Journey 80 - Wife's Tummy and Throat Problems

8/9/04: A Journey to help my wife with her tummy and throat problems. These popped up the morning after we took my mom to her favorite restaurantfor her birthday last Thursday night, and had made it almost impossible for her to eat over the weekend, including a big family party we had Sunday. I figured food poisoning, but didn’t get the chance to Journey until Monday. I prepared as always, and went in for a 10-minute Drum loop. I found myself sitting on my Azurite Stone on a bookshelf in some house, next to a sunny Window. I was so tiny that the Stone (all of an inch long) appeared as a huge rocky Hill, and I could see my reflection in its shiny facets..in this life all of ¼ mm or less in width. Owl then came to the window, paused briefly on the sill, then shrank down himself to my size. He himself manufactured our Journey Tunnel this time, by creating a spray of his own Feathers that grew higher and higher, out the window and up to the sky. We flew up through this circling-feather cylinder and emerged onto a platform of a glass-like Flooring, with real Clouds, but thin and blue, serving as the Walls. Suddenly before me was a very large Scallop, with red lines (Red Tide bacteria?) coursing through various parts of its surface. So it WAS the scallops! Two herb names then floated by me: Mullein and Peppermint. (These were to help my wife heal, no doubt. We have Peppermint Tea, so I gave her some to take to work the next day.) I checked to see if her Power Animal Raccoon could help, but even though present in a far corner of this “room”, he was occupied with other of her issues. So Hummingbird, her other PA, arrived..and did the most remarkable thing. She came right up to me eyes and stuck her long beak into each pupil, filling them with Mana, or Spirit Essence. I then found myself inside my wife’s upper tract and tummy. I ran my hands in circles across her Throat and Stomach lining for several minutes, pouring yellow healing Light through my hands into her tissues. I was also physically moving my hands through the air above my bed at the same time..recall we are still partially in the conscious world during Journeys. Owl and I then traveled back through the Feather Tunnel, and I ended up at my wife’s work, and saw her working at her desk. I delivered some of that healing Energy to her directly. At this point, the work was done, for my mind began racing toward the installation of Ma’s new computer. At this point, the Call Back Drumming sounded, and I thanked my Helpers and was back. Cool to report: my wife came home from work the same evening and told me she started feeling much better in the early afternoon, around the time of this Journey..she found the juxtaposition remarkable, needless to say.. :)

Journey 79 - First for Twin Sister

8/6/04: A journey undertaken at my dear friend’s request to help sort out a situation involving a woman she knows. This woman’s twin sister died of a tumor, and lately the surviving sister has seen her twin in dreams, and has herself begun a battle with cancer. The sister asked my friend if she knew any psychics and she said no, but knew a Shaman. She then asker her to ask me to try and contact her departed sister and ask what she should do to help survive. After the usual preps, I was off. Using a 15-minute Drum CD, I quickly found myself on a branch with my newest Power Guide, Snowy Owl. We were next to a large converted barn, at night, with lovely yellow light in the windows. Beneath was a soft carpet of fresh snow, and the stars were vibrantly bright above. A gorgeous, picture-book scene. I asked Snowy Owl if we could go to the Upper World to help the sister, and he said to wait for the Tunnel. We looked above at the stars, and soon I saw a light blue eye forming in the Sky. The pupil was jet black, and from this opening emerged a Tunnel of thin green filaments that reached down to us. So up we went. It was a lengthy ride, giving me time to reflect back on the scene we had just left. As we exited the Tunnel, we were in a landscape with fallen red tree trunks lying on a marshy ground, with a few red Trees still standing. It seemed late afternoon. Owl and I sat there. Soon, a little girl of 5 or so came up to me. She was not smiling, but staring at me, wearing a light-colored spring dress, sporting blonde hair beneath a small cotton hat. I asked her name and if she were the departed sister. She said she was, but said I did not need to know her Earth name..that was a selfish device on my part to try and verify the Journey’s Truth, and would not be allowed. I did see a few of her Spirit Names flash by: Carla and Marie. I settled on the former. Suddenly from behind came numerous tall, dark Forms, heading quickly for me. I sensed myself in real danger, as if a trap had been set for me, and Owl quickly lifted me out of the scene. We were back in Space, and soon came to a large, carved wooden door. We went through and were now in a farm scene. We went to sit on a bench in the shade near the entrance to this land. Owl transformed into a Native Man, totally white, from skin and hair to dress. He began to speak to me in soft tones. Yes indeed, that was the twin sister I met. She had allowed me to be attacked so I could sense the strength of the forces stalking the living sister..they were in fact not after me, but came to demonstrate their determination and ability to cause fear. I then asked what we could so for the sister. The names of two herbs floated by: Peppermint (aids digestion, but can interfere with iron absorption, so watch this and compensate if necessary) and Horsetail (diuretic, reduces inflammation and muscle spasms. Aid calcium uptake. Aids healing of bones and tissues. Strengthens hearts and lungs. Can interfere with B1 uptake, so watch this and compensate if necesaary). I then saw eggs go by, sensing the sister should either eat eggs regularly and/or have a healthy breakfast. I then saw her sitting in a wooded area near her house, wearing headphones and listening to soft, beautiful music. This told me she needs to be outside a lot, and to calm herself with soft music. I then asked Owl, who told me his name was Angshwa, if we could assign a Power Animal to the sister to help her. And so the parade began, with a Fox, Elephant, and Hummingbird among others going by, but none stopping to show they were the choice. Then, out in the field of this farm, I saw a Lamb. And then there was “Carla”, stroking the Lamb’s back. She walked in with the Lamb to us, and gave it to me as the Power Animal. At this point I was taken to a deserted two story wooded house in a wooded area. Carla went into this deserted building and turned into a small blob of pure energy. She circled quickly through each room of the house, as I saw her zoom by each window. Suddenly she flew up the chimney and burst into millions of tiny piece of rainbow colored mana (Spirit essence), floating down and being absorbed by the Lamb, now standing faithfully next to her sister. I was told that this mana would from here on out always be there as a gift to her sister to help her fight the disease stalking her..and that she should therefore always think of herself surrounded by this rainbow swirl of healing Spirit Energy, the gift of her sister. She also told me the metaphor of this event..from the place of loneliness and desertion comes the sacred gift of life. The sister should always remember to derive the mana from such sad times and places to strengthen herself. I was then back at the farm, and Angshwa took me across the field to a small river. We went in. The water penetrated every cell of my body and felt so good. Angshwa then took cupped handfuls of water and began pouring them over me. With each handful I felt better and better, and found myself melting down into the water. Eventually I became the water! I found myself floating, and the Water Spirit was pulling impurities out of me as I lay in total serenity. Then, just as suddenly, Angshwa pulled me back to form, as it were, and he became Snowy Owl again. We were then heading back down the Tunnel to the barn scene. From there, I walked back into my back yard, and just as I got there, the Call Back sounded..perfectly timed.

Lamb as Power Animal: Associated with childlike peace and innocence. Eats plant matter, implying a need to increase vegetables, fruits, etc. in the diet. Wool keeps us warm even when wet, and since water is associated with the emotions, this means one must not allow ones emotions to put a chill on one’s outlook.

Journey 78 - Brother's PA Attempt

7/28/04: Journey for my brother to assign a Power Animal to him to help him combat his long-standing disease. I knew going in that this might not happen given his sentiment toward things Spiritual, at least as far as I understood it. I also did not have his permission to do this, which can effect the outcome. After the usual preliminaries, I slipped into the Journey realm using a 15-minute Drum sequence. I very soon saw Snake waiting for me, her Aura checkered with colors! She took me out to one of the original Lower World entry points from one of my first, if not my first, Journeys. The site was the one that featured a lit forest area at night, with a Tree Trunk with an opening in its base. But as we stood there, I became aware that the Drum sounds in my ears were being provided by Spirit Drummers lined up on either side of the woods, to my left and right. I watched them in true enjoyment for a few seconds. I looked up through a clearing in the Trees and saw my Shaman Symbol written in the sky in gold dust. I studied it in awe and pleasure, and then asked if it was permanently affixed above me. The Spirits then answered that it was my decision..if I wanted it there always, it would be. That is what I chose. Then Crosses in Front and I went down the Tunnel. The Tunnel was made of slender wands of black crystal. When we emerged, we were in an area made of small undulations of purple and dark green material of some sort. I looked down and at my feet was a plant with an eye at the end of each stalk. I immediately sensed that this unique plant was a Gift that, by taking one of the stalks, would help me see better as a Shaman. I gave the Stalk to Crosses, who bolted up the Tunnel with it for me, so I could place it in my Medicine Bundle. I was thereby left alone in the Lower World. I waited for a Power Animal to come. I saw an Elephant come crashing into view, but realized this was not the PA. At this point, I began to slip in and out of the Theta state, and had to keep forcing my way back. The first time in, I saw two beings floating on an ocean surface having just swallowed a small fish by surprise..the feeling I got was that they had no intention of having done so. When I came back, I saw a Snowy Owl fly in from the same place as the Elephant. It was very friendly, so I decided this was my brother‘s potential Power Animal. We flew together out to the west, where we found my brother hunched over in an alley, as if in numbing pain. I took Snowy Owl up to him and tried to insert him..but to no avail. I slipped immediately into the Theta state, and remained there until Call Back. I recall driving somewhere while in this deeper state, but the imagery seems mundane and normal. When I returned, though, I felt as if I were completely refreshed and renewed. It turns out this Journey was about cleansing and empowering me more than it was about helping my brother. He did indeed reject my offer of help, as I expected, and will continue to suffer according to his chosen, Sacred Path. Remember: Shamans can only help those who want it.

Snowy Owl Power: Hunt by sitting and waiting. Appear lazy, but not true! Conserve energy and go into action at the right time! Lemmings and arctic hares (study these for powers) are its primary prey. Has prophetic instinct for moving to where food is to avoid famine. It has the power of prophecy and spirit. It does not proclaim its presence in new areas, but walks quietly, non-threatening in its power and ability. It succeeds through timing and skill, not intimidation. It can sprint, swim and even play dead..it encompasses the talents of the great horned, barred and short-eared Owls! Quite a powerful ally for Four Hawks!

Lemmings: Tend to walk alone. When running out of food, they seek new areas..they can swim but drown in great numbers when they misjudge the length of the water surface they try to cross. Lesson: Watch your emotional/feminine plane! Do not go too far without seeing the other side!

