Shamanism: Journeys, Works and Healings

My Bituun ceremony 2010 - Now a Master Shaman!!!!

2010-02-16T19:12:00.000-05:00

2/15/09: A spontaneous, non-ceremonial Journey taken while resting with Janet on Valentine’s Day Night. Bituun (the two-week Period when the Spirits return to the Upper World to recharge and rest) was to end at 1:35 AM this Morning, and ever since I have adopted a Portion of the Mongolian Shamanic Tradition into my Works, I have been dutifully making sure I was outside at the Time of the 2nd New Moon after the Winter Solstice (the End of Bituun) for at least the past 4 Years, if not longer. Last year I was outside in plus-2 Degrees F Cold with my Candles, Incense, etc., at 3:30 AM. But here, about 6 Hours prior to that New Moon, I decided to journey to see what might be new in my Spirit World, and see how the resting Spirit Healers and Master were doing.

So without the usual Smudging, Sage, and Drum Loop, I took a spontaneous Journey, something I have been able to do for almost as long as I have been journeying, but usually do not do, preferring the more formal Setting.

As I entered the Spirit World, I found myself as a Hawk flying upwards toward the Opening to the Upper World, my Destination. A Circle of Stars, rotating in Place, had formed and I flew right into this Opening. The Walls were made of these circling Stars as I made my Way upwards, and the Tunnel became narrower and narrower. As this was occurring, of course, the Stars got closer and closer until I was a mere Speck flying into almost pure Light. Then, I burst into the Upper World.

There, I found myself just above a Cloud Deck. There was a lot of open Sky, but quite a few Cloud Bands as well. Everything, including the Sun, was gold, the traditional Color for the Portion of the Upper World I have always visited in the Past. I felt myself getting an instant Charging, and realized that the Spirits who come here do not need two Weeks to recharge. It is only two Weeks long in our Dimension. As I hovered there, I could Sense the huge Amount of Spirit Power available and was glad to be sharing in this with my and others’ Helpers. Golden Clouds, Mists, Sun…breathtaking and so peaceful.

I then spotted a Column of pure, very bright white Light a short Distance away. It had a rounded Top, and seemed maybe four Feet high. I was told that this was the Spirit Energy of my Upper World Self. Instinct told me to go over to it, which I did. I had now assumed my human Shape, and I grabbed the Column of Light with Both Hands. Within Seconds, I absorbed the Energy and it was Gone….just a bit of Ash-like Dust on the Portion of the Clouds upon which this Column had been sitting.

I then realized I had suddenly been transformed or made more whole, as now this Energy, which had been attached to but still away from me, was now IN me. Instinct told me too look up, and I saw some of my Energy move up into the Sky above and form a Wafer-like, large Disk with a rudimentary Face on it (Eyes, Nose, Mouth but very non-descript). This Wafer, representing me, then rose up and penetrated what seemed an Energy-Barrier in the Sky. It took its Place with other such Energy-Wafers, which I knew to be those presences of what we call the Master Shaman Spirits. I was amazed that some of my Energy should reach such a high Level.

I then turned back into Hawk and flew down the Star Tunnel VERY quickly and re-entered my Body. Still in Journey-State, two final Images then appeared to me: the Face of a black Woman whose smile and closed Eyes depicted utter, total Joy. And behind her the Face of a white Woman whose smiled seemed forced, worried. I assumed these were two Aspects of myself, and the seeming-racial Aspect just a Way my Left-Brain used to demonstrate the Duality of Energy…the Yin-Yang, and a Reminder that I still live in a dualistic Dimension.

The Journey was then over. A few Hours later, after Janet and I had watched a Movie and about two Hours prior to the White Moon at 1:35A, I turned to Janet and said…”I did a Journey, and I think I just got promoted to Master Shaman. My “face” was elevated into the Realm where the other Masters are. I think I no longer need to do the outdoor Ritual…I am no longer an Apprentice.” I said this with great Humility and Awe. So we lit a Candle in our Room to leave on all Night, which is Part of the Ritual, and of Course I smudged the Room and all my Tools and Pictures.

I noticed when I awoke in the Middle of the Night that the Candle was projecting a Wafer of Light onto the Ceiling…an identical Match for the Wafer I had seen in my Journey, and a Validation thereof. I also knew that when the Masters returned at 1:35 this Morning, instead of coming down through the Skies around me, they were now coming down THROUGH ME. I was now an open Channel for them, no longer restricted by Apprentice Status.

To end, we now shift into later this Morning. A Bit of Background first. After every Bituun Ceremony, I await the Appearance of the first Raptor following. It is ordinarily a Hawk, and what the Hawk is doing at the Time I spot it tells me what Kind of Year I will have. For example, one Year my first Hawk was flap-soaring…powered flight followed by a Glide, over and over…this told me my Work would come in Spurts with rest periods in between…and that Year was exactly like that.

So today we went to the Gym and I of course was keeping a bit of an Eye on the Sky. Some Years it takes a few Days for the first Sighting. But this Morning, as I went to the Gym Windows to begin my post-workout Stretches, I decided to pause and take a Sip of Water. As I stood there looking out, I saw a Bird fly into View from over the Building, heading away from me. I could soon tell from its Wing Thrusts that my initial Guess of Seagull was wrong. The only Bird I knew of with such slow, powerful Thrusts was typically a Great Blue Heron.

But it was a weird Time of Year for a Heron. Yes, some of them are around, but one very seldom sees one, so I felt it was my Bituun Bird. A Heron is a highly spiritual Symbol and I was thrilled. But as I watched this Bird keep flying, suddenly I caught short bursts of brilliant white Light. After the second such Flash, it struck me. This was the highest of all the Spirit Birds….a Bald Eagle! That is why the Wing Thrusts looked familiar but unusual…I have only seen Eagles 5 Times prior to this. I was chilled to the Core. This was the first Time ever I had been given an Eagle for Bituun, and it came almost immediately after the New Moon!

I watched as the Eagle suddenly flew up and to the left, and darned if it did not disappear from View completely. It just vanished. As if it had entered a Hole in the Sky. An Opening… To the Upper World, no Doubt, from where it must have come! The Master had sent me a Spirit Bird from where I had been with them just Hours before! This is the most empowering and rewarding, and as I mentioned above, tingling Experiences I have had in Years. This told me that I had indeed been promoted to Master Shaman. And the Eagle flew the entire Time with no Rests, with great Power, indicating the Type of Shaman Year awaiting me.

As a final Note, please understand that Ego has no Place in any of this. I am more humbled and grateful than ever for this Advancement. I serve the Masters, and now that I am one of them we can get even more done. I have no Doubt that my Embracing of the Tao De Ching last Year played a major Role in this Promotion. Let our Work continue, better and more effective than ever before.

Shaman Four Hawks Welcomes You

2009-07-03T21:00:00.002-04:00

When the Door of Hope closes, the Door to the Shaman opens...

Welcome, my friend.

I am a practicing Shaman. If you have need of Services such as Soul Restoration, Afterlife Contacts, Spirit Health Check and/or (Self-)Healing, Resolution of a spiritual Emergency, Decision Guidance, Past-Life Revealing, etc...then email me at fourhawks01@comcast.net

In an emergency call me at 603-380-4437 (USA) or Skype me at Fourhawks01.

SITE UPDATE NOTES, AS OF 4/9/09:

I have started my new web site. You can visit http://www.shamanicnortheast.org/ and get the introductory information formerly presented here in a tighter, easier format. Eventually I will post a few Journeys there as well. My pay scale is there as well. As I mentioned before, my Helpers also wish for me to place more emphasis on being compensated for non-healing type Works from now on on a regular scale, while healing services are still on a voluntary basis.

I have several other links now that one can visit.

The first is at http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=e5SBqtkNLzo where you can see a video introduction. This link takes you away from my Blog.

You may also view my entire MySpace profile at http://www.myspace.com/153630758 and go to the video from there.

NOTE: You can see now there are groupings of Journeys under various Headings: "Healing", "Visiting the Dead", etc. I'll keep adding more to these and enter a few more categories. This will make the breadth and depth of Shamanic Practice more obvious. And now, onto the Works!!

Peace and Love,

FOUR HAWKS.

Shaman Introduction (In-depth Review)

2009-04-09T17:08:00.003-04:00

When the Door of Hope closes, the Door to the Shaman opens...

“What is, is what will be” - Four Hawks (That is, what we empower with heartfelt thought WILL manifest)

In my "career" as Shaman, I have experienced many fantastic things!

I have: visited with deceased relatives, both mine, including my Dad and Grandma, and those of many other people; found lost Objects; visited with the Spirits of peoples' deceased pets; investigated suicides, which so far have always been the result of a spirit Invasion; restored missing Soul Pieces; checked out haunted areas and even de-haunted one; seen many of the Spirit Invasions and Intrusions people suffer, and removed them; restored peoples' Power Animals (Guardian Angels); seen several tumors or threats of cancer reduced or eliminated; seen my own and others' past lives; performed healing and protection Rituals; divined the Future as well as Spirit Health; stood with and even spoken a few Words with Jesus; and the list goes on and on. It is a remarkable gift, the ability to perform Shamanic Works, and I do so with great humility and gratification. I hope you will find resonance in the paragraphs that follow, and that I might be able to help you...

WHAT IS SHAMANISM? (Shaman Intro)

"Shamans" are people through whom Healing and Sustenance flow from Helpers and Guides in the Spirit World to those who come seeking his or her Help. As you read this introduction and some of the other entries on this site, consider whether what I do could likewise bring you Healing, Understanding and Peace. You can contact me on the "View My Complete Profile" Page (the link to this page is at the bottom of the "About Me" column on the top right side of this page).

Shamanism has been practiced across every pre-Western Culture, and for thousands of Years...and is now flourishing again across our World, as traditional religious Organizations fall short in helping some people reach full Spiritual Health, and achieve their spiritual Destiny.

Despite a total lack of Connection, each Shamanic Culture came to virtually the same Conclusions, and performed similar Rituals and Ceremonies, in communicating with and honoring the Spirit World. This Spirit World, although the Basis of all Existence and therefore Life itself, is now left largely unexplored by most modern Cultures and Religions. It is hinted at by asking one to have "Faith" that it is there, but most can only hope that it is, and really have no firsthand experience of it (except for the unexplained events of selves, family and friends). A Shaman has learned to visit this World at Will, and to deal with and get help from Spirits who live there. They are always waiting to bring Answers, Help and Healing to us who are living in this Existence/Reality...just one of many, by the way. Hence, "Hope" and "Faith" are replaced with Certainty, what some Shamans, myself included, call the "Knowing."

A Shaman is a Man or Woman who has been called in one way or another to learn how to interact with the Spirit World to bring about Healing, Good Fortune, Blessing, etc. for the People or a Person. This involves first adopting a centered Existence in which all Life and Everything are honored as Sacred Extensions of the Great Spirit, as opposed to being Tools for one's own status-advance and wealth-building. One learns the Language of Nature, through which the Spirits can reach us all the time...when we listen. Then, the Shaman trains to perform the Duties required to become the "Channel" or "Hollow Bone" for the Spirit Helpers to work through. For in all Cases, it is not the Shaman who brings Healing or Correction. It is the Helpers working THROUGH the Shaman, who serves as their Intermediary, who give the Knowledge to the ill Person, whose Healing Mechanism can then be activated to achieve the all-powerful Self-Healing.

HEALING

Shamans know that in many Cases, true Healing comes from removing Spiritual Dirt, Damage or Invasion, which often later manifests as a physical, emotional or mental Ailment. Moreover and most importantly, all Healing comes from within. Most "miracle" or "spontaneous remission" cures of modern Science are the result of the Ill Person achieving a self-induced Cleansing of their Spirit Being. This is accomplished through changed Thinking and the discharge of Toxic Thoughts and Beliefs, arrived at through Activation of the Link to the Spirits, without knowing how. Shamans can cleanse People of these Spirit Illnesses, and this often leads to Healing in all other Aspects as well.

Other Illness is caused by a Person's losing a Part of their Soul, due to a traumatic Event in their Youth, Gestational Period...or even a Past Life. These Soul Parts flee to a Safe Place in the Spirit World. The Shaman goes out to find and retrieve it, and then restore it to the Person, who then re-achieves Healing and Wholeness. This restored Spirit State leads to Healing in many more instances than People can achieve by themselves.

Sometimes Illness is caused by more simple problems, such as a messed-up Chakra. At the bottom of this Intro, I discuss these a bit. Finally, of course, many Illness and Conditions are simply there as Defects in our Health and must be dealt with by Physicians...they are part of our Earth Walk. There are Illnesses that must simply run their Course as Part of the Individual's Path.

OTHER SHAMANIC SKILLS

A Shaman can: retrieve lost/forgotten/future Information (fortune telling); contact deceased Loved Ones or Friends; locate lost Objects; analyze and alter Energy States in those who have fallen ill physically, mentally, emotionally and/or spiritually; restore missing Soul Pieces; remove spiritual Intruders, etc. Again, much Illness and Unease derives from at least one Problem in a person's spiritual State, be it an Intrusion of foreign Energy or a Loss of a part of one's Soul. In Western Cultures, the predominant "seeing is believing" Mentality leaves People wide open to all sorts of unseen Spiritual Maladies that are simply not healed by physical and/or psychological Interventions. Even though the Symptoms may be eased or eliminated, the root Cause remains and the Problem often returns. Shamans, however, can see into a person's Spirit Body and ascertain what the root Cause of Illness is, and then attempt to remove it. Sometimes Shamanic Intervention is not allowed, though...more on that below.

Shamans have many Tools beyond the Journey given them by their Spirit Helpers to deal with these Beings, but always rely .. from one or more Higher Spirits that are working with the Shaman. These Helpers often appear at first in the form of totem Animals, such as Owls, Hawks, Deer, etc. Humans relate better at first to these Forms than they would the Spirit itself, and can use the Qualities of that Totem in their Shamanic work as well.

If a Shaman happens to end up alone in a bad Situation while in the Spirit World, he or she calls for Help immediately...and it always arrives. Shamans always journey with at least one Guide or "Power Animal" for such Strength and Protection. I have at least five I rely on and honor. I recently came very close to being taken from here while rescuing someone's Soul Piece. My main Helper pulled me to safety in the nick. It is WELL WORTH THE RISK, though, to restore someone to their intended personal Beauty. Some of the other Tools I use include my painted Drum, antique Mongolian "Toli" (Brass Shaman "Mirrors"); ancient Moqui Stones; Peruvian Chumpi Stones; clear Quartz and other Crystals; Feathers; Tarot Cards; Mongolian Divination Coins; and Smudge (Sage, Juniper, Sweet Grass, Palo Santo).

Shamans can move through Time and Space instantaneously, going into the Future or Past, and change (shape-shift) into other types of Beings, such as Birds. In fact, in the Center of Existence where Shamans go to at the Journey's Beginning, all of Time and Space, from all Realities and Universes, meet at that one Point, known in Physics as a "Singularity" and in Mongolian Shamanism the "Gol". From there, the Shaman can go anywhere in Space or Time, again nearly instantly. Fire from a Candle is usually the main physical Representation of the Gol, and so we always have one lit while working.

THE SHAMANIC JOURNEY

One of many Tools, the Shaman's Journey involves honoring the Helper Spirits and then using, in many cases, a steady Drumbeat to reach the brain-wave Level (Alpha, Theta) where the Spirit of the Shaman can leave his or her Body and venture out into one or more of the three Spirit Worlds (Upper, Middle and Lower) for Guidance. Most People pass through this Brain-wave State on their way to and from Sleep, and so many Spirit Appearances occur at this these Times. Shamans have learned to stay at this intermediate Level for Minutes, indeed Hours on end. Dancing and Drumming together are also employed.

Many Journey Results come in metaphor Form, and are therefore best interpreted by the Shaman working with the One being helped. Keep in mind, though, that EVERY Image produced has been designed for the Seeker, not the Shaman. Sometimes the Events are not shown as they happened exactly...or even close, but the underlying Wounding that resulted IS real. The Reason for the Inaccuracy is that People tend to try to block out and disown the Memories of such Events. However, when the Shaman investigates, the Wounding Energy presents itself in a different but still interpretable Form. So even though key Events from earlier in Life may come in a bit hazy, they are accurate in Essence. I have never received erroneous Info from the Helpers. It is up to the Helped One to try to decipher the true Meaning of the Information, but the Shaman is there to help with a lot of the Imagery not readily understood in our Culture.

THE THREE WORLDS

The Upper World is the Place of Guidance/Future and many high Shaman Spirit Ancestors who know much and also us, and houses the Upper World Soul (genealogical in nature...links to blood ancestry) called the Ami (pronounced "em") in Mongolian-based Shamanism. We have a link to our Eternal Soul Essence which resides in this World through our uppermost Chakra. This Essence reincarnates over and over as we progress spiritually. Our Spirit Parents reside in this World. I have seen in my Journeys there that other Universes are linked together here as well.

The Middle World is where we live now, and our Soul Piece here is called the Suld ("soold"). It remains here after Death to help Those left behind, and eventually merges into Nature as a Helper Spirit. There are many such Spirits here (sometimes referred to as 'ghosts"). There are also many Shaman Helper Spirits here as well. Unbeknownst to most Westerners, Animals, Trees, Rivers, Mountains and Stones also have their own Spirit Essences that have much to offer. Our World is FILLED with Spirits, helpful and otherwise, and yet how few of us accept this as Reality...and pay the Price. Some have witnessed that the "Spirit" Middle World runs parallel to ours, with quite a few Variations at play. This would explain Dreams we have in which things seem almost right, but then have weird Morphings ongoing.

The Lower World is the Place of Empowerment/the Past and houses the Soul Part known as the Suns ("soons"), which carries past-life Information. This World also houses Peoples' "Power Animals", actual Spirit Beings who take the form of an Animal to bring to you the Strengths and Abilities of that particular Animal, that you may be weak or lacking in. Everyone receives a Power Animal at Birth, but in Western Cultures most People lose them...because they don't even know they are there. Shamans journey to retrieve Peoples' lost Power Animals and restore these needed Strengths to People.

All three Worlds are beautiful and lush..I have seen is no Evidence of the Fire/Torture-driven Hell promulgated by some Western Religions in my Journeys. The Upper and Lower World Souls reincarnate, the Middle World Soul does not. Most Middle World Souls help those they have left behind and after several Generations become a more broad-based Spirit. Upper and Lower World Spirits usually return to their respective Worlds and await their Reincarnation. The "worst" Souls, who have gone totally "negative", are usually not allowed to reincarnate, as they are too disturbing to the Sacred Balance. Yet we have to accept that even these Being are manifestations of the same Great Spirit who has manifested as everything and everyone else. I have made quite a few Visits to Middle World Souls on behalf of Clients who wish to know how their deceased Loved Ones are doing.

Trouble occurs when Middle World Souls from people who have died, or Lower World Souls that come back up here illegitimately (or refuse to "go home" is the first place), attach themselves outright to "our World.". These Spirit Invasions can occur when either the after-Death Middle Soul or Lower World Soul latch onto a Person or Place where it does not belong. The Invasions can be by either Relations Souls, or total Stranger Souls.

Troubles can also arise if People offend Spirits living in their Area with actions that dishonor Nature. During a Journey, the Shaman sees these Souls and tries to right their Path. There are also those Dark Entities that must be dealt with, some quite dangerous. The worst of all Dark Spirit Beings are usually "dissolved" prior to becoming Threats again, as I mentioned just above.

ASTRAL PLANE

There is also an "Astral Plane", where raging, confused and temporarily dangerous Earth Souls go to cool off, or await eventual Extraction and Healing by a Shaman...an in-between Place wrought with Danger. I try not to go there unless absolutely necessary. This is probably close to the Concept of "Purgatory" in Christian Thinking. It is not a Place Earth Souls want to be, and I have retrieved at least one suicide-Soul from there.

GOOD VERSUS BAD

In manifesting itself, the Great Spirit has taken Forms that run the Gamut from Light to Dark, "Good" to "Bad", "Positive" to "Negative"...in an effort to achieve Sacred Balance (also called Yin/Yang) while experiencing All That Can Be, and allow us to attempt to do likewise. So, there is Plenty of what I call "Dark Being Energy" out there that can cause Illness. This Energy is often able to be transmuted so that the effected Person can return to living with normal, manageable and balanced Amounts of "good and bad". This Balance is the key to a successful Life. No-one is perfect, but striving to cancel a debilitating "Darkness" with the empowering "Light", and then add a bit more Light, is the Goal. The Shaman is skilled at transmuting this Dark Energy...that is, removing it and returning it to the Spirit World for conversion to Good Energy.

“IMPRINTS”

Events in this or a prior Life that were very emotionally challenging can also "imprint" into one's Spirit body and become a source of Illness. Villoldo (see the book section at the bottom) goes into this with great detail. Our Energy Bodies (the Aura) easily absorb Energies from any Source, so if one is unaware of an Intrusion of negative Energy, one can liken this Imprint to rubbing your Eyes after touching a Germ-infested Doorknob...the Illness manifests in Secret. These Events can also cause partial Soul Loss, and the Shaman journeys to bring this Piece back to the effected Person. These are closely related to Chakra problems, discussed below.

SACRED PATH

Another Key Concept: Sacred Path. Because we are comprised of Soul Parts that reunite for subsequent Lives, we each come here with a Spiritual Plan. This Plan may involve a wonderful Life..or a Life filled with Suffering and early Death. The Goal is to be a stronger Spirit when leaving than when we arrived. However, we forget this Plan at Birth and spend the rest of our Lives either trying to remember...or not. Many never do, and live with an Incompleteness that can be added to by Spirit Illnesses, either inherited or obtained while in this Life. Even if we hear that Inner Voice calling us to the Truth about ourselves, we can be dazzled by the Culture we live in and go after its Rewards instead. We still have Choice in Life, and the Series of Choices we make helps determine whether we approach, find or move away from the Plan.

Therefore, in most Cases, Shamans do not Journey for People unless the Shaman is asked...we do not want to interfere with the Sacred Path of the Individual until they themselves recognize something is amiss. I have, however, been allowed to journey for some Folks out of Love, and been given valuable Information to try to heal them with. However, since the Person does not know of this Help, they do not "own" and incorporate it, and the Effects of the Journey may therefore be considerable watered down...again, it depends of whether or not the Person's Sacred Path included a behind-the-scenes Intervention by a Shaman or not.

Finally, a Shaman does not share by-name Information with others unless the Person being helped allows it. I learned this Sacred Path Concept most strongly in my Study of Cherokee Spirituality, who try to maintain it as a major societal dictum. Of all the Shamanic Concepts I have learned, this one flies most strongly in the Face of Western Culture, where interfering with another for their own Good ("we know better"), without their Permission, is almost the number one social Tenet. It is nearly impossible to live in the West and follow this Precept to the Letter, for everyone else around the Situation will demand to know why you did not intervene when you had the Chance, and then excoriate you for failing to do so.

Bottom line: Unless it is your Sacred Path to live with a certain Illness or Situation, a Shaman can fix it IF YOU are willing to be helped: Remember, all Healing comes from Within. The Shaman merely serves as the "go-between" for the Spirits with the Help, and you, the one who puts that help into practice.

THE POWER OF THOUGHT

It's worth mentioning again here how important Thoughts are. Many believe the Great Spirit has thought, and continues to think, the entire Universe, us included, into Being. This Insight is most prevalent among Incan Shamans, but it now being advanced by some of the World's most enlightened Physicists as well. One's own Thoughts likewise have creative Power. Whatever you think, you are right. Thoughts, tied to strong Emotion and/or Belief, become actual Creations if left to "percolate" long enough. Some Shamans, Jesus included, were and are able to produce objects seemingly out of thin Air, or to change one object to something else. When a Shaman takes on a different Appearance, using this same Power, it is called "Shape-shifting." If your Thoughts are based in Limitation, Restriction, Cultural Pressures, Others' Beliefs about you...then you are creating a Life for yourself that does not express who you truly are...a Recipe for Unhappiness and even Illness.

Incan Shamans have known for Millennia that one can literally "dream one's World into Being" with enough power of Intent. Even Western Culture is full of many successful people who have done just that. You can manifest all Sorts of Success and Healing, or Failure and Illness, into your Life with your Thinking. Programs such as “The Secret” tap into and explain in modern Terms this Ability. But it is as old as Humanity. Jesus often reminded us that if we believe without Doubt, we we pray for WILL happen.

This is why the Knowing is so crucial. What you think about the People, Places and Events of your Life has a profound Influence on how those Things effect you. I always used to tell my Children that nothing anyone says to you can hurt you unless you let it. Accepting all Things and Events as Teachers, as opposed to Aggravants or "Bad Luck", is the key. Knowing of the true Nature of All helps you think in Ways that strengthen your Spirit Being and bring Beauty to others through your Thoughts. I recently worked with a Woman who was being pursued by a Dark Spirit, thought into being by herself in a prior Life!

OTHER DIMENSIONS

In my Work, I have become convinced in the Existence of numerous other Dimensions that intersect and overlay ours. I have seen with my own Eyes the opening of a portal from one of these, and witnessed a Being attempting entry into our Realm. Physicists now generally support “String Theory” as the unifying Law to explain all of the Movements and Behaviors at the sub-atomic Level that defy Einsteinian Laws. They suggest at least 11 such Dimensions co-existing with ours. I have seen in Journeys the attempts by Beings from other Dimensions to come into ours, sometimes successfully. The “Shadow People” seen by many are such Beings. It is highly likely some of the other Visitors seen here, such as “Reptilians”, are likewise popping in and out of our World, through these Portals which are really Rips in the Time/Matter/Energy Fabric. I have seen a “shadow” Sun in the Vicinity our our own, one that exists in a Dimension very close to ours...and therefore has an Effect on us even though we cannot see it.

Another very important Aspect of other-Dimensionality is the Ability of Energy to go from one Dimension to another, and therefore to make it seem as if Energy in coming out of nowhere. In Truth, it has recently been demonstrated that once Spirit has manifested into Energy/Matter, it begins to rotate. As separate Strands of Energy/Matter rotate against each other, they create a new Vibration that is involved in the actual Creation process. We are all, and all around us, simply made of energy Vibrations. The Solidity of our World is an Illusion, a Construct to make housing our Consciousness and Souls easier. The ability to influence these Vibratory States with our Thoughts is the Basis of our Ability to heal and create, and mimics exactly the huge-Scale process the Great Spirit uses. Hence, we are not really “of God” as much as we “are God”, in small part of course...for we were “created in God's Image”, so if “God” can bring matter and energy into Existence and change it with Intention and Love...SO CAN WE!

OUR PERCEPTIONS

Another vital Understanding all People need and are deliberately kept from through modern religious, social and commercial Institutions that have a vested interest in “dumbing us down”: We each perceive our World based on our own Beliefs, Training and Experiences. Our Brains COMPLETELY filter out a lot of conflicting Information that defies these locked in Patterns. If you do not believe something is possible, you won't experience it even if it happens right in front of you. You will “look” right through it! You won't feel it, you won't hear it. This has been amply demonstrated through hypnosis Experiments, where Subjects who are “under” can see right through People to read Signs behind them. This is more commonly experienced in day to day Living when Witnesses to an Event all have slightly different Versions, and all are convinced theirs is the right One. And they are correct...they all saw the Event through their individual Filters.

This locking-out Power of the Brain is extremely dangerous when it leads to such Close-mindedness that People are willing to claim such Nonsense as “God is on our Side”, and “That's impossible...that could never happen!”, and “We are basically powerless in this Situation.” How many “impossible” Things have happened since recorded History began. It also prevents One from seeing the other Dimensions, Beings, etc., that move through our daily Existence. We make some terrible Decisions when we don't have the Big Picture. Mass Consciousness has tremendous Power to effect Changes in the World, both in Terms of Matter and Energy. This is why even today many South American Shamans get together to try to “dream” a better, safer, more balanced World Population into Existence. But they are coming up against literally Billions of closed-off, severely-limited, deliberately dis-empowered Minds.

This is why, at the Top of this Work, I say “What is, is what will be”, for we constantly create our Worlds of the next few Minutes, Hours, Days, etc., with what we are thinking NOW. The Mind is meant to be a Tool of the Spirit, but we have allowed it to become the Master.

Shamans attempt therefore to be as open-minded as possible, and to allow for ANYTHING to be possible. This allow us to see more clearly some of the astonishing Forces at Work in our Clients' Lives.

CONSCIOUSNESS/AWARENESS

One of the first Concepts to “grab” me when I first learned about First People Spirituality was their Belief that Spirit inhabits all Things. More importantly, they also believed that EVERY thing, be it Animal, Plant, Mineral, Water...had Awareness. I understood this as a basic Tenet, but it would take me quite a few Years to truly grasp it. I have discovered through an Insight provided by our Earth Mother that Consciousness/Awareness is a BY-PRODUCT of Energy/Matter. This is an all-powerful Concept worth repeating in slightly different Form here: Everything in existence, from Light Beam to Piece of Dust to single-celled Bacteria, have a Conscious Awareness. And all of this is tied together into what has been referred to in the Past as the “Collective” or “Universal” Consciousness. This is another way we are all connected, and have the Power to greatly influence each other and everything Else with our Thinking.

I was further enlightened in this Matter by our Mother. It is the unique Combination of Materials of the human Body that allow us to be so high up in the Consciousness Scale. We “house” much greater Awareness than other physical Forms. We truly are in the Image of the Creator, for we have a level of Awareness that gives us the Power to create, analyze, plan. This is an extraordinary Gift, and one that has been, for the most Part, squandered in recent Centuries by the blind and dumb Chase for material Wealth and political/economic Power in the Hands of the very few. We could easily, and for many Thousands of Years DID, use our collective Consciousness to ensure the relatively peaceful and joyful Existence of most People. This is not to say that Dark Energies and Spirits did not plague our Ancestors as well, causing Imbalance. But our modern Cultures are so “out of synch” with the Balance of the Creator that we now invite our own Demise. Many believe, however, that in the next few Years the Alignment of the Solar System with the plane of the Galactic Center will cause a massive Consciousness Shift in Humanity away from Materialism, and into a more enlightened, higher vibrational State, closer to the Spirit State achieved by Shamans in Journey and Ritual. This has been encased in an astrological Conception as the Dawning of the Age of Aquarius, for example.

It is now also believed in many Circles that Water has a special Capacity to hold and transmit Consciousness...and since we are up to 90% Water, it is no Wonder we are SO conscious. Moreover, Water transmits its “knowledge” instantly across Space, much as Thought moves instantly...so once we learn to use Water effectively as a “communications” medium, we will be able to speak with people on the other side of the world, or even with Beings in other Galaxies, in real time. This is much the same as Telepathy. Water is so vital to virtually all Aspects of Life that it is tantamount to a Dark Wish that we pollute it so. Hopefully the remarkable Abilities of Water will become widely known among the general Populations, which will hopefully force Changes.

SPIRITS AS ANIMALS, CLOUDS, ETC.

Spirits come to us many times as Animals, for this is a form in which they can talk to us from a physical perspective. The sudden and often startling visit of a Hawk, Owl or Eagle; or even a Blue Jay or Cardinal...a Woodchuck...as you make a critical decision, or even as you drive, can tell you what is coming and what powers you need most. Birds, Four-leggeds, even Cloud Shapes, all can bring you these key messages at precise times. One just has to be open-eyed and ready to read them. :) A key teaching: A Bird flying left to right is positive, right to left a warning. As we saw in the Discussion of Water above, Clouds most certainly can take shapes to send us messages, using their own Awareness and their link to our own Water Bodies. Ted Andrews' works go into great detail about the Powers and Characteristics each Animal brings. Anyone hoping to understand the Language of the Spirits in terms of Animals and Birds should certainly get copies of his works, or others like it. See my "A Great New Year Coming" entry in this Blog for examples of recent key visits to me...

CHAKRAS

No discussion of Spirit can be complete without mentioning these 9 key Energy Whirlpools embedded in our Auras and connected to our Spines. When one or more of these Vorticies are dirtied, blocked, out of synch, we find manifestations of these Imbalances across the Spectra of Human Life. These range from physical Illness to mental, emotional to spiritual. These can actually be seen using the naked Eyes, and Tom Andrew's has a wonderful little Book out (on Amazon, B&N, etc) on how to do just that. I have used this Book and been able to read the Energy Fields around myself and many others as a result. The first time you see this Energy Field in person, your Mind WILL boggle... There are many ways to clear a damaged Chakra. Alberto Villoldo discusses Methods, as do some of the other Authors listed below. But I have a found a wonderful Website that puts it all right there for you. Visit http://www.neatstuff.net/avalon/texts/know-how.htmlstudy and read away. This site focuses on using Crystals, which I use in my Practice as well. If you do not have a precious-Stone store near you, apparently one can order these from this Site as well.

RATES

Many Shamans do not charge for their healing services, but do humbly accept Tokens of Appreciation in any form...whatever the Helped One thinks the services are worth to them. This compensation is to only given to honor the Work of the Spirits, and NOT the Shaman him- or herself. The Spirits are more insistent that non-healing Works, such as Visits to the Deceased, retrieving Power Animals, Investigating Past Lifes, checking for Hauntings, etc. be compensated. My current assessment is that this work can be valued at up to $100 an hour...most such works take about that much time. If you cannot afford that or find it unreasonable, or wish to send Gifts of a different Nature, that is fine. I WILL NEVER REFUSE TO SERVE ANYONE BASED ON INABILITY OR RELUCTANCE TO OFFER A GIFT. The important Principle here is to honor the Help given by the Spirits with a Gift to the Shaman, and this Gift should come from the Heart in Gratitude. Equally important is the Fact that being a Shaman is not a Job...it is a Calling. If you need me, no matter what, I will be here for you.

Also, please read the very first two entries (Jan 8, 2001 and October 19, 2001) before delving into the Journeys themselves..these demonstrate in great detail why I am on this Sacred Path.

Key Knowledge and Training Sources:

My over 700 Journeys to the Spirit World; The Many Protector, Helper and Teacher Spirits I've met there; 7-plus years of Experience; and these Readings, with an "*" indicating essential readings:

- Hillary Webb's "Exploring Shamanism"*

- Tom Cowan's "Shamanism as a Spiritual Practice for Daily Life"*
- Eliot Cowan's "Plant Spirit Medicine"*

- Sarangerel's "Chosen by the Spirits" and "Riding Windhorses" *
- Alberto Villoldo's "Shaman, Healer, Sage", "Mending the Past and Healing the Future with Soul Retrieval" and "The Four Insights" *
- Kenneth Meadows' "Shamanic Experience: A Practical Guide to Psychic Powers" and "Where Eagles Fly" *
- Joan Parisi Wilcox's "Masters of the Living Energy"*

- Heaven/Charing's "Plant Spirit Shamanism"*

- Mary Dean Atwood's "Spirit Healing (version with Indian Story, now out of print, or the new version)"
- Jamie Sams' "Medicine Cards" and "Sacred Path Cards"
- Sandra Ingerman's "Soul Retrieval"
- Michael Harner's "The Way of the Shaman"
- John Perkins' works on Shamanism
- Ted Andrews' "Animal Speak", "Animal-Wise", "Nature Speak", and "How to Read the Aura" *
- Piers Vitebsky's "The Shaman"
- Stevens and Stevens' "Secrets of Shamanism"
Plus about 50 other works...

MySpace Blogs

2009-04-01T17:31:00.001-04:00

Hi, folks. I have published some very in-depth blogs on my MySpace Page, but not everyone is linked to MySpace, so I am going to republish them here for you...in order of presentation there.

BLOG: The Wonders of Water

On a recent Coast to Coast AM Show, Dr. David Sereda spent several Hours explaining the latest hi-tech Research into the Properties of Water. Most of you will not have heard a Thing about this Research or its Results, since it challenges the Western View of Life in which Mankind is the only living Entity truly worth exalting...the rest being here for our enjoyment and exploitation.

Here is a brief Summary of what has been demonstrated. Water changes its crystalline structure based on the Types of Frequencies it comes in contact with. It has been shown that harmonic Music, for example, changes the crystal Architecture into one of similar, ordered Beauty, while discordant Music does the opposite. It has been shown that the “Song” of the Sun, inaudible to our Ears but nonetheless captured and transcribed for our Ears by NASA, changes water into its most gorgeous crystal State: a snow-flake looking hexagon with precise 12- and 24- based lattice Work. Further, it has been conclusively shown that Water reacts instantly to Events that are great Distances away. For example, Bacteria floating in Water react to Solar Flares the Instant the latter occur, with that Information jumping across the 93 million Miles immediately. It has likewise been shown that the Human Brain can send signals across half the World instantly as well. All of this is tied to the Ability of Water to record and transmit information outside the time/space restrictions of Einsteinian Physics. It seems very likely now, and I have had this confirmed by my Helpers, that not only Water but all of Matter and Energy has, retains and can carry/transmit Consciousness. It is just that Water is really the best Vehicle due to its unique Structure (the H-O-H Bond that causes it to become lighter when frozen, or denser, for example). It is very likely that the high State of human Consciousness is due in large Part to our high Concentration of Water in our Bodies.

It has been known for Decades that thinking good Thoughts toward a Plant will help it expand and grow, while thinking bad Thoughts to another Plant, all others things being equal, will cause it to die. This is because the Water in the Plants takes on the appropriate crystalline Structure corresponding to the Emotions involved, and actually become an Elixir in one case and a Poison on the other. Since the human Body is 75-90 percent Water, we likewise are subject to this same Effect...hence, living in a toxic emotional Environment often leads to Illness and Depression, if the Individual is not enlightened enough to be able to dismiss it. Some people have had great Success, for example, drinking Water treated by the Song of the Sun, as this water immediately transfers its Beauty to the Water in the Body. This same Effect can be seen in the Workings of Sacred Fountains, Streams, and even Holy Water, according to Dr. Sereda.

What all this is leading to is my own Experience with Water. I have had two very dramatic Results tied to the use of Water as the transmitting mechanism for effective prayer, that is to say, intended thought. It is well known that Thought tied to Emotion, that is, the “heart-felt Prayer” can be extremely effective if powerful enough. I have discovered quite by accident in my own experience that praying while IN water, in my case, in the shower, multiplies the effect of the prayer even more. Here are two examples:

Example 1. Early in my Career, I was tasked in a Journey to “fly” over to a Client for two weeks, once a day, and place a single Leaf of Sage in a headband around her Head (all of this spiritually-based), to finish a Healing I had performed for her. Since I was crunched for Time, I developed the Habit of taking a few Moments while in my morning shower to perform this Action. This time is when we are often at our most relaxed. My client wrote about a week into this Regime to tell me she had awoken to find a huge Hawk staring her right in the Eyes. She insists she was wide awake and the Hawk was real. She asked if I had anything to do with it, and I of course explained in Amazement at the Time that she had actually seen me performing the Ritual ordered up by my Helpers.

I didn't really make the Connection to Water until just recently, late last Year, almost 6 Years later.

Example 2. My Wife had been suffering with severe TMJ for months, and had seen Specialists and Dentists to the Tune of Thousands of Dollars, and no matter what was done, it seemed to just be getting worse. So one Morning, in that “what have we got to lose mode” we humans often get into when our greatest Discoveries are hatching, I decided, while in the Shower, to pray and work a huge amount of healing Spirit Energy into the Jaw Joint that was worst. I got the Surprise of my Life later that Day when my Wife told me that her Jaw had suddenly, and without Cause, simply “snapped back into Place”, and was feeling and behaving near normally, in Terms of Lack of Pain and Mobility. Once again in excited Amazement, I told her what I had done that morning. And then I recalled the Incident related above, and then in about the same Time heard the Show on Water with Dr. Sereda, and had my “Ah-ha!” Moment. It all came together, and I realized I had stumbled upon, for me at least, this great Healing Technique...send the healing Energy while wet!

Since then I have not had occasion to use this for anything as dramatic, but I now regularly send out prayers for specific People while in the Shower, knowing the Power of Water to absorb and transmit conscious Intent will greatly strengthen my Work.

BLOG: The Fear of Death

Of all of the Emotions that
run through a Human Being's Existence, the Baseline of them All is
the Fear of Death. This Fear is generated by and in the Ego-Mind,
for this portion of our mental Existence knows from the Start that it
has a finite Existence. This Knowing is encoded in the Ego's very
Creation, and is inescapable, no Matter how much any one Person tries
to bury it. This is why Shamans in Training MUST go through several
Versions of their coming physical Demise, either in Rituals such as a
Vision Quest, or through Journeying into the Spirit World, in order
to completely overcome that Fear. For at the Spirit Level of
Existence, where the eternal You is, there is the reverse
Knowing....that we are all eternal Beings that live from Lifetime to
Lifetime, and never lose our Spiritual Self. The “Shaman's Death”
Training is designed to put one in touch with this Knowing, for it is
only when a Shaman has no Fear of Death that he or she can then
fight for Others when they are facing horrific Darkness or even Death
themselves.

The Fear, as I shall now
refer to it, causes all Sorts of Distortions in Human Thinking and
Behavior. Because it is rooted in the Ego Mind, which is constantly
trying to remain in Control and overpower all in its Sights, this
Fear often translates into Action that result in the brutalizing of a
single Person, all the Way up to the actual Deaths of Millions of
People, either through deliberate Starvation, War, Chemical
Poisoning, etc. In “modern” or “western” Cultures in
particular, where Spirituality has been diminished to near
non-Existence and replaced with a corporate, Money-based Religiosity,
the Ego-Mind runs rampant and is encouraged through lifelong Exposure
to Media and Schooling to continue to do so. People see Life as a
One-off, the “only time around”, the “one life to live.”
This immediately forces People into one of two Modes, or a Blending
thereof: A Hell-bent desire to dominate all and accumulate
everything, or a passive Submission to Life and an Embrace of
“inevitable” Failure. Neither of these Positions is good for the
Individual or the Society, and yet they rule today.

