Journey 170 - Wife's Friend's Job Guidance

3/24/05: A Journey taken to see what kind of help I can get for my Wife's friend. I asked for no specifics, just the best guidance possible for her at this time. After setting up Sacred Space and Rattling/Smudging, I was off..another 10-minute Drum loop.

The first image to appear was the sight of a light blue Being slipping out the side door of a huge, pitch-black warehouse in which I was standing. I was along except for my Guardians, Two Feathers and Gray Wolf. Despite the utter darkness and silence, I felt no fear and waited patiently. Suddenly the floor of the Warehouse cracked open and as the gap widened, I could see a field of Stars below me. The floor remained solid, though, so I did not fall through. My Lower World Guide, Crosses in Front, then came to me from the right. She was a pulsating blue color. She soon shape-shifted into her human Woman form and came to stand by me. I then saw, quite a distance away, the friend's body floating lifeless in Space. But soon it became animated, and turned a bright red. Then, it turned normal color. As she then began to walk, the scene shifted to a Desert with a very tall, conical hill a short distance ahead. The hill had no vegetation on it, and seemed to be made of brown and black Stone. Crosses and I went up the Hill and found her sitting on a large Stone slab to our left. At our feet was a very old tiny Tunnel, the entrance encased in webs and pieces of dried grass. Crosses reverted to Snake form and we both went down into the Tunnel to seek Guidance from the Lower World. At first we saw what looked like Diamonds along the walls, but as it got darker these were no longer visible. We soon emerged into the Lower World, and in a great surprise we found ourselves standing in the same dark warehouse where it all started. Then, 4 light blue Beings came in the door on our left and sat at a table a short distance ahead. Their Light illuminated the table. I went at sat with them. They pulled out a deck of cards which sat an undulating blue color on the table before me. At the Beings’ instructions, I pulled 4 sets of cards that were laid out for fortune telling. This was a first. The cards were: 1 pair of 4s covered by a 3; a pair of jokers covered by a 9; a pair of kings covered by a 5; and a pair of 2s covered by a 7. The Beings then showed me a possible future job area for the friend: I saw her standing as an attendant in a gym or a day spa, where she not only worked but was working out. This job seemed to be located in a comfortable climate quite a bit farther south. The Beings then suggested we get a Power Animal for her, and we were immediately brought to a Field in the mid afternoon. I saw many Animals go by, but none were the PA. I saw 4 Turkeys, a Fox, A Porcupine, a Rabbit, a Crow, and a Rainbow Trout jumping out of a Stream. None of these exhibited the necessary friendly behavior, though. But then a Mountain Lion appeared and came right down to me from a nearby rise and licked my hand. I asked if he were the friend’s Power Animal and he said “yes”. We were then allowed to inspect the state of her Aura. What we saw amazed us. She was covered in innumerable thin strands of what looked like hay..these are a thousand or more imprints from prior emotional upsets and woundings. I’ve not seen something like this before, and these are no doubt the major force contributing to physical health issues. These need to be cleaned off immediately. I was then shown that she should wash herself in soaps containing Juniper or its essence from here on out to cleanse and keep her Aura clean. As I was reviewing the Journey at this point, the Call Back sounded and I thanked both the Light Beings and Crosses in Front for their help.

Notes:

1. It was unusual (a first for me) to begin in the Warehouse, and then later tunnel down to the Warehouse again. Since the first Warehouse was well out in space, this was obviously an Upper World Structure. This means the person we saw floating in Space was one of her three main Soul Pieces, the Ami. The trauma of recent events had separated it from her Body (this happens quite often). But the Soul Piece has already returned to her body, by virtue of leading us to the Mountain that then brought us down to the exact replica of the Warehouse in the Lower World. The light Being leaving the first Warehouse may well have been her Soul Piece on its way back home, and not a Helper. The 4 Light Beings in the Lower World Warehouse were never identified, but they are obviously Spirits with her best interests at heart. Therefore, she has much Help from the Spirit World that she as not been aware of until now. The Beings are no doubt ancestors and/or other Helpers.

2. The meaning of the Fortune cards:

The 4/3 combo reflects an important message is coming concerning a problem in your life.

The Joker/9 combo reflects an important celebration will result from unlimited great luck/blessing or happiness.

The King/5 combo means a man will try to bring this great fortune and happiness but it will be restricted in some way..this suggests it will bear its full fruit from another source.

The 2/7 combo means there is a marriage problem that is thwarting or blocking you, that someone in your marriage or a partnership is angry with you.

This is a very good reading. She must be ready for the important message and act on it, plus t seems that her great fortune will be more the result of actions she takes than those of her husband, who shows up at this point as a negative influence by virtue of his anger. His does not mean the anger or restriction is permanent. It is simply there at this time.

3. Now, onto some of the symbols. The friend floating in space after my being in the dark Warehouse suggests she feels incredible detachment and lack of light from this recent event..and a serious need for grounding. Her turning red reflects her intense anger, that will burn out, as we saw, as she returns to normal.

Blue was the predominant color of the Spirit in this Journey. Blue means peace and creative expression. It eases loneliness. It awakens expression and inspiration. It is a universal healer. It strengthens the respiratory system and lowers blood pressure. The friend should make this the predominant color in her life.

The many different animals parading by means that she has had many influences on her emotions, thoughts, and beliefs, and is fairly well confused by a fleeting attachment to them..sort of being tugged in many directions at once. The fact the Hill her Soul Piece climbed when leaving Space was Black and Brown again reflects that need for grounding (see her in space above).

Her Power Animal, Mountain Lion, comes to bring leadership into this area..to set her on a straight course. And a wonderful Helper this Spirit is for her! Adapted from Ted Andrew’s Nature Speak comes the following guidance concerning Mountain Lion: “Lion means “Assertion of the Feminine and the Power of the Female Sun”. People with Lion as a Power Animal should examine their relationship to groups closely. Also, female Lions are the best hunters, and raise their cubs with patience and affection, a lesson for those with this totem. Lions hunt by stealth, and this stealthiness should be used when pursuing new endeavors and objectives. Young lions are associated with the rising Sun, and reflects the idea of rising feminine Energies. After all, the Sun gives birth to new days, and it nurtures and warms Life. Therefore, Mountain Lion tells you to trust your feminine Energies: creation, intuition and imagination. Don’t be afraid to roar if you feel intruded upon or threatened.” This is a very strong female-force Power Animal, telling the friend she must take full control of her Life and Emotions, using them to “hunt” her “great blessing”.

The diamonds at the entrance to the Tunnel to the Lower World suggest such blessings, but they were atop the Hill that suggested the need for grounding first. Also, the fact the Tunnel entrance appeared unused for years implies the key to the Blessing lies in an idea or concept that was probably formulated in youth but long since forgotten or neglected.

Journeys often produce metaphors versus literal details. Hence, the suggested job in a gym or health spa is not necessarily literal, but reflects that she will do best if she is providing a service in which she is helping people better themselves in the health area.

Juniper is uplifting; Medicative; a relaxant, digestive and tonic; antiseptic; purifying; good for skin care. A good choice for cleansing the Aura daily.

So, by adopting the lessons and help of the Mountain Lion Spirit who now walks with you, and by cleansing in Juniper based products, you will begin to assert the calmness and creativity that will make that fortune of celebration and happiness come true.

Hope this helps..feel free to ask questions..and can always journey again if you need further Guidance.


3/29: Here is the friend's response: "All I can say is WOW.......I have been looking at mountain lions on tv....with a total engrossed state.....of late. Weird until now....I now know what it meant.
The rest is all true.....my husband says he's not angry with me, but I do feel it.........the hay weighing me down with everyone that has been hurtful to me over the years....I need to let go and shake the hay (them) off and truly ground myself....I've always tried to "please all of the people....all of the time" and I need to stop and please me! I feel like I have been floating in space for over ten years, since my illness began and with taking all of my medications.
Do you feel that the session ended abruptly....or is that how it goes sometimes......some longer, some shorter readings?
I can't wait for my next "Journey".....will talk to you soon.....thanks again!"

Journey 169 - A Friend's Friend with Cancer Spots

3/24/05: A journey taken at a friend's request for her friend. Here is the message I received this morning: “Hi, All. Well, I had my usual PET/CT scan today and it showed that there are multiple spots where the cancer is still active. Not sure what we’ll do this time around. The doc has suggested another type of chemo and then maybe an immunotherapy trial, but I’m not real eager to go down that road AGAIN.

So, we’ll be thinking and praying about our options. If you’ve run across any sort of natural-type remedy that you’ve not wanted to bother me with, now is a good time to share ; ) We’re open to anything at this point!

Thanks for your prayers and support as we take another crack at this.“

So I set up Sacred Space and began my Journey with a 10-minute Drumming Loop. It’s important to note here that the Soul is divided into three main parts, two of which reincarnate and one of which remains here. The Ami (“em”) is the Upper World Soul and carries links to genetic lineages. The Lower World Soul in the Suns (“soons”), and is linked to past lives. The Suld (“soold”) is the Middle World Soul that remains here after Death and is supposed to wander off after a time into Nature and become a Helper Spirit. Spirit Intrusions in living people by any of these Soul Pieces can result in illness. On to the Journey:

Even as I was Rattling beforehand, though, images of this man as a young boy and a certain building kept flashing into my mind. I had to hold them off before I began, so as not to confuse messages from the Helpers with my own thoughts. Once in the Drum Loop, though, wearing my Mirror, I was ready to accept the information. I saw a large Moon hanging low in the late afternoon Sky before me, and my Guide Owl came flying toward me directly from the Moon. He landed on the ground in front of me. Before us was a very large and flat Field covered in brilliant yellow Flowers on a bed of brilliant green. Owl and I then began to search the Sky for a Tunnel opening. Suddenly a Meteorite came barreling through the Sky, trailing smoke and flame. It landed so near to us that we felt the ground rumble and were soon covered in a thin layer of dirt dust. A chunk of the Stone landed next to me, and I picked it up. Even though it was still very hot, I felt and suffered nothing as I held it. Owl then shook the dust off his Feathers and picked me up. We went up through the Tunnel that had been created by the Meteorite’s passage. As we went through this area, I sensed the mixture of Space and Air. When we emerged, we were in front of this Building I had seen earlier. It was a small A-Frame, two-story building, red with white trim, one door in front. It looked like a very small schoolhouse, or perhaps a small store. It was sitting in a square next to a small bridge. I sensed that radon gas was present in this building, and this had had an effect on this man when he was very young.

