Journey 179/180/181 - Back Disc/Deck Feedings/Intestinal Flu

4/1/05: For many thousands of years, Shamans (Shah-mans) have been visiting with and obtaining real and vital information from the Spirit World. While many, more traditional Faiths rely on just that..Faith, Hope, etc., Shamanism involves actual contact with Spirit Helpers (called the Journey), who know what is best for that person whose name has been offered. These Helpers are all good, as Negative Spirits are dealt with so as to prevent them from passing bad information to us. In my Shamanic Journey practice over the past 2 years I have obtained from the Helpers (for people who’ve come to me and myself) Healing, partial Healing, and knowledge only the person I Journeyed for could know.

This link with the Spirit World derives from the long-proven techniques that have served other cultures for millennia..and still is just as powerful and effective today, undergoing strong resurgence not only in Asia and South America, but right here in North America as well. And yet, I don’t disregard or denigrate others’ religious beliefs, of course, for every Life Path is Sacred and should be inviolable. Shamanism involves a personal Calling, and is pretty much individualized. In my case, I was a Catholic much of my life, and am an American of Italian/Russian heritage. But, in my Spirit Walk of 50 years, I knew something was missing, and eventually was led to become a Shaman through a spectacular series of “coincidences” that a Christian might describe as the Holy Spirit on the move.

There is no organized Shamanic religion. This is why large organized social structures from non-Shamanic cultures over history have treated Shamans as a threat to their stability, and marginalized them at the least. Shamanism has been practiced in many parts of the globe (America, Europe, Russia, South America), and the techniques are remarkable similar across the eons and cultures, despite total separation until the past few centuries. The practice is flourishing once again as cultures become less constrained/more open.

The basic beliefs in Shamanism are:

everything has Spirit and is Sacred, deserving utmost respect (no human dominion over the world, animals, plants, stones);

everything has a Sacred Path, which is inviolable;

and humans have multiple lives, each chosen by each person in advance, each designed to further that person’s Spirit Healthiness.

In the case of your Disease, then, we look at it as a Life Force that is worthy of living..just NOT IN YOU, and/or not in its current form. So we get to the Spirit Level, as I have done in your case, and see why this Life force has come to live in you, and see if we can get it to leave, which I have. If a Cure or Healing does not ensue, then this is YOUR Sacred Path, chosen by you before you came here to further yourself Spiritually. This is ordinarily NOT the case, though.

I have Journeyed on your behalf and am printing the results below. Hopefully the knowledge I was given concerning your situation is valuable to you. Again, it may not lead to a cure for your condition, but it may well lead to a Healing..that is, a total knowing of the Truth concerning your Life Path. If you find value in my work on your behalf, feel free to write back. I can do more on your behalf, beyond what is presented here. If you are willing for more, so are the Helpers. I mention them a lot because it is not the Shaman who Heals..he or she is merely the channel through which this Spirit Power flows. We open ourselves up and then get out of the way, merely recording what flows by.

The terminology and structures of Soul below will be strange to you (3 parts..an Upper World, Middle World and Lower World). However, these structures are readily observable through Journeying. The Upper World is the place of Spirit Guidance, the Lower World the place of Spirit Power. We live in the Middle World, where there is also much Spirit activity. Also, Journeys involve Spirit Beings (powerful ancestors and/or creator Beings) who may take Animal form for our recognition comfort, and present sometimes literal, sometimes metaphorical views. If the imagery below does not fit your remembrances or experiences, take them more as metaphor.

Finally, I have found that the Spirits never mislead me..so what I’m giving you is directly from them, and should be taken quite seriously. I hope you will not be too confused by the methodology..all I can offer you is that all Shamans I have read about who have studied Jesus’ Life consider(ed) him a Shaman as well.

So, here is what I discovered in the Spirit Camp for you this afternoon:

Two Journeys, lasting almost one half hour total, to investigate a herniated disc condition in this woman's back. I lit the Sacred Candle, Rattled, Smudged and Centered, and set up a 15-minute Drum period. As I sank into the Journey, I found myself sitting on a snowy, windswept Plain with numerous lit Tipis ahead of me. Even though the winds were howling and the snow flying, I was not cold. All the residents were safely within their shelters. I sensed I should look up, and saw a large opening swirl in the Clouds directly above me. I could see the Pleiades, the Seven Sisters, becoming brighter and brighter. They appeared to be and were indeed coming down toward me. They passed through the Swirl opening and landed on the ground before me. They were now Blue Beings, formless but of human dimension. They surrounded me, and then each placed an arm deep into my center. I suddenly found myself floating in Space. Off to my right, a short distance away, in the shape of a spinal disc, was an asteroid, half eaten away. The eaten edges were sparking, as if continuing to deteriorate. I saw numerous Dark Beings moving around the edge. Realizing I was up there without any Helpers, I began looking around. Sure enough, as has happened several times before, my Upper World Guide, Eagle Claw, was sitting on his Space Ledge. He motioned me over. I joined him in dancing around a purple Fire. He was chanting and he went round, and I looked down at the Fire as I followed him. I then saw the woman's face appear in the Flames. At first she was an adult, and wore a grimace of pain. But then she became a smiling young girl. I was pulled down into the Fire and through it, down onto a grassy field next to a forest with large Boulders at the edge. I saw the girl running around, kicking a ball. I can’t be sure if she just stumbled at one point, or fell onto one of the Boulders back first..I saw both..but it was there that she initially injured her disc. This caused a weakness in her Aura that would have allowed a Dark Being to enter. I did not see this happen at this time, though. I then shot back up into Space, and was standing with Eagle Claw on his Ledge. The entire star field began to go black. Soon, all that remained were the Ledge with me and EC, and the Asteroid in the distance. I looked into the opening and saw the nastiest-looking Being I have yet beheld. I sat there, contemplating what to do. I felt I had no tools with me to handle this Being, and EC was keeping mum. Suddenly, the 7 Sisters swirled in. They quickly began to encircle the Asteroid with a cocoon of Blue Light, trapping the Being within. At this point, I found myself being turned into a Duck who was flying along a shore area with his Mate. We were very close, and flying together. We swung down into the marshes, and we landed in the river up the street from my house! From there I found myself, as me, coming back into my room. But this was not the end. My Lower World Guide, Snake (Crosses in Front), was waiting. She took me out the back yard, through the Wetlands and into the Clearing I have seen before in Journeys. We went down a mud Tunnel into the Lower World. It was nearing dusk there, and the field we came into was full of tall, purple flowers. Crosses came to me and placed two sticks in the ground before me, in the shape of the Christian Cross. I stared at it, and it became the skeleton for a series of Animals: a Squirrel, a Turtle, and then a White Skunk. The Skunk remained, and as it took off and ran through the nearby woods, I could see it glowing in the semi-darkness. It then ran back and jumped into my Arms. This was the woman's Power Animal. But then a most unusual event occurred. Skunk turned into a white Swan and flew quickly aloft. Swan then circled around four times, and as I did so I realized she was circling the Pleiades! Swan came back to me as White Skunk, and then we returned to the Room from the Tunnel and yard. There was still more to come..I knew we had to do something about the pain. So I asked my Shaman Grandfather, who has just moved into the large Moqui Stone I acquired (an ancient Shaman’s Healing Stone), and he walked me into a swampy area that came out onto a farm. He then showed me that the woman should consume lots of Apples and Pears. There must be something in them that will help reduce the swelling and/or deaden the nerve firings. I then was brought to her back, and saw her disc in her back surrounded by the Blue Light Cocoon placed their by the Sisters. Grandfather had me take my Lightning Wand in my left hand and my Meteorite in my right. With these two Sacred Tools, I began pumping Spirit Energy into the disc and its covering of Light. As this was occurring, I asked Grandfather how to deal with the Dark Being within. He told me this would require another Journey, and sure enough within seconds the Call Back drum sounded. I thanked my Guides and Helpers and returned to the room for good.

Right after making notes on the above Journey, I took off on number 2, using a 10-minute loop. I found myself sitting in the Eagle’s nest on the Rock Cliff face where I have visited in prior Journeys. Eagle (my Power Animal) came and stood beside me. Owl (also known as Eagle Claw, my Upper World Guide, this time in his Animal form) then flew in and landed on my other side. I took my Shaman’s Mirror and flung it down below, where it became a large Lake, covered in mists. In the middle of the water I saw a creaking, burned out old hulk of a large sailing Ship, all black. It was obviously a death/Ghost ship. We went down to investigate. The ship as still being piloted by a Dark Being who didn’t seem to care about our arrival. We went down below into the hold and found numerous skeletons. One of to the left, toward the front, was sparking in the same fashion as the Asteroid in the above Journey. I bent over this form and was able to determine his name was Bartholomew Winter, a sailor from several centuries ago. He was a particularly evil sailor who had not had a good life. He died in the waters off Cape Cod. His Earth Soul (the “Middle World” Soul), very deranged, then took off and began making its way northward, invading numerous people on its way. It took several hundred years, but he just happened to be going by the then young girl after she had weakened her Aura, and took advantage of this. We went back to the Asteroid at this point. I asked the Seven Sisters of I could enter their Cocoon. They told me to burn my way in with my Mirror and I did so. I found myself face to face with the hideous Being. Behind him, chained to the inner walls, were the Souls of quite a few others in captivity. I was not told who they were..but might be relatives? He asked my purpose. I told him he was causing great discomfort to a living human and he must leave her, and set his captives free. I held my Mirror up to him. He laughed and said, “Shaman, certainly you don’t expect to defeat me with merely a Mirror!?” But I pointed my Mirror at his face and the resultant light blinded him. While he was at a disadvantage, I grabbed my Shaman Staff (one of my Helpers must have handed it to me) and thrust it through his abdomen. He let out the most disagreeable wail I have heard in a long time, and quickly melted into a pool of Blood on the table he’d been standing next to. I absorbed this Energy with my Mirror And released it to Mother Earth after the Journey was over). The Captive Souls then wandered off. We left the Asteroid and returned to the woman’s body. A Native Young Woman had appeared, and she was kneeling behind her, applying Bear Grease and Buffalo Fat to her back. She said she would stay as long as necessary. I asked her name..wouldn’t you know it..White Swan. I then wondered what might be done internally. The Helpers seen me the following info. There is a wonderful back Doctor named either Watson or Atkinson out of Stamford, who has recently been through Kansas City and SW California. He is coming to the nearest large city. I was then shown that he could place a steel bracket in the woman’s back that would keep the adjacent vertebrae off her disc by freezing that part of her spine in place. At this point, the Call Back sounded. I thanked all, and returned.