In Shamanic Teaching and
Work, the eternal Spirit is constantly underpinning Decisions and
Actions. Shamans try to bring it to the Fore, in Fact, as much as
possible. It is very hard in our Culture to abandon the Ego-Mind
totally, for one is quickly judged an Idiot or worse by those who
currently are trapped in their Egos exclusively. But by referring
all Matters to Spirit while also trying to keep Ego Impulses in
check, the Shaman walks the Line between Life (the Eternal You) and
Death (the Ego-You). This is why it is vital that Humanity undergo a
dramatic Shift away from the Ego State and into a re-Recognition of
Spirit as the Basis of all Existence, if we are to escape the Cycle
of ever-increasing War and Weaponry, Jealousy and Hate, Crime and
Loneliness.

Obviously, no one Shaman, or
anyone else who works in the Spirit Realms, can change the entire
World. We can only bring the Truth to one or two people at a Time,
and only as they allow. To me, the Shamanic Journey is the most
effective Way of accessing the Spirit World, so one can see for
oneself what it is really all about. Then, once you have met some of
your Spirit Guides and verified that what you are experiencing in the
Journey is the Truth, you are transformed. The Writings of the major
Spiritual Figures of the Past, such as Jesus, Buddha, etc., take on
powerful new Meanings, and one can see how they have been
subsequently bastardized into somehow supporting a business Model of
great Wealth and Power, when these Figures were absolutely against
such Things, and actually trying to free People FROM them.

One can see, once one is
firmly tied to Spirit, how Dark Energies manifest as Illnesses....how
Thinking tied to Emotion drives Creation daily and since the Universe
was formed...how Consciousness ultimately derives out of Spirit and
therefore exists in EVERYthing...and how ANYthing is possible in the
Realm of Matter, Energy and Time (as these are Illusions, Creations
of Spirit for our Benefit), including parallel Universes and Beings
from other Dimensions.

So it is Vital that each and
every Person, however they can, dig way down to their Core and
recognize their Eternal Selves, and also understand that the Mind is
a blessed Tool to be used for spiritual Furtherance, not for
Dominance of People, Places and Time. Look to Nature for this
Lesson...is all there is Balance, and whenever Anything takes a
dominant Role, Something else eventually comes along to knock it
back. The Death of the physical Body is meaningless in the Spirit
Realm, other than it is a Return to where you began, carrying a new
Set of Lessons either learned or unlearned. I have witnessed my own
Death a Number of Times, as well as having come close to actually
dying in my Work for Others. I have been to the Spirit Realm where
we exists simply as Awareness, and seen that we do indeed retain an
Individuality even amidst the Oneness of Eternity of Spirit. This
spiritual Individuality, and not the Ego-based one we use in this
Life, is the ONLY one that should matter to us. How sad and
dangerous for all Life on Earth that so few People know this.

BLOG: A Paranormal Opening to the New Year

This is one for the books. It was around 7:30 PM on 1/3/09, the Saturday evening of the New Year's four-day weekend. Hardly an evening for any sort of roadwork to be occurring on a small side street in a small town. I had gone out to move my wife's car off the street. She had parked it there earlier since our driveway was blocked when she got home. We are not allowed to street park overnight in the winter. I had just gotten to the car, which was facing east and uphill, further up our street, when I noticed the power lines over the little crest of the road and beyond were lighting up, as if a car was coming. But the tint of the light was strange. Not the usual yellow light of a headlamp, but the kind one would expect from the newer halogens with the bluish tinting. I also thought, "Krieg lights?"

But something was odd here as well. The light was not steady. It was flickering. I began to think someone was welding something over the ridge, as the flickering was quite variable and attention-getting. If you have ever seen the light sprays of an active welding, you would know what I mean: the extreme and very quick variations in intensity. But then the light steadied, and got much brighter. So bright the entire area from the crest upward was saturated with this blue-white light. The wires above were shining brightly, like strings of light. I thought, "Ah, it must be a vehicle after all..." But then rationality was challenged yet again by the fact that there was SO much light it had to be one hell of a vehicle! Or was it perhaps three or four?! "What would cause THAT much light?" I asked myself.

Then, emerging from the center of the road, with all this bright light behind it, was a vertically-oriented, black and thinly-outlined rectangle. It was moving slowly vertically, as if something were heading toward me. The shape reminded me of a backhoe cab... As the rectangle rose higher, I spotted within it the silhouette of a single human, looking exactly like a gun target silhouette...all black, no obvious clothes or hat...just head and shoulders and torso, arms by the sides. Just as I was about to convince myself that it was indeed some sort of work vehicle with amazing lights, this rectangle reversed direction INSTANTLY and went back down into the ground at the same speed as it has risen. The lack of a pause was really strange, as it was as if the reversal had happened without a gear shift. If this were indeed a vehicle, it had made it part of the way up this very shallow sloped hill and then sputtered out and gone back down.

The rectangle was gone, and within a few seconds, the extremely bright light flickered twice and all was dark. There had been no noise at all the whole time, on a very cold and still crispy night...when sounds travel easily. I stared a few seconds, a bit dumbfounded and a bit uneasy...as what I had seen was singular. I had never witnessed anything like it. While all the individual elements were things I had seen, never had this much light and such a strange presentation behaving so strangely appeared to me. This combination was unique. I finally pulled the car in, after first debating whether or not to go up and see what the heck that really WAS. But I was actually intimidated by its weirdness to the point where I felt I might be intruding on something I should not be...my humanity took over and I was somewhat skittish about going up into that area. I now of course wish I had.

I write this on the 6^th, 3 days later. As time has passed since this event, and I have had more time to reflect on it, it seems more and more unearthly to me. Nothing about it was really normal. The light was strange, as were the lack of noise, the rectangle with the sole silhouette riding and falling like some sort of arcade figure...and the sudden ending. I believe I either witnessed a Spirit appearing to send me a message, which is very possible, or I was seeing a trans-dimensional energy intrusion... Since my shamanically sensitive senses and beliefs are so far broken out now from typical western training, beliefs, and interpretive blockages, I am much more open to this sort of event. It would not surprise me that I was the only one who might have seen this. I shall journey at some point to discover just what this was...a very different earthly construction interlude? Or a visit from elsewhere, deliberately done to get my attention....and how!

1/21 UPDATE: I was listening to Coast to Coast AM today to an interview with one David Wilcock, who has unearthed some very interesting data concerning the Philadelphia Experiment of mid 20th century. One can read the full discussion at his site at http://www.divinecosmos.com/index.php?option=com_content&task=view&id=337&Itemid=30 In a nutshell, though, the Navy discovered in the middle of the last century that high-intensity arc-welding was causing worm-holes into other dimensions to open and close...and tools were disappearing from the rooms where this welding was occurring! These disappearances were caught on high-speed film. What was so striking to me today is that this is exactly how I categorized the beginning of my event is this blog: as a high-intesity flickering characteristic of arc-welding! This adds MUCH more weight to my assertion that what I saw that night was indeed a trans-dimsensional portal opening...the same kind of energies that caused tools to disappear decades ago caused this rectangular shape with the human form with to appear to me. Of this I now have no doubt. Moreover, having witnessed this event, I can also verify that without doubt the accounts on the web site given above are no doubt true. So much has been hidden from us...

BLOG: Is this ex-Catholic anti-Catholic?

NOTE: If you are comfortable in your organized religious Faith and Services, I would kindly suggest you avoid reading this particular blog. I am not out to weaken anyone's Faith or anger them. What follows is my own Take on Religion, and it's really only designed for those who are seeking more, who are discontent with their current religious practice.

Am I, a former Catholic, anti-Catholic now? I guess this depends on how I view it. Until a recent Chat with a Client and also dear Friend, I would have said that Shamanism has opened my Mind SO much to the Realities of Spirit and Love that I am indeed anti-ANY organized Religion. Basically, I am. But they do serve a Purpose, as she reminded me.

My Friend reminded me how moving and spiritually awakening the Catholic Service, especially in my early Days, could be and was. I remember the Awe I felt sitting in a Church, thinking that the Spirit of Jesus was REALLY in that Candle Flame inside the Red Glass. I loved the smell of Incense and the Bells. I was so enamored, in Fact, that I seriously considered becoming a Priest.

As a first Step, though, I became an Altar Boy, and saw the politics and business side of the Church from inside the sanctuary. I saw how Nuns were considered lower Forms of Servant, if you will. I saw how some Priests could take all the Magic out of the Ritual with their mundane, matter-of-fact approach. I learned that many of the most powerful Stories in the Faith were either made-up, or mis-represented. Two man-made laws (go to Mass every Sunday or go to hell, and no attending any other Services, even a brother's wedding) came to have a profoundly negative effect on my view of the Church...this is the Church of Forgiveness and Love? So I never became a Priest.. But I still had that magic inside. As my Friend had reminded me, at least the Catholic Service had awakened the Spirit Fire within.

Years later I visited the Vatican. This was about 10 years before I would assume my Shaman Path. As we got closer, my Back began to throb. Whle within the Confines of the Vatican itself, and the Museum FULL of priceless Artifacts, I was in excrutiating Pain. Amazingly, as we finally left and were on our way back to our Hotel, the Pain subsided. I wondered if I had been seen as a Dark Force, and the Building was literally punishing me for beng there. Once I got on the Path of Light as Shaman ten Years on, though, I realized that it was the Dark Forces of the Vatican that recognized me as a Light Being and were coming against me. I had been afflicted with "satanic" Energies right there in the "House of Peter." (Those of you who now are thinking I have this backwards...that I was the satanic presence...open your Mind and think again. See my paragraph below on having met and worked with Jesus on behalf of Clients)

I hope no-one is too offended by this. I see the multi-bilion dollar Vatican State as having morphed over the Centuries into primarily a Force for Control, Manipulation and Levelling of the Human Condition, despite all the Words to the Contrary. Note this has NOTHING to do whatsoever with how I view the Messages of Jesus, which I deeply honor and respect. Nor do I demean whatver Good (depends how you define this, eh?) is coming out of their Efforts across the World. But, I ask Readers to recall that Jesus came to teach us how to heal, love and forgive using the SAME SPIRIT POWERS HE HAD...to set us spiritually FREE. He did not come to be separated from us as some sort of unreachable "Lord" that we are supposed to grovel before. In his Time, he came against the very same type of religious Organization of Money and Power that the Pharisees represented...and they had him killed. I have no doubt that were Jesus to come into the World right now, he would be throwing the money-changers and vendors out of the Catholic Church just as vehemently as before. And the "Church" would come against Him in the same Way today.

(Added 11/12) Two other points are worthy of consideration. First, many Shamans, myself included, feel Jesus was essentially a Shaman himself. The ability to transfigure (shape-shift), alter matter (water to wine), perform telekenesis (walking on water), and of course turning on the Healing Switch in others, all indicate a very powerful Spirit/Mind Connection that most Shamans aim for but never achieve. Also, Shamans typically do not set up organized cults centered around themselves. I feel when Jesus told Peter he was the "rock"? upon which Jesus's "church" would be built, he was not referring to his future church as an organized religion, as we have now, but as a collection of "Jesus-Shamans" walking the world casting out dark energies and inducing healing, as the Apostles did after Jesus's Death. I always felt it was strange that Jesus was so contrary to the Jewish Pharisees and their dictatorial rule, yet then turned around and supposedly authorized his followers to build a structure just like it.

The second point concerns the Gnostic Gospels, which were all but destroyed several centuries after Jesus's death. We are truly fortunate to have found one of the last surviving copies of these in the 1940s. They were summarily thrown out of the New Testament when the latter was put together in the 4th century, because they supposedly were not "lining up" correctly philosophically and factually. In other words, revisionist history rearing its ugly head again to serve the power-seekers and money-men. I know from Journeys that women were priests in the first few centuries in the Christian discipline...it was only in the 4th century that it was decided they should be subservient. Truly a bad shift away from the Sacred Balance of male/female that the Prime Creator was seeking. (End of added).

The purpose of ANY spiritual Discipline is to establish a real and personal Connection to the Spirit World, to the Prime Creator and the Myriad of Spirit Helpers around it, and to use the Self-knowing and total Lack of Fear thus attained to bring Light, Healng and Understanding into the World. We are meant to be very powerful spiritually, not to go humble ourselves for an hour a week and then go back into the World to continue our bad Habits. If the organized Religions were truly doing their Jobs, they would be teaching people to be spiritually INdependent. The Message was "go forth and multiply", not "go forth and congregate." That is, make COPIES of Jesus, BECOME Jesus, not a Group of Underlings OF Jesus.

I have met Jesus on several Spirit Journeys for others. He is real, and a powerful and calm Spirit, and he does indeed help those who honestly connect to him. I am pro-Jesus to the max! (In Fact, I venerate ALL the wonderful Lover-Healers who have made their Mark in Spirit History, regardless of "Affiliation"). I am not anti-Catholic as long as the Experience leads People to expand their Consciousness and Spirit Selves, as it once did for me, and to become free Forces for Good. But if People simply accept the Doctrine and the Ritual as all there is, and never question what is said or realize that different biblical translations can change the meanings profoundly, and just go once a week because that's the way everyone else does it...and therefore never get to know their true Spirit Selves and Powers...then I am afraid I AM "anti-Catholic" to quite a Degree...

BLOG: Are there Retilians on Earth?

Lately I have been watching a lot of Videos on both YouTube and his own Site by David Icke. David is orginally from Britain, and after having a spiritual conversion in the early 90s, he set out to alert people to the coming Danger from the Orwellian New World Order. He has written many books and given innumerable public lectures on this subject. Once considered the laughing stock of England for his early appearances after hhis conversion, he is now no longer being laughed at.

Among his more "outlandish" claims are: that there are Reptilian Beings from another Dimension who are in a vibrational state that we cannot detect with our limited senses, who are nonetheless wreaking havoc on us and leading down this path to defeat of the individual consciousness, and enslavement in a world order dominated by humans who are controlled by the Reptilians; and, that these people still involve themselves in dark arts and blood rituals, and among those people are the current royal family of Great Britain.

Most of us in the west would automatically dismiss this as sheer lunacy. But let me add my perspective, as Shaman, to this. When I first heard of the concept of other-dimensional Reptilian Beings (keep in mind that we all have a "reptilian" portion of our brains from way back when, where empathy is non-existent, and survival at all costs is the rule of this tiny lump of brain matter), I was struck immediately by an experience I had late last year.

I had been taking lots of photos, searching for Spirit Orbs, and one morning I got a very strange one indeed. You can see these shots on my MySpace Photo Page, numbers 25 and 26. When you look at the close-up, you will clearly see a bulbous head with two red eyes which I immediately took to be a Snake Head. Events soon led me to journey into the Spirit World to see what had caused this. Here are the results of my Journey:

This all really began the Saturday night of Nov 10, while my Wife and I and two dear neighbors were sitting at the Dining Room Table, playing Dominoes. All the windows behind me were sealed for winter...so no leaks were present. We were about halfway through our series of games when I suddenly felt a very distinct cool draft flow across my neck and head from behind. I asked about it, as no-one else had felt it. I even went so far as to check downstairs to see if my son had opened the back door to let out some heat. He hadn't. So I thought nothing more of it.

But as I was downstairs brushing my teeth for bed a couple of hours later, again in an area with no possibility for drafts, a very distinct cold blast moved across the back of my bare legs (I was in sleeping shorts). This time I really thought about it, knowing it was more than just coincidence, and rapidly came to the conclusion that I had, for the first time, felt a ghost going by. People who have claimed to have encountered ghosts often speak of feeling such cold spots in the air. I immediately took this to mean that one or more Spirits was really anxious for me to come into the Spirit World, as something important had to be up. This was the first time I had ever been "requested" like this, so it had to be a matter of urgency.

Prior to this, on a hunch based on a lengthy chat I had had with Janet the night before, I had taken my camera out the Thursday morning before and took a few flash shots to see if any Spirit Orbs were about. I was not surprised to find one in the first shot, a portion of which is inserted below. What DID surprise me was the Size and Shape of this Orb. It had a bulbous Head and seemed to have two wide spread eyes and some sort of neck. I got chills that such a well-defined Orb was present. I took another shot about a minute later, and while the "head Orb" had shrunk, there were three other, normal Orbs about, and so it was obvious something in the Spirit World was up. I figured it had to do with Janet, but the events of Saturday evening, as delineated above, got me to thinking that something else was up.

So that same night, as I was going to sleep, I decided to take a mini-Journey just to see if something might turn up. I actually split the experience into two parts. I did a quick read first, then woke up later that same night and realized I had to act immediately, again using a virtual candle, tools, etc. while lying in bed so as not to awaken Janet.

In part 1, I found myself in Space, and saw a large Snake moving toward me from a circular dimension-portal, that is, a Doorway to another Time and Place not associated with our Universe. I stood aside and saw this Snake approach the Earth. The Snake's Head was bigger than the Earth, and as it drew near it opened its Mouth, which was large enough to swallow the whole Planet. But instead of doing that, it exhaled a blue Gas that surrounded the entire Planet like an Atmosphere. I was not sure what it was doing at first, but then saw that it was pouring thousands of smaller Snakes onto the Earth, and these were infesting the Rivers all across the Globe. It was THEN that it suddenly struck me that the Head Orb pictured below was actually that of a Snake, that we had a River very near us, and that THIS was the emergency I had been alerted to by the Drafts of cold Air. One of these Snakes was HERE. I knew I would need to journey to help fight it.

At first I fell back asleep, deciding it could wait. But for some reason I awoke an hour or so later and realized this had to be done NOW. I opened Sacred Space as mentioned above and began my Journey. As I entered the Spirit World, I found myself standing at a white Curtain of Spirit Energy, and I instantly decided to go through it. I was now in a large Auditorium full of journeying Shamans. I looked up at the Stage and saw the meeting Moderator as a brilliant Orb of bright white Light, shining like the Sun, with Hints of Arms, Legs and a Head. As I went to find a Seat near the Back, the Moderator mentioned me, saying he "welcomes Four Hawks..." Then, as another Shaman came in through the Back, the Moderator welcomed "Silly Crow."

Apparently we were the last two to be called, for the Moderator then addressed the Assembly, saying that we must all get together to take on the invading Snake. We all went back into Space and faced the Snake. I sensed it was of a lower Intelligence, and was not really aware of the Havoc it was about to cause on Earth. Again I thought of the little Snakes moving up our Rivers, and how the pic i took shows the face of a Snake...apparently the Snakes were here in Search of Energy, and were to take in much of the World's "Chi". So we all used our thought-creative Process to create golden Ball of Mana, as big as Earth. All the Snakes then left the Earth and consumed the Mana Ball. We then showed the parent Snake how to create Mana for itself, and watched as it formed a small Ball before it and swallowed it. Satisfied, it withdrew back into the Portal it had come from. We Shamans then ensured the Hole was closed.

The Scene then shifted and I saw a middle-aged Woman with black hair, smiling as I placed my Hands on her Head in order to heal her. This may have been the Spirit of Mother Earth? I was then back in the Auditorium, where the Moderator gave us each a purple "figure 8" of Spirit Energy to wear always as a "bow tie." I took this as a high Honor, and have often thought of the Energy it gives me, especially in the throat/base of the brain chakra Areas.

As you have read, this was indeed an Invasion of our World by Reptiles from another Dimension. While these obviously were less threatening, in that they did not take over humans yet, it shows THAT THE CONCEPT OF OTHER-DIMENSIONAL REPTILIAN BEINGS IS NOT A CRAZY NOTION! They exist in a vibrational State beyond our ability to "see"...but that does not mean they do not exist.

As far as blood rituals being practiced to this day by "Illuminati Families", I asked my Pendulum a simple yes/no on this one...and got a yes. I leave it to you to accept or reject the evidence I present to you here.

11/16/08 Update: The following is excerpted from a Journey I did for a friend's Brother in California back in early 2005. The brother has been living with a wife who has been mercilessly cruel and uncaring to him. They are finally divorcing now. But it suddenly struck me a few Days ago that when I performed this Journey for the two over three years ago, I found a huge Spirit Snake wrapped around their House, their spirit vitality drained. It took me this long to understand the full dimension of this: this to me is a classic example of how a reptilian presence can undermine human beings, in this case to the max:

"We flew over the Grand Canyon and on into California in a matter of seconds. We landed in a tree next to the house, which appeared to me to be single story with a red, shingled/clay tablet roof. I did not see the whole structure, though, so I cannot be sure of its actual footprint and size. I saw the Brother slumped on a couch watching TV. His wife was doing something, but I can no longer translate my post-Journey scribble. It reads like "eslinder" but I'm not sure what it was/is supposed to say. I spotted a huge Black Snake encompassing the entire house, coiled around it and within it. I also noticed both people's Auras. The Brother's was almost all gray with just hints of color here and there. The Wife's was very dark gray to black and totally without color. Both are therefore almost totally shut down spiritually. I handed the husband a copy of my healing Rainbow Energy Feather, but he did not react as I put it in his hand. It had no effect."

Based on the three years of psychological and spiritual Abuse that followed, I am convinced the Wife was, or was tranformed into, a Reptilian.

BLOG: Pyramids and other levitational wonders:

On Page 95 of Joan Parisi Wilcox's excellent book, Masters of the Living Energy - The Mystcal World of of Q'ero of Peru, she discusses the Myth of Inkari, the first Inka, the founder of the Inkan Empire. On that Page comes the startling Description of Inkari's ability to build large stone Structures. Inkari was able to "herd" rocks and stones of massive size with a simple verbal command. Joan goes on to say that Legend tells that Inkari and his immediate successors were able to "sing" the Stones up and into Place. In other Words, they were using the Power of their Minds to counteract Gravity, perhaps attuned to a certain vibrational Sound that negates Gravitational Pulls. (As an Aside, in a recent Journey to visit with the Earth Soul of Nicola Tesla, I discovered that he likewise knew one could counteract Gravity using certain combinations of Frequencies.)

So imagine my Surprise when re-reading the Pages mentioned above when I discovered that a recent Journey of mine concerning the building of the Giza and other Pyramids suddenly struck a huge Chord (no pun intended). Below is that Journey, and it confirms the Incan Legend of immense Stone Levitation:

As I entered the Spirit World, I saw myself as the golden Hawk, flying headlong toward the Giza Pyramids. I have been reading a Ton about these and how old are they really, and who really built them. It has been conjectured by some knowledgeable People that they are over 10,000 Years old and built by a prior, highly skilled Civilization the ancient Egyptians later referred to as Gods. I flew right into the Entrance to and then up the so-called Queen's Shaft of the Great Pyramid…stopping at the metal Door that was found there several Decades ago. I was able to sneak around to the other Side, and saw a miniscule carved Hawk at its Base. I thought: was I actually there in a past Life when this was put in? Did I have something to do with that Door? I then was outside and saw the "Gods" actually placing the 20-ton and heavier Blocks in Place. They did indeed, as has been surmised, use Levitation to do this…there were no Slaves, no Workers. I then saw that most of these Beings were actually from another Dimension! They were using Energy Connections to their own Dimension and their Minds. As they stood there, there were translucent and had a narrow Layer of Light surrounding them in a shimmering Halo I thought to myself, no wonder there is no Trace of these People!

I was then shown that the suspected radical Shift in the entire Earth's Surface, which moved Antarctica down to the South pole and wreaked deadly Havoc on much of Life on the Planet when it occurred, was caused by a large Planetoid that passed close by the Earth on its Bee-line into the Sun. I got a Sense that this Object may also have been partially or fully originated in this other Dimension, which is why there was little to no Warning. This may also be why we will not see the next One coming, if indeed the Mayan and Hopi Prophesies are correct that a major Event is coming to Earth soon.

I then found myself moving up onto the Dalha Mirror, with my ten Spirits in a Circle around it. They showed to me that I must fashion or buy three small Pyramids to place on my Altar to try to pray this next Catastrophe away. Just beyond the Mirror, I was shown a new Ritual Site built for me. It had three deep Mahogany Steps leading up to a square Platform. In the Center was a Stone Slab for me to lie on. The Walls were made of white Rose Petals kept together by Spider Web Lines. I opened the Curtain of this Shelter to see the entire Landscape covered in uplifted Dirt and small Fires…a Result of the catastrophic Event mentioned above. But I and my immediate Family were now safe inside.

In the final Scene, I was shown that we might very well escape this Destruction by passing into the other Dimension mentioned above…and it occurred to me that in so doing, we might very well become the Gods or whatever People are there, just as had occurred on the Giza Plateau thousands of years ago! A grand Irony, indeed. That was the End of the useful Imagery.

BLOG: Consciousness Shift Revealed in Part:

I very recently was shown an amazing interplay of inter-dimensional Energies that have been wreaking havoc with our Human Relationships, as well as contributing to Global Warming, and perhaps even Earthqakes. Just as Beings from other Dimensions can and do visit us, often with deleterious Results, we have a massive "dark" Star, in a Dimension vibrating very close to our own, and very near our Solar System, that is wreaking havoc with us. The bad news, though...we have 6 more of these other-dimensional Stars heading our Way. It is THIS that we also have to survive in the coming Period of Consciousness Shifting. Here is the Journey I took:

10/31/08: A Journey taken at my Helpers' Request to see what new Information they had for me. Lately I have been having a Series of such Instructions.

As I entered the Spirit World, I met with my 10 Dalha Spirits on their sacred Mirror. The Mirror began spinning very rapidly beneath our Feet as we stood on it...but soon we were all spinning on the now-still Mirror. As we and the Mirror spun faster and faster, the Area around us was blue. We quickly spiraled into a new Dimension, an apparent Nod to the Whirling Dervishes who likewise spin rapidly in Place to achieve an altered State of Consciousness. As we moved into the new Dimension, we were still on the Earth and among some Humans...but Everything appeared non-solid in this Version of our Reality...as if made up of a Collection of innumerable bits of very dry Paper. It reminded me a bit of Objects made of Bits of colored Tissue Paper. I then saw Firings of tiny Bits of Energy moving between various Bits of the "Paper" in one of the Humans.

We were then lifted into Space, and there I saw it: a huge, dark-energy Star very near the Solar System and riding along with it. Because it is in a different Dimension, our Science has no Idea that it is there. However, the Emanations from this Star are having a very real and draining effect on Humanity. They are passing through our electrical Connections of our Bodies, causing us to be a lot less aware, more sluggish, more focused on the physical than the spiritual. Hence, the Wars and Selfishness and Economic Taking are all a Result of this Degradation. Our Sun, as a Result of this Presence, is wiggling, shuddering along through Space. We cannot measure of feel this weird Vibration in our Paths since the Sun and all the Planets are wiggling at the same Time in the Distortion of Space-Time. However, I was told that this shuddering is helping cause the Warming of all the Planets, including ours, as detected recently by spacecraft. Then, the Dalha asked me to look behind me.

There, I saw 6 more dark Stars heading toward us. I thought to myself, "Omigod! How do we stop this!?" The Dalha answered, "We don't." Instead, we all pulled a thin, white Sheet of Energy all across the Earth in our Dimension, wrapping it like a Ball being wrapped with Foil. "This will help protect Humans and allow those who can reach a heightened Consciousness a Level of Protection from the approaching 6 Stars. You and other Spiritualists have to survive this Visit."

We then pointed a narrow, long Cone of red Light from our Dimension at the Dark Star from the Base of the Mirror I was told that this Entity reads the red Light as a weird Energy since it is from another Dimension. We pointed Cones of different Colors at the other Stars. These Cones of Light will only help weaken these Stars as bit, but it will help a little.

The Dalha then tied me into all the other "white" Shamans praying for the Earth to survive the coming "other-Dimensional" Storm. My daily Prayers will now be permanently tied into theirs, adding to the white Energy Covering over the Earth. The Dalha also reminded me to continue my daily Practice of expanding my own white Light outward to engulf as much of the Earth as possible.

We then settled back into our Dimension. We passed around a Peace Pipe. As I took my Puff, a bright green-glowing Worm emerged from the Bowl, walked along the Stem, and took its own Puff! It then took a Place on my Shoulder, and I was told this is a new Spirit Helper, a Gift from Mother Earth! It will always be with me, and strengthen my Connection in my Prayers for the Earth.

As remarkable and unlikely as this Scenario sounds, and as it is impossible for current Science to verify this, it is vital we take this Look into our immediate Environment seriously. Expand your own Light...realize some of your Reactions are not just learned Behavior, but Disruptions by a foreign Energy. I welcome your Comments.

Update

2008-12-20T16:05:00.001-05:00

Hi, folks. Most of my newer blogs are now being posted at my MySpace site. The link is already listed here , so please take advantage of my latest offerings.

Peace and love, Ken

A New Take on Dreams

2007-08-26T09:58:00.000-04:00

I had a very interesting set of Dreams the past few nights that have given me a perspective I have not read in any formal treatise yet. Alberto Villodo's study of Incan Shamanism is the most full concerning "Imprints" on the Aura. These are Energy fields that accompanied an initial wounding (fear, abuse, etc.) that remain with us, locked into our Auras, long after the event has gone past. These Imprints can be subsequently triggered by a new event that has a similar shape. The energy of the first wounding then spills into our Chakras and nervous system, causing us to react and feel as we did in the first offense. This tends to keep us "stuck" in our past, and hinders us from learning to deal with the present and future events of similar nature.

I have in the past few nights had a couple of dreams that are replays of times of intense frustration...where I once again go through a seriies of events that either make me outraged or full of doubt. And I just realized that these are not messages from the Spirits, although some Dreams certainly are. These are merely Imprints obviously still locked in my Aura that are firing off at random, causing these Dreams! In other words, they are not messages from the Spirits, they are messages from my OWN SPIRIT. They are indicators that I stilll have these energy zones active and present in my Aura. This is quite revealing, for now I understand why this type of Dream repeats itself every so often. It's a request by my Aura, if you will, to deal with this remnant energy and remove it. The best part...finally knowing this is what these Dreams signify now makes it very easy to remove the Imprints, for once you know it is there you can wash it away quite easily with Thought and Ritual.

So now I know a lot of my Dreams are actually my own Aura crying out for attention, versus some repeating message from the Spirits that I cannot decode. These are not Teacher Dreams per se...they are Dreams of Self-Revelation. Cool eh? Look back over your own Dream sequences and see if there is a repeating theme to some of them. More than likely you will suddenly realize they are indeed the result of old "fears" or old woundings that have never healed...just reminding you they are still there. :) The sooner they are removed, the better you will act, feel...and dream.

Forces from Client's Youth Revealed

2007-06-11T21:12:00.000-04:00

Here is Journey number 1 (keep in mind that the results of a Journey can be metaphor versus actual...however, the underlying truths are never compromised. These Journeys were painted for you, not for me, and so everything seen is something the Helpers feel you need to know...):

"4/12/07: A Journey taken at the Request of a Client to see what Energies were at Play in some very deleterious Events in his recent past. This Client related to me that he was recovering from a suicide attempt, a sign that usually points strongly to some sort of Sprit Invasion, but of course not always. In this case, I found two separate Dark Energies at work within the Client’s life, one placed there near birth by a Being of unknown origin, and a second that was there due to an ancestor’s intervention. It is less clear what effect this latter Being had, but we see my Client in a powerful fight with it toward the end of the Journey. Before I entered the Spirit World, I performed a Mongolian 5-Coin Divination. This gives us a quick, general Overview of his current Spiritual Health. I got the following Reading: H T 2H T. Here is the Meaning: “At home things are neutral. Peace of Mind. Querent wins lawsuit. Business good. If ill, do a ritual to Father Heaven.” This told me that my Client is essentially in good Shape, as there are several positive Strains revealed here. I also checked to see, via Pendulum, if he had indeed suffered a Soul Loss during his Attempt, as he suspects. I was told. No, he did not lose part of his Soul.

As I entered the Spirit World, I found myself standing on my large Shaman Mirror from Mongolia. This is my most powerful Mirror, having ten “Dalha” Spirits associated with it, as well as the Shaman Spirit of Chinnghis Khan. Whenever I find myself on this Mirror, I know I’m in for a Time with some very powerful Spirit Energies. As I looked around, I saw that the Ten Dalha Spirits, as usual equally spaced around the Perimeter of the Mirror, were representing themselves as burning Flames. I saw a Dark Being sitting in a Depression in the Middle of the Mirror. I took my extra Shaman Mirror and held it in front of me to supplement the one around my Neck, for added Protection. As I moved closer to this Being, my Vision was being squelched, causing the Flames above to narrow. I felt high pressure around my Head and Ears. “This is as close as I can get,” I yelled up. I then saw a Scene forming within the Dark Being’s Form. It revealed to me a Baby lying in a Crib. I knew this Baby to be my Client. I saw the Baby slapped, and at first wondered if it was my Client’s Parents’ doing this. But then I sensed this was a dark, brooding Presence doing the slapping…something not human. I then saw the Baby literally flying through the Air, on its Back, with all its Surrounding flying by. This instilled a permanent Sense of impeding Falling and Instability into my Client. I then saw the Baby back in its Crib, and watched as the same Dark Being I first saw placed a black Orb of Energy into Grey through his Face. This stunned the Baby into a glassy Gaze. The Scene then shifted, and I saw my Client playing as a small Boy in his Yard. Both while he was playing on a dirt Mound, and on a Swing Set, he sensed this background Fear of Falling playing out subconsciously. As he got older this Sense of Falling began to evolve into a Sense of Dread, a Sense of Something lurking. This is strongest whenever he is alone, and has followed him through Life. He is capable of joy, but whenever alone senses Something is there.

The Scene then shifted back to the Mirror and the Dark Being at its Center. It shape-shifted into a Bat, rabid and vicious. The Scene then shifted and I was in a Yard once again, where a Cat was bitten on the Neck by this rabid Bat. The Cat then quickly went crazy and ran off into a nearby reed-filled Swamp and drowned itself. I then looked up to see the Bat flying against a bright, full Moon, and the in the next Instant a dark, new Moon, strangely hanging in the twilit Sky. When it flew against the new Moon, it was a darker black than the Moon. I saw that this Bat has been flying around my Client from Time to Time.

The Scene then shifted again. We were in the Room where my Client had been trying to recover from his Attempt. I then saw the Dark Orb that had been placed inside my Client as a Baby dancing around through his Spirit Body with his other Soul pieces. I saw it flee his Body once it thought he was dead. So THIS is why he thought he had lost a Soul Piece…he actually had lost this extra, dark Soul Piece. I then saw a young, maternal Spirit coming down toward him carrying his Upper World Soul back to him, gently upper in her Hands. I then saw Greg’s Earth Soul a few Feet away from his still Body. I saw him fighting with a dark Shape of a Man wearing a Hat. While this very energetic Struggle was going on, a Cat appeared and quickly shape-shifts in a large Lion. This caused the dark Shape to flee. I followed him, and saw that he was in a Suit, wearing a turn of the last century Hat. He came up close to me and as he did so, I noticed his face was entirely skeletal. We were then in a Cemetery, where I saw the Man sitting alone next to his own Grave. I sensed he had been there for Years, alone. Then, possibly because of my Intervention, some Luminous Beings came and took him. “Finally!” he yelled. Then he looked back to me and yelled, “Thanks!” I was suddenly then back on the Mirror. I watched as the Dalha now fired their Fire Energy down into the Dark Being, who was transmuted to rainbow Light and faded. I and the Spirits were then alone. Suddenly the Air was filled with floating Red and Green Grape Clusters. I then saw Pomegranates, and then Mediterranean/Greek foods Outlays. The Call Back then sounded."

NOTES: The BAT, according to Ted Andrews, symbolizes “new truths and perceptions” Bats are the only mammals that fly, and flight implies a rising above, the promise hidden within the chaotic energies of change. Bats imply barriers will be pierced and new truths uncovered. Bats are associated with rebirth and coming out of the darkness, new vision. Changes will be for the best even if the benefits are not yet obvious. That which was misunderstood becomes clearer. The fact Bats sleep upside-down also implies new perspective. Bats control pest insects, aid in pollination, and even find their waste has benefits for other life. This again certifies that however situations appear, they will work out to our benefit. With their great hearing and echolocation, Bats imply an increased ability to discern hidden messages and implications. Trust your instincts. In the negative, Bat implies a failure to rise above. Get new perspectives and let go of the past. Do not remain emotionally attached to what is no longer helpful. Facing our fears ultimately has great value for us. Questions: Are we avoiding facing the inevitable? Are we refusing to see the truth of a situation? Are we comfortable with the “devil we know?” Are fears ruling us? Are our imaginings overblown, or are we not seeing things as they are?

LION as Power Animal: Keynote: Strength of Will from the inner Sun. The Lion has consistently been a symbol of the sun and of gold. Its appearance reflects the need for gentle strength and patience in order to achieve the gold of our goals. The lion is unusual in the cat family in that it lives in “prides.” Therefore, in all group and community activities, this is a time for patience, gentleness and cooperation. Force will not work. This is re-emphasized in the fact that lions usually hunt as a group, and are rather clumsy hunting alone. Lions do not fight for fighting’s sake, but hunt through stealth. They avoid confrontation, but will defend themselves fiercely if need be. This demonstrates then when we are pursuing endeavors, strength of will, stealth, and cooperation will work best. Females do most of the hunting, work and caretaking in the pride. The appearance of lion therefore indicates the need to assert the inner sun, the feminine qualities within: patience, gentleness and strength of love. In some cultures the sun is considered the feminine power: it gives birth to new days, and warms and nurtures us. So, trust the feminine aspects that live within: creativity, intuition, imagination. Lion demands a balance between assertion and patience. Do not lose nerve, and yet do not surrender. Remain firm and patient. And don’t be afraid to roar if you feel threatened. There’s a nice recommendation for dietary discipline at the bottom, for grapes, natural vegetables and a lack of red meat...more lamb, I would guess, and other Mediterranean delicacies."

Here is Journey number 2: "4/14/07: A Journey taken at the Request of my Client to see what my Helpers might have to say concerning his Future in Terms of Riches and Abundance. Even as I was just entering the Spirit World, I noticed there was a Dark Being running around the outside of the House. Then, as I sank deeper into the Journey, I found a Coyote staring at me at very close Range. It was almost as if I was on my Back and pinned by it. Then, I saw a rectangular Shield of Spirit Plasma, roughly the same Size as the Coyote. The Plasma Shield was being fed in short Bursts from individual Stars. Then, surprisingly, and perhaps I injected this, a Road Runner appeared for a short time to my Right. The Coyote was then suddenly pulled up into the Plasma. Utawa, my Shaman Mirror Spirit, appeared and said we needed to follow him. We went in, and were floating freely in an Area in which many Possibilities, represented by Distinct Objects moving in random Directions, were present. The background was a white Mist, and the Possibilities were of many Colors and Shapes. The Coyote was there, and suddenly sat down at a Piano that was floating by. He actually began to play it skillfully, and then the Scene shifted. We were in some sort of ground floor, open Patio of a restaurant attached to a Hotel. There was the Coyote, dressed elegantly, playing Piano. This was the last of the useful Images I received. I finally reached the Call Back."

Since this was such a short Journey, I asked my Helpers afterwards if this was the definitive Journey concerning my Client’s Question, and they said no, so I’ll have to go back in. But I also asked if I should even send this to him, and they said yes. So there are Lessons and Hints in here at least concerning this Question.

NOTE: COYOTE: Keynotes: Wisdom and Folly. The Coyote is extremely gifted, embodying intelligence, playfulness, adaptability and loyalty. It is seen as both a Trickster and a Teacher. It reminds us of our many possibilities. The Coyote teaches that folly and wisdom go hand in hand. The most successful people are those who learn to have fun in their work. These people trust in the fact that all things happen according to some plan, even if the plan is not entirely known. They know it will work out, since they rely on their ability to handle whatever comes their way. Coyote teaches it is time to find a balance between work and play. Coyotes cooperate in tracking down prey, reminding us that such cooperative efforts are usually more effective and successful, especially at this time. Coyote’s territorial expansion teaches us to remain adaptable, and to extend endeavors in spite of opposition. While an animal of paradox, Coyote reminds us we have much more power and control over our lives and decisions than we realize. Be flexible, laugh and choose what is best for you, even if it is the most difficult choice. Coyote’s appearance suggests you are at a crossroads, and decisions now are very important. Maintain your childlike poise amidst the surrounding chaos. Keep your sense of humor, following your heart’s desires and trusting your childlike perception. Know that even if you make a wrong decision, you will see that and have the instinct to quickly correct them. Questions: Are things too simple or complicated? Are we outsmarting ourselves? Have we forgotten play is essential? Are we too inflexible? Are we complicating a simple matter? Is there too much folly and not enough wisdom? "

As you can see, I have to go back in on this second request, but will do so after I hear your reactions to these. Please don't see my lack of contacting you as me not being concerned. Shamans do not interfere in other lives, so I was simply waiting for you to ask me for more help. :) We like to let people walk their Sacred Paths uninterrupted, so I always figure if people really need me, they know how to get to me. :)

Peace and Love, Ken

My Client's amazing Response:

"I appreciate the time you took to do the Journeys and release the Dark forces. As an aside, my brother related to me how he saw my mother throw me across the bathroom where I hit my head (at the age of three) and had seizures ever since. He also related how he saw her slap me around in the crib and elsewhere because I was slower than my older brothers on picking up basics (crawling, walking, etc.). Would appreciate it if you'd care to devote more time, to hear what else you'd care to reveal.

And Yes, I would like more on the Coyote Journey. I had to smile as I read the previously-distracted Coyote was now playing the piano -- I am writing a screenplay and wonder if the Coyote image is telling me to keep up the play of "working" on the screenplay because my abundance will come out of creativity, even though I can get sidetracked by pesky roadrunners from time-to-time and have undying faith in the "Acme Company" makers of dynamite and various roadblocks that always backfire. Thanks WISE ONE! "

Name Games

2007-04-21T10:48:00.001-04:00

4/12/07: A Journey taken at the Request of a Client to see what Energies are at Play in her Future.