The scene then shifted over to a larger building, a train station. Across the tracks was a baseball field where the man as a youngster was currently playing. The area was quite dark, as there was a Thunderbeing nearby, and it seemed quite angry, as if there were a lot of negative Spirit in the area. Owl told me to crush the Meteorite chunk in my hand and go up to the top of the Thundercloud and sprinkle the dust into it. I did so, and this caused the Thunderbeing to release its Rain. However, it was raining Blood. Soon, the entire field and all its players, including the boy, were soaked in red. They were now completely still, as if frozen in Time. I walked up to the boy and viewed his Aura in my Mirror’s reflection. The top half of his body was nice and clean, but as I went lower I saw a large black spear sticking out of his right Kidney. I tracked the spear back to a Dark Being sitting on the edge of the woods next to the Train Station. When I viewed this Being in my Mirror, I saw a very old Man, sitting confused and scared. I got the sense he was a relative of the boy’s, and his name was Walt. I went up to him and began to use my Mirror to restore direction and sense to him. He soon turned much younger, and then split into two Soul Pieces..the Ami (Upper World Soul, the “genetic” Soul) and the Suns (Lower World, Past Lives Soul). Both seemed very happy to finally be separated and freed. I took them to the place where they would return to their respective Worlds, and they gladly departed. I found it very unusual that both Soul Pieces would remain together after Death. The Passing must have been extremely troublesome. I then returned to the boy, and found the chunk of Meteorite lying next to his feet, back in one piece. I was instructed to place this chunk into the hole left in the Kidney by the now departed Spear. I did so. At this point, the Thunderbeing returned and poured cleansing Rains on the field, with four quick, blue Lightning flashes that formed a square around Nate. The Sky then cleared and the little Nate began playing again. Owl and I, finished here, returned through the Tunnel to the Flower Field. I sensed, though, that there was still trouble with tis man in this World. So we shot over to find him in his kitchen. Behind was a lurking Dark Being. I knew instantly this was his relative’s Suld Soul Piece, that part of the Soul that remains here after Death, the last remaining of Walt’s. I took my Lightning-Struck Stick, recently acquired, and pointed it at the Soul. The Stick poured out a Rainbow-colored fluid that restored the Soul Piece to a normal color. It them wandered off, as it should have long ago, into the distance to find a home in the Trees and Stones. At this point, the Cal Back sounded and I thanked Owl and returned.

Notes: Owl flying directly out of the Moon indicates a need to honor the Feminine side of existence in a big way. Next to Mother Earth, Grandmother Moon is the most potent Female Force in this World. Healing comes from balancing the Male with the Female.

The field of brilliant colors suggests a need to be outdoors more, in beautiful locales.

The dust on Owl’s Feathers that was shaken off suggests airborne contaminants in the man’s house need to be removed by a filtration system.

The mixture of “Space” and “Air” I experienced moving up through the Tunnel created by the falling Meteorite shows that somehow there is a reduction of oxygen in the man’s system. Lung function and blood hemoglobin should be checked.

The constant presence of the Meteorite symbolism indicates that the Spirits of the man’s Ancestors need to be honored and/or invoked in some way, as the Ancestors tend to inhabit the Sky Path of the Milky Way. The fact a relative of his had a Spear in the man’s “young boy” kidney, and another part of him was lurking behind his “adult him”, shows there are issues here needing resolving. I was able to dislodge this Energy and restore the relative to wholeness, but somehow the underlying issue of the relative’s Death and subsequent events/effects is still a sore point. My placing the Meteorite in the gash in the kidney left by the Spear resulted in its restoration.

The presence of the Thundercloud shows again the need for connecting with clean Water, versus polluted or “bloodied” Water. This tells me, among others things, that the man should no longer be eating red meats. Also again, Water is a female element, reflecting that need to reconnect with Feminine Energies.

The presence of the Kidney spear, and the covering with blood, suggests that the source of the cancer may be related to either the kidney, or blood, or both. His blood is apparently carrying the cancer trigger. The fact that cleansing with electricity occurred may mean some sort of dialysis or other mechanical cleansing, driven by electric power, is required.

The little boy playing ball was actually his Ami Soul, since we went to the Upper World to observe the ball game. This is again the “genetic”-based Soul Piece, reflecting that Ancestral link..perhaps a disease an Ancestor died of should be investigated and treated.

Finally, the opening scene with the small red building and the hint of radon demonstrates that the man's current house should be also checked for radon emissions.

If and as I think of more correlations, I’ll add to this list.

Journey 168 - My Wife's Knee

3/21/05: Over this weekend we were on our annual ski trip, where we meet with family from the north. This was our second such Ritual. When we first arrived on Saturday afternoon, I contacted the Spirit of the Mountain, who appeared to me as a huge Being wearing a coat made of Snow and Pine Trees. I spoke with him and asked for Protection for us all over the next 3 days (on the way up I had seen enough Spirit Birds crossing from right to left to make me a bit nervous). I also spoke with the Ice Princess of a past Journey and asked her to accept our presence as people of Joy.

Yesterday, after many wonderful runs, we had an incident in which my wife was unable to get onto the lift chair the three of us were taking, and got caught up in the no-man’s land to the left of the next approaching chair. Unable to get free in time, she was knocked down and dragged under the chair before it stopped. Seeing this, I jumped off the chair I was on and ran back to her. She seemed OK, but after the next downhill run said her knee ligament was bothering her. She took a few more runs, but by now it was late and she cancelled out of the final run of the day. Afterthat run, we sat at the lodge for a good 15-20 minutes, looking for her (she said she would wait there), but she did not show. We had her paged..nothing. While we were waiting, though, a huge Hawk flew toward us from upslope. He or she then began circling almost directly above the lodge. I was too exhilarated by the day’s skiing to take this as more than just a visit of one of my Helpers to give me more Windhorse as she went round and round. But soon thereafter we discovered why she was not answering. She had gone down to the First Aid shack for ice and they were keeping her there until someone came to get her. Once I knew this, I was silently berating myself for missing the message of the Hawk: in this case, as so often happens, Hawk was actually signaling “danger”. Had I been more aware, I would have know immediately that she was at First Aid..instead, we waited another 5-10 minutes.

That evening, I began my work on her knee. My son had also damaged the back of one of his, so I took my nearly pure Quartz Crystal, brought along for such an eventuality, and held it to both their knees, to absorb the Darkness from them. For my wife, though, I then invoked the Spirit of the Hawk. I sent the warning Hawk, in miniature, soaring in circles over her Knee, where it would stay for the remainder of the Vacation. I then asked the Spirit of the Mountain to help my Wife, and he sent a Bar along to walk over the surface of her knee above the injury. Later in the evening, while we were in the hot tub, I took a quick Mirror Journey. I met Utawa, and the Mirror surface became an Ocean. We soon approached a small Island, where a Spirit Being sat next to a small Fire. I went up to him and asked if he were the Spirit of Healing Knees. He said he was, and I asked him to come with me to heal my family’s knees. I offered him Vodka, Tea and Milk in thanks. The Spirit agreed to my request, and jumped into the Mirror Ocean and quickly spread throughout it. I then returned to the hot tub and let that Spirit float into the hot tub Water and the pool Water, and saw him flow into both the knees. I left all this Energy in place for the rest of the weekend. My wife was able to ski the next day, and although she had some pain, she only missed one run to rest her knee. As we were leaving to come home, I released the Hawk and Bear spirits back to the locale, as that it where they belong. The Knee Healing Spirit is still at work.

Journey 166/167 - Protection for a learning Shamaness/My Cold

3/15/05: A Journey to help find protection for a Native-descendant Friend as she begins and goes through the process of learning to Journey. I Smudged the room with both Sage and Sweet Grass and lit the Sacred Candle, representing the center of Self and also of the spirit World..the same thing. I then Rattled in Sacred Space. I put on my Shaman’s Mirror for protection. I then sat and prepared myself by breathing slowly and deeply, with a good pause in-between each Breath, while saying the purpose of my Journey over and over again, awaiting the arrival of the Scene and Guide who would take me. It, as usual, was not long in coming. I found myself sitting in a field filled with yellow and white flowers, with some purple Loosestrife. Off to my right was a large stand of Trees, with the late afternoon Sun beyond them. From that direction came Owl, my Upper World Guide. His Spirit Name is Eagle Claw, for when in human form he wears a large Claw dangling from his neck. Owl was huge, immense, which told me I was fairly small. I suddenly realized I was a Chipmunk! Owl landed beside me and asked me if I was ready to go. I was, and he gingerly took me in his Claws and lifted us up off the ground. As we went higher and higher, the Day quickly turned to night (there are no restrictions on Time and Space while Journeying). The Stars were brilliant above us. As we went high, I noticed a Fire burning far below in a clearing. We headed for it. The fact we did not go through a Tunnel indicates this was a Middle World Journey..a trip to the here and now of this Reality. Had we gone to the Upper (place of Knowledge, Enlightment and Heritage Souls) or Lower World (place of Power Animals, empowerment and past-life Souls), we would have gone through a Tunnel. When we landed, I found 5 Mi’kmaq Tribe sitting around a Fire. Owl dropped me off on a Stone Person surrounding the Fire that was not occupied by a Tribe Member. I caught the attention of an elderly Native Woman with gray Hair, who upon seeing how I was dropped off said, “there is something unusual about Owl dropping his prey off at our Fire, instead of eating him. Come here, little one..” I looked at her eyes and they were shining a bright gold. The top of her Aura was connected in a thin vortex of Light all the way up into the Sky, so I knew she had a profound connection to the Great Spirit and Ancestors. I knew she was an Elder, a Shamaness. She took me up in her hand and spoke further to me. “You are a Shaman Spirit, aren’t you. Why have you come here?” I explained my purpose via thought: to find a Helper to protect my dear friend, a relative of hers, as she begins her Journey into her Heritage. She then took me away from the others and the fire into her Wigwam. There, we sat down together next to a smaller Fire. She lit Smudge and then began to Drum. Soon, a Spirit appeared on the opposite side of the dwelling. She was young, a Native Maiden. I asked if she had come to be Anne Marie’s Protector. She answered yes. I asked her name. She said “Ashes of the Swamp”. I asked why she was called that, and she replied that she was the Spirit of the past Vegetation which protected the new Seedlings from harm by lying dead on the Ground until the Seedlings were strong enough to grow into their new Life. I knew this was the ideal Spirit for my Friend, for she is like such a Seedling..ready to burst into the Light of the Truth. I asked her how she might return with me, and she asked to be placed in my Shaman’s Mirror, then transferred to a Stone Person of my choice. This Stone would stay with my Friend until she had successfully navigated the Spirit World and had her own Protectors. Suddenly, the two of us were standing on the surface of my Mirror. Utawa, the Blue Shaman and spirit of my Mirror, was there. Ashes knelt to him and told him it was an honor to meet him. Obviously Utawa is well–known in Spirit Circles. Utawa then pointed to me and said, “my young Shaman grandson is obviously doing very well, seeking help for his friend.” Ashes then came over to me and literally caked me in Ashes..very fine and soft. Within this cocoon, I suddenly felt very young and vibrant and at peace. It was a very nice Gift. She then pulled those Ashes back, and sank slowly into the Mirror. I saw her Energy then spread across the entire surface. At this point, I was back in the Wigwam. The old woman Grandmother picked me, the Chipmunk, back up and carefully carried me over to the Fire. She sat me back on the Stone I had been placed on originally. All five Tribe Members then tool turns spitting into the Fire. With each Spit, the Fire grew stronger. It was so bright at the end that is called Owl back out of the nearby Trees. He came and picked me up. I thanked the Members and Grandmother and we left. Owl brought me back to the Meadow, and from there I returned to my room. During the Call Back Drumming (a series of spaced double taps followed be a long stretch of very rapid drumming), I regained my awareness of this Reality. I transferred Ashes from my Mirror to an Obsidian Bracelet using heat from my Candle. My Friend should wear this Bracelet while Journeying.

