Journey 148 - The Non-healing Sore

1/21/05: Spirit Sister wrote last night to inform me of a friend’s condition, and to ask me to Journey on his behalf. Her are her words: “I do, however, have permission for you to take a look at my friend, the husband in the couple I stay with down here. He's the quadriplegic that has been in bed for ages from a persistent bed sore (a type of ulcer). It will be 3 years next week that he's had it. It has gotten quite a bit better over the last year, but it just won't completely heal over. Of course his overall state is very hard. What he has is either MS or something that acts like it. His wife thinks he was poisoned by a chemical back when he was working. “

So today I took a Journey to determine what might be done for this man. I Rattled, Smudged and lit the Sacred Candle, as always. I held to my chest a printout of a picture Sister had taken of an Eagle that lives nearby down there where she is staying. If knew that would increase the amount of Energy from the man for me to read. Even as I was finishing up my Rattling, I could sense and see the Vortex spinning around me, so I knew I was already to go even before starting the Drum CD. As I was lying down to begin the Drumming, I found myself sitting at an old table in an ancient catacomb. Two Spirit Helpers were there with me..Eagle Claw and Blue Shaman. On the table before me I saw some playing cards appear. There was a King on top, a second row of three cards (1, 3, and 7) and a Joker below. In Mongolian Shamamic card reading, the distance between the King (male presence) and the Joker (the granter of all things) shows that a total physical cure for Peter is almost certainly not in the cards, so to speak. The meaning of the 1, 3 and 7 cards is not known to me..perhaps the man or the Future will reveal it. The three of us then walked over to a section of the catacomb and saw two Medieval Soldiers lying there, still in their war dress. They rose and came to sit at the table with us, still in full regalia and looking as they did centuries ago. They did not speak. I was allowed to merge with one of them and was shown the following about them by actually witnessing part of their life from their own memories..in essnce, being one of them: they were very bloodthirsty, and enjoyed killing very much. Even woman and children were fine sport for them. They eventually died of exposure to a brutal winter, but left this world without any remorse whatsoever. I learned their names, Peter and Anthony. One was a direct ancestor of today’s man.. The warriors then returned to their resting places. I went up to them with my Shaman’s Mirror (Toli), home of the Blue Shaman, and removed the centuries-old Dark Energies from their bodies. I could see the black mist drifting into the Mirror. Once that process was complete, I pressed the Mirror down onto the Ground, and Mother Earth absorbed the Energy and transmuted it. The bodies of the warriors then quickly collapsed into the dust they should have been. They had finally been cleansed.

Eagle Claw then turned into Owl and lifted me out of this scene and into a blossom-filled Apple Tree. He handed me an Apple and had me dissect it. It was hollow in the center, where the seeds were. I was told that this meant the man had an emptiness inside him, the seeds representing an unfulfilled talent. Owl then took me and we headed across the Middle World through a purple spiral horizontal Tunnel. We ended up in the correct state. I saw the man lying there. I saw the Sore (or metaphorical rendition thereof) towards the back of his upper right leg. I moved to investigate his Sore, and saw a long, ancient, and crusty Spiritual Medieval Spear sticking out of his leg. This was something that had come down through the ages, as an attachment. Perhaps (my surmising here) it was the cause of his paralysis. I dissolved this Spear using my Toli by pushing slowly into along its length. I then released this Energy to her Earth. Sitting in a chair next to the bed was a part of the man’s soul. Looking like a fully-functioning man, he was obviously quite bored and disengaged..like he’d been there for years. When I removed the Spear, he slowly climbed back into Peter’s body and reassumed his place in the man’s Spiritual house. A woman Spirit then appeared. This was his Guardian. She spoke to me, and told me what I had done was essentially all I could do for this man. She told me then that when he was a young boy, the man really loved Horses. She said he should paint or write about them now (is this unreleased seed mentioned above?). I realized after the Journey that with his lack of ability to move, this would be quite difficult for him. However, modern technology now has voice and eye-motion recognition software that he could use to begin such a career. I then asked her about finding his Power Animal, and she looked at me and smiled the smile of one who is patient with careless thought. I then realized, of course! Horse IS his PA! Duuu-uhhh. Anyway, I was then allowed to ride his Horse, and we toured his body together. We strengthened and cleansed his Spirit Body. His Aura was totally restored. I then was taken to a future scene. The man was lying in a hospital-like setting, hooked to an IV. I was shown that he will depart this Life from here. But I saw his released Spirit, all young and vibrant, jumping for joy. He was so thrilled to have lived life in his crippled body, he said, for he had experienced love and caring from his wife and others beyond anything he would have had if living physically whole. He had succeeded in his Spiritual Mission for this life, and was full of the enthusiasm one sees from someone who has just emerged from a first dive into a cool pool on a sweltering day. He said the experience was “great!” The imagery then ceased, and I thanked my Helpers and advanced the CD to the Call Back.

1/28 follow-on: Here is the answer I got back concerning the Man from Spirit Sister:

"He has been talking about his horses. He was on a horse pretty much as soon as he could sit up...being raised on a cattle farm near the everglades. Some traumatic times there, too, since he had a cruel father who gave away his horse."

To which I replied: "I was very happy to hear that the Horse was indeed a pivotal player in his youth. This would explain the Soul Piece sitting next to him in the Room where I saw him and his Guardian. That must have left him when his father gave away his Horse. This would of course have contributed to his physical ailments. That soul Piece has been re-united with him, though, so he should be feeling both the intensities of the anger he felt when young, but also have the ability to now release it..to forgive."

Journey 147 - The Egg of Life

1/14/05: During my travels on my job today, a very large Hawk came out of nowhere and flew along side my car about 50 feet to my right. We were going the same speed, and I instantly felt an instant oneness with him. This was a Spirit in the Shape of a Hawk. I knew he was calling me to perform a Shamanic duty, in this case a Journey. He landed in a nearby Tree, sitting there long enough for me to view him with my new Birding Glass, and then took off. I decided this Journey should simply be a meeting between me and my Guides. I would let them set the agenda..I just wanted to get into their presence once again. It had been a while since my last work for the Girl whose Soul had been scared out of her by the attack on her Visitor..I needed re-connection. So I set up my Sacred Space, Smudged and lit the Sacred Candle and was off.

When the journey first began, it was night. I saw Owl (Guide Eagle Claw) come toward me from the distance, leaving a trail of golden dust as he came. The dust seemed to be suspended in Time, with no changes..like it was painted onto the Sky. This told me that we were already in the timelessness of the Upper World, even though time was passing for me and Owl. He came right up to me, and for a second or two we were back in the Tree of Life, on the very thin branch above the great fall I had witnessed in a very recent journey. But then we were back in Space. No doubt my Guide wanted me to realize we were once again dealing with the Sacred Tree, just in a different form. After peering into my eyes for a few seconds, Owl lifted himself straight upward. He began drawing a golden spiral (that of course seemed to narrow as he went higher, due to the effects of perspective). Then, the Eagles that soar around me in my gol, the center point of my and all existence, began to soar up as well. Each drew a different color in Mana, and rapidly filled the appearing Sky Tunnel with phenomenal color and brightness. Once this Tunnel was complete, Owl brought me up and up.

When we got to the top, we burst out into a world made solely of a blue-whitish, milky flooring, made of Spirit Energy. If there was a Sky, it was a light blue, hardly noticeable. Spikes of golden energy grew out of this flooring, and each of my Guides appeared and took up residence, one per Spike. Eagle Claw, Crosses in Front, Blue Shaman, Two Feathers and Gray Wolf were there, first in their Animal shapes, then as the human likenesses, all except for Gray Wolf who has always maintained his Wolf image in my Journeys. They then drew very close to me, and we merged into one Spirit. I looked below and saw a rainbow swirl develop in the floor, and we soon dropped into and through this swirl. We were back in Space, and I saw many Stars in front of me. I noticed a steady stream of Soul Pieces filing out from each star and heading in specific directions into the great distance. These were the Ami (“em”) Soul Pieces heading to individual bodies on various planets in the Universe. This told me that there were indeed other Planets with intelligent life, and also made me realize that the legends of ancient Earth cultures that tell of visitors from the Stars populating the Earth were essentially True, but perhaps in a metaphoric way..and of course, perhaps not. J Also, the Tree of Life in the Mongolian Shamanic Understanding holds the Ami souls prior to their release, so in this instance the Tree of Life could be said to be a metaphor for the Stars. Then, forming below me, was a huge, near-egg shaped orb of golden Energy. “We” sank into this orb. A voice that I knew was the Great Spirit began to speak to me. He told me this was the Egg of Life, that all Life everywhere emanated from this Egg. He then allowed me to merge with the essence of all-existence Energy. In other words, my consciousness merged with the underlying Spirit essence that is in all things. By so doing, I was able to immediately enter into various existences. I became a water droplet in the Ocean, a moving Cloud, a Squirrel, a Hawk, a Pea. I entered the Robe of one of the workers at one of the offices I service and was able to determine she has no major illnesses, and was able to view myself as she sees me. I became a chair in that office. I realized that at this level, everything has an awareness of itself, and experiences a wonderful connectivity with everything else. I then came to understand that Spirit Helpers such as Eagle Claw, have no tension or anxieties whatsoever. At this level of existence, all is total calmness and acceptance. Great Spirit then told me that on Earth, only the humans have separated themselves from this feeling. He told me it was my (Shaman’s) job to bring them back. He told me that I was to continue with my Shamanic work. He then said that the arrival of my Shaman’s Mirror would signal the beginning of my “real work”.

I realized that my consciousness comes directly from and is always tied into that of the Great Spirit, and so does everything else’s. So when you play with your Puppy, that playfulness emanates from the Great Spirit! The oneness I felt now was amazing..no fear, no tension, total awareness of all things. He then allowed me to witness Dark Energy, and I realized it has the same awareness and self-value as Brightness. In other words, Light and Dark, in fact all the balancing opposites, also experience existence in the exact same way. These opposites were created by Great Spirit to create the dynamic balance necessary for existence and growth, for advancement spiritually. This also allows for easy manipulation of all substances. The whole concept of good and bad completely disappeared..there are only opposing ends of the spectrum in Spirit Life, but all serve the same purpose. It was a wonderful revelation, and I now see no “evil” in anything anymore..just purpose. After this wonderful experience of oneness, I started feeling like I was evaporating physically. Like my body as dissolving into pure Energy..I felt weightless. It was very cool.

