of one another. We walked over to the right and beyond this Stone design and started a small Tipi fire with Twigs and sticks. The Fire was purple in color..a good sign, showing very high Spiritual presence. I invited the Girl and Eagle Claw to come sit with me by the fire and we did so..the Girl took a puff off the Pipe for the first time..this would also be the first time she used tobacco in a Sacred Manner. I then beckoned for the Spirit of her Cancer, manifested by the Ants, to come join us. After a few seconds, a very small, blue blob emerged from the Ants and came to the Fire. I asked it who it was. The answer took me aback considerably. The blob turned into a small baby, and the baby was the one that the Girl did NOT carry to term. It was the Suld Soul..never having made it into a body, it nonetheless had come in from the Lower World and was sticking to the mother is was intended for. It was as if it were literally trying to get back into the womb it had been assigned! I asked the little Baby, why Ants? It was because there are always quite a few Ants in the Girl’s room..and it was therefore easiest to invade them. I told the little Soul it was hurting the Girl, and must go home. It then took off into the Woods near us. Instead of trying to chase it, for it was darting around at breakneck speed among Tree Trunk and leafy Bush, I flung my Mirror up into the air over the Woods. It expanded to a huge size and then stuck to the Sky with a clang. It then began emitting blue streaks of Light, one of which caught the Little Soul. I took it and headed out onto the World River in a boat, and made sure the Little Soul went over the Falls and back to the Lower World for re-assignment. I went back to the Stones, and Eagle Claw and I made an Ongon from the Stones that had represented the Girl’s Body. We then placed a Candle, a long-burning one, in the center of the Ongon and lit it. This will help generate all the Healing Energy the Girl needs to be free of these cancerous cells. We placed her hat atop the entire pile. The Ducks then brought us back to the other side..we were back at the picnic table. But this time, the Girl’s bag and a pack of cigarettes was there..I took the smokes and melted them into my Mirror. We then came all the way back to the beginning, at the Desert Pond. I then saw the Girl sitting on her bed in her room, and I was telling her to say the following Chant daily: “My aura cleanses itself daily. The negative Energy sinks into Mother Earth and turns to Joy.” The next scene was interesting, to say the least. A policeman had come to my door to tell me the Girl had been killed in an accident. I could see her hat on the body on the stretcher, but I went out to check and it was not her. The policeman’s face then turned into a scary monster type, bizarre in its perverted joy at having tried to scare me. It was a Chutger. Eagle Claw told me this scene meant that the Girl just naturally attracts such Beings, and must be on guard from now on. The next scene was even more elaborate. She and I were standing on the center point of a floor beneath the dome of a huge cathedral, the ceiling of which towered above us. Was it St. Peter’s in Rome? Or a church in Germany. Anyway, I saw her shoot way up into the air..she came down and landed on me face first! I then shot way up and came down next to her. We then hugged. I then bent down and cleansed and sealed her Aura where the cancer had been. The Call Back then sounded. The Girl will be clear of this disease.

The Cathedral scene represents Sacred Space. This means the Girl must have Sacred space around her, something I can provide daily when I get up.

She obviously has to give up her smoking.

Aloe Vera is a member of the Cactus family, and has proven anti-cancer qualities. The Girl should get and rink some aloe Vera JUICE..(not gel). :)

Follow-on. When I told her of my work on her behalf, which she had authorized a few days ago (“go for it!”), she asked me what time I had done this. I told her, 4:15-ish. She said that at right about the same time she got “wicked” cramping in that area and had to take a heavy dose of Ibuprofen. That pain was the result of the Sprit Intrusion being removed.

Journey 193 - A Quite Ill Mom

4/17/05: A Journey to investigate a Mom’s cancer, and see if anything can be done Spiritually to stop or slow it. I prepared carefully and fully, in case I came up against some tough going. As I went into the Journey, I found myself floating a short distance above an entirely purple world. Trees, Hills, Ground..all a deep purple. I then saw Owl fluttering around one of the smaller Trees, and I went down to join him. Owl stood out as a bright yellow, an unusual color for him. As I caught up to him, the scene shifted and we were walking down a long set of purple stairs. When we got to the bottom, I saw the Mom lying on her back on a large slab of concrete. She seemed unaware that we were there..she was just looking up at the ceiling. Owl turned into my Upper World Guide, Eagle Claw, and he took out his analysis Crystal Wand. He illuminated her body with it while I stepped back away from her feet and up a bit. I then saw the damage. Almost the entire right half of her Aura is gone! Eaten away. I’d not seen this before. Eagle Claw obviously wanted me to see this. The slab with the Mom and we both then started moving, and slipped quickly into an entirely orange, amorphous zone. Then, I started to pick out some orange, human-shaped blobs moving around in the color. They were Spirit Shapes. The orange then faded into more traditional reality. We were at the Mom’s old house. I saw her sitting in her living room, alone. She was deeply depressed. I then saw several large and many small Chutger (dark Nature Spirits) attacking her over and over, resulting in the loss of her Aura half. One of the majors had come from the nearby river. Another had come from a large Pine Tree a good distance but not that far away. Many smaller Spirits were attacking her in passing, just happened to stumble in while passing by. We then were back in the purple room, the Mom back on her slab. Eagle Claw took out a Moqui Marble and placed it on the table next to her right side. It soon was covered in Insects of a type I am not familiar with. I then saw these Insects pouring out of her opened Aura and into this Ball. Eagle Claw was collecting them, thereby detoxifying the Mom. When this process was complete, the rest of her Aura collapsed! I knew this was not at all good. The slab suddenly became a Boat we were all riding down the River to the Lower World. I realized the Mom’s Suns Soul was heading back home to that World. This would create a rapid demise for her, so I intervened. Just as the Boat reached the Falls and was about to go over, I pulled it into the air past the edge using the Eagle and Owl Feathers I had placed in my hands at the start of the Journey. Eagle Claw helped me carry the Boat with the Mom within over to a small inlet near the Falls. She was temporarily safe in these calm waters, but Eagle Claw told me the Mom must now remain as calm and relaxed as she possible can. It won’t take much of a wind (that is, fear or depression or anger) to blow the Boat back into the River and over the Falls. I then saw the Mom’s Power Animal Penguin arrive with some other Helpers. Eagle Claw then produced the Ball full of the Spirit Insects. He handed it to me. It became white hot in my left hand. It then shape-shifted into a large stick that I flung into the ground. The stick then shape-shifted into one large version of these insects and it came after me with incredible anger. I used my Shamanic Mirror to stop and absorb the attacker. I then placed my Mirror face down on the Ground and several huge bolts of white-blue electricity went zapping through the ground in different directions. I then found myself rising well above the inlet, and from there drew a protective covering of Light around the entire scene, to keep the Mom and her Helpers safe from further intrusion. As I drifted up further, the little ball of Light I had created turned into a tiny moisture droplet and began floating free. I was then on the surface of an ocean beneath a dark Sky. A black and large ship came floating by me, and I could tell it was the ship of Death. I watched as the moisture droplet containing the Mom and her Helpers zipped into one of the doorways of the main cabin. As the ship moved away, the name on the back was “Portsmouth.” I then knew that there was no stopping the course of the disease. I inquired concerning a year of passing, and at first 2005 displayed. But I felt that was too soon, and then the year value jumped to 2007. I saw a date: April 13, 2007. I was not sure of the accuracy of this date. Did I force it by rejecting the 2005? After worrying about this and waiting for new dates, I kept seeing the April 13 date..so I accepted it and moved on. I then saw the Mom sitting in her current living room. I was told she should listen to a lot of ocean sounds CDs for calmness. She should eat a lot of Kale, Broccoli and drink Green Tea. The scene then faded. But in my Visual cortex, I saw the image of a Skull, and a woman with her heads buried in her hands. I then saw an actual headstone with the April 13 date on it. The Call Back then sounded.

Note: The color orange in the transfer scene implies among other things Optimism and Energy Reserves, stimulating feelings of social-ness. It is tied to our emotional health and muscular system, and helps with the stomach, intestines, food assimilation and depression. But a little goes a long way..too much can effect the nerves.

In order to test the validity of the April 13 dates, after the journey I consulted my Crystal pendulum. I held it well above but directly over the Sacred Flame, and asked if the April 13, 2007 date was actually the date I was meant to be given by the Helpers. The pendulum swung “yes.”, verifying what I saw again and again as accurate and not just my own impressions interfering. This is the last date that the Mom will be able to stay..and will probably go sooner if she stresses her self out of the inlet.

We removed the spirit of the Mom's disease, in the form of insects, and so they can do no further damage. However, looking at the 6 major characteristics of insects reveals why the disease was so hard to eliminate: they spread quickly; they are extremely adaptable to conditions; they have armor; their small size makes their demands more accessible; reproduction allows species to survive; and finally they undergo multiple changes to carry on living.

4/18: Obviously the Spirits are very happy with this and other recent Journey work. Today a small Hawk circled almost directly over my head. An alert for what came about 15 minutes later. I saw a very large bird with dark,long square wings just soaring along. It seemed to have a touch of bright white on the tail and head. I knew it was a juvenile Bald Eagle! This is only my 3rd unsought after sighting of my life. There is no higher Spirit Bird for me..it is my Power Animal. It represents the highest achievement. I am very humbled..