Note: The fact the spitting caused the Fire to grow shows the Fire was made of Spirit Energy to begin with. The growth signifies the growth my Friend will experience in her Spirit Life. No doubt she will someday meet this Shamaness relative who called in the Helper Ashes to guide her. I was made a Chipmunk so that my appearance from the talons of an Owl would immediately cause her to recognize my status as a visiting Shaman Spirit.

A second Journey this same day was of a more personal note. My wife and I are going this weekend for our annual ski vacation, and I have come down with a sore throat and runny nose..I really do not want to be sick for this vacation, as it promises to be so splendid. So I took this Journey to try and convince the Spirit of the Cold to leave me and seek Life expression elsewhere. As Sacred Space was already opened up, I began the Drumming and concentrated on my goal. I soon found myself standing in my back yard. Owl was walking toward me, and he led me into the Woods. The Woods could only be seen via the Auras of the Trees, Stones, etc, not their typical appearance in this reality. I looked down to my right and standing right beside me, about 2 feet tall, was a small, brown blob of Light. This was the Aura of the Disease that was now within my Earth Robe. It walked in unison with me, and yet was slightly apart. We continued on together as I searched for a new home for this Life Force. Soon, ahead of us, the Aura of a very large Tree appeared to open up, allowing us to see the contents within. Inside was a large Tree Spirit, offering the Illness a place to stay. But the Brown Blob was very afraid of this prospective home, and clung even tighter to my leg. We moved on. We came to a magnificent flowered Field, and once again the Illness did not want to leave me. But then, off in the distance, was a large, snow-capped Mountain. When the Blob saw this, it appeared to say, “Yes!”, and it zoomed off away from me. It raced well up the side of the mountain before fading from sight. I then looked down and saw a hole in my Aura where the Blob had been attached. I took my Shamanic Mirror and using sweeping strokes restored the wholeness of that area. I walked back out of the Forest with Owl, but took one last look at the Mountain. I saw it rippled by Rainbow Light, and knew the Disease Spirit had been transmuted in Joy. I thanked Owl and awaited the gradual bettering in my condition.

3/18 follow-on. Although I expected and still had cold symptoms the day after this Journey (after all, it takes the Robe a little while to cleanse itself of the remnant of illness), by today I am completely well. We are packing for the vacation, and I am no longer sick. I am deeply grateful to the Cold Spirit for allowing itself to be transmuted into a new Life.

Journey 165 - A dear Friend's Sister in Conflict

3/11/05: A Journey to help adear friend’s sister with her internal conflicts. I opened Sacred Space by Rattling, and lit the Sacred Candle. I set up the Drum Loop and concentrated on my Purpose.and off I went. Owl appeared to me, at first caked on his back and the top of his Wings in the same black matter that had been falling onto my friend’s mother’s house, but he quickly shook that off..a sign of hope. He then took his place in a nearby Tree. I looked around at the Landscape. It was stunningly beautiful. It was Night, and there was a clear area next to the Forest lit in a soft Light..from somewhere. There was snow over part of the Land, but the rest had green Vegetation. The Stars above were very clear and quite bright, and stretched not only down to the Horizon, but across and through the Land as well. It was as if the Landscape had been superimposed over the Universe. Owl flew down to me, transformed into his human shape of Eagle Claw, and we then walked along together across the Star-studded Ground. As we walked, however, the Land narrowed and narrowed. Soon we were walking across a very thin Cliff, not more than several inches wide. We came to the end, maybe ½” wide, teetering. To our left, right and in front was an eternal fall into the Stars. We looked directly below and saw a gorgeous swirl of golden Energy far below. Eagle Claw suggested we turn into Birds, and so he shifted back into Owl and I became Hawk. We dove together off this thin edge of Rock and headed down into and through the golden Tunnel. When we emerged, we were in a tunnel, tan in color on all surfaces, square and just big enough for us to walk along. My Lower world Guide Snake came along and she joined us on our Path. The Light grew dimmer and dimmer and soon we were in abject darkness. Then, I saw a quivering purple mass far ahead and above us. A Voice came from that direction and asked me, “why have you come here, Shaman!?” I told him I had come concerning help for this sister and her conflicts, but he already knew why I was there. I suddenly saw before me a large, life-size chess set. Two Dark Beings were sitting opposite one another, playing. The sister was one of the pawns on the board. The Being on the left picked her up and said “we have control of this pawn, Shaman. We each have turns owning her, so she knows not which side she is really on. Why don’t you come and join in the game?” So I approached the board. I realized that in order to play, I had to become one of the pieces, so I merged with the Knight. I found I was free to move around the board, independent of the Dark Beings’ game. I landed on a square and looked down at the square to my left. There I saw a Hummingbird and then a Robin flying freely in a open forest. I looked down at the square upon which I was standing and saw a Crow flying along beneath me, as if I was standing on its back. This told me my Spirit Guide Crow was guiding my moves. So I hopped over to an open square next to one of the Castles on the side of the board owned by the speaking Being. The scene transformed and I was at the base of an actually small castle turret. At the top I saw a few white Doves and a Turkey sitting. But so far, none of these sightings had indicated a Power Animal for the sister. But at the base stood a wonderfully robust Mountain Goat, completely with wispy beard. I went up to him and asked if he were willing to be the sister’s Power Animal. He said he was. He then assumed his human shape, and was a tall, elderly Spirit Gentleman..with wispy beard, of course. He said he name was Atalaha, and that he would try to help the sister. But, he told me, her conflict was genetically based, so there would only be so much he could do. The rest was her Sacred Path and therefore inviolable. Atalaha turned back into Mountain Goat and we zipped back over to the place on the board where I had started from. I then had to rescue the Sister Pawn, currently still in the right hand of the Being on the left. I noticed the Pawn was turning from light to a very dark Red, indicating the sister was wrenched with emotion. I zoomed up to the Being and attached myself to the Pawn. I then told him “you must release this Pawn to me”, took out my Mirror and absorbed the Being into it. The Pawn and I then fell straight down onto the board, directly in between the protective presence of the King and Queen. The other Being complained at my removing his partner, and was becoming quite threatening until I pointed my Mirror at him. He then backed up a bit and said, “well, there’s no more game here, Shaman..but we shall play again sometime..” The chess board then disappeared. We were back in darkness with the purple blob in the distance. It spoke. “You have what you came for, Shaman..you may now leave.” I thanked the Spirit very much, and I got the sense it said, “ahhh, don’t mention it.” I got the sense I would visit here again in future Journeys. My two Guides, I and Atalaha then turned and walked back through the Tunnel. Atalaha turned into a very small Goat piece so that I could easily clench him in my Hawk Claw for the ride back. Up the Tunnel we went, back along the Cliff and into the Star Land. Snake left us, and Owl returned to the Tree. I let Goat graze on the magical Grass to enhance his powers. I rubbed his neck and thanked him very much for coming along and he looked up and smiled, as much as a Goat can smile. At this point, the Call Back sounded.

Among the attributes of Mountain Goat are the ability to give proper support to others as they move; flexibility to explore new possibilities; overcoming lack of support from others; trust in your ability to land on your feet after a fall; association with the sign of Capricorn, which asks, “are you being too serious or not serious enough?”..offers help when ambition and opportunistic behaviors get out of hand; helps regain balance; has ties to Pan, Amalthea and the Horn of Plenty. Goat implies it is time to begin new climbs and endeavors. With proper foresight (horns), you will see what lies ahead and move forward with great surety.

Hummingbird: Joy
Robin: New growth, spring
Dove: Feminine Energies of Peace, Prophecy and Maternity
Turkey: Giving, Shared Blessing and Harvest

The fact these four Bird types were present but not engaged means these qualities are currently suppressed in the sister..

3/12: My friend reports (and I got chills) today that when her sister was young, she had a pet GOAT! Truly amazing, but not surprising. The info the Helpers give us is invariably accurate.

Journeys 163 and 164: Two for my Wife's Friend/Coworker

3/8/05: Two for my wife’s friend, who has recently developed a cloudiness over one of her eyes:

Journey 1: After the usual preparations, I began the Drum CD loop and immediately saw my Shaman’s Mirror on my chest glowing with a soft blue Light that outlined its contours. This told me that the Blue Shaman was powerful and ready to assist/protect. I then found myself in a very dark Forest. The Trees had no color whatsoever..just black outlines against a barely visible Sky. I was sitting by a Fire, with Black Panther, my totem of the West, lying beside me. I was stroking Panther’s head, rubbing the fur thereupon. Then, in the nearly black Sky, I spotted Owl moving across from my right. He was flying in loops, crisscrosses, ascents and dives..all the while leaving a trail of Rainbow specks. Owl then flew really high and began circling around, building a Tunnel to the upper World. Once the base of the Tunnel had reached the ground, I and Owl went up. As we emerged from the exit at the top, I found myself back in a Room I had visited before in a prior Journey. Owl flew and put the Room Lights on. There before me was a huge Mountain made of, or at least covered in, innumerable Stones of many sizes, shapes and colors. At the top I could see a Pink Swan floating patiently. I knew I had to get to the top, and began climbing. Soon the exertion was too much, so I shape-shifted myself into a Hawk and flew the rest of the way. Once at the top, I landed and stood right beside Pink Swan. As we looked into the surface of the Pond Swan was floating on, we could see our Human form reflections, even though the two of us were in Bird form. We then began to discuss the friend’s problem. I was told to examine the friend’s Aura and did so. I could see a direct looping link running from her emotions Chakra straight up into one of her eyes..the left one, as I recall. I was then informed that an overage of Fear was leaking from her Chakra into her Eye. I was told this connection must be broken in order for her Eye to begin healing. I was then told to make a small Ongon, or a Spirit Housing, to give to her. Just then, Wolf appeared, volunteering to be her Power Animal. I was to place this Spirit within the Ongon so whenever the friend held it she would feel the peace and serenity of the Spirit World. I was told to put a picture of her smiling on one side of the Ongon’s head, and a picture of Wolf on the reverse. She would then know her Wolf Helper was right there with her, and that there was no need to fear anything.,she could dash the Fear at any time by holding and contemplating the Ongon. Wolf then began to apply a wet rag soaked with water to her Eye, followed by a glowing Coal. The Ongon should have a red cloth covering. I was then told to tell the friend to begin taking Bilberry and Lutein, or supplements that contain these vision-helping elements, and extra vitamin C, well–known for its importance to the Eye’s health. At this point the Call Back sounded and down I flew to the Room, I shape-shifted back to human form, and Owl and I then flew down the Tunnel into the Dark Woods. He then left me a Feather, a Spiritual Gift. He then dusted Black Panther and I with Rainbow Dust.