As I entered the Spirit World, I found myself standing with my Shaman Mirror Guide, Utawa, on a metal Platform overlooking a rapidly spinning Ball of light blue Energy. I got the Sense of standing in some Sort of Manufacturing Room or perhaps a Research Area. I was told the blue Ball was a Representation of all the Threads of Future Time. I immediately turned to Utawa and asked, “How are we supposed to pick my Client’s Future out of that?!” Utawa agreed that it did not seem possible. I then looked across to the other Side of the Room above the blue Ball, and there was my Client, standing on an identical Platform, looking down at the Ball also! Behind her was dancing a full-size Human-like Energy Being whose Colors were constantly changing. I reached across the Gulf between us with a Staff much longer than it was, picked up the Being and drew it over to myself. I asked it, “Why are you bothering Mary?” It answered, “I’m not! She is creating me with her varying Thoughts and Attitudes. She need to focus to make me turn purple only.” [NOTE: purple is the Color of the highest Chakra, the one tied to the Upper World where the Spirit Blueprint of all our Lives is kept.] I then decided to go over and visit Mary. I shape-shifted into a Hawk and took off to fly toward her directly, over the blue Ball. A very sudden and stiff Wind arose to try to hold me back. I was making no Progress until Eagle came to my left to empower me some more, and Blue Heron came up in front of me to help break the Power of the Wind. I flew in its Backwash. I then fell abruptly into a white Sphere. I was standing near a single Table, where Mary was sitting, motionless, looking upward, and wearing a Smile. I took Mary by the Hand and led her out of the Whiteness and back into the blue Ball Room. She threw a red Rose into the Sphere. This, I was told, will seed the Future for her. However, the exact Nature of that Future was not revealed to me.

Client Response 4/14: Hmmm...just got up from a semi rest state so forgive me if I am still a
bit groggy here...overnights are my weekend theme again.
First I want to bring attention to the name of Mary that you used in
the journey. Is this not important in some fashion or perhaps a simple
over site as my name is "xxxxx"…the rest I will have to think about a bit here and get back with you…okay? :)..

thank you so very much for the wonderful nice surprise /gift of this
journey and the one you did for my daughter as well...my heart and spirit are most deeply touched and grateful.

My response: > Hi!
>
> Isn't that strange!? I wonder why "Mary" came in so strongly. It
> seems
> to me this is a sign that someone by that name is going to play a key
> role in your future. Especially since it is "she" who throws the rose.
> Very strange indeed. I can't recall that ever happening before. I'll
> have to go check and see if that happened in my notes as well...hang
> on...
>
> Yup...you are "Mary" all through the notes as well. So when I came
> back, that name was pushing through me loud and clear, eh? I didn't
> even notice it when I was proofreading it before sending it to you. I
> think it is great. Be on the lookout for a Mary!!! With a rose!!
> (shirt, glasses, etc). Amazing how the messages are presented!
>
> I look forward to your further comments. I have damn union training
> tomorrow despite the weather, so there may be a delay in my answers.
> What a life!! :)

4/17: Hi Ken,

Are you ready for this???...are you sitting?..
In spite of this awful flooding, my weakened finances, and somewhat ill
health at present, yesterday I received a phone message that I never
ever expected...I got a call from a "MARY" from The American Institute
of Holistic Health and Psychology. She told me I have a full
scholarship for a home school program, they are fully accredited, etc.
She went further to say that I was referred to them by a client or
friend of mine. I just checked out their site and was
quite pleased at what I read.
I put in a call to my counselor to see if it was her. (just curious as
can be now!) I also called Mary back but only got the school's
answering machine. I left a message for her.

I just had to tell you about this and see what you think. It [the “Mary” connection] gave my daughter the shivers!

Visiting the Dead

2007-04-21T10:47:00.001-04:00

Visiting Dad

4/11/07: A Journey taken at the Request of a Client to visit with the Earth Soul of her Dad.

As I entered the Spirit World, I found myself standing near a picnic Table next to a beautiful Lake. It was a wonderful, sunny Day, the Air delightful. Her Dad (hereafter referred to as just “Dad”) was sitting at one Corner of the Table, fashioning Objects out of Wood. In short Order, he produced a wooden Soldier (Civil War Era), a Nutcracker, and finally a mahogany Female Figure, posed as if she had just released a Bowling Ball. Dad then got up and motioned for me to follow him. We walked down into a sheltered Depression next to the Lake where there was a campground-type, cement and metal cooking Grille, already fired up. On it he cooked a recently caught Rainbow Trout, no doubt taken from the Lake. He then took a swig of a “local” Beer, but knew I do not drink now, so he did not offer me one. The then picked up a Rifle and shot at a Duck passing over. I tried to stop him, but he laughed vigorously and said, “Ducks and I are Partners in this! Watch!” He hit a passing Duck, who fell to the Water. The Duck then sat upright and yelled back, “Nice Shot!” If Ducks could smile, this one would have been. Dad slapped his Knee and again laughed aloud. He then turned to me and said, “By the way, it was nice of you to visit with my Son [I had done a Journey earlier to visit with my Client's Brother's Earth Soul]. That brought my Daughter great Comfort.” The Scene then shifted. I saw what looked like Dad working on an Engine of a Car leaning over the left Fender, the Hood up. He hit his Head coming up too fast. I then saw him on a Roller going under the Car. Dad then told me, “This is my twin Brother who never got to have an Earth Life, but he has nonetheless been allowed to live a full Life now.” The Scene then shifted again. We were walking along a wide dirt Roadway in some sun-splattered and yellow-green Woods. I saw a little Girl on a Bike which I assumed to be my Client, riding along for a few Seconds and then with her Dad and Mom. I then saw another Scene where Joanne was trying on one of her Dad’s Belts. It was way too big for her, and was hilarious as one End was hanging down like a Leash or Tail. Then, we were back at the Grille, and Dad told me that he visits my Client. “I make things fall at her Work, and move Stuff around in her Car.” The Scene shifted again and we were in a Living Room somewhere. Dad held up a large Painting of a snow Scene he had done (I got the Sense it was “by the Numbers”, though). I took a Picture of him holding it, and when I looked down at what I had captured, Dad showed up as an Owl! He then told me that he flies around Joanne from Time to Time as an Owl. The final Scene was of a Train heading into a Station, whereupon the Train looped around very quickly and rejoined the same Track heading in the opposite Direction. The Call Back then sounded.

4/20 Response:

Hi Ken,

I have read your visit several times today. I remember my father carving pencils out of wood for my brother & I while he was taking his lunch break. My mother, brother & I spent many weekends in the woods w/my father. He had his own logging truck & worked 6 to 7 days a week. We loved being outdoors w/him & had so much fun. It doesn’t surprise me you found him outside. Beer was his favorite drink, didn’t care for the hard liquor. He worked on cars & especially his logging truck. He took very good care of his vehicles.

I remember him buying my brother & I new bicycles from the most expensive bike shop in my town. Are friends were envious. We were so happy & I took very good care of my bike. My brother’s bike was stolen. He was so scared to tell my father.

I must say I have found stuff in my car moved around and blamed it on a Senior moment.
I often pick papers off the floor and my pens & pencils seem to be rolling off my desk many times during the day. Now, instead of thinking I’m having a bad day, I will have pleasant thoughts.

Does my brother, mother & father see each other? Do they live in the same area? How about other relatives that have passed on do they see each other? Now that I know they can move objects, can they make physical contact w/us? The other night I could not sleep, felt something on my knee & I knew that is wasn’t a bug.

Thank you so much for your journeys w/my family. It has brought me comfort & a sense of peace especially w/my brother. You have special gift. Thanks for sharing.

Take care,

Gilson Road Cemetery Spirits

12/01/06: A Journey taken with Permission to check on the Spirits long sensed and seen at the Gilson Road Cemetery in Nashua. Here is what happened the night my Friend and I visited there, about 3 prior:

“At Gilson Road Cemetery. I did not really feel there were any Spirits in the front section, where the Stones were. That area seemed really devoid of any energy, and if there are Spirits seen there, they are merely moving through. The place beyond the tall Pine, however, was rife with Action. I kept catching visual glimpses of a Fire there, and was able to further determine there is either a Spirit Bonfire or a Spirit Funeral Pyre there. Many Spirit People are gathered around that Fire, and some wander to the front of the Cemetery to cool off and then go back. Others wander the Field beyond, as you saw. The main impression I got is that they are waiting for something… As we drove off, I suddenly felt one of the Spirits was running/bounding after us a full tilt, and was keeping up with us even though we were at 35 MPH. I sent this Spirit back by promising to visit more fully in the future. At first I thought it was coming to attack us, but then realized it probably wanted to talk to me… “

I began my Journey in customary Fashion. I went straight over to the Graveyard and stood in the entry Area, where all Sorts of very old Headstones stand sporadically about. Eagle Claw, my Upper World Guide, was standing beside me. Utawa, my Mirror Spirit, was in the Mirror as I looked down at it. It was Night. I walked slowly over to the Tree Line, for this is where I had sensed the Action the other Night. As EC and I walked along, we noticed the Ground seemed to be missing…we were walking on empty, dark Space. We came to the Fire I had seen before. It was huge and roaring away. From behind to the left came a Figure looking a lot like artist Renditions of Sasquatch! He came up to me, and after picking me up to give me a gentle Hug, he put me back on my Feet and took me by the Hand out into the open Field beyond the Tree Line. We began walking back and forth across the Field together, and we were stepping between numerous dead Bodies, lying in various States of Decay. These are not visible in normal Vision. I saw Eagles and Vulture coming down to pick at the Bodies, and then Wolves, Foxes, and other Carnivores coming to do likewise. They all gathered together in a huge Group and stared back at me as I retreated with Sasquatch to the Fire. My Guest then explained to me that these Victims had never been properly buried and mourned. Little Bits had sunk into what became shallow, unmarked Graves. The Fire, he explained, was indeed intended to have been a funeral Pyre, as I had sensed the other Night. He told me the Spirits milling about the Fire and Field were waiting for their Loved Ones to come and get them, and to honor them. Feeling deeply for them, I took my Index Finger of my right Hand and traced out the dark blue Edge of a Doorway in the Air. I then turned back to Eagle Claw and asked, “Should I?” He answered, “Do what is right, Four Hawks.” So I finished bringing the Doorway into Existence. In the End it looked a lot like a Mine Entrance, framed out with rough –hewn Timber. Soon, several Spirits came through the Door and began uniting with the Spirits who had been waiting so long for them. They tended to them, caringly and lovingly. I was told that many of these Spirits will go back through the Tunnel to be with their Friends and Family. But a few will remain behind, because they have grown to like it here. Some will become Nature Spirits eventually, after they are done enjoying the Locale. One of those staying is the Spirit who stood behind Peter when his Picture was taken when the Latter was here before with other Friends. In that Shot, there is a Light over my Friend’s Head. I saw the Young Man, straight out of the 1700s. I was shown that this Spirit has a Sense of Humor: he was holding an old Railroad Lantern over my Friend for the Photo, showing a strong Sense of Humor. I had to chuckle at the Sight. Finally, through this cleansing Action, I was told the Effects at the Gilson Road Cemetery will become considerably less pronounced for the Now-Humans living nearby. I thanked my Spirits and returned.

My Friend's Response:

Hi Ken,
Wow. Your actions will take the attraction out of the area for sure. It has become a common place of visit for Para Normal groups - in fact, Jon, whom you did a journey for, is a member of one that made a visit to Gilson. I have to think that perhaps in some of their member's desire is to help those trapped there, and their prayers may have been the reason why the activity has been diminishing.

I never felt threatened while I was there. I thought it neat that my friend saw a "glow" around me and thought that nothing would happen.

It is your job to help others, right? Keeping Gilson as a local attraction doesn't do those in need any good.

Meeting a Sasquatch like being is interesting - I didn't tell you this: Local legend tells of a hairy being or large dragon like being, behind the cemetery that tends to protect visitors.

Again, you hit it right on the nail. While I will miss the mystic of sneaking around at night and looking at the lights in the field behind the cemetery, I am glad that one of them might still be around - and by his choice. This fits the story of a great Indian battle or battles. Local legend also describes that the area was a haunted site in the 1700s.

Well done Ken.

Interesting on the Indian Rock boy.
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A Haunted House Read

2/24/06: A Journey taken at a Friend’s Suggestion to check out the Spirit lie of the land for a House he has visited in Kingston. He tells me light switches go on and off, things move, etc. We both thought it would be cool to see who is doing this.

As I entered the Spirit World, Eagle Claw brought me through the Forests and Street between here and Kingston. We got to the House, and immediately knew there was indeed and Indian Burial Ground here. We arrived in the Night, and saw many blue Figures moving all over the House, its Roof and the adjoining Yard. There are many Spirits here! We went to where the Burial Ground was and found a Stairway leading down to a Spirit Chamber co-existing with the Graves. There were many light blue Spirits sitting around a Fire. They asked me to sit in with them. One of them spoke. “We welcome you, 21st Century Shaman! You can tell the People living in the house that they don’t know it but are disrespecting us. We sometimes have Cars parked on our Burial Ground. Garbage is sometimes stored here. Once in a while Someone urinates. There is a Telephone Pole stuck into our Grounds. The Grounds run from the left front of the Barn out to underneath the Road. We would like them to honor this Sacred Place. Ask them to place a Reminder of it where People can see it. A big Boulder with a Medicine Wheel painted on would be fine. It would honor us, and tell others that they are on or near Sacred Ground. Plant a few large Bushes there so no-one will park. Ask them to visit us occasionally, telling us they honor our Memory, that they mean us no harm, and that they mean for us to rest well. We have Men and Women and Children buried here.” Then they told me there were more Spirits then them. “More,” I asked? “Yes!” And then I saw two Dark Beings, who were Brothers in Life. “They used to live in this House. They are the meddlesome ones, making the most Trouble. They will have to be removed, but this can only happen with the Permission of the Owners. These Brothers are angry that there are People living in their House. They know we are here, but we leave each other alone. Thank you, Four Hawks, for visiting.” And with that my Visit was over. Eagle Claw brought me back through the local Terrain to my Room. I thanked him and came back.

THE REPLY: my Friend tells me his friend who lives there verified what I had seen..to wit, they had a psychic come in and check the house out and she also had reported there were two brothers haunting it. Phil’s friend was astonished that I could see this without even visiting the house. I may get to cleanse these Beings out once the mother gets back from a trip.

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Visting my Deceased Dad

4/30/04: A most remarkably emotional Journey to the Lower World this morning, and unanticipated. I had earlier mentioned to my wife how our son’s refusal to hang with one of his friends because of excessive alcohol use reminded me of the time I had rejected my best friend at around his age for the same reason. She took this comment to launch a forceful explanation on how she is the only one who should take credit for our son’s actions, and that I little to do with any of the wise decisions he is now making. I was totally unprepared for this (even though I have seen it before), and it wounded my Aura, thereby reactivating an Imprint in my Luminous body which I soon thereafter recognized as having been with me for years. I have, since I can remember, always reacted with emotional resentment and anger when anything to do with my performance in any arena has been assaulted, questioned or undermined by anyone. And thinking of this incident this morning and my reaction to it, I knew I had to get to the source Wounding to finally rid myself of this constantly-triggering Imprint that has poisoning my Aura and Chakras over and over. And I had to do it NOW. So off I went, and I knew right away this would be a different Journey. After Smudging and lighting the Sacred Candle, I used the drum CD. I was not out back this time, but immediately carried into a wooded/flowered area, vibrant with color and pleasant aromas. It was gorgeous. Crosses in Front, my Snake Guide, emerged from a Tunnel entrance in front of me, for the first time wearing a Crown made of glistening Diamonds! Whoa!” I thought to myself, “something is up!” I met with Crosses and asked to be taken to the source Wounding that had left this deep Imprint in my Luminous Body. In fact, I humbled myself before Crosses, almost begging meekly on my knees, and in deep gratitude. Crosses led me down a very resplendent tunnel, lined with numerous, variously-colored Crystal Wands parallel to the floor as far as the eye could see. Down and down we went through this Wonder of Light. We emerged into a rather formless area, where my new Guide, Senses All, was waiting for me. Her eyes were like diamonds, and she likewise had a small crown. I told her I wished to be taken to the Source Wounding, and she took me by the hand and led me into a swirling mass. As we penetrated, Events from my Life went by me. Each was an example of how this Imprint had wounded me and caused anger and hurt. Back and back we went, past my teen years. We then came to a small room with a computer terminal in it(!), and Sense All showed me a long list of Imprint-inspired Chakra poisonings. She smiled and said she wanted me to feel more comfortable in a setting I’m used to in this life as I reviewed my history. :) As the list went further back into my early days, Senses All took me by the hand and led me back into the Swirl of Time. She took me back into the basement of my old house. I saw my Father working at his work bench. He was working on his car engine (he rebuilt it every winter when I was a baby). My mother had let me come down to be with him and walk around a bit (so I must have been two or so). I had picked up a small can of oil and was bringing it to him when it spilled. My Father was always quick to frustration and so yelled at me, telling me to leave things alone, not to help. I felt the Original Wounding occur. I ran and was crying. I now understood why as an older boy and young teenager I had such dread about going down those stairs into the cellar. Senses All then cornered me and told me that we were going to replay this incident, but this time, after the oil spill, I was to react differently. With love and forwardness. Therefore, after the spill, I ran to my Father’s legs and held them tight. I said I was sorry (at least in my mind), that I was only trying to help him. He picked me up, held me to his chest, and said it was OK. It felt SO good to hug him again, I burst into tears..right in the middle of my Journey (a first). I held him tighter and tighter, saying how good it was to be with him again, and how much I loved him. I asked him to forgive me for all the times in the future when I would refuse to help him happily because of this Original Wounding. I then told him I had to get back to my time, that I would be a much better Shaman for having come back to erase this Imprint. I held him so long, and told him I would see him again in the Spirit Camp, but it was wonderful to have held him again. I kept saying, “I love you!”, over and over, in fresh tears. Senses All then took me and said, we now will seal off the Imprint forever. She placed her hand over the Wounded area and the Imprint dissolved. She brought that part of my Luminous Body back to wholeness. I turned and looked at my Father one last time, tears welling once more. He had become a Luminous Body himself, no longer the physical Robe I was accustomed to. I turned with Senses All to begin the Journey back. I was very grateful to her, but a bit too overwrought to say so. But she knew, and I have thanked her since. She led me back to Crosses, who brought me back up the Tunnel to the grove. Crosses told me to sit a while amidst the Trees and drink in their Luminous Energy. As I did so, I became each Tree, and looked over to see myself sitting there. It was very soothing to sit in the Tree Life Forces. Crosses then led me back to my room where I grounded, eyes still wet.

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A Friend's Deceased Mom

5/8/05: A Journey to visit with a Mother, who died within the past two years, on Mother’s Day, on her Daughter's request. As is always the case with visiting the Deceased, I asked permission first. I opened Sacred Space, with my Rattle, lit the Sacred Candle and Smudged prior to this request. As usual, I then held the Crystal Pendulum well above the Candle and asked if it was allowed for me to visit with the Mom. I got a yes. What this means is that my visit with one of the 3 Soul Parts will not interfere with that part’s Spiritual Destiny. I was denied a visit with someone’s deceased Brother recently for that same reason. Therefore I was quite pleased for the Daughter's sake to get that yes. So I placed the Drum Loop on and was off. I had no idea which World we would be going into, so I waited. I very soon found myself on top of a medium-sized Hill, sunny and covered with Flowers and Plants. The Sky was deep blue and had white puffy Clouds floating by. The Breeze was warm and intoxicating. It was the most splendid of Spring scenes, like the perfect spring Day. And then a Queen Bee came by and flew around me a few times. She then stopped right in front of me, as if waiting for me to follow. As I stood and walked toward her, she led me on. Off in the distance I saw a Woman sitting alone. I looked to my right and my Lower World Guide, Crosses in Front, was slithering along through the Grass with me. High above me, my Upper World Guide, Owl, was flying along. But within a few seconds, I came abruptly to a very high Cliff edge. We just kept right on walking through the Air, with no tendency to fall whatsoever. I looked down and well below was a River. It was colored in many bright Hues, and even the Sunlight reflected back in colors. I realized we were over the River that separates this Life from the Life our Earth Souls take on after Death. So we were staying in the Middle World. This meant we would be visiting with Mom’s Suld, or Earth, Soul. We got to the other side and I approached the Woman, young and lovely, sitting on a Log. She had a small collection of Pussy Willows in front of her, and as I looked around I noticed we were in a grove of them. I went up to her and looked at the ground as I spoke, in humble Averting of the Eyes. She told me not to avert, but rather look up at the Sky, and in particular, the Sun. I did so, and noticed the Moon as a black Orb just off-center of the Sun. I could see both at the same time. Today was the New Moon, and so I was witnessing a sight we don’t see on this side of the River..the New Moon as a shiny, black Circle superimposed on the Sun. As I stared at the Sacred Combo, a golden heart formed in a rope of Mana, looking like a Christmas garland, around the two orbs. I then looked back at Mom. She handed me a pair of wooden Knitting Needles, the color of Oak, with two black Caps on each of the non-point ends. These were obviously a Gift to her Daughter. She then began to speak. She told me she was very happy as a soon-to-be Nature Spirit. She told me that when she finishes up being her Earth Soul, her Spirit Energy will go happily and gratefully into the Blue Heron Clan. I then asked her if she knew of the events surrounding her Children. She said yes, and kept referring to them as the Troubles. She said she visits occasionally, and has seen what is going on. She said she was sad that most of the Children were so focused on material gain. She wished they could see the Truth that lies behind the Façade of what they call Reality. She told me she was proudest of this Daughter, for she is closest to knowing the Truth about what is really Important. She told me she is the most Spiritually connected of all her children. She said she has been feisty and admirable all her Life, and she has enjoyed watching her progress in that combination of strength and gentleness that so well defines the well-adjusted Human Woman. She then told me something remarkable. She said that the day she passed, she merged quickly and for a short time with her Daughter. She left within her the Key to the Spirit World. She said it is still there, and when she finds it and opens that Door, the same Beauty and warm Breezes that I experienced at the start of this Journey will pour through that opened Door and sweep all her worries and cares away..and she will have lasting Peace. I then saw her handling an Amulet or Locket that was shaped as a Heart, but for some reason came on very strongly to me as being associated with or even made/filled with Apple. She then told me that she will visit her Daughter on occasion as a Blue Heron. At one point she will leave a Feather for her. It will be mainly grayish with blue fringe. It will be unmistakable, and the Daughter will immediately recognize it as the gift from her Mom. She then leaned forward and showed me her Necklace. It was a very thin chain, of Silver, and had a small, square Onyx as its charm. She then asked if she could merge with me for a few seconds. I said it was fine. I found myself back in my bedroom, feeling the Mom breathing in and out deeply. She said she found it so wonderful to feel that Air rushing in and out of lungs again. She told me her Daughter must do likewise, and gain that tremendous feeling of the Honor involved in being in her Body still. She then left my Body and we were both back at her site. I felt it was time to take my leave and go back across the River. Just as I was turning to leave, the Call Back sounded..so I had to beat feet back. I went from the Hill back to my Yard, and then came back into the Bedroom. I lay on the floor to ground myself fully. I thanked the Helpers and the Mom for the wonderful experience. Notes: The Bee is a reminder to extract the Honey of Life and to make our Lives fertile while the Sun shines. It reminds us that no matter how great the Dream there is the promise of fulfillment if we pursue it. The Elixir of Life is as sweet as Honey, and we can drink of it if we just pursue our Dreams.

5/9/05: While out and about today, a Queen Bee came and stopped right in front of me, exactly as in this Journey. Here was the Spiritual manifested into the physical. I knew the Mom had sent this Bee, or was this Bee. And, I smiled broadly as I said hello.

I never knew there was a River of Spirit Energy separating the Souls here from the Earth Souls “there.” It is obviously easily crossed, but the Great Spirit has seen fit to separate the two existences..more to keep the Living here than to prevent the Passed Ones from coming here, though.

Blue Heron symbolizes the Great Spirit, among other things. It also symbolizes Aggressive Self-Determination and Self-Reliance.

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Why a Friend Committed Suicide

5/24/05: A Journey taken check on a former neighbor who left the World suddenly last week at age 43. I wanted to make sure he got away cleanly, and asked permission beforehand using the Crystal pendulum. Sacred Space was already open from a prior Journey today, so I went right in for a 15-minute Loop. As I concentrated on my Purpose, I saw thick, billowy and totally black Clouds forming. I saw my Neighbor lying retrained on his back, with a huge Centipede-like monster with lit Eyes and Mouth hovering menacingly over him, as if guarding its prey. Eagle Claw, my upper World Guide, in human versus Bared Owl form, came to me on my left and took me aside. We walked onto a Prairie setting and sat, and then Utawa, my Mirror Spirit, arrived. We all stood and looked down into the Mirror surface. I then saw my Neighbor as a young boy. I saw he used to take a series of wallops on his backside from his Dad. These were always stingingly hard, and came at the slightest provocation. My Neighbor took to hiding, in what looked like the Attic, where he would play with his Toys. At one point his Dad found him there and beat him there, too. A Spirit named Red Slow Hoe (a former farmer?) came to visit with my Neighbor when he was hiding. At first he came as a Play Companion, and gave my Neighbor’s Toys an added Magic, an Alive Quality. His Toys therefore took on a Special Life of their own, a Feeling that lasted with Scott for the rest of his Life. This is why he always was out seeking fun on his “Adult Toys” such as Motorcycles and Dirt Bikes. I saw that his Ami and Suns Souls constantly fled the Beatings, but always came back afterward...he was lucky there, for sometimes they don’t. However, over the years, Red Slow Hoe began to take over my Neighbor...and by the end of his Life, all 3 Souls, the Earth Soul included, had been displaced. It was Red Slow Hoe that took the Life of my Neighbor’s Body, not he himself. My Neighbor’s Earth Soul was now under the control of the Centipede. His Ami soul fled to an area between the orbits of Jupiter and Saturn. I saw it wandering about out there. His Suns Soul had fled to a Cave populated by an Armadillo family. At this point, my Helpers told me to take on the Centipede first. I went back into the Black Clouds and approached the Being with both Shaman Staff and Mirror. I firmly commanded the Being to release my Neighbor and go away. It was intent on resisting. My Staff, in my left Hand, now turned to Blue Energy, no doubt courtesy of Utawa, the Blue Shaman and Mirror Spirit. I lowered the Staff slowly toward the Centipede. The Staff shook formidably as I slowly lowered it. My Arm shook on the Bed as the Staff lowered. I worked against the Being’s staunch resistance, and eventually touched the Being’s Head. The Centipede then quickly dissolved into a mass of Rainbow Light and flowed away. The Black Clouds dispersed. My Neighbor got up and began to speak with me. We hugged. He expressed profound regret at what had just happened. He felt he must go now and help his Wife and Sons. I opened up Sacred Space over him and them. I told him he could guide and protect them, but not interfere in their Lives, for they must walk their Own Path. I then went to retrieve my Neighbor’s other two Souls. My Staff easily attracted the Suns Soul from the Cave. I took it to the World River and watched as it floated over the Waterfall’s top and down into the Lower World. I then went into Space and likewise attracted the Ami Soul with my Staff. This I flung into the World Tree, which looks as if studded with Diamonds, those being the Ami Souls of those awaiting their next Life. My Neighbor’s Earth Soul then came back to me to thank me very much for my intervention. I told him I will help him whenever he calls me in a Dream. I told hin I admired him very much and what he had done in his Life: a very successful business and family. He again expressed great Remorse at what had happened. I told him that had I known what was going on with him I might have been able to intervene to prevent his leaving so soon..but it all transpired according to his Sacred Path. The Call Back then sounded and I left my Neighbor to his new Work as I came back to the Room and thanked my Guides while grounding.

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Healing Journeys

2006-12-03T15:45:00.000-05:00

Hi, Friends. Here is the first Stab at producing a theme-related Blog poosting,. this one to do with healing. There are five so far I have put in here...there are many more, some of which I will add soon. The first is quite long...

THREAT OF RENEWED CANCER REMOVED BY THE HELPERS AND SEEKER

(This series of emails tracks the initial contact right through when the doctor declares this episode, in which the lack of a tumor puts the lie to tests showing a cancer threat, a "fluke." M and I know better.)

INITIAL CONTACT:

6/9/06: Hello Four Hawks,
My Name is M and I am in The US.
I came across your Blog while trying to find
shamanic practitioners in my area and low and behold here
you are. I am contacting you because well, I need help. I was diagnosed
with thyroid cancer in Oct. and treated in Jan.
Recently the doctors have found cause for concern and I have to
go through some tests in July to make sure the cancer has not come back.
I am experiencing a lot of the symptoms that I did before treatment
and they are getting increasingly worse.
The reason that I have to wait till July for these tests is to make sure that
the Radioactive iodine from Jan. is completely out of my system for them to be accurate. Although thyroid cancer is usually very easy to treat, if its not being treated easily then that’s not good.
I really need to get at the cause of all of this, I need to understand and concur it.
And I need help.
I have been researching shamanism since my first encounter
with a shaman about a year ago. I had a healing done and a lot of beautiful
things were revealed to me. The process is something that I truly connect with.
So, if you are free and able to work with me I would be truly truly grateful!
My financial situation is not what it could be at the moment and I would not be able to repay you with a cash exchange at this time. On your site I know that you said that this would not be a problem but, I would need to repay you in some way. Hopefully we can work something out, that is if you can help me.
Hope to here from you soon.
Blessings to you and yours,

6/14: MY FIRST JOURNEY:

As I entered the Spirit World, I saw a little Girl eating Peanut Butter or something similar, straight from a Jar. She was really into it! I knew it was M as a Child. While she was standing there, a big, black Cloud formed nearby. I went over to check it out, and found that it had Lines of Blood running through it. Then, the Spirit of my Brass Mongolian Shaman Figurine (which in this World rests on my Chest when I Journey) came toward me. In each Hand he was lugging a square Block of Light. One was Sky Blue, the other Earth Green. He gave these to me, and when I put them down in front of me, they quickly shape-shifted into two round “Mirrors”, still blue and green, just large enough for my Feet to fit upon. I instinctively stepped onto the Mirrors and found myself being lifted up into the Cloud. Once inside, I was standing inside an old-fashioned, large House. It was Afternoon, but the Walls and Furnishings were thus that the House still had a dark Pall over it. The Surroundings also indicated the People here lived quite comfortably in Terms of Wealth. The House had a least two Stories, and I was very near a large Staircase. In the Hallway next to the Stairs and leading into what was probably the Kitchen/Dining Area, I suddenly saw a large Tombstone sticking out of the Floor. Instead of having a Name on it, it had the single Word, “Anger.” I then saw a Skirmish take Place at the Top of the Staircase. A drunken older Man suddenly pushed a little Girl down the Staircase, killing her. I watched as the Spirit of the Girl hopped out of her Body and ran up to begin beating on the Man with all her Might. She then placed a Curse on his future Offspring and theirs, on down the Line. I sensed that M was a Recipient of this Curse from the distant Past. I was suddenly brought back to the little Girl eating Peanut Butter, and saw that there is a small, donut-shaped Cloud circling M’s thyroid Gland. It is black and lined with Blood, just like the one I had just investigated. M has the Curse! I then asked if this Curse can be removed. I was shown that as a first Step toward Healing, M must procure (if she doesn’t have one already), a Turquoise and Coral Necklace. She must wear this for three consecutive Weeks, taking it off nightly to wash in cold Water. I know from prior Shamanic Experience that this Ritual will help remove most if not all of the Curse Energy. I was then shown that she must burn a Lavender Candle for a Total of four Hours to appease the Anger of the little Girl who was killed on the Stairway. The Scene then shifted several Times. First, I saw a funeral Procession moving slowly along on a very dark and gray day. The Box with the killed Girl’s Body in it was being taken to Burial among Mist and Drizzle in a Horse-drawn Wagon. Again I could see the Spirit of the Girl in total Anger, throwing Dirt and Sticks at the Procession. Then, I saw the Little Girl playing with a very friendly and compassionate Dog. This Scene must have been from when she was alive. Then I saw myself on the Veranda of a very well-appointed House. A black Woman on her 30s came over to me. She was pointing out a heavy-set Boy with reddish Hair and Glasses. She wanted me to listen as he went inside to play “Fur Elise”. I was then shown that to appease the angry Spirit, M should combine all these elements into a single Presentation on her Bureau: the Lavender Candle, a Replica or Picture of a Piano, also that of a Dog, also that of a young Boy with reddish Hair…and should play that Symphony while burning the Candle surrounded by the other Items. This should take care of the Destructive Energy surrounding her Thyroid. After that Energy is gone, any healing Treatments will be far more effective in removing any Damage done to date. The Journey was then complete.

NOTES: The blue and green Mirrors are significant in that they actually represent Father Sky and Mother Earth. It was by combining their Energies that I was allowed to witness the Source of M’s problem. This tells me M must likewise seek balance in her life between male and female energies.

Lavender is also very significant. It helps keep physical and emotional balance, helps deal with the frustrations of others in a stable manner (VERY key given how poorly but understandably the little girl dealt with her impulsive killing), and announces that karmic issues are at hand (that is, issues of destiny). Lavender was used by Solomon to clean sacred circles, as it activates an extremely high vibration that is impenetrable to lower thought forms and astral entities [my emphasis - the angry young girl Spirit]. Lavender relives stress, headaches, insomnia, pains, arthritis and depression. It restores physical and emotional balance. It activates Chakras that control mental clarity, awareness and alertness. It helps remove karmic blockages that hinder spiritual growth. It can allow you to see directly Spirit Beings. It draws love and protection, and reminds us to maintain emotional balance. Now is the time to deal with issues objectively. Maintain your stability, even if those around do not. The issues at hand are probably karmic, and so it is best to deal with them now.

Finally, Shamans use Candles to call in the Center of All Time and Space. The Flame is where all is possible and all exists…so to have it lit over Lavender will make it very powerful in appeasing the Spirit of Anger.”

6/18: M's REPLY:

So, one of the first things that jumped out at me and I just had to laugh was my child eating peanut butter. I have been eating peanut butter non-stop for like a month now. And actually in the healing that I mentioned in my first letter the spirits signaled me by making reference to the apple binge that I was on. This is possibly because in the last few years I have become more conscious of the way I eat.
As far as your Brass Mongolian Shaman Figurine bringing to you the blocks of green and blue light, I was just the other day thinking about those very same colors and there presence in my life. How they make me feel in a way that is beyond words (psychically, I guess), emotionally, where in my body ,ect... I noticed that while I have always had an affinity for blue, it's "airy" and clear texture and quality, I have an unconscious urge to surround myself with the color green, my bedroom, my clothes, and the little things all around.
I have been aware and picking up on the messages to balance my male and female energies for some time now and I've got to say that this seems to be somewhat of a difficult task for me. Just when I think that I've got a grasp on what exactly that means the concept totally eludes me. Maybe it's not an intellectual pursuit, maybe I am making it more difficult then it needs to be, maybe it is the influence of a patriarchal society which makes it difficult for me to balance those tipped scales.
Honestly, I wasn't sure what to make of what you saw with the little girl. I was certainly surprised at the revelation. It is probably the last thing that I would have imagined that you would have found. You said that I am to get a turquoise and coral necklace. The very same day that you made this journey, I was reading a book and it mentioned that turquoise and coral were common combinations in Native American jewelry. I never really knew that and for some reason it jumped out at me.
A couple of weeks ago I asked the spirits to lead me to the necklace that I was supposed to be wearing, I knew instinctively a necklace would help, I just didn't know what kind. After reading your message I searched on-line and found it on e-bay for a price that I could afford. Question: At night when I take it off to wash it, am I to put it right back on or wait till morning?
Also the day that you made the journey I was cleaning and I had the urge to completely rearrange my alter, my alter that I keep on my bureau. I found a small lavender candle that I had bought a while back. And I became some what fixated on the alter and I felt that something needed to be done. I took out a deck of tarot type cards and I drew a card that said "make music". I had no idea what it meant but, I figured I would find out, so put it on my alter. I have gotten I recording of "Fur Elise" and as soon as I find the pictures needed I will go through the ritual prescribed. Questions: am I to only play the song once and just let the candle burn for 4 hours? Have you any idea who this redheaded boy was? Is there any certain type of dog that I should look for in a picture?
You said that this ritual would appease the spirit of the dead girl. Could you explain to me a little more what that means? Is she somehow "released" or is it somewhat like soul retrieval for her? In that, something will be returned to her so that she can become whole and move on? Or is it more like, through me repaying the karmic debt of my ancestor things are in balance again? Where is she? Is it her entire spirit that is there or just a piece or an imprint? Do you continue to help her? Is this curse going to continue to effect others in my family???
Hope that I'm not asking too many questions...

6/21: LATER ON, M WROTE:

You are certainly right about it taking time to absorb all of the metaphors!
I am allowing all of these messages to integrate and watching them develop.
I have gathered all that I need for the candle ritual and I began yesterday.
For what ever reason, I felt guided to play the song twice at the beginning and
twice at the end of the candle burning. Yesterday just after the ritual I was sitting down on the coach and their was a TIME magazine sitting right in front of me. Almost unconsciously I reached for the magazine and started thumbing through and I open up to an ad with one whole full page of just a piano. I gave a little smile, but didn't think too much of it. Then I went out to run errands, I went to this one store that I always go to. As long as I have been going there I have never seen this man working there but, the man that waited on me had red hair and glasses! He had a young boyish face but a steady, gentle demeanor, he was very friendly and it seemed that something about him was begging for my attention. Being somewhat slow to catch on at times it didn't hit me completely until I got in my car and I remembered seeing the piano in the magazine...and then the light went on. Since then it seems everywhere I go there is a red head somewhere in the vicinity.
So, there have been many connections and synchronicities outwardly as well as inwardly. This I hope and believe a is a sign that things are changing, moving, healing... or beginning to anyway.
I have not received the necklace yet but, any day now.
Thank You! for the tip about the color green. I have actually read that about cancer and the color green years ago but, you hear so many different things and what has always stuck with me is green as a healing color. But thanks for reinforcing that idea, it does make sense doesn’t it? Although, I am noticing the color everywhere I go and today I was at my therapists and I saw her aura loud and clear as a vibrant green color. I don't see auras all of the time and usually not that vibrantly, so I assume that this has some reason. Or maybe I just picked up on it because I'm thinking of it now? I stopped wearing green and I will try to shift my attention to one of the other colors that you had mention would be good.
I will be very curious to see who my power animal is. In the 1st healing I had Lion was brought back for me and I know that I have a strong connection to Raven, I have for a long time even before I knew anything of power animals. It is my understanding that we have one or a few steady animal spirits that are with us throughout our lifetime and then others who come and go and are with us until we no longer need them. Is this so?
I am so excited to have your help and the help of the spirits. It has given me hope that all of this can be sorted out (in what ever way that is). I'm still scared at times but for the first time in a while I feel like I can let go and without expectations, allow things to be what and how they are and no matter what things will be O.K...so I guess that the healing has begun.
Let the chain of anger end here.
Blessings to you,

7/2: LATER M WROTE: Well, trying to stay centered...Trying to stay centered because that's the way through, now isn't it.I've been feeling a little anxious with my tests coming up ... I'm sure it doesn't help that I'm on what they call a "suppressive" dose of hormones. They use this dosage for the next 5 years to stop any, if there is any, thyroid tissue from growing. The dose makes me hyperthyroid.i think that by nature I am such a laid back and quiet person that I really have to work atreleasing anxiety and tension by finding different outlets. While as some others might be able to release it by just being "hyper" or amping up there outer energy.I try to exercise as much as possible and I've been working on different art pieces. I've actually been working on a collage, the left side is all images that represent the feminine andthe right images of the masculine and in the center they sort of blend into one another.It's definitely helping me to focus on the balance of male/female in my life.I can feel it working.When I mentioned that I was having trouble grasping these concepts, what you said about it was so simple, but for what ever reason, it really helped me to get it.

(7/5)THEN M EXPLAINS AN EARLIER MESSAGE TO ME : As far as the flashing lights, it has always been at the foot of the stairs that I have
seen them. They are white and green and rather large and close to my body. I am curious to see what you would be able to find out. That would be great! Thanks.

I will definitely burn some incense as an offering right away, in fact as soon as I'm done here. I have some lotus incense that I can use. I wanted to ask you what I should do with the unburned portion of the lavender candle? and as far as the pictures of the boy, dog, and piano putting them in the recycling bin should be good, right?

7/11 FOUR HAWKS WRITE BACK: Hi, M. Oh the tides of time. I performed a second Journey on you last night to make sure the broken necklace was not a problem. It isn’t, but there were so other good lessons in there for you, mainly to seek total balance. Although all things have difference and can even be at extremes from one another, the Shaman view of life is that all things come from Great Spirit, and are therefore Sacred and made of the same Spirit Stuff. This applies as well to health and illness. Also, it is important for you to temper your male side down a bit…that is, make your analytical and reasoning skills more like a young boy’s than an older man’s. I’ll try to get both of these to you today or tomorrow, but my time is so thin right now!

(7/11) TWO ADDITONAL JOURNEYS FOR M: Hi, M. Here are the two Journeys I promised you…I did some explaining, but you may have more to offer..

JOURNEY #1

7/7/06: A Journey taken at M’s Request to check on some lights she has been seeing when heading up her Staircase at Home. These are small Balls of Light, indicating in her Peripheral Vision. I initially told her I see these also, for they are little Glimpses of the Soul Parts that run up and down the Axis of the Human Energy Field through the Chakras. I felt there was no need to go further, until she told me she was now seeing white AND green Orbs. This changed my Approach, and hence this Journey to determine what is up.