Journeys 190/191/192 Brother Dream/Deceased Father/Deceased Brother

4/15/05: A Journey to investigate a Dream a friend had in which she, her sister and her deceased brother were together in a room. The Girls are yelling, “We have to stop this” while her Brother slips off to the side and out. Since Sacred Space was already in place, I went right into the Drum Loop after Smudging and Lighting the Sacred Candle. I immediately saw about 10 Owls spiraling down in a narrowing cone toward the edges of my Shaman’s Mirror, lying on the ground with the edges glowing blue. I then remembered, I had forgotten to put on my Mirror for protection while out of my Body! So I got up and grabbed it, and placed it on my chest for protection. As I lay back down, Owl met me in the branch of a Tree and said, “that’s better!” We looked up in the Sky, and saw a green Ribbon of light..it was the “River of Dreams.” We zoomed up and into it. As we went through the Ribbon, we were passing pieces of other Dreams..fleeting images. But soon up ahead I saw my friend standing there, and knew we had reached our destination. As we reached my friend, we were suddenly in a small bedroom with her and the other two in the house. The bed was behind the Girls, a dresser in front of them A closet was to their left. I saw as the Brother slipped out of the room through or near that closet. I went with him to see what he was doing. He had shape-shifted into a Red-Tailed Hawk. He flew up and out of the house, and lit on a Tree Branch. I was following right along with him. Suddenly a very bright light appeared on the horizon. It looked like the Sun, but had black light and white intermingling on its disk..unlike anything I had seen. It was as if it was boiling with a mix of the two opposite “colors.” I saw a fleeting appearance of other figures near this “opening.” The disc was somehow beckoning to the Brother, but he was resistant..he grabbed his branch tighter and tucked his head down into his chest Then, a man figure appeared nearby, and lifted the brother up onto his shoulder and walked toward and then into the Orb. I followed. Once through, the Hawk (the brother) was back in the back yard of the House..but this was the Upper World representation. He met up with a female Hawk and the soared around together, quite happy. He then landed in the field and began keeping watch over the house, as if waiting for someone. Soon he looked down and his talons and saw a small, fabric, stuffed Doll lying there. She had coarse yellow threads for hair and wore a blue body covering. The Doll was perhaps 4 to 5 inches long. He picked up this Doll in his beak and flew it over to the house chimney, and dropped it in. The scene then shifted back into the bedroom. The Two Girls were staring at this same Orb of Black/White light, and saw the brother, as himself, walking into it. That’s what they were trying to stop. But once he was gone, the Sister turned to my friend and said, “He’s so happy!” Both Girls stood there beaming! I then sensed the Doll going by them within the chimney. It went right through the ground and into the Lower World, where it transformed into two small Hawks. These flew back up to become Guardian spirits for both Girls as they were growing up. The scene then shifted. I rose above the house and saw a very threatening gray sky approaching. But then, sliding along the bottom of these tumultuous dark grey blobs of cloud, came a round blue disk. It stopped over the house and produced a blue cylinder of light that completely surrounded it. It protected the house from the passing rains and winds. The house was lit as if in sunshine even though the area outside the cylinder was a raging storm. The scene then shifted for the last time. I saw my friend’s more-grown lower leg..and on it was a sock that had the image of the doll embroidered into the top. The Call Back then sounded. Journey over, I thanked Owl and returned to my Robe.

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4/15/05: A Journey to check on a Dad, who passed away in 1998. Sacred Space was already in place, so after Smudging, I was off. I came to a Lake area, and it was a Sun-filled Day. Owl, my Upper World Guide, and I were floating along in the very front of a small pointy-nose Boat (like a large row boat) that seemed to be under its own propulsion. Off to the left we saw an inlet where it was very dark, and the boat headed straight into it. Once within, we were suddenly immersed in Darkness. Owl had shape-shifted into his human form, Eagle Claw. On each side of the river we saw Shadows running amidst small fires. At first the Fires were from Torches lining the Bank, then they graduated into small camp Fires further up. On occasion we saw some eyes glowing from the Beings sitting around or running between these Fires, themselves barely visible in the darkness. I looked down at our Boat. It was glowing an translucent blue, as were we! In the rippling Water ahead of us, I saw a very bright Star reflecting. But, as we looked up, there was no corresponding Star in the Sky. I took my Shaman’s Mirror and pointed it straight ahead, so that a narrow beam of this blue Light was piercing the Darkness. Suddenly an image of the father appeared, but as a younger Man. It began leading us, and shrank as it moved ahead faster than we were traveling. Suddenly our Boat ran aground. Up the side of the River bank we could see a small Cemetery with its Headstones glowing with the same blue Light. We got off the Boat and as we walked up the Bank we noticed it was very thick and gooey. We made it into the Cemetery, and found the Stones were made only of Light..no solidity whatsoever. We came to one and I saw the name of the father flash in front of me. THe daughter had said that was her Dad’s name, and so I assumed it was he. We turned to behold a very large inverted Cone made of white Light with Rainbow hues moving toward us. Within the veil was an image, quite transparent but sill coherent, of her dad as a younger man. He knew who we were and why we were there. He told me to say “Hi to my daughter. I love her. Remind her that Mountains are very different from the Heights..but both must be climbed.” He then leaned forward, a bit out of his Aura, and said, “Say hi to my son, also.” This took me aback for I had forgotten at this point that she had a brother who had passed. I began wondering who this son was. But soon I was taken off this subject when the Father held out a small, square Picture. It was he and his daughter, who was quite young, sitting on a picnic table near a Lake. I sensed this was one of his favorite times with her. The scene transformed into reality, and I sat with them at this picnic table. The Father and I both looked up at the Sky and saw a small Tunnel forming there..we knew it was the Tunnel of Death slowly but surely lowering down toward him. He was not afraid, but preparing, even at this age..resolving to enjoy the time he had left. The scene then shifted again. I saw him at a coffee table, still as this younger Man, perhaps in his early 40s, drinking a Schaeffer beer and holding a cigarette. He was speaking, saying, “Man, I’ve head a good life! I’ve been so lucky!” We were then back in the Cemetery. The Aura was still there, and the Dad leaned forward. He held out his left Hand and showed me a box ring of Gold, with a dark or black Stone embedded. It was as if he were giving it to me..for the daughter? The Call Back then sounded, and Eagle Claw and I quickly hopped back into our boat and moved down the river, onto the Lakes and back to the local area, so I could merge back into my Body.

Notes: The Dark River seemed to be a River where Souls first enter on their way to the Other Worlds, and many of the Souls there seemed to be quite recent. They seemed as if they were just waiting.. The fact that the Dad came to this dark place brightly lit with his Aura meant he wanted to meet us away from where he lives as a Spirit..and chose this area as the place least likely to bring us interference.

He already knew I was going to Journey also for his Son. Once I was back from the Journey I realized what he had meant.

The Star’s reflection in the Water with no corresponding Star above is very curious. Mongolian Shamans, however, as well as other Shamanic disciplines, recognize that the Earth Soul sits on top of the head in the Crown Chakra. It is a very bright Star-like entity. No doubt we were seeing the Dad's Earth Soul approaching, for shortly after that we saw him floating in front of us, leading us to the Cemetery. The fact the Stones were made of Light and had no solidity implies that the daughter should realize that there is no such thing as true Death. Headstones just make us miserable by making us believe that…

The transparency of his Body within the Aura told me his Suld soul was already well on its way to transforming into a Nature Spirit, the usual progression for Earth Souls well after their Death. This may also be why he wanted to meet “in private.”

The basic message was that he truly enjoyed his Life here, his daughter, and was very comfortable now moving into Nature. Keep in mind the two other Human Souls go to the Upper and Lower Worlds, and maintain their identity. Earth Souls, though, after time, change into Nature spirits where they help people, and especially, Shamans.

The picture I saw of the Dad showed no rings on his fingers..so I’m not sure why he held out that Ring that I saw..

5/5/05 Follow-up. Turns out this ring is real. The daughter has begun wearing it! It is indeed a box ring of Gold, with a dark blue square Stone. It did indeed belong to her Dad. This was an obvious validation move by the Father, to ensure the daughter knew that I had indeed been in contact with him. This sort of match still gives me excitement chills! :)

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4/15/05: A Journey to check on this woman's brother, who passed in 2002. I took this Journey right after the visit with her Dad. Only now I found Owl and I zooming along at cloud top level over a bunch of puffy white Clouds. The sky was a bright blue above. Sticking up out of the Clouds a good distance ahead was a single, cone-shaped mountain with a very sharp peak..almost like a pyramid. The mountain was lit brightly in yellow, oranges and gold, and was made entirely of Stone. But before we got to it, we sank beneath the Clouds. We came down to the ground next to a large cabin. It was misty and dim, not dark. Colors were muted, but still quite nice. We looked over at the covered porch of the cabin and saw a solitary figure sitting there, leaning back as if in a rocking chair. There was a large, lazy medium-brown dog lying asleep on the edge of the porch next to the yard. I went up to him and ascertained it was indeed her brother. Owl and I told him who we were, but he immediately began complaining. “It’s not fair. I wanted more time. I had plans, I wanted to run a business..” This was obviously an Earth (Suld) Soul that had not yet come to terms with his passing. I interjected and told him that I had just come from his Father, who said to say hi. I told him how he had adjusted to his passing, and was happily merging back into Nature to serve all of Life as a Helper Spirit. I then asked him if he ever had visitors. He told me that some Spirits would walk slowly by the Cabin without a word or glance. Others would stop and say hi for a few minutes. One had come, a female and actually sat at his feet and became a companion for a while. I then told him his Sister had given me the picture of him and Daddy that I now showed him. I suggested that perhaps his Sister could use his help, if he decided to leave his regrets behind. I told him Owl and I could rejuvenate him Spiritually. He agreed, and we took him up to the peak of the Mountain. There, on the other side, was the Sun on the horizon, a brilliant Gold. I told him to stand there and drink in that golden light until his windhorse (Spirit Energy) was completely restored. As Owl and I left him and flew away, we heard him shout out that he indeed promises to guard and support his Sister from here on out. We flew back beneath the Clouds to where we had found him, and the cabin was gone..just black ground where it had been. The final image I saw was of a woman standing in a mechanical arm factory saying, it works perfectly, as she flexed one of the arms.