Notes: The very dark forest at the beginning and end seems to have implied a problem with vision, with seeing, and so I knew I was in the right place for getting Guidance. Black Panther represents very powerful Spiritual abilities, including that of shape-shifting.

The fact Pink Swan and I could see our other selves in the pond’s reflection indicates a need for the friend to look within and find the true Self. It’s OK to appear as others want her to be, as long as she knows her true Self is safe within.

There are many attributes a Wolf Power Animal brings: self-confidence, knowing your place in the pack, using body and verbal language effectively, learning to balance authority and democracy, learning not to be wasteful, excellent hearing and smelling ability, and learning to trust one’s own instincts.

Applying hot and cold compresses directly to the Eye appears to be necessary to help clear it up and break the flow of Fear into it.

The color Red in the Ongon implies stimulation. Red stimulates the body, increases passion, will and energy. It warms and activates. It can raise body temperature and energize the blood. Too much Red, however, can lead to high blood pressure and aggravate conditions. Hence, when using the Ongon, the friend should try to alleviate as much surrounding red color as possible.

Journey 2 was to check into the friend’s near Future, also undertaken at her request. Her finances are troubling to her, and no doubt a major cause of the Fear seen in the above Journey. Sacred Space was still open, so I dove right into the Drum loop. I saw Pink Swan floating atop the Blue Shaman Lake, the watery appearance my Mirror takes ion from time to time in Journeys. Owl was nearby, and told me to go with Pink Swan. We floated off together across the Lake, and soon came to a very thick Mist. We moved inside, and within seconds I could see Stars forming in the distance. As we emerged totally from the Mist, we were out in Space. All the Stars were falling slowly making the shape of a huge funnel. It was an immense Energy sink hole. Perhaps a Black Hole lay at the bottom. The two of us went into this Funnel and quickly sank. When we landed, I saw Pink Swan standing next to an exit sign for a certain nearby city. He then let my attention wander to a map, and most of the energy seemed to be focused in the NW corner of the city, toward another town. I saw a connecting route flash quickly by in my mind. I then saw a small, 2-story apartment building, with perhaps 4 units, that has been built along a large rock ledge. Trees growing out of the top of the ledge hovered over the building. Its colors were beige and brown. A number and name flashed by: “98” and “Rollingsford’. I then saw the apartment building go quickly through an entire cycle of winter, spring and summer. It was now fall, and the friend had been living in this building for a while. Several men came and went quickly in her Life, one black, one white. I was shown that sub-letting a small apartment to generate income might also be an option for the friend. The following spring I saw a good friendship begin between her and a male who lives in one of the adjoining apartments, or who took the sublet if that option presents itself. This male would be a comforting and supporting presence..a true friend. Pink Swan and I then were then lifted back up through the Star Funnel. We went through the Mist back onto the Shaman Mirror Lake. There, all my Other major Guides were awaiting us. We all hugged, and as we did so the Call Back Drum began. I thanked them all and came back to the room.

Notes: The address apparently given, 98 Rollingsford, does not exist in those towns. In fact, the name Rollingsford is not in the dictionary. So perhaps the name is meant to be split..Rollings and/or Ford. Or perhaps Rawlings. Often these messages come as metaphors..one must be alert to alternate spellings.

The time frame of all this appears to be a little over a year from the beginning. It seems to begin in the late fall of one year and carries through to the spring beyond the following spring.

The fact all this took place on a Lake and among a Mist indicates Water is the primary element of this Journey. Water signifies the Emotions and Feminine Power. This means the friend will have to call on lots of courage and inner strength to make this scenario work for her. This is where Wolf as a Power Animal can be very helpful. They can roam for miles without tiring, and have a well-defined sense of place.

The Black Hole and cascading Stars seem to imply that Fear is draining part of her Energy to act and Live properly, but that if she just embraces the Fear (falls into it, so to speak) she will emerge at the bottom with her new Life.

Journey 162 - My Son's Friend's Shoulder

3/7/05: A Journey to see if there is anything I can do to help my son’s friend, who has re-injured his right shoulder, weakened by a bad injury and subsequent operation was he was a teen. After the usual preparations, I lay down with the Drum CD poised and ready. I briefly saw Owl flutter down toward me from a deep Forest, and then found myself sitting once again on the surface of my Shaman’s Mirror. I then spotted hospital operating room a short distance before me. However, as I began to move toward it, the Blue Shaman (Spirit of my Mirror) Utawa and Pink Swan (my newest Journey Guide) both appeared, standing side by side, intending to block my entry. Apparently there is nothing to be done Shamanically to fix the shoulder outright. I then looked to my right and saw a small Fire burning. It was green in color. I went to sit by it, and my two Guides sat down with me. We Smoked a Sacred Pipe. I soon asked if perhaps I could try to find some extra money for his friend so he could afford an operation. The Helpers then handed me the Spiritual equivalent of my Hollow Bone. I looked inside and saw the operating room once again. I took some Sage and Sweet Grass, lit each, and blew the Smoke into the Room. The entire room then began to sparkle with Rainbow Colors. This told me that during any coming operation, the friend would have the protection of the Spirit World over him. I then asked once more if there were any way to generate some additional funds for him. The Helpers sent me skyward, and there I found a Spirit who I sensed was the Spirit of Numbers. His clothing was covered with many types of Numbers, some symbols I of course recognized, but the vast majority in writing and styles I knew nothing of..no doubt from other dimensions and times. I asked this Spirit to have pity on me and the person for whom I was interceding to find a source of money. He then suggested to me that the friend should play the following number sequence in a pick-4 lottery through and especially on April 15: 7 X X 1 (numbers withheld to enure a win for the friend..I'm sure you understand). I didn’t get the sense this was a sure winner, but that it was quite likely. I thanked the Spirit of Numbers and returned to the Fire. I then allowed both Helpers to merge with me so they could once again experience Life in a Human Body. They both enjoyed it very much. Pink Swan moved to increase my seeing strength with my Visual Cortex while present within me. I could see the Blue Shaman Utawa in his entirety. Once the Mergings were done, I left the Mirror and was standing before the Forest once again. Both Owl and Snake, my traditional Journey Guides, were there. After approving of my Work with my new Guides, each took turns in the unusual step of spitting on me, moves designed to vastly increase my Spirit Strength (or Windhorse as the Mongolian Shaman tradition refers to it). I rubbed the Sacred Water all over my Body, thanked all the Guides, and returned to my room.

Note: The color green is very powerful as a Healing agent. It balances energies and increase compassion. It calms inflamed areas of the body. It soothes the nervous system. It makes one friendlier, more hopeful, more peaceful. It strongly affects the Heart Chakra.

It was interesting to see so much interest paid to me afterward. Perhaps the Helpers are stealing me for an upcoming Spiritual challenge.

Journeys 160 & 161 - Twin Sister's Aura/Go to Florida?

3/4/05: A Journey to investigate the dark area in the Twin Sister’s Aura I spotted during our Restoration Ceremony of Feb 25. This area corresponds roughly to an area where she has a physical manifestation of this Energy field. So, I Smudged the Room. Lit the Sacred Candle and Rattled Sacred Space into place. Wearing my Mirror for Energy and Protection, I was off.

Most interestingly, I was met right off the bat by Angshwa, my White Owl Guide. He was the Guide I met when I performed my very first Journey for Janie. This Guide seems to have a personal interest in the Sister’s Well-Being, for while I did not even have him in mind for this particular Journey, nonetheless he had volunteered. And here he was, swooping down right in front of me as we both occupied the space at the top of a bunch of close and tall, snow covered Pine Trees. We looked below, and way down there, in the middle of a small clearing, I could see a well-lit cabin. It was quite dark there, for the yellow lights in the windows really stood out. As we descended toward this cabin, however, it turned into a large Fire. When we got to the surface, I saw four Dark Beings sitting around this Fire. It appeared as if they were trying to warm themselves, but I saw one place his hand directly in the Fire with absolutely no result. No burning, no pain. I then realized these beings were totally cut off from the Fire of Life, but were still seeking it. Owl and I stood off to the side, watched and waited. I wasn’t sure whether to intervene with these Beings or not, and decided waiting was indeed the best thing. Suddenly, a large Wolf emerged from the woods. He was quite unhappy and was snarling at the Fire and the Beings around it. He moved up to and slowly paced round the Fire, as if sensing the Beings there but unable to see them. He did, however, spot Angshwa and I and came over to visit with us. He became friendly with us and especially my Guardian, Gray Wolf, and they sort of hit it off. Angshwa and I then looked right, and saw an opening in the woods through which a snow-covered road led. This road went over a small, frozen creek via a small bridge with minimal height and wooden rails on either side. I then saw a body float up and press against the clear ice covering the creek. I sensed there were more bodies beneath this one, and that the Beings at the Fire were spirits of these Bodies. They had obviously died unnaturally. Most remarkably, I then saw the two Twin sisters leaning against the rails and looking out across the creek. I then sensed that a bit of the Dark Energy from these Beings crept into the Twins, unaware of the invasion. Hence, they were not hit with a full Entity invasion, but Imprints were left. It almost appeared to have happened by chance.,they just happened to be there as that Energy drifted by. At this point, there was a pause in the Journey. Perhaps Angshwa went back for guidance. In any case, when we both were back together, I was shown the Sister has had a rainbow colored Wreath of Energy placed around her head. This will be there for the next two weeks. My duty is to place Spiritual Sage into the Rainbow Wreath from here on a daily basis, to keep it fresh. This Wreath will gradually absorb the dark Imprint in the Sister’s Aura. I shall gladly do this. At this point, the Journey was over.

Some notes: Pine Tree is the Tree of Peace, yet another reminder that Healing comes from the centering gained by being totally at one with one’s surroundings and fellow being, as much as possible.

Wolf, who showed up as an opposing force to the Beings, has introduced itself as a Totem for the Sister. There is much in Wolf Medicine, more than I can recount here. I will send her the pages with all the details. Bottom line, though: Wolf Medicine teaches of Guardianship, Rituals, Loyalty and Spirit (the freedom thereof). Time to take balanced control of your Life once again and walk in true Freedom. Full Moons and Twilight are the Power Times. It’s therefore interesting the Cabin appeared lit as if at Twilight.

The frozen Creek speaks of an emotional freezing..something in the emotions or the feminine spirit that is or was “frozen” and needs to be free. The fact the Ice was keeping the bodies from the Twins means the freezing was helpful and protective at that time. But now the awareness of this freezing implies it needs to be dealt with if still there.

Another interesting "coincidence" with the first Journey is this set of lines taken therefrom: "I was told that this mana would from here on out always be there as a gift to her sister to help her fight the disease stalking her..and that she should therefore always think of herself surrounded by this *rainbow swirl of healing Spirit Energy*, the gift of her sister. "

Finally, I was not allowed to intervene in the existences of these Dark Beings. So they will continue to sit around the Fire. Whether I ever deal with them again remains to be seen, but they obviously meant no harm to the Sister and her Twin. Their main purpose in this Journey was to introduce the Wolf Totem to the Sister.