Arctic Hares: Hares will form groups of 100 to 300 animals. While some rest and feed the others act as guards. Hares are able to survive the Arctic winters by huddling together in snow drifts, under bushes or behind rocks. Arctic hares usually follow the same paths every time they look for food. When alarmed they rise up on their hind legs to look for danger and then bound off very quickly . Hopping up on their hind legs like a kangaroo, they can reach speeds of 64 km. per hour. The hare can swim across narrow streams. Arctic hare are the food for Snowy Owls, other birds of prey, wolves, foxes, weasels and polar bears. So it must always be alert and ready to hop away if it senses an enemy. Sometimes it runs away on all fours or hops on its hind legs like a kangaroo. Young hares quickly learn to sit perfectly still and become almost invisible to their enemies. The Arctic hare moves so quickly that wolves and foxes have a hard time keeping up with it.

Great lessons here for invisibility and emotional control! A truly magnificent Journey!

Journey 77 - Spirit Sister in Scotland

7/27/04: A journey to meet with the Shaman I suspect my pastor will meet on her trip to Scotland. I had suggested to her that she would meet such a person, and I wished to see who it was and what he or she would do for her spiritually. She herself had written she expected to come back from this trip changed in a significant way. So I prepared as usual, then began a 15-minute Drum sequence. I was then out in the back yard, and was moving up the Red Maple tree trunk. However, I was climbing through the magnetic attraction of the Maple’s and my own Auras, versus using my hands and arms and legs. This was a first, to being moving along the stickiness of mixed Aural Energies. I rose through the beautiful leaves and branches, only to reach a very dark layer. Almost a mist of cloud, it was thin but thick. Above it was night, below the same day-lit leaves. As I rose above the layer into the night, I saw a single sprig of branched leaves sticking up above the dark layer..and these were still glowing as if bathed in sunshine. I then saw Owl approach, and we were off across the Atlantic to Scotland. We landed in some living quarters, square to near rectangular, with large windows. I saw Anne reading a book. I turned a page for her to alert her to my presence..a tease of sorts. Not sure she actually saw it as there was no response. Owl and I then headed outside and up an orange and pink interlaced swirl of Energy. We landed in a Scottish wooded area next to a Moor. I saw a very old skeleton still tied to a Tree. Then, to my left appeared a Celtic Shaman. He told me his name was Horses’ Hay. He said my friend would see at least one, maybe more, pink Rose while on this trip, tying into an earlier Journey I took at her Church. He showed me some sort of Ceremony at a Gravesite, but I recall little if any detail..it was a fleeting glimpse. He told me he would appear to my friend as both a Sheepdog and at least one Horse. He then showed me a Spirit-World Ceremony on the Moor itself involving her in which he would light the tip of a Sword with a Sacred Flame, then run the Sword through each of her Chakras, energizing them greatly. Her Aura grew to a huge size, encompassing the entire area. He then showed me the new Spirit Body he had made: My friend, with a wreath of Juniper leaves on her head. On her left shoulder I saw first a Bluebird, then a nest of blue Robin eggs with a Robin above. Her new Spirit name would be Callandra. I then slipped into a deeper Theta state, and the only image I recall is of a young lady being restrained from going to her mother. I came back into the Journey to see my friend now also holding a long walking stick or bar of white light in her right hand. This would be of use in opening doors in the Spirit World. The bar was at least 10 feet long.. At this point, I was called back.

Journey 73 - Seeking Shamanic Joy

7/28/04: A journey to recapture or establish in my life what I am calling Shamanic Joy..a feeling of happiness and contentedness that should flow from knowing all that I know about my Helpers and the Spirit Camp. Theoretically, this should be happening automatically..but we humans are wired to worry and regret and to want more..it just comes with the territory and is not so easily shut off. So I prepared as usual and began a 10-minute Drum CD Journey. Right away, things were different. Instead of heading for a Tunnel, I sensed myself being lowered into a Trough of Water with all my Spirit Helpers and Guardians surrounding it..as if I were being washed. I then found my awareness (versus myself) floating through first a set of very vibrant leaves and branches, then gorgeous carpets of small Flowers, then through Cloud People, then skiing through and then into Snow. I only then found myself flying up a Tunnel made of millions of spiraling tiny Stars with Owl into the Upper World. There I was taken on a trip through just some of the high points in my Life, starting early and coming up to the present over a three minute or so period. What was startling to my about this was how much was left out, and yet how much there was. Obvious lesson..you have had much more Joy than you think..it’s just that the feeling wears off. I then found myself back in the Trough, only this time I was sinking into pure gold Mana, so tiny in particle that it acted like a fluid. I saw my Chakras, very colorful and healthy, growing larger. At this point, the Callback occurred, and I returned in thanks for this first session. In the middle of this Journey, my wife had called to ask if she had to pick up my granddaughter. I knew the ring was her, so I left my Journey to answer..it was very important I do so. And that again proves that one is still conscious of the tonal world while on a Journey..

Journey 72 - Good Friend's Grandmother Dream

7/2404: A Journey undertaken at my dear friend’s request to investigate a Dream she once had of her Grandmother walking up a Hill with her as a young girl to check out some building going on. The Grandmother was insistent they investigate this activity..but the Dream ended before they got there. My task was to go further in the Dream. I smudged and darkened the Room, lit the Sacred Candle, and began the 10-minute Drum loop. First up was my Upper World Guide Owl, appearing with a gold necklace (a first) with the year 1957 settling in as the charm hanging at the bottom. Many Spirit forms, amorphous, were floating around him initially. As we stood there, we were back at the final scene of my Shaman’s Dream. Above us was the huge whirlpool of light, next to us the Woman in a cloak on the bench across the Street. We went over to Woman, who introduced herself to me as my new Dream Guide! I took her hand and the three of us flew very quickly up through the center of the Whirlpool, which then stretched and thinned vertically until we finally reached the exit. We were now standing on a furrowed land made of a very beautiful light tan, solid Energy..nothing else in sight. We then saw Grandmother and my friend as a little girl standing together holding hands. The Dream then kicked in, and they were standing on the hillside walking up toward the construction area. I had now assumed the role of my friend, and Grandmother was speaking to me as follows: “It’s very important to check out activities such as this which alter the natural landscape. The area could be home to Deer, an Eagle’s nest, or Woodchucks, and these people may not have taken time to assess the area before beginning to tear it apart. When we got to the top we saw a group of early American colonists (early 1700s), who were busy constructing a wooden building. As expected, they had no regard for the damage they were doing. Grandmother walked up to the apparent leader and began to admonish him for this. The man, quite short (as they mostly all were back then), seemed quite taken aback. I quickly jumped over into his existence and realized he saw Grandmother and me as Spirits. The workers and he became very afraid and tore down the structure in rapid, sped-up fashion. Then they and their wood/tools vanished, leaving the top of the hill as it had been. We looked and found there a stand of rare, small flowers (2” tall, with small orange petals with a purple center) and nearby a Rabbits’ Den. Grandmother than turned to me (still my friend as a little girl) and told me she had once been a Native Medicine Woman in upper Wisconsin, and in her role was very sensitive to balancing the needs of the land and her people. She told me that in her future life she will pilot a vehicle that goes around her local planetary system remedying environmental violations. She finally revealed that she had indeed placed part of her Spirit Essence on one of the girls, to remind the family of her essence. She then handed me a black button from one of her coats, placed on a loop of string, forming a sort of bracelet or necklace, to bring back as a Spiritual Gift from this visit. I shall pass this Gift on to my friend. I (myself now) got the impression she occasionally made little necklaces with string for her children. Just as the Grandmother spoke to my friend and said it was time for Four Hawks to return to his time, the Drum CD shifted to the Call Back..perfectly timed. I thanked all involved and rapidly soared back down the Whirlpool Tunnel with Owl and returned here.

Journey 71 - Two Dreams (Harrier/Doll)

7/23/04: A journey to investigate, for the first time, the meaning of two of my Dreams of last night. In the first, I saw a large Northern Harrier swoop in over me after calling to get my attention skyward. The Harrier landed on the middle of a street, about 30 feet away from me. It then curled its wings up as if in a power gesture. I saw a Crow then soaring straight down toward it, and just before the Crow met up with the Harrier, the dream ended. In the second Dream, I was ascending the steps of some sort of apartment building and spotted a small box with a clear plastic cover, within which was a doll. I stooped to look at this plastic doll, and suddenly her eyes moved toward me. I took the lid off, and the doll became more and more animated. Soon she was alive, and I picked her up, treating her as an abandoned baby. I called the police on my cell phone, telling them to bring some milk. As I turned, I saw my wife and my own kids (at their current ages), and the doll-baby, now suddenly in a diaper, was teetering on the edge of the platform, age of about 3 years with long brown hair. I told my wife to watch her before she fell.. Suddenly, we were in the kitchen of a house, years later..not my kitchen. The doll-baby was now a teenager, and I was rubbing her shoulders from behind. She looked totally white, but as she turned to face me I saw she had a light brown coloring across her forehead..two-toned like me! She had a wide smile on her face and stared right at me..end of dream. So off I went on my Journey. I was very small in the Grass outside the bedroom window as I began. Blades of Grass were towering over me, and the Weed Sprigs looked like Trees. I saw Owl flying in from the west, and because of my size, he appeared huge! He landed next to me, and I realized I had taken on the Robe of the Ant! I clamber onto his leg and we fly up onto a Tree Branch. Owl then eats me, and from within I can still see clearly outside. We then take off and fly straight up, into a Tunnel in the Sky that resembles water pouring down the sides of a cylinder..but it’s Air pouring down instead. We punch through the exit into a dimly lit Tree beneath a very dark Sky. We land on a Branch, and the first Dream re-engages. I see Crow fly straight down onto Harrier, and the two merge..and become a Peace Eagle! The PE then walks right over to me and begins talking. He has a warning..drink alcohol only on social occasions, or I will surely cut short my Shamanic Walk. I will find more Joy in the certain Knowledge I have of my Shamanic Skills and Experiences in Healing and Fathoming. It would be a shame to cut short this Gift through habit. That ended that Dream Extension, and it was onto Dream #2. The girl with the brown coloring across her forehead is none other than my own Female Self..my feminine half or side. She told me now that she truly appreciates my caring for the Feminine in life, for honoring it, even in the fullness of my relations with my wife. In the Dream, my caring for the Doll who came to life when a baby and a little girl on the platform were examples of my instinctual, Spirit-based caring. She told me this respect for my feminine side was very healthy, to keep it up! At this point, the Drums called me back. I am now finding that the 10-minute Drum Journey is the ideal time for me..I come back with the knowledge I was seeking, yet am not so drained that I can not do another Journey right afterward.