Notes: This means that the Sister will soon be getting assistance directly from her Brother as she walks the remainder of her Earth Walk.

The fact the Cabin was beneath the Clouds and in a mist reflects the intense emotionalism felt by the brother at his passing.

The Brown Dog: In ancient Greece, Dog was the companion to and the guardian of the Dead. They also reflect faithfulness, which the Brother showed once we let him know his Sister was still out here on her Walk. The color brown is effective in stabilizing overexcited states. It calms, and also grounds emotions and extreme mental conditions. The Dog was no doubt there to keep the Brother from flipping out completely as he contemplated his early demise.

Journey 189 - Checking on a Deceased Baby's Spirit

4/11/05: A Journey taken at a friend’s request to investigate the circumstance surrounding the very early passing of her daughter, gone about 20 years. My friend says she died within a few months of birth. I asked the Spirits to reveal the Truth to me to pass to her so she could heal from this event. As I set off, I came to a large Lakes surrounded by Trees. It was a warm and sunny day. As I waited there, a Wolf came along and began to drink from the Lake. At this point, my Upper World Guide Owl flew in and landed next to me. He then told me to watch and wait. I watched as Wolf lapped up the Lake Water. Each time his tongue hit the surface, circular ripples of bright Rainbow Colors would expand outwards. Owl then told me to shape-shift into a Hawk. As the Wolf departed, we two flew along above him. We watched as he trotted across the forest floor over roots, small hills, etc. He then came to a Cave and went in. We followed. Inside I found Wolf tending to his mate and three little baby Wolves. One of the three was feeding from the Mother. I then turned to my left and beheld an astonishingly beautiful woman standing there. She was dressed in a long straight robe, white and blue. Her skin was beautifully light brown. She seemed the perfect Woman in both demeanor and appearance. She spoke to me. She told me she was the Spirit that had tried to enter the world through the baby’s body, but the human Robe was not ready for her. As I listened to her, it occurred to me that she was a Nature Spirit, a Suld Soul, and so she cannot have been the Spirit that tried to enter through the baby. Once the Suld Soul is released, it is done with its Earth Walk. I challenged her with this information, and she grew silent. Suddenly, the back of the Cave turned pitch black. Owl and I went into the darkness, and were soon in a Universe composed of Stars that were quite weak and diminutive. As we floated along, we came to a small, circular container that was filled with a glowing light green material. I took it in my hands. I opened the lid, and saw a baby girl lying within it. I knew this was the little baby..Owl confirmed it. Owl then told me that the baby’s attempt to enter a human body was her very first. She was a brand new Human Soul on her maiden voyage. In fact, we were in the Home of the New Souls, and as I looked around I saw thousands of other little containers floating nearby. Owl told me that the baby had been pulled back at the last minute because her Guides did not think she was ready yet. I told him this event had caused the mother much pain..why did it get this far. Owl explained it was the way of Life..the decision had to wait until the last minute. Also, he reminded me that each person’s Sacred Path involves joy AND pain. I then asked why the Suld Spirit in the Cave had lied to me. He told me she wanted to protect the baby’s Spirit from unnecessary intrusion by a visiting Shaman..she in her Guardian Spirit. Owl then told me that since the failed entry, the baby's Spirit has already come back to Earth, and she is currently living with a very good family and having a good first outing! While the details of her name and location must remain hidden, according to Owl, I was allowed to travel to where she is. I saw her running from a house down a grassy front to a wooden fence. It looked like she was in a farm community. I could have been as far north as upper New York State, or as far south as the Carolinas. It was definitely not the Midwest, though. She was a beautiful little black girl. She was 4-6 years old and was wearing pink ribbons in her hair. I then decided to soar in close over her as Hawk. She looked up at me wide-eyed, really excited. I began looping in a tight circle ever higher over her head, trailing Rainbow colored Spirit Energy. I left her with this cone of protection over her. We then were back in the Cave. I spoke with the girl’s Guardian. She was very grateful for my protective actions over her charge. I gave her a Hawk Feather to give to the girl someday. A token of my visit on her first mother’s behalf. The Guardian told me her (the Guardian’s) name is Anjaya, also able to be known as Angelique. The Cave then melted away, and the final scene I saw saw was of the now-grown girl standing in a line of other young lady’s. She seemed to be in a military or other group formation..and she was all happy saying, “our boat is back!” This told me she might be in the Coast Guard..or Girl Scouts.. Right after this scene, the Call Back sounded and I returned.

Notes: Wolf is the friend's Power Animal..no surprise he should lead me to the Cave.

The Rainbow circles on the Lake were a predictor and celebrator of the Rainbow Circle I drew over the young girl in her new and first Lifetime. Water symbolizes things Feminine.

The rest speaks for itself..

Journey 188 - A Relationship Check

4/10/05: A Journey to check the status of a relationship between a man and woman. I was given a star that was a gift from him to her, and held that to my Mirror as I Journeyed. After the usual preparations, I was off. I saw myself racing toward a set of very tall, swaying Pines. It was night. I reached the very top of one of the Trees. The night was clear and cool and there were numerous shooting stars soaring across the Sky. I was overlooking a plain, with numerous lit houses dotting the landscape. Suddenly my Upper World Guide, Eagle Claw, in his Owl form, arrived. He landed next to me, and was black from having past through a Fire. His Feathers were still smoking. He told me to look behind me, and there it was. Am immense inferno as rushing toward us, consuming everything in its path. I saw the Spirit of Fire lunging along with the Flames. Owl told me to stay with him, and we were soon engulfed in the Flames. I felt no pain and suffered no damage. With the Fire past, the scene suddenly shifted. I saw a sidewalk with a curb, with a storm drain just off to the right. As we got closer and closer, I noticed some pebbles lying on the street next to the curb. We got very close. One of the pebbles began to wiggle and come to Life. It was a Stone Person Spirit. The scene shifted again and we were sitting in a Mexican looking plaza with all stone table and chairs. We had obviously entered the Stone’s World. We sat at one of the Tables. Stone Spirit then produced a wedding cake with the woman and a man on top. The funny thing about this Journey is I never got a good look at the man, never really saw him. He was just a presence. The figures on the Cake began walking together as if down an aisle. I then saw the couple walking with a total of three children, two of them new, a product of the marriage? I then was inside a reception hall where the Bride, the woman, was standing over something on the table, either cutting it or picking it up. As she did so, I saw the Fire Inferno go blasting by the windows of the Hall. There were no smoke, heat or other effect inside the hall. We were then back at the Stone table. Stone Spirit had a sprig of Pine Tree and a small Stone on the table. He intimated these represented Shannon and her man. Although, he said, a union between a Stone and a twig seems unlikely, due to Stone’s being set in its ways and Twig being relatively free and peaceful, he took the two objected and combined them. There on the table was a larger slab of stone with the twig fossilized within it. We then returned to the Tree where the Fire had hit us. It was day now. I looked behind me at the area that had been burned, and it was lush with astonishingly quick, new green growth and there was a large rainbow over the area. I looked down. There was a River, and the woman, her man and the three kids were there, on the side, having a picnic. Suddenly, I saw the ghostly image of a very old man approaching them. It was a Middle Earth, or Suld, soul, still wandering as if human. I went own to see who it was. He keep heading closer toward the young girl, saying he wanted his “property back.” I intervened and told him that in her new Life, the girl was now free and on her own Path. He had no right to her Soul anymore. I then took the old man and brought him to the Stone Spirit. We offered the old man corn, dried beef and an alcohol wash of some sort. He ate heartily and gratefully. Glad he was no longer after the young girl, and recognizing his need to return to nature, he went across the Street and went into a stock of Pine Trees, where he met with other Suld Souls and was quite content. At this point, the images became a bit more scattered. I saw that the girl was very excited about the marriage, as long as she was kept totally involved in the whole affair and felt a key part of it. I later saw an old woman rummaging around, but seemed to be harmless. She seemed intent on finding something, but I was not shown where or what. One of the final images was of a person looking like a company President helping the woman with some sort of project outside the building. They seemed to be working together on some project or other. One last image has escaped me..it was brief and seemed quit clear at the time, easy to remember but when I came back the phrase did not return with me..this is quite rare for me to lose something from a Journey..perhaps it was not meant to come back Someone was chanting a three-word phrase to the time of the Drumming, and it was something like “See What’s True”, or “Say What’s True”, but it has yet to come back to me, so we can’t put much stock in this phrase. I know it made sense in the context of the scene, and seemed to imply a harmonious relationship continuing between the woman and her man. While the Call Back Drumming was bringing me back, a large burst of light appeared in my inner vision. I could see it drift across my closed eyelids. It looked like a star.