As I entered the Spirit World, I found myself at a Picnic Table. My Protectors, Two Feathers and Gray Wolf, were there, as well as my Mirror Spirit, Utawa. They were all eating fresh Corn off the Cob. I then saw my Upper World Guide, Eagle Claw, heading toward us with a large Apron full of more Corn! An Abundance if ever I saw one! So I sat and began eating, too. Then, in the Center of the Table, I saw a green and white Box form. The Colors were swirling and morphing around the Box, and evermore so with Time. As I kept on eating my Corn, the Scene shifted. Now there were two, tall Towers of Energy, one Green and one White. Faces formed at the Top of each Column…and they were identical. Suddenly I and the two Light Beings dropped through the Ground into a Forest. There was a Dirt Path there, which I began walking along. I soon came to a Clearing with a large Fountain of Light. The two Light Beings knelt at the Fountain. Two additional Colors now formed over the Fountain, blue and yellow. All four Beings, aside from there Color, now looked alike. They all got together and began to circle the Fountain at ever-higher Speed. Soon, there was a white/blue Ring of Energy surrounding the Fountain, made up of these four Beings. They had merged. I caught this Energy with my Mirror. I then watched as the Scene shifted back to the Picnic Table. My Guides there told me that this all meant that M’s Soul is trying to fragment, thereby pulling her in all different Directions, in all Ways. I was told she needs to reunify her Energies. To do this, they gave me another Candle Exercise for M. This is very important, for Fire is the Center of Existence, and any Ceremony with it included is therefore very powerful. M is to find four Candles: blue, white, yellow and green. She is to burn them together, and if possible (without setting her House on Fire) get the Energies to merge, at least for a short Time. The Call Back then sounded and I returned to the Room. As I lay there coming back, a brief Scene displayed in which I saw a Doctor, seemingly acting in a positive Manner…but I have no other details.

NOTES:

CORN: It is time to merge the sacred with the mundane; new life and abundance. Corn reminds us to be practical and pragmatic while still holding onto our dreams. It also reminds us to be grateful for what we are and have.

GREEN reflects calming, balancing, growth. It increases compassion. It soothes the nervous system. Green awakens friendliness, hope, faith and peace. It stimulates growth. It cancels out red’s effects. Never use green around cancerous growths, though (unless so directed by Spirit Helpers, of course).

BLUE means relaxation, antiseptic, cooling. It awakens intuition and eases loneliness. It awakens artistic expression and creativity, and is very effective when mixed with the warm colors. Orange represents joy, wisdom and creativity It stimulates feelings of socialness. It is tied to our emotional health and the muscular system.

WHITE This symbolizes great Spirit Power of very high order. White light can be used to wash the Aura and Spirit clean through both physical and imaginational use. “

JOURNEY NUMBER 2:

“7/7/06: A Journey taken at M’s Request to check on the breaking of her Coral and Turquoise Healing Necklace. She was concerned this would have a detrimental effect on her Healing, and although I felt it would not, I decided I would make sure. A very interesting Journey ensued:

As I entered the Spirit World, I found that the little Girl who had died in the first Journey for M was the little “Imp” who had playfully unhooked the Necklace. I asked and sensed that the Spirit who had initially invaded M has been appeased by her earlier Ritual with Candles, etc., as tasked in Journey 1. I asked the little Girl, “Why did you do that? You are scaring M who is trying to heal from an Invasion of Dark Energy. Let’s go for a Walk.” So I took her by the Hand to lead her away from M and we soon found ourselves walking along the top Ledge of an incredible high Wall. The Ledge was hardly 6 inches wide, and it was an extraordinary Feat of Balance that we did not teeter off in either Direction. Suddenly, ahead of us, we saw a threatening Tiger, who appeared lit from within, signaling he was a Spirit Being. As he made for us, we walked bravely on and he passed right through us. I remember telling the little Girl is was an “Impression, not Reality.” Then, we saw a huge flying Elephant heading down to us from above. By now the top of the Wall had shape-shifted into a Log, and so balancing was even more perfect. The Trunk swung right through us, and I said to the Girl, “Same thing!” We then stepped off the log and walked along a short rocky Area. Ahead was a Place I had been to before when trying to help a person who was dying of Cancer. I went into this Place back then to try to stop the Disease, and was barely able to get out alive myself. So for Lack of a better term, let’s call this Place the “Castle of Dying.” I told the Girl, “I’ve been here before…” She answered, “So have I! Briefly, after I fell down the Stairs…I ran out, it was so dark and scary in there!” I went right up to the Building and peeked into the Window before me. Right next to it, to my left, I suddenly saw a Face and nothing more outlined in Light. I knew by its Look it was an Adversary, so I grabbed my Mirror and went to hold it up against this Being. Simultaneously, it grabbed my Arm, and were suddenly locked in a Stand-off, neither side advancing. Suddenly, my Upper World Guide came in from the Right, charging the Being. This distracted it, and then my Mirror Spirit Utawa popped out of the Mirror itself and began oppressing the Being. “Sorry, Utawa,” it said as it fled. The three of us then walked around the nearly pitch-black Rooms. There was just enough Light on a Wall I was approaching to see a small brass nameplate with “M---” on it. I began fretting that this might mean that M was doomed to come here, when the little Girl came up and said, “Oh, that was my name Plate. I’m a M--- also.” I could see now the Plate was older and dirty. lITTLE M then began running around the Rooms as if it were broad Daylight (so much for “dark and scary” now…). Suddenly LITTLE M chased a large, lit Toad out of a Rom and the two went running by us, LITTLE M laughing in Joy. I turned to Utawa when they had left and all was dark and quiet and said, “It really IS peaceful in here, isn’t it?!” Utawa replied, “It’s a big Difference from the last Time you were in here,” smiling. I then saw that in the Room just over to our right now had Flames in it. We went in to find all in the Room on Fire. Soon, it became a Forest on Fire. We followed the Burn right to the Edge of a Lake. Out over the Water, I saw grown M kneeling, praying fervently. Two Beings of Light were on either Side of her. One was Black, the other White. “She must choose one or the other, OR balance them,” said Utawa. I watched as she merged the two Beings into herself. Having balanced these Beings, M’s Aura became normal. I then saw her Face staring out at the surrounding Universe, laid out in Splendor before her, and she had a Look of joyful Awe about her. I then saw a heavy, older Man walking out of M and turn into a young Boy. Then, M disappeared. We were then back at the Castle. We walked by it instead of into it. I could still here the Toad running around within. LITTLE M, Utawa and I then headed out for the transit Log. Suddenly, I caught a Spear, similar to the one that had almost killed me the first Time I was in this Castle, with my right Hand, without even looking behind to see it coming. This showed I had conquered this Place and its occasional Illness Spirits. We crossed back to where we started, and found numerous, gorgeous purple Flowers. Then, there were yellows. Finally, red-orange Colors. This looked as if we were walking Top to Bottom through an Aura. The final Glimpse I had was that these Flowers were in a prestigious College-like Setting. The Call Back then sounded.

NOTES: This seems to show that M will conquer whatever symptoms result from the initial Invasion. She chooses to Balance the “Black” and White” versus choosing one over the other (and this is a decidedly Shamanic Stance), and this theme of Balance repeats itself often in the Journey. She balances herself over the Lake (emotions, femininity) to behold the world in joy again. The transformation of old man to boy shows she must use her left-brain, male side in a childlike manner…analysis for learning and fun, not for serious business.

TIGER: The Tiger represents Passion, Power, Devotion and Sensuality.

ELEPHANT: It represents Ancient Power, Strength and Royalty. It is a symbol of royalty and fertility. The Hindu God of wisdom and success is depicted with an elephant’s head. The elephant was usually the royal mount. It was the warrior God and the God of the monsoons in India. Elephants have good memories..of others who have cased it harm! They embody strength, especially power of the libido. They are also seen as symbols of great sexual power.

Elephants are also linked to clouds because of their size. Clouds are made of mist, and represent the transition between the formed and unformed (rain and unseen moisture). This links again to the ocean/land interface, and suggest a state of continuing metamorphosis.

The trunk gives the elephant a great sense of smell. This means you should be paying attention to things and situations that “don’t smell right.” You need to be very discriminating. This also suggests you should look into aromatherapy for healing and calming. The trunk is used for many things..eating, watering, etc. This reflects your need and ability to open to energies and worlds otherwise inaccessible. The tusks are used for digging edible roots. This again suggests a need to concentrate on plants and roots..those things grown in the Earth, as seen in the prior Spirit Health Journey.

Elephants group separately in female and male, except for mating. In both, sub-groups involve the young, the adult and the wise old one. Elephants also show great affection and loyalty to each other, and mutually help the old, the weak/sick and the young.,.and each other They exhibit powerful societal and family ideals. Again, like the monkey, you are called to become more social and aware..helping those in need no matter what their station, age or gender. You can draw on ancestral wisdom and power, and reclaim your primordial royalty!

FIRE: represents the Gol, the Mongolian Name for the Center of all being, of one’s own being; the jump-off point for Journeying to all places and Times. Its represents the Energy of Change and Transformation to the new from the destruction of the old. There are Pine Cones, for example, that will not release their Seeds until they are heated to a temperature that only a raging Fire can produce. Once the Fire is gone, these seeds take root to produce the next generation of Trees. “

See whatcha think!

(7/16) M'S RESPONSE TO THE NEW JOURNEYS: O.k. so here goes...there was so much in these wonderful journeys that it feels a little overwhelming to try to respond..

In the first Journey the mention of corn definitely stuck out. I made this pasta salad with corn in it and every time that I ate it these past couple days or so I would comment on how it needed more corn. And also, on the day that my Father went into Boston with me we were talking about food and his eating more healthfully and he said that corn had no nutritional value. This struck me as odd and I said " It's corn, it's got to have something to it". I just couldn't except that . So, I looked it up and I found that it does have nutritional value, not as much as some other vegetables, but it definitely did have some (protein, fiber, vit A, C, and B1 and B5, also phytonutrients which prevent cancer) and it is also beneficial for what it doesn't have or has little of (cholesterol, sodium).

Then, the explanation that you gave for the meaning of corn matches exactly with the explanation of turquoise and coral that I had read in the book that I had mentioned when you had preformed the first Journey. It said "turquoise represents spirituality (it's health, well-being, within an individual) and coral represents the "life" of spirituality" and together they bring about the grounding of the spiritual in everyday life. This, I know is Huge for me.

That my soul is trying to fragment was something that took me by surprise at first (Is this something that shamans come across often? Have you ever seen this before? why would this happen?) But, now that I think of it, it makes perfect sense. That is exactly how I feel. Very scattered, not able to draw my energy together, and hesitant and unsure of which direction to move in because there are so many things that I could do or see or be.

I preformed the candle ritual today. (Is it common for you to give tasks with candles when working with people?) When I first lit them I laid down to meditate and there was a bird outside in my back yard squawking insistently. There are ALWAYS birds in the back yard, we have bird feeders all over. But this bird felt like it wanted my attention so I sat up and looked out the window. It was a blue jay. As soon as I looked out he stopped his call and went about his business.
before I began the ritual I had to decide between two blue candles (one light, the other dark) . I felt like I should use the light one. When I saw the blue jay, who was the exact shade of blue as the candle I used I was confident that it was the right one.
After the ritual I looked up Blue Jay in Animal Speak and it said that Blue Jay stood for "proper use of power". It said that "it has the ability to link the heavens and the earth", this of course parallels the message you received in the 1st Journey that you performed for me. Also, there is mention of scattered energy and being a "dabbler". I completely identify with this and have been thinking a lot about it lately.
Also, as I was meditating I saw many things but, I kept seeing the image of a crown repeatedly. In the description of the Jay there is mention of the crest as a crown and also mention of royalty. In the other Journey you saw the flying Elephant which also stands for royalty (among other things). I am taking this to mean a coming into one's own power. Is that also how you see it? Am I missing any of the meaning behind this or do you have any insight that might help me to grasp this better?

When I preformed the ritual the blue candle burned twice as quickly as the rest (they were all the same candle different colors). So blue went out first, then white, then yellow, and then green. At the end I was left with a puddle of mostly green candle wax and blue (no trace of white or yellow).

7/17 LATER ON, M ADDS: I was reading a book today called "Legacy of Luna" by Julia Butterfly Hill. ( she is this amazing heroic woman who lived up in a Redwood tree for over 2 years! to bring attention to saving the old growth forests). And well, the short passage that I read today was about this really terrible storm that she had to survive up at the top of this 180 ft tree on a 5' by 7' plank covered only by a piece of blue tarp. At this point she had been up there for almost 100 days and she was feeling really worn down and scared and overwhelmed at the thought of having to bear the brunt of this storm. At first she was really scared and she latched on to one of the tree's branches and clung with every inch of her might, fighting against the wind. Then she heard Luna (the tree) speak to her and she said "Think of the trees in the storm. Learn the power of the trees. Let it flow. Let it go. That is the way you are going to make it through the storm. And that is that way you will make it through the storms of life." Of course she does just this, and with the passing of the storm a peace that could not be felt fully without going through the storm comes to her, and she is transformed.
I'm not sure if you can relate any of this to what you are going through right now. But, I really felt like I should send it along and I figured if it helps then, beautiful! if it doesn't then nothing lost. But, I really hope it does.

(7/20) M UPDATES HER CONDITION: Sorry that it has taken a while to get back. I heard from the Dr. yesterday. The official word is not in yet. My iodine scan came back negative, which would be great except that my PET scan did not. My thyroglobulin levels are elevated and she says that it is in all likelihood positive.
My doctor is supposed to call me tomorrow with their official determination. So...I am trying to remain calm and centered but, in all truthfulness that is probably the last thing that I am. Such a strange feeling, I feel everything at once, or maybe it is just moving so quickly from one spectrum to the other that the lines are blurred. All is one. The light is dark and the dark light. Everything seems very surreal, like being in a car accident...how it happens in a split second yet feels like slow-mo. Everything feels so quiet and still, eerie. which makes me feel completely present, yet not....the eye of the storm.
I have faith though...although it seems to be on the outer orbits of my existence, some where circling in this frenzy. I can sense it. It's there.
Just need to let go and realize that gravity is holding me...I won't be hurled out into space to tumble endlessly further and further out. I've got to Trust...
and I will, I mean, I do. Deeply, It's just removed at the moment.
So, needless to say I will have to get back about the 2nd journey. Focusing is not really in the cards at the moment.

7/21 ANOTHER UPDATE FROM M: I did hear back from my Dr. today and the feedback that she had for me today was so much more positive than what she had said on Wednesday. That is, they have not deemed the test positive, or negative. Yes, if it had been determined positive this would mean that there would be another tumor. (actually 2 in this case, as there are 2 spots lighting up). There would have been a huge difference in this diagnosis from in the last tumor though. The treatment that is typically used to treat thyroid cancer is radioactive iodine, and this is usually very effective as a treatment because it completely destroys thyroid tissue (and only thyroid tissue). But if a thyroid cancer is not taking up iodine, (as in the negative iodine scan might suggest) this effective treatment is rendered obsolete. Other treatments (chemo and radiation) can be used but are often, but not always, unsuccessful.
There is also the fact that my thyroglobulin levels are elevated. Thyroglobulin is usually used after RAI (Radioactive Iodine) treatment to track any reoccurrence of tumor. But, a very small percentage of people produce antibodies, which can cause interference with the thy-glob levels. I happen to be one of those people. So, basically what this means is that while these elevated levels are suspicious, they can not be relied upon.
The next steps are to retest these levels at a few different labs, including one in CA that specializes in these tests, and see if there are any differences in the #'s. If there are then it can most likely be concluded that these have no bearing on what these small spots are.
Also I have to go in for an MRI so that they can compare scans.

(7/7) M'S RESPONSE TO JOURNEY 2:

A Journey taken at M’s Request to check the breaking of her Coral and Turquoise Healing Necklace. She was concerned this would have a detrimental effect on her Healing, and although I felt it would not, I decided I would make sure. A very interesting Journey ensued:

As I entered the Spirit World, I found that the little Girl who had died in the first Journey for M was the little “Imp” who had playfully unhooked the Necklace.

- The day that I ended up reading this I woke up in the morning and the necklace was hanging around my neck with just the clasp undone. It did end up breaking a few times more before the 3 weeks were up but, I was able to fix it.

I asked and sensed that the Spirit who had initially invaded M has been appeased by her earlier Ritual with Candles, etc., as tasked in Journey 1.

- The reason I had asked about the candle rituals and whether or not it was common for you to give these tasks was because a couple of months ago I started gathering different color candles a little at a time and got a candle spell book. I never actually preformed any spells or rituals though, until the first one the spirit gave.

I asked the little Girl, “Why did you do that? You are scaring M who is trying to heal from an Invasion of Dark Energy. Let’s go for a Walk.” So I took her by the Hand to lead her away from M and we soon found ourselves walking along the top Ledge of an incredible high Wall. The Ledge was hardly 6 inches wide, and it was an extraordinary Feat of Balance that we did not teeter off in either Direction. Suddenly, ahead of us, we saw a threatening Tiger, who appeared lit from within, signaling he was a Spirit Being. As he made for us, we walked bravely on and he passed right through us. I remember telling the little Girl is was an “Impression, not Reality.” Then, we saw a huge flying Elephant heading down to us from above. By now the top of the Wall had shape-shifted into a Log, and so balancing was even more perfect. The Trunk swung right through us, and I said to the Girl, “Same thing!” We then stepped off the log and walked along a short rocky Area. Ahead was a Place I had been to before when trying to help a person who was dying of Cancer. I went into this Place back then to try to stop the Disease, and was barely able to get out alive myself. So for Lack of a better term, let’s call this Place the “Castle of Dying.” I told the Girl, “I’ve been here before…” She answered, “So have I! Briefly, after I fell down the Stairs…I ran out, it was so dark and scary in there!” I went right up to the Building and peeked into the Window before me. Right next to it, to my left, I suddenly saw a Face and nothing more outlined in Light. I knew by its Look it was an Adversary, so I grabbed my Mirror and went to hold it up against this Being. Simultaneously, it grabbed my Arm, and were suddenly locked in a Stand-off, neither side advancing. Suddenly, my Upper World Guide came in from the Right, charging the Being. This distracted it, and then my Mirror Spirit Utawa popped out of the Mirror itself and began oppressing the Being. “Sorry, Utawa,” it said as it fled. The three of us then walked around the nearly pitch-black Rooms. There was just enough Light on a Wall I was approaching to see a small brass nameplate with “M---” on it.

- This image of the name plate and also of the tombstone that you saw in the house from the first journey that said "Anger" brought to mind an experience that I had a little after my meeting with the other shaman woman who had journeyed on my behalf. I went to this spot in the cemetery where I and a group of friends used to go quite often. The first time that I was shown this place was the first day of a huge end and beginning for me and I felt called to go there. A crow came and landed in the tree near me and was cawing at me. So I spoke to it and said "show me what I need to know". I followed it across the cemetery until it stopped in a tree and started again to caw at me. I stood there for a sec. then went over to a wall directly underneath the crow but I wasn't understanding so I walked away a little bit and looked back. The headstone that I had been standing next to directly under the crow said MY last name. And it struck me right away, went right through me. At first I felt a little uneasy but I interpreted it to mean the death of my old life and the birth of a new. And I think that this is all connected.

I began fretting that this might mean that M was doomed to come here, when the little Girl came up and said, “Oh, that was my name Plate. I’m a M also.”

- That the little girl and I have the same name means so much! I can draw so many parallels of the little girl's experience to my own life. Metaphorically of course.

I could see now the Plate was older and dirty. M then began running around the Rooms as if it were broad Daylight (so much for “dark and scary” now…)

- WOW! Yay! I was wondering if you could say about how old little M was.

Suddenly Little M chased a large, lit Toad out of a Rom and the two went running by us, Little M laughing in Joy. I turned to Utawa when they had left and all was dark and quiet and said, “It really IS peaceful in here, isn’t it?!” Utawa replied, “It’s a big Difference from the last Time you were in here,” smiling. I then saw that in the Room just over to our right now had Flames in it. We went in to find all in the Room on Fire.

- When I was younger, about 15 or so, I had a fire in my room. I had lit a candle and fallen asleep. Some woke me. I didn't see or here anyone but I sensed a presence wake me. The room was so thick with smoke that I couldn't even find my own door. I had to feel along the wall and afterward you could see my black hand prints all along the wall. Maybe this is connected? Maybe I came closer to death in that moment then I even realized.

Soon, it became a Forest on Fire.

- This reminds me of when I was little... I used to imagine that on the other side of my door was a magical forest. I used to draw pictures of it. I really wondering if this room of fire may have been my room as a kid in the spirit world...Oh wow, an image of "Sarah" from the "Labyrinth", when she finds the place in the Labyrinth that looks like her room (remember?) just came over me.
We followed the Burn right to the Edge of a Lake. Out over the Water, I saw grown M kneeling, praying fervently. Two Beings of Light were on either Side of her. One was Black, the other White. “She must choose one or the other, OR balance them,” said Utawa. I watched as she merged the two Beings into herself. Having balanced these Beings, M’s Aura became normal. I then saw her Face staring out at the surrounding Universe, laid out in Splendor before her, and she had a Look of joyful Awe about her.

- Ken, I believe that this is what has come to fruition in these past couple of days. The way I see it I grew up with patterns of emotional repression (My Father) and deep denial (My Mother). My Mother has never asked me anything about the cancer and leaves the room every time I try to talk about it. Anyway, I eventually developed (because of all of my bottled up emotions) a denial of anything that could be considered "dark" about myself. I refused to admit my true feelings, first to my Mother and Father because I did not want to be rejected or ignored anymore and then to myself. On the 1st day that I talked to my Dr. she did not sound reassuring. I think that I could have stayed "calm", for lack of a better word. (When I first found out I had cancer I went skydiving for the 1st time. When I landed on the ground not a drop of adrenaline had gone through my system, I wanted to see how strong I could be.) That’s not what I needed to do (to stay calm). I needed to feel what ever it was that came through and I did, I let go. I needed to feel my light and dark, my strength and weakness. I realized that I am NOT afraid of dying. I never have been... I've always been afraid of living and it occurred to me that if I were to leave now that my life will have been wasted. On Friday when I heard back from the Dr. she had a completely different tone. I felt a relief that I can't even explain afterward. I was like a giddy child. I feel better then I have in a long while. EVERYTHING is beautiful and I am SO Thankful that I can see and feel this now. I thought it before, I was aware of it before, now I KNOW...Joyful Awe would be the perfect way to sum it up.

The Tiger has also come through. I feel a renewed sense of passion.. for life definitely but, also a creative passion I have not felt in a long time. So many beautiful images. I think the challenge here is to stay "devoted" to this new found passion, and to stay "balanced" within it.

I then saw a heavy, older Man walking out of M and turn into a young Boy.

- This I immediately related to, I can definitely be too analytical, too hard. With myself and I must admit in a way with others as well. But I think that the boy has stepped forward more now.

Then, M disappeared. We were then back at the Castle. We walked by it instead of into it. I could still here the Toad running around within. Little M, Utawa and I then headed out for the transit Log.

- So, the little girl is definitely in a better place now as she so deserves to be...Thank Goodness! I hope that she is surrounded by the most loving beings! and I'm sure that she is.

Suddenly, I caught a Spear, similar to the one that had almost killed me the first Time I was in this Castle, with my right Hand, without even looking behind to see it coming. This showed I had conquered this Place and its occasional Illness Spirits.

- This is also WONDERFUL! to hear, that you have come out of that place stronger.

We crossed back to where we started, and found numerous, gorgeous purple Flowers. Then, there were yellows. Finally, red-orange Colors. This looked as if we were walking Top to Bottom through an Aura. The final Glimpse I had was that these Flowers were in a prestigious College-like Setting. The Call Back then sounded.

- Oh, yes...something else I forgot to mention. Yesterday I came across a tarot card. This certain deck had the "High Priestess" pictured with a black column to one side of her and a White column to the other! The black column had a "B" on it and the white an "L" on it. (Black and Light? don't know)

8/6: ME TO HER: Hi, M. I performed a Divination for you today and it was a very positive one. Like rain falling onto the flowers, it said. Good things are coming your way! Things are to get better. You will have a long period of happiness. But once again they are asking you to burn 13 sticks of incense in thanks for this good fortune. So what you are going through now is temporary. :)

8/7: Thank You Ken...
I already feel better. Actually I started to feel more up yesterday so I burnt some incense before I received your message, offering the smoke to the spirits to enjoy as you had said to do before.
I think that shall count for #1 and the rest I will do one a day for 12 more days.
"Like rain falling down onto the flowers" ..that is beautiful!!!
I heard from my doctor today and the MRI came back clear, that is they found nothing unusual or suspicious. My doctors have never seen anything like this before...
but they seem fairly certain that it is just some fluke thing.

Yes, this certainly does deserve a big "Thank You"! and I truly am very thankful. I have felt much closer to spirit lately. Like my intentions and prayers have been connecting much more... Much closer. I can feel them around me, and I thank you for being there for me and helping me get to this point.

I have started to ease into a qigong practice again and I also have started to perform rituals as I feel guided to. I have so much to learn and I'm excited to learn it.

8/16: I am doing very well, of course difficulties and obstacles both inwardly and outwardly arise but, I feel as if I am moving through them instead of trying to avoid them. I really feel like I am working with and in these energies breaking them up a little at a time. And as you mentioned, making friends with them. Accepting them and not giving them the power and fear that I used to associate with them but, seeing them as the gifts and challenges that will make me a better person and even loving them for that fact. I am learning a lot and giving Thanks every day.

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SPIRIT SISTER'S GROWTH DISAPPEARS

12/7/04: At the request of my Spirit Sister, I took a Journey this evening to investigate a new physical ailment she herself is suffering from. Her physician has reported a misplaced ovary with a possible growth (“one of my ovaries is way out of place and has something attached to it”), which must be checked via ultrasound a week from this Thursday. My Spirit Sister asked me to check it out in advance so she’d be better prepared. So I took a quick Hollow Bone Journey as taught a few weeks ago when the Bone was first given to me. I opened Sacred Space quickly with my Rattle and lit the Sacred Candle after a quick Smudging. As I went into the Journey, I found myself standing at the entrance of the Bone with my Barred Owl Guide, Eagle Claw. As we went in, the interior took on the appearance of a hospital testing room. I saw Sister lying down on her back on a hospital bed while a male attendant checked out her lower abdomen. I walked around to look at the TV screen, but was unable to interpret the view. The attendant showed no emotion either way while viewing the screen, and so I cannot get a good reading on just how serious the issue is. However, my personal view is that no reaction is a good reaction. I then foresaw a small operation, and saw Anne recuperating at home, apparently in January based on the sunlight and weather..it seemed like January at least in terms of its look. Then, as Eagle Claw and I were moving back out of the Bone, thinking we were finished, the interior unexpectedly darkened completely, with only a few scattered wall adornments shining as if lit by a black light. My Sister, still lying on the bed, was the only object seemingly lit from above. I then saw a Dark Being hovering over her, reaching into her lower left abdomen. Anne has an Entity attached! I was quite surprised. Eagle Claw and I then immediately increased our Aural strength to keep out any unwanted imprints from this Being. The Being spotted us and checked us out, but we were safe within the Rainbow Walls of the Aural Field. I then began my female Chant, and saw Woman in a Grass Dress, my Amazonian Helper, move over to sit beside Sister, up by her left shoulder. The Entity then retreated to a rear wall..I could see its eyes staring blankly as its power over Sister was checked. She is now safe from any further intrusions, but I must do a full journey to discover the nature of this Visitor.

12/8/04: This afternoon I took the follow-on Journey for Spirit Sister. My intent was to discover the identity of and then escort the Entity hovering over her back to the Spirit Camp. I performed a more lengthy Rattling to open Sacred space, more in keeping with tradition. I then Smudged and lit the Sacred Candle. I then set up a 15-minute Drum Loop, and breathed Shamanically for an extra long time to ensure I was totally relaxed and receptive. I was soon standing on a dirt road leading up to the entrance of the Hollow Bone, in which I saw Sister yesterday. There were several hundred people lining the road on both sides, right up to the entrance. I saw Barred Owl and Eagle zooming around in circles above the entrance, beckoning me to approach. I was dressed as a Native American Warrior, with my crystal resting on my right front thigh in a deerskin sheath. The people were all looking at me..I was apparently their champion. I then raised my arms to the Sky Father and brought down several gigantic lightning bolts onto the top of the Bone. I then walked up the dirt road to the entrance. There I was met by my own Spirit Guardian, Two Feathers. At this point I was wondering exactly what I was in for..this was quite the unusual Crowd, dress, and approach, and I had my three main Guides with me for my protection. I had a temporary feeling I was going inside that Bone to wrestle with my own Dark Force, my biggest nemesis to date. Two Feathers blew Sage and Sweet Grass on me as I went inside. The Woman in a Grass Dress was now standing over Anne, and in full human form. As she saw me approach, she left. I looked, and the Entity was still standing at the rear wall. He approached me and stared very closely into my eyes. I then decided to back off and open up Sacred Space over Sister and myself as I moved to her right side. I then lifted the entire Bone up through the Sky and out into Space, among the Stars. From there I was quickly transported to a scene from the South, from some time in the recent past. There was a southern-style mansion in the distance, with a large field leading down to a huge tree under which I was standing. I saw a young boy of 5-7 then appear, and saw that he had just choked to death on what I feel was an acorn he tried to swallow whole. I then was revealed to me that the Spirit of this Boy then reached through time to take hold of Sister when she was living in the South and more Spiritually vulnerable. He literally reached through time to get to her now, even though in Earth years we are at least several decades along from his Death. He jumped instantaneously into the now, since in the Spirit World time is quite the flexible to non-existent property. It seems the Boy was totally lacking in any sort of Feminine Balancing Energy, and was seeking this Energy from her. We then were back in the Bone Cave. I took my Crystal Wand and absorbed the Entity. My Wand was then glowing with a flesh color! I took the Wand outside and called down a Lightning Strike to remove the Entity’s Spirit and transmute it to the Spirit Camp. I barely recall the actual Strike, but not the Transmutation, though. However, I remember my own Body twitching sharply on the bed at this point..a jolt of some magnitude. I then found myself on a River’s Bank, gently running the tip of the Wand across and through the surface, to release the Entity into Water. This is the preferred method for doing this, so perhaps the Lightning Strike was a non-effective idea. I then found myself in an old Mexican courtyard, and saw a religious Woman approach me fully dressed in a White and Blue habit. She brought me a small, golden Box. She opened it to reveal a searingly-white Heart Shape within. She told me this was part of the heart Energy of Sister’s Power Animal, the White Eagle, and that she should keep this box close to her at all times..in her Mind and Spirit, obviously. I then saw myself assisting in giving Sister injections of Papaya Juice, directly into her abdomen, surrounding her growth. I remember wondering what properties papaya could possibly have to reverse the course of the Growth’s Life. I then saw Sister standing, completely surrounded by a healthy Aura. I then turned and walked out of the Bone. The People who had been lining the Road disappeared as I fell to the Ground in humility. I got the impression they were with Sister in some way, as if she were their Medicine Woman. Now that she was healed, they all went on their way. I thanked all my Guides and Helpers and soon thereafter the Call Back sounded. I believe I was shown one more unrelated image or two before the Call Back, but can’t remember it/them. I shall run my actual Crystal Wand in water to cleanse whatever is left of the Entity so it can go home totally in one piece and in one peace.

Here is Sister’s response later in the same evening of the 8th: “Thank you! A boy…how interesting! There were lots of weak aura times while I was living in the South, so it would not surprise me to have had him attach during that time. Poor kid…thanks for sending him home. I could tell when I was at Disciple tonight that a weight was lifted. My energy started returning and my outlook improved and I thought, “I’ll bet Ken found the time to do the journey.”

Here’s a link to the healing properties of papaya. http://www.europeanvegetarian.org/evu/english/news/news001/papaya.html. [Ed Note: This site is replete with praise for the healing qualities of papaya for many illnesses, including cancer!] Now I’ll have to find a place that has them. Apparently there are both Mexican and Hawaiian variants. Since there was a Mexican connection in the journey, I’m assuming I should go for the Mexican papaya if I can find it.

Interesting about the crowd. The number is about the size of the active membership at my Church, so maybe that’s who they were. And another mention of the eagle on the day that my Florida family writes me that the eagles have begun setting on the nest. They had no young last year at all, so that’s very good news…even more so since their old nest got blown down in one of Florida’s many hurricanes this summer. They had to start from scratch and build a new one…guess it paid off! Maybe it will be a white baby…

Thank you again for following your path and helping me to follow mine in health!”

I then reminded Sister it was the Helpers who passed all this valuable info along, that I was merely the channel. I also mentioned that a White Eaglet would cause quite the stir! Subsequent reading concerning Acorn’s in Ted Andrew’s Nature Speak reveals Acorn to be the symbol of strong male Energy and a source of great strength for Spiritual and other activities!!

12/16: Here are the results of the ultrasound (it appears the Helpers did a REALLY good job!): “She said it appeared that there had been a small cyst on one ovary that had burst during my last cycle. She didn’t see why the woman who did my exam thought there was an enlargement of the uterus, as everything else looked normal..”

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DAUGHTER'S ILLNESS

3/2/05: A quite noteworthy mini-Journey that deserves a write-up all of its own. My daughter was VERY sick today. From the time I got home at 4 PM through about 9:30, she was running a fever of at least 102.5, and nothing was bringing it down. She had just enough Energy to lie like a Stone and groan. She never asked me to intervene in so many words, but I seem to recall her asking if anything could be done. I thought she meant medicinally, and I couldn’t think of anything outside a cool bath. This was early in the period, and I didn’t really think to intervene “Shamanically.” Not, that is, until about 9:45 at night, when I finally decided this might not be a virus at all, but an invader! So I performed an impromptu Journey, something more established Shamans are capable of. I sat in my computer chair with my pup on my lap and sank into the Shamanic “trance”, with no external aides such as drumming. I saw Owl fly in from my left almost immediately, from a grouping of Branches lit with gorgeous fall Leaves. He and I went immediately to a clearing where I saw a Dark Being with glowing red eyes stomping either on my daughter or stomping in a tight circle around her. I took out my Mirror, which is always with me in the Spirit World, and held it up to the Being. He immediately found himself being sucked into the Mirror as a flow of black Energy. Owl and I then took the mirror over to the River of Life to our left and placed the Mirror face down in the water. Instantly, a long streamlet of red blood flowed from the Mirror and then ran downstream as an elongated pool of red. Soon thereafter, it turned into a dazzling display of rainbow colors. I knew the entity had been transmuted to good. My daughter was now entity-free, and I knew she would feel a lot better the next day.

3/3/05: I heard that my daughter felt well enough to go to school today. When she got home, I asked how she felt. She immediately asked if I had said a “Prayer” for her last night. I nodded yes, and proceeded to describe the above Journey. It turns out that shortly after my Journey she had gotten up and went to take some Nyquil. She was so dizzy she could not even stand up. I believe some of this dizziness was caused by the Entity extraction. The last time I performed work on her, she had episodes of hot and cold flashes. The Nyquil could be said to have aided in her very quick recovery (she was normal in temp and ability today), but I know that removing the Entity was the major part of her Healing, for one does of Nyquil has never worked THAT well in my experience. I’m not trying to ignore its possible effects here, but I know what I saw and did on my Journey, and am confident that played the key role here. I didn’t tell her earlier about my Work on her for I tend to wait with Family Members to see if the Healing occurs..don’t know why I do that..guess I don’t want to contaminate the results.

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WIFE'S TUMMY

8/9/04: A Journey to help my Wife with her tummy and throat problems. These popped up the morning after we took my Mom out to eat for her birthday last Thursday night, and had made it almost impossible for her to eat over the weekend, including a big family party we had Sunday. I figured food poisoning, but didn’t get the chance to Journey until Monday. I prepared as always, and went in for a 10-minute Drum loop. I found myself sitting on my Azurite Stone on a bookshelf in some house, next to a sunny Window. I was so tiny that the Stone (all of an inch long) appeared as a huge rocky Hill, and I could see my reflection in its shiny facets...in this life all of ¼ mm or less in width. Owl then came to the window, paused briefly on the sill, then shrank down himself to my size. He himself manufactured our Journey Tunnel this time, by creating a spray of his own Feathers that grew higher and higher, out the window and up to the sky. We flew up through this circling-feather cylinder and emerged onto a platform of a glass-like Flooring, with real Clouds, but thin and blue, serving as the Walls. Suddenly before me was a very large Scallop, with red lines (Red Tide bacteria?) coursing through various parts of its surface. So it WAS the scallops! Two herb names then floated by me: Mullein and Peppermint. (These were to help my Wife heal, no doubt. We have Peppermint Tea, so I gave her some to take to work the next day.) I checked to see if her Power Animal Raccoon could help, but even though present in a far corner of this “room”, he was occupied with other of my Wife's issues. So Hummingbird, her other PA, arrived..and did the most remarkable thing. She came right up to me eyes and stuck her long beak into each pupil, filling them with Mana, or Spirit Essence. I then found myself inside my Wife’s upper tract and tummy. I ran my hands in circles across her Throat and Stomach lining for several minutes, pouring yellow healing Light through my hands into her tissues. I was also physically moving my hands through the air above my bed at the same time..recall we are still partially in the conscious world during Journeys. Owl and I then traveled back through the Feather Tunnel, and I ended up at my Wife’s work, and saw her working at her desk. I delivered some of that healing Energy to her directly. At this point, the work was done, for my mind began racing toward the installation of Ma’s new computer. At this point, the Call Back Drumming sounded, and I thanked my Helpers and was back.

Cool to report: My Wife came home from work the same evening and told me she started feeling much better in the early afternoon, the time of this Journey…in fact, she relates that she actually felt the massaging going on in her tummy area at the time.

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Shamanic Shape-Shifting for Healing Attempt

3/4/05: A Journey to investigate the dark area in a Woman’s Aura I spotted during our Restoration Ceremony of Feb 25. This area corresponds roughly to an area where she has a physical manifestation of this Energy field. So, I Smudged the Room. Lit the Sacred Candle and Rattled Sacred Space into place. Wearing my Mirror for Energy and Protection, I was off.

Most interestingly, I was met right off the bat by Angshwa, my White Owl Guide. He was the Guide I met when I performed my very first Journey for Janie. This Guide seems to have a personal interest in the Woman’s Well-Being, for while I did not even have him in mind for this particular Journey, nonetheless he had volunteered. And here he was, swooping down right in front of me as we both occupied the space at the top of a bunch of close and tall, snow covered Pine Trees. We looked below, and way down there, in the middle of a small clearing, I could see a well-lit cabin. It was quite dark there, for the yellow lights in the windows really stood out. As we descended toward this cabin, however, it turned into a large Fire. When we got to the surface, I saw four Dark Beings sitting around this Fire. It appeared as if they were trying to warm themselves, but I saw one place his hand directly in the Fire with absolutely no result. No burning, no pain. I then realized these beings were totally cut off from the Fire of Life, but were still seeking it. Owl and I stood off to the side, watched and waited. I wasn’t sure whether to intervene with these Beings or not, and decided waiting was indeed the best thing. Suddenly, a large Wolf emerged from the woods. He was quite unhappy and was snarling at the Fire and the Beings around it. He moved up to and slowly paced round the Fire, as if sensing the Beings there but unable to see them. He did, however, spot Angshwa and I and came over to visit with us. He became friendly with us and especially my Guardian, Gray Wolf, and they sort of hit it off. Angshwa and I then looked right, and saw an opening in the woods through which a snow-covered road led. This road went over a small, frozen creek via a small bridge with minimal height and wooden rails on either side. I then saw a body float up and press against the clear ice covering the creek. I sensed there were more bodies beneath this one, and that the Beings at the Fire were spirits of these Bodies. They had obviously died unnaturally. Most remarkably, I then saw the two sisters leaning against the rails and looking out across the creek. I then sensed that a bit of the Dark Energy from these Beings crept into the Twins, unaware of the invasion. Hence, they were not hit with a full Entity invasion, but Imprints were left. It almost appeared to have happened by chance.,they just happened to be there as that Energy drifted by. At this point, there was a pause in the Journey. Perhaps Angshwa went back for guidance. In any case, when we both were back together, I was shown the Woman has had a rainbow colored Wreath of Energy placed around her head. This will be there for the next two weeks. My duty is to place Spiritual Sage into the Rainbow Wreath from here on a daily basis, to keep it fresh. This Wreath will gradually absorb the dark Imprint in the Woman’s Aura. I shall gladly do this. At this point, the Journey was over.

4/8/05:Hi,
Hope you all had a nice Easter, we had a house full.
I have been so busy, that’s why I didn’t email sooner, but I wanted to get your thoughts on a ‘dream’ I had near the end of the sage placement you did for me. It wasn’t a dream as I would normally call it, but more like a vision. As I was sleeping, and I saw a pair of eyes so close to my face looking at me, but they weren’t human eyes, they were eyes of a bird, I thought a eagle or hawk, and right behind the him, was an owl, and the owls eyes were coming closer to my face along side the eagle / hawk. I was so startled by this that I woke up, I looked at the clock and I was about 7 am. It took me a few days to realize, but I must have been thinking of you and your helper. Do you think I could have had a vision of you, Hawk and your helper, Angshwa ??
There is no rush on this, I just thought you would find this interesting, and then it might have been just a thought in the back of my mind.
Well, you guys have a great weekend, we plan on going hiking with the dog tomorrow and enjoy the outdoors, Talk soon,

My Reply: Your vision is nothing short of thrilling, for I performed your final 6 or 7 visits [to work on the growth by your ear] as a Hawk in the early morning, around 5 AM. I would shape shift into Hawk, fly over to your house, circle around you and chant while placing the Sage, and then fly back. There can be little doubt but that you actually saw me as Hawk in your vision. As far as Owl goes, it’s also truly amazing, for I would run into Owl on some of my flights over there. There was one morning in particular where we flew together for a while. Could very well have been Angshwa, or else Eagle Claw, my Upper World Guide. Thanks for telling me this, for it makes sense for you now..and gives me more confidence in my shape-shifting skills.