Journey 70 - The Troubled Nieces

7/23/04: Journey on behalf of my dear friend’s nieces. After Rattling, Smudging and lighting the Sacred Candle, I found myself sitting amongst numerous Treetops beneath a brilliant night Sky. The Leaves were lush and green. Grandmother Moon was well up in the Sky, full. Owl then arrived, picked me up, and off we went toward a red/orange Circle of Energy simmering on a small portion of Moon’s Face. The trip through Space was quick, and the walls of the Sky Tunnel thin and wispy strands of red/orange Energy. As we arrived at the Moon and plunged down through the small opening in her Face, I could see the surroundings clearly. When we arrived at the exit of the Tunnel, I was suddenly in a business office building, with numerous small offices on either side of a typical hallway on the second floor. I seem to recall the building having a glass front. I went into one of the offices to see my friend's sister and husband squared off across a table at one another. The husband then turned into what I assume is his main Power Animal, Deer, while the sister became a Lion (male at that). Soon, the Lion became a small figurine on the table. The scene suddenly shifted, and I was in a forest clearing. Deer and Lion were very much alive now, and squaring off to fight..but neither made more than a token attempt at really attacking. Off in the distance, watching all of this, were two baby deer..the nieces, I assume. The fight before them suddenly froze in time, with both Lion and Deer motionless in mid fighting pose. I moved over the to the young ones and inspected them. Their coats each had a fine covering of red/orange light shimmering on them..indicative of the Lower Chakras being very much energized. I melded my Spirit with theirs, to get a sense of what they were thinking. Interestingly, they had totally tuned out the stalemate contest before them, assuming the two larger Animals were no longer capable of being much help, and were instead looking to each other to help each other in life from here on out. Another way to put it: moving into their own relationship now for soothing and protection, and to survive the coming turmoil. At my request, Time then jumped ahead to when the Nieces were teens. I saw them spending considerable time at my friend’s house, where a small family business involved them as well. She had ended up watching them quite a bit up to this point, to the point of being a second mother of sorts. I sensed the husband still in the picture, but not the sister. I looked a bit further ahead and saw one niece going to San Francisco, the other to New York as adults..but got no sense as to whether these were just trips of permanent moves. Shifting scenes, I headed over to see what becomes of my friend's mother's very old house, and sensed that it would be registered as a historic home of sorts and come under the protection of some sort of preservation society. The Drums called me back at this point.

Journey 68/69 - PA for Wife's Friend/Dying Mom PA

7/22/04: Journey 1 was to investigate another of my wife's co-worker's Power Animal(s), a follow-on to her request for guidance on a move to Florida. I performed the usual pre-Journey actions and was off to a 10-minute CD drumming loop. I was suddenly outside at dusk, and the Grass had a gold Mist hovering over it. My Lower World Guide, Snake, was zooming through the entire area at super speed, stirring up the mist. Appearing at my side then instantly, we headed down a Chipmunk hole at the feed area. The Tunnel was very wide, and tiny colored “lanterns” of light was hanging on the walls. To the left, halfway in, was a platform with numerous Spirit Bodies on it, all waiting for something. I was told they were recently departed people, waiting for their Guides to escort them to the Spirit Camp. They were in no hurry, for they already knew they were OK, and where they were going. As we moved along the Tunnel, in fact, many light blurs passed us..the Guides on their way to pick up their charges. We exited into the middle of many Trees. I noticed both Snake and I had become Squirrels, and we were moving along from limb to limb with great dexterity. As I looked down below, the occasional clearing in the Leaves would reveal a Mother Skunk with three little ones flowing behind. After seeing her and them for the second straight clearing, I went down to see if she was the co-worker’s PA. Skunk (sensuality, respect and self-esteem) revealed that she was indeed the Power Animal, and that the little ones following her were Assistants. She told me that the co-worker has a very powerful and healthy Aura, allowing her to give so much of herself in her life on Earth. This is how she has overcome her intense pain of losing her family. Skunk then revealed to me her other Totems: Hummingbird (Joy, nectar of life), Red Fox (feminine magic of camouflage, shape shifting and invisibility), Dove (feminine energies of peace,
maternity and prophecy), Whale (power of song, awakening inner depths) and
Dolphin (power of breath and sound). I then fed carrots, lettuce, onion and tomato to Snake, as a Gift of appreciation from this Life. The other Totems than moved in likewise to be fed. I then touched each of them with my Crystal Wand, recently charged with Lightning Energy, to give them even more Power. Skunk then allowed me to pet her in gratitude for her help for the co-worker. Skunk then told me the co-worker’s deceased were moving along their Spirit Paths just fine, and that she should not worry about them. She also said her move to Florida would place her closer to her Whale and Dolphin Totems while keeping the connections to the other Totems strong. I then returned with Snake.

Journey 2 was more somber..an attempt to acquire a Power Animal for a good friend's mom. I took a Journey to confront her Cancer earlier in the year and was astounded by its tenacity and single-mindedness. As I went outside, the Grass in our yard was totally yellow..lifeless, telling me it was unlikely we could stop her mom from passing. Snake then came to me and told me as much. Still, we went down through the Tunnel to see what we could do. After a dry beginning, we passed through a layer of Water, then through the rest of the muddy Tunnel. We emerged into a world where everything was lit by a blacklight reminiscent of 60s fame. Even the Stars had the blue-red glow of a Blacklight bulb. The whites had that weird blue glow. Eagle landed on my left shoulder. Off to my right in the distance I saw a pair of yellow eyes staring unblinkingly at me.. it was the Disease. My Power Animal Eagle then flew off my shoulder and onto a Stone Person between me and the Eyes, to protect me from another attack such as occurred during my first encounter with this entity. I took out my Crystal Wand and called in Rainbow beams from the Star Nation to attach to the Disease. The Beams turned to shades of gray, so I knew it was useless to try to heal the Disease. I then re-directed the Star Energy to Eagle, whose Aura became very bright and colorful. The eyes beyond dimmed within the colored field of light. A Warrior then appeared to my front, left. He had a black-paint face, with gleaming eyes, with Feathers sticking up out of his tightly pulled back hair. His name was “Oobatoobatan”, and he introduced himself as a new Guardian and Helper for me to cal on from now on. He told me the Spirits were very pleased with my progress, for I was very receptive to Spirit Energy and Healings flowing through me. I was a good transmitter, he said, and the Spirits were happy I was making myself available so frequently. He told me what I already knew..it is too late to save her mom. But he suggested we send her some Rock Doves (who turn into the colors of the rainbow) to ease her transition. We did so. We saw hundreds of these colorful Birds swooping around and around her mom. He asked if I wanted to know the date of her passing, and I said no.. “O” understood and smiled. However, I did see “2004” flash by me. But at least I know I have a new Guardian/Guide to call on. Very wonderful! I then returned.

Journeys 74/75/76 -Florida Move/Thunderstorms/First Runnymede

7/21/04: Journey 1, to see if one of my wife's friends and co-workers should move to Florida, undertaken on her behalf. I performed the usual pre-Journey Rites. As I moved into the Drumming, I was immediately swept into a very beautiful mountainous terrain. It was fascinating that I moved through no Tunnel to get here..Snake brought me to this place instantly. My Power Animal, Eagle, landed on my left shoulder. To my right, I spotted a Seminole Indian approaching me. He came to me and said hello, that he was here to help, and that incidentally we had known each other before as friends in another lifetime. He asked me to accompany him to meet with the Seminole Seer. We moved through some brush into a Clearing, around which were sitting various Spirit Entities. Their faces and bodies were not visible, merely outlined in different colored Energies, including their eyes. They motioned to me to approach the center of the Circle they had formed. I crept there and noticed a very small Lake of Water, about 2” in diameter. I knew to look into the Lake’s reflection, for I sensed it was a Future Seer. As I peered in, I saw a map of the eastern United States. A straight red line ran from New England to the west-central coastal area of Florida. I then saw the friend and her sister sitting comfortably and happily in lawn chairs near their house. I saw that two men had become good friends, life companions. The scene in the Lake then clouded over. I asked the Spirit Circle when this might transpire, and they said the two women will know when the time is right. I thanked the Circle of Prayer People, and was then escorted over to see the Seminole Seer. She was a multi-colored, gorgeous Parrot, whose eyes had millions of tiny rainbow facets. The eyes reminded me of the gorgeous Spirit Cavern within my own Brain, found on a prior Journey and totally underutilized. This Cavern allows me to place an individual against the walls and read their Energy field. I believe this reminder was the only purpose of my meeting with the Seminole Seer..use the Gift! We came back to the clearing. From there, we traveled back to this World, after thanking all the Spirit Helpers involved.

Journey 2 was for another of my wife's co-worker friends, who has an inordinate fear of thunderstorms. As I went into the Drumming, I was passing through a dense and lush canopy of green Leaves, with many small Caterpillars, Moths, etc sitting on them. I then rose above the Trees into the blue Sky. I stopped at the end of the Clearing I have been to before in prior Journeys, and there met with Owl, my Upper World Guide. We sat until we saw, off to our right, a large, sizzling gold Orb in the sky, replete with spikes and blue streaks zipping along the surface of the Orb between the spikes. We flew toward it. As we got close, we could see the Orb was covered in lightning strikes. Within all the organized chaos of gold and Blue was a small circular opening, encompassed in green and red light. We went in. As we landed, we found a sea of blue light Energy. There were a pair of “eyes” embedded within. I opened conversation up by thanking the Lightning Spirit for hitting me as a Youth, the day I had my hand on a cold water pipe when lighting struck nearby and I felt the electric surge at the same instant. I then asked why the friend was so afraid of the Lightning. I was told her brain electricity was more vulnerable to attack then most human brains, and this caused her panic. I then got the impression that her mother may have had an electric shock during her pregnancy with her daughter. I was told that to assign a Power Animal to her to help would require a second Journey. But then, an unexpected Gift. I was given a Lightning Bolt to place within my Crystal Wand, Owl’s suggestion. I did so upon my return.