Notes: The presence of Fire before the wedding scene and during the reception implies that something major has to change in the relationship before marriage. Fire is the great transmuter, destroyer, restorer. Some Pine Cones won’t release their seeds unless they are engulfed in flames. So something old has to burn so the new can come through. No doubt this means a major change in attitude/behavior. The rejuvenating forest after the Fire is another sign that wondrous new growth occurs often only when the old has been completely turned to ash.

Pine Trees figure in this Journey. The woman must therefore be the Pine Twig on the Stone Spirit’s table. Her man must be the Stone, set in his ways. Also very interesting is that the old man went to live among the Pines. This implies he was somehow knew or was related to the young girl in a past life.

The Stone Spirit and his world played a major role. Stones record all that has happened in the place they lie, and so the presence of a Stone motif means that the woman must look hard at her past history and that of her man and be aware of all there is to be aware of that might matter.

The old woman may be a current relative who is trying to get involved in this future.

It was very interesting that I was holding the Star paperweight, and the Journey began with a starry night with shooting Stars, and ended with an imprint of a Star in my inner vision. There is great concurrence among Shamanist traditions that the Stars can contain Spirits of Ancestors..the heavy presence of this imagery indicates again there may be someone in the Past that can still be a teacher for the Future.

4/11/05: The Woman's reply: "That was interesting. The three children, I have my daughter and (the man) has two boys. I am wondering if that is the three." Since this reply, the man has asked me to do a Journey for him as well..he was very impressed with the above.

Journey 187 - Lightning Stick Spirit

4/8/05: I finally Journeyed to meet the Sprit of the Lightning Struck piece of Wood I picked up on the way back from our ski trip. I was wearing my Mirror, and laid the wood on top and held it there while meeting its Spirit. The Mirror began humming, and the surface became lit with a blue light. I then saw a Thunderbeing, who was laughing joyously. He told me that lightning represents the Einstein-ian mass/energy equivalent, the interface, the in-between of matter and energy..the transformation of one to the other. He told me that therefore the Stick I have is best used to help me Shape-Shift from human to other forms of Life and back. I picked up the Stick and held it lengthwise over my Body. Mini-lightning strikes were hitting me from head to toe. I let the stick get nearer and nearer, and felt myself getting ever fuller with energy. I felt the Stick was reworking the electric makeup of my Body, and felt no fear. I felt as if I could pick and choose the Energy I wanted to be. Once the Stick made contact with me again, I saw a whole series of images from my youth and earlier Life fly by. I could smell the aftermath of thunderstorms afterwards..that moist, sweet-smelling coolness of a summer afternoon after the storms have left. I then found myself sitting amidst a gorgeous summer evening. Resting, I realized the merging with the Thunderbeing Sprit was now completed.

Journey 186 - A Woman's Relationship

4/8/05:

The reason was to check the status of a woman’s relationship and see what the future might hold.

The journey began in a home movie theater mode. My Shaman’s Mirror was hanging on the wall before Owl and I, and the Mirror soon transformed into a small screen. A cartoon began playing. A very colorful wood’s edge appeared, and I saw a small White Rabbit eating grass while a small Deer stood nearby nibbling on the bushes. One could almost have considered them friends, given their proximity and seeming comfortableness with one another. Suddenly, a Hawk scooped down and grabbed Rabbit. Hawk soared away with Rabbit, and soon dropped him down not a farm area chock full of Rabbits. The scene switched back to the wooded area. Deer was shot by a hunter. I soon saw Deer standing in a farm area that was full of other Deer. The two farm areas were side by side. Rabbit and Deer both meandered toward the fence between the farms and came together. They were side by side, and suddenly the cartoon cycled to the beginning again. Apparently this was some sort of loop, a repetition of a life-death-life circuit. I then saw the little movie room we were in transform to a more natural outdoors setting. I saw a stage there, and as walls and ceilings formed around it, saw a man and woman were on it, arguing. From here on, the scenes became more sporadic and intermittent. I saw beer cans being taken out to be recycled, and a couple living in relative harmony. The next scene was a beautiful shaded road adjacent to a farm area..but this time in real imagery versus the earlier cartoon. I saw a farm scene with a man operating a tractor next to a very large barn and wooden crates of hay. I saw him riding off into a furrowed field to prepare it for sowing. I then saw a scene involving a military setting in which a man was under the command of a Sergeant type sitting at a desk. Since the imagery was so scattered and varied, I asked Eagle Claw for a resolution. What came next was quite disturbing. I saw a coffin pop up out of the ground. The coffin then changed into a wedding limousine. I was in the limo with the married couple as it began to roll. As we past the wedding guests, all dressed up in formal wear, I looked back and saw virtually all their faces were skeletal..just fleshless skulls. I was then back in the movie room. Eagle Claw got up and patted me on the shoulder and left, while I sat, staring alternately at the floor and the blank screen in front of me.

A few Notes: The cartoonish beginning may be a reference to either or both partners in the relationship having a “made-up”, “hand-drawn” or “imaginative” view of it. The repetition of the scene in which both partners meet their end in violence, only to return to the beginning and start all over, reflects a lack of growth despite experiences that should be teachers. An escape from this trap could save the relationship from its current loop.

One of the people is the relationship is represented by Rabbit, the other by Deer. Here is a short summary of the main qualities of each, courtesy of Ted Andrews and/or Jamie Sams' books:

Rabbit: Associated with fear in some minds, a superlative defensive capability in others. They can go from “0 to 60” in seconds, implying this person can/should take advantage of fleeting opportunities. They teach you to recognize the signs around you, and recognize the tides of movement in your life. This leads to greater fertility.

Deer: Associated with gentleness and innocence, luring to new adventure. Deer have great vision, and offer the ability to therefore detect subtle movements and hear what is not being directly said. Deer implies a new innocence and freshness is being born. Questions from Deer: Are you trying to force things? Are others? Are you being too critical and uncaring of yourself? Deer lends the opportunity to express a gentler love that can lead to new adventures.

The second set of scenes involving a man working a farm and spending some time in the military may be a new relationship that has yet to occur..or indicative of a change in the current one with time. In a way the latter does not seem likely, since when I asked my Guide for a resolution of the confusion felt, I saw that fairly gruesome wedding party scene that ended the Journey. This tells me that the current relationship will not end happily.

4/12: The woman reports that this Journey “nailed” her relationship right on the head..she was just curious as to whether she was the rabbit or the deer...

Journey 185 - A Young Girl Troubled

4/8/05:

First a quick word of introduction. The Shaman’s Journey involves honoring the Helpers Spirits and then using a steady drumbeat to reach the level where the Spirit of the Shaman can leave his or her body and venture out into one or more of the three Spirit Worlds (Upper, Middle and Lower) for guidance. The Upper World is the place of Guidance, and houses the Upper World Soul (genealogical) called the Ami (‘em). The Middle World is where we live now, and our Soul Piece here is called the Suld (“soold”). It remains here after death and eventually merges into Nature as a Helper Spirit. The Lower World in the place of empowerment and houses the Soul Part known as the Suns (“soons”). It carries past life information. All three Worlds are beautiful and lush..there is no evidence of the Hell promulgated by western religions.

Spirit invasions can occur when any one of these Soul Parts gets lost, and latches onto a person or place where it does not belong. During a Journey, the Shaman sees these Souls and tries to right their Path. There are also Dark Entities that must be dealt with, some quite dangerous. Shamans have many tools given them by their Helpers to deal with these Beings, but always rely on help from one or more Higher Spirits that are working with the Shaman. These Helpers often appear at first in the form of totem Animals, such as Owls, Hawks, Deer, etc. Humans relate better at first to these forms than they would the Spirit itself, and can use the qualities of that Totem in their Shamanic work as well. If we find ourselves alone in a bad situation, we call for help immediately..and it always arrives. Shamans can also move through Time and Space instantly, going into the Future or Past, and changing into other types of beings, such as Birds. In fact, in the Center of Existence, where Shamans travel to at the Journey’s beginning, all of Time and Space, from all realities and universes, meet at that one point. From there, the Shaman can go anywhere.

One final concept: Sacred Path. Because we are comprised of Soul Parts that reunite for subsequent lives, we each come here with a Spiritual Plan. This plan may involve a wonderful life..or a life filled with suffering and early death. The goal is to be a stronger Spirit when leaving than when we arrived. However, we forget this Plan at birth and spend the rest of our lives trying to remember. Many never do. Therefore, there are instances where people come to Shamans for changes in their lives but do not get them. They have forgotten why they came here, and during Journey work a Shaman can see what the Plan is. This is why Shamans do not Journey for people unless they are asked..we do not want to interfere with the chosen Path of the individual.

So, onto the Journey.