4/27/06:Hi,
I just wanted to let you know that I had a good report from the Drs. Yesterday. The tumor has shrunk in size again and I don’t have to have another MRI until May 2008JJ
Many thanks for all you’ve done! You really know your stuff!!!

Personal Close Calls on Journeys

2006-12-03T15:33:00.000-05:00

Not Allowed to Overcome a Spirit of Cancer

1/24/04: This afternoon’s Journey was to see if I could negotiate a surrender, so to speak, with a dear friend's mom’s disease. I prepared the room with Sage and Sweet Grass, and also shook my Rattle to the three levels of each of the 7 Directions to set up an even more Sacred Space. I lit my Candle to ensure the presence of the Good Light while I was gone. I used Shamanic Breathing to increase my Mana supply and to relax. I used the long version of the Meadows CD for the actual Journey. While I was relaxing, I sent the protective shield of my Luminous Body over to cover her mom as well, so nothing I did would inadvertently hurt her. But I also restricted this covering to protection only, so that none of each other’s energies would use it as a bridge to reach the other. I met Hawk, and we took off together. We flew higher, and eventually saw a Cloud Person with a purple entry hole. We headed into this Tunnel. The sides were made of hard rainbow chunks with rather sharp edges, and as we soared through this Tunnel I felt myself melding my Spirit more with the Hawk’s so that we would be almost one Being. We emerged onto a flat plain where the ground was made of broken chunks of small-stone-sized, cloudy Quartz Crystal pieces stuck together for as far as the eye could see. A short distance away, I saw a large building made of the same materials that was about 4 stories high with turrets..a mini castle. The windows and door were as foreboding a black color as I had ever seen. I sat on a bench and Eagle Claw came up to sit next to me. He grabbed my hand and held it, as if giving me courage to go to the door. When I got there, just as I put my foot over the threshold, I felt as if I was slipping down into a chasm..a feeling of falling, being pulled in. I quickly realized I needed Guides with me, so I called on Gray Wolf and Two Feathers to stay on either side of me. They arrived, took up their positions, and we went in. Movement through the black slog was quite slow and tedious, a testimony to how black and thick this energy was. It was completely dark for a few minutes. Then, off to the right, we saw a very dark blue outline of a table. We walked over to it and sat down, hoping to meet with the Spirit of the Disease. It did show up, but immediately set about to trying to invade my Aura. I felt a strong tingling in my body as my Aura resisted, and I had a feeling of energy depletion and sinking. The three of us strengthened our Spirit Bodies to resist, using my Eagle Claw chant to call in the extra Rainbow Light. I actually had to determinedly call my Rainbow Aura to mind to give it enough power to make it visible enough to overcome the darkness feeling and surroundings. As it was, my Aura was very close to me and very distinct, as if being compressed from without. Then, on one wall, I saw a blue outline of a coffin with her mom already in it. Did this mean we were going to fail? I was then taken up to the top floor, to one of the turret windows. There, a human-sized White Being with no features appeared. It pointed out the window, and I went to look. The stars were all transmitting rainbow shafts of light down to the area, and the outside of the building and the ground were dancing in the colors. I sensed the White Being wanted me to ask it for help, but very slowly. So I said, “I am Four Hawks and I would like to ask this Disease’s Spirit if it will let go of my friend’s mom” in a very slow way. As I finished, the White Being stood aside to consider. I suddenly saw a point of darkness ahead of me, and a spear came rushing toward me and penetrated my Aura. It was the Disease attacking me again. Once more, I felt the sinking feeling as I tingled. I tried to remove the Spear but could not as my energy drained, so I asked Two Feathers and Gray Wolf to pull it out for me. They did, and they patched up the hole in my Aura. This is why one should always have Spirit Helpers along. I sensed from this response that there was no way the Disease will voluntarily give up. I then saw a series of images. I saw Robins flying over mom and also our friends' house, an instruction to send Robin Medicine their way. I placed my Woman in a Dress over mom’s face and sang the Woman’s chant, to try to ease mom’s travel. I saw a gray haired man waiting patiently on the other side of a glass door..mom’s Spirit Escort? I saw the shape of a Horse’s head, calling to mind my own humble beginnings as a Shaman way back when..and the last thing I saw was a small Spider, the creating one, center of the Web. For most of my time in this building, I could not help thinking about how aggressive and depleting this Disease felt to me. As I came back, I grounded my Aura firmly to Mother Earth and soaked up her Fire Medicine. I felt a wild electricity running through my Body, evidence of Cleansing. I called on the Green Elixir to pour over me and remove any hint of the Disease I might have picked up. I thanked all my Guides and Guardians for their help and protection. When I came back to my feet, I literally doused myself with Sage Smoke for cleansing and negative energy removal, cleaned my Chakras, and reshaped my Aura with my Eagle Feather. Even an hour after the event, the disturbing nature of this Disease is still in my mind. I am glad I made this extraordinary Journey, as I felt it was my duty, but this is really the first one I have come back from feeling very humbled and somewhat disturbed. This is the true Path of a Shaman Healer, for there are times when one cannot heal and places oneself in danger of being hurt oneself. I’m very glad I had learned through study how to react and protect myself. I realized also that I never tried to heal her..that was not the purpose of this journey. I was hoping for a voluntary departure. I shall try to heal her using my more traditional Methods, taught to me in prior Journeys. I’m not sure I’m ready to head back into this Disease and take it on in Battle just yet. I’ll await Guidance from Dreams and Cards for that.

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Beating a Generational Curse

1/23/04: Tonight’s Journey was in response to the earlier inspiration I had on the road today that a dark Force or Being had been attached to my family for generations, and it was now time to find out what it was and dispel it. While all of us have been successful, we’ve all had a degree of failure in our lives that speaks of something attacking us at key moments, preventing us from reaching our goals and full potential. The fact a rare and very bright red Ancestor Bird flew right in front of me as I was considering this reinforced my perception. I knew that if there were such a Force/Being, it would be a tough fight that I might lose as I could sense it was very powerful, but I prayed the rest of the afternoon and prepared myself in case I found the time tonight. And I did. I smudged the room with both Sage and Sweet Grass, and called in the Spirits to assist me. I left a note saying that if I did not return, for my wife to get a Shaman from the local Native store to get me back. But I was not about to shun this great challenge, as I felt it was up to me alone to deal with this. For added safety, I took a small round Stone Person that had been sitting in front of my Pipe, and held it in my left hand for grounding during my away time. I used the longer version of the Meadows drumming CD by earphones, lit a candle and turned out the lights and began. I was wired at first, so to calm down during the prep drumming I used the Shamanic Breath and concentrated on my mission: to discover if there was generational Dark Force, and if so to dispel it. As I lay there, I called up the Spirit Guides and Totems I had decided earlier in the day to take with me: Gray Wolf, Alligator (Snaps Shut) and Snake (Crosses in Front), as well as Hawk. We met in the back yard but had a false start or two..there didn’t seem to be the right opening. The normal openings seemed irrelevant. Suddenly I spotted a very old hole to my right, and suggested we try it. It was obviously very aged, and had a crusty, worn and tattered look to it. We ventured down this Tunnel together, and it was immediately quite dark. On all other Journeys there were lights and roots and the like, and the Tunnels were quite pleasant. This one was just plain dark. As we went down further there was just no light whatsoever. Suddenly, coming out of the darkness a bit to my left was a Deer with very shiny golden eyes. It came up to my left ear and whispered that I needed to strengthen my Aura more. So, I took myself out of the Tunnel and off to the Tree of Life I had visited in an earlier Journey, and partook of the Mana globes, also stuffing a few into my Skull eye sockets to ward off any fears of Death. I then returned to the Tunnel and we went further in. As we did so, we seemed to cross some sort of invisible barrier or membrane, and we were suddenly back in my room. As I lay in the bed, I sensed the presence of the Dark Force right in the room with me, filling almost the entire space before me. I found myself taking its perspective and looking back at me and my Guides. I could see us sitting together on my bed, protected by a Rainbow Aura that covered us all as one essence. I saw us shrinking down to a very small size as the Force tried to get rid of us in one easy swoop by reducing us to nothing. I quickly hopped back to my position inside the Aura and asked the Force who or what it was. Suddenly, I saw in my mind’s eye a scene in what must have been Sicily or a similar Mediterranean place. I saw an older gentleman kneeling on the ground, putting the finishing touches on the makeshift grave of a baby girl. I sensed this was an act of cover-up, that perhaps the baby had been eliminated to save money or because it was an unwanted girl versus a needed boy..hard to say. I saw the Dark Being move in from behind and actually attach itself to this man as he did his work. I readied myself for Battle, convinced I had found the source of our “curse.” I fashioned a glowing Spear that contained the Fire Medicine of the Core of Mother Earth. I fashioned arrows glowing with the Power of Grandfather Sun. With those Two Fire Powers, my Fire Medicine was balanced and complete. Suddenly, hundreds (if not more) Dark Being Birds started soaring down at me from above. The sky and ground literally turned black with the huge number of attackers. I pumped my Aura up, and as I did so could actually feel my Earth Body tingling with Energy as I lay in the bed, and held my Stone Person tighter. I sent my Allies Wolf, Snake and Alligator into the fray to begin destroying the Dark Birds. I also used my Spear to do likewise. Hawk was circling well above us, and turning into each the Four Directions colors as it passed through each quadrant, indicating the Powers of those Grandfathers were working from above as we fought below. At one point the Dark Bird coverage got so thick I felt myself completely enveloped and being lifted off the ground. I then saw my Teacher, Eagle Claw, above me, and he was huge. He stomped down onto the scene. He reminded me by his presence to begin my healing chant he had given me a few months ago, and so I repeated Westu Waja Wasaji over and over, calling in Rainbow Light to eat up the Darkness. The Darkness was rapidly dispelled at this point, and the sky brightened back up and the ground returned to its normal green and brown self. I saw Alligator and Wolf lying dead(?) beside me from the Battle, and I moved my hand over them to restore them to life. I then invoked the Prayer given me by and to use with my “Woman in a Dress” from the Amazon (given me by Charlotte). By chanting Sheshi Wasaji Omapu over and over, I freed the Spirit of the Baby Girl that had been buried. Interesting enough, after the Journey I happened to look up at the Woman hanging on my wall, and one of the Feathers that had been pointing upward all along was now on its side, indicating the Spirit of the Woman had actually left the Wall hanging to join me in the Journey. I then turned my attention to the Grandfather, who was still kneeling there. He had a large Snake with evil-looking eyes protruding from his midsection where his penis should have been. The snake was at least 1 ½ feet long. This told me for sure that the curse had been transmitted through the act of procreation over the generations, guaranteeing its effectiveness..clever. I sent Alligator and Snake to destroy this Being. At this point, the Grandfather and the Ground were both clean, and the former disappeared. He might have finally gone to the Light, so to speak. I then scratched my Shaman Symbol into the ground where the Baby had been buried to secure the site for only good acts, protected by good Shaman Medicine. I then began to pray for removal of the curse from all the generations, from then to now through history. I had no idea how far back this event was. I found myself viewing the wheel of time, and I saw a bright red streak flow through a small section of the Energy Disc of Life as if it was erasing part of the data. I assumed it was that part of history that contained this event and the curse through time afterward. I then saw a green streak flow in right over the same place on the Disc. I was then aware of this huge Bowl hanging over my head, pouring an emerald green substance down all over me. This was washing away my curse energies. I then prayed that this healing Elixir would flow over all the people in my family effected by this Dark Energy curse. I never got to meet a physical Being in this endeavor, and have concluded therefore that it was an Energy presence versus an Entity. The wonderful feeling I had as I was washed clean of this “curse-to-make-us-fail” is still with me as I write this summary a day later. In a rather mature action, I took on the Force that had been attached to us since before most of us were born, and only a Shaman could have righted this problem. I was thrilled I survived. As I got to my first stop today, no Crows were in the Tree next to the building, but I did hear two caws. That made me walk out to find out where the Crow actually was. As I did so, a HUGE Gull flew up off the ground and right before me, looped around the top of the building, and then flew right back down again. At first I thought it was a Heron due to its size and slow wing thrusts. But as Sea Gull symbolized freedom, it was a great thrill to see my being freed of this curse made manifest by the freedom Spirit Bird whose presence had been announced to me by my announcer Spirit Bird. Later on the route, a small Hawk flew up from the marsh to my right and right over my car as I drove. I trust my brothers and sisters felt this healing moment, but had no idea what was happening.

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Rescuing a Soul Piece, while Jesus Watches...

1/6/06: A Journey taken at a Client's request to determine the source of his current debilitating weakness..

As I entered the Spirit World, I found myself at a Train Station. The Train was stopped and sitting before me. It was Twilight, or very late Afternoon. I saw Owl sitting on one of the Seat Rails. I saw my Client, sitting alone on the Car, staring out the Window. The Windows had blinds, and many of them were drawn. The Train took off. We sped into a dark Tunnel. We came to a Stop at A Station where a ghostly Porter stood. He came to the Door and announced to us it was Time to get off: ”Sir, this is your Stop!” When we did, we found ourselves inside a Station full of religious Icons, Statues and Artifacts. My Client went up to the Base of this huge Collection and knelt, and prayed. Owl then took me aside and pulled me up through the Stone Hill that served as the Station’s Roof. We went to the Top of this mini-Mountain. There, I found a large, burning Cross. The Flames appeared not to be of Fire, but of Spirit Energy taking on that Appearance. A deep Voice emerged from the Flames. “So, Shaman, we meet again,” it said. “Yes,” I said, “and my brother is in great Pain.” The Voice answered, “Many pray to me through the Statues and Icons, but don’t know how to hear my Answers!” At this Point, Jesus emerged from the Cross. He came to my Side and began going back down through the Mountain with me. I felt an extraordinary, total Peace at his Side. We went down to my Client. “Look, Shaman,” said Jesus. “See how your Client’s Lower World Soul has left him completely!” Sure enough, it was roaming outside his Body, coming nearer, then moving farther away. My Client's “Suns” Soul then took off, bolting down a dark Tunnel. I took off after it instinctively. We came out of the Tunnel into a very dark Place. All I could see was the Soul Piece, a small Orb of Light, darting around in the Blackness a little bit ahead of me. I took out my Shaman Mirror and absorbed the Soul Piece into it for safe Keeping. I looked around and saw a small Opening of Light..the Tunnel back! I headed for it quickly, for I had a strong sense of Foreboding in this Place. It seemed like an endless Chasm of Nothingness. I felt as if I was being chased, or pulled at. As I was in the Tunnel, I felt myself being pulled back. Owl stuck his Wing into the Tunnel before me. I grabbed it. He pulled me up as the long Tunnel behind me kept sealed with Rock just behind me as I moved along. I just made it, and this is the closest I have ever been to being lost forever on a Journey. But it was worth it! When we were back in the Station, Jesus told me my Client’s Soul had fled to the part of the Lower World where Souls do NOT reincarnate. They either remain in absolute Darkness there, or cease to exist. He told me this means my Client feels unworthy of living right now. Jesus then went up to the kneeling man and put his Hands in his. He began speaking softly to him. I could not hear what he said, but I’m sure the Topic was my Client’s Self-Image. This was the personal Relationship people need to have with Jesus..one on one, Hands in Hands. I was then told to place my Client’s Soul Piece in a clear piece of Crystal Quartz I had bought earlier in the Day. I’m to send it along with the 10-ball Ongon for his Son. We then went back to the Top of the Mountain. There, a Man appeared. He had Hair covering his Face down to his Neck. Two small Horns of Light emerged from the top sides of his Head. I asked Jesus who this Man is. Jesus said, “You call him the Anti-Christ..but he is necessary to preserve the Sacred Balance. However, he is not someone you’d want to side with..” Jesus then told me that he and I will work together again. I found this astonishingly wonderful and humbling. The final Scene of the Journey seemed to come from nowhere. I saw a Man wearing Sandals land on his Knees next to a Canoe stored on some Sawhorses, Bottom up. The Call Back then sounded.

NOTES: Pretty much self-explanatory. The darkness of Twilight, the solitary Client on the Train, the drawn Blinds, all speaking to how cut-off Bruce feels from Life. The meeting with Jesus shows my Client is right to maintain a personal communication with him, versus praying to icons. The 10-ball and Crystal will be on their way shortly, with instructions. Meanwhile, we have managed to keep him from seriously shortening his life through the loss of his soul piece.. my Friend, Jesus wants you to recover from this..of that, this Journey shows, there can be no doubt.

Past Lives

2006-12-03T03:28:00.000-05:00

4/24/06: A Journey taken at a Woman’s Request to check on her recent Past Lives.

As I entered the Spirit World, I was immediately shown the first of the Lives. It was the 1500s, in England. I saw a young Maiden milking Cows on a Farm. Apparently she was helping her Family eke out its living by performing this Chore on a regular Basis. I then saw that later in this Life she was a Midwife, helping other Woman in her Community with Childbirth. She married a Man who was quite abusive, and who died at a young Age. She was left penniless and homeless and also died young, very poor and in a heatless Place. The next Life was in the early 1700s. I saw a Woman who was a Dancer for a Tribe in Africa. She was a Figure of Power in this Village. She was kidnapped during an intertribal War, and while in the Hands of her Village’s Enemies was raped and murdered. The next Live was in the early 1900s. She was rich, and well-to-do. She was a popular Socialite, and was a commanding Presence in Upper Class Parties. Then came the Crash of the Stock Market. Stripped of her Wealth and Position, she became a Visiting Nurse. She visited the indigent Ill…and caught an Illness and died herself. Finally, I saw a Life way back in the 1100s, in Ireland. The Woman was very successful in “Magic”, that is, in dealing with the Spiritual Forces. Some might have called her a Witch, Centuries later. She was very good at channeling Spirit Energy and many respected her and came to her. At one Point she went to Stonehenge. There she worked with the Spirits of the Sun. She died in the Boat on the way Home.

NOTE: It is interesting that in her prior 4 Lives, this Woman was always a female. This means she is a very strong female Presence, and must be a force for balancing the Male Energy of Life. This is a Hint as to how she should be dealing with her present Existence…

Her Reply: This is all very exciting.
Thanks for answering the way you did. It's easier to understand that way.

I can relate to the 1700's previous life a little. I had a dream almost 2 years ago, that I was in Africa and I walked into a small grass mud dwelling and I sat on the ground. I sat beside an African woman and a small child. It was as if I was going to her for advise. She sat with her back straight in statue. But the dream ended. I don't know if I ever asked her a question, but it seemed so natural for me to be there. Oh and I do like to dance. But, I am just a kitchen dancer.
I have been to two Pow Wows and I always wanted to join in their dance circle, but I was afraid I would be intruding.

And about the 1929 crash. I still haven't learned to handle money very well. :) This year I have a goal to be debt free. My sister said we have a curse on the whole family when it comes to handling money. I told her that was a bad confession. We were never taught to handle money or respect it. I plan on changing that for my family.

And about the woman of magic in the 1100s- I have always been drawn to mystical things. Even when I studied Judaism, I read books on the Kabalah, Jewish Mysticism.
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New Contact Option

2006-12-02T09:00:00.000-05:00

Hi, my dear Friend.

We all know the Internet can be inherently unsafe for private information exchange. No-one has ever

If you wish, therefore, I encourage you to make initial contact by email on this site. But from then on, we can deal by old-fashioned, stamp-and-envelope mail. If you choose this option, I will keep all our work on a storage device that is free from intrusion, as I still need to word-process our activity. If you are not concerned with this issue, then we can of course carry on via email throughout.

So if you need me, by all means email me. If you wish, I will then send you my address and phone number and we'll deal in private thereafter. Email is open to review by the occasional prying eyes of the unauthorized viewer. I welcome your comments on this offer.

Peace and Love, Four Hawks.

Spirit Flow

2006-02-11T15:59:00.000-05:00

Spirit Flow

I have finally titled all my Journeys, making it easier to find and investigate each. You can find an index by date, number and title thereof at http://sjindex.blogspot.com/

If you need Shamanic services, such as possible healing from illnesses, depression, etc.; Soul Retrieval/Restoral; reclaiming your Power Animal (invigorating Spirit); finding lost objects; getting a message from someone who has passed on or who can no longer speak for themselves; seeing the future or past; etc., please feel free to email me. I will work with you offline from that point on. If it is your Path to receive this Help, I shall gladly serve as the Channel. I do not charge for these services, as it is the duty of Shamans to help others..period. On the other hand, many Shamanic Cultures consider a thank you gift of some sort to the Shaman appropriate, as these gifts honor the Spirit Helpers who worked through the Shaman...and this honoring is quite important for the full effect of the work to take hold.

A Great New Year Coming

2006-02-11T15:47:00.000-05:00

1/1/06: This morning I awoke to find a fresh Coat of newly fallen Snow serving as the Backdrop for my first Bird Sighting of the New (calendar) Year! There, on my Feeder, sat Mr. and Mrs. Cardinal!

Cardinals signify an increase in spirituality, and the Fact both Male and Female were side by side indicates greater Balance coming as well. They also symbolize renewed Vitality through increased Self-Importance, according to Ted Andrews. Of course, a Shaman defines Self-Importance differently. We view that as being more effective in stepping out of the Way and allowing the Helpers to do more important Work THROUGH us. Their gorgeous Whistling is a Call to listen more to the inner, feminine and intuitive Voice. So given how wonderfully effective the Helpers have been in working through me lately, this Gift signals even greater Effectiveness ahead. It's a real Thrill!

2/11/06: On the Mongolian New Year's Day (1/29), the first day when Shaman work can begin again after a two week Rest Period, I was driving in Portland when a Hawk flew across my line of Travel, chased by three Crows! It came in from the right, indicating Danger or a need to be wary. This was a very powerful message, this first sighting of the New Year. It told me that I, 4 Hawks, would be having a Year of challenge and relative danger in my Shaman Work..of being chased, both by work and Beings who would try to hinder me. Yet, I would sail along unharried, just as the Hawk had just done.

What makes this even more compelling is that a few days ago, having just gotten back from my work run, I was standing outside in the parking lot when the exact same scene replayed: a Hawk chased by Crows. Only this time the Hawk landed in the Top of a Tree neaby and just sat there while the Crows dive-bombed him. It was as if the Hawk was perched atop the Tree of Life. Eventually Hawk flew off with Crow chasing. This time the scene went from left to right, a more positive sign.

In both instances, this was a direct message to me concerning the amount of challenge I would have..it will be a very busy and rewarding year in Spirit Work for me!

And then this morning, while going out to pray, a Broad-winged Hawk landed on a branch right next to where I enter my Altar area. It sat there for 5 minutes, keeping me enthralled and in deep thanks for this powerful Spirit Visit. what makes this all the more compelling is that about 5 minutes prior to this I had been thinking about placing these Hawk-attack events up here on the blog..and voila, a Hawk comes to validate the thought. This is how nature talks to us..if we listen. In fact, yesterday, I saw two Hawks in a field, one circling while the other sat watching..a male and female pair. Later in the day I saw yet another Hawk floating by. So these were the announcer sightings to this morning's grand Visit..Hawk Medicine was and is strong!

Journey 207 - Power Animal

2006-02-03T20:17:00.000-05:00

2/3/06: “A Journey taken to determine a Woman's Power Animal, taken at her Request. As the Journey began, my Lower World Guide and I met in a heavily clover-covered and flat Area. Off to our right, a short Distance away, was a glowing and glistening, tall Birch Tree, all by itself. Crosses and I sensed that the Opening to the Lower World was near the Tree, so we went over. As we arrived, we saw a Chipmunk emerge from a Tunnel at the Base of the Tree. He stopped as if to stand guard as we descended through this Opening. We entered this Tunnel at it was huge, with tall Lilacs lining the Sides and overhanging our Path well above our heads as we went down. Eventually both the Lilacs and Tunnel shrank, until there were Lilacs no more. Then, the Tunnel narrowed and its Walls showed red, purple and maroon as we moved along. We finally reached the Lower World. It was as it almost always is, with a large Bay off to our right. Circling above this Bay, cutting out a perfect Circle, were numerous all-white Gulls. We knew we had to check out what they were circling over. We hopped aboard an all-white Swan and drifted across the Bay to find out. There, directly beneath the center of the Seagull Circle, was a Hippopotamus, mostly submerged in the Water. Could it be THIS was the Woman’s Power Animal? If so, it would be a first for Hippopotamus. Indeed it was, we discovered. Hippo was dark brown above the Water. But then numerous Gulls cam down and lifted the Hippo out of the Water, and it was all white where submerged. They let him back down into the Water and then numerous Gulls landed on him. Swan then took us back to the Shore. As we headed back up the Tunnel, and reached the lilacs, we saw Owl, Cardinal and Chickadee welcoming us back. We got to the Surface and as we did, a tremendous Condor came and grabbed the top off the Birch. He picked it up in its entirety and flew it way up into the Sky, and pasted it into a Cloud, where it stood. I then thanked Crosses and came back.”

NOTES: First off, there was much more imagery in this Journey than normal. This tells me the Woman has lots of Spirit Power. There are quite a few totems here, each of which has spirit Power to offer, in addition to the Power Animal. Here are brief summations, derived mainly from Ted Andrews’ seminal books:

Chipmunk: Speaks to keeping creations out of sight until they are truly ready to be revealed. Keeping your self “below the surface” until the right time to emerge is important. Usually the first 6 weeks after initiation is the vulnerability time. Most important, Chipmunk tells you to trust what you hear in the other person’s voice, not the actual words. Note the Chipmunk in the journey was a protector of the info in the tunnel we entered..

Birch: The “Lady of the Woods”, helping us connect to all goddesses of the woodlands. Birch reminds us that new dimensions are opening for us, and balance is necessary in entering them. Birch awakens the energy of new beginnings and a cleansing of the past, of old, no-longer-useful ideas. Keep energies and efforts purposeful. Shamans use staffs of birch to awaken an energy that enables them to pass from one plane of life to another. The fact the tree as pasted onto a cloud indicates the great heights to which this skill can be used..and Clouds in themselves represent the in-between state of gas and liquid..

Lilacs: Obviously a favorite of the woman’s. Keynotes: balance of the spirit and intellect; contact with spirit is imminent. Lilac helps align and balance the Chakras (see Chickadee below)! It draws protective spirits into one’s life. It is a great healing spirit, whose blossoms are filled with fairy and elf activity. The fairies are musical in their communications, and so can help harmonize your life and activate greater clairvoyance and the ability to explore past lives. Lilac means it is time to open up and develop trust in your spirit guides.

Seagulls: Represent the interface of sea and land..the fairy realm, the moving between dimensions, equally comfortable in both. This implies the Woman has lots of energy to move between dimensions..a skill she has already highlighted in telling me of her ability to see spirits. Gulls also represent freedom. The fact they were circling perfectly pays tribute to the circular nature of Spiritual thinking..for example, the linking of all time and space into one single point where the Shaman visits to get information.

Swan: Represents the true beauty and power of the self. This makes it extremely important that swan transported us out to her Power Animal. Swan awakens the emotion response, and also allows one to react more sensitively to others emotions. Its long neck serves as a bridge between had (upper worlds) and body (lower worlds). This implies access not only to your own true self and beauty, but to other realms and powers as well. Swans prefer it cold and so live in the north. Qualities of the north include courage, alertness, patience, endurance. Greek legend holds the Swan sings its most beautiful song just before death (hence, the swan song in our cultural references). The swan song is synonymous with poetic fancy..so swan can teach the mysteries of song and poetry, touching the child and beauty within.

Owl: Represents the mystery of magic, omens, silent wisdom and vision in the night. Its yellow eyes represent the sun alive in the dark of night. Owl allows one to see and hear what others try to hide. They fly silently encouraging one to keep silent and go about ones business. Owl people are uniquely able to see into the eyes and souls of others. They should listen to the “wild imaginings” that result.

Cardinal: Represents renewed vitality through recognizing self-importance. Their distinctive whistling reflects we should be listening to the inner voice (the feminine) more closely. The female cardinal is rare in that she is bright-colored and also sings like her mate..really emphasizing the power of the feminine. The fact Cardinals in the Catholic Church are named after this bird calls for the Woman to revisit her spirit life as well.

Chickadee: Represents cheerful and truthful expression. Is black cap signifies use of the higher mind and higher perceptions. Black is also associated with mystery, the feminine and the great womb of life. Cherokees consider the Chickadee the Bird of Truth. There are seven types of Chickadees, corresponding to the 7 energy centers in the human body called Chakras. When these are balanced, there is greater realization of the truth in the world. Truth shared correctly can add joy and cheer to life, as well as healing.

Condor: represents the ancient mysteries of life and death (that is, the actual truth about them versus modern ideas); communion with the spirits; and soaring above limitations. Its taking the tree into the sky was a perfect example of a being (the tree) rising well above its limitations..with condor’s help!! The Woman can use her Totems likewise to soar.

Hippopotamus: Her Power Animal: Its keynotes: creative power to shape shift one’s life, and sacred baptism. The River Horse, it spends much of its time in water, the ancient realm of birth, power, imagination, healing and artistic sensibility. It is the place of sacred baptism. Water awakens higher sensibilities, enables lucid dreaming and greater conscious spirit contact. Creative and artistic energies grow stronger. Hippo can submerge itself in water so only its eyes and nostrils are above the surface..Hippo people can thereby immerse themselves in the feminine and emotional powers of their lives and thereby maintain invisibility. Hippo people tend to have a life path chosen for them, and they have to follow it. Hippos main enemy, Crocodile, is no match for the adult, which can bite it in two. This shows strong protective abilities for all of Hippo person’s creations.

2/8/06 Her reply: "I was in total awe reading my PA Journey. Now I thought I was a squirrel or chipmunk. I have 3 squirrels in my yard that I feed all year long and at the school where I work (a private Catholic all boys boarding school) I have my 2 little chipmunks that I feed 9 months as I am off the other 3. I love Lilacs and birch trees. You are so gifted. I enjoyed reading every word. AND you took and do take so much time presenting what you see on each journey you take. I can't thank you enough. I must have read it 10 times all ready. You are quite a guy. I never imagined MY PA would be a HIPPO. I hope you have a wonderful night. Talk to you soon. "

Journey 205/206 - Meeting the 13 Tenger of Shamanic Activities/Spirit of New Drum

2006-01-31T09:57:00.000-05:00

1/30/06: A Journey undertaken to visit with the Group of Tenger in the Mongolian Tradition who “control Shamanic Activities.” They are the Asarangi Arban Gurban, of the East. This was actually my first Journey of the New Year which began on Jan 29. My Goal this year is to finally begin a series of Meetings with these great Shaman Spirits of the Mongolian Way. I made up a Spreadsheet in early January of all the Spirits, for easy Reference to their area of Specialty. My Goal with this Journey was to get Blessing for all my Activities coming up this Year.

As I entered the Spirit World for the first Time on over 2 weeks, I saw a vast Plains sparsely populated with leafy Trees. It was early Dawn. Ahead of me was a large Mountain, dark with the increasing Twilight behind it. I was kneeling on the Shaman Mirror with all my Helpers behind me, there in Support of this first real Supplication. Embedded in the otherwise dark Mountainside ahead of me were 13 bright Lights, brilliantly white like tiny Suns. As I was kneeling and bowing down, my Mirror, hung around my Neck, touched the Mirror beneath me..and they are both the same Mirror! Anything is possible in the Time/Space Linking of Spirit World. The large Mirror we were on slid right up to the Base of the Mountain. When we arrived, the 13 “Suns” rearranged themselves into a narrow Oval, with 6 lights on each Side and one at the Top. I walked up into the Midst of these Lights. They now had become elongated Columns of Light, about the height of a Human. They then projected a Bed of colored Light between them, with many Rays of both Pastels and primary Colors. I sensed I was to lie down in this Bed, and so I immersed myself on my Back in the Light, which held me up although having no apparent Substance. At this Point, the 13 peered over at me, and I could see many smiling Faces peering down at me. I then saw a brief visual History of portions of my Shamanic Walk to this Point..my Shamanic Past (perhaps they were reviewing this as well). One by one they then began to smear Fat from my totem Animals (Bear, Hawk, Mourning Dove, Cardinal, etc) onto my Body. But instead of the Fats sticking to my Skin, they penetrated to my Spirit Body and blended with it. I was being given the very Essences of my Totems, no doubt to increase my Power. They then asked if I would like to see my near Future. I said yes, of course. Then, ahead of me, I saw myself walking along, with my Aura bright and full. But it was under Attack from Dark Beings all around me, with Spears sticking into my aura in places, while from on high came powerful Bolts of Light designed to keep me strong. It was a very dynamic scene, with much give and take between the light and dark forces coming to a Head at and within my Spirit Body. (This confirmed what I had been shown on our way to Portland last Sunday: A large Hawk flew right across the front of the car about 15 feet up, chased by 3 Crows who were right behind it and trying to nip its wings, coming in from the right, the side of danger. This told me then that I will face many challenges this year (Crows are messenger Birds, so I will have lots of taskings but, like the Hawk, will fly along handling it well on my mission.) But then, I saw 13 little Stars form over my Aura. They circled slowly, but then quickly accelerated into a whirling Hoop of white Light. This Hoop expanded and descended down through my entire Aura,. When they were done, I was totally free of dark Forces. I was told I can call on the 13 at any time to engage this Cleansing. Back now on the Bed of Light, the 13 burned the Fats into my Aura. I could feel the heat on my actual Skin as I lay in my Middle World Bed. They then spoke with me. “You are ready..you have great Shamanic Power, use it with great Humility.” This ended my Time with the 13. I returned to the Mirror, where the White Moon Festival Feast that follows the New Year was in full Swing. As I ate at a huge Table with my Helpers and celebrated, I took occasional Racks of Beef or Legs of Lamb and through them way up into the Mountainside. Each time, a Voice would boom down the Slopes, “Thank you, Four Hawks.” I then spoke with my Helpers. They said the 13 were pleased I went to visit them for the first time. They are honored and grateful to have someone working so hard as a Shaman. I was told they were smiling over me earlier because there are so many false Shamans out there whose activities they have to try to negate. This keeps them quite busy, I was told. I then thanked my Helpers and returned.

1/30/06: A Journey undertaken to learn the Spirit of my new Drum, bought on EBay with my daughter’s Christmas Gift Certificate. I actually used the new Drum for my Journey, so this was the first time for that.

I first smudged the Drum with all three of my Plants: Sage, Sweet Grass and Juniper. I then used both the Sacred Feather and my Grouse Wing Fans to spread the Smoke across, around and beneath the Mirror. I then lay down with the Drum lying on my Stomach and began Drumming, tapping with my Finger. At first, I saw the Fruit Tree from which the Wood came to make the Rim. I saw that the Wood came from the main Trunk, toward the outside, just below where the main Branches began. I then saw the Goat that donated the Skin beneath the Tree, grazing on the finest Alfalfa. I then saw my Drum lying on its Back in the Spirit World. All around the Edge I saw numerous tiny Thunderbeings firing Lightning at the Perimeter from a few Inches above. Strike after Strike hits all around the Drum with no Damage, as if adding Power. I then saw a blue-white “Sky” Dome, like a contact lens, form over the Drum Surface. As I rose up and over the Drum, I saw the numerous brilliant Stars were embedded in the tip of this Dome. It was strikingly beautiful! I then peered down through the Dome and saw a whole World encased within it. I saw a portion of Ocean and also some Land. It was as if this World, with all its Possibilities and Life Energy, was sitting on the Surface of the Drum. I then moved back down to the Side of the Drum and saw a Being walk up from the other side of the Dome and toward me. The Being was brilliant Yellow, and was composed of Flames. He introduced himself as the Spirit of the Drum. His name is Syrggha. He explained to me how I should paint the Drum. He told me to paint him on the Head, as well as the Lightning Bolts, the Ocean, the Land and Stars I saw. Not only should I also paint my Shaman Symbol on it, but he told me to sear in my personal Shaman Energy by tracing my Symbol with my Index Finger at this time, which I did. I watched as Energy poured from my Fingertip and branded the Drumhead with the Energy of my Shaman Symbol. I then stopped Drumming, and lowered my Hands slowly to the opposing Edges of the Rim. This sealed in all the Energy I had witnessed. The Drum was now active and assigned to me..

Journeys 203/204 Removing a Hex/Power Animal Retrieval for Son's Friend

2006-01-30T10:00:00.000-05:00

1/30/06: A Ritual undertaken to see if there is a hex thrown onto a Cousin by the Cousin’s Brother-in-law’s Wife. I checked first using the Pendulum and got a “yes.” I then asked if I would be allowed to remove it. “Yes,” again. But I sensed this was not a Journey task, but rather a Healing Ritual involving Stones and Crystals.

So, I set up the following initial Lay-out: First came a totally clear and large Crystal, to represent the Cousin’s cleaned Energy State. About 4 inches to the right came the Large Moqui Stone, representing the Cousin herself. Touching her on the right was a cloudy, large Crystal, representing the Hex Energy attached to her. Finally, another 4 inches rightward, was a small Moqui to represent the Wife..smaller to indicate lesser Power in relation to the Cousin. Above the Cousin’s Moqui was my Hollow Bone, set there to aid the Flow of the Hex Energy back where it came from. Within Seconds of placing this Bone on the Display, it rolled down to touch the Cousin Moqui. This was a good Omen for channeling the Curse back to where it came from, so I left it there. I then cleansed the Cousin Moqui with Arshaan, the sacred Shamanic Aura-cleansing Fluid. I then smudged the entire Scene with Sage and spread the Smoke with a sacred Feather. I then placed both one Hand over each Moquis, praying and establishing spirit Control over them. I then took the clear Crystal in my left Hand and the cloudy in my right. I closed my Eyes and slowly moved both to the right at the same Speed, until both touched the Moquis, the clear touching the Cousin, the cloudy touching the Wife. This had the effect of transferring the Hex from the Cousin back to the Wife, its Source. I then took the cloudy Crystal and pressed it firmly to Mother Earth, releasing some of that hex Energy to her for transmutation. I did likewise lifting the Crystal to Father Sky for the rest of the Energy. I asked it be put to good Use now. I then took the clear Crystal and held it over the Sacred Flame for cleansing, and then circled the Cousin Moqui with the Crystal nine times while uttering “Hurai” each time. I then uttered the Magic Phrase that seals the Healing in..”Hoyor Sagai Negende”. This cleansed the Cousin totally and sealed her from future Attack. I then took the Crystals and large Stone and placed them on my Mirror to neutralize them for a future Task. I then took the Wife Moqui, and likewise held it over the Flame. I removed all Traces of the Curse as well as the Wife’s ability to throw such Curses in the Future. I sealed that Action, and placed the small Moqui on the Mirror for cleaning as well. This ended the Ritual.

1/30/06: A Journey undertaken to ascertain my son’s friend Power Animal. This was a bit more complex a Journey than is usual, but all will be explained at the end to the best of my ability. Also, perhaps he will relate to some of the imagery in a more meaningful way. As always, the Journey is rich with metaphor, needing translation to his specific needs.

As I went into the Spirit World, I saw him walking about at the Edge of a Forest, smiling, as if waiting for me. He then pointed at a specific Tree. He went up to it and placed his right hand well up the Tree above his Head, which he bent forward. He just stood there, Eyes closed. I then heard my Lower World Guide, Crosses in Front, the Snake, rustling toward me from the left. She told me to shrink down to her Size, which I did. We then both scurried through the Undergrowth over to the Tree. While he stood there, concentrating (?), we snuck around to the Back. There, at the base of the Tree, was the Opening to the Lower World. Since this was my first journey in several weeks, I was in a playful Mod and turned to Crosses and said, “after you!”, smiling. She smiled back at said, “no, after YOU!”. We both then went in together as we always do. As we were heading down the Tunnel, we were met by numerous colored Orbs, reminding me of colored ping-pong Balls. At first they were so thick it seemed unlikely we could even go through them, but eventually the Tunnel opened up, with the Balls now stuck to the Walls and Ceiling, and we proceeded all the way down. Once in the Lower World, we found ourselves slogging through a very wet and thick Mud. It was quite dark, and the Crescent Moon, reflecting what we actually have here in the Middle World today, hung in the Sky. I called out to the Lord of the Lower World, stating my request for a Power Animal for the Friend. Suddenly we were lifted up and carried quite a distance to an Island sitting in the bright afternoon Sun next to a River. The top of the Island was a semi-active Volcano. We were set down right near the Top. There, standing at looking at us, was a Black Ram with large Horns. I wondered if this was his PA until a large Bolt of Energy came from above and struck the Ram down. The Scene shifted and we were standing in front of a cement/stone Building. That same black Ram was standing there, but when I moved toward a Man nearby to inquire about it, it suddenly disappeared. When I asked where it had suddenly gone, the Man said, “Oh, that Ram died over 6 years ago.” We were then back on the small Mountain. The Volcano was spewing a bit near its Rim and so we moved down the Side, passing a Mountain Goat, dead on its side. We went all the way down to the river. There, I saw a very large and graceful Salmon, with streaks of rainbow Colors on its Side, leaping incredible distances into the Air to snare Butterflies for its Meal. The Salmon then shape-shifted into a Person and announced itself as his Power Animal. He said he will go back with us to him. The Volcano then erupted fully. We all plunged into the Water. His PA returned to his Salmon form. Huge Chunks of sizzling Magma were plopping into the Water near the Salmon, but he remained unhurt. He seemed to be enjoying the Heat generated in the surrounding Water. He was not hurt. I then took Time to review all the Imagery I had seen so as to better remember it upon my Return. We then all decided it was time to leave and we headed back up the Tunnel.