Notes:

Journey 1 began in the dead of Winter, and Journey 2 revealed the Dark Being within the disc to be named Winter as well. Ice/cold must have a role to play in the easing of the pain.

The fact all the Natives were warm inside their Tipis shows the woman can find comfort by looking into and taking refuge in her Native side. There may be pain remedies for this condition the Natives have revealed..check the internet.

White Swan is competing with White Skunk as her Power Animal (PA). I believe Swan is the actual PA, taking on the form of Skunk for a lesson to Ann. Skunk qualities include Sensuality, Respect and Self-Esteem. Swans stand for Awakening the True Beauty and Power of the Self, prefer the cold, epitomize strength through silence, and are the totem of the child, the poet, the mystic and the dreamer. Both emphasize the Power of the Self to become better through focus on the good within one’s Being.

The color White is very important in this Journey. Both the Skunk and Swan were all white. This symbolizes great Spirit Power of very high order. White light can be used to wash the Aura and Spirit clean through both physical and imaginational use. And yet..white was counterbalanced by the Black Death Ship. This shows the value of seeking and attaining balance in Life, and seeing pain as a necessary partner to joy.

Buffalo and Bear are highly significant in Native American culture, and others as well. Bear is known as the Healer, and Buffalo the Provider of All. The fact the Native maiden White Swan was rubbing substances from both on her back implies great Energy is now going into this region..this should help ease the pain.

The fact her face was in the purple Fire on the Ledge is very important. The purple color shows she is of the highest Spirituality, and Fire reflects the center of Spirituality. She should have little trouble getting quite centered..she has a deep Life Fire within her.

The mixed metaphors of the Christian Cross and the Native Power Animals show she will get more out of mixing elements of both Spiritual disciplines. I can help in this area if desired.

Other Animal Spirit Appearances: Turtle refers to grounding to the Feminine Powers of Mother Earth, and becoming one with all her Life-giving Energies and Beings. Squirrel refers to being prepared, but mixing work with play nonetheless for the Sacred Balance.

Apples and Pears obviously need to be added to/kept in her diet to facilitate a Bettering.

The Duck episode was made all the more significant by the fact that after the Journey, when I went outside to start my coals for supper, the actual Duck Couple living in the Wetlands out back flew up and right over my head, a carbon copy of what I had experienced in the Journey. Ducks symbolize the ability to handle Feminine issues, and to learn to deal with deep emotions by floating on them, only diving in momentarily to extract the food they need. They are equally comfortable on land, sea and in the air. Hence, they exhibit the exquisite balance between Father Sky and Mother Earth, and speak to using all the gifts of both in living to the fullest. Here again, as with the woman in the fire, in the emphasis on balance. She should also remain in close formation with her Life Partner.

The Doctor’s name may not be completely accurate. However, the circumstances of his travel will be quite close. I don’t know if he practices in this named city or will just be here as a visiting physician. Nonetheless, the bracing of your verterbrae seems to be the recommended solution, but must be done by an expert in this city.

If I think of more correlations, I’ll send them along.

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4/1/05: A Journey (self-drummed) to see what will become of the Birds and Animals Spirit Sister has been feeding off her deck these past few years, now that she is leaving her house. As I sank into the Journey, I saw Owl come straight toward me from a completely black background. He stopped a short distance in front of me. My eyesight was incredibly sharp. I could see every little detail on Owl. It was as if I had Eagle sight. Owl then lifted his Wings is a grand, slow upward sweep, and the black behind him turned into an indescribably beautiful Biosphere. This was the Spirit Home of all the non-human species of Earth. It was no doubt the equivalent of the Garden of Eden of Christian terms. We wandered in and came to a small pond. A tremendously large Frog had the top half of his head sticking out, staring at us. I explained our purpose for being there to Frog. With one, huge leap, he rose to the top of a Tree. We went up there with him. At this point, we were at the exact floor level of Sister's deck. I saw the critters and birds feeding there, and just below them was the Biosphere. The two levels were intersecting. I realized that the two had always been interconnected. Everything will be OK with the Deck visitors because they are always connected to the Spirit Biosphere. We then sank back down into the sphere. I saw a huge hill ahead. I was told to go to the top and offer milk, tea and vodka (a traditional Mongolian Shaman offering) to the Spirit there. I did so. At that moment, I was back on the deck. I saw a large Hawk swoop down to Spirit Sister, who had appeared in the doorway. The Hawk placed strands of green grass within her hair, as if beginning a nest. I then saw her Aura fill with the vibrant green light of the Biosphere. This meant that this Sacred Energy Connection will always be with her, and that the visitors to her deck will always be tied to her goodness and love, wherever she or they go. All will be well. This completed the Journey..

NOTES: My Eagle eyesight must have been the result of my Power Animal merging with me. Perhaps this was required for me to enter the Biosphere as a human Spirit.

Frog stands for transformation through water and sound, with links to femininity, emotions. The land/water bridge shows the connection between the two, and will serve Sister well..all creatures are comfortable with her.

Hawk’s gift of the Nest speaks for itself..the welcoming of Sister fully into the Biosphere. J

If I think of more connections, I’ll post them.

The third Journey of this date, also self-drummed, was to deal with a four-day bout of mine with an intestinal flu. As I went into the Journey, I saw myself sitting on a ledge of Rock high above a River fowling behind Owl and I. Ahead of us was a tall tornado of swirling green leaves. I saw that this tornado was actually emanating out of my lower gut. I had contracted a Nature Spirit, or Burhan. As I delved deeper into this tornadic swirl, I was suddenly transported into a scene from the late 1800s. A single man was huddled over a small Fire with a stock of trees behind him and an open field beyond and to his left. I saw him suddenly die there. I then saw a relatively young Native American woman singing a mourning song over him. His Suld Soul became a Nature Spirit, and he seemed to very much miss his woman. This was the Nature Spirit that was now lodged in my abdomen, and he was unhappy. So, I absorbed into my Toli (Shamans Mirror), which turned a bright green, and Owl and I decided to try to seek out the Suld Soul of the woman who obviously had also died well over a century ago. We went straight up into the Sky, very high, and saw an indication of her Soul being way up in NW Canada. We flew there very quickly, and soared down into a wooded area and waited. The Suld Soul of the woman immediately recognized the man’s Soul as I released it from the Toli. She was anxious to reunite with the man, and they did. They went off together. Owl and I then returned to the embarkation point. I thanked Owl and came back into my room.

4/3 While I had another bout or two of the runs from the remnants of the invasion (this often happens..healing isn’t instantaneous), I shook it the next day and it has been gone now for 2 days.

Journey 177/178 - Wife's New Job/Little Moqui Stone

3/31/05: A Journey to see if a new job prospect for my wife will work out for her. I prepared in the usual way, and set off with a 10-minute Drum Loop. As I entered the Middle World (somehow I knew this would be a Middle World Journey), I found myself lying face down on a steep hill of wet mud, clawing my way slowly up to the ridge. Owl came out of the nearby woods, and landed close to where I was climbing to. When I reached the top, Owl was at my left side, and a short distance away I saw four Native Elders gathered around a Fire across a grassy divide. They were Smoking the Pipe, and seemed to be considering an issue..no doubt my wife’s issue. One even looked over at me and turned back, and they all nodded. Suddenly, a large column of golden Light shot down from above and encircled the Elders. They dissolved into the Light, and the colors representing what they were streamed upward into the column, in a circle. Owl and I then walked over. Owl shape-shifted into Eagle Claw, my Upper World Guide. I told him I wished to see what the prospects for this new job were, and he pointed to the Column and in we went. We quickly zoomed up the Tunnel and were soon in the Upper World. We stood on top of the Clouds, which were numerous and white and cotton-ball-like. The sky was still a light Blue above us. I saw a Blue Heron fly by fairly closely, and then numerous other Winged Ones flying along at various distances. They were all flying exactly parallel to the Cloud tops. I then looked to my left, and saw a stairwell forming in the Cloud near me. It looked like a staircase one would see coming down from a rooftop. We went down into the Office where my wife works. It was dark. We went over to her desk. On it, lying sideways, was a set of dead Roses, with a Valentines Card from me. We then moved on into the place where personnel records are kept. Eagle Claw opened the drawer where my wife’s records are, and implied there was something damaging about her in there. We then went up the stairs leading to the lobby. I saw my wife over at the desk by the door, in her new job. She seemed quite happy and busy. She seemed to be well-liked by customers and her boss and some of his associates. But then we pulled back. I suddenly realized that she was lonely. There was no-one there to talk to, no radio to listen to. She seemed to be less happy, looking a bit like she regretted being there. We pulled back even further, and were above a less friendly and more aggressive supervisor's office. She seemed to be glaring out at my wife, plotting her demise. Eagle Claw told me that my wife should be very careful in whom she is competing against. If she beats out a person another supervisor wanted in there, the latter will actively work to hurt her. I then saw my wife being shipped off either to other offices in other towns, since her job in records had been filled. I then saw her back downstairs in the well-lit office, happy. I was told that by working her 6-7 hours overtime, my wife actually makes the same salary she would get if she went to the new, slightly higher-paying job upstairs. We left her workplace and went back to the Cloud Tops. A short distance ahead I saw a large and unusually beautiful Tree. It had large branches widely spaced, and its canopy was a mix of green, yellow-orange and red-orange. Eagle Claw and I climbed up the trunk a bit and came to a large knothole, where a glass mirror formed. In the mirror I saw the face of my wife with her beautiful smile. That faded, and then I saw some of the VPs of the office all gathered around for a group shot..and they were all wearing scowls. We left the Tree, went back to the Clouds, and dropped down through the Tunnel back to the grassy field. I thanked all the Spirits and faded out of this Journey.

Notes: This Journey implies obviously that the new job is fraught with possible bad outcomes for my wife. All she gets in return is slightly more money, lack of friendly contact, and people with more power than her plotting against her..and a possible long ride to a new location. The VPs obviously do not hold her in really high regard, given their surly faces at the end, implying they would not go to bat for her.

The dead flowers seem to suggest the death of a happy time when she would show these flowers around to her friends. In fact, last Valentine’s Day she was the only one to get them at work.

The fact 4 Elders considered her request before zooming up the Tunnel shows she is held in high regard by the Spirit Elders..she should trust her instincts, for they will be informed by these Guardians.