Journey 3 was to investigate a close friend's possible Rheumatoid Arthritis problem, at her request. I found myself sitting in my back yard, very small. Owl swooped in and was very large. I climbed onto his left foot, the size of an Ant. We flew up into the Sky, toward a Red/Orange quivering circle. We went higher and higher, past the tops of the thunder clouds, and into the Tunnel. As we flew through it, I got the impression it was an Artery. We emerged into a mountainous region, and before me was a glowing Stone Person, red and orange. The Stone Person’s name was Attepo, and he invited me into himself after asking him to pity me, a poor Shaman-trainee. Once I was one with him, he told me to enter my Brain’s Crystal Chamber. I placed the friend's body against the rainbowed walls. I saw her blood flowing, with tiny blue specks moving through it. Her pain problem is definitely blood-borne, and may indeed be an auto-immune disease..with the blue specks as white cells. I was told she should drink lots of concord grape juice and/or red wine. I turned her sideways and saw that her Chakras were in fairly good shape. From behind, though, I could see there was a huge dark Energy implanted in her upper right back. She needs to confront this Dark Being to slow her disease. I then saw an old book with green covering whose name was “Runneymede Tales.” She shall have to research this. I then placed a copy of my Rainbow Healing Feather, the Gift from the Water Spirit, into my friend to help her withstand her ailment. I then came back after thanking the Spirits and Owl.

Journey 67 - Wife's Coworker's PA

7/16/04: Journey #2 was to find a Power Animal for a coworker of my wife’s. The co-worker had seen my wife’s Hummingbird charm, and she had explained it was her Power Animal. Her friend then decided she wanted one, too. So later in the afternoon I re-Smudged, re-Rattled and relit the Sacred Candle. I took only a 10-minute Journey this time, figuring that would be enough. As I lay there breathing slowly, I could sense Snake coming to me. But this time she wrapped herself right around me, in total..a strangle hold I could feel my body both tingling and sinking not the bed. I found myself suddenly sinking into my Grave! I was a bit concerned and came out of the Journey a bit, but realized that this was no doubt the Path I was meant to take and should stick to it. Crosses then told me that it was indeed OK to perform this entry. We went down through the rectangular hole and found ourselves moving down a Tunnel glowing with a deep red light. We were both outlined in red as a result. The Tunnel then fell apart into red filaments flying by us. We emerged into an icy world, with undulating snow fields all around. But, off in the distance to our right was a small Island sticking up out of the ice fields, covered in summer growth and color! Here was a gorgeous zone of life, right in the middle of a desolate and blue world. Crosses and I went and sat there at the edgeof the Island. She told me we would wait for the co-worker’s Power Animal to show. Meanwhile, she spoke to me as to why I was taken down through my own Grave. It was an admonishment for my wish last Friday for today to be my last. She told me I had a lot more Shaman work to accomplish, that my gifts were growing and still vitally necessary. It was not for me to ask for or anticipate my last day in this existence. I was very receptive to this, as I really do not want to leave today! :) We then saw some Birds approach..a Pelican and a Flamingo (first time for both). Then came a Blue Heron. But none of these were acting like a Power Animal. Then, to our right, came a White Duck waddling up. Duck was outlined in a thin filament of gold Energy. Duck came into my arms, and as I held it, there was some green coloring added to her outline. I felt this was indeed the co-worker's Power Animal. I sent the White Duck over to therplace of business, to her. It quacked excitedly as it moved around in front of her. White Duck then went up into the air and flew right down into her through her Crown Chakra. Duck was now her Power Animal..qualities listed below. I then returned from the office to the Island. Many of my Spirit Helpers arrived, all also outlined in gold: Owl, Eagle, Black Panther, Blue Heron, Peace Eagle, Hawk. I then merged with Hawk, and then found myself splitting into four Hawks. Each of “us” flew well off to one of the Four Directions. “We” looked back from there at the distant glowing Island, and well beyond could see the Hawk at the opposite Direction. The four then flew back to the Island to merge as one Hawk again. I felt all the Medicines of all my Helpers flowing into me now. I was strengthened by their presence, and by seeing my name (Four Hawks) enacted into a spiritual essence. By this time, my Aura was tingling like anything! The call back drumming commenced, and I thanked my helpers and came back.

The co-worker's Power Animal is a White Duck with a gold fringe. White reflects cleansing, purifying and a greater creativity. Gold reflects a strengthening of the immune system. Ducks, because of their connection to water, are linked to the feminine energies, the astral plane, and the emotional state of humans. Water is necessary for all life, reminding us to drink of the waters of life as well as nurture our own emotional natures. We can find sustenance in our emotions. They help you handle your own emotions with greater grace and comfort. They teach you how to maneuver through the various waters of life. Duck can also reflect an inability to feel comfortable around many or even most people in your life, indicating a need to find comfort in your own element and with those of like mind and spirit. The link to the astral plane represents a narrowing of the wall separating this life from the “in-between world” some people fall into after death. The latter world can be a dangerous place for those who don’t know how to deal with it, so any contacts with it, whether deliberate or uninvited, should be avoided without help from an expert. Duck is also a sign of fidelity and freedom form worry.

Journey 66 - Young Co-worker's PA

7/16/04: Journey #1 on this fine day off was to find a Power Animal for a young co-worker, who at a very young age has just found out at least one of her moles in cancerous..and she is understandable quite shocked and afraid. I told her I would pray for her, and this Journey is what I meant by that. By getting her Power Animal back for her, she will have a much easier time maintaining the positive, heal-from-within attitude I told her she must now adopt. This is the most a Shaman can do for a sick person. After Smudging and Rattling and lighting the Sacred Candle, off I went, using the 20-minute Drum CD segment. I found myself being whisked off to a totally new place..a large Field with tall Grasses. The Grasses began to bend in a path-like ammer, indicating the arrival of my Snake Guide, Crosses in Front. She had purple patches on her skin, and soon the rest of her covering filled in with the other rainbow colors. Quite pretty! She then grew, transforming into a human form! She allowed me to see her Face for the first time..very nice, very Native! We then went arm in arm down a nearby, human-sized Opening in the Ground. At first we saw Dirt and Roots, but as it got darker and darker, I could see deep blue quartz Crystal shafts glowing in the walls, floor and ceiling. Crosses and I both had a faint rainbow outline around our bodies..all we could see of each other. I spotted a Crystal that looked just like the one I have next to my Pipe, and Crosses told me to pick it up and carry it back. By placing this Crystal from the Spirit World inside my physical one, I will greatly empower it. We eventually cleared the Tunnel and were in a lakeside clearing. Only, we were still in the Middle World..it looked like coastal Rye, NH. This was a first for me..tunneling back to a different place in this existence! Crosses led me to a large Stump, where we sat. She blew her breath into the center of the Stump, with her breath emerging as an intense fire. This fire Breath blew a hole into the center of the Stump. My Power Animal Eagle then appeared, and Crosses told me that Eagle would accompany me to the Lower World. Eagle and I went down through the fiery walls. We emerged into the very early dawn of a dark world, where the Bushes had large leaf blades. These spoke to me, welcoming me. The Grasses at my feet parted as I walked, so as to avoid my stepping on them. It was as if our energies were working together to keep us from touching, making for very smooth and undamaging travel. Eagle and I proceeded up an incline and reached past the Tree line. From there we went up a rocky slope to a local peak. The Sky above was dark but swirling with blues of all different hues. At the peak, several Rats and Chipmunks came to my feet. I wondered if either was the Power Animal for my friend, but the Rat seemed too aggressive, and the Chipmunk too indifferent. Then a Fox appeared, and nudged the tinier animals away with her nose. She sat by me and licked my hand. I realized then that Fox is my friend’s Power Animal. The scene shifted a bit, and I was back in a grassy area. Woman in a Grass Dress, whose image hangs on my wall, appeared before me. She took Fox in her arm and walked a good distance to my friend. She handed her the Fox, who rested in her arms while she walked along toward and to the right of me. I could tell who both women were, even though they were presented mainly in Energy shapes versus actually human appearances. Then I saw the Fox go into my friend. I then knew she now had her Power Animal. I then fell into the deeper Theta state, but for the first time was able to come back with three brief images from this deepest of Lower Worlds. IMAGE ONE: Three soldiers were sitting in a truck, and a man came up to them from the car’s right side with a machine gun. The three asked the man not to shoot, but he did anyway. He seemed to be after the man in the middle of the three, but the others were hit as the bullets went through the first man. As I watched this, I realized the three men in the Truck were all part of my friend’s immune system..their names were Helper, Healer and Holder, the last being the Holder of Life. Holder was the one in the front-center that the man was after. I can only assume the Man with the gun was her Cancer. So I took on the Gunman. Foxes came around and grabbed his arms and legs, pinning him to the ground. I sprinkled him with Sage and Sweet Grass, which caused quite a bit of his body to melt away. Black Panther then came by and lay on the remains, soaking up what was left of the man’s Energy. BP then pissed that Energy back into Mother Earth to be used for Good. We then went back to the Truck and restored Life to the three men. IMAGE TWO: More fractured..I just recall a woman standing in front of a mirror trying on a dress that seemed to fit very well. IMAGE THREE: Even more fractured. I recall being in a boat in the ocean and seeing a Fish swimming in the water just below the surface. Both of the last two images suggest Feminine Energy being in good repair.. I then began my Journey back as the Drum CD called me. I thanked all the Helpers who had shown up. Then the most unusual thing happened. The exact same time I shut off my CD player, a loud whistling noise began. At first I thought it was the Player..I checked but it was off. Then I thought it was one of my ears going nuts. But as I sat up and moved around, the sound varied. Then I realized it was the back-up sump pump. I went out and eventually got the whistling to stop. I went upstairs and only then realized that there had been a power interruption in the house hold current..at the exact same time my Journey ended (as demonstrated by the arrival of the high pitch noise just as I switched off the CD player)! I believe the force of my Spirit returning to this world actually caused a huge power spike that effected the house. Amazing.