3/7 Sister wrote: "Wow, How honored I feel that Angshwa has taken an interest in me, so much so that he volunteered to assist you!!
Your journey has been so informative. As a matter of fact, on Saturday morning, washing the dishes at the sink, there was a very visible Rainbow off to my left, and I immediately thought of the Wreath of Energy! Could this have been validation of the Rainbow Wreath of Energy in place? All I know is that I had gotten such a good feeling when I saw it J J
Thank You for placing Spiritual Sage into the
Wreath of Energy for the next two weeks, I’m so Grateful that you’re willing to do this for me. I will be having my MRI on March 23rd, and be thinking of Your, and Your powerful Helpers Positive Energy coming my way.
Upon the viewing of the 4 beings warming by the fire, how interesting the out come, as the Wolf being a Totem for me!
S o upon just finding this out, does this mean he’ll be able to assist you on your mission for me? How great for you if that’s so.
Thank You "

3/8 Sister wrote: "Thank you for the daily Sage placement, I just might spot you one morning!! And as for the Rainbow, I’ve spotted another! It’s a Good feeling!"

3/18 Follow-up: I wrote to Sister "I finished my last flight with Sage this morning, completing the task the Helpers gave me two weeks ago. Interesting things have been happening in this regard. Over the past week a vortex of rainbow energy has been swirling over your house, connected to your wreath. It’s been getting bigger every morning. This morning it looped over and connected to my 5-Stone altar, and I actually flew back home through it like it was a Tunnel. That was the completion of the visits. Also, over the past 4 days or so, each time I placed another Sage in your wreath, I could see a small stone-like object representing your growth burning away more and more, like a meteorite entering the atmosphere. This morning it burned completely away. I’m not sure if this is a physical result, or metaphorical. That is, the growth may still be there, but all of its Life Energy appears to have happily transmuted back into the Sky. It was really amazing to see how vast and expansive the rainbow energy feeding your wreath became with time. "

To which she replied: "What a wonderful sight it must have been to see the rainbow swirl!! The thought of the rock like image burning away or the thought of the life energy leaving sounds so comforting and positive, as a matter of fact, for the past few days, I have felt a lighter sense about me, not that dark heavy feel, as when I am depressed. I’ll be having my MRI on Wednesday, and thinking only positive that all your work, and your helpers hard work has helped me."

3/22: She wrote "I feel pretty positive, and I still have that LIGHT feeling, I just don’t know how else to explain it, but it’s goodJ I will let you know the results tomorrow. Thanks for your thoughtfulness."

3/23: And today the results of the MRI and the two week Hawk flights with Sage: "You were right! I did get good news. The Dr. said that the tumor had shrunk and there was no additional growth. :) :) :) Thank You and all your Helpers :) :) Many Many thanks for doing what you do, helping others."

To which I replied: "Trust me, I am as delighted and thrilled for you as you are. I will personally thank my Helpers on both our behalves. I was absolutely certain you would get such news..and I’m sure the shrinkage will continue. We should also thank your Twin, who has been watching over you as well. And your Young You, who has come back into your Life to help fill you with joy. I knew when you said you were feeling lighter that things had changed “aloft.” I’m ready to help you in your Dream analysis..say the word. I hope your weekend is a super, love-filled and peaceful one. My flights over to you were quite rewarding, especially as I watched the Rainbow Swirl grow with time, and the growth begin to flame out. The fact I was allowed to be the Channel for this result is all the thanks and reward I need..plus the 5 smiley faces..a new record for a single email for me. :)

Thanks for sharing this really heart-warming and inspiring news."

On 4/8 she wrote: "I have been so busy, that’s why I didn’t email sooner, but I wanted to get your thoughts on a ‘dream’ I had near the end of the sage placement you did for me. It wasn’t a dream as I would normally call it, but more like a vision. As I was sleeping, and I saw a pair of eyes so close to my face looking at me, but they weren’t human eyes, they were eyes of a bird, I thought a eagle or hawk, and right behind the him, was an owl, and the owls eyes were coming closer to my face along side the eagle / hawk. I was so startled by this that I woke up, I looked at the clock and I was about 7 am. It took me a few days to realize, but I must have been thinking of you and your helper. Do you think I could have had a vision of you, Hawk and your helper, Angshwa ??"

I wrote back: "Your vision is nothing short of thrilling, for I performed your final 6 or 7 visits as a Hawk in the early morning, around 5 AM. I would shape shift into Hawk, fly over to your house, circle around you and chant while placing the Sage, and then fly back. There can be little doubt but that you actually saw me as Hawk in your vision. As far as Owl goes, it’s also truly amazing, for I would run into Owl on some of my flights over there. There was one morning in particular where we flew together for a while. Could very well have been Angshwa, or else Eagle Claw, my Upper World Guide. Thanks for telling me this, for it makes sense for you now..and gives me more confidence in my shape-shifting skills. :)"

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Journey #2 today involved getting guidance concerning a dear friend's still-formulating plans to move to Florida. Sacred space was still intact, so I Smudged and set off with a short Drum CD loop. My first image was rather astonishing..my Guide Owl was riding in the maw of a Penguin, sipping on a drink, holding a cigar, and wearing a straw hat. What the hay?! I was sort of non-plussed at first. Owl began laughing and said I should lighten up a bit. Journeying is not all serious work..Shamans can have fun too! I understood and was actually glad to see this playfulness. It was a first. Owl then left the maw and flew down to me to begin the Journey. We were deep in the Everglades, and moving deeper. The scene began mixing with Stars, a bit like the Galaxy superimposed on the Forest. As we passed through this dimensional interface, we ended up in the Lower World. This was the first “Tunnel” to the Lower World I’ve been through that was not actually a Tunnel. A day of firsts. In fact, we ended up in that area of the Lower World where I have been quite a few times..Trees ahead and to the left, River and Bay to the right. Crosses in Front, my Snake Lower World Guide, arrived. She pointed at the River and told me it was time I took my first trip down there. So off the tree of us went in a large Birch canoe. We went downriver a while and came upon a Seminole Village on a bank. An elder Chief came out of one of the Tipis and greeted me. As I was heading toward him, a Dark Being with the glowing red eyes, becoming ever more a fixture of my Journeys, jumped out from a nearby bush in front of me. He came right up to me and asked me to come to the big Dance being held just beyond. Immediately sensing I was in danger, I used my Mirror to grow to the size of a large Tipi myself, and virtually radiated “windhorse” (Mongolian term for Spirit Energy) at the Being until he ran back into the Forest. The Chief then explained that this Being was one of the Suld souls (one of the reincarnating Souls Humans have..the other reincarnate goes to the Upper World at death..the third stays on Earth to mix into Nature) of prior Natives who had never quite let go of that life..this was quite normal with Suld souls who transfer normally back to the Lower World after living. He took me into the Tipi of the Chief and there we ate Alligator meat cut into thick squares, and drank a Mango or Papaya Juice. He then spoke. He told me Florida as it stands today is quite dangerous for women such as our friend and her sister. The weather supports those in the criminal element who can live of very little, since they don’t need a shelter to stay alive: bottom line is that Florida attracts criminals. He told me the girls must be very careful in their choice of living areas. I then was shown the name “St.Croix” followed by this street address: 1247 Wisteria. I was then told that the move would be best done in the early Summer of 2006. The Chief told me the Dogwoods should be blooming in the central States when the move begins. He told me the two women were lovely beings who deserve a good life. He then moved onto a different subject, and said he and his people were not angry they had been forced out of the camps by the arriving Europeans. We then performed a parting Smoke together. Upon leaving, as I was drifting away in our Birch canoe, the Chief yelled at me from the shore. Laughing, he shouted, “you really should have gone to the Dance..we dance with these Beings all the time! You should relax a bit.” I felt a bit foolish now about jumping the gun on the Dark Being..from now on I should ask questions first, if the context permits. We drifted back the way we came. As we went from the Lower World back through the Star curtain into the Everglades, Owl went back into the Penguins maw and resumed his laid back flight, cigar and all. I watched him fly off and said to myself, “yup..I should have gone to the dance..”

Note: I checked right afterward. There is no St. Croix, Florida. There is a St. Croix in Indiana, so I knew THAT wasn’t right. Then, during a Goggle search, the answer hit me on the head. No WONDER that name rang such a bell..it is one of the three US Virgin Islands. Duhhh.. I think the Spirits think the girls should go there instead of Florida. There is certainly plenty of tourism down there for work and play. Great Weather. Only restriction I could see in a quick review is that people there are not allowed to vote..it is a territory of the US, not a state. They have a non-voting presence in the US House.

Alligator represents Primal Energies of Birth, Motherhood and Initiation. According to Ted Andrews, "there is going to be an opportunity for strong birth and/or initiation that will open new knowledge and wisdom in some area of your life." Mangos "awakens the intuition and stimlates telepathy (and) has ties to the archetypal energies that awaken within the Aura the hope of true spiritual realization."

Journey 159 - Breaking a Fever

3/2/05: A quite noteworthy mini-Journey that deserves a write-up all of its own. My daughter was VERY sick today. From the time I got home at 4 PM through about 9:30, she was running a fever of at least 102.5, and nothing was bringing it down. She had just enough Energy to lie like a Stone and groan. She never asked me to intervene in so many words, but I seem to recall her asking if anything could be done. I thought she meant medicinally, and I couldn’t think of anything outside a cool bath. This was early in the period, and I didn’t really think to intervene “Shamanically.” Not, that is, until about 9:45 at night, when I finally decided this might not be a virus at all, but an invader!

So I performed an impromptu Journey, something more established Shamans are capable of. I sat in my computer chair with my pup on my lap and sank into the Shamanic “trance”, with no external aides such as drumming. I saw Owl fly in from my left almost immediately, from a grouping of Branches lit with gorgeous fall Leaves. He and I went immediately to a clearing where I saw a Dark Being with glowing red eyes stomping either on my daughter or stomping in a tight circle around her. I took out my Mirror, which is always with me in the Spirit World, and held it up to the Being. He immediately found himself being sucked into the Mirror as a flow of black Energy. Owl and I then took the mirror over to the River of Life to our left and placed the Mirror face down in the water. Instantly, a long streamlet of red blood flowed from the Mirror and then ran downstream as an elongated pool of red. Soon thereafter, it turned into a dazzling display of rainbow colors. I knew the entity had been transmuted to good. My daughter was now entity-free, and I knew she would feel a lot better the next day.

3/3/05: I heard that my daughter felt well enough to go to school today. When she got home, I asked how she felt. She immediately asked if I had said a “Prayer” for her last night. I nodded yes, and proceeded to describe the above Journey. It turns out that shortly after my Journey she had gotten up and went to take some Nyquil. She was so dizzy she could not even stand up. I believe some of this dizziness was caused by the Entity extraction. The last time I performed work on her, she had episodes of hot and cold flashes. The Nyquil could be said to have aided in her very quick recovery (she was normal in temp and ability today), but I know that removing the Entity was the major part of her Healing, for one does of Nyquil has never worked THAT well in my experience. I’m not trying to ignore its possible effects here, but I know what I saw and did on my Journey, and am confident that played the key role here. I didn’t tell her earlier about my Work on her for I tend to wait with Family Members to see if the Healing occurs..don’t know why I do that..guess I don’t want to contaminate the results.