The Birds all flying horizontal to the Cloud Tops suggests the need to remain level-headed. Blue Heron leading the way implies the Great Spirit was also involved in painting this Journey.

Journey 2: 3/31/05: Journey 2 today was a short one, to meet with the Spirit of my little Moqui Stone that sits on my indoor Altar with my Pipe, Mirror, etc. Sacred Space was already open, and so off I went. I took the “Little Mo” and placed it on my Mirror as I lay on my back. I was suddenly lying on my back in the midst of a forest of very tall Trees, like Redwoods. I went very quickly through a day-night-day sequence. I was lying there again, and suddenly I saw an Orange Blob approaching me through the Tree Trunks. It seemed to have emerged from the Trees, and I knew it was an older Nature Spirit. As the blob came right up to me, I could see an elderly face outlined within the top portion. It looked a bit Native American, but also a bit Mongolian. It spoke to me and mouthed the word “grandson.” He then handed my little Moqui Stone to me, his right hand to my left. I got the insight that he is an old Shaman Spirit. I then realized that he was my ACTUAL Shaman grandfather in a prior life! I really AM his grandson. He then dissolved into the Moqui, and I saw him living in there in his hut, puttering around with his Pipe, and very content. I then found myself turning into an orange blob. I was floating in the Void..it has been a while since this happened. I knew I was suspended beyond Time and Space. In fact, I saw little scenes from “reality” forming in a wisp and then disappearing again..merely hints and suggestions of the World we live in. Grandfather then told me that he would serve as the coordinator for all my Shamans tools and Stones and Feathers sitting on my Altar. He would be the Head Shaman to offer the most Spirit power to them. Utawa, my Shaman Mirror Spirit, was thrilled to have a companion to keep him company when I am not using the tools. I am also thrilled to have my actual Shaman Grandfather helping me. That is a real WOW!

Journey 175/176 - Partial Native American/Large Moqui Stone

3/29/05: A Journey undertaken to discover the meaning of an event in a gentleman's (who is partially Native American) life. I know him via a sale we transacted over E-Bay, and in the course of our correspondence we came to discuss this event. I’ll let him describe the event: “I was once asked by a crazy man (named “Rooster”) who was standing in an open fire which other removed him before he was burned, what is your Indian name. He came to me directly from the fire and did not know me but looked directly into my eyes and asks, and a name came forth, as if I did not answer but something inside answered for me. I had a split second vision, images of this Indian time. It seems to have been my feet which belonged in this life but I am not truly sure. I tend to not seek but rather allow things in this life to be felt in a deep way.”

So I told him I would Journey and find out what the meaning of the “Rooster” visit is. So I prepared in my usual way, through lighting the Sacred Candle, Smudging, and Rattling in the Sacred Space. I then concentrated on my Purpose, and saw myself as a guest at this outdoor gathering the gentleman described above. I was off to the side and invisible, and I was waiting for my Helpers to come. I very soon spotted my Guides Owl and Snake standing at the clearing of a Forest. They soon shape-shifted into their human forms of Eagle Claw and Crosses in Front, respectively. I looked over to them and asked if it was OK for me to intervene in this scene, and Eagle Claw nodded yes, while Crosses lifted her hand to her mouth and blew me a kiss..a first there. So I concentrated on the scene and let the next stage unfold. The gentleman was sitting still by the Fire, which, as I stared at it, began to produce Red Streamers mixed in with the Flames. The recently bright afternoon suddenly went quite dark, and I had the feel of a very thin layer of charcoal or soot enveloping us. Suddenly, from the right, an Elephant emerged and came to stand with its two front feet right in the Fire. I knew this was the Spirit of “Rooster”, and sure enough, as the Fire roared on, the image of this person formed where the front of the Elephant had been. Rooster then asked the gentleman his question, “what is your Indian name?” But the gentleman sat motionless. A Sparrow then came and landed on his left shoulder. It was chirping energetically in the gentleman’s ear, but he was still. Then, a very large Owl swooped down and landed right on his head. His Aura then became very vibrant and golden colored. I knew that Owl was his Power Animal. Suddenly, a swarm of hundreds of Sparrows came flying in and began circling around the man in a tight vortex. They then flew off, and I knew that his Power Animal was named "Sparrow Owl". The Elephant retreated back to my right. Owl spoke to me, and asked me to come over. He showed me how he had left an Owl Feather on the ground for the gentleman, but he did not notice it. Owl then launched himself into the Sky and began flying from Cloud to Cloud. He was leaving little yellow patches, and soon one Cloud had a full yellow patch on it. I then walked over to Eagle Claw and Crosses, and asked them what I should do next. They told me to go back next to the gentleman. As I did, I saw the top half of a ghost of an Indian coming partially out of the ground from lying on his back, reaching his right hand out to the gentleman, who was still motionless and unresponsive. He then looked at me and told me to tell him that he will visit him in a Dream with a very important message concerning his Native heritage. The scene then shifted away, and the last fleeting image I saw was on my own granddaughter, smiling and playing. The Call Back Drum sounded and I returned, thanking all the Spirits who had helped.

Notes:

The Red Streamers have a strong implication of Native dress. The fact they were in the Fire itself, which symbolizes one’s Spiritual Center, indicates that strands of his Native Heritage are very much alive in the center of the gentleman's existence.

The darkness that moved in like Soot or Ash must related to something that happened to the Spirit that came as Elephant. Perhaps a village was burned down..

Elephant stands for Ancient Power, Strength and Royalty. Obviously the Spirit who came to him was a very powerful one in old times..no doubt a Chief and/or Shaman from an ancestral Tribe. This is greatly enhanced by the appearance of the Indian Ghost, telling the gentleman to watch for him in a Dream. Elephants are closely related to Clouds in Shamanic lore, and hence represent the interface between what is seen and unseen..the mist..the shroud between here and there. White elephants were held particularly Sacred..the gentleman might have dreamt of one at some time..or may soon do so.

The Sparrow Owl, per se, does not exist. However, there is a Sparrow Hawk that associates very closely with a type of Owl: the Screech Owl. Hence, Screech Owl is his Power Animal ( a Spirit Being who takes the form of the most appropriate Animal given the traits the person is in need of). Owls see well in the dark, meaning he can be very good at seeing what others are trying to hide. They are of the night, and hence have a strong relationship to the Feminine. The kiss from my Lower World Guide, who is female, strengthens this need to honor the Feminine on your Life. They only screech when the young are at risk. They are ferocious and courageous, putting them in the same class as the Great Horned Owl. They have a fondness for woodlands borders and crickets and mice. They are excellent hunters, showing both individual and cooperative abilities, showing him can work along or with others, depending which brings a better chance of success.

Also, the gentleman should be on the lookout for an Owl Feather. This will serve as a home, an “ongon”, for his Owl Helper. He can use it like a Wand of Spirit Power.

The yellow of the Owl’s eyes represents the Sun shining into the darkness of Night..the ability to illuminate what most cannot see. The fact that Sparrow Owl painted a Cloud yellow shows that this might be where the gentleman will most serve his needs..especially since Clouds tie into Elephant, the other main Spirit visitor.

The presence of my Granddaughter can mean many things. Perhaps the granddaughter of the Chief is ready to come into the gentleman's life..

Finally, I plan to mail him the pages concerning Owl and Elephant in the next few days. There is way too much to copy, but there are no doubt other things in there that will help him even more. I found it very interesting that he saw a split image of the Indian time while Rooster was there. No doubt it was the Indian Spirit in the Ground near where he sat that brought that image to him. The fact he was pretty much motionless throughout this event tells me it happened at a very high speed..a fleeting instance in our time..and hence his missing it all. :)

Hope this helps. I stand ready to investigate or explain further if he wishes.

4/1/05: Here is part of the reply I got:

"
During the same time frame when Rooster walked from
the fire to me, my wife of almost a year now had a vision. She was
14 years old at this time, in her vision she saw a stone archway with
darkness on the other side, she was not afraid. Over this archway she saw a
symbol, about one year later she had this symbol tattooed on her and it is
the only tattoo that she has. In the vision she walked through the archway
into a Forest and she came upon a lake, this was a lake of wisdom to her
and she felt much respect from the lake. An Indian village was next to the
lake in a valley and it was on fire. The people of the village were running
away from the fire which happened to be away from her direction as well.
There was a little boy wondering in the burning village, she changed her
vantage point and only the few moments later she was looking to see if she
could find the little boy again but he was dead. The next thing she
remembers was she was running, not away but to something, she is not sure
what she was running to but it was important that she get there. The vision
was over then, she was awake during this vision; it did not come to her in a
dream.


My wife asked if she could read your email and was
quite taken back by the content involving the burning village and how her
vision tied in with that and the events that brought her and I together. Ten
years ago I spent some time in meditation before drawing two animal cards
from a deck for doing animal readings. I drew the Hawk first and the
Mountain lion second, however an interesting fact from many years prior when
I was 18 years old. A company hired me to set up uranium claims for them in
the Southern Utah desert where our only sense of direction were survey
government survey monuments driven deep into the ground. This was a place of
wild mustangs and life is different out there. The first night of a three
week expedition before going deep into the desert I passed a stone archway
carved by wind and lake Bonneville which covered the entire region eons ago.
I made camp in a place called Goblin Valley and was keep up all night by
Screech Owls; humm somewhat interesting. "

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3/29/05: A non-drumming Journey #2 undertaken to meet with the Spirit of the large Moqui Stone I bought over E Bay. As with the Meteorite Spirit, I simply Journeyed without Drumming, wearing my Mirror and holding the Stone tightly to my Heart Chakra. The Sacred Candle was lit, lights were off.

I discovered that the Moqui is a Spiritual replica of the Egg of Life I saw in a prior, recent Journey. The inhabiting Spirit who spoke with me is called Rahkahshahn (spelled phonetically). He told me that I was to do an incredible amount of Healing, and to restore Life where it has been quashed. He implied Mother Earth was getting further and further into trouble, and that I was to somehow play a major role in reversing this trend. I found myself listening in disbelief, for I still can’t imagine my Shaman practice will grow to the point where I could have a large effect across the World. However, just as my Four Smoke Epiphany changed my life forever, a similar Ritual or Journey may just do the same trick on a large scale in the future. He told me that with this Stone, I would be able to inject Life Force into anything I chose. I was simply to handle the Stone as the Egg of Life, and to pray through it.