Journey 65 - Swollen Right Hand

7/13/04: A journey to help mend my right hand, swollen and painful, possibly from striking a kitchen cabinet door in now very rare anger (hard to believe I still am capable of this after all these years..although the swelling didn’t start until two full days later..so perhaps something else had hit it during my recent construction activities?) last Friday. By today (Tuesday), it had swollen to the point of almost non-use, and was quite painful. I decided to seek healing from the Spirit Camp versus seeking western medicine. After smudging, Rattling and lighting the Sacred Candle, I used the Hawkins Drum CD for 20 minutes. As I focused on my intent while breathing slowly and deeply in Shamanic fashion, I found myself out in the Red Maple with Owl, my Night Totem and also Eagle Claw’s worldly robe. As we sat, he looked at me amusedly and said something to the effect of, “so, you finally went and hurt yourself, eh?” I grinned back sheepishly and vowed to try to make this the last time. We looked up into the Sky Nation, and saw a swirling Rainbow whirl of Energy. That was our Tunnel to the Upper World, and off we went. As we flew through the Tunnel, the Walls changed into a swirl of circling stars. As we exited, we were out in blackness. Ahead of me was a small gold-energy-lined door. I moved toward it and extended my hurt hand out into the opening, which proceeded to rotate forwards 90 degrees to become a table. I placed my right hand on this “table”, and immediately saw a miniature Native American Prayer Circle form around it. The sitting ones were smoking their Pipes, while a standing Dancer was singing near my little-finger knuckle, source of the most swelling. Suddenly, I found my entire body lying on the ground, with all the Natives now life-sized. The dancing Shaman Healer was singing a Power Song, the key word couplet of which was “Wedgshry Oshabay.” I then saw a Bear move up to my right hand and bend its head down over it. The Bear then turned into a Woman wearing a Bear Head on top of her own. She knelt over my hand and began sewing the flesh and bones, both within and without, using threads of golden light. I knew she was healing my hand. The Dancer continued to sing the Power phrase. Comfortable with knowing I was being helped by the Spirits, I fell deeper into the Theta State, and again I don’t recall any of the images that went by therein. As the Drumming CD changed tempo and brought me abruptly back, I thanked all my Helpers, and Owl and I flew quickly back down the Tunnel to here. My hand was still quite sore and immoveable the next day, but I knew it was healing. The following day, yesterday, saw an incredible improvement. Today, while it is still a bit swollen, I have recovered nearly full use. A very quick recovery. I should also mention that I held my healing Agate Stone Person in that hand before bed for those two nights, feeling its healing energies pouring into my hand. While Bear Medicine Woman did the major damage correction, Agate helped speed the restitution to near-normalcy. Very remarkable to see the Helpers come to one’s aid even after a self-inflicted wound. Having been here themselves, they understand.. :)

Journey 64 - Daughter's PA

6/25/04: A Journey to find and assign a Power Animal to my daughter. It began almost immediately upon my completing the Smudging, the Rattling and the lighting of the Sacred Candle. As I breathed Shamanically and lay down with the Whitaker CD drumming, I began this journey is a new but familiar place. A land full of beautifully lit Tipis, each a glowing with a different color, at night. Off to my left was a large mountain, with little purple and yellow lights moving up and down the slopes, as if a mix of Spirit People and Sacred Fires. My Lower World Guide, Crosses in Front, the Snake, showed up wearing a red bandana and a moustache. This implied to me a Mexican or Peruvian Spirit Camp. As we walked together, Crosses and I could see into the opening of the various Tipis, and in the pitch-black could see the glowing eyes and Pipe Bowls of the Ones within. We went into a darkened Tipi (just skin on the outside, minus the Glow). Within were the glowing Eyes and Bowls, but also a small, pulsing purple circle on the ground. Crosses and I entered and went through this Tunnel, with circular pulses moving past us as we went down. As we reached the exit, there were curtains of light green Energy strips hanging before us, and as we passed through these we were in a small clearing with lush growth. Crosses demonstrated to me that I had the Ability to create any form of Life here I wished. Using Energy from my outstretched palm, I thereby created a bush-like tree with white blossoms. I created some Chipmunks and Rabbits to scurry on the ground before us. At this point, a rainbow-colored Hawk flew in and landed beside me. When asked, he said he was not the Power Animal for my daughter. But he did invite me to ride his back as went in search of the PA. As we lifted up above the Trees, I could see a large rock faced cliff to our front-right. We flew toward a cave in the middle of the face. As we approached, we both turned into tiny gold figurines, A hawk and a Tiny Man, both coming to rest in the dirt just inside the Cave opening. Our Spirits were free from these objects though, so we sat in Spirit Form nearby and awaited my daughter's Power Animal. Bear and Antelope both appeared from further within, but they were not her PA. Nor was the Deer who came nibbling at the Entrance. At this point I lapsed a few minutes into the Theta State, and don’t recall the imagery there, but it was not really germane. When I came back into the Journey, I found Grandfather to the North sitting across from me. He produced Pegasus, the Winger Horse and Spirit Messenger. But Pegasus was not her PA either, Rather, she took me on board and we flew north. We landed in a snowy field, where Polar Bear came up to us. She announced she WAS my daughter's PA, and went with me to my daughter's bedroom, where she was sleeping with the light on. Polar Bear licked her face in friendliness, then curled herself around my daughter, then shrank into her. We then were back at the snow field, and Pegasus brought me back to the cave. I went back into the Theta State. When I awoke, Hawk and I resumed our bodies from the golden figurines and went back the clearing. From there, Crosses and I went back up the Tunnel to the Tipi. We went outside, and some of the Spirit People there invited me to go the main Fire to dance with them. I did so, and my Power Animal Eagle took over, carrying me through and spiraling up above the Spirit Flames. We passed among the embers and sparks of the Fire of Life. The call-back drumming then occurred, just as I landed. I felt a powerful presence, Snake, running through my Luminous Body as the Jack-hammer like pounding of the Drum set the pace for the intensity and determination of Snake in eating the Imprints and Crystallized Energies away from my Aura. I felt much cleansed and strengthened as I retuned to the room.

Journey 63 - Son's PA

6/24/04: A Journey to find and assign a Power Animal to my son. Recent events and a lot of pressure as he transitions to young adult have made me realize he can use the help. Who better than his Shaman Father to arrange this with the Spirits?! I had just finished consecrating my wife's Agate Stone for presentation tomorrow as an Anniversary gift, so I took the still-lit Sacred Candle into the bedroom and went straight into the Drum CD. I had already open Sacred space by Rattling to the 7 Directions and Smudging as part of the Consecration, and so I did not do this again once back in the bed room. I lay down while concentrating on my mission, and was soon off to meet with my Lower World Guide, the Snake, Crosses in Front. I was out back again, and the scene shifted from daylight back to night, and the same scene as in my last Journey was suddenly there again: small mounds of fire nested among the grass. I shrank myself down, and was walking among the mounds of fire, when suddenly, small blue Spirit blobs began to emerge and circle around me. They tightened a Circle around me and I realized from their speed and ferocity that they were attacking me! I felt pressured, and in a panic of sorts. I realized I was in this fix without any visible Power Animal to protect me! This could be quite “bad.” I felt a strong tingling in my body and felt I was actually be led away from it..I felt I needed to escape before I was taken for good. I even opened my eyes to try to end the Journey, for that is always the final answer when a Journey that turns in a direction one doesn’t want. Yet as I stared at the ceiling, I felt it was not a good time to leave, that things were meant to begin this way and I should go back into the scene. Leaving it unresolved, as it were, could leave me contaminated with the attacking Energies. I did go back, and determined immediately that I needed to get off the ground. As I was lifting off, the blue attackers came with me, pulling in ever tighter around me. I then saw Eagle, my Power Animal, come barreling in from above me, in a marked haste. He grabbed me away from the Blue Ones and lifted me up to a Tree Branch immediately above the scene, right next to Owl, who had just appeared. Owl wrapped me in his large Feathers and held me to his chest, blanketing me completely from the action. After a short spell, he let me back out again to survey the scene below. The Blue Ones were gone, but the Fires were still there. My Totem, Black Panther, then appeared and stalked across the area, putting out all the Fires. Suddenly, night turned to day, and the same area that had been covered in grass and fires was now a pleasant patch, with a light blue-green short-grass waving in the wind. Crosses appeared, and led me to the Tunnel to the Lower World. We went down, passing concentric colored circles whizzing by us in the walls. Eventually this wall turned into a blue fog of Energy. As we emerged from the Tunnel exit, we fell immediately into a large waterfall, landing at the base. The river bank was covered in exotic, short green blobs of plants, sans leaves. We went to shore and sat next to one of these. I looked at Crosses, who was staring at me with his mouth wide open, as if to attack. “Man,” I thought, “this is the Journey to have people turning on me..” Snake then bit me in the neck. He told me he had done this purposely to train me to transmute the poisons in my life. He said there would be several more such sessions in the Future. As I found my world getting dark, he told me that when I awakened from this transmuting session, my son’s Power Animal would appear to me. In total darkness now, I began trying to overcome the poison. At the same time, I saw my own face up ahead of me. Soon my face turned into that of an Owl, then a Skeleton, then a large circular Eye. The Eye then stretched itself into an inverse triangle. I think I recall it then circled up around my head. Then, I saw my entire self, standing at a distance in front of me. This “self” was asking where it was, and who was I. I told “myself” that I was Four Hawks, the Shaman living in the body “he” occupied. I told “him” I was the part of him that could never die. I told “him” that he must transmute his poisons. I then reached out to touch “me” to begin that process. I looked down at my left hand and it was the most misshapen and grotesque hand I have ever seen. The other “me” recoiled in horror and asked what it was. I told him it was the most beautiful hand in the Universe since it was a direct creation of the Great Spirit, and therefore had its own precious worth and beauty, no matter how it appeared to us. I told him I had to touch him with it to transmute his poison. When I did so, “he” appeared to die, and the last image I saw was of “my” face staring glassy-eyed and open-mouthed. I then came back to the room enough to begin forcing the poisons in my body down through the bed to Mother Earth. I pressed my palms against the mattress to accelerate the cleansing. I felt intense pain in my left hand, jut above the thumb. From there, realizing I had to fall asleep in order to wake up to my son’s Power Animal, I began to try to slow my breath rate to one per minute, concentrating on the drumming only and clearing my mind of all thought. I soon fell into the Theta State, and while there had several dream-lets. Again, I am not able to recall what they were, as I still have to strengthen myself into bringing images back from the Theta State. I was aroused from this very peaceful, sleep-like rest by the incessant return drumming in my headphones. As I awoke, I knew I only had a minute or so to find my son’s Power Animal. I didn’t try to see it, just waited..and then came a Horse. Yellow, with Pink Ears and a Blue Mane. Suddenly, the return drumming sped up to that of a Horse Trot! I saw Horse trotting along with my son, and knew he was now his Partner. I thanked him. I then came back up the Tunnel with Snake and we emerged into the back yard. I thanked Owl and Eagle and Snake for their help. The scene had returned to the grassy mounds with many fires. The Blue Ones now came up and circled around me in friendship. They told me they had been there at the start to get me ready for me Transmuting Ceremony. They congratulated me on surviving it. They shape-shifted and became Native men and women! They were NA Spirits! Shortly after this Journey, I went outside to get ready to cut the hedges. As I walked along the porch, a shape above me caught my eye. A HUGE bird was flying away from me right at the top of the red maple. The back looked just like the huge bird we saw leaving the Loft last Saturday. This time, though, the Bird began circling around just beyond the Maple..a chance to see just what kind of bird this is! It was a Peace Eagle! And it stayed with me for minute, slowly circling higher and higher just over the edge of the house. Then I saw a second higher up, and they both took off to the west. That Eagle had flown right over me head not 15 feet above me..the closest a Peace Eagle has ever come to me. I felt this was another sign that my Journey had pleased the Spirits! Moreover, this was the second such “near-miss” flyover is less than a week. Powerful forces are afoot on my Path’s behalf. Finally, we look at the Medicines of Horse, my son’s new Totem Power Animal. Jamie Sams says Horse stands for Power. “Compassion, caring, teaching, loving, and sharing your talents, gifts and abilities are the gateways to power. Every human must follow the compassion pathway to power before riding the winds of their destiny.” Ted Andrews says, “Horses are symbols of freedom. Horse People are friendly and adventurous and can be very emotional. Riding a horse raises us above the mundane, and is like flying. Horses can represent movement and travel, or showing up to help you with movement. The represent sexual desire, and the taming of the stallion represents the taming of sexuality and dangerous emotions. Horse will teach you how to ride into new directions to awaken and discover your own freedom and power.” The colors of my son’s Power Animal are also significant. Yellow stands for intellectual power, awakening, and is also the color of the South, the direction of youth and growth and joy of living. Pink is comforting to the emotional energies of the individual. Blue represents peace, faith, aspiration to higher things, and creativity. The fact Horses ears were pink reflects the need for my son to soothe his emotions by listening more closely to what is being said, and not assume the wrong messages behind the words that can lead to anger. Quite a Journey!!!