I then performed a Pendulum Request to see if the Friend has some sort of Encumbrance attached to him that is holding him back in Life. To my delight, there is no such negative Power holding him down. I then performed a Shagai Ritual to see the general Health of his Fortunes and Fates. The reading was also quite positive: “Not too many difficulties, but some.” This tells me he is really positioned quite nicely concerning Decisions and Options coming up in the near Future. There is little standing in his way but perhaps himself.

So now, onto Images contained within the Journey itself:

His behavior around the Tree seems to indicate he is searching for Balance. Standing People (Trees) reach to the Sky and reach deep into the Earth at the same time. He is seeking grounding while at the same time reaching for the Stars. This is a wise posture, as Trees are very sturdy and long-lasting once they have taken root.

The colored ping-pong Balls in the Tunnel may represent many Issues pinging on him at once..or perhaps too many choices..

The Volcano represents the violent release of Energy from within, where it was hidden. It can also represent the release of Feminine Energy, since the Magma comes from Mother Earth. So this may mean he is either letting too much emotion build up, after which it explodes out..or it may mean he NEEDS to release this pent-up emotion. It may also indicate that someone around him, and not him himself, is the one needing to “explode”.

The Dead Ram and Goat, showing up twice, appear to be former Power Animals that are no longer available to him. This is a first in Journeys I’ve taken. It may mean that his near-death experience when younger really altered him completely, requiring a new Power Animal to take over.

This new PA is Salmon. The Keynotes of this Power Animal are “pilgrimage and coming home” and “success through persistence.” Salmon return to their home waters 6 years after leaving. They are destined, “pre-programmed” if you will, to return there or die trying, indicating a destiny encoded in the very being of a person with Salmon as Power Animal. He must seek out his “calling”. The 6-year period seems quite significant given the man in the Journey told me the Ram had died over 6 years ago. This may means that he is nearing the end of his first pilgrimage and is ready to spawn new life for himself. Salmon leap over great obstacles to get home and mate, and then they die. Likewise, people with Salmon Medicine will stop at nothing to fulfill their calling, once they recognize what it is. Salmon have special sensory systems on their sides that allow them to detect the presence of other animals around them through pressure changes in the water. This allows the person with Salmon as PA to likewise better feel the people around him and detect subtle changes in them. The fact there were rainbow streaks on the side of his Salmon seems to highlight this ability skill, call attention to it, and therefore brings it forward in importance.

Bottom line: when Salmon appears, we need to look at the pilgrimage we have either been on or have been considering taking. We will be transformed. Life will never be the same again. There will be a feeling of predestination in regards to a spiritual journey. Here are questions Salmon asks: Are we persisting so rewards will come? Are we giving up before the transformations? Do we need to take a pilgrimage-time away to mature? Is it time to return home, get back to our roots? Do we trust what we feel? Are we ignoring our spiritual journey?

The Butterflies represent transformation as well as joy. The fact the Salmon was leaping well into the Air to get these shows an intense desire by him for one or both of these qualities. Since Salmon speaks to transformation already, this is reinforced by the presence of Butterflies.

Finally, the fact the Salmon enjoyed the heat released by the Magma exploding out of the Volcano indicates that he will also handle well the release of the pent-up emotions, whatever the source..

Grouse Wings Fans

2005-12-18T12:26:00.000-05:00

October, 2005: I had a most remarkable beginning to last week. On the 3rd , this past Monday, I saw a total of four Hawks, plus a Butterfly that was literally floating along..no wing beats..for at least 50 feet Since my Shaman Name is Four Hawks, I found that quite an honor in its own right. But it turns out that was just an announcer message.

The next day, as I was driving my route, I saw a large mass on the side of the road, right next to where I was driving. It looked like a large, dead Bird, so I stopped and backed up to it. Sure enough, it was a dead Ruffed Grouse! I couldn’t believe my eyes. I wondered if I was supposed to take it or not, and decided not to, instead just taking some gorgeous Tail Feathers to use in Ceremonies. I prayed over the Bird as I did so, to help release its Spirit. The rest of the day, though, I kept thinking I should have taken the whole bird. I have never picked up a dead animal or bird before, but it had been 5 years and perhaps it was finally time. I kept thinking I had missed a chance to receive a great gift from the Spirits..after all, the Bird was literally right in my Path. When would this ever happen again?! So, after work, I went back to see if it was still there, and it was. So I put it in a plastic bag and came home. For the first time in my life, I cut off both Wings and have stored them in salt for the next 6 weeks to dry and decontaminate them. After that, they will be superb and powerful Smudge and Aura Cleaning Tools. I was so awestruck by this tremendous gift! I then placed the rest of the Bird out by my Altar and Smudged it with Sage, leaving it for the Animals to take.

The next day, I again saw 4 Hawks and the soaring Butterfly. This time, two of the Hawks were a Mother (or Father) and child. And that next morning, the Body of the Bird had been taken. But during prayers that morning, I felt the Spirit of that Grouse move into me as a new Helper and Guide!

This was a first for me. To receive a full Grouse Body, freshly killed (it was very loose still when I picked it up), in order to have my first set of Raptor Wings as Shaman Tools, placed right in my Path..what a wonderful and humbling event.

December, 2005 While putting up my Christmas lights in the front yard, I happened to look up and saw a huge Hawk fly right by me into a Tree next to my House. It sat there a few Seconds, then took off for the back. On a Hunch, I went out back slowly, and sure enough, there she was..sitting in a Tree. She sat there with me for at least 5 Minutes, not more than 20 feet away. She hopped from Branch to Branch, and looked around, at me at Times. This is the longest and closest Visit I have had with Hawk. My Epiphany Visit (10/19/01) lasted only about 10 Seconds. When she finally took off to the West (Spirit Direction for me), I realized she was calling on me to release the Wings from the Salt Cleansing Period. I did. Grouse is a wonderful Totem and Wing Fan for a Shaman to have. Grouse is both the Drummer and the Dancer..what could be better? A few nights later, Grouse came to me as a female Spirit in a Dream and merged with me. I’m very honored. In a subsequent Journey, I found out her name: Sendinal. Almost like Sending All, or Sentinel. She will be a tremendous Companion for me now, and her Wing Fans are simply gorgeous..and powerful!

Journey 202 - A Woman Seeking Shamanism

2005-11-18T21:48:00.000-05:00

11/18/05: A Journey undertaken with a woman’s permission to check her Spirit Health. She and I have been trading Notes and Wisdom on Shamanism via e-mail for about two weeks now, and she feels called to the Tradition. So with great Humility and Honor, I undertook this Journey. I lit the Sacred Candle, Smudged the Room, myself and my Tools with Sage and Sweet Grass, then opened Sacred Space with my Amazonian Shaman Rattle. I then set up my Kate Whitaker Drum CD for a 10-minute Journey. I breathed myself to Calmness and concentrated on my Task: to ask about this Woman's Spirit Health!

“As I slipped into the Spirit World, I found myself standing at the Entrance to a long Trellis chock full of ripe, Concord Grapes. I moved in and enjoyed the Aroma and Colors. I soon reached an opening on my Right, a Section that ran off into a new Wing. But within this wing were many glowing, golden Orbs, suspended in the Trellis among the Grapes. At the Entrance to this wing I found both my Lower World Guide, Crosses in Front (Snake) and my Upper World Guide, Eagle Claw (Owl). They accompanied me as I walked into this Area. I found my Shaman Mirror lying on the Ground, a Circle of blue Light and low-lying Haze. I then saw the woman standing in the Center of the Mirror. She looked to be about 5’8” or 9”, with medium-length, brown, layered hair. I can’t be sure if this is how she looks now or looked at one time in her Life, as in a Journey all time and Space can and do overlap. I moved in closer and checked her Aura. It looked very healthy and colorful, with all three Soul Pieces in place, bright, and moving correctly within the Chakra System. However, as I moved closer in around the front, I found an area of spiritual Pollution. It was in and near her Heart Chakra. Many blackened Birds were flying in and out of this Chakra. I caught a few in my Hand and cleaned then off. The first was a Chickadee, the second a Bluebird, and the third a Blue Jay. I was curious as to what was causing this blackening Pollution, so I drifted into it and read its Energy. As I did so, I found myself in a House that had been similarly blackened, almost as if covered in Soot. I saw the occasional Hell-like angry Face popping up out of the Floor. This suggested to me that the woman may have had an overweening Fear of Hell and Damnation forced into her as a Child, or perhaps she viewed her early Life as a Hell of sorts. I then left the Pollution Zone, Trish and went out to the Wing Entrance. There I found the Spirit of Hummingbird. This Spirit told me that once we clean or she cleans up the Heart Chakra she will be very easily centered Spiritually, and Hummingbird will be a very close and effective Power Animal for her. I then turned and left the Trellis area and came to a large field bounded by a thick stock of Trees in the Distance. There were tall Grasses between me and the Trees. As I looked left, I saw an old-fashioned Clothesline near a House, with Clothes swinging in the Winds. I saw a large, old Barn with a bent TV Antenna attached to a Chimney. The entrance to the Barn was large and there was a dirt Entrance. I saw a rusted old Station Wagon. There were a couple of Cows in the Barn, and there were some Chickens and a Rooster pecking around. At this point, the Call Back sounded and I returned to the Room.“

NOTES: I think this last bit may be a look into the woman’s Past, whether or not it is in this Life or a recent prior one.

I think the Woman will be able to easily remove the Pollution I saw through recognition of its presence and perhaps a few Smudgings with Sage. She has a very strong connection to Bird Totems, as they continue to bring their Medicines to her Heart Chakra even though they are picking up some of the Pollution. In face, part of their Presence may be designed to cleanse the Chakra.

Now for a look at the specific Characteristics of the key Totems:

Concord Grapes: While I have nothing “official” on Grapes, I know these Grapes in particular are very high in anti-oxidants. So one can translate this physical benefit to the Spirit World as well, and see them as a way to cleanse the pollution from your Heart Chakra. I would add Concord Grape Juice and Jelly to your Diet and think of these Products as cleansing your Heart Chakra whenever you eat them. You’ll know when your Chakra is clean by the enormous amount of warmth and love you feel.

This comes from Ted Andrews’ Animal Speak. Your Power Animal is a Spirit Being who brings you characteristics of that Bird that might fill in weak areas or strengthen already good areas in you make-up. “Hummingbird as Power Animal. KEYNOTES: “Tireless Joy and the Nectar of Life” CYCLE OF POWER: Daytime. More: Humming creates an internal massage, restoring health and balance. Hummingbird reminds us to find joy in what we do and to sing it out. There are over 300 species of hummingbirds worldwide. In the Hebrew alphabet the letter “shin” is given the value of 300. This has associations with fire and relationships, the past and the future. This is even reflected in the wing movement of the hummingbirds, which can use a figure-8 pattern to hover. The figure-8 is a symbol of infinity and links the past and future and the laws of cause and effect. Hummingbirds’ long bills and tongues enable them to extract nectar from flowers, pollinating them in the process. Again this reflects the mysteries of cause and effect and teach you to extract your own Nectar from Life. Hummingbirds have knowledge of the Healing properties of flowers, teaching you how to draw life essence and medicines from Flowers as well. They also teach how to use flowers to heal and win hearts with love. Because it flies everywhere, it teaches us to truly enjoy what we are doing and become as light as a feather in the process. Hummingbirds can reach high speeds and stop instantly, are brave enough to chase off Eagles, and can even fly backwards. This allows you to take nectar from your own past, and find sweetness and joy in any situation.

Pueblo Indians were fascinated with Hummingbird’s rainbow colors, and used its Medicine in Rain and Endurance Rituals. Hummingbirds are big eaters and consume mainly the sugars of flowers. This means you should watch your own sugar levels in diet, but also ensure you are getting enough sweetness out of life itself. Hummingbirds like to play in water. They are fiercely independent and except when mating like to be alone, reveling in their freedom. Mother Hummingbirds are hard workers. They receive no help from their Male Mate. She will usually lay two eggs. Two is the number of the inner self, the feminine to which we must give birth and expression to find out own joy.

Hummingbirds are master architects. You may wish to redecorate your own home. It may be telling you to do something to create more joy in your home. Hummingbirds hibernate at night and ruffle themselves up to preserve heat. Likewise, you must get enough rest and not burn out. Finally, Hummingbirds migrate 2500 miles, This amazing fat for a creature that has to eat constantly teaches you that you can accomplish the impossible as well, an create miracles in your own life.”

Your Totem Birds’ Characteristics:

Chickadee: Cheerful and Truthful Expression. Those with this Totem will learn to express the Truth on a manner that heals, balances and open perceptions. Truth is shared ion a manner that adds cheer and joy to your own life and those of others.

Blue Bird: Modesty, Unassuming Confidence and Happiness. Take time to enjoy yourself. Their homes usually face the south, the direction for awakening the inner child. Look for opportunities to touch the joyful and intrinsically native aspects of yourself that you may have lost touch with.

Blue Jay: The Proper Use of Power: Use your power properly and do not allow yourself to have power used against you improperly. Blue Jays are members of the Crow family, and have no fear..this can help you connect with the deepest mysteries of both Earth and the Heavens. They are very majestic and royal. They are also excellent mimics. Jay indicates you are moving into a time where you can begin to develop your innate royalty, or simply be a pretender to the throne. It all depends on you.

Her responses:

11/19: Thank you for the journey! I have to say "AMAZING "! I couldn't think of a connection to Concord Grapes! After reading your journey, I can recall my first home from birth to age 4 or 5 yrs , indeed had a long trellis structure, like a long tunnel surrounded with and enveloped by grape vines! It was like a tunnel of grapes ! I forgot how much I used to like going in there! I am not sure what kind of grapes they were, but I remember eating them. They had allot of big seeds in them! LOL I still drive by the old homestead on occasion as I have relatives within a block of the old house! I will have to see if that trellis is still there! Very Cool! I am now about 5' 6" tall and have light brown hair. I was a blonde, until about 26 ish. Definitely very abusive situation throughout my childhood. The later description is of my current location. I bought my second childhood home from my Mother! There are 2 large barns right by my home. I used to explore them all the time! I have a large field surrounding my home on 2 sides(at least 10 acres) Trimmed by a wooded line of trees! Back yard used to have the clothes line you spoke of! The farm had chickens and a rooster which I loved to feed! I will write more later..I have a surprise party to attend tonight and have to go get ready. Please know how grateful I am, for all your help and guidance thus far! Gratefully yours.

11/21: I must say, I am still feeling conflicted about the whole Hell and damnation issues. I know logically it's silly, but I am afraid, that I will get God angry, for trying a "different" way. Afraid of doing something wrong to incur God's wrath! I know this is from childhood feelings.

11/22: I meant to tell you, that barn from the journey did have a few cows as well as old rusted vehicles in and across the street from it. Also what do you think the golden orbs hanging in the grapevines symbolize? MY ANSWER: I have seen those before, often. They are Mana, that is, pure Spirit Energy. This means you have lots of energy available to help in strengthening your Aura. You can imagine yourself picking these orbs and eating them like oranges to increase your strength. They are there for the pickin’! As I think I mentioned, when the Heart Chakra is polluted, it can mean love is weakened in either relationships externa..or internal. That is, you have to love yourself as a manifestation of the Great Spirit, as well as others. J Thanks for filling in the other items, too. It really was a powerful reach-out to you..I’m very glad for you. It bodes well for your future growth as a Shaman Path Seeker.

Journey 201 - A Friend's Back Problem

2005-09-19T12:27:00.000-04:00

9/19/05: A Journey taken at a friend’s request to investigate a Pain in her Back for which she is seeking medical Help. As I entered the Sacred Spirit Realm, I found my Upper World Guide Eagle Claw there, with his Human Face but the body of Owl. He was soaring around very quickly, causing a vortex of Feathers and Rainbow-colored Mana. I looked way up to the top of this Vortex and could see my friend there. Owl scooped me up and lifted me, in my mini-form as Four Hawks, to and through the top of the Vortex. There I was meeting with my friend. I first presented myself to her as four separate Hawks all flying around in an ever-tightening Formation, then merging into an Amalgam. We walked toward a Forest. From the Forest came both Water and Forest Spirit Beings, in the form of a light Mist. They swirled around and through my friend. Their presence allowed me to see a thin red Shaft of Light sticking out of her Back. I went in through this Shaft to investigate the cause of her Pain. I saw one of her Discs was slightly out of place and slightly abraded..as if something had been rubbing against its surface. I then created a Y-shaped Stick. I swirled my Hand around this Stick to charge it with Healing Energy. I began trying to push the Disc back into place, but it kept resisting. I was getting nervous about doing more Harm than Good to my Friend. At this Point, I felt myself becoming the Hollow Bone. Through me then passed one of her own Shaman Helper Spirits. He put the Disc back into place. He then handed me the Y-shaped Stick on the way back out. He congratulated me for trying to heal her and for being wise enough to allow him to finish the Job. He then said she should drink healing Teas, rest for a Week or so, and apply alternating hot and cold compresses to that area of her Back (just below the mid point, right side of the Spine). She should avoid heavy lifting for a while. I thanked the Shaman Helper, my Helpers and then returned. I then slid through the Walls of my Room and retuned to my Body.

Here is the reply I got a few nights later:

"Thank you so much for writing the journey up.
It means a lot to me.
I kept my back warm, but not cold ( don't like cold)
I do like the forest very much, but the sea is special for me, it gives me such good energy !
It's too bad it's a long way drive from were we live to reach the sea.
And yes, I was drinking more Native herbal tea at the moment !
My back hurts a little, but much less than in the beginning, and the pain on my leg and foot has gone !!
I am verry happy, and I want to thank you and all yours and mine Spirit helpers and Animals for their help."

A new Epiphany (8th Chakra Viewing)

2005-09-10T11:05:00.000-04:00

9/10/05: I visited with a person who has taken a turn for the worse in her dance with cancer and is within a month or so of passing unless a Ritual I did for her takes hold. A Journey I have taken since that Ritual has shown that her Ancestors decided to overrule my Work, certainly their right, and that is why she began to sink within a few days of my Journey for her.

When I first got to the person’s apartment this evening, I went up to her as she lay in her hospital bed, moaning from a constant pain in her side, and kissed her gently on the forehead. As I did so, I softly blew a stream of Soothing Mana into her Crown Chakra, a tried and true technique Shamans use. Then, as we were standing by her side, I opened up Sacred Space over her as well.

As time passed and we all talked, she got obviously better, even starting to joke. At one point, she even told me as I was moving a small table for her that she had started feeling better since we had been there. I told her simply that that was the reason we had come, but inside I was hoping my Mana-insertion, Sacred Space opening and the flow-through Healing of my Shamanic presence was at work.

At one point, she asked her sister, who was there with us, if there was someone standing behind her. Her sister of course said no. I looked with my Chakra-vision and saw the shape of a person, head and shoulders, right behind the ill one. I got my partner's attention and whispered, “actually, it’s YES.” Janet smiled knowingly.

But the real amazement was yet to come. Shortly after this visit, I performed a mini-Journey into my Spiritual Hollow Bone Tool. I saw the Woman's Mother and Father standing at her side as she lay there, and beside them was a small Girl, perhaps 2 or 3. I sensed but did not see Grandparents further out but also watching over her. I then tried to use my Third Eye Chakra Vision to detect more of what was going on around the Woman, but nothing came through. It was when I opened my Eyes that I was to be shortly astonished.

Within seconds, as I stared with my Aura-detection technique at the area immediately over her head, I saw a blue-white half-saucer of Light form there. It was so bright. I had never seen anything like it. This layer of Light was moving, too, sort of swirling in place. I was seeing her Eighth Chakra, the one above the Crown Chakra, wherein resides your Eternal Presence as a Spirit Being. I had read about this in certain books, but this was my very first viewing. I was amazed! But the best was yet to come. Suddenly, overlapping the plasma, I saw a vertical triangle (an “A” shape) form composed of three small orbs of white Light, like tiny Suns. They hung there for a seconds. Suddenly, they had inverted and there was a “V”, with a fourth orb off to the left. Then, another inversion returned the “A”. At the time, I was totally non-plussed as to what these were. But later as I though more about it, I realized I was seeing the actually Soul Energy of the Parents and the Little Girl! I have seen my own little Soul Orbs rushing by in my peripheral vision for the past 4 years, and this is what led me to realize what these other orbs were. They had graced me with my first viewing of out-of-body Soul Beings..perhaps in payment for all the Work I have been doing on the Woman's behalf. What a humbling and tremendous Gift. I am still so amazed!

A final note: The Woman has been seeing a sick little Girl ling on the couch next to her hospital bed recently. I was told in my Journey concerning her downturn that the little Girl is the same one I saw in my mini-Journey..except she is not sick. The Woman is projecting her own illness onto this little Girl..

What an amazing and humbling adventure being a Shaman truly is..

My Son's Friend's Power Animal

2005-08-23T21:53:00.000-04:00

8/23/05: A Journey to ascertain a friend of my Son's Power Animal. As I headed into the Spirit World, I found myself very quickly wading out from a Beach into shallow Caribbean Waters. There was an Island a short Distance from the Shore and my Lower World Guide, Crosses in Front, and I headed over to it. When we got there we found it covered in Blue Herons, all resting. As we moved up from the Waterline, we approached a golden Boulder, near which sat a Chipmunk. The Chipmunk came over to us and handed me a few Sunflower Seeds from its Mouth Pouch. We then saw the Tunnel to the Lower world in the Sand at the Base of the Boulder. We entered, and went through moist Sand. Soon we were in the Lower World, well to the right off where we usually arrive. As we settled in, a Dragonfly with yellow and gold Colors, who also had a lighting Tail like a Firefly, came and hovered a short Time in front of us. It flew off. We then moved over a short bit and came to rest upon a purple Stone whose Fragrance was of Lilacs. We then waited. Shortly, a large Elephant came over from the left, with a Tiger walking beside. They appeared to be friendly with one another. Just as suddenly, a baby Kangaroo bounced in from the right and landed right in front of us. He seemed quite content to wait there, and I began to get the impression this was Adam’s PA. The Elephant then picked up the Roo with its Trunk and held it over its Mouth as if it was going to eat the baby. A big Smile crossed both the Elephant’s and Tiger’s Faces. The Elephant then put the Kangaroo back down. The Elephant and Tiger then left. We then watched as the baby Kangaroo began bounding all over the Place. It jumped to a great Height and came back down to us with an Apple. The Dragon/Firefly then returned and landed a brief Moment on the Kangaroo’s Head. The Roo then began bouncing across the Lake before us, never once sinking into the Water. We then collected the Roo and came back up the Tunnel, crossed the Lagoon back onto the original Beach. From there, I thanked my Guide and returned to the Room.

Kangaroo is the Power Animal for the Friend. See the attached write-up for the Spirit Energies supplied by the Helper who comes as Kangaroo. The basic Medicine of Kangaroo is: Time to move forward and not back. Kangaroo Medicine asks the following questions: Are we not moving forward? Do we need to go ahead, even if it seems premature? Are we refusing to disconnect from the things of childhood? Are we heeding previous experiences? Are we trying to go in reverse when forward is the only way to go? Are we nursing what we have given birth to? Do we need to balance our creative activities? Are we staying grounded? Are we giving up too easily?

Explanation: Power Animals are really Spirit Beings who come to enhance existent or totally supply the qualities of the Animal form they pick to the human they are assigned to.

Other Notes: There were many Totem Plants/Animals in this Journey as well. Here are some key indicators they supply:

Heron speaks to aggressive self-reliance and self-determination. The fact there were so many Herons on the Island means Adam has these qualities in spades. However, they were all at rest, so Adam needs to crank these up to a higher energy level.

The gold Boulder speaks of Wealth/Security as a main goal for Adam. However, these wishes need to remain grounded in reality.

Sunflower Seeds must be important to Adam’s Diet. He should look into eating them on a regular basis. Also, Sunflower Medicine speaks to times of happiness and well-being, as well as strong healing energy.

Chipmunk Medicine speaks to valuing the treasures of the Earth, storing carefully those things you value, and of balancing work and play.

Firefly speaks to Spiritual awakening and Hope. Spiritual gifts are awakening, flickering within. Positive hope is a critical component to fulfillment and accomplishment. Firefly also warns to be sure that those around us are not mimicking what is true rather than what we hope to hear. Are we focusing on the wrong path or working with the wrong people? We may be letting others’ negative opinions crush our creativity. Dragonfly speaks of the power of light. Life is never quite as it appears, but is always filled with more light and color. Dragonfly helps you see through your illusions and allow your own light to shine forth. It brings the brightness of transformation and the wonder of colorful new vision.

Lilac speaks to the balance of Spirit and Intellect. It announces that contact with Spirit is imminent. The fact we smelled Lilac just before Roo showed up strengthen the fact Roo is the Power Animal for Adam. Adam should attach himself fondly to Lilacs in order to keep that feeling of spirit arrival fresh and alive.

The sort of contrary elements presented by Elephant and Tiger add up as follows. Adam must have a bit of a contrary relationship with royalty, ancestry and/or societal norms (part of Elephant Medicine). These forces tend to try to tie him up. Tiger speaks to Passion, Power, Devotion and Sensuality. The fact this Medicine also showed up in the contrary means Adam may be suppressing these wonderful qualities in his own Life. He should turn them loose and let them run across the steppes of his life.

Finally, Yellow speaks to Mental Activity, Intellectual Power and Awakening, qualities already brought out in parts of he above discussions. Gold peaks to strengthening and amplifying..again brought out earlier.

9/3: Adam drew me a fantastic pencil sketch of the Lower World Animal Visits, as a thank you. Here is a young Man who used his Talents to honor my Work for him. I am completely honored in return, although the Honor belongs to my Helpers. The Sketch will hang in my Shaman's Altar room from here on out.

Saving a Mother from a Fated Death

2005-08-02T08:02:00.000-04:00

8/2/05: This is an amazing Moment. I got home very early from Work, as I had decided not to put up any “tomorrow” Mail and instead leave immediately. Within 2 minutes of my getting Home, a girl Friend of my Son's drove up. I told her my son wasn’t home, but she said she had come to talk to me, not him. I invited her in, and she told me of a remarkable Dream she had had a few Nights ago. This was a very clear and lucid Dream, and she recalled it in very great detail. She even said she woke up a few times and had gone right back into it. This reminded me very much of my own Shamanic Dream, and I knew it was indeed a very important and powerful Message. In her Dream, She had received a Call from a Woman whose name began with a “J” (I immediately thought of her Aunt, the deceased twin Sister), saying the Girl’s Mother had died in a Car Crash. The rest of this very long Dream involved the Girl racing to a Hospital and asking many People, on many Floors, where her Mother was. Some said she was “upstairs somewhere”, but no-one could or would tell her exactly where. She even checked out a Body Bag. The end of the Dream showed her in the Car hugging her Mom from behind her Seat, and then watching as her Mom and her Car went unsteadily down the road. The whole Time I was listening to the Girl, I was thinking to myself, “Man, this is real. Her Mom really is going to die.” I was very concerned, and was determined to act immediately, even though I had had no Plans to do anything Shamanically after a very rough Morning. I told the Girl to come back in about a half Hour, and since my Son had just come home, she went off with him. I went downstairs and prepared as always. I then took out my Pendulum and as always held it well above the Sacred Flame, the Singularity where all Matter and Energy meet, and all in knowable. I asked, is the Mom really going to die? Answer: Yes. I shook my Head in great Concern. I then asked, can I intervene to prevent it. It seemed like a long Time, but within 10 seconds the answer came: Yes. “All RIGHT!” I said to myself, and was very soon thereafter off into the Journey to erase this Future.

As the Journey began, My Upper World Guide, Owl, was sitting in a Tree. It was quite Dark, and it was raining..but raining Blood. Owl was dripping wet with it, and soon so was I. As we looked above us, we saw a Tunnel of Lightning forming..the Tunnel to the Upper World. We both zoomed up the Tunnel together, and as we did so, I caught a fleeting Image of the Mom lying dead on the Ground, having been ejected from her Vehicle. We then reached the Upper World. I was in a small Room, a bit like a small offshoot Area in a Museum. On the Floor was a Fork of Light, with several Prongs. The right-most one had a big Red Dot cutting it short. I knew this was a Representation of the possible Futures for the Mom, and that the one with the Red Dot was the one where she would be killed. The straight line of the Fork was her Life until now. I went to the Prong with the Red Dot and checked it out. The date was Oct 19, 2006. It was a wet Evening, with lots of wet Leaves on the road. The Mom had lost control on them and was ejected, having not been wearing her Seatbelt. I then worked to try to change this, and within Seconds a Group of Little People came from the Woods and swept the Leaves away and dried the Roadway. They then consecrated the Area with Serjiim, a combination of Salt, Sand and Rice used by Shamans to protect People. The Area was sparkling with Rainbow Specks when all was done. The Accident had been erased from Future Time. The Scene then shifted. I was in a Kitchen, I think at the Mom’s House but maybe not. We were trying to move a large and very-well finished Table. The Table had feet sticking out looking somewhat like a Fox’s(?). I then saw a Scene in perhaps an upper Room where a Man was holding a Gun very near the Mom’s Back. The Gun was firing, and grazing her Skin so slightly that it merely made a slight, temporary Indent. Owl and I then returned through the Tunnel after verifying the Prong with the Red Dot was gone. As we went down the Tunnel, the Lightning was gone..there was only Smoke now. We landed in a beautiful, sunlit Meadow, lush with Flowers. All signs of Blood were gone, save for a distant black Cloud on the Horizon, moving away, from which the Blood was falling. I thanked Owl and was back.

I then took out my Pendulum and asked if the Death had indeed been erased from Time. I got a yes. Yeehah!

I then made up a mix of Serjiim for the Girl to give to her Mother. The Mom should sprinkle some around her Car, and keep the rest safely hidden away until Oct 2006 passes. I also asked the Girl if there were Guns in her House. She said yes, so I told her that her Mom should not be anywhere near when the Guns are being cleaned. Her Dad should also check each one to make sure there in not an unexploded Shell still in the chamber.

As I was finishing up, I began thinking. Why did the deceased Sister alert my Son's Friend so far in advance? It made no sense to use her now, unless..unless.. And I thought back to a journey I did for the Girl’s Grandmother last week, in a which a Woman with Stringy dark Hair was lying in a Coffin with a Death Date of September of this Year. Omigod, I thought. Was that the Girl? Is this why the deceased Aunt alerted me through her so soon, so I would be focusing on Death and the Girl at the same Time? So I took my Pendulum and again asked. At first I asked if anyone is the Girl’s immediate Family was the one in the Coffin. I got a No. I then asked the key Question..is it the Girl? I got a Yes. Filled with Dread, I then asked if I could intervene in this Matter. Talk about Eternities. But after 10 seconds or so, I got my Answer. YES! What a Relief! If it had been No, I would have been unable to do anything or tell anyone. I would have had to live with the impending Disaster. Shamans are not allowed to violate another’s Sacred Path. Perhaps the Girl might have asked me about it in the next Month so I COULD act..but who knows. But as it was, I was now in position to work with the Spirits to save a second Life in less than an Hour! The results are in the next Journey write-up, not posted here..but I was able to erase a scene to occur in September of this year where the Girl was killed in a Lightning Strike.

This is the message I got afterwards from the Mom:

“Hi, Wow!!! My Daughter told me everything you had told her!
She told me of her dream yesterday, and it was so odd that she remembered everything, she had no laps in memory. I remember feeling so sad for some reason, when she was telling me all this, I was trying not to let her see how upsetting it was for me, but ya, know deep down, I knew this was to actually happen to me!
Then when she told me about her, in the shower during a lighting storm, how frightening, I’ve always told them to never take a shower or bath during a thunder storm!!
When you had told me the info about a person in a coffin with the dark hair, I first thought of my Daughter!! That was another feeling I had deep down inside, and I had that same terribly sad feeling it was her.
I’m so happy that she happened to come by, and she told you of all this, she didn’t tell me she was going to speak to you. Thank you for the baggy with the rice, etc. I will do as you said; I can’t say Thank You enough for your insight and all the help and guidance. I will email you again on this. God Bless You!"

A day or two later came this reply as well: "How disturbing all of this has been and how joyous the ending! My Daughter and I are forever grateful for your gift!
I have to tell you, I was so terribly sad to hear of all this, and so glad that my Daughter had brought her (dream) Journey, to your attention, with all this info we were so happy to hear how you and your helpers have saved us from these tragic events. I sprinkled the Serjiim on the 4 corners of my car, and have saved the rest as requested, no one was home when I did it and I didn’t see any neighbors out at that time.
How interesting about the gun in the house. My husband does have one, a muzzle loader gun that he wants to fire. He said you can’t just pull the trigger to fire it, apparently a muzzle loader rifle works a bit differently, I can’t say, I don’t know guns, we have many in the house, but ALL are empty and put away and with ammo in a different location, all except the Muzzle loader rifle. I will put that gun in a hiding place until he sets out to empty it, and to do that he has to fire it, so he’s been meaning to take it up to his brothers house and fire the remaining gun powder out! I’m gonna put the pressure on about that!
We were just talking about this last week!!
I will be on top of that issue for obvious safety reasons, many thanks for your impute.
After reading of your Journeys for my Daughter and I, I do feel a LOT better knowing you have done all you could. I don’t even know if there’s any way to Thank You for all you’ve done, We are forever Grateful to you and your helpers!!!
Gratefully Yours"

Journey 200 - Visit with a Deceased Mom

2005-05-08T12:19:00.000-04:00

5/8/05: A Journey to visit with a Mother, who died within the past two years, on Mother’s Day, on her Daughter's request. As is always the case with visiting the Deceased, I asked permission first. I opened Sacred Space, with my Rattle, lit the Sacred Candle and Smudged prior to this request. As usual, I then held the Crystal Pendulum well above the Candle and asked if it was allowed for me to visit with the Mom. I got a yes. What this means is that my visit with one of the 3 Soul Parts will not interfere with that part’s Spiritual Destiny. I was denied a visit with someone’s deceased Brother recently for that same reason. Therefore I was quite pleased for the Daughter's sake to get that yes. So I placed the Drum Loop on and was off. I had no idea which World we would be going into, so I waited. I very soon found myself on top of a medium-sized Hill, sunny and covered with Flowers and Plants. The Sky was deep blue and had white puffy Clouds floating by. The Breeze was warm and intoxicating. It was the most splendid of Spring scenes, like the perfect spring Day. And then a Queen Bee came by and flew around me a few times. She then stopped right in front of me, as if waiting for me to follow. As I stood and walked toward her, she led me on. Off in the distance I saw a Woman sitting alone. I looked to my right and my Lower World Guide, Crosses in Front, was slithering along through the Grass with me. High above me, my Upper World Guide, Owl, was flying along. But within a few seconds, I came abruptly to a very high Cliff edge. We just kept right on walking through the Air, with no tendency to fall whatsoever. I looked down and well below was a River. It was colored in many bright Hues, and even the Sunlight reflected back in colors. I realized we were over the River that separates this Life from the Life our Earth Souls take on after Death. So we were staying in the Middle World. This meant we would be visiting with Mom’s Suld, or Earth, Soul. We got to the other side and I approached the Woman, young and lovely, sitting on a Log. She had a small collection of Pussy Willows in front of her, and as I looked around I noticed we were in a grove of them. I went up to her and looked at the ground as I spoke, in humble Averting of the Eyes. She told me not to avert, but rather look up at the Sky, and in particular, the Sun. I did so, and noticed the Moon as a black Orb just off-center of the Sun. I could see both at the same time. Today was the New Moon, and so I was witnessing a sight we don’t see on this side of the River..the New Moon as a shiny, black Circle superimposed on the Sun. As I stared at the Sacred Combo, a golden heart formed in a rope of Mana, looking like a Christmas garland, around the two orbs. I then looked back at Mom. She handed me a pair of wooden Knitting Needles, the color of Oak, with two black Caps on each of the non-point ends. These were obviously a Gift to her Daughter. She then began to speak. She told me she was very happy as a soon-to-be Nature Spirit. She told me that when she finishes up being her Earth Soul, her Spirit Energy will go happily and gratefully into the Blue Heron Clan. I then asked her if she knew of the events surrounding her Children. She said yes, and kept referring to them as the Troubles. She said she visits occasionally, and has seen what is going on. She said she was sad that most of the Children were so focused on material gain. She wished they could see the Truth that lies behind the Façade of what they call Reality. She told me she was proudest of this Daughter, for she is closest to knowing the Truth about what is really Important. She told me she is the most Spiritually connected of all her children. She said she has been feisty and admirable all her Life, and she has enjoyed watching her progress in that combination of strength and gentleness that so well defines the well-adjusted Human Woman. She then told me something remarkable. She said that the day she passed, she merged quickly and for a short time with her Daughter. She left within her the Key to the Spirit World. She said it is still there, and when she finds it and opens that Door, the same Beauty and warm Breezes that I experienced at the start of this Journey will pour through that opened Door and sweep all her worries and cares away..and she will have lasting Peace. I then saw her handling an Amulet or Locket that was shaped as a Heart, but for some reason came on very strongly to me as being associated with or even made/filled with Apple. She then told me that she will visit her Daughter on occasion as a Blue Heron. At one point she will leave a Feather for her. It will be mainly grayish with blue fringe. It will be unmistakable, and the Daughter will immediately recognize it as the gift from her Mom. She then leaned forward and showed me her Necklace. It was a very thin chain, of Silver, and had a small, square Onyx as its charm. She then asked if she could merge with me for a few seconds. I said it was fine. I found myself back in my bedroom, feeling the Mom breathing in and out deeply. She said she found it so wonderful to feel that Air rushing in and out of lungs again. She told me her Daughter must do likewise, and gain that tremendous feeling of the Honor involved in being in her Body still. She then left my Body and we were both back at her site. I felt it was time to take my leave and go back across the River. Just as I was turning to leave, the Call Back sounded..so I had to beat feet back. I went from the Hill back to my Yard, and then came back into the Bedroom. I lay on the floor to ground myself fully. I thanked the Helpers and the Mom for the wonderful experience.

Notes: The Bee is a reminder to extract the Honey of Life and to make our Lives fertile while the Sun shines. It reminds us that no matter how great the Dream there is the promise of fulfillment if we pursue it. The Elixir of Life is as sweet as Honey, and we can drink of it if we just pursue our Dreams.

5/9/05: While out and about today, a Queen Bee came and stopped right in front of me, exactly as in this Journey. Here was the Spiritual manifested into the physical. I knew the Mom had sent this Bee, or was this Bee. And, I smiled broadly as I said hello.

I never knew there was a River of Spirit Energy separating the Souls here from the Earth Souls “there.” It is obviously easily crossed, but the Great Spirit has seen fit to separate the two existences..more to keep the Living here than to prevent the Passed Ones from coming here, though.

Blue Heron symbolizes the Great Spirit, among other things. It also symbolizes Aggressive Self-Determination and Self-Reliance.

Journey 199 - Two Power Animals Retrieved

2005-04-29T12:10:00.000-04:00

4/29/05: The first of two Journeys, the first for a Man. After my usual preparations,. I found myself standing in a grassy area at Night. The surface of the Earth seemed to be undulating around and ahead of me, as if Ribbons in the Wind. My Lower World Guide, Crosses in Front, arrived in the form of Snake, but wearing Mexican regalia. She then turned into her human Spirit form and continued dancing, as if to a Mexican beat. We began walking across/through the undulating Ground, and soon came to an opening. It had the look of an old mine entrance. Colored paper lights were strung across the top. We went in, realizing this was the Tunnel to the Lower World entrance. As we went further in, the Tunnel went from being a dirt mine shaft to a corrugated metal tunnel. We emerged and found ourselves in my usual Power-Animal-search area of the Lower World. But it was completely black, save for a large and well-lit semi-Rainbow off to our left and up the side of a mountain. It seemed to be sticking out of the side. There was a shower occurring to produce the Rainbow, but there were no Clouds. Moreover, there were no artificial Lights, either. The whole scene seemed to be lit from within, as if from its own Power. Suddenly, from beneath the brilliant Rainbow arc and through the curtain of light Rain came a Condor. It flew right over us and dropped some white excrement on us. We found this to be an honor of some sort. But it also convinced us to move up into the Rain and wash ourselves off. We did so. On the other side of the Rain curtain we saw a beautiful young Woman, sitting on a Rock protrusion. As we got near, she turned into a large Fish and jumped off into a Pond far below. She had been either a Bass or a Rainbow Trout. We then waited, for we had yet to see any Animal that was acting as a Power Animal for the Man. We saw a Goat above us, a Mountain Lion in the distance, but neither had any interest is us. Eagle and Owl, my two other main Guides, then flew in to where we were standing, to help increase our Windhorse. Then, in the Sky ahead of us, a scene appeared. A bunch of wild Horses were running along a hillside. One pulled out of the flow and came over to us. It was a Red Horse, with bright green eyes, and when it reared up, it revealed a yellow belly. It came right up to me and licked the palm of my hand. I knew we had found the Power Animal. The scene then shifted. I saw a young Girl sitting in a highchair in a kitchen. The young Girl turned into a young Boy. It was the Man when young. He got down and went to a lower cupboard and pulled out a bunch of pots and pans. He liked the shine and the weight. I then saw that he loved to watch shows and read books involving horses..Black Beauty, Lassie? I then saw several scenes involving a grown-up and fun-loving Man in which real horsepower is involved..racing cars, powerboats, etc. In another scene shift, I then saw a small white Dog running around a yard with its own leash in its mouth. We were trying to catch it but it kept dodging us. This was the end of the imagery flow. We then started tracing our way back from the Lower World. When we got back to the beginning, Crosses resumed her Mexican dancing and presumably went back to the party she had come from. The Call Back then sounded and I thanked my Guides and returned to the room.