So I came to view that all things that happen in my life, all people I meet, etc., that seem to be against me or “bad”, are really part of the same Great spirit that has built this entire Spirit Universe on Love. That is to say, even the most horrendous aspects of Life here on Earth are part of the Great Plan to advance us Spiritually. This makes most sense when one realizes there just isn’t any end to your existence..whatever happens in this Life, you’ll get another shot, and another, until you reach a level of spirituality that allows you to remain as a Helper or Guide. Another aspect of this, say, would involve my new Helper, the Blue Shaman..even though he has an individual existence, he is still tied to all other things.

Two other events occurred during this journey. I asked for help fighting a recurrent cold deepening quickly, and again found Mana being dripped into my Body to fight the illness. I could feel that Sacred Energy spreading throughout my entire body. In the next two days, my cold has all but vanished. I also found extra Mana being poured into my Third Eye Chaka to help strengthen my ability to see spirit Energies with my visual cortex. I also asked when my new Mongolian Shaman’s Toli (mirror) will be arriving, and was told perhaps next Thursday..or the day before I actually get to use it!! I figured I was nearing the end of my Journey, so I began the process of going back to the Spirit Floor room with the perches, and then down through the Sacred sky Tunnel and back into this World. I thanked all my Guides and the Great spirit for this greatest of all visits (such peace and awareness..such understanding..such release). As is so often the case, the Call Back Drum sounded within seconds of this action.

Journey 146 - The Unwelcome Visitor

1/6/05: I got the following message this afternoon from Spirit Sister: “Tuesday we got a call during our meeting, from her dad, saying she had a seizure and was in the ER. Well, I just talked to him, and it is much more than that. She has multiple personality disorder and another personality has taken over…talking of killing people…it took four men to restrain her and she is now in a Psychiatric Hospital. I will be going to see her (I think) on Monday when I go see my mother.

Anyway, you know what I think about multiple personality disorder. I think those are actually other personalities in there that need to come out and be taken to their proper place in the Light. Can you at least find out what’s in there and maybe get rid of them?”

Shortly thereafter, I wrote back to her: “I did a small, non-drumming Journey to see if anything came immediately up..and I found the daughter's main soul sitting in a parlor of an old, very well appointed house, with a large bay window. She was sitting on the bench next to a piano. I could tell by looking around that this was a house from long ago..I asked her what the date was and we looked and found a calendar..1827. She doesn't really know why she is there, but is quite happy to be, as it is safe and peaceful. I told her I would be back to meet with her again, but did not give any details as to what was happening to her body.” I then promised to do a full Journey as soon as I could, which happened to be tonight. Here is the record thereof:

After Smudging the Room and lighting the Sacred Candle, I Rattled in Sacred Space and anointed myself with the Shaman’s Water. During the Rattling, I asked all the Grandfathers and Father Sky, Mother Earth and Great Spirit to guide me to the Truth concerning the daughter’s condition. I asked that if it be my Path to serve as a conduit for her Healing, to let it be totally effective and quick. I then went over and set up my Drum loop for a long ride..I didn’t want to cut short anything that might have to be done tonight. As I sat on the bed and breathed Shamanically, focusing on my intention, I saw a dark attic looming before me. There was a window at either end of the small, A-framed space, and it was night, so just a little light was getting in. As I moved into the Room, my Guide Eagle Claw arrived as Owl. He had light blue eyes, which made me wonder if my new Shaman Spirit Utawa was there as well. As Owl shone his blue Light around the room, we found a small girl lying on her right side in a near-fetal position. It was the daughter! I got the sense that she had had a seizure, but can’t be sure since I arrived after the fact. I then looked over to the far window and saw a Dark Being wander in. It had the gait of a fairly old person, and it went over and lay down beside her, as if just seeking comfort and warmth. But soon I saw the Being merge into her. After this, I found myself and Owl inside a large swirling Tunnel made of light green and lilac streaks, with the green by far the dominant color. I sensed we were falling, falling..and soon the bottom of the Tunnel cleared like breaking through Clouds. I saw below us a small, New England Village or Town. We landed, and I now saw the daughter standing outside a small grocery store. I seem to recall a small horse hitch outside the store itself. My main focus was on how she was feeling. With this stranger now part of her being, she was feeling out of sorts. She knew some sort of struggle was occurring within her but had no idea what it was (it was the battle of her Soul and the Beings for dominance, but she couldn’t know that). All she knew was the joy in Life was hard to come by, and even play felt strange. The scene then shifted again, and I saw her sitting on a piano bench, taking a lesson..and hating it. With the conflict within, even the sound, the very timbre of the keys, was aggravating to her. I then saw her as an Adult, and could see her Suns Soul struggling to hide from the Suld Soul of the Visitor. Her Soul would dart to be just in the opposite place of his, and the effort of constantly hiding was weakening her Soul further. I was then shifted over to her Concord hospital room, where I saw her lying on a bed. Her Aura was as burnt black as any I have ever seen. It was almost totally depleted. There was a very thin blue light/halo surrounding her head, and her eyes were likewise lit with a pale light. That was it for an Aura. I was astonished. I moved in closer to her body and saw three outside Entities trying to invade her. The Visitor within was resisting. It was he that was yelling “kill, kill” to the invaders, not her. Her Soul had fled her body with this new attack, and was resting safely in 1827 as related at the top of this piece. I convened a Council with my Guides Eagle Claw, Crosses, and my Guardian Two Feathers. We Smoked and thought about our next action. Eagle Claw decided I should use the Spiritual version of the Shaman’s Mirror that Uwata had given me a day or so ago to absorb the invaders. I went to the daughter and performed the absorption. I then placed the Mirror on the Ground to allow Mother Earth to remove the Entities and convert them for use as positive Spirit Energy elsewhere. I then managed to dislodge the Visitor from her body a bit, but will need a separate Journey to deal with him fully. I placed a thin veil of Aural protection over her. I will also have to Journey to retrieve her Soul Piece from 1827. I then slipped into a deeper State of Relaxation, as often happens when I’m overtired and/or sick (both in this case), and can recall very little of what went on..I just know that it had little to do with the situation. It was more the Helpers working on me. As I was returning, though, I saw the old man who had invaded the daughter. He seemed to be dressed in a gray suit, was large framed, and had a bald and bulbous head. His eyes were small, and his grin more a grimace framed by thin lips. The Journey then ended with the Call Back Drumming.

1/21: Spirit Sister let me know that the girl was released to go home the following Sunday. I cannot go further and totally retrieve her Soul Piece without her permission..so she will have to sit by that Piano for a while, until she can go back on her own. Hopefuly someday I will get the girl's permission to intervene further. Spirit Sister is unable to get that for me.

Journeys 144/145 - Ice Council/Shaman's Mirror Visit

1/5/05: This first Journey was to revisit the Council I met on top of Ice Mountain a few Journeys back. I felt they were a key part of my Shamanic Past, as I had once been a Shaman in an Ice Age of some sort. I prepared in the usual way, and soon found Owl ready to fly with me. We were suddenly sitting on a quite thin branch way up in a very majestic Tree. It was a very long fall from where we were, and the branches were easily 20 feet apart vertically. One had a very keen sense that the slightest slip would result in a fall to death..and yet I hadn’t the slightest fear. I felt I might be sitting in the Tree of Life itself. Suddenly Owl began to pick at my Aura. I had had a very rough prior of impatience and anger in trying to deal with a broken attic access stairway, and Owl was busy picking away all the dark Energies I had picked up during my fit. It was as if he found me unfit to meet with the Council in the State I was in. He was cleaning me up! Suddenly, the Tree began to spin. It spun very fast, and we rose up through the top of the vortex, right into Space. After a short hovering, we flew down toward a green land mass. Sticking up in one portion thereof was the Ice Mountain! We landed there, and I took my position with the Council. We began to Smoke a Prayer, and suddenly a Shaman Spirit appeared standing atop a small rock ridge nearby. He was all blue! I was told this is the Shaman Spirit of the Mongolian Shaman’s Mirror I had just purchased. I then fell into a deeper concentration, but as I came back into awareness, I saw the Blue Shaman send a small blue Orb down to rest on my chest. It was a Spirit Replica of the Mirror! The Journey ended here, and I felt quite empowered knowing I know had this very useful tool on my person permanently.

My 2nd Journey was to visit the Mirror (made of brass and about 11.5 CM in diameter) itself, to find out what it might be about. Who is the Blue Shaman, what has the Mirror been used for, etc. As I fell into the Shamanic trance, I found myself in Mongolia. As I sat in an open field, my Guides Owl, Eagle and Hawk were all fluttering before me, almost as if one bird with 6 wings. They then came and sat with me on a stone wall. I saw with my legs hanging down..we weren’t really that high. Suddenly I saw a Smelter bowling the metal that was used to make my Mirror. The Cauldron was hung from a pole with an “S” shaped hook, reminiscent of my Shamanic symbol. We watched as the Smelter danced around the Cauldron, murmuring prayers and “hurais.” Suddenly I saw the Blue Shaman Spirit approaching, and enter the metal. Surrounding his presence in the middle of the molten metal was a replica of the entire Universe..a small orb containing every Star, Galaxy, etc. It was the most beautiful orb I have ever seen, and it was in 3-D, so it was quite readable. The Spirit then spoke and gave me his name: Tenger (for lack of a better word, Grandfather) Utawa (oo-tah-wuh, accent on the first syllable). He said he was the Sprit of the Blue light found inside the vortex of the center of each person’s spiritual existence, known in Mongolia as the Gol. He was the blue light of the Sky..and that led me to remember that when in my 20s I used to stare at the blue skies of the fading day for hours on end. Perhaps that was an early calling. He told me we would merge later, but that I was still to use Eagle Claw and Crosses as my main Journey Guides. He told me I have very important Shamanic Work yet to accomplish, and that the World needs me to be there as Shaman. I then got to witness some of the history of the Mirror itself. I saw it on the chest of a Shaman at night amidst fires and shacks, and the Shaman was under serious attack from the Dark Beings..he was using the Mirror as a shield with all his Spirit might. I also saw a different Shaman using the Mirror in a Ritual attended by many, holding the Mirror high by its Silk Loop. I also saw it sitting in a box in NY City in the early-mid 20th century, but eventually being sent back to Mongolia. We then were back at the Smelting. Utawa told me he was “cold” and asked me to blow into the Fire to enhance it. We did so, and the Fire sprung up instantly and burned much higher. Even though the Smelter could not see us, he knew we were there, and found the sudden explosion of Fire a sure sign of a Spiritual Blessing on the Mirror. He was ecstatic. I again went deeper from here and brought nothing back, but as the Journey ended, I found myself back inside the Blue Vortex Gol, but this time with a companion. A Yellow/Green ball covered in tiny hairs, and I was told this was the Seed of Life. A very starting and cool ending, to know this Seed is with me at my Center.