A Journey for an acquaintance's daughter, who is apparently having a very hard time of it as she heads into the age of reason. I had sensed at first she was heading into her teens, but was corrected later by her mother..she is only 7. No doubt a very mature 7. As I went into the Journey, I found myself as a Hawk flying around in playful loops with my Upper World Guide Eagle Claw, who was in the form of an Owl. We were soaring together beneath the Stars of a very clear and vibrant night Sky. But soon Owl directed us downward and we landed in a tree next to a home. No doubt the young girl's home. As we sat in the Tree an observed, I saw a huge Dark shape, taller than the house, stomping around and through the house, over and over. It was a bit as if it were writhing. In order to get closer, Owl and I shape-shifted into Moths, and fluttered unnoticed down to the lawn, closer to the house. I placed my Shaman’s Mirror face up on the grass and then placed 12 lit candles around it to honor all the compass points and associated Spirits. I hopped onto the Mirror and looked at the house and its visitor through the surface reflection. I saw now, instead of the dark shape, a heavy set white male, in his mid 50s, with thinning slicked back white hair. He was jerking back and forth between being flesh and Spirit, as if lost in a non-ending loop. He looked to be in great distress. I took my Shaman’s Staff, and still sanding on the Mirror, rose to equal his height. I reached out and took his hand, and he immediately settled down. He asked who I was, and I told him, the Shaman Four Hawks. I’m working from fading memory now, but I believe his name was Don. He led me to a hospital room where he was lying on a bed, in a coma. I wondered if he was lying there now, or if this was the time of his passing. I then saw a fleeting image of a granite block with the year 1998 inscribed, so I knew he had died about 7 years ago and his Lower World Soul had been trapped here on Earth ever since. He just happened to have locked onto this particular dwelling. So I asked him if he wished to finish his journey to the Lower World, where the Suns Soul, one of three humans have, goes. He was very agreeable and relieved. I led him to a River nearby that had Stars sparkling in it. This was the River to the Lower World, and as “Don” jumped into the water, he turned into a Salmon. I watched as the Fish swan quickly toward the Falls that lead to the Lower World, and as he went over the edge, he flipped up into the air momentarily and wiggled in a gesture of joyful thanks. I went back to the house. I saw that the daughter feels almost totally disconnected. The Dark Energy over the house certainly didn’t help, and that is now gone. But she needs a lot of empathy, understanding, and relating to, especially from her mom, who if course is trying to maintain the parental stance. I also saw that perhaps a counselor would be good for the daughter as well. I then went back outside and placed Pine Cones around the house at the cardinal compass points. These linked together in four streams of Spirit Light, which then expanded to a full dome, covering the house with protective Spiritual Energy. I then saw a couple of additional images. The first was of a Jamaican boy holding a boom-box up to his right ear as he rollerbladed along a street. He was in his teens, I believe, and seemed quite at home in his environs, even though the street he was on looked very much like a local town. I also saw the daughter as a small girl, perhaps 2 or 3, standing on one of those lawn water slides. She looked very unhappy, as if refusing to play on it..and looking very much like she wanted nothing to do with it. The final information I was given is that, given her life unfolding as currently foreseen, she will find working as a paralegal very interesting and exciting. But I also saw that she would very much like to be a performer..singing or acting. The Call Back then sounded, and I thanked my Guides and returned.

Notes: The presence of the thrashing Spirit no doubt contributed to the behavioral challenges being faced in this household. Its removal and the emplacement of a Spirit Dome over the house will go a long way toward bringing comfort levels back up. But the issue of relating and empathy also will play a large role. It’s easy to forget as parents what it’s like to be so young. Sometimes growth patterns are a result of an individual’s Sacred Path, and we need to honor that as best we can.

Owl and I playing at the beginning implies that Tamika needs to be much more playful.

The fact the Being turned into a Salmon is very important. Salmon represents listening to your life’s call..getting back to the Source in spite of obstacles and dangers. It is obviously key to Tamika’s happiness and success that she listen to her inner voice and answer her own calling.

The Pine Cones are significant in that Pine Trees are the Tree of Peace and being “ever green.”

The Jamaican Boy may have meaning in that Island cultures are more Spiritually based than our culture. There may be benefit in Tamika exploring the Spirit Side of Life more deeply. She needs to know that she is a Spirit Being who has lived before and will live again, and that this life is one of many. Also, Jamaican music and/or performance may be what she is naturally drawn toward.

The image of her rejecting the water slide is very significant. Water represents the Feminine and/or Emotions. The fact she is refusing to play in and slide along the Water shows she is rejecting her feminine/emotional side..too much left-brain thinking (logical, analysis) and not enough right-brain (intuition, Spirit).


4/9/05: The Mom's response: “As for the water slide, We use to have an in-ground pool in our back yard and my daughter would not go down or near it because when she was 1 1/2, she got stung by four hornets because they had made a nest under the ladder. Also for "Don", he fits my dad' s description his name is Dana. Also about my dad Dana. I forgot to tell you about the slab. My daughter was born in 1998, and my dad and I engraved her name and birth-date along with a 1998 penny on a concrete slab that was around our pool. Oh, my daughter loves music!! I thought that was neat.”

To which I answered: “Thanks for filling me in on some of the correlations! It is always so cool. The pouting on the water slide makes so much more sense now.. VERY interesting. Perhaps Dana’s “death” as Don in my Journey was more metaphorical..a death of an era of fatherhood. Or perhaps the unease of becoming a grandfather? Was your Dad cool with all this back then? It seems to close to ignore, so there may be a deeper meaning in the coma scene. As I recall and look back at the journey, I ASSUMED the man in the coma had died..I was never told that as I look back on the scene. So you must be right concerning the name and date. This is what is so cool about being the Vessel for the Helpers. They often pass along info that I might misinterpret, but the person for whom I Journey gets the real meaning.”

I also sensed her daughter was heading into her teens..I obviously read her maturity, and this helps explain her inability to relate to people her age.

Journey 184 - Another Vision Explained

4/4/05: A Journey to investigate a vision a friend had last week, concerning seeing herself standing along a singed shoreline. Beyond was a young maiden with dark hair, which was falling forward on either side as if tied, and wearing a white covering that had beading in front. As the co-worker was struggling to reach this Woman, who was beckoning for her to join her, the vision faded.

My purpose was to go to this point and take it from there, so to speak..to find out who this woman is and what she wants. After my usual preparations, I went into the Journey and found myself standing off to my co-worker's right and behind her. Things were in slow motion at this point. I turned and saw my Upper World Guide coming out of a thicketed area and joining me. This was obviously a Middle World Journey, since we had no Tunnels to go through. He came to me and said, “Just watch, Four Hawks.” So I did. I saw the woman beckoning to my co-worker, who was unable to reach the woman because, unknown to her, the co-worker was thigh deep in a very thick mud. So I walked over in front of my friend and crossed over to the Woman. As I was approaching her, I realized, much to my surprise, that this Maiden was actually a part of the co-worker's own Soul! I could not be sure if it is her Ami (“em”) or Upper World Soul, or her Suns (“soons”) or Lower World Soul. The fact the woman seems to appear in Native Dress implies genetic heritages, which would favor the Ami. Also the fact the Soul Piece is still here in the Middle World. This part must have been scared out of her..but when? The answer was not long in coming. As I reached the Maiden, she took my hand and we were immediately transported back in time to when my friend was perhaps 3-5 years old. She was running from a Hallway into the Kitchen. When she got to the table (which was barely at eye level for her), her Father or some other grown male, in argument with her Mother, slammed a fist down on the table violently. The male also had taken a swing at my friend with his left arm, either just missing her head or brushing her hair. This caused her such a start that part of her Soul fled to the back yard, and from there wandered off to where she is now. The Maiden then brought me back into the present. She took me back from where my friend had seen her and showed me a remarkable sight. The area behind her was a large and swampy. There were numerous skeletons lying on their backs, partially submerged in dank and gray water. It was fairly gruesome. I got the impression these were relatives. We went over and looked at a few of the bone sets. One resumed her living appearance for a second, and looked like an grandmother..old-fashioned clothing from the 40s, perhaps, with a dark blue box hat. We went further in, and the Maiden picked up a circular gold charm from a neck and let me read the inscription. This piece was quirt large, perhaps an inch across. I thought at first I saw an Eagle carving on it, but then a named drifted in..I never got to see it well, but it might have been “Mary”, May”or perhaps “Arins”, or something similar. I then looked up and found a male figure also hanging around..it was the Soul Piece of my friend's brother! The two of them had been supporting each other since fleeing. I was not shown when and how the other Soul Piece left. At this point, I briefly saw the head of a person wearing a poisonous gas mask..as if the swamp itself was unsafe. I then saw a Native American, dressed tribally, walking around the perimeter of this place, smoking a Pipe. He offered the Pipe to each of the Soul Pieces, and then to me. When I took in the Smoke, the dankness and drear of the area immediately disappeared. I saw the swamp transformed into a sunlit pond with lily pads and Frogs jumping around happily. I got the impression this was a caretaker presence..his job was to make sure they Smoked in order to wipe away the reality of the skeleton scene.

I then began wondering if my friend's Soul Piece wished to be restored to her. She indicated she would, but realized I could not do this in person as I have with others. So she transformed the area where my friend was into nighttime, and showed a Full Moon high above, shining down through an opening in the Trees onto where she sat. She implied that she would come back into her through the light of the Full Moon. I asked how this would be done. She told me to build a small wooden Ongon (a temporary home for Spirits) to house her Soul Piece in, which would enter by my leaving it outside at the next Full Moon. My friend was to then take her Soul Piece back into her just before throwing in onto a large fire for destruction. The Ongon was to have a picture of the Full Moon on it. This Soul Restoration would give my friend considerably more strength and solve any air-related problems she has (breathing, centering, etc). She would be able to be more in charge of herself and her life by being made whole again. The last image I saw was a bit disturbing..I saw a man jump onto a woman lying on her back near the edge of a bed, putting his arms down on either side of her shoulders, and yelling at her in a rage. The implication here may be that by restoring herself to wholeness, my friend will have more success in staving off negative male energy, whatever its source.