Journeys 157 and 158 - The Purple Dragon/A Small Visit with the Twin Sister Spirit

2/25/05: I had originally intended for this Journey to be my attempt to contact the Twin sister's deceased sister again, as the former has seen a car that reminds her of her sister over and over again..in fact, even in the past few days, she has seen that car several times. I feel strongly as does she that her sister is trying to contact her from the Spirit World, and so I decided to see what message she might have.

But this was not to be in THIS Journey. First, a small backgrounder. After the Soul Restoration Ceremony on the 23rd, I found the 24th to be one of the more aggravating mornings of recent memory. It seemed everything I did went sour, and I could almost feel some force working against me. Even as we were heading out to ski that day, I saw a huge Hawk fly just in front of the car from right to left, another sign that things were awry, that some danger was present. So I guess it was no surprise that after preparing myself for this Journey to visit with the deceased sister, things went off course VERY quickly.

I was whisked off to some dark woods almost immediately. No chance to meet with my Guides, or find a Tunnel. I saw before me a very large, light yellow Tipi, shimmering as it stood there. Suddenly a purple Dragon-like Being came flying from behind this Tipi and began to attack me. Having no Guides or Protectors, I realized I needed to fend off this attack myself..when suddenly I remembered I was physically wearing my Shaman’s Mirror! I called on both the Mirror and its Spirit, Utawa, the Blue Shaman. He came immediately and scooped me up, transporting me to the shore of a tropical island..about as far away as one could get, I suppose, from this wooded domain. There was my Guide, Owl. We saw and awaited a Tunnel’s appearance, and it was not long in coming. On the horizon we saw a black circle forming. As we headed for it, Eagle (my Power Animal) and Crosses in Front, my Lower World Guide Snake, joined us. They often come along on my Journeys to give me added protection and strength. We exited the Tunnel into dark, deserted, old woods. Nearby stood a decaying house, devoid of any signs of human life. We came up to am open grave..the tombstone revealed it belonged to one Henry Wade who had died in 1782. I instinctively pulled a Sword with a gleaming blade of light from my Shaman’s Mirror. Soon thereafter the purple Dragon Being came and sat in the open grave. This Dragon was obviously the shape Henry Wade’s angry Spirit had assumed. But why? I sensed that Henry had been cursed by a Native American Shaman for things Henry had done to the Shaman’s villagers in the past. The Dragon was therefore stalking the Earth and attacking other Shamans in revenge. I took my Mirror and released the curse from Henry, and there lay his bones in his grave. Eagle Claw, my Guide who takes Owl form, then turned to me and said I should probably have first asked the Shaman who had placed the curse on Henry for permission to release him. Ooops. Within seconds, we were back in my bedroom, and there I found that Shaman’s Spirit waiting for me. Just prior to this, I had seen a fleeting image of a man being pulled out of a window violently by a rope tied around his neck. This suggested that hanging had been involved in whatever Henry had done to the Natives. The Native Shaman now spoke, and told me Henry had been very bad to his tribal members, and I had now just set “him” loose, versus properly fixing his Spirit and releasing it from its negative aspects. Why had I done this? I told the Shaman that Henry was now going around attacking other Shamans, myself included just today. The Shaman, who revealed himself now as “West Wind”, took out a small Tipi-shaped Crystal. It was the same shape and color as the one I had seen at the start of this journey, but much smaller now. I could see the purple Dragon still flying around it. I had indeed released Henry from the Curse but not taken care of his Anger. We both then released Henry and watched as his Spirit moved up into the Sky as a Rainbow. West wind then gifted me: he placed a thin, off-white light shield and melded it into my Aura, to remain there permanently. It was as if he had given some of his essence to me. I now have the added strength of Shaman West Wind’s Spirit in mine. I shall honor him and call on him as circumstances demand in future Shamanic work. Then the Call Back sounded and the Journey ended.

I have since done a bit of research on the name Henry Wade and his date of death. There are a lot of Henry Wades and the Search Engine is not too good at isolating the exact person just yet. If I have time someday I’ll do more research..what matters is that Henry is restored.


The second Journey of the day was now on, and was the one intended before the above events transpired. I was already in Sacred Space and so opened the Drum CD and began focusing on my intention. I found myself sitting with Owl in the middle of a very large Tree. Below us the Tree was completely barren, and from our level upwards the Tree was rich with green boughs of fir. Below us was an unrecognizable Planet, whitish with a rough surface but no distinguishable features. It almost looked like tapioca. Owl and I then went upwards, through the green branches. We actually past through versus by them, and the branches produced a cool and refreshing feeling as they swept through me. We went by the Tree Top and into Space. Off to my right I saw a room. Upon further inspection, as I got closer, it had the look of a sunroom, bright yellow, with the Sun pouring in from the left. There was a fireplace at the far end. A woman was leaning slightly forward on a beige couch on the left side, sun to her back, her hands clutched together. There was a coffee table before her. This was the Twin Sister in the Spirit World. She told me the car sightings were indeed a message to her sister here on Earth that she missed her a lot, and was therefore always with her. I should interject at this point that I was very tired when beginning this Journey, and so from here on in found myself fading in and out quite a bit. I saw several images after this: the sister offered me a porcelain mound that soon turned into a small Crystal bowl filled with small chocolate covered somethings, perhaps raisins. I also saw her in a Trading post-like store, outdoors wear, holding up a pullover hat with long drawstrings down either side, colored with very small white and red checks. At another point where I faded in, I saw the Sister turn into her Spirit Self. At a later moment, she told me to tell her sister here to “keep a leg up.” The Call Back sounded, and I returned to take a nap. During this in-and-out nap, though, a final image appeared. I saw a young girl sitting on a stool with her back to the wall, holding onto what I believe was a small doll or toy. There was a doorway immediately to her left, and a stove to the left of the doorway where I was standing. I got the sense this was from a time quite a few years ago.

Journey 156 - Soul Restoration for the Twin Sister

2/23/05: This Journey was taken in order to restore the Twin sister's Soul Piece. The Sister and her daughter (who came for support) showed up at exactly 10 AM, as previously arranged. They had small gifts for me and and my wife..such lovely people. This was to be my first Journey and Soul Restoration done “live”, that is, with the person present. I also was to speak aloud as the Journey progressed, and this was also a first. I felt that if the sister could actually hear what I was experiencing as I brought back her Soul Piece, as it actually was happening, it would mean so much more to her. The question was: could I do it?! Time would tell..

For the Retrieval and Restoration, I had set up an Altar in my Family room by covering the coffee table with my thick cotton shirt with a huge Eagle on it. I use this shirt for my object consecrations. Upon the shirt I placed my Sacred Pipe..so much Spirit Energy there, and a must to be witness and Helper! I placed my Smudge Bowl, and Eagle Feather with which to fan both the Sage and Sweet Grass. In the center was the Sacred Candle, brand new so Janie could take it with her. At the Cardinal points I placed four tiny Stone People who had volunteered earlier in the day, there to form the boundaries of the Altar Circle. They also left with her after the Restoration. Finally, I had my Rattle there. It had requested new Feathers be placed on it for this Ceremony..the other two that had been there for months had suddenly just fallen off. All was therefore in the ready prior to their arrival.

Before the Ceremony, we spoke for almost an hour about Shamanism and the principals of Soul, Soul Loss, the three Spirit Worlds, Helpers, etc. We spoke a bit of western religions and their lack of emphasis both on the importance of Female Power in the Sacred Balance, and how to actually access the Spirit Worlds in order to achieve Spiritual independence. I also went into great detail about exactly what I would be doing during the Ceremony, and why. Finally, we were ready.

We sat comfortably, and I had chosen a couch on which to eventually lie and Journey with my Drum CD while the others sat comfortably and watched, my wife from her chair and the sister and daughter on the other couch. I explained the concept of Smudging, using the Sage to repel negative Energies and Sweet Grass to call in positive Spirits. I told of the concept of the Fire: representing us living at our center, being our own personal flame, made of both matter and energy, in touch with all space and time and the Great Spirit. I used the Eagle Feather to spread the Smoke around, using a figure-8 pattern to represent Infinity, the Circle of Existence. I then took up the Rattle and opened up Sacred Space by Rattling to the 7 directions. I prayed aloud while Rattling to each Spirit element, and tied in the sister’s needs with my traditional prayers. I explained how by Rattling at the roughly the same speed as the drumming, I prepare myself in advance for leaving my body. When I then laid down to Journey, I explained how I was focusing on my single request..to find and bring back the Soul Piece..by repeating it over and over until I saw the beginning visions of the Journey begin.

They weren’t long in coming. I was suddenly in a dense and rich Forest, Trees thick with brilliantly green canopies. I saw my Upper World Guide Owl fly toward me from one of the Trees. He lifted me up to the top of the Canopy of Trees. I spoke this aloud as it was happening, as I did with all the key events I’m reporting here. The speaking did not interfere with the Journey at all, and this gives me great hope that I can do this with others as well. As Owl and I sat on top of a Tree, awaiting the Tunnel to the Upper World in the Sky to form, I noticed the Clouds were Orange. Suddenly, a light green Sphere appeared in the Sky. We flew toward this, the Tunnel Opening. Suddenly my Power Animal, Eagle, flew in from the right to join us. I think he just wanted to come along for the “Joy ride.” We soon exited the Tunnel and were out in Deep Space. The background thereof was a twilight blue versus its traditional black. It was a stunning sight to see the stars hanging in this blue Space. Very soon, off to the right, I spotted a small Rock Ledge hanging in Space. It was very similar to the Ledge upon which I had my first meeting in Space with Eagle Claw (Owl). I saw the little girl standing there. I didn’t even have to go back to the Cave of Lost Souls, where I had had a brief visit with her in a prior Journey. Next to her was a small Pool of Water with a Mirror-like stillness. We looked in together, and the reflection of the little was the big twin sister, announcing the coming reunion! Then, grabbing hands, she and I jumped into the Pond, with Owl and Eagle coming along as well. The Pond quickly became an Ocean, filling the scene from horizon to horizon. The Sky was a light blue with ill-defined white Clouds..quite tranquil. The Ocean then became my Shaman’s Mirror surface. The little one then came up to me and hugged my leg, looked up and said, “thank you!” She then told me that she loved me for helping her. These actions brought me to tears. She then told me that as she re-entered her older self, she was going to be saying “I love you” over and over, and asked that the sister do the same. She then asked that the sister forgive her for leaving her as she did..which again brought me to tears. She then melded into the Mirror, ready for the Transfer. Owl and Eagle and I then zoomed back up to the green Tunnel and returned to the Forest. Owl came up to me and point blank range and stared at me, as if pouring Energy into me. Eagle gathered me into the cozy space beneath his left Wing. The Journey was now over. I kept trying to advance the CD to the Call Back drumming but could not, so I brought myself back manually by tapping on the player once the Drumming was off. I was soon back in the Family Room, my face still wet with tears.