Journey 143 - The Pathway Locked in

12/30/04 and 1/1/05: I took two mini-Journeys for two consecutive mornings, each lasting only a minute or so. In the first, I found myself standing on a long path strewn thick with red rose petals and green leaves. As I walked on them, they supported my full weight without being crushed in the slightest. On either side of the Pathway were two walls made on this vertical strips of golden Energy. Once again, even though these walls looked to be made as frail as possible, they supported my full weight if leaned against. A new Spirit I met during the Tsunami Journey of a few days ago, Pink Swan, moved up to me through the wall to my right. He told me to look up, and I saw a huge swarm of Eagles circling around above me. He then asked if I was ready to leave me old, non-Shaman self behind for good. If so, all I had to do was to sweep my arms backward as if trying to shut a door with the generated breeze. I did so three times, and heard a door slam shut behind me. I felt a great sense of relief that I had now fully committed myself to the Shaman’s Path that lay before me. There was still a long way to go, and I saw nothing in the distance to end the Path..but at least now I was on the way permanently. The following morning, today, I revisited this Pathway, and in very short order the circling Eagles came down and merged into the Spirit Vortex at the center of my being. So now, all these Eagles are part of my Spirit Core..and my strengths as a Hollow Bone (Channel) for the Spirit Helpers is surely enhanced greatly.

Journey 142 - Dark Force Revisited

12/30/04: I decided to take on the Dark Force once more, as it was having an effect on my Life even now, even though I’m immune to its designs on my own Spirit Being. After the normal preps, I found myself standing across from a dense Forest. It was totally black beyond the front Trees, as if the Dark Force itself was lurking within the Forest like a low-hanging mist. My Upper World Guide Owl arrived, resplendent and bright with color. He took me in his Talons and up we went through a red, flesh-like Tunnel. A Team of my Helpers appeared by my side as I went up. Suddenly, my body underwent a major assault. I was burned to a crisp by a raging Fire, then hit with a huge force of Water meant to be destructive versus soothing, and then finally hit with huge wooden beams. I landed on a grassy surface. Although I was blind and barely able to move, I could still sense my surroundings Spiritually. A nearby Stone Person invited me to merge with it, so I left my body and went into the Stone. This Stone Person gently told me to use a combination of my two Power Stones, the Azurite and the Agate, placed together, kept nearby at night (underneath the mattress is ideal, and so they are there) for one month. Then, the Stones should spend one night outside under the next Full Moon for gentles cleansing. I was then told to call a new Spirit every morning to come and offer protection to my wife. The Spirit’s name is Jenalda Obwahn. I then saw a man walking by a wall from right to left, and he turned to me and told me to give my wife love and prayer, over and over. He also told me that Shamans cannot force someone to use Arshaan (Mongolian Shaman Water) against their will..they must agree to it, so I am not to anoint anyone without their prior knowledge. I was then told to blow my Shamanic Power Breath into the Dark Mist Forest 4 times every day (I drew a picture of this Forest to serve as a physical stand in right after the Journey). I then was sent back down through the Flesh Tunnel and my body was restored to its normal condition. I then moved over to a flowery field that I had visited before in a prior Journey. Owl then left me, turning into a White Spirit Body as he left. My Guardians Two Feathers and Gray Wolf remained with me. Here the Journey ended. I am proceeding as instructed, and will publish any follow-on info..

Journey 141 - Dear Friend's House Redo

12/29/04: I took an extended Journey this afternoon to investigate the Spiritual conditions at my dear friend and co-worker’s deceased Mom’s house. My friend had told me a day or two ago that her Cousin had been painting in her Mom’s old bedroom and smelled her mom’s perfume for a few seconds. We both wondered if that had been an actual visit by her Mom, and if it was some sort of message or warning. I agreed to go back to the house via journey and check it out. I prepared as always, and off I went. This was a Middle World Journey, and Owl went with me as protection and Guide, but there were of course no Tunnels to go through. When I arrived at the house, I was not prepared for what I found. Recall in my last visit I had seen ancestral Spirits returning to the house, with Hawk visiting above. All seemed quite positive and indicative of improvement. When I got there this time, however, I found many black “snowflakes” falling around, on and through the house. When these flakes landed, they immediately crystallized into a shiny, hard blotch, and as I tried to remove one, I found it was very stubborn and resilient. It was as if it had melded with the surface. Not all flakes were sticking..some were being absorbed by Mother Earth, as she tried in vain to counteract this attack. I asked Eagle Claw what these flakes were. He told me they were the negative emotions filling the lives of the people associated with the house: anger, distrust, revenge, jealousy, doubt, fear, “woundedness”.. I saw in the future that the entire area would be totally encased in this black crust, with the stuff hanging down from the eaves like icicles. I then asked what I or anyone could do to stop this attack. Eagle Claw showed me that I should invoke a new technique, learned from the Mongolian Shamans: build a small “oboo” of a branch, with black and red ribbons attacked at the top. Also, begin piling Stone People around the base of the branch, to build a small mountain around it. The purpose of this oboo is to attract and house a Shaman or Nature Spirit who is willing to take on this Dark Energy and neutralize it. I asked Eagle Claw how we would know when this Spirit had taken up residence. I then saw myself taking a set of four red flowers up some wooden steps. These flowers had just been dipped in something, but I don’t recall what. They looked like Tulips made of Rose petals. I sensed that I would dream this event when the Spirit had arrived. I then moved around to the front of the house, and a short distance away saw two Dark Beings seemingly approaching, but they were moving so slowly they may have been standing still. I then asked about the perfume in the room. I was told that my friend’s mother's Spirit had indeed visited the cousin and tried to warn her of the accumulating negativity on her person. I then was taken to the rooftop, and looked down the chimney. I saw blue Sparks popping out of the inner liner from top to bottom. When I went back down to the ground, I could see the Sparks jumping out of the chimney top. In the remaining time, I tried to get a further fix on the meaning of the Flowers, but was not given any more. This was essentially the end of the Journey. A rare one, with no obvious fix..but some things must take their natural path..

I have told my friend since that when they place the Stones around the branch, they should circle it three times clockwise each time. I also told her I will make up a special Shaman’s anointing fluid for her cousin to use.

Journeys 139/140 - Two for Wife's Cousin's Wife

12/28/04: This Journey was for the wife of my wife’s cousin, who is suffering substantial chronic pain due to a botched abdominal surgery a few years ago. Basically, every time she eats, the movement of the intestines causes pain. I asked her if she wanted me to investigate what Help there might be from the Spirit World, and she said she would take whatever help she could get. The Drum CD failed, so I decided to take this Journey without drumming at all. As I headed out into the Spirit World, I found a small, 10-foot high tornado made of dead leaves swirling in front of me. I stepped into the tornado, and was in an orange ball of Spirit Energy. Soon, before me, Owl, Snake and Eagle appeared, and we all merged into one powerful Spirit Being. We then sank quickly down through the Orange light and landed in a rain forest environment. Taking Snake form, we slithered up a nearby Tree and went out onto a branch. At this point, we shape-shifted again into a Bird. In the distance, a Thunderbeing (thunder storm) was rumbling. We watched the forest floor and saw a Monkey and an Aardvark go by. We also saw a Tiger. None of these Animals stayed though, and showed little interest at all in us. Then, a white Butterfly with black and gold-yellow edged wings landed on the branch to our right, and immediately turned into a little ball of Spirit Energy. This happened two more times, for a total of three. Each time, the Spirit Energy ball grew a bit larger. Just then, coming in from behind and to our right, an immense black Bird came soaring in. This Winged One was reminiscent of the Bird that flew over me when my Shamanic Dream began several years ago. This Bird landed in front of us and was angry, for apparently we were interfering with whatever effect he was trying to have on the woman. The Shaman Spirit in the Tree, which appeared to us suddenly, handed us a power wand. I used this Wand to direct Spirit Energy at the Bird, which kept shrinking until it had melted into the Ground. Then, the fourth Butterfly arrived. I knew this was the Power Animal for the cousin's wife. I coaxed it into my Eagle Mirror Charm, and up we all went into the Tunnel of Leaves. I then flew to her home town to blow the PA into her directly. When we were done, Eagle Claw suggested strongly to me to send her a small Butterfly broach to wear. The colors of the Butterfly are significant. Black means “protective, grounding, calming, activating feminine energies.” Gold/yellow means “beneficial to the digestive tract (my emphasis added), generating enthusiasm. Gold itself means “strengthening to the heart, better balance.” Obviously, she should surround herself with these colors.

On 12/29, I took a follow-on Journey to see if there was a physical fix. I found myself on a Beach late in the day, late in the season (perhaps early fall). It was breezy, for the waves near the shore had tiny white caps. I had taken no Tunnels to either the Upper or Lower Worlds, so I knew I was still in the Middle World. A Gold and White Spirit Body approached me and sat down near me. A Gull landed nearby to my right. I saw my Eagle soaring above me. I sensed I was to merge with the Gold and White Spirit, and Eagle swooped down to offer me protection while I was gone. I merged, and sensed I had become the Ocean itself. I could feel its great depth all the Life it housed, the disruptions on the surface caused by humans. Once the merge was over, I realized the main message appeared to be that nothing physical can be done at this time for her..it is her Path to walk as she is. However, the rich imagery of this Journey offers some soothing methodologies. She should visit the Ocean often, feed Gulls when she can. Salt-based baths will be helpful as well, as will tapes featuring the gently roar of the Ocean. At another point in the Journey I saw a large Waterfall..I was just beyond the edge to its left. But instead of being involved with the heavy flow of falling water as in past Journeys, I sensed that the hovering mists were more important. This told me it is important for her to let the heavy emotions just pass her by, and derive freedom from them as the Mists have, and as Gulls do as well when they soar over the Ocean surface.