According to Ted Andrew’s Animal Speak: “Because of its connection to water, Frog is also linked to Lunar energies. Frogs are known to be heralds of abundance and fertility. Frog symbolizes you may need to get in tough with the water element again, especially if the waters of your own life have become dirty and stagnant. Since emotions are associated with water, people with Frog totems are ordinarily very sensitive to the emotions of others, knowing how to act and what to say. Frogs are said to bring the rains, for growing, cleansing, healing, flooding, etc. Spring and summer are its power times. Obviously Frog symbolizes transformation. Given Frogs’ strong attachment to water (the creative source) throughout their lives, Frog people can be very close to their mothers. Frog asks..are you becoming too mundane? Are you becoming mired in the mud of your day-to-day life? (my emphasis added..I read this AFTER the Journey) Are you needing to dive into some fresh and creative water? Are you waterlogged, bogged down or drowning in emotions?”

Follow-up: Upon reading this Journey, my friend was totally amazed at how true it was, how close to the mark. She thought it "amazing" a co-worker could know so much about her. Not only was the incident in her childhood validated, but the first few names I saw on the medalion rung completely true to her..they were her mother's. I reminded her I am only the Channel for the information..it is the Healers who are trying to reach her through me. I shall do the Journey to restore her Soul Piece at the next Full Moon.

4/24 I got up this morning and performed the Journey to bring back the Soul Piece. When I checked later to see how she was doing when transferring from my Mirror to the Stick Ongon I made for this purpose, I saw her sitting on a large log by a running Stream, splashing her feet in the running Water. When I told this to my friend, she told me that activity was her absolute favorite! There's no doubt this was her soul Piece, eh? :)

The Bear Dream

Had an amazing dream about 1 hour ago. I had just come down a seldom used slope on one ski somewhere and ended up in my back yard, again somewhere. I went over to a low lying dish sitting on a shelf in a shed, and it was filled with food..hamburger and some other things. Surprised but glad, I took a bit to eat and some of the rest almost fell out with abundance. It was sunny. Suddenly, I heard a sound to my left, and I saw a tremendously large Black Bear come through the thick hedges there. This Bear was perfect in every way. Size, shape, color, shine, each hair in place..magnificent. I was tremendously impressed but also quite concerned. Bear came right for me, and I was quite nervous, for I know of their destructive power. I felt it wanted the food, but there I was, right in the way. So I began to walk toward the house. It was more interested in me, though, and as I climbed the wooden steps, Bear was right behind me. I was walking slowly, figuring running would be worse. When I reached the storm door, I was on the wrong side. I opened it and had to swing on its hinges in order to get to the open side..this of course took me right by the Bear’s nose. Again I hoped this would not be taken as provocation. At this point, I began to realize the Bear was not after me in violence, but in friendship. I got inside and looked back. Bear was just waiting there at the bottom of the steps like a patient but hungry doggie. I ran into the house to my bookshelf (I was now back in my youth house..where all this began with the Shaman’s Dream 3 or 4 years ago). I was rifling through the books, trying to find the one that said what Bears like to eat. At this point, in my frustration and excitement, I awoke.

This is a tremendous vision. Not only is Bear the Healer totem, it is also the “patron saint” of the Mongolian Shamanic tradition. I went back and revisited with Bear after this, and discovered it was a tremendously tall Shaman Spirit. I lay prostrate in gratitude at the Shaman’s feet. Ever since this Dream, I have been humbled and so grateful. If you look at my site, I’ve been quite busy in the Healing area for the past few days. I believe Bear has come in response, and gives me extraordinary faith that my work will result in positive change for those for whom have journeyed. This is a huge deal..very big..I’m still trying to get my arms around it, if you will. A great leap forward, and something Shamans pray for over years, if necessary. What a life-changing and amazing thrill. :)

Journeys 182/183 - Cat's Tumor/Wife's Knee revisited

4/2/05: A Journey to investigate a stomach growth in my Niece’s Cat . After the usual preparation, I set up a 10-minute Drumming Loop and off I went. I found myself in a field of short and beautiful Flowers, some white, some other colors. Owl swooped in and landed on my left shoulder. The entire Earth surface then contracted into a small sphere upon which we stood. The sphere then took on the appearance of a cat’s eye, with Owl and I standing in the black pupil. We then sank down through it. We then went through the cat’s body, and soon came to where the mass in his tummy is. We looked at it. It was bloody red and bubbly, and seemingly alive with sparks. It was apparently cancerous. Owl and I decided to move into the mass and check it our further. Within we found a small, dark and amorphous Imprint darting around from here to there at great speed. It would be had to catch this one without restricting its running area. So I left the mass and sprinkled Salt all around it, to keep the Imprint isolated within the mass. I then went back into the mass and began to isolate its running area within. Once we had the Imprint “cornered”, it slowed down enough for us to realize it was a Baby Suld soul, a small Soul form a very young Human that had passed prematurely. It was obviously confused and had entered the Cat without knowing what it was doing. It was in need of guidance and companionship. I walked it out of the Cat and my Sister’s dwelling, and we began to speak. I told it how it could not live within another Being, for it was causing grave harm to it. The Soul asked me where it could live. I took it to some mature Suld souls who had become Helper Nature Spirits. But the little Baby did not want to live with strangers. It then made known its wish to stay with me. I told it I was a relatively new Shaman, and really didn’t know how to deal with a young Suld soul like it. So I suggested we go over and visit with the Grandfather Shaman Spirit I recently acquired. When we got there, I explained the problem to Grandfather. He told me that in an area we call Northern Quebec, there was a Spirit Playground devoted to young Baby Sulds like my little friend. He said that after a time, the Baby Suld would merge with 6 or 7 other Baby Souls and become a grown Nature Spirit. In this case, this Nature Spirit wil eventually come back to me and be my Helper. So we then went onto the surface of my Toli, the Shaman Mirror. It became the landscape from here to N Quebec, and we all flew along it very rapidly. We got to the Spirit playground, which was vibrant with reds, oranges and yellows, the colors of the lower Chakras involved with emotions, survival and individuation. Utawa, my Mirror Guide, was now also beside me. We watched as the Baby Suld Soul excitedly and happily ran into the area to be with others like itself. It looked at me and waved goodbye, saying it would see me again when it had matured into a full-grown Nature Spirit. We all then went back to the mass in the Cat. I tried attacking it with my Lightning-Struck Wand. It seemed to break into pieces, but it coalesced into a mass once again just as the Call Back Drum sounded. The issue was left unresolved. So, I took the Drum Loop and began it again, to finish off the task. We got back to the mass. It was now benign, having lost the dark Imprint Energy that was feeding its cancerous nature. I took out my Mirror and began to burn it with intense light from the Mirror. I watched as the solid mass turned into a more fleshy pulp..one that could be eliminated in time by the cat’s natural dissolving processes. I then focused on the Drumming, and found myself dancing around a Fire with other people sitting in attendance. They were clapping with the Drumming as I danced around as their Shaman. Utawa then merged with me, and I felt electricity run through my body. We both shape-shifted into a Hawk. We shot way up into Space, circling around, and then dove at instantaneous speed into the Fire itself. We soon emerged from the Flames unburned. The attendees watched in amazement at this sight. I believe this was my first Shamanic “miracle” before other people. I then sounded the Call Back and returned, thanking all my Helpers. I’m sure the news on the Cat will be positive tomorrow.

My 2nd Journey was to see what might be wrong with my wife’s knee, still aching after the ski incident a few weeks ago. I was able to move inside her knee, and took a close look at the ligament giving her trouble. I saw that the top portion had been spread thin a bit, as if unraveling a tightly bound stack of grass. There was also a very slight separation from the bone at the very top..nothing that needs surgery. My Meteorite Guide, Holds his Hands Out, came along and suggested I take my Meteorite and hold it toward the Knee. I did so ,and we found the ligament filling with and being surrounded by healing light. Then, my wife’s Hummingbird Power Animal came along and as opposed to extracting nectar with its long beak, it was placing nectar within the damaged areas. It was very busy, and would remain there until the knee healed. At the end of the Journey, I saw that a fabric knee brace is required to keep her from placing too much strain on the knee during the day. There was also a suggestion of placing a heating liniment on the area before placing the brace. Bottom line: corrective surgery was not indicated. Since this Journey, my wife has bought the brace and says there is no twinge activity going on anymore.

Mini-Journeys for the Pope

4/1/05: I took a mini-Hollow Bone Journey late this afternoon to investigate the status of Pope John Paul. He was lying in his bed at the Vatican, and I saw his Ami and Suns Souls floating a short distance above his body. Even though they were still quite close, when both these Souls leave the physical part of our existence, it is very sickening. I knew at this point that John Paul was indeed on his way out, unless something dramatic happened to brings those Soul Parts back in.

4/2/05: A second Hollow Bone journey this morning when I arose. I went to check on the Pope, and as I entered the Bone I saw young Karol sitting at his desk in Poland, working. This is his Suld, or Earth, Soul. It will remain here. His Ami, or Upper World Soul, was sitting at the top of the Bone, waiting to fly up. His Suns, or Lower World, Soul was floating in the water, awaiting its trip home. His body was lying very still and a deep blue.. I went over to it and re-opened his Chakras so his Spirit Energy would be able to escape completely. Last Rites seal off some of these Chakra too early by making a Cross over them.