The sister asked how it felt upon returning, and although it is very hard to describe the feeling of having been away and suddenly being back where you were before, I did my best. I said I felt a tranquility and peace that is unlike anything you can experience in normal living. You are both one with and yet totally apart from everything at the same time as you return. You feel as if your body has stopped working, and is now just starting back up again.

I then took the Mirror and held it over the Sacred Flame to warm the little Soul Piece up a bit, and to infuse the Mirror with the Energy of the Twin Sister’s Eternity, as represented by the Candle. I then handed the Mirror to the sister and had her hold it over her Heart and then her Head, to let her little Soul Piece come in through the Chakras in both places. She did this in silence, holding the Mirror close. I had my eyes shut and hands pressed together. During the Transfer, I saw the little girl jumping on her lawn, turn to me and then wave goodbye. I then saw the Blue Shaman, Spirit of my Mirror, hovering over the sister and moving his hands down both sides of her body to help seal in the Restoration. The sister then reported that she felt an immense calm, a relaxation, and that her hands had become very heated holding the Mirror. This was of course due to the transfer of her Soul Piece’s Spirit Energy back to her. We talked more after that, and I explained how different people react differently to such a Reunion with a Soul Piece. Some get flooded with emotions/issues long since missing or dormant. Others fell little to nothing initially, and then just a minor change. Her reaction of peacefulness boded very well for this Restoration.

I decided to do a follow-on Journey for her concerning the possibility her twin Sister was trying to reach her from the Spirit Camp. She also asked me to check her Aura, and I found a small dark area on the left side of her head. She confirmed then that there was indeed still a problem there needing resolution, the same problem that had led me to my first Journey for her. I plan to check this out as well.

Some post-notes: The Orange Clouds: orange is the color of joy and wisdom and creativity, according to Ted Andrew’s The Healers Manual. “It stimulates feeling of socialness. It is tied to our emotional health and to the muscular/nervous systems. Individuals experiencing emotional paralysis are helped by this color.” The Blue of Deep Space seems to me to represent the Spirit of my Mirror, the Blue Shaman, Utawa. This is made more certain by the fact that the little Soul Piece was standing next to a mirror-like Pond..a sure sign she was ready and eager for the Restoration to place via my Mirror. The Pond temporarily becoming an Ocean signified the rich fullness of female Energy involved here. The little girl's exuberance and excitement over the impending reunion was nothing short of astonishing and emotionally overwhelming. Very gratifying. The fact the the sister felt so much peace and relaxation after the Reunion showed that indeed her childlike qualities had returned to her with her Soul Piece. In fact, she reported to me that next day that she was still in a very relaxed and unhurried mode. Finally, I wish all Shamans could deal with such opening-minded and sweet persons. The sister and her daughter were so patient, willing and helpful, and it made the Ceremony flow so much better. :)

Finally, my wife had suggested before they left that they take my VCR tape by Albert Villoldo, who has had extensive dealings with Andes Shamans, is a Shaman himself, and who does a super job explaining the Spirit Energy Body and how imprints and entities cause illness. She wrote to me the next day to say how much she really enjoyed it..she’s gonna watch it again! She finally knows the Truth.

Journeys 154 and 155 - Helping my Daughter Cope/Friend's House Revisited

2/22/05: A Journey to help my daughter find relaxation with her extremely hectic life, taken at her request. I prepared in the usual way and began. I was soon in a rather flat land, covered with deep Snow, with short Pine Trees dotting the area. I heard beautiful female singing in the air. Owl arrived and hovered before me, and suggested I turn around, since the singing was now coming from directly behind me. There, in resplendent light-beauty, stood the Spirit of Song herself, looking about 30 feet tall in our measurements. As she sang, her Aura changed colors with the notes, so that each sound had its own Aural existence. It was breathtakingly beautiful to watch and hear. She began to speak to me, with advice for my Daughter. She said that all songs are played and/or sung one note at a time. Life must be lived the same way. One does not attempt to play an entire symphony at once, but rather goes through each note, giving each its due value and energy. Thus it must be with our life tasks. I was then lifted up into the Sky, and I saw ethereal Wind Spirits floating by. Each was singing a unique song. The Spirit of Song told me then that each human has a Wind Spirit assigned specifically to him or her, and each Spirit is meant to deliver that unique song to each person. The trouble is, she said, most Humans do not listen for their Wind, or more accurately, Soul Song. Once a Human knows his or her Soul song, though, they experience a calm and centering unmatched in any prior experience here on Earth. They can always return to this calmness simply by singing their Soul Song. The Spirit of Song told me my daughter must listen for her Soul Song..in the Wind, or in a Dream, asked for before falling asleep. She’ll know when it enters, for the feeling of Peace will be profound. Spirit then told me I could place my daughter’s Wind Spirit in her silver Bear Charm I bought her, and the Spirit would live there with her Power Animal until Jen heard her song, which would be hovering right over her head the entire time. She just needs to hear it. I then began wondering if I had heard my Soul song yet. In a duhhhh! Moment, Spirit of Song then reminded me of my Hollow Bone notes. THAT, she said, is your Soul Song, for you can use it to Journey instantly from wherever you are. I then heard my Song Notes being sung by what seemed like multitudes. The Trees and Landscape then exploded into millions of colored specks of Spirit Energy. My Power Animal Eagle flew by me, also singing my Soul Song..then Owl brought me back to the room. I thanked Owl and the spirit of Song. After this Journey, I consecrated my daughter’s Bear Charm, added the Wind sprit carrying her Soul song, and gave it to her, with a verbal description of the lessons given in this Journey.

This second Journey was to check out the Spiritual make-up of my dear friend’s Mother’s house in a nearby town. This was a follow-up Journey to one taken a month or so ago in which I had seen that house being slowly covered in a black, dripping molasses of negative Energy. After that Journey, I had suggested to my friend that she place an Oboo (a Stone Person mound with Twigs standing up, with colored streamers on it..a gift of the Mongolian Shaman tradition) in the house to attract good Spirits from the local area to help ward off this rain of darkness that was occurring.

She had placed the Oboo in the Attic a week or two ago, and so I told her I would revisit the House and see if the Oboo had helped. As I arrived at the House with Owl, I saw massive changes indeed. The entire structure was now composed of a thin, wispy light..as if it had no solid form. It had the appearance of being made entirely of heat Energy. Up in the Attic, where the Oboo had been placed, there was a tremendous conflagration of Golden Mana, looking like a small fireworks display. I saw some of the local Nature Spirits up there, dancing around the “Fire”, and they invited me to join in. I went up and as I danced around, the Oboo became a purple color, the color of highest Spirituality. As I peered into the Vortex, I could see images of the house and people who had lived there from past times. My continual dancing made the Vortex begin growing upwards, and it soon shot up into the Sky. I went up and into Space to observe its new top. There, I saw millions of colored specks flowing form nearby Stars flowing smoothly into the Vortex and sinking down through it toward Earth. I went back down, and observed the Star Specks beginning to fill the lowest parts of the House up with golden Energy. The House is being reclaimed! The Dancers then told me to look for a particular Stick in my yard to add to the Oboo..recent snows have delayed that. They also told me to take one of my last remaining small Quartz Crystals and wash it with Arshaan (Shaman Blessing Liquid) and have that placed on the Oboo as well. I then looked up and saw Rock Pigeons circling the House, as always reflecting the various Rainbow Colors. I was to give my friend a Pigeon Feather for her Oboo also. Finally, one of the Pigeons came up to me and began placing bird seed from its mouth into my hand. I was to place a small amount of Bird seed in a pouch and have that placed at the Oboo.

Here the Journey ended..but I still had a bit of time left, and so I moved into my own Vortex. I watched as the following images flittered across my Visual Cortex: Owl sitting at a Fire (reminding me of the Oboo work just done), Fox’s face transforming into a Deer Face (representing camouflaging and family, tempered with gentleness), and then a Bear walking along with a Star balanced on the tip of its nose. The Bear stopped and looked at me..I could see both eyes shine for a second or two. Bear represents healing, and the fact her was carrying a Star along showed that indeed the Energy from the Stars was healing the house. That was that. I thanked all the Spirits and returned.

Journey 153- For my Son's Friend's Uncle

2/13/05: This Journey was taken on behalf on an Uncle of my son’s friend who has recently been diagnosed with lung cancer. I promised I would check out the Spiritual underpinnings of this disease and see what might be done. What follows is one of the richer and more challenging results. I prepared in the usual way, Smudging, Rattling and lighting the Sacred Candle..and then I was off. I set the CD for a 15 minute time.

As I entered the Spirit World, I found myself clinging to a mostly submerged log lying across a quickly flowing River. I was up to my chin in the water. Owl flew in and landed on the log. I looked beneath the surface and saw a Sea Bass a few feet ahead, paused in the flow and staring at me, indicating he wished to tell or show me something. When I poked my head back up into the air, the River had risen, and my supporting log was totally submerged. Owl then lifted me out of the Water and we rose quickly several hundred feet up into the air. From there, we could see the River extending into the distance, with Sea Bass swimming up along it, and we followed. Owl and I then noticed a tiny, circular inlet to the right that was filled with a red liquid, which we assumed correctly was blood. We swooped down to check it out, and as we approached I saw a large, black, Gorilla-like Spirit Being dancing on the shores of this little pool of blood. Owl and I swooped into a Tree and landed very close by. From there we could see the pool of blood seething, as if boiling, and being stirred up by this Being, who seemed to be enjoying his actions very much. I then looked off to my right slightly, and in a clearing next to this pond saw a man kneeling over a second man, who was on his back. The former was beating on the latter with a stick or a bat. I then saw a body float up to the surface in the pool. The Being then literally pulled a black blanket over the entire area, turning it to night. The only light was from the glowing pool of blood. I assumed at this time that, with events left unchecked, this might signal an early death for the Uncle. So, I asked Owl if we could get a Power Animal or in some other way intervene on his behalf. At this point, my Lower World Guide Snake came along from behind me to my right, and took me quickly over to a small opening in the ground. We went down a Tunnel of Water and ended up in the Ocean. As I floated there with Crosses in Front (Snake), several Sharks approached me and circled. None seemed to be engaging enough to be a Power Animal. Crosses and I then were led by a Dolphin and zoomed along until we came to a Council of Dolphins, all “seated” in a circle. We took a place at this Council, and asked if there were a Power Animal available for the Uncle. After some hemming and hawing, a baby Dolphin burst up from below and grabbed me. He took me over to the Pool of Blood and then beneath it. There, I could see a portion of the inside of a house, well-stocked with shelves and collectibles, items of sentimental value. Into this room from the floor was seeping a green/blue gas, rising in tiny, individual streams. This told me there was a physical underpinning to the Cancer..some sort of chemical leakage or perhaps radon gas. Baby Dolphin then returned me to the Council, where again I asked about a Power Animal. At this point a Rainbow Trout zoomed in and jumped into my pocket. This was the PA! Crosses and I then quickly returned to the surface, where I rejoined Owl. Emboldened with the PA, I announced my presence by standing up with my Shaman’s Mirror and pointed it at the Being. He sensed my presence and seemed to know a Shaman had come against him, for although he came right up and stared at us, he seemed powerless to go any further. I then absorbed his Energy and the Black Sky Energy into my Mirror, restoring the daylight. I was then instructed to take the Mirror outside after the Journey and place it on the ground to a count of 7, so that other Earth could absorb and transmute the darkness. I don’t recall if the pool turned a normal color after the absorbing..I wasn’t shown this. At this point, we flew back to the log. I was soon standing on the surface of my Mirror, a place that seems to be a meeting place with my Guides. Eagle Claw (Owl) and Utawa, the Spirit of the Mirror, were both there. They were fashioning something with their hands, and presented it to me. It looked a lot like the symbol one sees on the cloth covering of an altar in a Catholic church. I believe it is the symbol of the Pope or perhaps Peter, a “P” with a smaller “X” overlaid. This symbol then turned into a pile of small sticks in the shape of a Tipi, and the Rainbow Trout jumped out of my pocket and dove into this pile, circling down and growing smaller as he went, then disappearing. I was led to understand that this pile of sticks was the Uncle’s bones, and that the Power Animal was now at work therein to help fight this disease. The Journey was near an end now. My Guides told me that was all they had. I was now back in my room back acutely aware that some sort of Energy was moving along my skin, mainly in the legs. I sensed a Dark Being hovering over me, with the Dark Energy sinking into me temporarily. I asked my Helpers to come and remove it, and Snake and my Guardian Two Feathers both came and lifted this Energy off me as if it were a piece of stiff paper, or a sheet of thin glass. They folded this “paper” up and put it inside my Mirror, to be disposed off along with the rest of the Energy I had collected. I can’t be sure if this was a remnant of the “gorilla” dark Energy I had collected earlier, or another weak force coming against me as a general matter. In either case, this attack was a first for a Journey’s end, and I am grateful my Helpers cleared it from me. The Mirror, lying on my chest, served as a block to the Energy, which flattened out along the lane of the Mirror like a dark fluid along a glass bottom, and penetrated no further. A classic example of the Mirror repelling negative Energies.