Journeys 137/138 - Tsunami Help/My Health

12/27/04: Two Journeys today. The first was to try to assist the victims of the massive Earthquake and Tsunami over in SW Asia. At the time of the Journey over 20,000 were confirmed dead, and in my readings by Sarangerel it was stressed that Shamans have a duty to the world as well as their private clients. The more Shamans work individually on world problems through their rituals and Journeys, the more likely it is the World will improve and regain its human-degraded Health. So I Rattled, Smudged, lit the Sacred Candle and off I went. One of the new techniques that I have been asked to master via being given these books to read is that of actually allowing the Spirit Helpers to merge with myself and allow them to live in a human body once again. This merging allows for much greater abilities by the Shaman, and a deeper knowledge of the way things work. So as I went into my Journey, I saw Eagle Claw, my Upper World Guide, standing in front of me, dressed quite formally in a full Deerskin outfit typical of Native Americans. He came to me, got quite close, and I assumed he might try to merge with me. But he said, “no, it is not yet time for us to merge.” Instead, he shape-shifted back to Barred Owl and took me in his Talons. Above us in the Sky was a Tunnel made of blue Spirals. We zoomed up into this Tunnel and shortly found ourselves skimming the crest of the killer tidal wave. We had moved back in time to the event itself. Within seconds, we were sitting on the shore of one of the nations effected. I saw many, many Souls moving along, either into Nature, or up/down to the respective worlds. In the Mongolian Shamanic tradition, (much of which I have adopted now for myself, as it rings truest with my experiences to date) the Human Soul has three parts. One is from and returns to the Upper World, one from/to the Lower World, and the third piece drifts into Nature when death comes. The latter can become powerful forces for good that a Shaman can ask for assistance from. Anyway, as we witnessed this migration of Souls, I noticed some were red, some green, some blue. Eagle Claw instructed me to collect what I could with my Eagle Mirror (another Mongolian technique). I recall grabbing about 5 or 6, and found out a day or so after this Journey that 8 Americans had been killed. I can’t help but wonder if those Souls didn’t come to me, given I was an American Shaman. Having collected these Souls, I then saw my Lower World Guide Snake appear, and we quickly zoomed down an all-mud Tunnel. I saw the same River Bank I saw on an earlier Journey when I released a Spirit downstream. I sent these Souls on their way, releasing them from my Mirror. We then returned through the Tunnel. I found myself given a new Shamanic Phrase to utter to bring comfort to the mourning survivors: “Adjah Jewhal!” I stretched my arm out in their direction and kept uttering this Phrase. Soon, a Shaman Spirit emerged from a wooded area. He was dressed in white, but his/her name was Pink Swan. I stood before this Spirit, but then sank into a deeper state where the imagery was lost. But as I was coming out of this State, I was uttering yet a new Phrase: “Wyanowa Hurai!”. The latter world is used in the Mongolian Shamanic tradition to seal and empower an action. As I repeated this Phrase over and over, Eagle Claw came and merged with me! I felt weightless and totally energized as I lay on my bed. I realized I was Eagle Claw, and as I shape-shifted into Owl form, I began flying around. It was superb. My eyesight was VERY crisp. “We” then quickly flew up the side of a very tall and steep mountain of Ice. At the top was a small crater within which sat a Circle of Elders. I shared a quick Smoke from their Pipe with them, and then “we” flew back down. The Drum Call Back sounded, and as I rubbed my eyes, the whitest and brightest ball I have ever seen formed on my Visual Cortex. Pure Energy. Remnant from the Journey? From the Merging? Whatever, it was quite powerful and inspiring.

A final note. It was interesting I was taken to a mountain of Ice. In a prior Journey, I found I had been a Shaman during the Ice Age, and still am being supported by my wife of the time. Perhaps these were the Elders I knew back then, sort of welcoming me back into this higher Shamanic plane.

Journey 2 was a quick 10-minute look at my own Health. I began the Journey shortly after the one above, since Sacred space was still present and the Candle still lit. I saw all my primary Journey and Guardian Spirits circling around my bed in a clockwise direction. I sensed something above me, and saw a large branch over my head with a Bald Eagle perched on it. The Eagle was bending over me and dripping golden tear drops into each of my Chakras, except for the Throat Chakra. I also noticed that the tear drop that was placed in my Base Chakra was red versus gold. I then found myself leaving my body and shrinking. I met an Eagle on my throat. I sensed I was to build there an Oboo, a Shamanic shrine built by Mongolian Shamans to house visiting Helper Spirits. I looked up and saw another Eagle circling clockwise overhead, coming closer and closer to the “ground.” He landed, and became a human shape, who told me his name was Eagle Spirit. This is my Power Animal’s name..obviously a very pure PA. Eagle Spirit told me I need to take better care of my Spirit Robe (body), that I’m not getting enough rest. He then told me he was going to reside in the Oboo I had just built, in order to prevent me from catching any colds or flus. As he took up residence, I felt warm, golden Mana coursing throughout my entire body. Two Feathers, my Guardian, then came to me and merged with me. I sensed what it was like to be female, and it was a great Spirit union to boot. The Journey then ended.

Journey 136 - Another for my Daughter

12/25/04: A Journey to restore my daughter’s Power Animal, obviously having been disengaged to the point where she was feeling down and out, even on Christmas Day. I have been reading a lot about Mongolian Shamanism by Sarangerel, and so some of the concepts I’ve learned have made their way into my Journeys as well, just as the earlier ones reflected my understanding of the general parameters I’d learned about earlier. In this case, the new information is even crisper and better and fuller. For example, I have now experienced the Vortex at the center of the Shamanic Spirit Circle. So let’s go onto the Journey itself: As I settled into the Shamanic “trance”, I found myself on a park bench with snow falling, woods nearby. I sat there a few minutes, and suddenly brought myself into the above mentioned vortex. From there I was quickly spun into my daughter’s room, where I saw her Power Animal, Polar Bear, resting on the opposite side of her room while she lay on her bed. I went over and spoke with her PA. He was brief, but told me that "she has trouble totally seeing your Spirit Vision. She trusts what you tell her about your Journeys and increased knowledge of the Spirit World, but still has trouble fully incorporating it into something she feels she can use." Then Polar Bear told me to look at her Aura. I did so, and it was very pocked and weak-looking. A lot of the color was gone, and there were many gaps. He then directed my attention to a Spirit-based picture of her first real love who has since passed on, hanging on the wall which I could see both in front of and behind. To my amazement I saw a little Soul Piece of my daughter’s circling around this young man like a planet. I took my new Quartz Crystal, recently consecrated for Soul Retrieval work, and captured this tiny moon. I then went over to my daughter’s still body and blew the Soul Piece back into her using my Eagle Feather as a Guide. Then, her Power Animal went back into her body. Mission accomplished, I shot back into the Vortex. Out of the whirl of Spirit Energy cane my prime Guide Eagle Claw. He gave a claw to me as a token of a job-well-done. This means I know wear an Eagle Claw just like he does. I must now try to come across one in this reality. I then was back in my room, sending Mana to my daughter as if I were a transmitter, to strengthen her even more. Yesterday, by the way, I saw many Cloud People signs: Heron, Hawk, Rainbow Sun Dog and White Eagle. Plus, a very large Crow migration from left to right. So I knew my Shamanic Power were high, and that it was a good time to Journey.

Also today, the day after Christmas, I set our Christmas Tree Spirit free..Oobeejewan Jebbahbah was her name, and she was quite lovely to “feel” going into the Crystal and out (flame induced release at 5 Stone Altar). Once released, she was free to wander into the woods and find a suitable place to live once again.

12/26: My daughter reported feeling a series of hot and cold flashes (she ondered at the tender age of 20 if she were already going through menopause) this morning. This was the result of the rejoining of her Soul Piece yesterday.

12/27: The most amazing thing happened to me today. I have come to think of it as an Anointing. I was outside between job actions when a large Crow came flying toward me, cawing constantly. He was quite low to the ground, and made a complete clockwise circle around me! I knew this was very significant..I saw being singled out..for something. The Crow then looped around in a wider Circle, and as I followed it visually, I suddenly saw a Red Tailed Hawk floating in the Sky, in the NE (my Direction). The Hawk became the center of focus, and I watched as it came closer and closer. At one point it was so nearly overhead that I raised my hand to try to coax it down to land. Instead, it began looping slowly off to the east. But while it was nearly overhead, I sensed it was watching me, and sending my Hawk Medicine. The actions of the two Winged Ones together added up to a deliberate singling out of the Shaman below.. I was thrilled, and feel this is a sign that my abilities are reaching a new level, and it is time to be more open with my skills. I’m less inclined now to keep my Shamanism a secret.

Journey 135 - Two for Spirit Sister`

12/7/04: At the request of my Spirit Sister, I took a Journey this evening to investigate a new physical ailment she herself is suffering from. Her physician has reported a misplaced ovary with a possible growth, which must be checked via ultrasound a week from this Thursday. Spirit Sister asked me to check it out in advance so she’d be better prepared. So I took a quick Hollow Bone Journey as taught a few weeks ago when the Bone was first given to me. I opened Sacred Space quickly with my Rattle and lit the Sacred Candle after a quick Smudging. As I went into the Journey, I found myself standing at the entrance of the Bone with my Barred Owl Guide, Eagle Claw. As we went in, the interior took on the appearance of a hospital testing room. I saw Spirit Sister lying down on her back on a hospital bed while a male attendant checked out her lower abdomen. I walked around to look at the TV screen, but was unable to interpret the view. The attendant showed no emotion either way while viewing the screen, and so I cannot get a good reading on just how serious the issue is. However, my personal view is that no reaction is a good reaction. I then foresaw a small operation, and saw Sister recuperating at home, apparently in January based on the sunlight and weather..it seemed like January at least in terms of its look. Then, as Eagle Claw and I were moving back out of the Bone, thinking we were finished, the interior unexpectedly darkened completely, with only a few scattered wall adornments shining as if lit by a black light. Sister, still lying on the bed, was the only object seemingly lit from above. I then saw a Dark Being hovering over Anne, reaching into her lower left abdomen. She has an Entity attached! I was quite surprised. Eagle Claw and I then immediately increased our Aural strength to keep out any unwanted imprints from this Being. The Being spotted us and checked us out, but we were safe within the Rainbow Walls of the Aural Field. I then began my female Chant, and saw Woman in a Grass Dress, my Amazonian Helper, move over to sit beside Spirit Sister, up by her left shoulder. The Entity then retreated to a rear wall..I could see its eyes staring blankly as its power over Anne was checked. She is now safe from any further intrusions, but I must do a full journey to discover the nature of this Visitor.