Journey 62- Double Power Animal Assignment Attempt

6/23/04: A Journey to assign TWO Power Animals at once to two different people..a first to perform two tasks in one Journey, but probably allowable since they are related (mother and son) and living in the same area of CT. Both are related to my friend and co-carrier at work. The mother is suffering from a severe intestinal blockage, unable to eat and refusing treatment, the latter from the last stages of Cancer. My intent in helping assign Power Animals to these two people is not necessarily to heal them, as both seem pretty much resigned to pass. But more to have them get the Spiritual Guidance they need, in whatever forms works for them, to help make their transition back to the Spirit Camp a joyful and smooth one. I’m sure today’s Journey will be quite remarkable, for as I left for my route this morning, a Hawk was circling right over my head at the Bandstand, resplendently lit from above by a strong Sun. It was a celebration of my return to (or, maybe better, start of) serious Shaman work. I saw several other Hawks/Peace Eagles during the day, all gliding well up in Father Sky. So, I Rattled myself into strength and protection of the 7 Directions, smudged with Sage and Sweet Grass, and lit the Sacred Candle. I used Kay Whitaker’s Drum CD, to which I’d been falling asleep lately..more on that later. I lay down and breathed Shamanically, trying to slow my breath to 4 per minute. As I concentrated on my Intent, I found myself outside in the yard, at night. On the ground before me were numerous small Sacred Fires, as if I was standing over a mini-Village. VERY wonderful to behold. My Lower World Guide Crosses in Front, the Snake, met me there, and we both hovered over this scene for a few seconds, drinking in the beauty of the small Fires lighting the grass mounds around them. Then, off to our right, I spotted an opening in the ground at the edge of the Forest, with Sweet Grass Smoke drifting up from the Opening. In we went, and we were suddenly zooming down this Tunnel, which had streaks of light imbedded in the walls but was otherwise dark. As we emerged from this Tunnel, we fell into free fall in the midst of a huge, swirling, blue-white cone of Energy. It was a marvelous feeling to be moving down through this bright whirlpool. We then landed, and the whirlpool around us dissipated like a fog. The landscape had Trees, Bushes and Sky, but all had a deep purple hue. I looked to my left and there was Eagle Claw. It struck me that it had been a very long time since we had actually been together, and we walked a while, talking. He mentioned to me how proud he was that I had finally taking back control of my Shamanic Destiny. He then showed me one of the more Sacred Sights I’ve ever seen in a Journey. Rising above the forest to our left was a huge, triangle-shape mountain, almost completely white, from a distance seeming to be made of crystals and rock. As I looked at the Peak a second time, I saw a huge and brilliant fire emerging from the very tip. Eagle Claw spoke and told me this was the Fire of All Life. Every thing in existence has this Fire in it. He suggested I hitch a ride to the Peak, and at that moment my Power Animal Eagle was at my right side, ready to take me up there. We took off, me nestled gently in Eagle’s claws. We went upslope very fast, under tremendous wing thrusts, and very close to the ground. I could make out Crystals, Snow, Water Streams, Patches of Green, Tipis..the side was replete with Beauty. When we got near the Peak, we landed. The Peak was surrounded by a circular grove of very tall Trees. Within this circle was a second circle of Stone People, one of whom we sat on. The golden display of moving Life Fire was breath-takingly immense. I could hear wind blowing off to my left, and was told (not sure by whom, but it must have been Eagle) that I was hearing the first and last breaths of many living things at once..it was an intersection, where one life’s last breath became a new life’s first. It was thrillingly circular, and comforting. Then, two Animals approached from my left. An Antelope and a Deer. They told me they would be acting as the Power Animals for Lucille and Allayer. For a short time, they changed forms from animals to a handsome Native Man and a lovely Native Woman, then shifted back again. They told me they would head off now and perform their tasks. At this point, I realize after the fact, I “fell asleep”..but it was not sleep at all. In fact, I was achieving the Theta Wave state of consciousness, attainable only by advanced Shamans. Most Journeying occurs in the Alpha State. In this deepened layer, which resembles sleep a lot and takes much training and talent to come back with information from, I recall one striking image: a man sitting at a table, holding a large piece of paper up at one corner, and just below the corner itself was a brilliant little star. When I came back to the Peak, the Power Animals had returned. As a gift, one gave me the tip of an Antler, the other a Nose Whisker. I have brought these Spirit Gifts back with me, and will try to find their counterpart in this dimension. We then headed off together toward a Village, and back I went into Theta State. The only images I recall, and there were others, is of the mother sitting in the back of a car, drumming..and watching her drum made me realize she was in synch with the CD drumming, which in turn brought me back up to the Alpha State. I believe I went back down to Theta then until the call-back drumming began. At this point, Eagle and I left the Peak, landed by Eagle Claw, whom we thanked, and then Snake and I came back up the Tunnel. When we got out into the yard, the scene of Night and small Fires went back to daylight..I was back. Seeing both a man and the mother in the Theta state makes me ponder what the symbology is..what is the message for my friend from her brother and mother. Also, now knowing I am flirting with the Theta State will allow me to discipline my Journeys further to try and reach this state while still able to function. Best of all, though, is that each of the sick ones has been visited by the Spirits, and is ready for whatever comes.

Journey 61 - Conversation with My PA

6/22/04: A journey to have a conversation with my Power Animal as suggested in a recent reading..just to get a sense of where I am and where I should be heading. In a lesser vein, the purpose of this Trip was to prove to myself that I could stay awake for an entire Journey. :) I’ve fallen asleep on the last two.. I began with the usual Rattle Ceremony to the 7 Directions, lit the Sacred Candle and breathed Shamanically while concentrating on my Purpose and self-drumming. I soon was outside my window with Crosses in Front, my Snake Guide to the Lower World. His eyes were alternating between his usual ones and the Azurite variant I’d seen in one of my last two Journeys. As we went to the Tunnel Opening, I noticed the Grass was almost ablaze with green light, as if each Blade were a light source in its own right. As we went down through the Tunnel, the brown Earth walls were covered in golden Specks. The trip was fairly long by comparison, perhaps 6 of our seconds. As we emerged, we came out onto a thick limb of a large Tree sticking out of the side of a Rock Ledge. The branch offshoots were all covered in thick, green Leaves with large White Blossoms, giving the Tree a very full and cozy feel. The Air was of delightful warmth and freshness. Crosses and I moved up to the Eagle’s Nest toward the end of a large Branch. It was large and made of Sweet Grass and Sage! We waited, and soon a large shadow crossed over us. I looked up, and Eagle was gliding over the Nest, and instead of flying down to it, Eagle hovered down, riding the Air Currents right onto the Nest. I looked down at my Eagle Charm on my lower Neck and saw that it was giving off tiny specks of golden light in all directions. At the same time, I could hear music playing gently from it. I thanked Eagle for meeting with me, but did not refer to Eagle as He or She. I told Eagle I felt neither was correct. Eagle said that I was correct, for Eagle encompassed the qualities of both male and female Eagles, combining the attributes of both so as to best serve as my Power Animal. I asked Eagle then if there was anything I should be told..this was a social call! :) Eagle said that I have been chosen specially to come back to the Path of the Shaman, and that I should honor that Calling by giving up feeding my body alcohol and other weakening agents that keep me from being my best. Eagle said the World desperately needed my Shaman Talents, Prayers and Ceremonies. Eagle then suggested I eat of the bright red Berries that were suddenly among the White Blossoms. I did so, and felt the elixir healing me. At the same time, the scene turned red, with Eagle also turning a bright glowing red with orange Eyes. I asked why this had happened, expecting a response to due with the East, whose color is red. Instead, Eagle told me that the Berries had allowed me to see that my lower two Chakras (colors Red and Orange) were still highly troubled and needed more cleansing. Then scene then returned to normal coloring, and Eagle invited me for a ride on its Shoulder. Off we went across the wide-open expanse. We went high, and were soon skirting the thin boundary between Space, whose Stars shone brilliant above me, and the Atmosphere, a blue line just at and below us with Earth farther down. This was the “betwixt and between” area spoken off in my latest book by Tom Cowan, and I heard wonderful Music emerging from this place where neither element controls. I saw several heads go by, but did not recognize anyone. Eagle said we were racing ahead in Time, and did I wish to witness my own Death in this life? I said yes, and I then saw two images go fleeting by. The first showed me as a very old Codger collapsing in a sunny garden. The other showed me dying on my job. Eagle then told me the choice of Deaths was mine, based on my future actions. We then flew back to the Nest. Eagle told me the Power Animal assignment to me was permanent and it would always be with me. Eagle then told me to give Azurite Energy to each of my Chakras upon returning. I thanked Eagle, and Crosses and I then headed back into the Tunnel to return, while Eagle’s strong wing flaps at the Entrance caused a warm and welcome breeze to accompany us. When we emerged into the back yard, it was dark. I thanked Crosses and headed back in, drumming myself back to this dimension. I then took my Azurite Stone and held it at each Chakra point for 4 Shaman’s Breaths at each location. As the Stone drew ever closer to the top of my head, I felt more and more LIKE an Eagle! I could sense a beak on my face, and wings along my arms! I then swept the Stone from Crown to Base Chakra several times. This concluded the Journey, and I blew out the Sacred Flame. No falling "asleep" here.. :)