But then the most remarkable and joyous thing happened. At the far end of the Tunnel this incredible bright light appeared. A voice called out and said, “thank you, Four Hawks.” The light dimmed enough for me to see a fleeting glimpse of Jesus himself, walking toward the light. I think I saw a blue shape walking beside him on the left. The incredible brightness then returned.

This was my first actual contact with the Shaman Spirit that was Jesus! He is obviously a very powerful Tenger Spirit..a Sky Spirit who lives intact, for lack of a better word. This gives me extraordinary joy to know you, my mom, all those who pray to Jesus, are actually being heard and cared for. I am SOOOOO glad. Tearful, really. It takes a great weight off my shoulders to know those who are serious in their relationship with Shaman Jesus are actually in touch. I guess I should have known that..after all, I have felt the Holy Spirit myself well back in my past..and on an intellectual level I DID know it. But know I have seen him on a Spiritual level..and it is a great joy and relief.

4/2/05: I heard John Paul died about 40 minutes ago, so I took my last Hollow Bone Journey. As I approached the entrance of the Bone, it was hanging suspended in the Universe, surrounded by clear and innumerable, beautiful Stars. Within the Bone itself, marvelous flashes of Rainbow-colored light played across every surface. Down at the other end, like this morning, an extremely bright light. The Pope’s Ami and Suns Souls were gone, as was his Earth, Suld Soul. I went to his body and unspun his 7 main Chakras, to allow any last vestige of spirit out, then sealed each Chakra with a Cross. This final procedure is not done to honor the Christian Faith..it is how one seals a Chakra. Carol is on his way, having lived a splendid Life. We should all be so Spiritually effective. And for those of you who believe wholeheartedly in Jesus, his Spirit is still in the upper World for you..and if you approach him correctly he will no doubt come to you. My Shaman Spirits come to me..and this is what Shamanism teaches..how to make that happen. Peace.

Journey 179/180/181 - Back Disc/Deck Feedings/Intestinal Flu

4/1/05: For many thousands of years, Shamans (Shah-mans) have been visiting with and obtaining real and vital information from the Spirit World. While many, more traditional Faiths rely on just that..Faith, Hope, etc., Shamanism involves actual contact with Spirit Helpers (called the Journey), who know what is best for that person whose name has been offered. These Helpers are all good, as Negative Spirits are dealt with so as to prevent them from passing bad information to us. In my Shamanic Journey practice over the past 2 years I have obtained from the Helpers (for people who’ve come to me and myself) Healing, partial Healing, and knowledge only the person I Journeyed for could know.

This link with the Spirit World derives from the long-proven techniques that have served other cultures for millennia..and still is just as powerful and effective today, undergoing strong resurgence not only in Asia and South America, but right here in North America as well. And yet, I don’t disregard or denigrate others’ religious beliefs, of course, for every Life Path is Sacred and should be inviolable. Shamanism involves a personal Calling, and is pretty much individualized. In my case, I was a Catholic much of my life, and am an American of Italian/Russian heritage. But, in my Spirit Walk of 50 years, I knew something was missing, and eventually was led to become a Shaman through a spectacular series of “coincidences” that a Christian might describe as the Holy Spirit on the move.

There is no organized Shamanic religion. This is why large organized social structures from non-Shamanic cultures over history have treated Shamans as a threat to their stability, and marginalized them at the least. Shamanism has been practiced in many parts of the globe (America, Europe, Russia, South America), and the techniques are remarkable similar across the eons and cultures, despite total separation until the past few centuries. The practice is flourishing once again as cultures become less constrained/more open.

The basic beliefs in Shamanism are:

everything has Spirit and is Sacred, deserving utmost respect (no human dominion over the world, animals, plants, stones);

everything has a Sacred Path, which is inviolable;

and humans have multiple lives, each chosen by each person in advance, each designed to further that person’s Spirit Healthiness.

In the case of your Disease, then, we look at it as a Life Force that is worthy of living..just NOT IN YOU, and/or not in its current form. So we get to the Spirit Level, as I have done in your case, and see why this Life force has come to live in you, and see if we can get it to leave, which I have. If a Cure or Healing does not ensue, then this is YOUR Sacred Path, chosen by you before you came here to further yourself Spiritually. This is ordinarily NOT the case, though.

I have Journeyed on your behalf and am printing the results below. Hopefully the knowledge I was given concerning your situation is valuable to you. Again, it may not lead to a cure for your condition, but it may well lead to a Healing..that is, a total knowing of the Truth concerning your Life Path. If you find value in my work on your behalf, feel free to write back. I can do more on your behalf, beyond what is presented here. If you are willing for more, so are the Helpers. I mention them a lot because it is not the Shaman who Heals..he or she is merely the channel through which this Spirit Power flows. We open ourselves up and then get out of the way, merely recording what flows by.

The terminology and structures of Soul below will be strange to you (3 parts..an Upper World, Middle World and Lower World). However, these structures are readily observable through Journeying. The Upper World is the place of Spirit Guidance, the Lower World the place of Spirit Power. We live in the Middle World, where there is also much Spirit activity. Also, Journeys involve Spirit Beings (powerful ancestors and/or creator Beings) who may take Animal form for our recognition comfort, and present sometimes literal, sometimes metaphorical views. If the imagery below does not fit your remembrances or experiences, take them more as metaphor.

Finally, I have found that the Spirits never mislead me..so what I’m giving you is directly from them, and should be taken quite seriously. I hope you will not be too confused by the methodology..all I can offer you is that all Shamans I have read about who have studied Jesus’ Life consider(ed) him a Shaman as well.

So, here is what I discovered in the Spirit Camp for you this afternoon:

Two Journeys, lasting almost one half hour total, to investigate a herniated disc condition in this woman's back. I lit the Sacred Candle, Rattled, Smudged and Centered, and set up a 15-minute Drum period. As I sank into the Journey, I found myself sitting on a snowy, windswept Plain with numerous lit Tipis ahead of me. Even though the winds were howling and the snow flying, I was not cold. All the residents were safely within their shelters. I sensed I should look up, and saw a large opening swirl in the Clouds directly above me. I could see the Pleiades, the Seven Sisters, becoming brighter and brighter. They appeared to be and were indeed coming down toward me. They passed through the Swirl opening and landed on the ground before me. They were now Blue Beings, formless but of human dimension. They surrounded me, and then each placed an arm deep into my center. I suddenly found myself floating in Space. Off to my right, a short distance away, in the shape of a spinal disc, was an asteroid, half eaten away. The eaten edges were sparking, as if continuing to deteriorate. I saw numerous Dark Beings moving around the edge. Realizing I was up there without any Helpers, I began looking around. Sure enough, as has happened several times before, my Upper World Guide, Eagle Claw, was sitting on his Space Ledge. He motioned me over. I joined him in dancing around a purple Fire. He was chanting and he went round, and I looked down at the Fire as I followed him. I then saw the woman's face appear in the Flames. At first she was an adult, and wore a grimace of pain. But then she became a smiling young girl. I was pulled down into the Fire and through it, down onto a grassy field next to a forest with large Boulders at the edge. I saw the girl running around, kicking a ball. I can’t be sure if she just stumbled at one point, or fell onto one of the Boulders back first..I saw both..but it was there that she initially injured her disc. This caused a weakness in her Aura that would have allowed a Dark Being to enter. I did not see this happen at this time, though. I then shot back up into Space, and was standing with Eagle Claw on his Ledge. The entire star field began to go black. Soon, all that remained were the Ledge with me and EC, and the Asteroid in the distance. I looked into the opening and saw the nastiest-looking Being I have yet beheld. I sat there, contemplating what to do. I felt I had no tools with me to handle this Being, and EC was keeping mum. Suddenly, the 7 Sisters swirled in. They quickly began to encircle the Asteroid with a cocoon of Blue Light, trapping the Being within. At this point, I found myself being turned into a Duck who was flying along a shore area with his Mate. We were very close, and flying together. We swung down into the marshes, and we landed in the river up the street from my house! From there I found myself, as me, coming back into my room. But this was not the end. My Lower World Guide, Snake (Crosses in Front), was waiting. She took me out the back yard, through the Wetlands and into the Clearing I have seen before in Journeys. We went down a mud Tunnel into the Lower World. It was nearing dusk there, and the field we came into was full of tall, purple flowers. Crosses came to me and placed two sticks in the ground before me, in the shape of the Christian Cross. I stared at it, and it became the skeleton for a series of Animals: a Squirrel, a Turtle, and then a White Skunk. The Skunk remained, and as it took off and ran through the nearby woods, I could see it glowing in the semi-darkness. It then ran back and jumped into my Arms. This was the woman's Power Animal. But then a most unusual event occurred. Skunk turned into a white Swan and flew quickly aloft. Swan then circled around four times, and as I did so I realized she was circling the Pleiades! Swan came back to me as White Skunk, and then we returned to the Room from the Tunnel and yard. There was still more to come..I knew we had to do something about the pain. So I asked my Shaman Grandfather, who has just moved into the large Moqui Stone I acquired (an ancient Shaman’s Healing Stone), and he walked me into a swampy area that came out onto a farm. He then showed me that the woman should consume lots of Apples and Pears. There must be something in them that will help reduce the swelling and/or deaden the nerve firings. I then was brought to her back, and saw her disc in her back surrounded by the Blue Light Cocoon placed their by the Sisters. Grandfather had me take my Lightning Wand in my left hand and my Meteorite in my right. With these two Sacred Tools, I began pumping Spirit Energy into the disc and its covering of Light. As this was occurring, I asked Grandfather how to deal with the Dark Being within. He told me this would require another Journey, and sure enough within seconds the Call Back drum sounded. I thanked my Guides and Helpers and returned to the room for good.