12/8/04: This afternoon I took the follow-on Journey. My intent was to discover the identity of and then escort the Entity hovering over her back to the Spirit Camp. I performed a more lengthy Rattling to open Sacred space, more in keeping with tradition. I then Smudged and lit the Sacred Candle. I then set up a 15-minute Drum Loop, and breathed Shamanically for an extra long time to ensure I was totally relaxed and receptive. I was soon standing on a dirt road leading up to the entrance of the Hollow Bone, in which I saw Spirit Sister yesterday. There were several hundred people lining the road on both sides, right up to the entrance. I saw Barred Owl and Eagle zooming around in circles above the entrance, beckoning me to approach. I was dressed as a Native American Warrior, with my crystal resting on my right front thigh in a deerskin sheath. The people were all looking at me..I was apparently their champion. I then raised my arms to the Sky Father and brought down several gigantic lightning bolts onto the top of the Bone. I then walked up the dirt road to the entrance. There I was met by my own Spirit Guardian, Two Feathers. At this point I was wondering exactly what I was in for..this was quite the unusual Crowd, dress, and approach, and I had my three main Guides with me for my protection. I had a temporary feeling I was going inside that Bone to wrestle with my own Dark Force, my biggest nemesis to date. Two Feathers blew Sage and Sweet Grass on me as I went inside. The Woman in a Grass Dress was now standing over Sister, and in full human form. As she saw me approach, she left. I looked, and the Entity was still standing at the rear wall. He approached me and stared very closely into my eyes. I then decided to back off and open up Sacred Space over Sister and myself as I moved to her right side. I then lifted the entire Bone up through the Sky and out into Space, among the Stars. From there I was quickly transported to a scene from the South, from some time in the recent past. There was a southern-style mansion in the distance, with a large field leading down to a huge tree under which I was standing. I saw a young boy of 5-7 then appear, and saw that he had just choked to death on what I feel was an acorn he tried to swallow whole. I then was revealed to me that the Spirit of this Boy then reached through time to take hold of Spirit Sister when she was living in the South and more Spiritually vulnerable. He literally reached through time to get to her now, even though in Earth years we are at least several decades along from his Death. He jumped instantaneously into the now, since in the Spirit World time is quite the flexible to non-existent property. It seems the Boy was totally lacking in any sort of Feminine Balancing Energy, and was seeking this Energy from Sister. We then were back in the Bone Cave. I took my Crystal Wand and absorbed the Entity. My Wand was then glowing with a flesh color! I took the Wand outside and called down a Lightning Strike to remove the Entity’s Spirit and transmute it to the Spirit Camp. I barely recall the actual Strike, but not the Transmutation, though. However, I remember my own Body twitching sharply on the bed at this point..a jolt of some magnitude. I then found myself on a River’s Bank, gently running the tip of the Wand across and through the surface, to release the Entity into Water. This is the preferred method for doing this, so perhaps the Lightning Strike was a non-effective idea. I then found myself in an old Mexican courtyard, and saw a religious Woman approach me fully dressed in a White and Blue habit. She brought me a small, golden Box. She opened it to reveal a searingly-white Heart Shape within. She told me this was part of the heart Energy of Sister’s Power Animal, the White Eagle, and that she should keep this box close to her at all times..in her Mind and Spirit, obviously. I then saw myself assisting in giving Sister injections of Papaya Juice, directly into her abdomen, surrounding her growth. I remember wondering what properties Papaya could possibly have to reverse the course of the Growth’s Life. I then saw her standing, completely surrounded by a healthy Aura. I then turned and walked out of the Bone. The People who had been lining the Road disappeared as I fell to the Ground in humility. I got the impression they were with Sister in some way, as if she were their Medicine Woman. Now that she was healed, they all went on their way. I thanked all my Guides and Helpers and soon thereafter the Call Back sounded. I believe I was shown one more unrelated image or two before the Call Back, but can’t remember it/them. I shall run my actual Crystal Wand in water to cleanse whatever is left of the Entity so it can go home totally in one piece and in one peace.

Here is Sister’s response later in the same evening of the 8th: “Thank you! A boy…how interesting! There were lots of weak aura times while I was living in the South, so it would not surprise me to have had him attach during that time. Poor kid…thanks for sending him home. I could tell when I was at a meeting tonight that a weight was lifted. My energy started returning and my outlook improved and I thought, “I’ll bet 4 Hawks found the time to do the journey.”

Here’s a link to the healing properties of papaya. http://www.europeanvegetarian.org/evu/english/news/news001/papaya.html. [Ed Note: This site is replete with praise for the healing qualities of papaya for many illnesses, including cancer!] Now I’ll have to find a place that has them. Apparently there are both Mexican and Hawaiian variants. Since there was a Mexican connection in the journey, I’m assuming I should go for the Mexican papaya if I can find it.

Interesting about the crowd. The number is about the size of the active membership at my church, so maybe that’s who they were. And another mention of the eagle on the day that my Florida family writes me that the eagles have begun setting on the nest. They had no young last year at all, so that’s very good news…even more so since their old nest got blown down in one of Florida’s many hurricanes this summer. They had to start from scratch and build a new one…guess it paid off! Maybe it will be a white baby…

Thank you again for following your path and helping me to follow mine in health!”

I then reminded Sister it was the Helpers who passed all this valuable info along, that I was merely the channel. I also mentioned that a White Eaglet would cause quite the stir! Subsequent reading concerning Acorn’s in Ted Andrew’s Nature Speak reveals Acorn to be the symbol of strong male Energy, and a source of great strength for Spiritual and other Activities!!

12/16: Here are the results of the ultrasound (it appears the Helpers did a REALLY good job!): “She said it appeared that there had been a small cyst on one ovary that had burst during my last cycle. She didn’t see why the woman who did my exam thought there was an enlargement of the uterus, as everything else looked normal..”

Boots Manifestation

12/7/04: I’ve heard and read that as one is more and more involved with the Helpers, that extraordinary manifestations begin to take place around you. This is not a Journey report, but certainly qualifies to be included as a Shamanic event.

The local weather was quite dodgy today, and so I went looking for my foul weather boots. I could not find them at all. I looked in the three places they should have been, to no avail. My wife suggested I look again, only this time very slowly and methodically. I did so..no boots. A few minutes later, I walked by the chair in the living room upon which I had earlier placed my work shirt. To my surprise, neatly standing side by side as if placed there with some care, right next to my shirt, were my boots. So I asked me wife where she had found them. She looked at me and asked, “what do you mean?” I told her my boots were right there on the chair, and I certainly hadn’t put them there. She said she hadn’t either, and that I must have forgot placing them there earlier. I looked at her at said, “how could I have forgotten the entire sequence of searching for and finding the boots, bringing them upstairs and placing them on this chair, all within the last 15 minutes!?” We then both had what we used to call a “Twilight Zone” moment. Those boots had been put there by someone else! “Trouble” (or Joy, depending on your perspective) is, the only other two people who could have done it were still fast asleep. I have relived the morning several times and can solemnly assure you that I never brought those boots up to that chair. If I have forgotten that entire sequence, I’m in deeep trubble.

So here is we have a very clear example of one of my Spirit Helpers actually intervening and bringing the boots to me. I think it’s quite engaging that she took time to help like that, and it’s quite the thrill for me as well. With that kind of Help available to both me and those whom I work with Shamanically, you can see why I am on this Sacred Path, and how much Healing can be manifested as well.

Journey 134 - For Spirit Sister's Mom

12/6/04: At the request of my Spirit Sister, I took a Journey this evening to attempt to contact the Spirit of her Mom, suffering from advancing Alzheimer’s. I like journeying when it’s dark, for the only Light in the Room is the Sacred Candle. With that Light dancing through the room, I Rattled to the 7 Directions to open Sacred Space, after Smudging with Sage and Sweet Grass. I then whistled four times into my Hollow Bone, to invoke even more transmission capability, as taught to do in a very recent Journey. I then set up a 10-minute Drum loop. As I sat and readied myself through Shamanic breathing, I saw my Upper World Guide, Barred Owl, flapping busily in front of me. Golden particles of Mana were dropping from his outstretched Wings with every flap. I lay down and began the Drums, and found the Sky above us turning a deep violet. The Stars were a pink-lilac color. Behind Owl I saw a light green tornado opening swirling in the Sky, and knew that was our Tunnel. Owl grabbed me and up we flew. I looked behind and saw the impressive rope of golden Mana we were leaving behind as we went ever higher. We entered the Tunnel and passed through an amorphous light green energy zone, with no detail. As we emerged, we were in a comfortably sized home library, with green the only color except for the golden lamp shades and a few other objects that were their own color. We sat at a table in the room’s middle, bookshelves beyond us on the wall. Owl sat to my left and became Eagle Claw. I asked him if Sister’s Mom would come and visit with us. He nodded, and began crying in a most unusual pitch, which I would fail miserably in attempting to duplicate, calling in Mom’s Spirit. Within seconds, she appeared, looking as she does now (or at least when I last saw her). She immediately said, “Hi, it’s good to see you again.” I asked her if she knew why I was there, and she nodded yes. She told me to tell her daughter that it was only her Mental Body that was fading away (I got a very brief glimpse thereof..and it was semi-transparent already), but her Spirit Body was in great shape. She said she was very calm and peaceful in her Spirit, and found being in her body now a bit like being a child again. There was less and less preconception, she said, and all around was resonating with a strange newness. I asked if she had a message for her daughter. She asked me to tell her once more how proud she was to have lived to see serve their Lord is such a meaningful way. She told me that her daughter herself would know when the time was right to move on for even further Spiritual advancement. I asked her if she knew her husband had passed to the other side. She told me, yes, and that she visits with his Spirit quite regularly.* I asked how long she would be suffering in her Physical Body, and at first she said 2.3 years, but later qualified it, saying that chance happenings could shorten that time considerably. I asked her what she thought of her new care-giver home and she said it was a great decision, that her Body would apparently be well taken care of. She then mentioned that even though Sister doesn’t like wearing rings, she should occasionally wear the one with the small green stone as a reminder of her first Shamanic visit during which this contact with her has been established. She said her daughter should celebrate this Christmas by remembering all the joys of past Christmases when she, Mom, was alert and able to fully engage in the holidays. I asked her if she wished to visit with me again and she said yes. I asked, if I didn’t initiate the Journey, how I would know she was asking to see me. She said she would place an Orange in my Dreams. The last thing she said made no sense to me, and may not make any sense to Anne either, but here is a phonetic rendering: “Wizzy Why Woos-whoosh.” At this point, I realized the visit was over, and Owl and I returned through the Tunnel to the Middle World. I sat with him and went over all I had been told so as not to forget it. Then, the Call Back sounded, and the Journey was complete.