Here are the messages I can glean from this:

Water: the rising Water in the River, and the use of Fish for transport, all indicate an immense presence of either emotional or feminine turmoil. In particular, the rising of the river shows the problem is getting worse with time. The Uncle needs to rein in his emotions and/or fix problems with the feminine side of himself or others.

Sea Bass: An ocean fish. This, and the fact we found the PA (a freshwater, River fish) out in the Ocean indicates a problem with distinguishing the Big Picture in Life (Ocean) from the Little Details, the “small stuff” (River). The Uncle needs to see the big picture..

Violence: Can’t be sure if the Uncle is the victim or the perpetrator of violence, or perhaps he or those close to him resort in verbal violence. In either case, this must stop. A gentle, calm and reasoning approach to problems is required.

Dolphins: The Council of Dolphins: Dolphins represent the power of Sound and Breath. They use sound in the water to manifest their desires, and the Uncle could learn a lesson about using sounds properly in his emotions to affect desired results in his life. Also, breathing is very important..slow, deep breathing is much healthy than short, nervous breaths. Dolphin means it’s time to breathe new life into yourself..get out and play in the waters of life.

Rainbow Trout: The Uncle must begin to reflect back some of the light and positive Energies others are pouring into him, and in a beautiful way. By reflecting back what others are giving with much more beauty than is received, one heals oneself. In essence, one’s Aura (and especially the Uncle’s) must be bursting with colors at all times..

Bones: White Blood cells come from the bones, and so having the Power Animal go into them is a very good sign that if the Uncle makes some of the changes recommended here by the Helpers, his immune system will take care of his problem.

Chemicals: Obviously there is some chemical cause as well..as mentioned above, radon gas, a cleaner, a solvent..something is reacting very dangerously with the Uncle’s tissues. This must be found and eliminated.

Catholic reference: This means the Uncle must re-energize his Spiritual self, not necessarily go back to any organized religion. I don’t know if he is a Catholic, but the symbology speaks to his finding his core beliefs in Spirit matters and going back into proper relationship with these beliefs.

Gorilla shape of Dark Being: Apes represent self-control, self-discipline, and confidence to express oneself through gentleness and kindness. The fact this Totem was the primary Dark Energy implies these qualities are compromised in the Uncle..he needs to bring them back, and regain the respect of those around him who miss them.

The removal of the Dark Being and Sky into my Mirror and subsequent release into Mother Earth (which I did right after the Journey) means the opportunistic Spirit that had latched onto and was stimulating the Disease has been removed. This alone will allow healing to move in (even if a minor surgery is required to remove the physical remnants)..but this will last only as long as the Emotional and Spiritual Healing outlined above also occurs, and the physical cause (toxic gas of some sort) is gone.

10/13/05: My son reports via his Friend that the Uncle's Cancer has gone into remission!! Wat a great joy to hear!!

Lost & Found and other Mini-Journeys

1/29/05: I had misplaced a book several months ago and have been looking for it the past few days in every nook and cranny, as I wish to lend it out to a friend who is very interested in Shamanism. Having had no luck whatsoever, including looking through our main bookshelves numerous times, I finally performed a mini-Hollow Bone Journey this morning before I got up. I whistled myself in as always after mentally opening up Sacred space in my room. I was ushered into a large library, and there was an older woman wearing a librarian smock who was climbing ladders to the very tall shelf-walls of books. I got the impression she was THE head Librarian of the Universe. I asked where my book was, and she showed me two key images, the first of which I rejected at the time as not very likely, the second of which I took as vital. The first image showed the book’s surroundings. It was indirectly lit, as if in my dining room, but other books were surrounding it, or at least in front. The reason I rejected this first image is because it seemed to be the bookshelves in my house I had searched many times, and I had already looked carefully behind all the books (except for on one shelf).. So how could it be there?! The second image showed that the book was lying in such a way that I would not be able to read its title. That is, the pages side of the book was showing versus the spine. This info convinced me to look on our bookshelves one more time, but this time do a really thorough search. I finally looked in the shortest shelf, where mini-books are kept, which I had only searched in passing. I had assumed the book couldn’t be there as it was much taller than this little space could handle. But in my new mode, knowing the book was on its spine or front/back, I looked behind the small books carefully this time, and on the very right, behind them, was a book lying on its back. I could not see the title, just the whiteness of the pages. But I knew I had found it, as it was the image in my Journey! And there it was. And of course now I realize the first image I got, of the book surrounded by others in the light of our dining room, was equally valid. Never reject anything you get on a Journey. :) Finding lost objects like this is a Shamanic capability that can come in very handy..

1/30/05: Today I took a small journeyto try and find my son's missing snowboarding boots. We have searched everywhere in our house and shed to no avail. On my Journey, I found te boots sitting against a large, blank wall, one standing, one on its side. I remember looking at the environs and thinking, "this place does not look familiar to me." Since then my son has recalled leaving the boots at his girlfriend's house last spiring, and she thinks her brother took them to college. No wonder I couldn't recognize the setting!!

2/5/05: This morning, at my morning Prayer Site, I took a small journey to look for the sumer shower curtain hangars..my wife just couldn't seem to find them where she thought they would be. On my Journey, in which I used the Spiritual Hollow Bone, I was taken to a large room, the "location of all lost things room". There, I was met by Utawa, who told me to use my Mirror to find the hangars. I gazed into the surface, and saw a large box sitting up in the attic where we keep the Christmas curtains, etc. I dismissed this imagery as not being right, for certainly my wife would know if she had placed them there..she was in that box a week ago or so. So I tried to retool, but Blue Shaman told me to empty my mind and relax! At that point, I heard a noise to my left. A squirrel was scooting up my Epiphany Tree, quite close to me. So I asked Squirrel for help. I melded with the Squirrel Spirit, and we went quickly through my house. Squirrel looked briefly in the bags hanging on a pegboard on the closet side, but then scooted up the attic stairs. Back to the attic, and to that box. At this point, I ended the Journey, not quite sure if I had been sensitive enough to receive the Truth.

Turns out, they were in the box in the attic. You'd think by now I'd realize that the well-executed Journeys always produce the Truth. :)

2/10/05: One of the People I'm helping asked me to locate a pair of ear warmers for her husband and son that have gone missing. I decided to use the Hollow Bone. I blew Smudge through it, then placed it on my chest next to my Shaman's Mirror. I whsitled as taught in a Journey and was soon inside the Bone. My two new Helpers, Ducks Ongwon and Aduwa, appeared and flew rigght over me, producing the tunneling sound of their wing rushes I had heard before when outside praying. The tunnel of noise then puled me up and I was flying just beneath them, as if held up by this Tunnel of disturbed Air. They landed on a small Lake and told me to look down. I saw a storage area. There was asmall wooden box next to a door to the left and a work bench to the right. I got the impression the warmers were either in or behind the box. I also was shown the back of the passenger seat of a mini van but got the impression that the warmers were NOT there. I then was taken back through the Tunnel of Wing whirring into an area filled with molecules of brass. I then resurfaced on my Mirror, walked past my Bone, and rejoined my Body.

2/13/05: An extraordinary Calling this morning as I began to shower. I was pulled through a wavy canopy of Leaves and Branches into a Rain Forest. I spotted a large Tree with a bright red human Heart embedded in its trunk, directly in front of me. It was smaller, like a child's. I was told to merge with this Heart, and as I did so I became one with the Tree. I felt so deeply rooted and relaxed, so at one with my surroundings. I knew any Living Thing was welcome, and that weather conditons were completely exterior to my existence. I got a tremendous feeling of being grounded and centered..the feeling of a Shaman. The Standing person then released me and told me to remember our visit..to leave behind the relics of my past as I was so recently instructed, and assume fuly now the mantle of the Shaman..be ready at all times to work and pray for any cause. This was all the more amazing since last night I had stumbed across a Travel Channel special on a Shaman at work in his Village, complete with Animal Blessing and House Blessing Ceremonies. I felt so at one with this person as he danced..I knew the feeling of the trance he was in. I also knew this was a calling by my Helpers to finally get serious about my being a Shaman. One must either be one or not. I can't live half my life as a westerner and half as a Shaman. The "relics" must go. As if to re-emphasize this point, after my Morning Prayers today, during which I asked to be brought fully into the camp for once and for all, I found two Mourning Dove (my Pipe protection birds) Feathers in the snow where the Birds feed. My Guardian's name is Two Feathers, and she was obviously thanking and congratulating me on my decision. These were my first Feathers in literally months. This is how it works, folks. You commit to the Spirits and they commit to you..tey bring you to places for training, and they actually bring you physical gifts of thanks and remembrance. I have placed these Feathers on my Shaman's Mirror so it can absorb the "wind horse" (Spirit Essence) of the Feathers and the moment.