Horse represents travel, power and freedom. It symbolizes movement, travel, sexual desires. It encourages you to ride into new directions to discover freedom and power. It asks: are you too constricted, or are those around you? The red color indicates stimulation, an awakening of the life force. Red is warming and activating. It stimulates deep passions..too much red can mean high blood pressure. See the attached readout for the full story on Horse Medicine.

Yellow implies intellectual activity, awakening and ability. It serves as a strong antidepressant. It awakens confidence, optimism and enthusiasm for life..but too much creates anxiety.

Green reflects calming, balancing, growth. It increases compassion. It soothes the nervous system. Green awakens friendliness, hope, faith and peace. I stimulates growth. It cancels out red’s effects. Never use green around cancerous growths, though.

The girl/boy transformation seems to imply that the Man is well-balanced in his male-female Energy regime. He would be equally comfortable with both sexes, and understands both perspectives.

Dog stands for loyalty and protection. The fact the Dog in the Journey is running around with its own leash in its mouth implies the Man may have let control of these two elements out of his control a bit. Loyalty given blindly, and protection from another, can be less than adequate, and a disloyalty to ones own Power.

Journey 2 was for a Woman. This one took of into a completely different direction, as is to be expected. I was very small, and standing in some snow. Snow was falling all around me, and as I looked up I could see each flake was individually colored. Snake then moved in from the distance ahead of me, and was very large, telling me I was very small. We looked off into a distant stock of Trees and saw a frosted yellow Sun hanging low just beyond the Trees. We headed for it, assuming it was the Tunnel entrance. I, being so small, hitched a rode on Crosses’s back. As we passed the Tree stand and approached the Sun, the Earth fell quickly away. I had the sense of flying and falling at the same time. We went into the Sun and passed through a frosted glass Tunnel, lit white-yellow light. When we emerged, we were back in the Lower World. But we were standing adjacent to a Tropical Beach! Up in a nearby Tree sat a Parrot or Cockatoo. While it was full of color, I remember Red, Orange and Blue standing out. It flew down and landed on my right arm, grasping me firmly but not painfully with its large talons. This was the Woman’s Power Animal, and an unusual choice. Suddenly we were atop an Aztec Stone Monument on the form of a large Bird. The two wings stretched out to either side of us. We went up and up, and soon came into a Cloud deck. When there, the scene shifted. I saw the Woman lying on her bed, the daylight streaming in through a single window. She read for a while, but then lay on her stomach, as if bored. She then hopped off the bed and began to head out the door, but stopped in the bathroom first. She turned on the water and a black ribbon of water came out. She then headed out. The scene shifted and I saw her working somewhere in complete contentment for a while. Nothing stood out about this scene, and my remembrance is quite murky. Apparently she fit right in where she was. This was the near end of the Journey..except as we were coming back, we stopped to see the Woman standing under an Apple Tree at night, eating a donut and sipping from a cup of coffee.

Parrots/Macaws characteristics include:

Use of language
Mockery/mimicking
Pair bonding
Brings rain*
Guidance and wisdom to think before speaking

*Rain is a Feminine element, the gift of the emotions.

The Frosted-Glass Tunnel, combined with the snow scene at the beginning, implies something is frozen out or not totally clear in her Life. The multicolored snowflakes, though, seemed to suggest the appearance not soon afterwards of the very colorful Macaw at the exit from the Tunnel. Color is obviously big in her life.

Parrot/Macaw is the Bird of the Sun. Its Feathers can be used as Healing Sticks to invoke the Sun’s Power. The Parrot is a wonderful Teacher of the Power of Colors, and people with Parrot Medicine should study how to use Colors for Healing and Health. Parrots’ mimicking of humans represents a link between Man and Bird..it encourages diplomacy. See the attached Parrot readout for full explanations.

The huge Stone Bird Column of Aztec origin indicates that a trip to the Andes might help make a connection that brings Life Full-Circle to the Woman. Somehow the actual visit will tie in with her youth..and voila!

The black water in her bathroom indicates the water she drank as a child was full of bad elements. She should consider a detoxification regime at regular intervals.

The Apple Tree scene implies Apple may be a useful addition to the diet..versus too much sugar and caffeine!! It also recommends against heavy snacking at night.

Red is discussed above. Blue means relaxation, antiseptic, cooling. It awakens intuition and eases loneliness. It awakens artistic expression and creativity, and is very effective when mixed with the warm colors, as on the Macaw. Orange represents joy, wisdom and creativity It stimulates feelings of socialness. It is tied to our emotional health and the muscular system.

Random notes from the Friend who brought the Man and Woman to me. She reports both PAs are “perfect” for the Man and Woman. They both love Mexico! The Woman is an artist and deals with colors all the time. The Man loves the concept of horses, and in fact owned a Red horse when he was younger! The Woman loves coffee and sweets, and if I recall right, had an Apple Tree farm, or lived on one. Bottom line: the Friend thought both Journeys were right on the mark.

Journey 198 - Soul Retrieval

2005-04-24T12:02:00.000-04:00

This relates to Journey 184

4/24/05: A Soul Retrieval Journey taken for a woman, as instructed during the prior Journey (#166) I did for her, during which her Soul Piece asked to be retrieved during the next Full Moon. The latter occurred this morning at 6:06 AM, and I performed the Journey between 6:35 and 6:45 AM. Since my faimly were in my room, I transferred my operations to the Family Room. I lit the Sacred Candle, lit a bit of Sage to cleanse the area, and began the Drumming Loop. I did not Rattle Sacred Space into place beforehand as I did not want to wake anyone up. However, as soon as the Journey was to begin, I had already resolved to do it then.

As I went into the Journey using my CD Drum Loop, I was soon at a small Fire in daylight. The open-field area was sprinkled with Grasses and small Bushes. Some Tree stands were off in the distance. Eagle Claw, my upper World Guide, was with me. Above, the Full Moon sat incredibly large. I’d guess it was at least 10 times bigger than normal..it looked very close, taking up a good part of quadrant of that part of the Sky, from near-horizon to about 60% of the way up to vertical. I took my Rattle and brought Sacred Space into place by honoring the Four Directions, Father Sky and Mother Earth, with special thanks to Grandmother Moon for her obvious willingness to help. Eagle Claw and I then joined Hands and danced around the Fire, one on either side and facing each other, arms outstretched across the heat. I chanted as we danced, something like, “Thank you, Grandmother Moon, for coming to us. Thank you for helping retrieve the Woman's Soul Piece.” The scene suddenly shifted. We were back at the place in the first Journey where the Woman was sitting outside a cabin at night, with the Moon shining down on her through tall Trees. Eagle Claw and I went and stood behind her, one on either side. I looked down for a second..the Full Moon, crystal clear and in full 3-dimension, was now resting right at the surface of my Mirror! How marvelous to see it there, shrunk to just fit within my Mirror! Within a few seconds, the Woman's Soul Piece came toward us from along this side of the River Bank (she had been across the River during the prior Journey). She came right up to me and then went past. She was standing in the Moonlight to our left, and began to speak. “There is much to atone for,” she said. She repeated this several times. Then she said that when she returned to her home (the Woman's Body), the Woman would feel a fullness, a peace, a centeredness, a calm and a joy she had not known since the day her Soul Part fled her body. This would give her a profound new Strength for dealing with her Life. She could now drop the weight of all that needed atoning for..it was no longer hers to carry around. The Soul Part then came up to me and hugged me in thanks. I then asked for specific instructions on transferring her back to the Woman. She told me to anoint the Stick I had chosen to house her with my Arshaan liquid. I was to draw onto the Stick the symbol of the wave the Woman had seen in her own Dreams. I was then to place the Stick on the Mirror surface along with my Meteorite Piece (the Bringer of Spirit) and the large Moqui Ball (Bringer of Life). I later got the sense to also place a picture of the Moon on top of the Mirror first, to physically symbolize the Moon sitting within the Mirror. I was then to chant “Hurai!” nine times while running my finger clockwise around this assemblage. I was then to leave it there for a while. When I returned, I was to Smudge the pieces, re-anoint the Stick with Arshaan, and then finish with another round of 9 “Hurais!” The Soul Part would then be within the Stick. The scene then shifted. I was standing on the Mirror surface. I watched as the Woman, younger, sank slowly into its Surface. As she did so, facing me, she had an Apple in her hand. The scene shifted again. I saw her throw an Apple into a wooded area, and then against the window of a tall Barn. I was then back on the Mirror to watch the rest of her Soul Piece sink into it. The scene then shifted again. I was sitting on the Moon with the Soul Peice. She was very happy to be there. The view of the Earth and Stars was phenomenal. She turned to me and told me to remind the Woman to be like the Full Moon..provider of gentle Comfort and soft Light, yet very strong and firmly placed within her own Sky. The Moon is the great provider of tidal forces. The Journey ended as the Call Back Drumming persisted. I then held the Mirror over the Flame to provide the warmth of the gol (the center of all existence) for the Soul Piece as she sat on the Moon waiting. The Woman, when she gets the Stick, will place it first over her Heart, pointing straight out, and feel her Soul Piece flow back into her. She will then place the Stick on top of her head, pointing up, and likewise feel the Restoration. Her Soul Piece will then be back.

Notes: As I was drawing the symbol on the Stick a bit later, much to my delight, I found the same symbol was already on the Stick in perfect replication! It points in the exact opposite direction on the same side, indicating extraordinary balance coming to the Woman from this Restoration. This meant my choice of Sticks had been guided by the Helpers.

After a few hours, I placed my Hand over the Mirror with the Stick and other objects. I was able to view the Soul Piece sitting on a large log next to a running Stream. Sunlight was pouting down on her as she sat in the clearing of a wooded area. She was dangling her feet in the Stream, and looked VERY content. The transfer from the Moon to the Stick has been completed. I shall finish the blessing later today, though.

I followed instructions this evening and completed the Transfer by re-anointing the Restoration Stick. I shall present it to the Woman ASAP, along with a picture of the Stick resting on the Moon-covered Shaman’s Mirror with the Moqui Marbles (150 million years old and tools of SW American Native American Shamans for thousands of years) and the Meteorite piece found in eastern Siberia.

4/25: I told the Woman of her Soul Piece sitting on the log and dangling her feet in the water, and she told me that was her all-time favorite thing in the world to do. Another great correlation by the Helpers.

Journey 197 - A Man and his Sons

2005-04-22T11:58:00.000-04:00

4/22/05: A Journey to investigate the relationship a Man with share with his two sons in the future. After the usual preparations, I was off. Immediately I saw a Christmas Tree standing in a living room, in a corner next to a window. I was in the Tree, and my Upper World Guide Owl was sitting beside me..we were both quite small. I looked down to see two young Boys staring up at the Tree and really enjoying it. These Boys than ran up some stairs on the opposite side of the room. I then saw the Man come down and place gifts around the Tree base. Two gifts that stood out..a tricycle and a building block set. The scene then shifted to the next day, where the boys were opening their gifts. But the Man, while enjoying them, was feeling a bit lonely and lacking, as he really wished he could be sharing this tremendous scene with a partner with whom he was Soul-mated. Then, the Star atop the Tree burst into a small point of brilliant white Light. It was a Tunnel through which Owl and I could travel into the Future. We zipped into the Tunnel, and as we emerged at the other I saw a familiar sight from prior Time-related Journeys. The Wheel of Time for this particular Universe we are now in was spinning above us, a huge green wheel made of innumerable stands of green night representing all the occurrences in Time. A white dot represented the Now, while a thin strip of red further back was the scene we had just come from. The Future was further ahead on the wheel, in blue, and we headed into that Channel. I saw the Sports Bar at Newmarket! The Man was playing pool inside. He was alone. He decided he was done and stepped outside. But instead of seeing the parking lot, he had moved into a large and lush Valley, with crisp air and numerous rolling hills adorned with many different Plants and small Trees. Down the Hill from where he stood was a huge Deer with a large set of Antlers. The Deer was staring at the Man as it ate. Then, 10s of butterflies floated quickly in and all landed on the Antlers, covering them completely. The Day then switched instantly to Night. All was black except for the Deer, who stood there eating outlined in a soft blue glow. The Man spoke to his Sons, more fully grown now, who had appeared at his side. He asked them if they could see that, and what did they think it meant. They told him that it was a sign that he was to transform himself into a more joyful place (the Butterflies) and adopt a more gentle but alert stance in Life (the Deer). Deer are the great providers, said the sons..they provide food and clothing and bone..but are widely revered for their quickness and calm Spirits. The scene then lit up again. It was still Night, but off on top of a distant Hill I saw the Man with a Woman by his side and two smaller children. I was unable to determine if these two children were the Man’s current boys or two additional children. They were staring at a Christmas Tree! Then, the Sky suddenly turned a blood red. The redness came down and soaked into the Ground. All became yellow and dry, lifeless. I then saw a large white Dog with black spots running quickly around the nearest hillside, barking and darting. I then saw the Man’s face drift in from my right. He appeared to be either asleep or perhaps even dead. Suddenly the talons of a tremendously large Eagle plopped down onto the hillside. The entire scene began to shrink as I was pulled up and away from it. It soon fit onto a branch of a Tree upon which this Eagle had landed. I watched as he sat there. The scene then shut down, and on my Visual Cortex I saw a Woman’s face, round with dark eyes against her white skin. This woman then shifted into a much older woman wearing a head covering. Two other fleeting scenes presented themselves..I saw the Man shopping with his fully grown boys..and I saw one of them pitching a low and inside strike at a local ball field. The Call Back then sounded and I returned as I had come in, thanking my Guide for his Help.

Notes: Remember that sometimes imagery is presented as metaphors as opposed to actual places or events.

The Christmas morning and Deer Scenes speak for themselves. The red blood from the Sky tells me that the Man may contract a blood disease at some time that if left unchecked may cause him to lose his life prematurely. This is something he should watch out for. However, I saw him with his boys grown, so I believe he still has plenty of time.

The black and white dog at the end of the blood scene could have many interpretations, including color, actions and dog virtues. Dog of course represents unconditional love and loyalty, as well as the ability to fearlessly attack perceived enemies. This dog was obviously coming against the presence of Death. This scene may have significance for the Man later in life.

The arrival of the Eagle to contract the scene into a Tree Branch gives me pause. Eagle is the high Spirit Bird, so obviously the entire lesson set of that scene has a high Spiritual Source. The branch may represent the branch of this Life of the Man’s..he has a much higher Spiritual oversight than he may know or believe.

The woman towards the end may be a life partner, or may be a Spirit Helper. More than likely she is or will be both..

Journey 196 - The Skull Dream

2005-04-20T21:11:00.000-04:00

4/20/05: A journey to investigate a Dream Tuecke's (see recent Journeys) new Body had a short time ago. In her words:

“I was also wondering if you could look into this dream I had this morning. I was supposedly far away from home. Not sure where. There were others in my dream I do not know who they were. They killed someone and I buried the skull. These people wanted to make sure that the remains could not be found. Sorry, this is so vivid. But, why would I be burying someone's skull? That is all I remember from this part of the dream. Then the dream jumped to my friends house that I have been friends with since High School. I felt like something was wrong there. I also sensed that her husband might be pissed off about something that has to do with me. But, don't know what.

The weird thing is, my husband told me yesterday that he saw a crow in the middle of our back yard looking for food. Can you find out what all this means?”

I agreed to check it out, and after opening Sacred Space and Smudging, I headed out into the Journey. I found myself sitting rather far up in a Tree with no Leaves. Below me was a narrow dead-end Road with a deserted 2-story House (with large Attic making a 3rd level) to my left of center. It was totally dark, like the Night around me, save for a single Street Light to my right, several hundred feet down the road away from the end. Owl then arrived. He was glowing red on his left side, green on his right..his head was black. He landed beside me. We decided to go into this House and see what was up. I became Hawk, and my colors became the mirror opposite of Owl’s. We merged as one on the way down, and became invisible. We flew into the 2nd story Window nearest us. We were inside a very dark and old Bedroom. No sign of Life. But we could see a trail of Footprints going down the Steps..the Prints were a deep red, as if of the memory of Blood. We went down into the Cellar. There we found a very elderly Man, large framed but very tired and sweaty, slowly digging up an old Skeleton. The death of this buried person must have occurred in the Bedroom. No cause was apparent. The scene then shifted out to the Field beyond a stock of Trees just beyond the edge of the dead end Road. There I saw the Girl burying the Skull of her Dream. I got the impression the People standing around this scene were members of the old Man’s Family. They were claiming they were covering up a Crime of his, he was too old and mentally insufficient to have to pay now. He had apparently been off his rocker for a good part of his Life, and was even more so now. By now there was a party in the upstairs of this House, and we were suddenly inside too. I saw the Man in the Dream disapproving of Helen’s actions. He seemed to be referring to her burying the Skull, but that was an impression, not made clear. At this point I reviewed the Journey to this point. I failed to see the meaning in it. Who was the Person who was killed? Why was the Girl involved at all..she was not a family member. What was in it for her..was she under a threat? I didn’t see anything threatening. There seemed no lesson here..just more detail. I asked Owl. We went back into the Tree, and suddenly I saw a strong Breeze blow in with the Light of Day. The Light and Wind swept away the people standing near the burial site. I was then told..this whole thing is a metaphor for the Girl burying herself! The family members were actually Spirit Helpers of hers. She was burying her Fear of Death. I saw the scene of the House and field suddenly become part of a toy Train Table (ala the movie Beetle Juice). I was then taken back in time to when the Girl was very young. There was a Train incident that put the recognition of Death into her for the first time. I saw several options: she was almost hit; someone close to her was almost hit; or someone may have been killed. It wasn’t clear. Then I was told that the disproving Husband signaled that by overcoming Death on her walk into becoming a Shaman practitioner or beyond, some of her friends will not be happy with the changes in her. This was all I could get from this Journey..the Call Back Drumming brought me home.

Some notes for interpretative value: Red is the color of the Base, or Survival, Chakra. Green is the color of the Heart Chakra. Black represents the night, or the opposing Forces. Taken in sum, one sees a battle going on within the Girl concerning survival of her Heart’s longings, and this battle is now in full swing “in the dead of night.” There may, of course, also be some Christmas connection. The fact the Journey began with a deserted house at the end of a dead-end road in the middle of the night implies the depths of abandonment and loneliness that may be buried in her depths. Her burying her own Skull is an attempt to break the hold these forces have on her, and the warm light that resulted from her actions adds credence. The appearance of the movie Beetle Juice was odd, but did lead to the important train incident. Perhaps the year of its release has something to do with (1988).

The Crow pecking in the middle of the yard, to me, implies that the burying of the Skull was the central theme of this Dream..the lesson intended. To be an effective Shaman, one must deal with one’s own Death until it no longer means anything. I have scene myself killed and dismembered any number of times, only to find I was still alive outside my Body. So I have reached that point of no fear. This was even the central tenet of the Shaman Jesus’ message: he came to overcome death. I feel this attempt to begin the processing of overcoming that Fear was the main point of this Dream.

Here was her reply: "
A lot of things that you mentioned are many things that have happened or somewhat are happening right now. The part about the dead-end road with a field, my friend from High School grew up on a dead-end road with a big field next to her house and we hung out there a lot. Her husband who she is married to now also hung out there at that time, but he was only a friend at the time. Her husband apparently did not and I still think he does not like the way I do things and has said that I have an attitude. But, I have never had an attitude towards him so I don't understand why it would affect him. Like you said, you failed to see the meaning in it. So, I agree. He in the past has tried to get involved in my friendship with his wife. But, I would be here for many years trying to expain my long history with this friend. I also don't think the friendship will ever be the way I want it to be. I will expain it to you one day when we eventually meet. Also, my friend has had a lot of parties in that house including Christmas night get togethers every year until I got married. When that stoped don't think my friend liked it, but hey we all have to grow up sometime. She also has parties now. But, does not live in that house anymore. I am not sure who this dead man is either. But, my friend's father did die when she was young. So not sure if there is any connection.
The Beetle Juice movie mentioned, I had a dream about this movie in the past but have never seen the movie. Will have to rent sometime. But, I went online to read a little bit about the movie. This movie sounds like it relates to my friendship with this friend. I met my friend in 1988, we were in the tenth grade at the time.

Not sure about the part below. I don't remember any of this happening. "There was a train incident that put the recognition of Death into her for the first time. I saw several options: she was almost hit; someone close to her was almost hit; or someone may have been killed. It wasn't clear."
Yes, I think I have some fears, but trying to change a lot of things in my life to overcome those fears. A lot of things have happened in my life in the past two years, which I have learned from. I also think, I have become a much stronger person. But, still sensitive. Hee, hee, hee.

Journey 195 - Friend's Kidnap Dream

2005-04-19T21:07:00.000-04:00

4/18/05: A Journey taken to check on a disturbing dream a friend told me about today. Another friend invites her into his car, is all friendly..and then without warning locks the doors and tells the Woman he is going to kill her. She ends the Dream gouging his Eyes out. This was obviously full enough of Darkness to warrant my checking it out. As I went into the Journey, Owl and I were sitting in some Trees in a residential area..I got the sense it was the town where my friend lives. I saw a tall, black figure without any real form walking slowly along the sidewalk below. It would stop once in a while and stretch, and as it did so orange and red sparks would burst out of him. Owl looked at me and told me this was a Burhan, the most powerful of the negative Nature Spirits. I knew this type of Spirit would be hard to counteract. It has been attached to the Man, but was now moving near the Woman. Owl then told me to go into my Mirror and seek help from the Mirror Shaman, Utawa. I was suddenly floating along above a River, and there were Torches on the right side along the bank and among the Trees. I suddenly found my right Arm disintegrating into Atoms. The effect was spreading toward the rest of my Body, and I felt as if I could easily be consumed..and die. I began to seek assistance, and in a flash Utawa, looming hundreds of feet tall, came from around the rise ahead of me and took my left Arm, jerking me away from whatever it was that was attacking me. Utawa told me I had been attacked at random by a disintegrating spirit..just one of those random things that can kill you if it walks into you as this one did. Utawa then told me to use the Mirror to catch the Burhan by making him fall into it. I came back out of the mirror and Owl and I flew it down to the sidewalk a few steps ahead of the Burhan. It stopped just before it reached the Mirror and began to yowl. It had sensed the trap! So Owl and I pulled the Mirror up over his head and pulled it down the other side, like a huge tarp. We had the Burhan trapped. I was then suddenly in a boat on an ocean, the Mirror Surface transformed. The Burhan was floating ahead of me, its head bobbing in and out of the water. I asked it if it wished to transform itself into a positive spirit..I would then help save it. It said NO. Suddenly, a school of Dolphins came at it from the many compass points and grabbed the Burhan, swimming away with it underwater. Utawa then took me up to a high Cliff over the Ocean. I looked down and saw a fluorescent green Ribbon beneath the Surface, wiggling slowly along. The Ribbon, on close inspection, was made of millions of very tiny green Fish. This means the Burhan had been transformed to Goodness, and each of the Fish would spread this positive Energy to the Beings who consumed them. I then asked Utawa why the Burhan had been attached to the Man. Utawa said it was attracted to certain negative attitudes and feelings in him. It attached to the Woman since it always came to work with the Man, and he has had differing attitudes toward the Woman over the past months. Now there is no more danger to the Woman..the Burhan is gone. I was then back with Owl in the Trees of her Town. I looked up in the Sky and saw a huge Whirlpool of Light, very similar to the one that ended my Shamans Dream of several Years back. I then saw an Eagle floating in the center of the disc. The Whirlpool then sank down and went straight into my Mirror. It was a gift from Utawa..he told me I have earned this extra Light and Eagle..

Journey 194 - Pre-cancerous Cells

2005-04-18T21:00:00.000-04:00

4/18/05: A Journey taken to eliminate the cancerous cells discovered in a young Lady's latest pap smear. I prepared in the usual way and settled into the Journey. Even while I was still rattling, the image of the Girl's Face, reflected in a small pool of Water in some Desert area, came strongly into my mind, so I knew this was the jump-off point. (I have been to this pool before in the past few months..I can’t quite remember why. I’ll have to look back.) So once the Drumming started, I moved into place next to this glass-surface pool. Sure enough, her face, hair and hat, just as they are today, were the image in the pool of water. Two Ducks then flew in from the right. When they hit the water and landed, the image of the Girl's Face lifted out of the Water and floated in the Air above the rippling pool. The circular image of her then floated over and went into my Mirror! As I looked down, I could see her head in there now. Then, I noticed that my Upper world Guide, Owl, had landed next to me on a fairly thick Cactus. We were in a Desert, or perhaps dry plain, environment. Owl was digging into the Cactus with his Talons, implying to me that perhaps there was something in Cactus Medicine that the Girl might take. He then began pecking at the image of the Girl on the Mirror. Each impact left a tiny hole in her image that began releasing cigarette smoke. This told me smoking was one of the aggravating factors. It then got rapidly dark, and as the Sun raced to the Horizon, it turned blood red..then hung there long enough to become a Tunnel. Owl turned into Eagle Claw (his human form) and we both ran at incredible speed toward the Tunnel entrance. We zipped past a Lion and Bear, each of whom thought to pursue us but were unable due to our tremendous speed. We literally leapt into the Tunnel, and zoomed through it in an incredible rush. It was warm and very gusty. At the exit, we found ourselves quite small, standing in some grass next to the leg of a picnic table looming over us as if it were 60 feet tall. It was a sunny day, and there was a stock of bushes and/or trees just left of the table. Further to the left I then noticed a decent-sized Lake, and we were literally right at surface level with the Lake Water as we stood there. Two Ducks (same two?) waded in and beckoned us to follow them. We did so. They took us over to the opposite bank. There, lying on the bank, was a collection of Stones set up to look like a human body. The Girl’s Hat was atop this model. It was a replica of her Body! I went up onto the bank and looked more closely. The area of her lower abdomen was black, with the presence of thousands of tiny ants, all scurrying around among and on top of one another. We walked over to the right and beyond this Stone design and started a small Tipi fire with Twigs and sticks. The Fire was purple in color..a good sign, showing very high Spiritual presence. I invited the Girl and Eagle Claw to come sit with me by the fire and we did so..the Girl took a puff off the Pipe for the first time..this would also be the first time she used tobacco in a Sacred Manner. I then beckoned for the Spirit of her Cancer, manifested by the Ants, to come join us. After a few seconds, a very small, blue blob emerged from the Ants and came to the Fire. I asked it who it was. The answer took me aback considerably. The blob turned into a small baby, and the baby was the one that the Girl did NOT carry to term. It was the Suld Soul..never having made it into a body, it nonetheless had come in from the Lower World and was sticking to the mother is was intended for. It was as if it were literally trying to get back into the womb it had been assigned! I asked the little Baby, why Ants? It was because there are always quite a few Ants in the Girl’s room..and it was therefore easiest to invade them. I told the little Soul it was hurting the Girl, and must go home. It then took off into the Woods near us. Instead of trying to chase it, for it was darting around at breakneck speed among Tree Trunk and leafy Bush, I flung my Mirror up into the air over the Woods. It expanded to a huge size and then stuck to the Sky with a clang. It then began emitting blue streaks of Light, one of which caught the Little Soul. I took it and headed out onto the World River in a boat, and made sure the Little Soul went over the Falls and back to the Lower World for re-assignment. I went back to the Stones, and Eagle Claw and I made an Ongon from the Stones that had represented the Girl’s Body. We then placed a Candle, a long-burning one, in the center of the Ongon and lit it. This will help generate all the Healing Energy the Girl needs to be free of these cancerous cells. We placed her hat atop the entire pile. The Ducks then brought us back to the other side..we were back at the picnic table. But this time, the Girl’s bag and a pack of cigarettes was there..I took the smokes and melted them into my Mirror. We then came all the way back to the beginning, at the Desert Pond. I then saw the Girl sitting on her bed in her room, and I was telling her to say the following Chant daily: “My aura cleanses itself daily. The negative Energy sinks into Mother Earth and turns to Joy.” The next scene was interesting, to say the least. A policeman had come to my door to tell me the Girl had been killed in an accident. I could see her hat on the body on the stretcher, but I went out to check and it was not her. The policeman’s face then turned into a scary monster type, bizarre in its perverted joy at having tried to scare me. It was a Chutger. Eagle Claw told me this scene meant that the Girl just naturally attracts such Beings, and must be on guard from now on. The next scene was even more elaborate. She and I were standing on the center point of a floor beneath the dome of a huge cathedral, the ceiling of which towered above us. Was it St. Peter’s in Rome? Or a church in Germany. Anyway, I saw her shoot way up into the air..she came down and landed on me face first! I then shot way up and came down next to her. We then hugged. I then bent down and cleansed and sealed her Aura where the cancer had been. The Call Back then sounded. The Girl will be clear of this disease.

The Cathedral scene represents Sacred Space. This means the Girl must have Sacred space around her, something I can provide daily when I get up.

She obviously has to give up her smoking.

Aloe Vera is a member of the Cactus family, and has proven anti-cancer qualities. The Girl should get and rink some aloe Vera JUICE..(not gel). :)

Follow-on. When I told her of my work on her behalf, which she had authorized a few days ago (“go for it!”), she asked me what time I had done this. I told her, 4:15-ish. She said that at right about the same time she got “wicked” cramping in that area and had to take a heavy dose of Ibuprofen. That pain was the result of the Sprit Intrusion being removed.

Journey 193 - A Quite Ill Mom

2005-04-17T20:54:00.000-04:00

4/17/05: A Journey to investigate a Mom’s cancer, and see if anything can be done Spiritually to stop or slow it. I prepared carefully and fully, in case I came up against some tough going. As I went into the Journey, I found myself floating a short distance above an entirely purple world. Trees, Hills, Ground..all a deep purple. I then saw Owl fluttering around one of the smaller Trees, and I went down to join him. Owl stood out as a bright yellow, an unusual color for him. As I caught up to him, the scene shifted and we were walking down a long set of purple stairs. When we got to the bottom, I saw the Mom lying on her back on a large slab of concrete. She seemed unaware that we were there..she was just looking up at the ceiling. Owl turned into my Upper World Guide, Eagle Claw, and he took out his analysis Crystal Wand. He illuminated her body with it while I stepped back away from her feet and up a bit. I then saw the damage. Almost the entire right half of her Aura is gone! Eaten away. I’d not seen this before. Eagle Claw obviously wanted me to see this. The slab with the Mom and we both then started moving, and slipped quickly into an entirely orange, amorphous zone. Then, I started to pick out some orange, human-shaped blobs moving around in the color. They were Spirit Shapes. The orange then faded into more traditional reality. We were at the Mom’s old house. I saw her sitting in her living room, alone. She was deeply depressed. I then saw several large and many small Chutger (dark Nature Spirits) attacking her over and over, resulting in the loss of her Aura half. One of the majors had come from the nearby river. Another had come from a large Pine Tree a good distance but not that far away. Many smaller Spirits were attacking her in passing, just happened to stumble in while passing by. We then were back in the purple room, the Mom back on her slab. Eagle Claw took out a Moqui Marble and placed it on the table next to her right side. It soon was covered in Insects of a type I am not familiar with. I then saw these Insects pouring out of her opened Aura and into this Ball. Eagle Claw was collecting them, thereby detoxifying the Mom. When this process was complete, the rest of her Aura collapsed! I knew this was not at all good. The slab suddenly became a Boat we were all riding down the River to the Lower World. I realized the Mom’s Suns Soul was heading back home to that World. This would create a rapid demise for her, so I intervened. Just as the Boat reached the Falls and was about to go over, I pulled it into the air past the edge using the Eagle and Owl Feathers I had placed in my hands at the start of the Journey. Eagle Claw helped me carry the Boat with the Mom within over to a small inlet near the Falls. She was temporarily safe in these calm waters, but Eagle Claw told me the Mom must now remain as calm and relaxed as she possible can. It won’t take much of a wind (that is, fear or depression or anger) to blow the Boat back into the River and over the Falls. I then saw the Mom’s Power Animal Penguin arrive with some other Helpers. Eagle Claw then produced the Ball full of the Spirit Insects. He handed it to me. It became white hot in my left hand. It then shape-shifted into a large stick that I flung into the ground. The stick then shape-shifted into one large version of these insects and it came after me with incredible anger. I used my Shamanic Mirror to stop and absorb the attacker. I then placed my Mirror face down on the Ground and several huge bolts of white-blue electricity went zapping through the ground in different directions. I then found myself rising well above the inlet, and from there drew a protective covering of Light around the entire scene, to keep the Mom and her Helpers safe from further intrusion. As I drifted up further, the little ball of Light I had created turned into a tiny moisture droplet and began floating free. I was then on the surface of an ocean beneath a dark Sky. A black and large ship came floating by me, and I could tell it was the ship of Death. I watched as the moisture droplet containing the Mom and her Helpers zipped into one of the doorways of the main cabin. As the ship moved away, the name on the back was “Portsmouth.” I then knew that there was no stopping the course of the disease. I inquired concerning a year of passing, and at first 2005 displayed. But I felt that was too soon, and then the year value jumped to 2007. I saw a date: April 13, 2007. I was not sure of the accuracy of this date. Did I force it by rejecting the 2005? After worrying about this and waiting for new dates, I kept seeing the April 13 date..so I accepted it and moved on. I then saw the Mom sitting in her current living room. I was told she should listen to a lot of ocean sounds CDs for calmness. She should eat a lot of Kale, Broccoli and drink Green Tea. The scene then faded. But in my Visual cortex, I saw the image of a Skull, and a woman with her heads buried in her hands. I then saw an actual headstone with the April 13 date on it. The Call Back then sounded.

Note: The color orange in the transfer scene implies among other things Optimism and Energy Reserves, stimulating feelings of social-ness. It is tied to our emotional health and muscular system, and helps with the stomach, intestines, food assimilation and depression. But a little goes a long way..too much can effect the nerves.

In order to test the validity of the April 13 dates, after the journey I consulted my Crystal pendulum. I held it well above but directly over the Sacred Flame, and asked if the April 13, 2007 date was actually the date I was meant to be given by the Helpers. The pendulum swung “yes.”, verifying what I saw again and again as accurate and not just my own impressions interfering. This is the last date that the Mom will be able to stay..and will probably go sooner if she stresses her self out of the inlet.

We removed the spirit of the Mom's disease, in the form of insects, and so they can do no further damage. However, looking at the 6 major characteristics of insects reveals why the disease was so hard to eliminate: they spread quickly; they are extremely adaptable to conditions; they have armor; their small size makes their demands more accessible; reproduction allows species to survive; and finally they undergo multiple changes to carry on living.

4/18: Obviously the Spirits are very happy with this and other recent Journey work. Today a small Hawk circled almost directly over my head. An alert for what came about 15 minutes later. I saw a very large bird with dark,long square wings just soaring along. It seemed to have a touch of bright white on the tail and head. I knew it was a juvenile Bald Eagle! This is only my 3rd unsought after sighting of my life. There is no higher Spirit Bird for me..it is my Power Animal. It represents the highest achievement. I am very humbled..

Journeys 190/191/192 Brother Dream/Deceased Father/Deceased Brother

2005-04-15T09:49:00.000-04:00

4/15/05: A Journey to investigate a Dream a friend had in which she, her sister and her deceased brother were together in a room. The Girls are yelling, “We have to stop this” while her Brother slips off to the side and out. Since Sacred Space was already in place, I went right into the Drum Loop after Smudging and Lighting the Sacred Candle. I immediately saw about 10 Owls spiraling down in a narrowing cone toward the edges of my Shaman’s Mirror, lying on the ground with the edges glowing blue. I then remembered, I had forgotten to put on my Mirror for protection while out of my Body! So I got up and grabbed it, and placed it on my chest for protection. As I lay back down, Owl met me in the branch of a Tree and said, “that’s better!” We looked up in the Sky, and saw a green Ribbon of light..it was the “River of Dreams.” We zoomed up and into it. As we went through the Ribbon, we were passing pieces of other Dreams..fleeting images. But soon up ahead I saw my friend standing there, and knew we had reached our destination. As we reached my friend, we were suddenly in a small bedroom with her and the other two in the house. The bed was behind the Girls, a dresser in front of them A closet was to their left. I saw as the Brother slipped out of the room through or near that closet. I went with him to see what he was doing. He had shape-shifted into a Red-Tailed Hawk. He flew up and out of the house, and lit on a Tree Branch. I was following right along with him. Suddenly a very bright light appeared on the horizon. It looked like the Sun, but had black light and white intermingling on its disk..unlike anything I had seen. It was as if it was boiling with a mix of the two opposite “colors.” I saw a fleeting appearance of other figures near this “opening.” The disc was somehow beckoning to the Brother, but he was resistant..he grabbed his branch tighter and tucked his head down into his chest Then, a man figure appeared nearby, and lifted the brother up onto his shoulder and walked toward and then into the Orb. I followed. Once through, the Hawk (the brother) was back in the back yard of the House..but this was the Upper World representation. He met up with a female Hawk and the soared around together, quite happy. He then landed in the field and began keeping watch over the house, as if waiting for someone. Soon he looked down and his talons and saw a small, fabric, stuffed Doll lying there. She had coarse yellow threads for hair and wore a blue body covering. The Doll was perhaps 4 to 5 inches long. He picked up this Doll in his beak and flew it over to the house chimney, and dropped it in. The scene then shifted back into the bedroom. The Two Girls were staring at this same Orb of Black/White light, and saw the brother, as himself, walking into it. That’s what they were trying to stop. But once he was gone, the Sister turned to my friend and said, “He’s so happy!” Both Girls stood there beaming! I then sensed the Doll going by them within the chimney. It went right through the ground and into the Lower World, where it transformed into two small Hawks. These flew back up to become Guardian spirits for both Girls as they were growing up. The scene then shifted. I rose above the house and saw a very threatening gray sky approaching. But then, sliding along the bottom of these tumultuous dark grey blobs of cloud, came a round blue disk. It stopped over the house and produced a blue cylinder of light that completely surrounded it. It protected the house from the passing rains and winds. The house was lit as if in sunshine even though the area outside the cylinder was a raging storm. The scene then shifted for the last time. I saw my friend’s more-grown lower leg..and on it was a sock that had the image of the doll embroidered into the top. The Call Back then sounded. Journey over, I thanked Owl and returned to my Robe.

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4/15/05: A Journey to check on a Dad, who passed away in 1998. Sacred Space was already in place, so after Smudging, I was off. I came to a Lake area, and it was a Sun-filled Day. Owl, my Upper World Guide, and I were floating along in the very front of a small pointy-nose Boat (like a large row boat) that seemed to be under its own propulsion. Off to the left we saw an inlet where it was very dark, and the boat headed straight into it. Once within, we were suddenly immersed in Darkness. Owl had shape-shifted into his human form, Eagle Claw. On each side of the river we saw Shadows running amidst small fires. At first the Fires were from Torches lining the Bank, then they graduated into small camp Fires further up. On occasion we saw some eyes glowing from the Beings sitting around or running between these Fires, themselves barely visible in the darkness. I looked down at our Boat. It was glowing an translucent blue, as were we! In the rippling Water ahead of us, I saw a very bright Star reflecting. But, as we looked up, there was no corresponding Star in the Sky. I took my Shaman’s Mirror and pointed it straight ahead, so that a narrow beam of this blue Light was piercing the Darkness. Suddenly an image of the father appeared, but as a younger Man. It began leading us, and shrank as it moved ahead faster than we were traveling. Suddenly our Boat ran aground. Up the side of the River bank we could see a small Cemetery with its Headstones glowing with the same blue Light. We got off the Boat and as we walked up the Bank we noticed it was very thick and gooey. We made it into the Cemetery, and found the Stones were made only of Light..no solidity whatsoever. We came to one and I saw the name of the father flash in front of me. THe daughter had said that was her Dad’s name, and so I assumed it was he. We turned to behold a very large inverted Cone made of white Light with Rainbow hues moving toward us. Within the veil was an image, quite transparent but sill coherent, of her dad as a younger man. He knew who we were and why we were there. He told me to say “Hi to my daughter. I love her. Remind her that Mountains are very different from the Heights..but both must be climbed.” He then leaned forward, a bit out of his Aura, and said, “Say hi to my son, also.” This took me aback for I had forgotten at this point that she had a brother who had passed. I began wondering who this son was. But soon I was taken off this subject when the Father held out a small, square Picture. It was he and his daughter, who was quite young, sitting on a picnic table near a Lake. I sensed this was one of his favorite times with her. The scene transformed into reality, and I sat with them at this picnic table. The Father and I both looked up at the Sky and saw a small Tunnel forming there..we knew it was the Tunnel of Death slowly but surely lowering down toward him. He was not afraid, but preparing, even at this age..resolving to enjoy the time he had left. The scene then shifted again. I saw him at a coffee table, still as this younger Man, perhaps in his early 40s, drinking a Schaeffer beer and holding a cigarette. He was speaking, saying, “Man, I’ve head a good life! I’ve been so lucky!” We were then back in the Cemetery. The Aura was still there, and the Dad leaned forward. He held out his left Hand and showed me a box ring of Gold, with a dark or black Stone embedded. It was as if he were giving it to me..for the daughter? The Call Back then sounded, and Eagle Claw and I quickly hopped back into our boat and moved down the river, onto the Lakes and back to the local area, so I could merge back into my Body.

Notes: The Dark River seemed to be a River where Souls first enter on their way to the Other Worlds, and many of the Souls there seemed to be quite recent. They seemed as if they were just waiting.. The fact that the Dad came to this dark place brightly lit with his Aura meant he wanted to meet us away from where he lives as a Spirit..and chose this area as the place least likely to bring us interference.