* I had introduced apparently false info here..her husband had not passed recently, but Sister’s grandfather. True to form, her mother was nice enough not to embarrass me by correcting me, but merely went on to say she touches her husband’s Spirit from that part of her own existence. I then received this message the next day from Sister herself: “Actually, I think your "mistake" worked out for the best. She did have a husband, my father, who has passed. That was 24 years ago. There are a number of pictures of him up in her room. Until very, very recently she always talked to me using the terms either of "your father" if she meant her current husband. I've noticed that since she's been in there, she keeps asking me about "your father"...if I've seen him today, if he's coming, etc. When my dear friend went with me on Saturday they were looking at the pictures. My friend pointed to a picture (an old courting picture) of my father and asked "Who is that?" My mother said, "That's my current husband."

So she may well be visiting frequently with my father's spirit and not have him confused with anyone else at all. So that question was actually the most comforting part of the whole thing! I was a bit surprised that you asked it, but I was glad. The whole thing was very comforting, almost like a message from the "other side" since she is beyond communication on this side, for the most part. Thank you so much for visiting with her.”

Journey 133 - Final Farewell to Friend's Mom

12/3/04: Our dear Friend’s Mom passed back to the Spirit Camp this morning around 3:30 AM, and I had been intending to take a Journey to ensure she got totally free of her Body and the Astral Plane upon the news of her leaving, and so I did so this afternoon, right after notification. Recall I had taken on her Disease and cleansed her Spirit several times in the past months, the most recent just a few weeks ago when I drained her Chakra sludge into a small pool of Water with several of her Helpers and her Parents there. She was therefore Spiritually ready to pass, but word came to me in the past few days that her Mental Body was still as stubborn as ever, hanging on stubbornly and refusing to accept the inevitable..quite typical of people schooled in Western thought. In preparation for the Journey, I smudged the Room, Rattled in Sacred Space, and lit the Sacred Candle. I focused on my intention, to ensure easy and total passage of both Mom and her Disease Spirit into the Goodness of the Great Spirit, while breathing Shamanically and awaiting the Drum Loop..a 10-minute Trip. As I focused, I saw Snowy Owl approaching me, and saw a vast Arctic landscape before me. The Stars above were quite bright. As I started the Drums and lay down, the Stars became bright colored dots of Rainbow light. As Snowy Owl and I waited on the Snow, our friend’s Mom came toward me. Her Golden Room, seen in a prior Journey, was alight in the Sky, well up behind her. Well beyond her on the distant snow hills were her Helpers. Mom approached me, looking quite a bit younger than I had even seen her in this Life. She came up to me and kissed me on both cheeks. She thanked me for cleansing her and preparing her Spirit for her. She then told me she now understood once more that all is made of Love. She said to tell her family left behind that they are all made of this same Love, and they should use this Knowledge to heal themselves and others around them. Being made of the same Love, she added, meant she would always be reachable by her Family, and vice versa. In other words, she would always be “in touch.” She then slid backward into the crowd of her Helpers. I watched as they all merged into a rainbow colored shaft of light, conical in shape, with the point touching the distant gold Room. The cone then retreated quickly up into this room, and then the Room faded from view. This was the last I would see of our friend's Mom for a while if not for Life, and I fell to my knees and began tearing up as I felt both intense sadness and joy at her departure. Snowy Owl then turned my attention to the Disease, now running loose. He grabbed me in his talons and took off into the Sky. We were suddenly flying over a forested area of the town they live in, and down below me I could see the dark shape of the Disease Spirit lurching frantically through the Woods, bouncing off Trees. It was seeking a new home! Owl gave me a golden Hoop of Mana to throw down onto the Disease, to trap it. As the Disease Spirit became aware of our presence above, it stopped and looked up at us. Recognizing me, I sensed it thinking “oh, it’s you. I’ve met you before, when you tried to intervene in my Life.” It had stopped long enough for me to say, “here is a Gift of Love,” and I threw the Mana Ring down over the Spirit. The Ring then turned into a mini-tornado, totally engulfing the Disease Spirit, with the swirl turning from bright gold to a deep dark gray. It then turned Blood Red, then Flesh, then White. The tornado subsided, and I saw a small white Spirit Mass slowly dissolving into the Ground..returning to Mother Earth to be used for Good. I was then taken to my 5-Stone Altar in my back yard, but back in time to when I used that site as Rains Again. I was shown that one of my great failings to my People back then was when I found myself too busy to perform a Spirit Release Ceremony for a Tribe Person who had passed. This failing was one of the reasons I had returned to this Life to reclaim a Shaman Mantle. I then saw my Shaman Symbol being drawn into the ground within the boundaries of my 5-Stone Altar, and it was suggested that I do this in this reality as well. I then looked up at the Sky and saw the same Galaxy of Light above me that was present at the end of my Shaman’s Dream several years ago. My Shaman symbol was forming within that as well. This told me that my work for Mom had been very fruitful and appreciated by the Spirit Helpers! I was then zoomed back to the Arctic where we had said goodbye to Mom. Snowy Owl asked me if I wished to visit that part of Space where the Gold Room had been. I did, and so up I went. While I was floating within this Space, I felt so calm, at peace and secure. Not a care or worry in the world. This is what our friend’s Mom had felt in this Room. I then asked to be brought back down to the Snows. From there I was quickly transported to my back yard as it is today. Standing there were Eagle Claw, and others of my Helpers and Guides. They told me this assist for a dying person was the first of many I would perform in this Shaman’s Walk, news I was glad to hear, as I really love being the portal for Spiritual Involvement from the Camp. I then found a Sacred Pipe being passed around. When it came to me, I looked at the Stem and saw our friend’s Mother’s name had been etched into it. Eagle Claw told me to keep this Spirit-based Pipe, and hang it on the wall above my own Pipe, as a remembrance of my Help. At this point, the Call Back sounded and the Journey was over. Afterward: this evening we have tiny snow grains falling gently from the Sky..a reminder of the Snowy Field upon which I said goodbye.

Journeys 131/132 - Nephew's Wife/Best Coworker Friend

11/29/04: My first formal Journey in over a week was to try to ascertain the identity of my Nephew's Wife's Power Animal. I wanted to ensure she had the most Spirit Power available to her as she goes through this difficult time of pregnancy. I Rattled in Sacred Space, lit the Sacred Candle, breathed Shamanically while focusing on my objective, and then settled in for a planned 15-minute Drum loop using the CD. Right as I met with my Lower World Guide, Crosses in Front (Snake), she transformed herself into her human form..and was heavy with child! This told me she was in tune with the needs and burdens of pregnancy. But then, as I was expecting us to begin the trip down a Tunnel to the Lower World, instead I found myself on the floor of Maine Medical where my Niece had been staying. Crosses and I then walked the length of the corridor to the little room at the end, reserved for cell phone use. There, Crosses and I sat down at a little table in there, each at one end. Then, two translucent, white Spirit Shapes formed on the side of the Table, sitting next to each other. I asked Crosses if these were the Spirit Helpers for my Niece and her Little One. Crosses answered "yes." I then asked if I was meant to know the identities of the Spirits, in terms of their Power Animal presentations. Crosses told me that this was not necessary, that the two Helpers were already firmly attached to the my Niece and the baby, and that there was no need therefore for me to retrieve them from the Lower World. She told me their Power Animal identities would be revealed to me in the Future as it became necessary. At this point, the Journey's Purpose had been fulfilled. Crosses suggested we use the remaining Time to flood my Robe with healing rays of Energy, as I have a few minor ailments that need attending to as well. At one point during this process I could feel intense heat around my brow as that Chakra area was invigorated. This is the Chakra that helps one to see with the Third Eye, and so I was grateful this skill was being intensified. When I felt I had had enough, I curtailed the Journey early and self-drummed myself back to the Room, thanking all the Helpers involved.

12/1: Word came today that the baby passed back to the Spirit Camp. This was the gist of the two Journeys I took..all had to go perfectly for this to happen. The two Spirits I met in the Journey above were there to take care of the passing..and the forlorn mom.

I then immediately set up for the second Journey, to find a Power Animal for my dear Friend and Co-worker, who was the "thin strand" that set me on this Shaman Path over 4 years ago, and to this day continues to share my joys and successes in this regard. I set up for a 10-minute Journey, as is my custom for Power Animal retrievals. Crosses met me immediately, as we were whisked off to a small clearing, with a fairly large wood log Fire burning in the middle. As we sat there, a group of Deer came to the Circle and stopped. It was a meeting of the Deer Council! They told me they came to honor my friend, as she has many of the qualities of Deer. A wary innocence, a smart and tender way of dealing with Nature, a gentle but firm aggressiveness. They held her in very high esteem, and were pleased to stand around and thank her. We in turn thanked the Council (and I thought to myself how pleased my friend would be for this rare and special treatment), and turned to find a tall, totally light blue Tree standing about 50 feet away. At the base was a small opening, the yellow-orange color that I would call Mango. We went to the entrance and moved into the Tunnel. As we moved down toward the Lower World, I saw Mango-colored Roots and Grass patches. We soon emerged into a Lower World consisting of a strongly wind-swept, high-Grass area. I felt the Winds represented Spirit Power! It was well into twilight. As I looked up in the Sky, Stars were being formed and put in place through large, fireworks-like explosions. It looked like a vastly sped-up view of the Universe's creation and/or growth. The full Moon off to my right was a purple color, another sign of high feminine Spirituality. I then turned to Crosses, who said we should now await the arrival of my friend's Power Animal. My Black Panther totem of the West arrived and lay down beside me. My own Power Animal Eagle then came in and perched on my left Shoulder. Lots of high-powered help here! Soon, a Chipmunk scurried by my feet, but did not linger. Then, a huge Black Bear moved up in front of us, but her bared his Teeth and growled at us, so we knew this was not her PA. Then, I saw a Hawk flying across the Sky from right to left, and quickly dive down below the line of sight about 150 feet to our center-left. Hawk soon came back up with a Porcupine in its Talons, and brought the Porcupine over to us and dropped it at our feet. The animal's quills were had a very glassy reflective quality, and were the colors of the Rainbow, a sign of tolerance and acceptance of much of life's difference in my friend. I asked if this were her PA, and got a resounding "yes." Crosses and I then took the Porcupine back up the Mango Tunnel and were back at the Fire. The Council of Deer was not only still in session, but they had now transformed into human shapes and were seated around the Fire, smoking the Pipe. We all passed it around. The Council Head said we were smoking to honor my friend, and to place her PA within her. I saw a younger looking friend move in from my left, smiling, wearing pigtails. She was lifted over the Fire, where Porcupine and she merged. At one point I saw the Porcupine with her face! The Council members then blew Prayer Smoke into the pair above the Fire, lifting them even higher. This was quite the PA blow-in! After this was accomplished, Crosses told me that our job was done, and there was no need to remain here any longer. I thanked all the Helpers who had appeared, including Bear, of course, and came back to my Room. Once again I cut the Drum loop short and drummed myself back into the Room.