Right after making notes on the above Journey, I took off on number 2, using a 10-minute loop. I found myself sitting in the Eagle’s nest on the Rock Cliff face where I have visited in prior Journeys. Eagle (my Power Animal) came and stood beside me. Owl (also known as Eagle Claw, my Upper World Guide, this time in his Animal form) then flew in and landed on my other side. I took my Shaman’s Mirror and flung it down below, where it became a large Lake, covered in mists. In the middle of the water I saw a creaking, burned out old hulk of a large sailing Ship, all black. It was obviously a death/Ghost ship. We went down to investigate. The ship as still being piloted by a Dark Being who didn’t seem to care about our arrival. We went down below into the hold and found numerous skeletons. One of to the left, toward the front, was sparking in the same fashion as the Asteroid in the above Journey. I bent over this form and was able to determine his name was Bartholomew Winter, a sailor from several centuries ago. He was a particularly evil sailor who had not had a good life. He died in the waters off Cape Cod. His Earth Soul (the “Middle World” Soul), very deranged, then took off and began making its way northward, invading numerous people on its way. It took several hundred years, but he just happened to be going by the then young girl after she had weakened her Aura, and took advantage of this. We went back to the Asteroid at this point. I asked the Seven Sisters of I could enter their Cocoon. They told me to burn my way in with my Mirror and I did so. I found myself face to face with the hideous Being. Behind him, chained to the inner walls, were the Souls of quite a few others in captivity. I was not told who they were..but might be relatives? He asked my purpose. I told him he was causing great discomfort to a living human and he must leave her, and set his captives free. I held my Mirror up to him. He laughed and said, “Shaman, certainly you don’t expect to defeat me with merely a Mirror!?” But I pointed my Mirror at his face and the resultant light blinded him. While he was at a disadvantage, I grabbed my Shaman Staff (one of my Helpers must have handed it to me) and thrust it through his abdomen. He let out the most disagreeable wail I have heard in a long time, and quickly melted into a pool of Blood on the table he’d been standing next to. I absorbed this Energy with my Mirror And released it to Mother Earth after the Journey was over). The Captive Souls then wandered off. We left the Asteroid and returned to the woman’s body. A Native Young Woman had appeared, and she was kneeling behind her, applying Bear Grease and Buffalo Fat to her back. She said she would stay as long as necessary. I asked her name..wouldn’t you know it..White Swan. I then wondered what might be done internally. The Helpers seen me the following info. There is a wonderful back Doctor named either Watson or Atkinson out of Stamford, who has recently been through Kansas City and SW California. He is coming to the nearest large city. I was then shown that he could place a steel bracket in the woman’s back that would keep the adjacent vertebrae off her disc by freezing that part of her spine in place. At this point, the Call Back sounded. I thanked all, and returned.

Notes:

Journey 1 began in the dead of Winter, and Journey 2 revealed the Dark Being within the disc to be named Winter as well. Ice/cold must have a role to play in the easing of the pain.

The fact all the Natives were warm inside their Tipis shows the woman can find comfort by looking into and taking refuge in her Native side. There may be pain remedies for this condition the Natives have revealed..check the internet.

White Swan is competing with White Skunk as her Power Animal (PA). I believe Swan is the actual PA, taking on the form of Skunk for a lesson to Ann. Skunk qualities include Sensuality, Respect and Self-Esteem. Swans stand for Awakening the True Beauty and Power of the Self, prefer the cold, epitomize strength through silence, and are the totem of the child, the poet, the mystic and the dreamer. Both emphasize the Power of the Self to become better through focus on the good within one’s Being.

The color White is very important in this Journey. Both the Skunk and Swan were all white. This symbolizes great Spirit Power of very high order. White light can be used to wash the Aura and Spirit clean through both physical and imaginational use. And yet..white was counterbalanced by the Black Death Ship. This shows the value of seeking and attaining balance in Life, and seeing pain as a necessary partner to joy.

Buffalo and Bear are highly significant in Native American culture, and others as well. Bear is known as the Healer, and Buffalo the Provider of All. The fact the Native maiden White Swan was rubbing substances from both on her back implies great Energy is now going into this region..this should help ease the pain.

The fact her face was in the purple Fire on the Ledge is very important. The purple color shows she is of the highest Spirituality, and Fire reflects the center of Spirituality. She should have little trouble getting quite centered..she has a deep Life Fire within her.

The mixed metaphors of the Christian Cross and the Native Power Animals show she will get more out of mixing elements of both Spiritual disciplines. I can help in this area if desired.

Other Animal Spirit Appearances: Turtle refers to grounding to the Feminine Powers of Mother Earth, and becoming one with all her Life-giving Energies and Beings. Squirrel refers to being prepared, but mixing work with play nonetheless for the Sacred Balance.

Apples and Pears obviously need to be added to/kept in her diet to facilitate a Bettering.

The Duck episode was made all the more significant by the fact that after the Journey, when I went outside to start my coals for supper, the actual Duck Couple living in the Wetlands out back flew up and right over my head, a carbon copy of what I had experienced in the Journey. Ducks symbolize the ability to handle Feminine issues, and to learn to deal with deep emotions by floating on them, only diving in momentarily to extract the food they need. They are equally comfortable on land, sea and in the air. Hence, they exhibit the exquisite balance between Father Sky and Mother Earth, and speak to using all the gifts of both in living to the fullest. Here again, as with the woman in the fire, in the emphasis on balance. She should also remain in close formation with her Life Partner.

The Doctor’s name may not be completely accurate. However, the circumstances of his travel will be quite close. I don’t know if he practices in this named city or will just be here as a visiting physician. Nonetheless, the bracing of your verterbrae seems to be the recommended solution, but must be done by an expert in this city.

If I think of more correlations, I’ll send them along.

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4/1/05: A Journey (self-drummed) to see what will become of the Birds and Animals Spirit Sister has been feeding off her deck these past few years, now that she is leaving her house. As I sank into the Journey, I saw Owl come straight toward me from a completely black background. He stopped a short distance in front of me. My eyesight was incredibly sharp. I could see every little detail on Owl. It was as if I had Eagle sight. Owl then lifted his Wings is a grand, slow upward sweep, and the black behind him turned into an indescribably beautiful Biosphere. This was the Spirit Home of all the non-human species of Earth. It was no doubt the equivalent of the Garden of Eden of Christian terms. We wandered in and came to a small pond. A tremendously large Frog had the top half of his head sticking out, staring at us. I explained our purpose for being there to Frog. With one, huge leap, he rose to the top of a Tree. We went up there with him. At this point, we were at the exact floor level of Sister's deck. I saw the critters and birds feeding there, and just below them was the Biosphere. The two levels were intersecting. I realized that the two had always been interconnected. Everything will be OK with the Deck visitors because they are always connected to the Spirit Biosphere. We then sank back down into the sphere. I saw a huge hill ahead. I was told to go to the top and offer milk, tea and vodka (a traditional Mongolian Shaman offering) to the Spirit there. I did so. At that moment, I was back on the deck. I saw a large Hawk swoop down to Spirit Sister, who had appeared in the doorway. The Hawk placed strands of green grass within her hair, as if beginning a nest. I then saw her Aura fill with the vibrant green light of the Biosphere. This meant that this Sacred Energy Connection will always be with her, and that the visitors to her deck will always be tied to her goodness and love, wherever she or they go. All will be well. This completed the Journey..

NOTES: My Eagle eyesight must have been the result of my Power Animal merging with me. Perhaps this was required for me to enter the Biosphere as a human Spirit.

Frog stands for transformation through water and sound, with links to femininity, emotions. The land/water bridge shows the connection between the two, and will serve Sister well..all creatures are comfortable with her.

Hawk’s gift of the Nest speaks for itself..the welcoming of Sister fully into the Biosphere. J

If I think of more connections, I’ll post them.

The third Journey of this date, also self-drummed, was to deal with a four-day bout of mine with an intestinal flu. As I went into the Journey, I saw myself sitting on a ledge of Rock high above a River fowling behind Owl and I. Ahead of us was a tall tornado of swirling green leaves. I saw that this tornado was actually emanating out of my lower gut. I had contracted a Nature Spirit, or Burhan. As I delved deeper into this tornadic swirl, I was suddenly transported into a scene from the late 1800s. A single man was huddled over a small Fire with a stock of trees behind him and an open field beyond and to his left. I saw him suddenly die there. I then saw a relatively young Native American woman singing a mourning song over him. His Suld Soul became a Nature Spirit, and he seemed to very much miss his woman. This was the Nature Spirit that was now lodged in my abdomen, and he was unhappy. So, I absorbed into my Toli (Shamans Mirror), which turned a bright green, and Owl and I decided to try to seek out the Suld Soul of the woman who obviously had also died well over a century ago. We went straight up into the Sky, very high, and saw an indication of her Soul being way up in NW Canada. We flew there very quickly, and soared down into a wooded area and waited. The Suld Soul of the woman immediately recognized the man’s Soul as I released it from the Toli. She was anxious to reunite with the man, and they did. They went off together. Owl and I then returned to the embarkation point. I thanked Owl and came back into my room.

4/3 While I had another bout or two of the runs from the remnants of the invasion (this often happens..healing isn’t instantaneous), I shook it the next day and it has been gone now for 2 days.