Journey 60 - Attempt at dislodging Dark Force

6/17: A short but dedicated Journey to see if I can dislodge the Dark Force that grabbed my wife during my Shamanic Dream last year. I’m convinced that force is still hovering around her at times, and I determined to do a final Battle with it. I Rattled very deliberately and lit the Sacred Candle, then self-drummed. I had all my Guides with me for this one..Snake, Owl, Two Feathers, Gray Wolf and Sense All. We did not enter a Tunnel, but were immediately facing a huge expanse of pitch blackness ahead. As we moved slowly into it, our bodies became their Luminous Energy Fields, with all traces of normal physical viewing removed..just lines of blue Energy. I felt no fear, and was ready to move in. As I did, with my Protectors behind me, I saw a vague outline of a blacker shape ahead..a person’s profile. I felt my entire Energy field setting up a huge block against this Being, refusing absolutely to allow any penetration by it.. As I followed it further into the Darkness, I suddenly came to a scene at an old barn, and the Dark Being disappeared into a grave near the base of the right side, front wall of the barn. Not an ordinary burial place. I sensed this Being was the one who has attached itself to my wife, having been hounding me for years. I then fell asleep, not only because I was tired, but because of the huge amount of Energy it took to move through the Dark Place. Also, it was apparently not my time to do this Battle. I look forward to it, though.. After I awoke, I forgot to put out the Sacred Candle, so it burned an extra hour or so..no doubt to cleanse the area of any traces of darkness. Final Note: I can swear I’ve had a very similar experience in the past few weeks with seeing a Being go into its grave..but I’ve checked my recent Journeys and notes, and can find nothing. Perhaps its was in a Dreamlet..

Journey 59 - PA for C

6/12/04: A Journey to aid a good friend in her transition from Mom to college mom, for she is very shaken by it, and being revisited by “ghosts from the past” now that her prime purpose of 18 years is ending. I used Kay Whitaker’s Drum CD, a new purchase, setting it for a 20-minute trip. As I relaxed and concentrated on my Purpose, I found myself outside the bedroom window next to the clothesline, where a Chipmunk burrow entry is. My Lower World Guide, Crosses in Front, the Snake, appeared. He had Azurite eyes (!), and gave a pair to me, to help me see better. As I looked around in the yard with these new eyes, I saw the Green Spirit of the Trees and Grass, and briefly that of the Squirrels. Then we went down into the Tunnel. It was completely circumferenced with Trees and Grasses, with clear blue in the middle as we zoomed through it. As we exited into the Lower World, I saw a large Stone Person. I went to it and opened up a Sacred Space within which to treat our friend. Only part of her arrived..the part I was supposed to deal with..the rest was denied. Her mid-section was heavily girded by Imprints from her past. I called in a Power Animal..and it was a very aggressive Shark. I grounded my feet to Mother Earth as a precaution. He told me not to worry, as this aggression was required to deal with our friend’s Imprints. In my Cortex, I also saw a Being with two star-like eyes, followed by an animal of some sort hovering over her. These were no doubt Entities also attached to her Luminous Body. These will require even harder effort to dispel. But, at this point I fell asleep, and so was not allowed to work any further. At least, though, I had activated Shark for her. Key Shark Medicine: Sharks sink if they don’t keep swimming. Lesson for our friend: anytime she stops to wallow in her emotions (water), she also sinks. Keep moving! When I woke up, I realized I had not returned properly, and as I drove to the store, felt very otherworldly. So when I returned I took a second, self-drummed Journey to finish things off. I thanked the Stone Person, Shark and Crosses. As I went back up the Tunnel, the Trees had sparkling Crystal diamonds in them. I emerged onto a flat plain, versus my back yard. There I found my Azurite Stone. Her Spirit spoke with me and told me to be careful how I used my new Powers. She referred to me as Brother. Being with her was peaceful, serene, “blue.” Earlier in the afternoon, on my route, I’d seen a Cloud Person whose shape was very much like a Female head with a blue Face..no doubt a predictor that I was about to meet my Stone Spirit.

Journey 58 - New PA for wife

6/2/04: A Journey to find a new Power Animal for my wife..and to get me back on the Shamanic track. After smudging and lighting the Sacred Candle, I wandered out into the back yard and shape-shifted down to the size of a small insect and began walking through the blades off grass, which towered over me and were very thick and strong. It was hard to believe these solid masses of vegetation, like trees, could be crushed so easily by humans. I saw a huge (to me) Beetle go by, who asked what I thought of this ground-level world from his perspective (with a smile), and also an Ant, with its hairy legs, climbing one of those blades of grass in powerful leg thrusts, each leg sticking nicely to the blade while it barely bent under the weight..as if made of a thick rubber. I believe I did this visit in order to remind myself of my place in the existence here..every being has its Sacred Mission, including me. Bowie does his, my family do theirs, I do mine, etc. I then shape-shifted back up to normal size for a second, to find an opening. I chose the Chipmunk hole by the clothesline and down I went, and shortly after entering met Crosses in Front. We went further down the brown-sided Tunnel with Crosses in the lead, and as we progressed, the sides of the Tunnel began changing colors..solid red to solid yellow and so forth. The Tunnel went back to brown, and then we came to a grouping of rocks sticking out of the right side of the passage. I stopped at one and tried to guess what is was, as it might be a Totem for Janet. Crosses turned around and came back, smiled and said, “this is an Agate. You should get one to help your wife heal.” We then moved on and shortly emerged into a large wooded plain. The Trees were in various states of fall foliage, but the colors were much more vibrant and varied. Even the sky had several different hues, of light green, light purple and light blue. We sat down and awaited a Power Animal for my wife. I looked in the distance and saw large Tigers and Lions stalking, but to my left right near me appeared a Raccoon. She seemed very friendly and willing to help. I asked her is she would be Janet’s Healing Power Animal, and she said yes. I then saw her head over to her work office with little Raccoons in tow. I saw her’s Luminous Body at work, and saw the face of a woman hovering over it..no doubt her Guardian. I then watched as the Raccoon and her little ones disappeared into my wife’s Energy Field. Her rainbow Aura turned brighter. I saw most of the emphasis if the work was in the main torso area. I then returned to the site with Crosses, knowing my wife was in good hands. He took me for a walk along a riverbank, covered first in snow. I put my fingers into the snow and felt no cold. Suddenly the bank was covered in hot, white sand, and again I felt no sensation. Crosses reminded me that hot and cold, winter and summer, all the opposites, are here mainly as teaching tools, and not so much as objects to be coveted. He then led my upriver a bit to the most astoundingly beautiful Native village I have ever seen. The Tipis nested in the deep-green Trees were of many hues, all vibrant. Moreover, there was a feeling of Peace there that flooded me with total serenity. Crosses asked me to thank him then, for when I woke from my nap here in this glen, I would be back in my room. Raccoon Totem has dexterous and able hands, that are washed often for increased sensitivity. It lives mainly on vegetables and fruits. The main power is one of the Mask. This gives one the ability to disguise or transform ourselves into someone new. We can become whatever we want by wearing masks. I’ll have to teach my wife how to apply a metaphysical mask..

Journey 57 - Lottery Win?

6/1/04: A Journey to discover whether or not it is time for me to win the Lottery! A first for these Journeys, dealing with accumulating wealth. But that IS allowed, as long as the motives are of love. For example, Shamans of old would ask the Spirits where the Buffalo herds were, to feed the People..and back then, Buffalo WAS their wealth. So, I Rattled, Smudged and lit the Sacred Candle. As I sat on the bed thinking of my Purpose, even before the Journey really began, I saw an image of Owl arriving in which he was covered in dollar signs! I thought to myself, “very funny!” as if my purpose was being slightly mocked. But then I instantly became apologetic as I realized I may have assumed incorrectly about motive, and therefore insulted Owl by saying that. So, I allowed him to fly in so decorated, and we met on a branch on the Red Maple as I lay down and sank deeper into the Journey Drumming (self-drumming). We began to talk. Owl, still wearing dollar signs, looked at me and smiled, saying, “You know, we Spirits have a sense of humor! I’m wearing these symbols because of your wish to win the lottery. But what will you do with this money if you win it?” I told him I would pay off family mortgages, set my wife up for life, pay for the kids’ colleges, and then go to train as a Shaman with Villoldo in NY, perhaps traveling to the Andes with him. He then asked, “Do you think you are ready for this kind of wealth? Look deep into yourself and you’ll see you are still too selfish. Look at the pain you have caused recently with your complaints about time! You need further work in ridding yourself of these self-centered impulses. Would you like to Journey to do that instead of trying to win the lottery?” I answered yes, for I realized this was much more important to my Shamanic Path and therefore the security of my loved ones. Owl suddenly lost his $ symbols, and off we went into the Sky, through a Tunnel of tiny, white crystals of light swirling around us as we flew. We came out of the Tunnel to a large Tree, with a body hanging from a large branch by its hands, looking a bit like Jesus on the Cross. As we drew near, I could see it was me hanging there! “I” was sweating and scared stiff, and “I” turned to the Journeying me and pleaded for help. As Owl and I sat on this branch and looked down below, I could see what awaited my human body. Far below were fires and smoke, and vicious animals ready to eat! Owl (Eagle Claw, my Guide, of course), told me that I was now my 8th Chakra, the part of my individuality that is eternal, and keeps coming back to new lives to learn more as a Spirit. Moreover, he said I was perfectly free to release my body into the pit, and thereby free myself of my selfish urges, if I thought that best. By seeing my body this way, he went on, I could see how temporary are the events and things of my existence on Earth. “You know the expression, ‘time is money’. Remember also from your early instincts and your later training: time is an illusion. Therefore, by that logic, money is also an illusion. So it is more important to better your Spirit Self with Gifts of Love, Guidance and Healing for others.” So now I had to decided whether to let my body go. I decided instead to call in the Spirit Rain to wash my body clean of selfishness. The Rain felt so good as it fell on us and past onto my body. It became young looking again as the rain rinsed it, and the pit below transformed into a glade with grasses and trees, rising up to meet the feet of my body. I then rejoined my body, and as Owl flew along above me and then off, I found myself walking toward my house in my back yard. I thanked Owl for his wonderful intervention. I then stared at the house for a few seconds, watching it turn into a grove of woods (as it was before), and then into a smoldering pile of smoking, burned wood..its eventual fate. I tried to see if we still were the owners when this fire occurred, but it was hard to tell. It started down by the water heater, perhaps in the wall, so I will have to watch that area. I did not feel any sense of loss, and was only concerned that someone might have been in it and died. Again, I could not tell from this fleeting glance. I then came back to the room and grounded.