3/30: As I thought about this result today, I realized something truly remarkable has happened. My Meteorite has given me the ability to inject Spirit into things..and now Rahkahshahn has given me a similar ability with Life. The Universe is made of Spirit, Life, Love and Law..and now two of the four are for use by my Helpers through me. I shall of course need further training on how to apply these abilities, and will only do so with Helpers guiding me. But it is quite boggling to think of the incredible Power on tap here..






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Journey 173/174 - Another Deceased Husband/Spirit of Meteorite

3/28/05: A Journey undertaken at my dear friend and co-worker’s request for a fellow by the name of Emmanuel, who has recently passed to the Spirit Camp. She feels his wife will be made more easy if she knows how Emmanuel made the transition. I went in with no assumptions, but was hoping things went well. But as I was beginning my preparation after Smudging, Rattling and lighting the Sacred Candle, I got a strong sense of blackness that I tried to dismiss, in case it was my tiredness or some other mental imposition making itself known versus the actual start of the Journey. I concentrated on my purpose some more, and soon saw a Forest before me. I saw Owl swooping in from my right, and he was a brilliant, glowing green. He landed in a Tree ahead of me that was an equally brilliant, glowing red. When he perched, though, veins of green began running along the Trunk and Branches. I approached the Tree, and as I began to climb as instructed by Owl through thought suggestion, I noticed the Bark was very edgy, pointed. It was very painful to climb up the Trunk, but I noticed that the sharp points did not cut me, even though the sensation was there. Once with Owl, he asked if I wanted to go check out Emmanuel’s status, and of course I said yes. So he grabbed me and up we went above the Tree Line. We saw in the distance a very black circle low on the horizon, encircled in a purple ring. I knew this was the tunnel we would be taking, but since it was so low and sloping downward, I was not sure if we were heading to the Upper, Middle or Lower Worlds. We flew quickly and were at the mouth of the Tunnel in a second or two. We entered, and I noted that the Tunnel was very dark, warm and moist..almost a Tropical feel. I was told by Owl to be patient with this one, for it would take longer than normal and I might be tempted to introduce imagery of my own. So I waited, listening patiently to the Drumming, and we eventually emerged from the darkness into an equally dark Land. All there was to be seen were small orange campfires, with Spirit Beings around them. They were just black outlines against black, with the red eyes. I knew we were in the Cave of Lost Souls. But one Fire to my right had an older man, sitting next to it, seemingly shivering in a daze..confused. His hair was thinned and combed back, and was white with almost a trace of blonde in it. I thought about Emmanuel’s name and possible heritage, and wondered if his hair would even be this color. But I went up and asked if he was Emmanuel, and he seemed very glad to see someone who knew who he was and why he was there. He then became very animated and said he was quite upset at having been taken from his Life. He seemed to run against the Tunnel entry in anger. At this point, I went into a deeper state, and recall seeing a Chinese man fighting with a stunningly beautiful Chinese woman, who at first seemed quite fetching and happy. But soon the smile turned to aggression, and she lunged at his chest with a long wooden pole. His look was one of expectation and resign. The next scene I recall was of Owl fluttering around me, recommending to me that I take Emmanuel to the World River so his Soul could be sent on. But first Emmanuel wanted to visit Cathy one last time. I went with him as he went into their bedroom and wrote his name in some dust on a bureau. I then asked him to blow a portion of his Spirit into her Heart and Crown Chakras, so as to bring her peace of mind. That breath would deliver her enough of his essence that she would cease to feel lonely..that the would feel him with her. He did so. We then went off to the River, and as he reached the edge where the river drops to the Lower World, I saw his Soul split onto two pieces. The one went down, the other up to the Tree of Life. Both his Ami and Suls Souls had remained together after Death! No wonder the poor guy was so lost and confused. He has now been released, and will move onto his next lives..but he has left enough of his Love with Catherine that she will be able to live in peace.

Notes: The Green and Red reminded me very much of the traditional colors of Christmas. The fact the Tree so lit was causing me pain could be working on several levels, but was probably the result of Christmas being the favorite time of the couple, and now the time when the pain of separation will be felt the most.

The confrontation between the Chinese couple may be a metaphor that Emmanuel felt guilt about an argument he might have had and never apologized for.

The fact both Soul Pieces were still united was new to me. We were probably in the upper World when in the Cave of Lost Souls, but we may also have been in the Astral Plains. There seemed to be a very horizontal feeling to this Journey. We never went up or down, and all motions seemed to be lateral.

I don’t know the wife will actually find Emmanuel’s name written in dust. It may have been a metaphor for his finally accepting his passing. But his new presence within her Chakras, and therefore within her Spirit Being, will no doubt bring her greater ease with time than would have been the case.

Based on the close relationship this couple had had, I am now not surprised at the tenor and pathway of this Journey. He obviously did not want to leave as soon as he did..

Journey #2:

3/28/05: A non-drumming Journey undertaken to meet the spirit of the piece of Meteorite I bought a few weeks ago. I used my Hollow Bone technique to move into the Spirit World. I lit my Sacred Candle and lay in the near-dark. I was wearing my Shaman’s Mirror and placed the tiny Meteorite in the center of it as I lay on my back. I whistled in my Hollow Bone and was soon within it. I saw numerous meteors flashing across the sky-roof of the Bone. I sensed suddenly that my Mirror was expanding beneath me, and soon I was standing on a very large and ancient plain. A shot distance ahead was my Meteorite piece, now a fairly large black stone hill but in perfect detail. Dinosaurs were running around. At first they ignored me, but soon one picked me up and placed me atop the black hill that was now my Meteorite piece made large. I sat and waited to meet the Spirit of the Meteorite, who was very quick in coming. He was an older Being, with very long and wispy white hair. His face was the shape of a light bulb, and he had the black eyes so common among the Spirits. I kneeled before him and told him I was honored to be in his presence, and that my name was Four Hawks. He told me he knew who I was and that he had chosen to come to me. He told me I was going to be a great Healer for my World. He said once I had soaked the Meteorite piece in a bit of alcohol and drunk it, his spirit would be there for me at my will. I asked his name. He sat and said nothing, and then started waving his arms. It may have been a trick of time, but it seemed as if he had four of then, two on either side, and they waved in opposition to one another on each side, up and down. Think two Birds flying right at you with their wings beating at the same speed but one with high wings and the other with low. He then lifted me up onto a Meteor that was floating up in space. I watched as he took two of his hands and held them out toward a planet we were passing by. Incredible bolts of Energy flew out of his hands and began covering the globe below. It was being filled with Life spirit, and I got the sense that this Planet would develop all forms of life, much as Earth had. I also sensed his name was Holds Out his Hands. This Being went around to selected planets and populated them with Spirit on behalf of the Great Spirit. A very powerful Shaman Spirit indeed! I asked if he had done Earth, and he said now, there were others like him. But he did say Earth had had to be “restocked” several times due to the immolation of Life by advanced Beings there.and that it looked as if it would happen again there. He then told me that once he was part of me..merged with me..I would likewise be able to use my hands for pouring life into People and things. I was awestruck. He then merged with me and told me to try it. I lay in the dark and held my hands out in front of me. I could barely read the imprint of the Energy outline of my hands on my visual cortex. But it was there. But as I concentrated on sending out rainbow light from them, I was just not able to see it. However, after trying for a minute or so I could feel the tension in my cortex from trying. Obviously this is something I must develop further. We then separated, and I held the Meteorite up to my Third Eye Chakra to see if I could see anything more, but outside a few outlines in blue there was nothing much. I then came back down off the black hill and left the Hollow Bone and returned to me room, still honored that I will have such a wonderful Helper Spirit.

Journey 172 - My Mother's Fall

3/25/05: My mother went to the hospital with my wife as a companion and travel guide for the latter's appointment. My mom was in my place, for I had been asked to work on my day off. When I had first found out that Ma was taking my place, I had a very strong premonition. I saw her walking along and falling over onto her front. However, I dismissed this as just worry, little remembering that with all my Shamanic work on seeing better Spiritually, that I was actually viewing a future event. So off they went, and all went well until they were leaving, when Ma fell going onto a large curb and mistook a flimsy pole for a solid one. She ended up with 17 stitches and a Cat Scan to check for internal injuries.

I was over 50 miles away when I found out about this. Unable to go down and help, I decided to take my new Shaman’s Staff (a 5 foot long, almost straight, 1”-thick Tree Branch with a small ”Y” at the top, that was lying along the pathway to my 5-Stone altar a few days ago) outside to my Prayer Spot and pray to the 7 directions for my mother to be OK and heal well.

Later in the evening, knowing I could do more, and after everyone was back home, I took a non-Drumming Journey to see what else I could do to help. Owl met me immediately, and we both flew off toward my Mom’s house. It was night, and as we flew we went over streetlights and passing cars below. When we got to her house, I saw something I did not expect: her Guardian, Julianne, was pacing back and forth across her back deck. She was quite distraught that she had not been able to prevent this fall. Owl and I both went to her and soothed her, saying it was not her fault, it was part of the Sacred Path of my mother that this should have happened. Also, I said, I had seen a premonition of this evnt and had done nothing to prevent it, either. I have never seen a Guardian Spirit blame him or herself before like this. Once we all were settled down, Snake appeared and I decided to go with her to try and find a Power Animal for my mom. We went down to the small stone wall in her yard and found an old Garter Snake entrance into the ground. We both went in. We soon found ourselves in a field overgrown with tiny white flowerets. I saw a Mouse go by from right to left and ignored it. But within seconds a Blue Heron landed in front of me, and I could tell it was there to be my mom’s PA. It came back with us through the Tunnel, and together we went into my mom’s bedroom, where she was lying on her back. I, Snake and Heron joined Spirit Hands and we circled around my mom as I chanted my Female Healing song. An incredibly bright cocoon of Rainbow Light formed around her, so thick that Ma almost became invisible within it. Then, Blue Heron shrank in size, flew in circles over my mom’s chest, and then dived in through her Heart Chakra. I knew then that she was in good stead.

3/26: This morning I took my Staff out to the 5-Stone Altar and placed the base in the center of the array. I then pointed the tip of the Staff toward my mom’s house, and let a portion of the intense Spirit Power constantly swirling about this Altar to beam over to her.