He already knew I was going to Journey also for his Son. Once I was back from the Journey I realized what he had meant.

The Star’s reflection in the Water with no corresponding Star above is very curious. Mongolian Shamans, however, as well as other Shamanic disciplines, recognize that the Earth Soul sits on top of the head in the Crown Chakra. It is a very bright Star-like entity. No doubt we were seeing the Dad's Earth Soul approaching, for shortly after that we saw him floating in front of us, leading us to the Cemetery. The fact the Stones were made of Light and had no solidity implies that the daughter should realize that there is no such thing as true Death. Headstones just make us miserable by making us believe that…

The transparency of his Body within the Aura told me his Suld soul was already well on its way to transforming into a Nature Spirit, the usual progression for Earth Souls well after their Death. This may also be why he wanted to meet “in private.”

The basic message was that he truly enjoyed his Life here, his daughter, and was very comfortable now moving into Nature. Keep in mind the two other Human Souls go to the Upper and Lower Worlds, and maintain their identity. Earth Souls, though, after time, change into Nature spirits where they help people, and especially, Shamans.

The picture I saw of the Dad showed no rings on his fingers..so I’m not sure why he held out that Ring that I saw..

5/5/05 Follow-up. Turns out this ring is real. The daughter has begun wearing it! It is indeed a box ring of Gold, with a dark blue square Stone. It did indeed belong to her Dad. This was an obvious validation move by the Father, to ensure the daughter knew that I had indeed been in contact with him. This sort of match still gives me excitement chills! :)

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4/15/05: A Journey to check on this woman's brother, who passed in 2002. I took this Journey right after the visit with her Dad. Only now I found Owl and I zooming along at cloud top level over a bunch of puffy white Clouds. The sky was a bright blue above. Sticking up out of the Clouds a good distance ahead was a single, cone-shaped mountain with a very sharp peak..almost like a pyramid. The mountain was lit brightly in yellow, oranges and gold, and was made entirely of Stone. But before we got to it, we sank beneath the Clouds. We came down to the ground next to a large cabin. It was misty and dim, not dark. Colors were muted, but still quite nice. We looked over at the covered porch of the cabin and saw a solitary figure sitting there, leaning back as if in a rocking chair. There was a large, lazy medium-brown dog lying asleep on the edge of the porch next to the yard. I went up to him and ascertained it was indeed her brother. Owl and I told him who we were, but he immediately began complaining. “It’s not fair. I wanted more time. I had plans, I wanted to run a business..” This was obviously an Earth (Suld) Soul that had not yet come to terms with his passing. I interjected and told him that I had just come from his Father, who said to say hi. I told him how he had adjusted to his passing, and was happily merging back into Nature to serve all of Life as a Helper Spirit. I then asked him if he ever had visitors. He told me that some Spirits would walk slowly by the Cabin without a word or glance. Others would stop and say hi for a few minutes. One had come, a female and actually sat at his feet and became a companion for a while. I then told him his Sister had given me the picture of him and Daddy that I now showed him. I suggested that perhaps his Sister could use his help, if he decided to leave his regrets behind. I told him Owl and I could rejuvenate him Spiritually. He agreed, and we took him up to the peak of the Mountain. There, on the other side, was the Sun on the horizon, a brilliant Gold. I told him to stand there and drink in that golden light until his windhorse (Spirit Energy) was completely restored. As Owl and I left him and flew away, we heard him shout out that he indeed promises to guard and support his Sister from here on out. We flew back beneath the Clouds to where we had found him, and the cabin was gone..just black ground where it had been. The final image I saw was of a woman standing in a mechanical arm factory saying, it works perfectly, as she flexed one of the arms.

Notes: This means that the Sister will soon be getting assistance directly from her Brother as she walks the remainder of her Earth Walk.

The fact the Cabin was beneath the Clouds and in a mist reflects the intense emotionalism felt by the brother at his passing.

The Brown Dog: In ancient Greece, Dog was the companion to and the guardian of the Dead. They also reflect faithfulness, which the Brother showed once we let him know his Sister was still out here on her Walk. The color brown is effective in stabilizing overexcited states. It calms, and also grounds emotions and extreme mental conditions. The Dog was no doubt there to keep the Brother from flipping out completely as he contemplated his early demise.

Journey 189 - Checking on a Deceased Baby's Spirit

2005-04-12T08:36:00.000-04:00

4/11/05: A Journey taken at a friend’s request to investigate the circumstance surrounding the very early passing of her daughter, gone about 20 years. My friend says she died within a few months of birth. I asked the Spirits to reveal the Truth to me to pass to her so she could heal from this event. As I set off, I came to a large Lakes surrounded by Trees. It was a warm and sunny day. As I waited there, a Wolf came along and began to drink from the Lake. At this point, my Upper World Guide Owl flew in and landed next to me. He then told me to watch and wait. I watched as Wolf lapped up the Lake Water. Each time his tongue hit the surface, circular ripples of bright Rainbow Colors would expand outwards. Owl then told me to shape-shift into a Hawk. As the Wolf departed, we two flew along above him. We watched as he trotted across the forest floor over roots, small hills, etc. He then came to a Cave and went in. We followed. Inside I found Wolf tending to his mate and three little baby Wolves. One of the three was feeding from the Mother. I then turned to my left and beheld an astonishingly beautiful woman standing there. She was dressed in a long straight robe, white and blue. Her skin was beautifully light brown. She seemed the perfect Woman in both demeanor and appearance. She spoke to me. She told me she was the Spirit that had tried to enter the world through the baby’s body, but the human Robe was not ready for her. As I listened to her, it occurred to me that she was a Nature Spirit, a Suld Soul, and so she cannot have been the Spirit that tried to enter through the baby. Once the Suld Soul is released, it is done with its Earth Walk. I challenged her with this information, and she grew silent. Suddenly, the back of the Cave turned pitch black. Owl and I went into the darkness, and were soon in a Universe composed of Stars that were quite weak and diminutive. As we floated along, we came to a small, circular container that was filled with a glowing light green material. I took it in my hands. I opened the lid, and saw a baby girl lying within it. I knew this was the little baby..Owl confirmed it. Owl then told me that the baby’s attempt to enter a human body was her very first. She was a brand new Human Soul on her maiden voyage. In fact, we were in the Home of the New Souls, and as I looked around I saw thousands of other little containers floating nearby. Owl told me that the baby had been pulled back at the last minute because her Guides did not think she was ready yet. I told him this event had caused the mother much pain..why did it get this far. Owl explained it was the way of Life..the decision had to wait until the last minute. Also, he reminded me that each person’s Sacred Path involves joy AND pain. I then asked why the Suld Spirit in the Cave had lied to me. He told me she wanted to protect the baby’s Spirit from unnecessary intrusion by a visiting Shaman..she in her Guardian Spirit. Owl then told me that since the failed entry, the baby's Spirit has already come back to Earth, and she is currently living with a very good family and having a good first outing! While the details of her name and location must remain hidden, according to Owl, I was allowed to travel to where she is. I saw her running from a house down a grassy front to a wooden fence. It looked like she was in a farm community. I could have been as far north as upper New York State, or as far south as the Carolinas. It was definitely not the Midwest, though. She was a beautiful little black girl. She was 4-6 years old and was wearing pink ribbons in her hair. I then decided to soar in close over her as Hawk. She looked up at me wide-eyed, really excited. I began looping in a tight circle ever higher over her head, trailing Rainbow colored Spirit Energy. I left her with this cone of protection over her. We then were back in the Cave. I spoke with the girl’s Guardian. She was very grateful for my protective actions over her charge. I gave her a Hawk Feather to give to the girl someday. A token of my visit on her first mother’s behalf. The Guardian told me her (the Guardian’s) name is Anjaya, also able to be known as Angelique. The Cave then melted away, and the final scene I saw saw was of the now-grown girl standing in a line of other young lady’s. She seemed to be in a military or other group formation..and she was all happy saying, “our boat is back!” This told me she might be in the Coast Guard..or Girl Scouts.. Right after this scene, the Call Back sounded and I returned.

Notes: Wolf is the friend's Power Animal..no surprise he should lead me to the Cave.

The Rainbow circles on the Lake were a predictor and celebrator of the Rainbow Circle I drew over the young girl in her new and first Lifetime. Water symbolizes things Feminine.

The rest speaks for itself..

Journey 188 - A Relationship Check

2005-04-11T08:31:00.000-04:00

4/10/05: A Journey to check the status of a relationship between a man and woman. I was given a star that was a gift from him to her, and held that to my Mirror as I Journeyed. After the usual preparations, I was off. I saw myself racing toward a set of very tall, swaying Pines. It was night. I reached the very top of one of the Trees. The night was clear and cool and there were numerous shooting stars soaring across the Sky. I was overlooking a plain, with numerous lit houses dotting the landscape. Suddenly my Upper World Guide, Eagle Claw, in his Owl form, arrived. He landed next to me, and was black from having past through a Fire. His Feathers were still smoking. He told me to look behind me, and there it was. Am immense inferno as rushing toward us, consuming everything in its path. I saw the Spirit of Fire lunging along with the Flames. Owl told me to stay with him, and we were soon engulfed in the Flames. I felt no pain and suffered no damage. With the Fire past, the scene suddenly shifted. I saw a sidewalk with a curb, with a storm drain just off to the right. As we got closer and closer, I noticed some pebbles lying on the street next to the curb. We got very close. One of the pebbles began to wiggle and come to Life. It was a Stone Person Spirit. The scene shifted again and we were sitting in a Mexican looking plaza with all stone table and chairs. We had obviously entered the Stone’s World. We sat at one of the Tables. Stone Spirit then produced a wedding cake with the woman and a man on top. The funny thing about this Journey is I never got a good look at the man, never really saw him. He was just a presence. The figures on the Cake began walking together as if down an aisle. I then saw the couple walking with a total of three children, two of them new, a product of the marriage? I then was inside a reception hall where the Bride, the woman, was standing over something on the table, either cutting it or picking it up. As she did so, I saw the Fire Inferno go blasting by the windows of the Hall. There were no smoke, heat or other effect inside the hall. We were then back at the Stone table. Stone Spirit had a sprig of Pine Tree and a small Stone on the table. He intimated these represented Shannon and her man. Although, he said, a union between a Stone and a twig seems unlikely, due to Stone’s being set in its ways and Twig being relatively free and peaceful, he took the two objected and combined them. There on the table was a larger slab of stone with the twig fossilized within it. We then returned to the Tree where the Fire had hit us. It was day now. I looked behind me at the area that had been burned, and it was lush with astonishingly quick, new green growth and there was a large rainbow over the area. I looked down. There was a River, and the woman, her man and the three kids were there, on the side, having a picnic. Suddenly, I saw the ghostly image of a very old man approaching them. It was a Middle Earth, or Suld, soul, still wandering as if human. I went own to see who it was. He keep heading closer toward the young girl, saying he wanted his “property back.” I intervened and told him that in her new Life, the girl was now free and on her own Path. He had no right to her Soul anymore. I then took the old man and brought him to the Stone Spirit. We offered the old man corn, dried beef and an alcohol wash of some sort. He ate heartily and gratefully. Glad he was no longer after the young girl, and recognizing his need to return to nature, he went across the Street and went into a stock of Pine Trees, where he met with other Suld Souls and was quite content. At this point, the images became a bit more scattered. I saw that the girl was very excited about the marriage, as long as she was kept totally involved in the whole affair and felt a key part of it. I later saw an old woman rummaging around, but seemed to be harmless. She seemed intent on finding something, but I was not shown where or what. One of the final images was of a person looking like a company President helping the woman with some sort of project outside the building. They seemed to be working together on some project or other. One last image has escaped me..it was brief and seemed quit clear at the time, easy to remember but when I came back the phrase did not return with me..this is quite rare for me to lose something from a Journey..perhaps it was not meant to come back Someone was chanting a three-word phrase to the time of the Drumming, and it was something like “See What’s True”, or “Say What’s True”, but it has yet to come back to me, so we can’t put much stock in this phrase. I know it made sense in the context of the scene, and seemed to imply a harmonious relationship continuing between the woman and her man. While the Call Back Drumming was bringing me back, a large burst of light appeared in my inner vision. I could see it drift across my closed eyelids. It looked like a star.

Notes: The presence of Fire before the wedding scene and during the reception implies that something major has to change in the relationship before marriage. Fire is the great transmuter, destroyer, restorer. Some Pine Cones won’t release their seeds unless they are engulfed in flames. So something old has to burn so the new can come through. No doubt this means a major change in attitude/behavior. The rejuvenating forest after the Fire is another sign that wondrous new growth occurs often only when the old has been completely turned to ash.

Pine Trees figure in this Journey. The woman must therefore be the Pine Twig on the Stone Spirit’s table. Her man must be the Stone, set in his ways. Also very interesting is that the old man went to live among the Pines. This implies he was somehow knew or was related to the young girl in a past life.

The Stone Spirit and his world played a major role. Stones record all that has happened in the place they lie, and so the presence of a Stone motif means that the woman must look hard at her past history and that of her man and be aware of all there is to be aware of that might matter.

The old woman may be a current relative who is trying to get involved in this future.

It was very interesting that I was holding the Star paperweight, and the Journey began with a starry night with shooting Stars, and ended with an imprint of a Star in my inner vision. There is great concurrence among Shamanist traditions that the Stars can contain Spirits of Ancestors..the heavy presence of this imagery indicates again there may be someone in the Past that can still be a teacher for the Future.

4/11/05: The Woman's reply: "That was interesting. The three children, I have my daughter and (the man) has two boys. I am wondering if that is the three." Since this reply, the man has asked me to do a Journey for him as well..he was very impressed with the above.

Journey 187 - Lightning Stick Spirit

2005-04-10T08:30:00.000-04:00

4/8/05: I finally Journeyed to meet the Sprit of the Lightning Struck piece of Wood I picked up on the way back from our ski trip. I was wearing my Mirror, and laid the wood on top and held it there while meeting its Spirit. The Mirror began humming, and the surface became lit with a blue light. I then saw a Thunderbeing, who was laughing joyously. He told me that lightning represents the Einstein-ian mass/energy equivalent, the interface, the in-between of matter and energy..the transformation of one to the other. He told me that therefore the Stick I have is best used to help me Shape-Shift from human to other forms of Life and back. I picked up the Stick and held it lengthwise over my Body. Mini-lightning strikes were hitting me from head to toe. I let the stick get nearer and nearer, and felt myself getting ever fuller with energy. I felt the Stick was reworking the electric makeup of my Body, and felt no fear. I felt as if I could pick and choose the Energy I wanted to be. Once the Stick made contact with me again, I saw a whole series of images from my youth and earlier Life fly by. I could smell the aftermath of thunderstorms afterwards..that moist, sweet-smelling coolness of a summer afternoon after the storms have left. I then found myself sitting amidst a gorgeous summer evening. Resting, I realized the merging with the Thunderbeing Sprit was now completed.

Journey 186 - A Woman's Relationship

2005-04-09T08:27:00.000-04:00

4/8/05:

The reason was to check the status of a woman’s relationship and see what the future might hold.

The journey began in a home movie theater mode. My Shaman’s Mirror was hanging on the wall before Owl and I, and the Mirror soon transformed into a small screen. A cartoon began playing. A very colorful wood’s edge appeared, and I saw a small White Rabbit eating grass while a small Deer stood nearby nibbling on the bushes. One could almost have considered them friends, given their proximity and seeming comfortableness with one another. Suddenly, a Hawk scooped down and grabbed Rabbit. Hawk soared away with Rabbit, and soon dropped him down not a farm area chock full of Rabbits. The scene switched back to the wooded area. Deer was shot by a hunter. I soon saw Deer standing in a farm area that was full of other Deer. The two farm areas were side by side. Rabbit and Deer both meandered toward the fence between the farms and came together. They were side by side, and suddenly the cartoon cycled to the beginning again. Apparently this was some sort of loop, a repetition of a life-death-life circuit. I then saw the little movie room we were in transform to a more natural outdoors setting. I saw a stage there, and as walls and ceilings formed around it, saw a man and woman were on it, arguing. From here on, the scenes became more sporadic and intermittent. I saw beer cans being taken out to be recycled, and a couple living in relative harmony. The next scene was a beautiful shaded road adjacent to a farm area..but this time in real imagery versus the earlier cartoon. I saw a farm scene with a man operating a tractor next to a very large barn and wooden crates of hay. I saw him riding off into a furrowed field to prepare it for sowing. I then saw a scene involving a military setting in which a man was under the command of a Sergeant type sitting at a desk. Since the imagery was so scattered and varied, I asked Eagle Claw for a resolution. What came next was quite disturbing. I saw a coffin pop up out of the ground. The coffin then changed into a wedding limousine. I was in the limo with the married couple as it began to roll. As we past the wedding guests, all dressed up in formal wear, I looked back and saw virtually all their faces were skeletal..just fleshless skulls. I was then back in the movie room. Eagle Claw got up and patted me on the shoulder and left, while I sat, staring alternately at the floor and the blank screen in front of me.

A few Notes: The cartoonish beginning may be a reference to either or both partners in the relationship having a “made-up”, “hand-drawn” or “imaginative” view of it. The repetition of the scene in which both partners meet their end in violence, only to return to the beginning and start all over, reflects a lack of growth despite experiences that should be teachers. An escape from this trap could save the relationship from its current loop.

One of the people is the relationship is represented by Rabbit, the other by Deer. Here is a short summary of the main qualities of each, courtesy of Ted Andrews and/or Jamie Sams' books:

Rabbit: Associated with fear in some minds, a superlative defensive capability in others. They can go from “0 to 60” in seconds, implying this person can/should take advantage of fleeting opportunities. They teach you to recognize the signs around you, and recognize the tides of movement in your life. This leads to greater fertility.

Deer: Associated with gentleness and innocence, luring to new adventure. Deer have great vision, and offer the ability to therefore detect subtle movements and hear what is not being directly said. Deer implies a new innocence and freshness is being born. Questions from Deer: Are you trying to force things? Are others? Are you being too critical and uncaring of yourself? Deer lends the opportunity to express a gentler love that can lead to new adventures.

The second set of scenes involving a man working a farm and spending some time in the military may be a new relationship that has yet to occur..or indicative of a change in the current one with time. In a way the latter does not seem likely, since when I asked my Guide for a resolution of the confusion felt, I saw that fairly gruesome wedding party scene that ended the Journey. This tells me that the current relationship will not end happily.

4/12: The woman reports that this Journey “nailed” her relationship right on the head..she was just curious as to whether she was the rabbit or the deer...

Journey 185 - A Young Girl Troubled

2005-04-08T08:16:00.000-04:00

4/8/05:

First a quick word of introduction. The Shaman’s Journey involves honoring the Helpers Spirits and then using a steady drumbeat to reach the level where the Spirit of the Shaman can leave his or her body and venture out into one or more of the three Spirit Worlds (Upper, Middle and Lower) for guidance. The Upper World is the place of Guidance, and houses the Upper World Soul (genealogical) called the Ami (‘em). The Middle World is where we live now, and our Soul Piece here is called the Suld (“soold”). It remains here after death and eventually merges into Nature as a Helper Spirit. The Lower World in the place of empowerment and houses the Soul Part known as the Suns (“soons”). It carries past life information. All three Worlds are beautiful and lush..there is no evidence of the Hell promulgated by western religions.

Spirit invasions can occur when any one of these Soul Parts gets lost, and latches onto a person or place where it does not belong. During a Journey, the Shaman sees these Souls and tries to right their Path. There are also Dark Entities that must be dealt with, some quite dangerous. Shamans have many tools given them by their Helpers to deal with these Beings, but always rely on help from one or more Higher Spirits that are working with the Shaman. These Helpers often appear at first in the form of totem Animals, such as Owls, Hawks, Deer, etc. Humans relate better at first to these forms than they would the Spirit itself, and can use the qualities of that Totem in their Shamanic work as well. If we find ourselves alone in a bad situation, we call for help immediately..and it always arrives. Shamans can also move through Time and Space instantly, going into the Future or Past, and changing into other types of beings, such as Birds. In fact, in the Center of Existence, where Shamans travel to at the Journey’s beginning, all of Time and Space, from all realities and universes, meet at that one point. From there, the Shaman can go anywhere.

One final concept: Sacred Path. Because we are comprised of Soul Parts that reunite for subsequent lives, we each come here with a Spiritual Plan. This plan may involve a wonderful life..or a life filled with suffering and early death. The goal is to be a stronger Spirit when leaving than when we arrived. However, we forget this Plan at birth and spend the rest of our lives trying to remember. Many never do. Therefore, there are instances where people come to Shamans for changes in their lives but do not get them. They have forgotten why they came here, and during Journey work a Shaman can see what the Plan is. This is why Shamans do not Journey for people unless they are asked..we do not want to interfere with the chosen Path of the individual.

So, onto the Journey.

A Journey for an acquaintance's daughter, who is apparently having a very hard time of it as she heads into the age of reason. I had sensed at first she was heading into her teens, but was corrected later by her mother..she is only 7. No doubt a very mature 7. As I went into the Journey, I found myself as a Hawk flying around in playful loops with my Upper World Guide Eagle Claw, who was in the form of an Owl. We were soaring together beneath the Stars of a very clear and vibrant night Sky. But soon Owl directed us downward and we landed in a tree next to a home. No doubt the young girl's home. As we sat in the Tree an observed, I saw a huge Dark shape, taller than the house, stomping around and through the house, over and over. It was a bit as if it were writhing. In order to get closer, Owl and I shape-shifted into Moths, and fluttered unnoticed down to the lawn, closer to the house. I placed my Shaman’s Mirror face up on the grass and then placed 12 lit candles around it to honor all the compass points and associated Spirits. I hopped onto the Mirror and looked at the house and its visitor through the surface reflection. I saw now, instead of the dark shape, a heavy set white male, in his mid 50s, with thinning slicked back white hair. He was jerking back and forth between being flesh and Spirit, as if lost in a non-ending loop. He looked to be in great distress. I took my Shaman’s Staff, and still sanding on the Mirror, rose to equal his height. I reached out and took his hand, and he immediately settled down. He asked who I was, and I told him, the Shaman Four Hawks. I’m working from fading memory now, but I believe his name was Don. He led me to a hospital room where he was lying on a bed, in a coma. I wondered if he was lying there now, or if this was the time of his passing. I then saw a fleeting image of a granite block with the year 1998 inscribed, so I knew he had died about 7 years ago and his Lower World Soul had been trapped here on Earth ever since. He just happened to have locked onto this particular dwelling. So I asked him if he wished to finish his journey to the Lower World, where the Suns Soul, one of three humans have, goes. He was very agreeable and relieved. I led him to a River nearby that had Stars sparkling in it. This was the River to the Lower World, and as “Don” jumped into the water, he turned into a Salmon. I watched as the Fish swan quickly toward the Falls that lead to the Lower World, and as he went over the edge, he flipped up into the air momentarily and wiggled in a gesture of joyful thanks. I went back to the house. I saw that the daughter feels almost totally disconnected. The Dark Energy over the house certainly didn’t help, and that is now gone. But she needs a lot of empathy, understanding, and relating to, especially from her mom, who if course is trying to maintain the parental stance. I also saw that perhaps a counselor would be good for the daughter as well. I then went back outside and placed Pine Cones around the house at the cardinal compass points. These linked together in four streams of Spirit Light, which then expanded to a full dome, covering the house with protective Spiritual Energy. I then saw a couple of additional images. The first was of a Jamaican boy holding a boom-box up to his right ear as he rollerbladed along a street. He was in his teens, I believe, and seemed quite at home in his environs, even though the street he was on looked very much like a local town. I also saw the daughter as a small girl, perhaps 2 or 3, standing on one of those lawn water slides. She looked very unhappy, as if refusing to play on it..and looking very much like she wanted nothing to do with it. The final information I was given is that, given her life unfolding as currently foreseen, she will find working as a paralegal very interesting and exciting. But I also saw that she would very much like to be a performer..singing or acting. The Call Back then sounded, and I thanked my Guides and returned.

Notes: The presence of the thrashing Spirit no doubt contributed to the behavioral challenges being faced in this household. Its removal and the emplacement of a Spirit Dome over the house will go a long way toward bringing comfort levels back up. But the issue of relating and empathy also will play a large role. It’s easy to forget as parents what it’s like to be so young. Sometimes growth patterns are a result of an individual’s Sacred Path, and we need to honor that as best we can.

Owl and I playing at the beginning implies that Tamika needs to be much more playful.

The fact the Being turned into a Salmon is very important. Salmon represents listening to your life’s call..getting back to the Source in spite of obstacles and dangers. It is obviously key to Tamika’s happiness and success that she listen to her inner voice and answer her own calling.

The Pine Cones are significant in that Pine Trees are the Tree of Peace and being “ever green.”

The Jamaican Boy may have meaning in that Island cultures are more Spiritually based than our culture. There may be benefit in Tamika exploring the Spirit Side of Life more deeply. She needs to know that she is a Spirit Being who has lived before and will live again, and that this life is one of many. Also, Jamaican music and/or performance may be what she is naturally drawn toward.

The image of her rejecting the water slide is very significant. Water represents the Feminine and/or Emotions. The fact she is refusing to play in and slide along the Water shows she is rejecting her feminine/emotional side..too much left-brain thinking (logical, analysis) and not enough right-brain (intuition, Spirit).

4/9/05: The Mom's response: “As for the water slide, We use to have an in-ground pool in our back yard and my daughter would not go down or near it because when she was 1 1/2, she got stung by four hornets because they had made a nest under the ladder. Also for "Don", he fits my dad' s description his name is Dana. Also about my dad Dana. I forgot to tell you about the slab. My daughter was born in 1998, and my dad and I engraved her name and birth-date along with a 1998 penny on a concrete slab that was around our pool. Oh, my daughter loves music!! I thought that was neat.”

To which I answered: “Thanks for filling me in on some of the correlations! It is always so cool. The pouting on the water slide makes so much more sense now.. VERY interesting. Perhaps Dana’s “death” as Don in my Journey was more metaphorical..a death of an era of fatherhood. Or perhaps the unease of becoming a grandfather? Was your Dad cool with all this back then? It seems to close to ignore, so there may be a deeper meaning in the coma scene. As I recall and look back at the journey, I ASSUMED the man in the coma had died..I was never told that as I look back on the scene. So you must be right concerning the name and date. This is what is so cool about being the Vessel for the Helpers. They often pass along info that I might misinterpret, but the person for whom I Journey gets the real meaning.”

I also sensed her daughter was heading into her teens..I obviously read her maturity, and this helps explain her inability to relate to people her age.

Journey 184 - Another Vision Explained

2005-04-05T21:03:00.000-04:00

4/4/05: A Journey to investigate a vision a friend had last week, concerning seeing herself standing along a singed shoreline. Beyond was a young maiden with dark hair, which was falling forward on either side as if tied, and wearing a white covering that had beading in front. As the co-worker was struggling to reach this Woman, who was beckoning for her to join her, the vision faded.

My purpose was to go to this point and take it from there, so to speak..to find out who this woman is and what she wants. After my usual preparations, I went into the Journey and found myself standing off to my co-worker's right and behind her. Things were in slow motion at this point. I turned and saw my Upper World Guide coming out of a thicketed area and joining me. This was obviously a Middle World Journey, since we had no Tunnels to go through. He came to me and said, “Just watch, Four Hawks.” So I did. I saw the woman beckoning to my co-worker, who was unable to reach the woman because, unknown to her, the co-worker was thigh deep in a very thick mud. So I walked over in front of my friend and crossed over to the Woman. As I was approaching her, I realized, much to my surprise, that this Maiden was actually a part of the co-worker's own Soul! I could not be sure if it is her Ami (“em”) or Upper World Soul, or her Suns (“soons”) or Lower World Soul. The fact the woman seems to appear in Native Dress implies genetic heritages, which would favor the Ami. Also the fact the Soul Piece is still here in the Middle World. This part must have been scared out of her..but when? The answer was not long in coming. As I reached the Maiden, she took my hand and we were immediately transported back in time to when my friend was perhaps 3-5 years old. She was running from a Hallway into the Kitchen. When she got to the table (which was barely at eye level for her), her Father or some other grown male, in argument with her Mother, slammed a fist down on the table violently. The male also had taken a swing at my friend with his left arm, either just missing her head or brushing her hair. This caused her such a start that part of her Soul fled to the back yard, and from there wandered off to where she is now. The Maiden then brought me back into the present. She took me back from where my friend had seen her and showed me a remarkable sight. The area behind her was a large and swampy. There were numerous skeletons lying on their backs, partially submerged in dank and gray water. It was fairly gruesome. I got the impression these were relatives. We went over and looked at a few of the bone sets. One resumed her living appearance for a second, and looked like an grandmother..old-fashioned clothing from the 40s, perhaps, with a dark blue box hat. We went further in, and the Maiden picked up a circular gold charm from a neck and let me read the inscription. This piece was quirt large, perhaps an inch across. I thought at first I saw an Eagle carving on it, but then a named drifted in..I never got to see it well, but it might have been “Mary”, May”or perhaps “Arins”, or something similar. I then looked up and found a male figure also hanging around..it was the Soul Piece of my friend's brother! The two of them had been supporting each other since fleeing. I was not shown when and how the other Soul Piece left. At this point, I briefly saw the head of a person wearing a poisonous gas mask..as if the swamp itself was unsafe. I then saw a Native American, dressed tribally, walking around the perimeter of this place, smoking a Pipe. He offered the Pipe to each of the Soul Pieces, and then to me. When I took in the Smoke, the dankness and drear of the area immediately disappeared. I saw the swamp transformed into a sunlit pond with lily pads and Frogs jumping around happily. I got the impression this was a caretaker presence..his job was to make sure they Smoked in order to wipe away the reality of the skeleton scene.

I then began wondering if my friend's Soul Piece wished to be restored to her. She indicated she would, but realized I could not do this in person as I have with others. So she transformed the area where my friend was into nighttime, and showed a Full Moon high above, shining down through an opening in the Trees onto where she sat. She implied that she would come back into her through the light of the Full Moon. I asked how this would be done. She told me to build a small wooden Ongon (a temporary home for Spirits) to house her Soul Piece in, which would enter by my leaving it outside at the next Full Moon. My friend was to then take her Soul Piece back into her just before throwing in onto a large fire for destruction. The Ongon was to have a picture of the Full Moon on it. This Soul Restoration would give my friend considerably more strength and solve any air-related problems she has (breathing, centering, etc). She would be able to be more in charge of herself and her life by being made whole again. The last image I saw was a bit disturbing..I saw a man jump onto a woman lying on her back near the edge of a bed, putting his arms down on either side of her shoulders, and yelling at her in a rage. The implication here may be that by restoring herself to wholeness, my friend will have more success in staving off negative male energy, whatever its source.

According to Ted Andrew’s Animal Speak: “Because of its connection to water, Frog is also linked to Lunar energies. Frogs are known to be heralds of abundance and fertility. Frog symbolizes you may need to get in tough with the water element again, especially if the waters of your own life have become dirty and stagnant. Since emotions are associated with water, people with Frog totems are ordinarily very sensitive to the emotions of others, knowing how to act and what to say. Frogs are said to bring the rains, for growing, cleansing, healing, flooding, etc. Spring and summer are its power times. Obviously Frog symbolizes transformation. Given Frogs’ strong attachment to water (the creative source) throughout their lives, Frog people can be very close to their mothers. Frog asks..are you becoming too mundane? Are you becoming mired in the mud of your day-to-day life? (my emphasis added..I read this AFTER the Journey) Are you needing to dive into some fresh and creative water? Are you waterlogged, bogged down or drowning in emotions?”

Follow-up: Upon reading this Journey, my friend was totally amazed at how true it was, how close to the mark. She thought it "amazing" a co-worker could know so much about her. Not only was the incident in her childhood validated, but the first few names I saw on the medalion rung completely true to her..they were her mother's. I reminded her I am only the Channel for the information..it is the Healers who are trying to reach her through me. I shall do the Journey to restore her Soul Piece at the next Full Moon.

4/24 I got up this morning and performed the Journey to bring back the Soul Piece. When I checked later to see how she was doing when transferring from my Mirror to the Stick Ongon I made for this purpose, I saw her sitting on a large log by a running Stream, splashing her feet in the running Water. When I told this to my friend, she told me that activity was her absolute favorite! There's no doubt this was her soul Piece, eh? :)

The Bear Dream

2005-04-04T06:13:00.000-04:00

Had an amazing dream about 1 hour ago. I had just come down a seldom used slope on one ski somewhere and ended up in my back yard, again somewhere. I went over to a low lying dish sitting on a shelf in a shed, and it was filled with food..hamburger and some other things. Surprised but glad, I took a bit to eat and some of the rest almost fell out with abundance. It was sunny. Suddenly, I heard a sound to my left, and I saw a tremendously large Black Bear come through the thick hedges there. This Bear was perfect in every way. Size, shape, color, shine, each hair in place..magnificent. I was tremendously impressed but also quite concerned. Bear came right for me, and I was quite nervous, for I know of their destructive power. I felt it wanted the food, but there I was, right in the way. So I began to walk toward the house. It was more interested in me, though, and as I climbed the wooden steps, Bear was right behind me. I was walking slowly, figuring running would be worse. When I reached the storm door, I was on the wrong side. I opened it and had to swing on its hinges in order to get to the open side..this of course took me right by the Bear’s nose. Again I hoped this would not be taken as provocation. At this point, I began to realize the Bear was not after me in violence, but in friendship. I got inside and looked back. Bear was just waiting there at the bottom of the steps like a patient but hungry doggie. I ran into the house to my bookshelf (I was now back in my youth house..where all this began with the Shaman’s Dream 3 or 4 years ago). I was rifling through the books, trying to find the one that said what Bears like to eat. At this point, in my frustration and excitement, I awoke.

This is a tremendous vision. Not only is Bear the Healer totem, it is also the “patron saint” of the Mongolian Shamanic tradition. I went back and revisited with Bear after this, and discovered it was a tremendously tall Shaman Spirit. I lay prostrate in gratitude at the Shaman’s feet. Ever since this Dream, I have been humbled and so grateful. If you look at my site, I’ve been quite busy in the Healing area for the past few days. I believe Bear has come in response, and gives me extraordinary faith that my work will result in positive change for those for whom have journeyed. This is a huge deal..very big..I’m still trying to get my arms around it, if you will. A great leap forward, and something Shamans pray for over years, if necessary. What a life-changing and amazing thrill. :)

Journeys 182/183 - Cat's Tumor/Wife's Knee revisited

2005-04-03T21:12:00.000-04:00

4/2/05: A Journey to investigate a stomach growth in my Niece’s Cat . After the usual preparation, I set up a 10-minute Drumming Loop and off I went. I found myself in a field of short and beautiful Flowers, some white, some other colors. Owl swooped in and landed on my left shoulder. The entire Earth surface then contracted into a small sphere upon which we stood. The sphere then took on the appearance of a cat’s eye, with Owl and I standing in the black pupil. We then sank down through it. We then went through the cat’s body, and soon came to where the mass in his tummy is. We looked at it. It was bloody red and bubbly, and seemingly alive with sparks. It was apparently cancerous. Owl and I decided to move into the mass and check it our further. Within we found a small, dark and amorphous Imprint darting around from here to there at great speed. It would be had to catch this one without restricting its running area. So I left the mass and sprinkled Salt all around it, to keep the Imprint isolated within the mass. I then went back into the mass and began to isolate its running area within. Once we had the Imprint “cornered”, it slowed down enough for us to realize it was a Baby Suld soul, a small Soul form a very young Human that had passed prematurely. It was obviously confused and had entered the Cat without knowing what it was doing. It was in need of guidance and companionship. I walked it out of the Cat and my Sister’s dwelling, and we began to speak. I told it how it could not live within another Being, for it was causing grave harm to it. The Soul asked me where it could live. I took it to some mature Suld souls who had become Helper Nature Spirits. But the little Baby did not want to live with strangers. It then made known its wish to stay with me. I told it I was a relatively new Shaman, and really didn’t know how to deal with a young Suld soul like it. So I suggested we go over and visit with the Grandfather Shaman Spirit I recently acquired. When we got there, I explained the problem to Grandfather. He told me that in an area we call Northern Quebec, there was a Spirit Playground devoted to young Baby Sulds like my little friend. He said that after a time, the Baby Suld would merge with 6 or 7 other Baby Souls and become a grown Nature Spirit. In this case, this Nature Spirit wil eventually come back to me and be my Helper. So we then went onto the surface of my Toli, the Shaman Mirror. It became the landscape from here to N Quebec, and we all flew along it very rapidly. We got to the Spirit playground, which was vibrant with reds, oranges and yellows, the colors of the lower Chakras involved with emotions, survival and individuation. Utawa, my Mirror Guide, was now also beside me. We watched as the Baby Suld Soul excitedly and happily ran into the area to be with others like itself. It looked at me and waved goodbye, saying it would see me again when it had matured into a full-grown Nature Spirit. We all then went back to the mass in the Cat. I tried attacking it with my Lightning-Struck Wand. It seemed to break into pieces, but it coalesced into a mass once again just as the Call Back Drum sounded. The issue was left unresolved. So, I took the Drum Loop and began it again, to finish off the task. We got back to the mass. It was now benign, having lost the dark Imprint Energy that was feeding its cancerous nature. I took out my Mirror and began to burn it with intense light from the Mirror. I watched as the solid mass turned into a more fleshy pulp..one that could be eliminated in time by the cat’s natural dissolving processes. I then focused on the Drumming, and found myself dancing around a Fire with other people sitting in attendance. They were clapping with the Drumming as I danced around as their Shaman. Utawa then merged with me, and I felt electricity run through my body. We both shape-shifted into a Hawk. We shot way up into Space, circling around, and then dove at instantaneous speed into the Fire itself. We soon emerged from the Flames unburned. The attendees watched in amazement at this sight. I believe this was my first Shamanic “miracle” before other people. I then sounded the Call Back and returned, thanking all my Helpers. I’m sure the news on the Cat will be positive tomorrow.

My 2nd Journey was to see what might be wrong with my wife’s knee, still aching after the ski incident a few weeks ago. I was able to move inside her knee, and took a close look at the ligament giving her trouble. I saw that the top portion had been spread thin a bit, as if unraveling a tightly bound stack of grass. There was also a very slight separation from the bone at the very top..nothing that needs surgery. My Meteorite Guide, Holds his Hands Out, came along and suggested I take my Meteorite and hold it toward the Knee. I did so ,and we found the ligament filling with and being surrounded by healing light. Then, my wife’s Hummingbird Power Animal came along and as opposed to extracting nectar with its long beak, it was placing nectar within the damaged areas. It was very busy, and would remain there until the knee healed. At the end of the Journey, I saw that a fabric knee brace is required to keep her from placing too much strain on the knee during the day. There was also a suggestion of placing a heating liniment on the area before placing the brace. Bottom line: corrective surgery was not indicated. Since this Journey, my wife has bought the brace and says there is no twinge activity going on anymore.

Mini-Journeys for the Pope

2005-04-02T16:49:00.000-05:00

4/1/05: I took a mini-Hollow Bone Journey late this afternoon to investigate the status of Pope John Paul. He was lying in his bed at the Vatican, and I saw his Ami and Suns Souls floating a short distance above his body. Even though they were still quite close, when both these Souls leave the physical part of our existence, it is very sickening. I knew at this point that John Paul was indeed on his way out, unless something dramatic happened to brings those Soul Parts back in.

4/2/05: A second Hollow Bone journey this morning when I arose. I went to check on the Pope, and as I entered the Bone I saw young Karol sitting at his desk in Poland, working. This is his Suld, or Earth, Soul. It will remain here. His Ami, or Upper World Soul, was sitting at the top of the Bone, waiting to fly up. His Suns, or Lower World, Soul was floating in the water, awaiting its trip home. His body was lying very still and a deep blue.. I went over to it and re-opened his Chakras so his Spirit Energy would be able to escape completely. Last Rites seal off some of these Chakra too early by making a Cross over them.

But then the most remarkable and joyous thing happened. At the far end of the Tunnel this incredible bright light appeared. A voice called out and said, “thank you, Four Hawks.” The light dimmed enough for me to see a fleeting glimpse of Jesus himself, walking toward the light. I think I saw a blue shape walking beside him on the left. The incredible brightness then returned.

This was my first actual contact with the Shaman Spirit that was Jesus! He is obviously a very powerful Tenger Spirit..a Sky Spirit who lives intact, for lack of a better word. This gives me extraordinary joy to know you, my mom, all those who pray to Jesus, are actually being heard and cared for. I am SOOOOO glad. Tearful, really. It takes a great weight off my shoulders to know those who are serious in their relationship with Shaman Jesus are actually in touch. I guess I should have known that..after all, I have felt the Holy Spirit myself well back in my past..and on an intellectual level I DID know it. But know I have seen him on a Spiritual level..and it is a great joy and relief.

4/2/05: I heard John Paul died about 40 minutes ago, so I took my last Hollow Bone Journey. As I approached the entrance of the Bone, it was hanging suspended in the Universe, surrounded by clear and innumerable, beautiful Stars. Within the Bone itself, marvelous flashes of Rainbow-colored light played across every surface. Down at the other end, like this morning, an extremely bright light. The Pope’s Ami and Suns Souls were gone, as was his Earth, Suld Soul. I went to his body and unspun his 7 main Chakras, to allow any last vestige of spirit out, then sealed each Chakra with a Cross. This final procedure is not done to honor the Christian Faith..it is how one seals a Chakra. Carol is on his way, having lived a splendid Life. We should all be so Spiritually effective. And for those of you who believe wholeheartedly in Jesus, his Spirit is still in the upper World for you..and if you approach him correctly he will no doubt come to you. My Shaman Spirits come to me..and this is what Shamanism teaches..how to make that happen. Peace.