Among Porcupine's many qualities (Ted Andrew's Animal Speak): They are excellent climbers, and use their strong legs to test a limb's strength before moving out. They eat tree and evergreen barks, also enjoying blossoms, young leaves and water lilies. They love salt, so those with this totem should watch out for excessive salt intake.
It has a good nature, and seems to enjoy anything it does. It has a strong sense of curiosity, and seems filled with wonder at most things it encounters as it ambles along.
The quills stand up when danger is sensed. The quills are filled with air, and make the Porcupine buoyant in water, reflecting the ability of "Porc" People to move well in emotional areas. The barbs at the end of the quills expand when dug into another animal's skin, making it impossible for that animal to remove them. Porcupine's greatest enemy is the Weasel and Porcupine People should study the weasel to recognize its enemy better (quick look: very aggressive attacks, and silence in hunting: Weasel People learn a lot about you by just hanging around in the background. The worst assumption about weasel people is that they are weak because they are silent. Weasels attack the face directly, so Weasel people are those who take you on "face-to-face"). Cougars are also good at flipping Porcs on their backs to kill them, and their Medicines should likewise be studied (quick look: Cougar People are quick in the use of their personal strengths. They attack decisively and go for the most vulnerable part, as in having learned to go for the unprotected underbelly of the Porcupine. People who tend to flip you upside down emotionally are part of this adversary group).
Porcupines spend a lot of the winter in trees, preferring to climb than to slog through the snow on foot. The young stand on their hind legs and dance, reflecting the chance for Porc people to renew their sense of wonder through dancing. Porc People's diet should be rich in nutrients and vitamins, with lots of greens, especially when feeling run-down or sick.
Porc People have a knack for sticking it to people sharply and intensely if aggravated, causing the most hurt for the longest time.
Its Medicine teaches you how to resist the barbs of others and see the wonder in life even when it is going poorly. It can show you how to shuffle along without too much seriousness and still achieve, how to protect the inner child from life's barbs, and show you the strength in your vulnerability.

Journey 130 - The Pregancy

I felt Energy flowing through me into the Baby while my niece and wife were talking, and so sensed it was a good time to take a mini-Journey. This is a technique I used recently and have found to be as reliable as the standard, longer, Drum-directed visits to the Spirit Camp. Since a recent Journey trained me to use my new Hollow Bone (in this case, the Spirit version thereof) for such quick assessments, I decided to try this technique in the hospital room while the girls were chatting. So I closed my eyes and imagined myself holding the Bone while whistling into it, as trained by my Guides, to call in the Spirits. I very soon found myself standing at the entrance to the Spirit version of the Bone. It is an immense cavern when this happens..the opening has to be at least 100 feet tall. My Snake Guide came to me and so I knew I was in the Journey realm. I then saw a small, white bassinette off to my left. The baby within in was at first kicking quite lively, but then was still as if dead. I had seen this kind of imagery before, and so knew it meant there was a chance this pregnancy could go either way. I then walked closer to the baby and asked it what was going on.. It told me it really wanted to enter the world through my niece, but that all the right decisions would have to be made over the next few months for that to happen. That was basically then end of the Journey. When I came back to the hospital room, I was able to develop a fairly keen sense that I had been dealing with a male Spirit. Later, as we were leaving, I saw a small chunk of a Christmas Tree branch lying on the floor in front of the elevator we came up on. The shape of this piece was quite similar to the shape of the Love Elemental Piece out of which all things are made that I had been shown recently on a Journey. This told me that my niece has to literally love the baby into the world.

Journey 129 - Help for the Puppy

11/19/04: A third Journey to investigate why our Shih Tzu dog has been so scared lately. There has been a downward spiral over the past months, and I learned recently that one can also take Journeys for Animals. With Sacred Space still open, I re-lit the Sacred Candle and self-drummed this one. I soon found myself outside with Snake, my Lower World Guide. She led me to a Dog Kennel, with many dogs within the pen. Just outside the fence was an opening, through which we sank. We passed along a Tunnel made of golden Mud. When we emerged from the exit, we were hovering over yet another Waterfall. This time, though, we were suspended in mid Air. Suddenly, we fell like Stones, and would have smashed on the Rocks below except for my decision to prevent it as we got close. I knew right away that our dog’s problem was an inordinate fear of falling. We were then standing just to the side of the boulders. Across the River formed by the Waterfall outflow, on the bank, was a smaller version of our dog..a puppy. We crossed over and I spoke to him. I told him I knew he was a little Soul Piece that had left our dog when he was young. I asked him if he wanted to come back to our older dog. He said no, that he really liked it where he was, and went on sniffing the lush bank. I then fell down and prostrated myself as the small dog grew to the size and shape of a man. I told him I was sorry for having no doubt placed that Fear in him when he was younger..I used to stand him occasionally on the narrow deck railing while I looked out into the night. I now find it so hard to believe, as I look back those 5 years, that I could be so inconsiderate, but this was a year or so before I turned back onto the True Path. The larger Spirit Form reconsidered, and went back to the size of the small dog. I then picked him up and placed within my Solar Plexus Chakra, and Snake and I returned through the Tunnel to this World. Shortly afterward, I blew the little Soul Piece back into my dog through his head and tummy. Now that he is whole again, we can certainly expect him to be less timid.

Journey 128 - Understanding my Teen Son

11/19/04: A second Journey taken at both my wife’s and my own suggestion, to see if we can help our son, whose recent grades were the worst yet, despite his big start-of-year plans to do better and buckle down. The room was still open, Sacred Space-wise, and so I re-smudged and went off on a short, 10-minute Drum Journey. As the Journey opened, I was sitting over the huge Waterfall I had seen in prior Journeys. I knew immediately that this meant we were dealing with very powerful emotional forces with my son, almost a torrent. Owl and I were sitting together on a Branch sticking out well over and a bit back from the edge. I found we both then shrank down to the point that the Branch became a very wide log, and we sat down to speak together. Owl became Eagle Claw, my Guide in Human Form, and I asked him what I should do to lead Kenny past this time, to help him succeed. EC told me that the most important thing I should do right now is to speak with my son in fatherly seriousness, and impress upon him how much we love and support him. He needs to hear that no matter what he does in terms of “failing”, he knows he is totally loved and has his parents on his side. He must be told that we have faith that he will make the right choices as he moves forward. The emotional turmoil is such that only such positive faith will; have a good effect on him. EC told me my son is a lot like I was at that age, searching for what is right for him, and that he will have to take risks and experiment with Life for a while. I asked what he might end up doing, and EC told me to look down at the rushing torrent beneath us. How can one expect to find anything firm coming out of that powerful Waterfall? It is too soon to know, he said. He had me focus on a point well down the River, and I saw an older son still living in our house, my wife’s greatest fear about him. But EC told me to assure her that he will actually take a lot of the economic pressure off us as he pays some of the bills (electric, water) as part of his rent. He will be working full time, and will eventually find his true calling. I asked when this would be. EC told me that the heavy rains upstream (all the issues in his young life right now) will cease, and the Water flow will become gentle. At this point, he said, look for a yellow Daffodil growing up out of the water..this will be the sign that he is ready to settle down for good. I also asked about my son's Power Animal, Horse. EC told me that since he was not working with Horse at all, that I should take a picture of a Horse and breathe Mana into it every day to keep his Power Animal galloping on his behalf. This is similar to my tasking to help my granddaughter with her weakened Aura with the nightly Raven chant. It is like saying your daily prayers for others. Eventually my son will seek Horse on his own and realize how much stronger he is with a firm knowledge of his presence. I then began contemplating what would happen if we started taking privileges away from him. The emotional turmoil is already too great, I was told, and at this point the Journey Call Back sounded, and I was brought back to the Room. I thanked Eagle Claw as I rose.

Journey 127 - Further Work on the Sister

11/19/04: A Journey taken at the request of the Sister for whom I've done recent Journeys to investigate the cause and possible Healing of a growth within her head. We had already established Lamb as her Power Animal Spirit Helper in a prior Journey, so this was a follow-up. I prepared the room and myself as always, and for the first time whistled 4 times through my Hollow Bone as shown in a recent Journey, to call in even more Spirit Help. Then, off I went into the Spirit Camp, not quite knowing whom to expect as a Guide, or where we would start.