3/27: We all went up to Mamere’s today for Dinner. On the way up I told my wife it would be really nice to see a Blue Heron fly over us. We saw several Peace Eagles and quite a few positive Crow fly-bys, including one going right up the highway with us. As we were leaving Mamere’s I saw a Hawk being chased by a Crow, indicating a need for me to follow the guidance of the Spirits chasing me. Then, finally, as we were nearing my house, we got that Blue Heron fly-over. It was flying from right to left, however, indicating I need to do more to bolster my Ma’s Power Animal. Tonight I will perform a ritual to increase the “windhorse” in both my Mom and her Power Animal, Blue Heron.

Journey 171 - A Husband Passes on

3/24/05: A Journey taken to see what kind of help I can be as a husband leaves this world for the Spirit Camp. He passed away on the 22nd of this month.

I prepared in the usual way, and soon found myself watching Owl approach, totally black. He then turned into a golden brilliance, almost instantaneously. He then lifted me up above the place we had met, and left me to myself. This was a very disjointed and easy Journey, as I only saw fleeting images throughout, which told me all was well with the man. I saw his Suld Soul head into a small Fir Tree along a snow-crested ridge, telling me he had found a new home with no trouble for that part of him that remains here in the Middle World. The next imagery I recall is his Ami and Suns Souls, acting as one, running around me with great vigor as we stood on a beach at the Atlantic Ocean’s edge. He seemed quite happy to be there, and was zooming to and fro like a child. The next scene I recall was standing at the edge of the waterfall where the River of Life heads back down into the Lower World. On the bank to the right stood the Tree of Life. His Suns Soul gladly dropped over the edge of the Falls, and his Ami quickly fluttered up into the Tree. This told me that the two remaining Soul Piece made it back home with no trouble. I have to say that of all the journeys I have taken, this was the most straightforward and imagery sparse as I can remember. Obviously, he is in good shape and I was only shown enough to verify that..and that was, of course, the purpose of me Journey to begin with. It was nice to see there were no complications or Spirit issues that had to be cleared up. I’m very glad for him and his family, as such a simple viewing of the aftermath indicates all is well!

Journey 170 - Wife's Friend's Job Guidance

3/24/05: A Journey taken to see what kind of help I can get for my Wife's friend. I asked for no specifics, just the best guidance possible for her at this time. After setting up Sacred Space and Rattling/Smudging, I was off..another 10-minute Drum loop.

The first image to appear was the sight of a light blue Being slipping out the side door of a huge, pitch-black warehouse in which I was standing. I was along except for my Guardians, Two Feathers and Gray Wolf. Despite the utter darkness and silence, I felt no fear and waited patiently. Suddenly the floor of the Warehouse cracked open and as the gap widened, I could see a field of Stars below me. The floor remained solid, though, so I did not fall through. My Lower World Guide, Crosses in Front, then came to me from the right. She was a pulsating blue color. She soon shape-shifted into her human Woman form and came to stand by me. I then saw, quite a distance away, the friend's body floating lifeless in Space. But soon it became animated, and turned a bright red. Then, it turned normal color. As she then began to walk, the scene shifted to a Desert with a very tall, conical hill a short distance ahead. The hill had no vegetation on it, and seemed to be made of brown and black Stone. Crosses and I went up the Hill and found her sitting on a large Stone slab to our left. At our feet was a very old tiny Tunnel, the entrance encased in webs and pieces of dried grass. Crosses reverted to Snake form and we both went down into the Tunnel to seek Guidance from the Lower World. At first we saw what looked like Diamonds along the walls, but as it got darker these were no longer visible. We soon emerged into the Lower World, and in a great surprise we found ourselves standing in the same dark warehouse where it all started. Then, 4 light blue Beings came in the door on our left and sat at a table a short distance ahead. Their Light illuminated the table. I went at sat with them. They pulled out a deck of cards which sat an undulating blue color on the table before me. At the Beings’ instructions, I pulled 4 sets of cards that were laid out for fortune telling. This was a first. The cards were: 1 pair of 4s covered by a 3; a pair of jokers covered by a 9; a pair of kings covered by a 5; and a pair of 2s covered by a 7. The Beings then showed me a possible future job area for the friend: I saw her standing as an attendant in a gym or a day spa, where she not only worked but was working out. This job seemed to be located in a comfortable climate quite a bit farther south. The Beings then suggested we get a Power Animal for her, and we were immediately brought to a Field in the mid afternoon. I saw many Animals go by, but none were the PA. I saw 4 Turkeys, a Fox, A Porcupine, a Rabbit, a Crow, and a Rainbow Trout jumping out of a Stream. None of these exhibited the necessary friendly behavior, though. But then a Mountain Lion appeared and came right down to me from a nearby rise and licked my hand. I asked if he were the friend’s Power Animal and he said “yes”. We were then allowed to inspect the state of her Aura. What we saw amazed us. She was covered in innumerable thin strands of what looked like hay..these are a thousand or more imprints from prior emotional upsets and woundings. I’ve not seen something like this before, and these are no doubt the major force contributing to physical health issues. These need to be cleaned off immediately. I was then shown that she should wash herself in soaps containing Juniper or its essence from here on out to cleanse and keep her Aura clean. As I was reviewing the Journey at this point, the Call Back sounded and I thanked both the Light Beings and Crosses in Front for their help.

Notes:

1. It was unusual (a first for me) to begin in the Warehouse, and then later tunnel down to the Warehouse again. Since the first Warehouse was well out in space, this was obviously an Upper World Structure. This means the person we saw floating in Space was one of her three main Soul Pieces, the Ami. The trauma of recent events had separated it from her Body (this happens quite often). But the Soul Piece has already returned to her body, by virtue of leading us to the Mountain that then brought us down to the exact replica of the Warehouse in the Lower World. The light Being leaving the first Warehouse may well have been her Soul Piece on its way back home, and not a Helper. The 4 Light Beings in the Lower World Warehouse were never identified, but they are obviously Spirits with her best interests at heart. Therefore, she has much Help from the Spirit World that she as not been aware of until now. The Beings are no doubt ancestors and/or other Helpers.

2. The meaning of the Fortune cards:

The 4/3 combo reflects an important message is coming concerning a problem in your life.

The Joker/9 combo reflects an important celebration will result from unlimited great luck/blessing or happiness.

The King/5 combo means a man will try to bring this great fortune and happiness but it will be restricted in some way..this suggests it will bear its full fruit from another source.

The 2/7 combo means there is a marriage problem that is thwarting or blocking you, that someone in your marriage or a partnership is angry with you.

This is a very good reading. She must be ready for the important message and act on it, plus t seems that her great fortune will be more the result of actions she takes than those of her husband, who shows up at this point as a negative influence by virtue of his anger. His does not mean the anger or restriction is permanent. It is simply there at this time.

3. Now, onto some of the symbols. The friend floating in space after my being in the dark Warehouse suggests she feels incredible detachment and lack of light from this recent event..and a serious need for grounding. Her turning red reflects her intense anger, that will burn out, as we saw, as she returns to normal.

Blue was the predominant color of the Spirit in this Journey. Blue means peace and creative expression. It eases loneliness. It awakens expression and inspiration. It is a universal healer. It strengthens the respiratory system and lowers blood pressure. The friend should make this the predominant color in her life.

The many different animals parading by means that she has had many influences on her emotions, thoughts, and beliefs, and is fairly well confused by a fleeting attachment to them..sort of being tugged in many directions at once. The fact the Hill her Soul Piece climbed when leaving Space was Black and Brown again reflects that need for grounding (see her in space above).

Her Power Animal, Mountain Lion, comes to bring leadership into this area..to set her on a straight course. And a wonderful Helper this Spirit is for her! Adapted from Ted Andrew’s Nature Speak comes the following guidance concerning Mountain Lion: “Lion means “Assertion of the Feminine and the Power of the Female Sun”. People with Lion as a Power Animal should examine their relationship to groups closely. Also, female Lions are the best hunters, and raise their cubs with patience and affection, a lesson for those with this totem. Lions hunt by stealth, and this stealthiness should be used when pursuing new endeavors and objectives. Young lions are associated with the rising Sun, and reflects the idea of rising feminine Energies. After all, the Sun gives birth to new days, and it nurtures and warms Life. Therefore, Mountain Lion tells you to trust your feminine Energies: creation, intuition and imagination. Don’t be afraid to roar if you feel intruded upon or threatened.” This is a very strong female-force Power Animal, telling the friend she must take full control of her Life and Emotions, using them to “hunt” her “great blessing”.

The diamonds at the entrance to the Tunnel to the Lower World suggest such blessings, but they were atop the Hill that suggested the need for grounding first. Also, the fact the Tunnel entrance appeared unused for years implies the key to the Blessing lies in an idea or concept that was probably formulated in youth but long since forgotten or neglected.

Journeys often produce metaphors versus literal details. Hence, the suggested job in a gym or health spa is not necessarily literal, but reflects that she will do best if she is providing a service in which she is helping people better themselves in the health area.

Juniper is uplifting; Medicative; a relaxant, digestive and tonic; antiseptic; purifying; good for skin care. A good choice for cleansing the Aura daily.

So, by adopting the lessons and help of the Mountain Lion Spirit who now walks with you, and by cleansing in Juniper based products, you will begin to assert the calmness and creativity that will make that fortune of celebration and happiness come true.

Hope this helps..feel free to ask questions..and can always journey again if you need further Guidance.


3/29: Here is the friend's response: "All I can say is WOW.......I have been looking at mountain lions on tv....with a total engrossed state.....of late. Weird until now....I now know what it meant.
The rest is all true.....my husband says he's not angry with me, but I do feel it.........the hay weighing me down with everyone that has been hurtful to me over the years....I need to let go and shake the hay (them) off and truly ground myself....I've always tried to "please all of the people....all of the time" and I need to stop and please me! I feel like I have been floating in space for over ten years, since my illness began and with taking all of my medications.
Do you feel that the session ended abruptly....or is that how it goes sometimes......some longer, some shorter readings?
I can't wait for my next "Journey".....will talk to you soon.....thanks again!"

Journey 169 - A Friend's Friend with Cancer Spots

3/24/05: A journey taken at a friend's request for her friend. Here is the message I received this morning: “Hi, All. Well, I had my usual PET/CT scan today and it showed that there are multiple spots where the cancer is still active. Not sure what we’ll do this time around. The doc has suggested another type of chemo and then maybe an immunotherapy trial, but I’m not real eager to go down that road AGAIN.

So, we’ll be thinking and praying about our options. If you’ve run across any sort of natural-type remedy that you’ve not wanted to bother me with, now is a good time to share ; ) We’re open to anything at this point!