Journey 56 - Granddaughter's Malady

5/28/04: The second of two Journeys, this one to see if there is anything I can and/or should do to aid in one of my progeny’s speech impediment. I was instantly swept off to a Native American Village, where a young girl dressed in Deerskin clothing with jet back hair was holding my hand. I was an adult Warrior. She led me through and past the Village, out to a Sacred Tree at the edge of a forest beyond. The little Maiden was unable to speak at all, but communicated through hand gestures and smiles. She waited below while I climbed the Tree, which had many thick branches to aid in an easy ascent. As I sat on a branch about 20 feet up, I waited for a Spirit Bird to come lead me into the Tunnel. Soon one arrives, a large, gorgeous White and Gold Hawk, unlike any we have here. The Hawk landed on a branch to my right and sat, preening and cleaning. It then leaned over and peered into my eyes with one of its. It then returned to its sitting position and extended its left claw to me, which I took. We then looked up into the sky, which had many circular entry points of various colors. Hawk took me to a pink one, and in we went. After floating through the solid pink color for a while, I came to an area where there were many golden threads around me, but I was next to an area with a burned out sections, where the gold threads had singed, black ends. I realized I was inside my progeny’s brain, looking at the slight damage that was preventing her form increasing her speaking skills as quickly as we might like. I was wondering what to do to fix it, when an aside took place: I was standing on top of a porch of a large house with an overhang, looking down a large number of steps, on a cloudy late afternoon. A man was walking down the steps and went over to a clearing next to a barn. He knelt down and touched the ground. He was somber. I felt he was visiting the grave of a young daughter. He then returned to the steps, but I could not see his face as his hat blocked it while he came toward me with head bowed. I then was snapped back to my progeny’s brain-energy strands. I decided to use Shamanic Imagining to try to fix this area. I saw the area as healed, but cannot be sure if this Healing actually took place. I know I at least left the Concept there.. I then found myself looking down into a room with along table, with a female teacher talking with a single young girl. I then quickly snapped back to the room, thanking Hawk and Maiden as I drummed back. After I wrote the notes for this Journey, I realized I had never come back down the Tunnel. So, I quickly lay down and drummed back to the Pink Area, and came back out with Hawk. When I came down from the Tree, the little Maiden gave me a big hug, and then kissed me on the cheek. She then ran back to her Village, leaving me along at the base of the Sacred Tree. I’m not sure what the scene with the Man means, or of I actually caused the healing to take place, or even who the little Maiden was. But I sense, from her hug and kiss, that I had a positive effect. The scene of the teacher with a single young girl may mean that my progeny has a way to go yet before joining normal speaking society..but I think in the end she will be fine, based on how I feel at Journey’s end. But what of the scene at the grave..a past life? A future one? Since I was in her brain at the time, I assume it was one of her memories..

Journey 55 - Azurite Stone

5/28/04: First of two Journeys today, the first to find which Stone Person would be most effective for me to use in greatly enhancing my Shamanic seeing and healing abilities. I Rattled to the 7 Directions for strength and protection, smudged the room with Sweet Grass and Sage, lit the Sacred Candle, and began my Shaman Breath exercise while repeating my goal. As I lay down to self-drum, I was off into the back yard to the Red Maple. I began climbing the trunk and noticed I had turned into a Chipmunk! I climbed into a hole in the tree, and there found my Guide Owl standing over a nest with four small Owl chicks within. He asked me to feed the little ones, so I gave each a shelled sunflower seed. As I did, each turned the color of one of the Four Directions (Red, Yellow, White and Black). Owl himself became multicolored and glowing, and off we went up the Tree Trunk. The Tunnel to the Upper World was made of millions of long purple filaments of Energy. We emerged from the Tunnel into an open area covered with thousands of small Stone People. An indescribably beautiful chorus of Sound was emanating from the Stones, as if they were communicating. It sounded like a symphony of Stone! There were several larger rocks, and Owl told me to listen, for one would call to me. Soon one did, a large Tan Stone Person, calling to “Four Hawks”, just off to my left a bit and about 80 feet away. I went over and lay down on her, and fit within her curves as if she were a chair. I felt at once very much part of her, solid and permanent, and at total rest. I remember a tingling feeling extending from below my feet right up my body as I lay in bed. As we spoke, she told me her name was Mangate [research after the Journey reveals this to be an Ojibwe Tribe word meaning, “it is roomy”], and I asked her to give me the name of the Stone Person best suited for me to See and Heal with. My mind went blank for a few seconds, and then the word “Azurite” popped up. This was my special Stone Person! I then spoke with Mangate and asked what should occur if I cannot find this Stone in the Physical World. She said she would place a Spirit version of the Stone in the “brain” of my Luminous Body, next to my Visual Cortex. It is now there. I then saw several other Luminous Bodies moving toward the little Stone People on the ground. They would move into the Stone and disappear. I asked Mangate what they were doing. She told me each Stone Person was assigned to a specific Life Energy, recording each lifetime along the Sacred Path of each “person.” She told me mine was nearby, the glowing white one. She asked if I would like to visit and see some of my past lives as well as a future one. I said yes, and found myself walking over to the glowing White Stone. The Stone became quite large (I shrank?) and in I went. It was all white light within, and I saw my current body as well as the two bodies I used in the past as a Shaman. The next future life for me will be as a large, dinosaur-like bird, with a large head and wings. It will be the equivalent of our Eagle in the world in which I exist now. After that, I am to assume another humanoid form, although unlike this one. I will be a tan/flesh color, small and hunched over, with legs that are reversed from my currents ones (knees are backward). My head will be flattened, with no hair. Eyes will be large and golden. My world will have a light green sky, and the surface will have Tree-like trunks sticking out of the ground, but with no leaves. Instead, the “air” is provided by direct breathing of both the “Trees” and the Stones through holes within them. The “water” will not be liquid, but like a light jelly. It melts in ones mouth as one consumes it. I will be a Shaman in this world, also. This tells me not to expect to perfect my Walk in this Life, but I will certainly go as far as I can. I flew back through the Tunnel thanking Mangate and Owl. When we arrive back in the Tree hole, the four colored Owl-lets merged into my one Owl, whom I thanked! I shall have to go buy some Azurite, which is a common stone with a copper base. A slight chemical change turns Azurite to Malachite.

Journey 54 - Shamanic Presence Strengthening

5/26/04: A Journey to strengthen my Shamanic presence. And a most unusual one. After rattling and smudging and lighting the Sacred Candle, I put on the drumming CD and breathed Shamanically while repeating my goal. Even before I lay down, I found myself standing at a window with light oak wood all around, including the window frame and countertop. I was looking through clear glass at my Owl Guide in the thickly-leaved Tree Branches just outside the window. The window then split into several facets, projecting an equal number of owls, and then into many tiny facets, yielding many tiny Owls. I then ran down the steps of an open two-story living area, apparently in a house in Scandinavia somewhere. It seemed as if I were not me in this Journey. If I was, I was in a different life circumstance. I ran out to the base of the tree and began to climb it, going up as if I had the claws of a cat. When I got to the first main branch, there was a Muskrat sitting there, apparently warning me off from moving out onto the branch. I went up to the second branch and saw Owl. We sat, and I asked why the Muskrat was looking so challenging. Owl just smiled and said I would need him on this cleansing. Owl and I then began moving up a Tunnel in the Sky chock full of Golden Mana, like we were bathing in it. From here on out, I was basically dreaming small dream-lets, none of which I can really remember. It was as if any work being done was occurring behind the scenes. There was no direct involvement with me. I do recall coughing awake from one of the dreams, and at that time found myself at the very edge of the stream of gold, in outer space above the atmosphere. There were only small, occasional particles of gold at that time. As I went back down the Tunnel, though, I found the walls strewn with red and pink Roses. I recall thinking to myself, “a rose by any other name is still a rose.” I then returned to the room and thanked Owl and Muskrat. I went through the entire CD of 20 minutes, and this is all I can recall..about 4 minutes worth. Whatever else was done occurred behind the scenes. Muskrats live in water and have webbed feet, living in cone-shaped burrows next to rivers. They are smaller than Beaver but come from the same family. The only entrance is through the water. They eat vegetation and occasional shell-fish. Their fur is highly prized. They have litters of 6, 2-3 times a year, and have one family per burrow. Obviously, emotional issues rule this description, with the presence of water. Also very interesting is that they live in Tipi-shaped burrows. Whatever changes were made in me, the went straight to the emotional and Native American levels..

Journey 53 - Mom's Friend is Very Sick

5/21: Ceremony to help my mom’s friend, who is ridden with cancer. First, I smudged Woman in a Grass Dress with Sage. Then, I lit the Sacred Candle and placed it at the feet of the Woman, as I usually do when calling on her assistance. I then used my Amazon Rattle to open Sacred Space around her and me. I then took my Owl and Eagle Feathers and held one in each hand, to each side of Woman, facing her. I then asked her to journey to the friend and minister to her. She took me along! First, Woman called in a Cheetah to begin eating the cancer. I saw it move into the friend’s Luminous Body and begin consuming the disease. Then, Woman went to each Chakra and used her left hand to sweep counterclockwise through one after the other, removing the dark energies. When she flung the energy away from her hand, it turned into rainbow speckles! She spent extra time on the Throat and Sacral Chakras. After the cleansing, she re-spun all the Chakras clockwise. They returned to their normal color, albeit rather small in size. Cheetah continued to move through the Luminous zone, eating. Then, Woman closed the Sacred Space down into a tight cocoon over the friend, but left it there, like a Blanket of Energy. This, she said, was to keep the cleansing and the Cheetah in place. We then came back to the room. I thanked Woman and returned the Feather to the Pipe altar, and put the Candle out after thanking the Flame of Life.