I found myself in a field of numerous, short white Flowers, with my Upper World Guide Owl sitting on the highest part of a broken Tree Branch not more than a few feet away. He was dazzling in the bright Sunlight, as were the Flowers. A steady breeze was blowing, ruffling Owl’s Feathers a bit. Suddenly Owl drew much closer and peered into my Eyes. I then found us (Owl, me AND the Branch) zooming backwards through a dark Tunnel made of passing Stars. I sensed I was not to turn around to look at the destination, so I kept staring into Owl’s Eyes. It was like riding a very fast train facing the rear. We were soon in a suburban neighborhood, with a large Tree in a Yard with a sidewalk running along it. Owl and I landed in the Tree initially, and then I found myself on the ground a short distance away. A little Girl, looking a lot like the one I saw in the first Journey for the Woman when I met her twin Sister, was standing near this walk. She was wearing a flower-print Spring dress, and her hair was light and seemed to have gentle curls. She let me see her shoes close up..they were strap shoes, either pink or pink-red, with a bit of a sparkle to them. I then saw a huge, hulking man, wearing a dark leather-like overcoat, come up to the Girl and stare at her menacingly. The Girl was very frightened and ran inside her house to her Mom, who told her the Man had gone away but that she must be very careful around such strangers, as they were part of Life also. This event gave her fear of such encounters, and injected an underlying distrust of the World from that point on. At the same time, I saw that the Man was actually a visitor from the Astral Plane, and he had taken a little bit of the Sister’s Soul with him..he disappeared as he reached the corner, holding the little piece of Soul Energy close to his chest. Owl and I then sped back through the Star Tunnel to the Flower Field. He told me we now must go up to the Upper World and seek the stolen Soul Piece. We found a swirling red Tunnel heading down to meet us, and up through it we went. We moved out of the Tunnel into a Deep Space environment, with Stars once again all around. In the distance I saw a small, very black opening. I immediately thought of the “Cave of the Lost Souls”. We drew near it, and then went in. It was much larger close up. As we passed through the complete darkness, I heard small cries from the residents there, and wished I could help them all. A small spark of white light on my visual Cortex told me to head for it. I did, and found the taken Soul Piece there, looking as she did in the yard that day. I told her then man was long gone now, as I sensed he had been taken into the Light. It would be good for her to go back into her grown up self. She told me should would, if the grown-up was willing to receive her back. I said I would ask and left her there in safety for now. The scene then shifted to a room in which the Sister was sleeping on her back. Many of the People I help end up in this position, as if they are lying there in waiting. Her Helper, Lamb, now in Human Spirit Form, was standing on her right side. We were looking at her aura, and found a dark, spear-like piece of Energy sticking out of her head, causing that part of her Aura to be blackish. I asked the Helper what that was, and he said the Woman had had an ear infection sometime around the event period, and the Entity had been able to push into her Aura through that weakness. Once he had left, the dark Energy remained behind to fester, eventually causing the growth. I then asked if we could remove the Spear, and Lamb Helper did so. He took the Spear out, placing each end on opposing palms, and brought his hands together, crushing the Energy. As he did so, the dark Energy turned Golden and dropped down into Mother Earth for future use. He then massaged that part of her Aura back to its traditional rainbow color. The Helper then suggested that when the Sister showers, she should place her face in the stream of water and view the oncoming, sparking water droplets as healing Energy bits, dazzling white in color, pouring through her Energy Body and into her head. At this point, I asked about the remaining growth within. One of my most powerful Female Spirit Helpers, Woman in a Grass Dress, now appeared to the Sister’s left. She and the Helper, one on either side now, both began pouring healing and strengthening Energy into the area surrounding the growth. They let me know it was vitally important to change this growth from a “negative” presence to a positive one, and to treat it with Love and Respect. They told me the Sister must realize this growth is a Life Force in its own right, and is merely trying to survive, albeit not in the best of places. The two Helpers were working to try to turn the dark Blob into a bright one, so that it might slowly dissolve and let its Life Force move on to do good in the Spirit World. I watched as they did so, and saw it begin to glow a golden color. This is another image, then, that will help the Sister deal with this presence. View it as transmuting, shrinking and brightening, and slowly leaving to do good things elsewhere. At this point, with Lamb Helper and Woman standing over the Sister and gently applying loving Energy to the growth, the Call Back sounded, and I was quickly zooming back to my room. I thanked Owl and the Helpers.

All that remains now is to ask the Sister’s permission to retrieve her little girl and bring her back inside. This will no doubt force her to face the issues of mistrust and fear head-on, but will also bring back some of that joyful innocence that was lost. She will know when the time for this is right. And while this Journey showed positive things happening in the Growth area, she must take up the reins now and help it on its way.

Prologue: On my first visit outside, the Cloud People were very gracious. I saw a rainbow-colored Sun Dog that was long and conical in shape..looking like the Spear removed from Jane, but turned to bright, good Energy. A great sign! On my last visit outside this afternoon, during all of which prior visits I had searched the Sky for a Hawk or Eagle (such visits have been a powerful if rare validation of my Spirit Work), I had once more scanned the Sky to no avail. Well, I thought, no visit today.. I was just placing my hand on the door handle to go back in when something told me to look straight up..perhaps the Winged One was way up there and hard to spot. So I looked straight up..and there was the Hawk! Way up there, but flapping/soaring along. I get such a thrill when the Spirits visit me in the “flesh” like this, and I look up by “instinct.” The Hawk’s occasional two-beat flaps in the strong winds would cause momentary sun glints..so every 4-5 seconds or so I’d get a couple of sun “winks” off those wings. This was a very powerful response to this and the other Journeys I did today..it just doesn’t get much better. It’s a visit from the Spirit Helpers, in winged form!

Here is the repsonse I got: "Wow! There was so much to take in, I read it Twice... So the Power animal that helped on this journey was a rabbit, not the lamb as last time? [my error..been corrected..should have been Lamb]. As a child I remember the event of a stranger stopping his car as I stood on the sidewalk in front of my house, he just stared at me and I ran into the house. That was such a frightening experience for me at the time; I might have been 7 or 8. As an adult with 2 young children I had a similar experience. My husband and I pulled up to a furniture store, and the parking space was facing their big picture window, and looking at us through the window was a older man dressed in all black and black hat starting at us, I remember being so nervous seeing him stare at us, so we then got out of the car and as we walked into the store, he was walking towards us and out the door he went. He seemed so out of “This Time”. Those were two events of what I would call a Stranger fear. Since then I have always felt skeptical of certain people when out and about living my life."

11/20: Today, two additional, incredible signs: At one of my stops, I looked up to see a large, rainbow-colored flare of Cloud almost right over me. It was way out of position to be a Halo or Sundog. Instead, it was caused by a “Mare’s Tail” Cloud. The Sun had to hit it just right. It had all the colors, very vibrant, and the Blue extended out laterally like a long jagged lightning bolt. It was the most awesome cloud-borne rainbow I’ve ever seen..and spoke to me immediately of the great Healing Power available for the Sister. Later, I saw a bright, thin band of bright, white Light along a length of Cloud that was also sun-induced..but this time there is no meteorological rationale for it..it was just there. Sort of defying science! Again, the white, Healing light I mentioned yesterday. Two first-of-a-kind light shows in the Sky speak to very great Power being afoot.

Journey 126 - Granddaughter

11/15/04: My second journey was to discover the meaning of a Dream I had last night, in which my granddaughter was kicking me very hard on a set of stairs in some building. I decided she had exhibited enough of this behavior recently and it was finally time to try to spank her on her diaper. But, as my hand got close to her I lost all power. I then tried to slap her leg and the same thing happened: I lost all power as I got close. She then grabbed my hand and squeezed it so tight I thought it might break. She then developed a look on her face I have seen before in Spirit Entities that are Dark..a possessed, wide-eyed, still face that almost glows with malevolent Intent. She came near me and was staring off to my right as this look came over her. I admit I was afraid during this Dream, and unsettled when awaking this morning. Also remarkable and significant is that just as this Dream was ending, I awoke to hear Avery screaming upstairs in her bed. I went up and comforted her back top sleep, but I found it odd that the Dream and her waking up afraid occurred at roughly the same time. I suspected some sort of unwanted visitor, from outside this “reality.”

Since I was still in Sacred Space from a prior Journey, I only Smudged for this next Journey. I took my Hollow Bone recently given me and held it, to give myself added Strength. As I sat breathing, I saw white shapes drifting around in front of me. As I began the Drumming, Owl flew up to me, and the White Shapes were all herded into the Spirit Version of the Hollow Bone, which was very large and floating in a twilit Sky. We flew to sit on top of the Bone, which was very large now, while the Shapes were trapped within the Bone beneath us. Owl told me these Shapes were from the Astral Plane, and we would deal with them when we returned. He told me to look for an Opening in the Sky. I searched the Stars but saw none. Then, behind us, I saw a huge Tree, lit with its own light. Near the top, in the middle of the Trunk, was a glowing blue Hole. “That’s it!” shouted Owl and we zoomed up to it at breakneck pace. As we burst into the Tunnel, I saw blue waves of water going by. We soon came up through an Ocean surface and saw a desert island ahead of us. We flew over the island and down into its middle. There we found a smoldering Fire with a bunch of Ravens, my granddaughter’s Power Animal, around it. I began the process of communication with the Ravens by placing burning Sage and Sweet Grass into the Fire, which immediately flared up. As it did so, the day turned immediately to night, and the Ravens into dark figures with glowing eyes. We were all now sitting around a Raven Council Fire. The head Raven told me that I had indeed surmised what had been going on with my granddaughter. A figure from the Astral Plane has been trying to take advantage of her weakened state and invade her. This and other nearby Astral Figures were now trapped in the Hollow Bone. He told me it was now up to me to prevent future such invasions by saying the following Chant to her every night until she is able to understand what is going on herself: “Your Raven is very powerful; Your Raven is building up your Colors; Your Raven wins!” I must say it whether she is with me or not. I agreed. The head Raven then asked me to bring out my Pipe and send it around to all the Council. I did a quick fill and brought in the 7 Directions, then lit the Pipe with an ember from the Council Fire. I took the first Puff and passed it the Pipe to my right, and around it went quickly in the Circle. As each Smoker blew out the Smoke, it collected over the Fire. Suddenly, in the midst of this huge, collected plume of exhaled Prayer Smoke, I saw my granddaughter with a gorgeous smile on her face, and a totally sealed rainbow-colored Aura..the way it should be, and the obvious goal every night. He then told me to listen as all the Ravel Spirit People sang the Chant together. It was a very high-pitched whine, interspersed with some Ravel squawks. It was not a human singing, but very pretty nonetheless. The Council Head then asked me to repeat the Chant one more time to make sure I remembered it (and told me to remember how they sounded singing it when I say it to my granddaughter). I did so, and we then left the Island after thanking the Council very much. Owl and I went back down through the Tunnel, burst through the Tree, and landed back on the Bone. Owl then became Eagle Claw, and we discussed what to do with the Astral Beings beneath us. Eagle Claw told me to call in the Power of the Star Nation, using the Chant he gave me long ago. I did so, and as I did I saw a rainbow-colored glow emerge from one end of the bone. As this Rainbow Path grew longer and headed off into the Stars, I saw globs of Energy (the Beings) zooming out along the Path. They were being reclaimed and returned Home. We always do what we can to help the Lost Spirits..it’s Shamanic Code. I told Owl how I was afraid when I had this event with my granddaughter in my Dream. Owl reminded me that Shamans have no fear..they see a problem, seek the Truth, and then Do the right Thing to fix it..just as I had done in this case. I got the impression Owl was glad I had taken immediate charge of this Dream and sought the answer. Once this process was complete, Owl brought me back to my Room. Before the Call Back Drum began sounding, there was a bit of time, so Owl sent me the Water Spirit holding the Rainbow Glowing Feather to cleanse me with. I thanked Owl for his help. As the Feather swept through and around me, I could feel my body tingling as the Energy flow increased dramatically, and some of the Dust on my Aura was channeled down to Mother Earth through my main Meridians.