Thanks for your prayers and support as we take another crack at this.“

So I set up Sacred Space and began my Journey with a 10-minute Drumming Loop. It’s important to note here that the Soul is divided into three main parts, two of which reincarnate and one of which remains here. The Ami (“em”) is the Upper World Soul and carries links to genetic lineages. The Lower World Soul in the Suns (“soons”), and is linked to past lives. The Suld (“soold”) is the Middle World Soul that remains here after Death and is supposed to wander off after a time into Nature and become a Helper Spirit. Spirit Intrusions in living people by any of these Soul Pieces can result in illness. On to the Journey:

Even as I was Rattling beforehand, though, images of this man as a young boy and a certain building kept flashing into my mind. I had to hold them off before I began, so as not to confuse messages from the Helpers with my own thoughts. Once in the Drum Loop, though, wearing my Mirror, I was ready to accept the information. I saw a large Moon hanging low in the late afternoon Sky before me, and my Guide Owl came flying toward me directly from the Moon. He landed on the ground in front of me. Before us was a very large and flat Field covered in brilliant yellow Flowers on a bed of brilliant green. Owl and I then began to search the Sky for a Tunnel opening. Suddenly a Meteorite came barreling through the Sky, trailing smoke and flame. It landed so near to us that we felt the ground rumble and were soon covered in a thin layer of dirt dust. A chunk of the Stone landed next to me, and I picked it up. Even though it was still very hot, I felt and suffered nothing as I held it. Owl then shook the dust off his Feathers and picked me up. We went up through the Tunnel that had been created by the Meteorite’s passage. As we went through this area, I sensed the mixture of Space and Air. When we emerged, we were in front of this Building I had seen earlier. It was a small A-Frame, two-story building, red with white trim, one door in front. It looked like a very small schoolhouse, or perhaps a small store. It was sitting in a square next to a small bridge. I sensed that radon gas was present in this building, and this had had an effect on this man when he was very young.

The scene then shifted over to a larger building, a train station. Across the tracks was a baseball field where the man as a youngster was currently playing. The area was quite dark, as there was a Thunderbeing nearby, and it seemed quite angry, as if there were a lot of negative Spirit in the area. Owl told me to crush the Meteorite chunk in my hand and go up to the top of the Thundercloud and sprinkle the dust into it. I did so, and this caused the Thunderbeing to release its Rain. However, it was raining Blood. Soon, the entire field and all its players, including the boy, were soaked in red. They were now completely still, as if frozen in Time. I walked up to the boy and viewed his Aura in my Mirror’s reflection. The top half of his body was nice and clean, but as I went lower I saw a large black spear sticking out of his right Kidney. I tracked the spear back to a Dark Being sitting on the edge of the woods next to the Train Station. When I viewed this Being in my Mirror, I saw a very old Man, sitting confused and scared. I got the sense he was a relative of the boy’s, and his name was Walt. I went up to him and began to use my Mirror to restore direction and sense to him. He soon turned much younger, and then split into two Soul Pieces..the Ami (Upper World Soul, the “genetic” Soul) and the Suns (Lower World, Past Lives Soul). Both seemed very happy to finally be separated and freed. I took them to the place where they would return to their respective Worlds, and they gladly departed. I found it very unusual that both Soul Pieces would remain together after Death. The Passing must have been extremely troublesome. I then returned to the boy, and found the chunk of Meteorite lying next to his feet, back in one piece. I was instructed to place this chunk into the hole left in the Kidney by the now departed Spear. I did so. At this point, the Thunderbeing returned and poured cleansing Rains on the field, with four quick, blue Lightning flashes that formed a square around Nate. The Sky then cleared and the little Nate began playing again. Owl and I, finished here, returned through the Tunnel to the Flower Field. I sensed, though, that there was still trouble with tis man in this World. So we shot over to find him in his kitchen. Behind was a lurking Dark Being. I knew instantly this was his relative’s Suld Soul Piece, that part of the Soul that remains here after Death, the last remaining of Walt’s. I took my Lightning-Struck Stick, recently acquired, and pointed it at the Soul. The Stick poured out a Rainbow-colored fluid that restored the Soul Piece to a normal color. It them wandered off, as it should have long ago, into the distance to find a home in the Trees and Stones. At this point, the Cal Back sounded and I thanked Owl and returned.

Notes: Owl flying directly out of the Moon indicates a need to honor the Feminine side of existence in a big way. Next to Mother Earth, Grandmother Moon is the most potent Female Force in this World. Healing comes from balancing the Male with the Female.

The field of brilliant colors suggests a need to be outdoors more, in beautiful locales.

The dust on Owl’s Feathers that was shaken off suggests airborne contaminants in the man’s house need to be removed by a filtration system.

The mixture of “Space” and “Air” I experienced moving up through the Tunnel created by the falling Meteorite shows that somehow there is a reduction of oxygen in the man’s system. Lung function and blood hemoglobin should be checked.

The constant presence of the Meteorite symbolism indicates that the Spirits of the man’s Ancestors need to be honored and/or invoked in some way, as the Ancestors tend to inhabit the Sky Path of the Milky Way. The fact a relative of his had a Spear in the man’s “young boy” kidney, and another part of him was lurking behind his “adult him”, shows there are issues here needing resolving. I was able to dislodge this Energy and restore the relative to wholeness, but somehow the underlying issue of the relative’s Death and subsequent events/effects is still a sore point. My placing the Meteorite in the gash in the kidney left by the Spear resulted in its restoration.

The presence of the Thundercloud shows again the need for connecting with clean Water, versus polluted or “bloodied” Water. This tells me, among others things, that the man should no longer be eating red meats. Also again, Water is a female element, reflecting that need to reconnect with Feminine Energies.

The presence of the Kidney spear, and the covering with blood, suggests that the source of the cancer may be related to either the kidney, or blood, or both. His blood is apparently carrying the cancer trigger. The fact that cleansing with electricity occurred may mean some sort of dialysis or other mechanical cleansing, driven by electric power, is required.

The little boy playing ball was actually his Ami Soul, since we went to the Upper World to observe the ball game. This is again the “genetic”-based Soul Piece, reflecting that Ancestral link..perhaps a disease an Ancestor died of should be investigated and treated.

Finally, the opening scene with the small red building and the hint of radon demonstrates that the man's current house should be also checked for radon emissions.

If and as I think of more correlations, I’ll add to this list.

Journey 168 - My Wife's Knee

3/21/05: Over this weekend we were on our annual ski trip, where we meet with family from the north. This was our second such Ritual. When we first arrived on Saturday afternoon, I contacted the Spirit of the Mountain, who appeared to me as a huge Being wearing a coat made of Snow and Pine Trees. I spoke with him and asked for Protection for us all over the next 3 days (on the way up I had seen enough Spirit Birds crossing from right to left to make me a bit nervous). I also spoke with the Ice Princess of a past Journey and asked her to accept our presence as people of Joy.

Yesterday, after many wonderful runs, we had an incident in which my wife was unable to get onto the lift chair the three of us were taking, and got caught up in the no-man’s land to the left of the next approaching chair. Unable to get free in time, she was knocked down and dragged under the chair before it stopped. Seeing this, I jumped off the chair I was on and ran back to her. She seemed OK, but after the next downhill run said her knee ligament was bothering her. She took a few more runs, but by now it was late and she cancelled out of the final run of the day. Afterthat run, we sat at the lodge for a good 15-20 minutes, looking for her (she said she would wait there), but she did not show. We had her paged..nothing. While we were waiting, though, a huge Hawk flew toward us from upslope. He or she then began circling almost directly above the lodge. I was too exhilarated by the day’s skiing to take this as more than just a visit of one of my Helpers to give me more Windhorse as she went round and round. But soon thereafter we discovered why she was not answering. She had gone down to the First Aid shack for ice and they were keeping her there until someone came to get her. Once I knew this, I was silently berating myself for missing the message of the Hawk: in this case, as so often happens, Hawk was actually signaling “danger”. Had I been more aware, I would have know immediately that she was at First Aid..instead, we waited another 5-10 minutes.

That evening, I began my work on her knee. My son had also damaged the back of one of his, so I took my nearly pure Quartz Crystal, brought along for such an eventuality, and held it to both their knees, to absorb the Darkness from them. For my wife, though, I then invoked the Spirit of the Hawk. I sent the warning Hawk, in miniature, soaring in circles over her Knee, where it would stay for the remainder of the Vacation. I then asked the Spirit of the Mountain to help my Wife, and he sent a Bar along to walk over the surface of her knee above the injury. Later in the evening, while we were in the hot tub, I took a quick Mirror Journey. I met Utawa, and the Mirror surface became an Ocean. We soon approached a small Island, where a Spirit Being sat next to a small Fire. I went up to him and asked if he were the Spirit of Healing Knees. He said he was, and I asked him to come with me to heal my family’s knees. I offered him Vodka, Tea and Milk in thanks. The Spirit agreed to my request, and jumped into the Mirror Ocean and quickly spread throughout it. I then returned to the hot tub and let that Spirit float into the hot tub Water and the pool Water, and saw him flow into both the knees. I left all this Energy in place for the rest of the weekend. My wife was able to ski the next day, and although she had some pain, she only missed one run to rest her knee. As we were leaving to come home, I released the Hawk and Bear spirits back to the locale, as that it where they belong. The Knee Healing Spirit is still at work.

Journey 166/167 - Protection for a learning Shamaness/My Cold

3/15/05: A Journey to help find protection for a Native-descendant Friend as she begins and goes through the process of learning to Journey. I Smudged the room with both Sage and Sweet Grass and lit the Sacred Candle, representing the center of Self and also of the spirit World..the same thing. I then Rattled in Sacred Space. I put on my Shaman’s Mirror for protection. I then sat and prepared myself by breathing slowly and deeply, with a good pause in-between each Breath, while saying the purpose of my Journey over and over again, awaiting the arrival of the Scene and Guide who would take me. It, as usual, was not long in coming. I found myself sitting in a field filled with yellow and white flowers, with some purple Loosestrife. Off to my right was a large stand of Trees, with the late afternoon Sun beyond them. From that direction came Owl, my Upper World Guide. His Spirit Name is Eagle Claw, for when in human form he wears a large Claw dangling from his neck. Owl was huge, immense, which told me I was fairly small. I suddenly realized I was a Chipmunk! Owl landed beside me and asked me if I was ready to go. I was, and he gingerly took me in his Claws and lifted us up off the ground. As we went higher and higher, the Day quickly turned to night (there are no restrictions on Time and Space while Journeying). The Stars were brilliant above us. As we went high, I noticed a Fire burning far below in a clearing. We headed for it. The fact we did not go through a Tunnel indicates this was a Middle World Journey..a trip to the here and now of this Reality. Had we gone to the Upper (place of Knowledge, Enlightment and Heritage Souls) or Lower World (place of Power Animals, empowerment and past-life Souls), we would have gone through a Tunnel. When we landed, I found 5 Mi’kmaq Tribe sitting around a Fire. Owl dropped me off on a Stone Person surrounding the Fire that was not occupied by a Tribe Member. I caught the attention of an elderly Native Woman with gray Hair, who upon seeing how I was dropped off said, “there is something unusual about Owl dropping his prey off at our Fire, instead of eating him. Come here, little one..” I looked at her eyes and they were shining a bright gold. The top of her Aura was connected in a thin vortex of Light all the way up into the Sky, so I knew she had a profound connection to the Great Spirit and Ancestors. I knew she was an Elder, a Shamaness. She took me up in her hand and spoke further to me. “You are a Shaman Spirit, aren’t you. Why have you come here?” I explained my purpose via thought: to find a Helper to protect my dear friend, a relative of hers, as she begins her Journey into her Heritage. She then took me away from the others and the fire into her Wigwam. There, we sat down together next to a smaller Fire. She lit Smudge and then began to Drum. Soon, a Spirit appeared on the opposite side of the dwelling. She was young, a Native Maiden. I asked if she had come to be Anne Marie’s Protector. She answered yes. I asked her name. She said “Ashes of the Swamp”. I asked why she was called that, and she replied that she was the Spirit of the past Vegetation which protected the new Seedlings from harm by lying dead on the Ground until the Seedlings were strong enough to grow into their new Life. I knew this was the ideal Spirit for my Friend, for she is like such a Seedling..ready to burst into the Light of the Truth. I asked her how she might return with me, and she asked to be placed in my Shaman’s Mirror, then transferred to a Stone Person of my choice. This Stone would stay with my Friend until she had successfully navigated the Spirit World and had her own Protectors. Suddenly, the two of us were standing on the surface of my Mirror. Utawa, the Blue Shaman and spirit of my Mirror, was there. Ashes knelt to him and told him it was an honor to meet him. Obviously Utawa is well–known in Spirit Circles. Utawa then pointed to me and said, “my young Shaman grandson is obviously doing very well, seeking help for his friend.” Ashes then came over to me and literally caked me in Ashes..very fine and soft. Within this cocoon, I suddenly felt very young and vibrant and at peace. It was a very nice Gift. She then pulled those Ashes back, and sank slowly into the Mirror. I saw her Energy then spread across the entire surface. At this point, I was back in the Wigwam. The old woman Grandmother picked me, the Chipmunk, back up and carefully carried me over to the Fire. She sat me back on the Stone I had been placed on originally. All five Tribe Members then tool turns spitting into the Fire. With each Spit, the Fire grew stronger. It was so bright at the end that is called Owl back out of the nearby Trees. He came and picked me up. I thanked the Members and Grandmother and we left. Owl brought me back to the Meadow, and from there I returned to my room. During the Call Back Drumming (a series of spaced double taps followed be a long stretch of very rapid drumming), I regained my awareness of this Reality. I transferred Ashes from my Mirror to an Obsidian Bracelet using heat from my Candle. My Friend should wear this Bracelet while Journeying.

Note: The fact the spitting caused the Fire to grow shows the Fire was made of Spirit Energy to begin with. The growth signifies the growth my Friend will experience in her Spirit Life. No doubt she will someday meet this Shamaness relative who called in the Helper Ashes to guide her. I was made a Chipmunk so that my appearance from the talons of an Owl would immediately cause her to recognize my status as a visiting Shaman Spirit.

A second Journey this same day was of a more personal note. My wife and I are going this weekend for our annual ski vacation, and I have come down with a sore throat and runny nose..I really do not want to be sick for this vacation, as it promises to be so splendid. So I took this Journey to try and convince the Spirit of the Cold to leave me and seek Life expression elsewhere. As Sacred Space was already opened up, I began the Drumming and concentrated on my goal. I soon found myself standing in my back yard. Owl was walking toward me, and he led me into the Woods. The Woods could only be seen via the Auras of the Trees, Stones, etc, not their typical appearance in this reality. I looked down to my right and standing right beside me, about 2 feet tall, was a small, brown blob of Light. This was the Aura of the Disease that was now within my Earth Robe. It walked in unison with me, and yet was slightly apart. We continued on together as I searched for a new home for this Life Force. Soon, ahead of us, the Aura of a very large Tree appeared to open up, allowing us to see the contents within. Inside was a large Tree Spirit, offering the Illness a place to stay. But the Brown Blob was very afraid of this prospective home, and clung even tighter to my leg. We moved on. We came to a magnificent flowered Field, and once again the Illness did not want to leave me. But then, off in the distance, was a large, snow-capped Mountain. When the Blob saw this, it appeared to say, “Yes!”, and it zoomed off away from me. It raced well up the side of the mountain before fading from sight. I then looked down and saw a hole in my Aura where the Blob had been attached. I took my Shamanic Mirror and using sweeping strokes restored the wholeness of that area. I walked back out of the Forest with Owl, but took one last look at the Mountain. I saw it rippled by Rainbow Light, and knew the Disease Spirit had been transmuted in Joy. I thanked Owl and awaited the gradual bettering in my condition.

3/18 follow-on. Although I expected and still had cold symptoms the day after this Journey (after all, it takes the Robe a little while to cleanse itself of the remnant of illness), by today I am completely well. We are packing for the vacation, and I am no longer sick. I am deeply grateful to the Cold Spirit for allowing itself to be transmuted into a new Life.

Journey 165 - A dear Friend's Sister in Conflict

3/11/05: A Journey to help adear friend’s sister with her internal conflicts. I opened Sacred Space by Rattling, and lit the Sacred Candle. I set up the Drum Loop and concentrated on my Purpose.and off I went. Owl appeared to me, at first caked on his back and the top of his Wings in the same black matter that had been falling onto my friend’s mother’s house, but he quickly shook that off..a sign of hope. He then took his place in a nearby Tree. I looked around at the Landscape. It was stunningly beautiful. It was Night, and there was a clear area next to the Forest lit in a soft Light..from somewhere. There was snow over part of the Land, but the rest had green Vegetation. The Stars above were very clear and quite bright, and stretched not only down to the Horizon, but across and through the Land as well. It was as if the Landscape had been superimposed over the Universe. Owl flew down to me, transformed into his human shape of Eagle Claw, and we then walked along together across the Star-studded Ground. As we walked, however, the Land narrowed and narrowed. Soon we were walking across a very thin Cliff, not more than several inches wide. We came to the end, maybe ½” wide, teetering. To our left, right and in front was an eternal fall into the Stars. We looked directly below and saw a gorgeous swirl of golden Energy far below. Eagle Claw suggested we turn into Birds, and so he shifted back into Owl and I became Hawk. We dove together off this thin edge of Rock and headed down into and through the golden Tunnel. When we emerged, we were in a tunnel, tan in color on all surfaces, square and just big enough for us to walk along. My Lower world Guide Snake came along and she joined us on our Path. The Light grew dimmer and dimmer and soon we were in abject darkness. Then, I saw a quivering purple mass far ahead and above us. A Voice came from that direction and asked me, “why have you come here, Shaman!?” I told him I had come concerning help for this sister and her conflicts, but he already knew why I was there. I suddenly saw before me a large, life-size chess set. Two Dark Beings were sitting opposite one another, playing. The sister was one of the pawns on the board. The Being on the left picked her up and said “we have control of this pawn, Shaman. We each have turns owning her, so she knows not which side she is really on. Why don’t you come and join in the game?” So I approached the board. I realized that in order to play, I had to become one of the pieces, so I merged with the Knight. I found I was free to move around the board, independent of the Dark Beings’ game. I landed on a square and looked down at the square to my left. There I saw a Hummingbird and then a Robin flying freely in a open forest. I looked down at the square upon which I was standing and saw a Crow flying along beneath me, as if I was standing on its back. This told me my Spirit Guide Crow was guiding my moves. So I hopped over to an open square next to one of the Castles on the side of the board owned by the speaking Being. The scene transformed and I was at the base of an actually small castle turret. At the top I saw a few white Doves and a Turkey sitting. But so far, none of these sightings had indicated a Power Animal for the sister. But at the base stood a wonderfully robust Mountain Goat, completely with wispy beard. I went up to him and asked if he were willing to be the sister’s Power Animal. He said he was. He then assumed his human shape, and was a tall, elderly Spirit Gentleman..with wispy beard, of course. He said he name was Atalaha, and that he would try to help the sister. But, he told me, her conflict was genetically based, so there would only be so much he could do. The rest was her Sacred Path and therefore inviolable. Atalaha turned back into Mountain Goat and we zipped back over to the place on the board where I had started from. I then had to rescue the Sister Pawn, currently still in the right hand of the Being on the left. I noticed the Pawn was turning from light to a very dark Red, indicating the sister was wrenched with emotion. I zoomed up to the Being and attached myself to the Pawn. I then told him “you must release this Pawn to me”, took out my Mirror and absorbed the Being into it. The Pawn and I then fell straight down onto the board, directly in between the protective presence of the King and Queen. The other Being complained at my removing his partner, and was becoming quite threatening until I pointed my Mirror at him. He then backed up a bit and said, “well, there’s no more game here, Shaman..but we shall play again sometime..” The chess board then disappeared. We were back in darkness with the purple blob in the distance. It spoke. “You have what you came for, Shaman..you may now leave.” I thanked the Spirit very much, and I got the sense it said, “ahhh, don’t mention it.” I got the sense I would visit here again in future Journeys. My two Guides, I and Atalaha then turned and walked back through the Tunnel. Atalaha turned into a very small Goat piece so that I could easily clench him in my Hawk Claw for the ride back. Up the Tunnel we went, back along the Cliff and into the Star Land. Snake left us, and Owl returned to the Tree. I let Goat graze on the magical Grass to enhance his powers. I rubbed his neck and thanked him very much for coming along and he looked up and smiled, as much as a Goat can smile. At this point, the Call Back sounded.

Among the attributes of Mountain Goat are the ability to give proper support to others as they move; flexibility to explore new possibilities; overcoming lack of support from others; trust in your ability to land on your feet after a fall; association with the sign of Capricorn, which asks, “are you being too serious or not serious enough?”..offers help when ambition and opportunistic behaviors get out of hand; helps regain balance; has ties to Pan, Amalthea and the Horn of Plenty. Goat implies it is time to begin new climbs and endeavors. With proper foresight (horns), you will see what lies ahead and move forward with great surety.

Hummingbird: Joy
Robin: New growth, spring
Dove: Feminine Energies of Peace, Prophecy and Maternity
Turkey: Giving, Shared Blessing and Harvest

The fact these four Bird types were present but not engaged means these qualities are currently suppressed in the sister..

3/12: My friend reports (and I got chills) today that when her sister was young, she had a pet GOAT! Truly amazing, but not surprising. The info the Helpers give us is invariably accurate.

Journeys 163 and 164: Two for my Wife's Friend/Coworker

3/8/05: Two for my wife’s friend, who has recently developed a cloudiness over one of her eyes:

Journey 1: After the usual preparations, I began the Drum CD loop and immediately saw my Shaman’s Mirror on my chest glowing with a soft blue Light that outlined its contours. This told me that the Blue Shaman was powerful and ready to assist/protect. I then found myself in a very dark Forest. The Trees had no color whatsoever..just black outlines against a barely visible Sky. I was sitting by a Fire, with Black Panther, my totem of the West, lying beside me. I was stroking Panther’s head, rubbing the fur thereupon. Then, in the nearly black Sky, I spotted Owl moving across from my right. He was flying in loops, crisscrosses, ascents and dives..all the while leaving a trail of Rainbow specks. Owl then flew really high and began circling around, building a Tunnel to the upper World. Once the base of the Tunnel had reached the ground, I and Owl went up. As we emerged from the exit at the top, I found myself back in a Room I had visited before in a prior Journey. Owl flew and put the Room Lights on. There before me was a huge Mountain made of, or at least covered in, innumerable Stones of many sizes, shapes and colors. At the top I could see a Pink Swan floating patiently. I knew I had to get to the top, and began climbing. Soon the exertion was too much, so I shape-shifted myself into a Hawk and flew the rest of the way. Once at the top, I landed and stood right beside Pink Swan. As we looked into the surface of the Pond Swan was floating on, we could see our Human form reflections, even though the two of us were in Bird form. We then began to discuss the friend’s problem. I was told to examine the friend’s Aura and did so. I could see a direct looping link running from her emotions Chakra straight up into one of her eyes..the left one, as I recall. I was then informed that an overage of Fear was leaking from her Chakra into her Eye. I was told this connection must be broken in order for her Eye to begin healing. I was then told to make a small Ongon, or a Spirit Housing, to give to her. Just then, Wolf appeared, volunteering to be her Power Animal. I was to place this Spirit within the Ongon so whenever the friend held it she would feel the peace and serenity of the Spirit World. I was told to put a picture of her smiling on one side of the Ongon’s head, and a picture of Wolf on the reverse. She would then know her Wolf Helper was right there with her, and that there was no need to fear anything.,she could dash the Fear at any time by holding and contemplating the Ongon. Wolf then began to apply a wet rag soaked with water to her Eye, followed by a glowing Coal. The Ongon should have a red cloth covering. I was then told to tell the friend to begin taking Bilberry and Lutein, or supplements that contain these vision-helping elements, and extra vitamin C, well–known for its importance to the Eye’s health. At this point the Call Back sounded and down I flew to the Room, I shape-shifted back to human form, and Owl and I then flew down the Tunnel into the Dark Woods. He then left me a Feather, a Spiritual Gift. He then dusted Black Panther and I with Rainbow Dust.

Notes: The very dark forest at the beginning and end seems to have implied a problem with vision, with seeing, and so I knew I was in the right place for getting Guidance. Black Panther represents very powerful Spiritual abilities, including that of shape-shifting.

The fact Pink Swan and I could see our other selves in the pond’s reflection indicates a need for the friend to look within and find the true Self. It’s OK to appear as others want her to be, as long as she knows her true Self is safe within.

There are many attributes a Wolf Power Animal brings: self-confidence, knowing your place in the pack, using body and verbal language effectively, learning to balance authority and democracy, learning not to be wasteful, excellent hearing and smelling ability, and learning to trust one’s own instincts.

Applying hot and cold compresses directly to the Eye appears to be necessary to help clear it up and break the flow of Fear into it.

The color Red in the Ongon implies stimulation. Red stimulates the body, increases passion, will and energy. It warms and activates. It can raise body temperature and energize the blood. Too much Red, however, can lead to high blood pressure and aggravate conditions. Hence, when using the Ongon, the friend should try to alleviate as much surrounding red color as possible.

Journey 2 was to check into the friend’s near Future, also undertaken at her request. Her finances are troubling to her, and no doubt a major cause of the Fear seen in the above Journey. Sacred Space was still open, so I dove right into the Drum loop. I saw Pink Swan floating atop the Blue Shaman Lake, the watery appearance my Mirror takes ion from time to time in Journeys. Owl was nearby, and told me to go with Pink Swan. We floated off together across the Lake, and soon came to a very thick Mist. We moved inside, and within seconds I could see Stars forming in the distance. As we emerged totally from the Mist, we were out in Space. All the Stars were falling slowly making the shape of a huge funnel. It was an immense Energy sink hole. Perhaps a Black Hole lay at the bottom. The two of us went into this Funnel and quickly sank. When we landed, I saw Pink Swan standing next to an exit sign for a certain nearby city. He then let my attention wander to a map, and most of the energy seemed to be focused in the NW corner of the city, toward another town. I saw a connecting route flash quickly by in my mind. I then saw a small, 2-story apartment building, with perhaps 4 units, that has been built along a large rock ledge. Trees growing out of the top of the ledge hovered over the building. Its colors were beige and brown. A number and name flashed by: “98” and “Rollingsford’. I then saw the apartment building go quickly through an entire cycle of winter, spring and summer. It was now fall, and the friend had been living in this building for a while. Several men came and went quickly in her Life, one black, one white. I was shown that sub-letting a small apartment to generate income might also be an option for the friend. The following spring I saw a good friendship begin between her and a male who lives in one of the adjoining apartments, or who took the sublet if that option presents itself. This male would be a comforting and supporting presence..a true friend. Pink Swan and I then were then lifted back up through the Star Funnel. We went through the Mist back onto the Shaman Mirror Lake. There, all my Other major Guides were awaiting us. We all hugged, and as we did so the Call Back Drum began. I thanked them all and came back to the room.

Notes: The address apparently given, 98 Rollingsford, does not exist in those towns. In fact, the name Rollingsford is not in the dictionary. So perhaps the name is meant to be split..Rollings and/or Ford. Or perhaps Rawlings. Often these messages come as metaphors..one must be alert to alternate spellings.

The time frame of all this appears to be a little over a year from the beginning. It seems to begin in the late fall of one year and carries through to the spring beyond the following spring.

The fact all this took place on a Lake and among a Mist indicates Water is the primary element of this Journey. Water signifies the Emotions and Feminine Power. This means the friend will have to call on lots of courage and inner strength to make this scenario work for her. This is where Wolf as a Power Animal can be very helpful. They can roam for miles without tiring, and have a well-defined sense of place.

The Black Hole and cascading Stars seem to imply that Fear is draining part of her Energy to act and Live properly, but that if she just embraces the Fear (falls into it, so to speak) she will emerge at the bottom with her new Life.

Journey 162 - My Son's Friend's Shoulder

3/7/05: A Journey to see if there is anything I can do to help my son’s friend, who has re-injured his right shoulder, weakened by a bad injury and subsequent operation was he was a teen. After the usual preparations, I lay down with the Drum CD poised and ready. I briefly saw Owl flutter down toward me from a deep Forest, and then found myself sitting once again on the surface of my Shaman’s Mirror. I then spotted hospital operating room a short distance before me. However, as I began to move toward it, the Blue Shaman (Spirit of my Mirror) Utawa and Pink Swan (my newest Journey Guide) both appeared, standing side by side, intending to block my entry. Apparently there is nothing to be done Shamanically to fix the shoulder outright. I then looked to my right and saw a small Fire burning. It was green in color. I went to sit by it, and my two Guides sat down with me. We Smoked a Sacred Pipe. I soon asked if perhaps I could try to find some extra money for his friend so he could afford an operation. The Helpers then handed me the Spiritual equivalent of my Hollow Bone. I looked inside and saw the operating room once again. I took some Sage and Sweet Grass, lit each, and blew the Smoke into the Room. The entire room then began to sparkle with Rainbow Colors. This told me that during any coming operation, the friend would have the protection of the Spirit World over him. I then asked once more if there were any way to generate some additional funds for him. The Helpers sent me skyward, and there I found a Spirit who I sensed was the Spirit of Numbers. His clothing was covered with many types of Numbers, some symbols I of course recognized, but the vast majority in writing and styles I knew nothing of..no doubt from other dimensions and times. I asked this Spirit to have pity on me and the person for whom I was interceding to find a source of money. He then suggested to me that the friend should play the following number sequence in a pick-4 lottery through and especially on April 15: 7 X X 1 (numbers withheld to enure a win for the friend..I'm sure you understand). I didn’t get the sense this was a sure winner, but that it was quite likely. I thanked the Spirit of Numbers and returned to the Fire. I then allowed both Helpers to merge with me so they could once again experience Life in a Human Body. They both enjoyed it very much. Pink Swan moved to increase my seeing strength with my Visual Cortex while present within me. I could see the Blue Shaman Utawa in his entirety. Once the Mergings were done, I left the Mirror and was standing before the Forest once again. Both Owl and Snake, my traditional Journey Guides, were there. After approving of my Work with my new Guides, each took turns in the unusual step of spitting on me, moves designed to vastly increase my Spirit Strength (or Windhorse as the Mongolian Shaman tradition refers to it). I rubbed the Sacred Water all over my Body, thanked all the Guides, and returned to my room.

Note: The color green is very powerful as a Healing agent. It balances energies and increase compassion. It calms inflamed areas of the body. It soothes the nervous system. It makes one friendlier, more hopeful, more peaceful. It strongly affects the Heart Chakra.

It was interesting to see so much interest paid to me afterward. Perhaps the Helpers are stealing me for an upcoming Spiritual challenge.